The first 78 members of AA at a workshop called Kitchen Table AA in New Orleans, LA
OK,
so
you
know,
it
says
in
our
fifth
tradition
that
every
AA
group
ought
to
be
a
spiritual
entity.
So
let's
let's
spend
3
minutes
in
in
silence
and
just
to
bring
us
all
back
to
together
God
Grammy,
the
serenity
to
accept
the
things
that
cannot
change,
the
courage
to
change
things
they
can.
And
the
Wisdoms
know
the
defense.
So
my
name
is
Jay
Stennett
and
I
am
a
historian
of
the
spiritual
antecedents
of
this
movement
that
we
call
Alcoholics
Anonymous
and
also
a
biographer,
Bill
Wilson.
Current
thing
that
I'm
working
on
is
a
spiritual
biography
and
of
him
and
it'll
be
it's
really
been
an
amazing
process
and
how
many
people
here
have
said
well,
it
really
wasn't
a
hundred,
it
was
only
78.
OK,
the
topic
that
we've
got
here,
excuse
me,
could
you
ask
me
the
our
our
schedule
says
how
the
1st
78
came
to
be.
OK,
as
in
the
first
there
were
by
inference,
there
really
weren't
100,
there
was
only
78
when
the
big
book
came
out.
And
that's
one
of
those
pieces
for
some
folks
that
are
rather
interesting.
It's
part
of
this
thing
about,
well,
Bill
was
a
promoter.
He
wasn't
really,
you
know,
he
was,
he
was
fudging
the
numbers
to
make
things,
to
make
things
work.
And
one
of
the
reasons
why
I'm
doing
the
biography
that
I'm
doing
is
that
I,
I
feel
that
he's
pigeonholed
into
about
a
three
to
five
year
period
being
sober
three
to
five
years.
And
that's
the
only
credit
and
run
that
he
really
gets.
And
OK,
go
ahead.
OK,
this
is
from
the
forward
to
the
1st
edition.
Evidently
there's
a
lot
of
people
aren't
familiar
with
this,
but
it
says
we
have
Alcoholics
Anonymous
are
more
than
100
men
and
women
who
recovered
from
the
seemingly
hopeless
state
of
mind
and
body.
It's
the
very
first
line
and
the
preface
of
the
1st
edition.
So
the
argument
here
is
argument
is
that
there
really
were
not
100.
Bill
Wilson
rounded
it
up
by
about
1/3
from
75
or
so
to
100.
I
think
that
this
topic
is
not
of
that
much
interest
to
the
group.
So
we
may
make
this
really,
really
quick.
OK,
since
it's
on
here,
we'll
just
say
that
this
was
general
weirdness
by
the
folks
who
put
this
thing
together
and
we'll
go
to
go
to
go
to
some
other
topics.
But
one
of
the
things
that
I've
been
fortunate
enough
to
do
is
I
created
with
my
friend
Bill
Shaver
from
Fairfield,
CT,
the
symposium
on
a
a
history.
And
starting
in
2014,
we,
we
annually
get
together
with
people
that
are
doing
primary
research
into
the
history
of
Alcoholics
Anonymous.
So
we're
not
stuck
with,
well,
my
sponsor
told
me
that
when
blah,
blah,
blah,
blah,
blah,
we're
working
with
people
that
are
using
primary
documents
and
doing
primary
research.
And
by
that
it's
only
you
need
two
pieces
of
evidence
that
say
exactly
the
same
thing
that
are
verifiable
at
the
time,
OK.
And
so
anyway,
a
couple
years
ago,
we
had
our
friend
John
Barton
come
out
from
New
Jersey
as
an
archivist
in
New
Jersey.
And
he
actually
went
through
and
collated
all
the
data
and
lo
and
behold,
it
was
much
more
than
what
it
was
that,
you
know,
there
was
at
least
100
people.
I've
got
the
names.
I've
got
their
sobriety
dates.
They
come
from
three,
three
separate
lists
of
people.
Doesn't
seem
to
be
something
that's
this
big
of
a
deal
to
this
group.
But
you
know,
with
the
sobriety
idiots,
with
all
the
different
back
and
forth,
they
were
able
to
verify
by
name.
By
name,
not
numbers.
By
name.
The
1st
100
people
that
over
61
of
them
stayed
sober
from
the
gate
and
another
13
after
having
a
few
drinks
here
and
there
did
indeed
stay
sober
after
that.
So
two
out
of
three.
And
so
just
just
to
let
you
know
that
those
numbers
are
indeed
there
was
one
thing
that
was
another
interesting
thing
that
he
said.
And
one
of
the
documents
that
he
uses
is
that
Bill
Wilson
had
a
first
edition
book
that
he
wrote
the
person's
name
and
their
sobriety
dating
and
also
on
the
Backpage
other
people
that
came
in
and
he
listed
them
as
ones
twos
and
threes.
One
is
people
that
came
and
stayed
sober.
Two
is
people
that
came
and
had
a
couple
of
slips
along
the
way.
And
three
was
what
they
called
failure.
So
like
Hank
Parker's
the
unbeliever
in
the
in
the
first
book,
who
was
really
the
driving
force
behind
the
the
writing
of
the
book.
I
mean
he
was
a
Co
founder
of
a
a
straightforward
but
he
drank
in
1939
and
never
sobered
again.
So
he
was
a
failure.
But
in
this
bill
says
that
he
says
I've
placed
here
as
failures
5
who
attended
three
or
four
meetings
at
most.
So
I
have
this
100
people,
he's
counting
his
failures,
people
who
only
attended
a
few
meetings.
These
men,
I
feel
were
exposed
to
her
idea,
did
not
take
the
treatment.
If
we
leave
those
out,
who
really?
If
we
include
only
those
who
really
tried
the
program
for
three
months
or
more,
our
percentage
of
success
climbs
to
72.2%.
Two
out
of
three?
Three
out
of
four.
Excuse
me
Now
the
thing
that's
interesting
to
me
about
that
statement,
what
does
he
say
is
really
trying
90
days
of
going
to
meetings?
Is
that
where
90
meetings
and
going
to
90
meetings
and
90
days
started?
No,
because
they
didn't
have
90
meetings.
But
90
days
being
a
shot
at
really
being
exposed
to
the
thing
for
90
days
was
really
trying.
Not
having
a
sponsor,
working
the
step,
blah,
blah.
You
know,
all
the
wonderful
things
that
I've
said
at
different
times.
This
is
what
really
trying
means.
But
anyway,
so
that's
a
little
thing
on
the
1st
78.
I
don't
think
we
need
any
more
than
that.
Anybody
got
any
questions?
Yeah.
Was
it
really
78
or
was
there
a
hundred?
There
was
a
hundred.
You
want
the
names?
They're
right
here.
No,
I
mean
that's
it.
There
were
there
were
100
and
and
if
anybody's
got
a,
a,
a
history
question,
I
don't
mean
to
seem
irritated
about
that,
but
it's
just
one
of
those
things
that
that
I'm
sorry
if
if
we're
not
using
the
time
to
be
more,
more
helpful
to
to
more
people,
but
it
is
what
part
in
in
history
did
is
there
like
more
women
start
going
in
and
more
people
that
weren't
that
1st.
Well,
the
explosion.
So
the,
the
question
was
when
did
Alcoholics
Anonymous
start
to
grow
demographically?
I
would
say
that
we
could
probably
say
about
1945
to
1948,
Nineteen
48
after
the
Second
World
War.
Well,
actually,
the,
the,
the,
the
most
precise
answer
would
be
the
movement
only
starts
to
grow
after
Jack
Alexander's
article
in
the
Saturday
Evening
Post.
And
that
blew
the
thing
up
nationwide
and
it
changed
everything
about
the
about
the
movement.
But
after
the
Second
World
War,
you've
got
a
huge
because
a
lot
of
people
that
were
in
the
Army,
they've
gone
back
home.
And
then
Alcoholics
Anonymous
is
still
getting
into
one
or
two
major
magazines
a
year.
People
are
hearing
more
about
it.
The
movie
comes
out.
I,
I
don't
know
when
that
I
don't,
I
don't
think
the
last
weekend
comes
out
till
about
55
or
58
with
Ray
Milan.
But
but
anyway,
so
the,
but
I'd
say
after
the
Second
World
War
is
when
it
really
blew
up.
We're
from
an
area
in
Southern
California
where
in
1948
there's
probably
200
meetings
just
in
a
small
area
around
Los
Angeles.
I
think
the
other
thing
you
got
to
consider
to
you
when
you
talk
about
when
did
it
open
up
and
it
was
more
than
just
gutter
drunks.
The
guys
that
founded
this
thing
were
not
gutter
drunks,
you
know.
They
were
mostly
white,
middle
class
professional
guys
that
had
drank
their
souls,
drank
their
souls
away.
But
you're
not
talking
about
guys
off
the
Bowery,
You
know,
it
was
very
middle
class
is
very
white.
And
they
had
a
real
struggle
of
letting
other
people
in.
You
know,
there's
a,
we
could
get
into
some
stories,
I
think
my,
my
esteemed
historian
friend
here
maybe
maybe
the
difference
between
Akron
and
New
York
and
that
is
quite
different
and
the
folks
that
are
coming
in.
But
yes,
Sir.
That
100
that
you
mentioned.
Really
like
about
Doctor
Bob.
Crossing
racial
barriers?
So
out
of
curiosity,
out
of
that
100
that
you
mentioned,
how
many
were
Afro
Americans
or
women
in
this
first
hundred?
I
don't,
I
think
we've
got
maybe
three
or
four
women.
I
don't
know.
There
isn't
any.
There
isn't
any
notation
about
any
beauty
being
African
American.
But
given
the
fact
that
it's
1939,
I
I
doubt
that
we've
got
any
African
American
members
coming
in
yet.
How
many
people
here
ever
listen
to
XA
radio?
Do
I
mean
XA
speakers.org?
There's
a
website
itscalledxaml-a-speakers.com
org.
There
is
a
great
treasure
called
on
there.
There's
a
guy
by
the
name
of
Barry
L
The
talks
in
Montreal
in
1980
and
it's
to
the
first
gay
and
lesbian
meeting
in
an
International
Convention.
And
in
it
he
tells
the
story
because
he
was
the
guy
at
the
door
when
Veronica,
which
is
they
called
him
Veronica
'cause
he
was
wearing
the
blonde
wig.
The
African
American
transsexual
or
not
transsexual
but
but
cross
dressing
junkie
alcoholic
shows
up
and
he's
there
and
he
tells
the
story
about
what
that
whole
thing
and
how
it
came
down.
And
it's
a
lovely
story
and
that,
but
the
punchline
in
it
is
they
call
Bill
up
and
he
goes
to
his
lit,
you
know,
guy
and
he's
like,
and
Bill
says,
is
he
alcoholic?
And
the
guy
says
clearly,
he
says
that's
the
only
question
we
can
ask.
Well,
then
that's,
that's
the
beauty
of
the
traditions,
right?
And
Bill
pushed
very
hard
for
the
traditions
and
they
didn't
really
weren't
welcome
because
it
was
changing
or,
but
if
you
think
about
how
we're
all
here
today,
because
the
only
requirement
for
a
A
is
a
desire
to
stop
drinking.
You
don't
even
have
to
stop
drinking
to
be
a
member
of
Alcoholics
Anonymous
or
a
lot
of
us
wouldn't
be
here
because
it
took
a
while.
But
that
came
from
forged
wisdom
based
on
many
mistakes,
like
much
of
the
traditions.
If
you
read
why
they're
there,
it's
'cause
they
tried
the
opposite
and
it
didn't
work.
I'm
sorry,
there's
a
great
story
too,
but
Wilson
went
to
a
prison
and
out
of
that
prison,
he,
there's
a
couple
of
guy
black
guys
there
that
he
invited
to
the
meeting.
They
show
up
and
the
rest
of
the
guys
in
the
meeting
didn't
want
him
in
there
and
they
took
a
vote
and
voted
not
to
have
them
be
in
the
meeting.
So
Wilson,
in
his
brilliance,
goes
back
into
the
room.
He
takes
the
guys
out,
puts
them
in
the
kitchen,
goes
back
in
the
room,
and
he
says,
let's
take
another
vote.
Whether
black
people
should
have
the
program,
should
they
have
the
program
like
we
do?
And
they
all
voted
well,
of
course.
And
he
goes,
great,
I'm
going
to
bring
them
in
as
observers
so
they
can
carry
it
to
their
community.
And
he
brought
him
in.
I
think
I
love
that
story.
That's
Wilson.
Yes,
Sir,
it
talks
about
somebody.
I've
heard
different
versions.
I've
heard
that
it
was
maybe
Marty
Mann.
This
ones
in
Akron,
also
this
ones
in
Akron.
Veronica
is
in
New
York.
The
reason
I
mentioned
Veronica
is,
is
that
we've
got
a
guy
that
was
there
telling
the
story
about
this
type
of
thing.
The
story
that's
in
the
12
and
12
is
from
Akron,
and
that's
the
one
where
Bob
says,
and
again,
it's
he's
a
sex
Stevie
homosexual,
not
one
that
could
pass.
I
mean,
it's
that
bad.
And
so,
well,
no,
I
mean,
there's
this
whole
thing
and
there's,
there's,
there's
a
whole
we
just
this
past
it'll
be
available
on
it'll,
it'll
be
available
for
you
to
download
the
whole
conference,
the
2016
conference
for
20
bucks.
But
we
had
a
woman
give
a,
a
talk
on
the
1st
LBTQ
members
of
Alcoholics
Anonymous
and
she
tells,
you
know,
that
she
told
she
went
through
this
very
weird
thing
with
her
weird
thing
where
they're
talking
about
how
the
whole
thing
in
those
days
was
being
able
to
pass.
That's
the
only
way
you
could
survive.
But
there
were
some
people
that
just
were
they
couldn't,
they
couldn't
pass.
And
this
guy
that
showed
up
in
Akron
was
somebody
that
couldn't
pass.
And
and
he
said,
Bob,
I'm
a
sex
deviant.
Not
only
that,
I
got
that.
I'm
a
drug
addict.
And,
you
know,
and
and
so
they
went
through
this
thing
and,
you
know,
they're
going
to
have
the
vote.
And
Bob
says
after
everybody,
it's
really
clear
that
they're
going
to
boot
this
guy
out.
And
then
Bob
lays
the
line
on
him.
What
would
the
master
do?
And
everybody
goes
let
him
in,
Of
course.
You
know.
So
that's
the.
Yeah.
Well,
isn't
it
true
they
didn't
want
women
in
originally
because
the
men
would
sleep
with
them?
Well,
no.
That
was
Bob.
Bob.
Bob
Smith
is
the
guy
who
said
behind
every
skirt
there's
a
slip.
Yeah.
And.
And
yeah,
he
didn't,
He
didn't
he.
He
was
not
interested
in
it
being
open
to
women.
And
we
all
know
that
the
truth
is
the
men
aren't
safe
because
now
there's
women
in
here.
It's
my
experience.
If
you
would
tell
the
story,
I
have
a
question
that
I've
always
wanted
to
ask.
I've
read
somewhere
that
Bill
had
gone
to
Ohio
and.
He
wanted
to
see
why
the
program
seemed
to
be
they
more
people
seem
to
be
staying
sober
in
Ohio
than
were
staying
sober
in
New
York.
And
what
I
read
was
that
Claire
Snyder
said
to
Bill,
it's
because
in
Ohio
the
program
is
trust
God
clean
house,
help
others.
And
in
New
York,
the
program
was
don't
drink
and
go
to
meetings.
And
I
have
personal
experience
with
a
lot
of
no
drinks.
It
didn't
work
so
well.
And
I
always
wanted
to
know
what
that
was
true.
You
know,
I,
I,
I
think
that
really
the,
if
you
take
a
look
at
it,
everybody
that
comes
in
in
Akron
just
about
is
going
through
a
hospital
with
a
doctor.
It
gives
an
entirely
different
credence
than
the
guys
that
are
doing
stuff
at
Clinton
St.
It's
an
entirely
different
thing.
They,
they
came
up
with
a
medical
protocol.
People
are
coming
from
all
over
for
that.
It's
a
medical
deal
in
New
York.
They
don't
have
that.
And
that's
why
the
skew.
I
mean,
the
Prince
of
the
12
steppers,
they
showed
up
in
his
work
for
Christ
sake.
You
know,
I
mean,
we
can
get
into
all
that
structure
of
the
meeting
with
what
that
had
to
do
with,
but
I
don't,
I
don't
the
the
primary
documents
that
I
have
about
the
structure
of
the
meetings
of
what
they
were
doing
with
people
in
New
York
in
19381939.
They're
getting
them
down
on
their
knees
there
too,
you
know?
But
it's
not
that
that's
not
part
of
the
popular
thing.
You
know,
it's
this
Doctor
Bob's
been
hijacked
by
a
bunch
of
people
that
had
an
agenda
and
he
was
a
much
more
open
minded
person
than
than
than
he's
giving
credit
for.
But
I
think
it's
I
think
it's
really
medical
protocol
more
than
anything.
We
had
a
patient
man
waiting
here.
Go
ahead.
This
is
an
honest
question.
Is
a
still
growing
track.
The
public
estimate,
General
Service
office
of
the
inventories
of
90s
numbers
were
flat
for
at
least
10
or
10
years,
or
2
million.
Yeah.
And
I
wondered.
Yeah.
OK,
so
the
answer
is
absolutely.
You,
Sir,
appear
to
be
part
of
a
generation
of
people
that
came
through.
They
had
three
generations
of
Alcoholics
that
if
they
had
insurance,
all
got
swept
into
a
A
simultaneously.
It's
a
tsunami
that
will
never
ever
happen
again.
You
will
never
have
that
kind
of
a
peak.
You
won't
have
it
#1
#2
Personally,
my
experiences,
especially
internationally,
the
Cocaine
Anonymous
is
incredibly
effective.
The
people
that
would
have
been
that
were
coming
to
AA
in
the
early
mid
80s,
they've
got
their
own
separate
fellowship
now.
So
I
mean,
yeah,
it's
flat,
but
you've
got
another
15
maybe
anonymous
groups
that
have
started
up
In
our
Home
group,
the
Monday
Night
Men
Stagger,
Hermosa
Beach.
When
I
joined
the
Home
group,
the
median
age
was
what,
40
maybe?
Or
35?
And
it
was
100
people
roughly.
Since
I
joined,
a
couple
of
groups
have
taken
big
chunks
out
of
the
meeting
out
of
resentment,
which
we
find
perfectly
fine
and
we
will
discuss
later.
But
they
go
start
their
own
meetings
and
now
the
median
age
is
in
the
20s,
easy
because
we
have
teenagers.
So
that's
how
things
grow,
right?
The
youth
and
there
was,
you
know,
there's
there's
a
lot
of
reasons
that
happen,
but
these
guys
are
carrying
the
message
like
nobody's
business,
you
know.
And
you
met
one
of
them.
If
you
met
Josh
when
he
was
out
here
before
he
came
in
very
young
and
came
to
our
group
with
that
influx
of
youth
and
they
took
over
our
damn
meeting.
Glad
they
let
me
still
come.
Yeah,
we
have
to
send
it
money
sometimes
underwrite
is
I
lost
the
war.
You
know,
the
other
thing
that
you
have
to
consider
when
you're
looking
at
the
statistics
that
come
out
of
New
York,
you
really
have
to
look
at
how
the
census
is
compiled,
you
know,
structurally,
how
do
they
actually
do
it?
One
of
the
things,
and
there's
a
great
report,
you
know,
the
recovery
statistics
that
I'd
be
happy
to
send
you
if
you
if
you
really
that
interested,
you
can
pour
over
it
and
it's
very
enlightening.
It's
hard
to
get
through
because
it's
statistics.
You
know
what
they
did
twice
is
they
changed
the
basis
for
gathering
the
numbers.
Well,
as
you
know,
as
anybody
that
went
to
school
knows,
if
you've
changed
it,
you
just
start
over
now
because
you've
changed
how
it's
compiled
and
they've
done
that
twice.
If
you
take
that
and
you
combine
it
with
the
number
of
12
step
programs,
dependent
upon
what
list
you
look
at,
it's
100
and
5200,
maybe
even
300
different
12
step
programs.
Now
you
look
at
cocaine
Anonymous,
Narcotics
Anonymous,
you
know,
there's
heroin
anonymous
now
that's
very
big
in
Phoenix.
You
know,
I,
I,
I
spoke
at
their
first,
their
fundraiser
for
their
first
International
Convention.
They
filled
this
hall.
Remember
that
they,
I,
I
couldn't
believe
it.
And
the,
and
the
reason
for
it
is,
is
a
couple
of
guys
from
a,
a
started
this
thing
because
they
go
into
prisons.
They
say
the
A
a
meetings
here
and
nobody
would
come.
So
one
of
them
got
a
bright
idea
being
creative
as
we
are.
You
know,
he
walks
in,
he
goes,
we're
heroin
anonymous.
They
filled
the
room
and
these
guys
were
60
years
old
and
started
this
over
3035
years
sober.
Jan
Black's
husband
and
another
guy
and
they
just,
I
mean
it
just
so
they
started
having
meetings
on
the
outside
for
when
these
guys
get
out.
They
could
come
to
meetings,
right.
And
then
you're
not
talking
about
the
old
line
heroin
addict,
the
guy
that
sleeve
tattooed
from
head
to
toe
biker
and
he's
a
gangster.
These
are
kids.
These
are
children,
you
know,
Yeah,
fun
loving
criminals
with
tattoos.
And,
you
know,
but
it's
not
it's
not
the
same
kind
of
heroin
addict
that
I
grew
up
with,
you
know?
So
we've
addressed
the
marketplace.
Now.
There
would
have
been
a
time
where
all
of
these
guys
would
be
trying
to
assimilate
into
Alcoholics
Anonymous.
So
I
think
if
you
want
to
see
the
growth
in
recovery
from
addictive
diseases,
you
have
to
look
at
the
entire
thing.
If
you
look
at
the
entire
thing,
it's
gone
through
them
roof
the
number
of
people
that
are
in
recovery.
Well,
and
I
don't
want
to
open
this
can
of
worms
too
wide,
but
you
know,
there's
been
some
articles
lately
in
psychology
magazines
about
the
effectiveness
of
Alcoholics
Anonymous.
And,
you
know,
I
work
in
medicine
and
I
work
in
clinical
trials.
I
study
clinical
trials
for
my
job.
And
the
only
thing
I
have
to
say
about
those
articles
is,
first
of
all,
they're
written
with
the
person
who
has
the
agenda.
The
therapy's
more
successful
than
a
A
and
secondly,
how
many
people
have
been
to
a
therapist
only
once
and
didn't
do
anything
they
said?
So
I
wonder
if
they
lump
them
into
the
statistical
group.
Right.
So
if
we
took
went
around
in
the
street
and
said,
have
you
been
to
an
AA
meeting?
Lots
and
lots
of
people
might
say
yes
and
they
go,
are
you
still
sober?
No,
okay,
it
doesn't
work.
It
doesn't
work.
A
doesn't
work.
Hey,
well,
did
you
stay
for
three
months
and
get
a
sponsor
and
work
all
12
steps?
That's
a
different
statistical
analysis
then.
Do
they
include
every
single
person
that
went
to
one
therapy
session
didn't
do
anything
they
said?
I
doubt
it.
I
think
they
include
somebody
who
went
through
that.
So
I
think
we
don't
get
into
that
controversy.
The
proof
that
a
A
works
is
right
here.
Another
thing
on
this,
just
because
I
have
experience,
one
of
the
things
I
do
is
I
go
to
the
international.
When
I
go
to
the
international,
one
of
the
things
I
do
is
I
go
to
different
meetings
that
have
different
things.
And
one
of
medicine
and
A,
A
is
always
a
fascinating,
fascinating
one.
And
at
this
latest
one
in
Atlanta,
they
had
Doctor
Leonard
Blumenthal
give
a
presentation
on
the
match
study.
And
the
match
study
has
been
going
on
now
for
25
years,
statistically
double-blind
thing.
And
they
have
proven
the
12
step
recovery
is
superior
to
any
other
form
of
therapy,
therapy,
whatever
in
that.
And
we're
talking
about
the
high-priced
analysis
that
only
a
few
people
can
get.
So
I
mean,
we've
got
the
numbers,
but
as
a
membership,
we're
not
aware
of
that.
We
just
hear
the
stuff
from
the
outside.
Thank
you.
They
have
no
idea
how
many
meetings
there
are,
much
less
how
many
people
are
in
a
A.
I'm
telling
you
they
have
no
idea
when
you
study
how
they
compile
the
census.
I'm
sorry
like
unless
I
read
it
wrong
somewhere
it
never
said
OK
work
step
step
one
for
a
certain
amount
of
days
or?
Interesting
question.
The
question
is,
is
there
any,
any
data
that
in
the
old
days
that
people
work
steps
more
quickly
or
or
any
any
any
prescribed
thing?
No,
not
only
that
the
guy
who
wrote
the
steps
said
the
steps
are
only
to
be
taken
in
whatever
order
and
how
ever
many
is
between
that
man
and
his
God.
I
think
he
should
be
fired.
Kick
him
out
right
now.
You're
killing
Alcoholics.
You
say
that
I
got
the
letter,
but
that's
always
brings
up
whenever
I
hear
somebody
at
an
AA
meeting
say
why
work
the
steps?
I
could
do
a
lot
of
jail
and
prison
work
now,
right?
Because
I
was
trying
to
get
connected.
I
worked
Ed
past
tense
the
steps.
I
immediately
discount
whatever
comes
out
of
their
mouth
next
because
I've
read
this
literature
and
it
cost
and
throughout
the
steps.
This
is
a
lifetime
job.
This
is
goes
on
forever.
This
is
not
like
you
work
the
steps.
The
steps
is
a
dynamic
thing.
You
know,
we're
still
sitting
here.
I'm
going
to
do
a
fifth
step
with
him
on
May
16th,
right?
It's
in
the
books
and
we
we
did
it.
These
steps
are
if
you
want
to
evolve
spiritually,
you
don't
stop,
you
know,
following
the
map.
So
I
that,
that's
the,
that's
just
my
two
cents
about
that.
I
was
getting
kind
of
turned
off
by
that.
No,
no,
no.
It
was
somebody
that
had
left
the
meetings
and
they
knew
was
drinking.
OK,
so
there's
one.
One
was
still
sober.
We
know
where
they
are.
Two
was
after
a
few
slips
had
come
back
and
stuck.
Three
was
what
they
called
a
failure
and
also
lumped
in
the
failure
of
the
of
the
100
people,
there
were
17
that
were
missing.
So
they
counted
them
as
a
failure
because
they
weren't
connected
any
other.
Brent,
78.
I've
got
three
different
lists,
one
from
Bill
Wilson,
one
from
Akron
and
Doctor
Bob's
Hand
and
the
other
one
from
Chicago,
the
pre
1940
that
shows
the
names
of
the
sobriety
dates
of
the
people.
He
just
wondering
where
the
myth
of
the
78
came
from.
Certain
a
historians
have
been
known
to
say
it.
Yeah,
yeah.
This
is,
this
is
called
making
amends
at
a
public
level.
No,
it's
true.
I
mean,
I,
I
can't,
I
can't
tell
you
how
much
over
the
years
that
as
I've
gone
further
and
further
into
the
primary
documents,
I
found
out
that
some
of
the
things
that
I
was
most
vociferous
about,
you
know,
and
that
I,
I
was,
I
was
very,
very
clear
about
from
the
data
that
I
could
collect.
None
of
which,
though,
was
primary
document.
Then
I
there's
another
one
that
that's
this
thing
about
Bill
being
a
womanizer.
It's
it's
a
canard.
There's
nothing
to
it.
The
man
had
a
mistress.
Do
you
know
what
a
mistress
is?
I
didn't
know
because
I'm
a
feminist.
I
always
thought
it
was
a
bad
word.
It's
a
long
term
love
affair
with
somebody
other
than
your
spouse
that
is
known
by
all
parties.
This
idea
that
when
Bill
went
out
there
was
a
old
timers
watch
that
watched
him.
It's,
it
comes
from
one
guy
and
you
can,
you
can
follow
the
evidence
to
find
out
where
it
came
from.
And
it's,
it's,
it's
just
not
true.
Part
of
where
the
78
came
from
is
Bill
and
Bob
sat
down
and
made
a
list,
a
handwritten
list
of
people
that
they
knew
that
were
sober,
questionable
or
the
one
twos
and
threes,
and
they
came
up
with
45
names.
And
they
got
really
excited
by
that.
Like,
this
thing
is
working
now.
This
is
early
on
1936.
Yeah.
And
so
from
the
78th
that
you're
asking
the
question,
where
did
that
come
from?
Well,
a
lot
of
people
knew
about
that
list.
I
think
probably
just
added
a
few
more
as
time
had
gone
on
because
they
wrote
that
preface
in
39,
deferred
to
the
1st
edition,
you
know.
So
when
he
says
that
there
was
a
hundred,
that
just
automatically
took
exception
to
that.
Somebody
came
up,
said
there
weren't
100.
I've
heard
78,
I've
heard
72,
you
know.
But
I
repeated
it
too,
for
a
long
time.
You
know,
I
made
kind
of
a
joke
out
of
it.
The
Bill
was
a
promoter,
you
know.
And
when
I
heard
that,
I
was
there
at
that
presentation
too,
and
I
talked
to
the
guy
for
a
long
time
afterwards.
He
actually
found
that
handwritten
list
by
Bill
in
a
box
in
somebody's
attic.
You
know,
he
found
the
original
list.
You
should
have
seen
how
thrilled
when
he
told
the
story.
He
was
like
a
little
kid
in
the
candy
story.
He
pulls
out,
he
goes,
Oh
my
God,
here
it
is,
You
know,
and
then
he
didn't
tell
the
guy
whose
box
it
was
'cause
he
said,
oh,
this
is
interesting.
Can
I
have
a
copy?
So,
you
know,
I
mean
it
just,
it
came
out
of
somebody
pulled
it
out
of
their
butt.
Yes,
Sir,
broad
question.
But
I
guess
I,
I've
always
gotten
the
sense
from
people
I've
talked
to
that
a,
the
program
has
changed
a
lot.
But
I
also
hear
from
different
people
that
people
very
quickly
or
all
in
the
day
tend
to
get
a
sense
that
there
used
to
be
this
very
pure
program
and
then
we're
ruining
it
every
day
now.
So
we
have
not
grown
in
effectiveness
and
understanding
since
Clarence
Snyder
quit
working
with
people
in
Cleveland.
He's
kidding.
How
real
is
that?
Obviously,
but
has
how
people
work
the
program
change
in
the
last?
Well,
that's
what
I'm
sorry.
That's
that's
what
this
whole
thing
is
about
is
about
the
difference
in
the
way
that
we
have
we
were
given
the
program
and
how
we've
gone
about
more
in
a
unified
way
sharing
it,
but
we
each
with
our
own
flavor.
But
this
is
I'm
very
much
at
a
third
edition
guy.
I'm
I
was
I
was
given
the
program
before
the
hospital
programs
were
telling
us
Alcoholics
Anonymous
was
I
was
there
with
the
reaction
to
that
when
we're
in
meeting
stance
over
and
a
guy
comes
in
and
says
I've
been
in
this
hospital
and
they
told
me
I
got
five
years
worth
of
sobriety
information
of
sobriety
and
that
that's
what
they
were.
They
were
they
were
they
were
sent
out
into
the
meetings.
But,
but
back
to
the,
the
people
have
worked
the
steps
in
the
day.
I
took
three
weeks
to
to
to
get
to
get
going.
But
it
was
a
different
time
in
a
different
era.
We
were
busy
working
with
drugs.
We
didn't
have
time
to
spend
a
lot
of
time
on
self
reflection.
This
whole
idea
of
self
examination
and
the
way
we
know
it
today
was,
I
mean,
a
fifth
step.
I
mean,
one
of
the
reasons
why
the
Catholic
Church
was
very,
very
hesitant
about
supporting
Alcoholics
Anonymous
was
it
was
people
hearing
confession
who
were
not
qualified
to
hear
it.
Now,
this
is
pre
cycle.
I
mean,
psychology's
out,
but
it's
not
stuff
that
you're
here,
you're
learning
about
in
school
and
the
like.
The
people
are
talking
about
things
that
have
never
been
spoken
about
openly
in
society
so
well.
And,
you
know,
the
wisdom
of
the
founders
and
the
humility
of
this
promoter
we
keep
bagging
on
was
we
realize
we
know
only
a
little
more
will
be
revealed,
right?
That's
wisdom
because
they
had
watched
what
happened
and
knew
they
weren't
responsible
for
the
whole
thing.
And
Bobby
Zance
answered
this
question.
Basically
your
question
is
has
a
a
lost
its
edge,
right?
And
we
the
rest
that
last
time
we
were
here.
And
if
you
didn't,
it
was
seven
years
ago.
Get
the
tapes.
You
talk
a
lot
about
that.
But
one
of
the
things
that
he
said
that
I
think
is
so
perfect
is
he
said,
you
know,
beware
of
orthodoxy
and
Alcoholics
Anonymous.
The
thing
that
keeps
Alcoholics
Anonymous
honest
is
alcohol.
As
long
as
there
are
people
dying
of
alcoholism,
there
has
to
be
some
place
to
go
to
recover.
And
we
are
all
sitting
in
this
room
a
long
time
after
this
program
was
founded.
And
I
can
say
without
unequivocally,
I
am
in
pure
recovery,
right?
And
I'm,
and
Josh
is
20
years
younger
than
me.
He's
in
pure
recovery.
That's
available
because
it's
needed.
And
and
if
you,
if
you
have
that
feeling
that
it's,
it's
losing
its
edge,
be
the
change
you
want
to
see.
But
we
don't
we
we
go
all
over
the
world
and
believe
me,
there
are
strong
a
a
soldiers
everywhere.
And
we
can
send
you
the
statistical
stuff
about
this.
I
mean,
it's
it's
really
this
guy's
been.
I'm
sorry.
Yeah,
he's.
Well,
that's
a
question
and
repeat
the
question.
OK.
The
question
is
why
is
it
that
the
Akron
manual
is
not
as
disciplined
JG
is
not
a
is
not
a
readily
available
piece
of
literature
and
as
as
like
the
12
and
12
is
your
wife.
So
how
many
people
have
heard
of
the
Acker
manual?
Oh,
pull
it
out,
big
guy.
I
got
it.
OK.
Bill's
going
to
do
about
5
minutes.
I'll
do
a
little
setup
for
you.
The
Big
Book
of
Alcoholics
Anonymous
comes
out.
Akron
had
nothing
to
do
with
the
writing
of
the
Big
Book.
How's
that
for
a
little
controversy?
It's
a
New
York
deal,
and
they
didn't
like
those.
They
want
any
part
of
it,
any
part
of
it.
The
book
comes
out,
Bob
takes
a
look
at
it
that
says
it's
not
going
to
help
the
blue
collared
man.
We
need
something.
So
he
gets
his
friend
Ernie,
his
fishing
buddy,
to
write
a
few
things.
And
they
were
called
the
acronym.
And
why
don't
you
do
that?
And
I'll
do,
I'll
do
spiritual
monster.
OK,
so
this
is
written.
This
is
written.
This
is
the
Akron
response
to
The
Big
Book
and
you're
still
available.
You
can
get
it
online
from
the
accurate
intergroup.
You
can
Google
it
online,
but
give
money
to
the
Akron
intergroup
because
they
need
it
and
they're
really
good
people,
OK.
And
so
this
is
this
is
what
they
were
doing
as
opposed
to
the
the
Big
Book.
One
of
the
things
people
ask
about
sponsorship,
it's
not
in
the
book
or,
you
know,
it's
because
the
book
was
designed
for
people
that
couldn't
have.
19401941
something
like
that.
OK,
these
are
just
excerpts
in
Iraq
and
men,
you
might
get
a
kick
out
of
this,
but
it
says
here.
Explain
that
we
are
not
in
the
business
of
sobering
up
drunks
merely
to
have
them
go
on
another
Bender.
Explain
that
our
aim
is
total
and
permanent
sobriety.
There's
never
any
mention
of
one
day
at
a
time
in
this
thing.
Definition
of
an
Alcoholic
Anonymous.
An
Alcoholic
Anonymous
is
an
alcoholic
who,
through
application
of
an
adherence
to
the
rules
laid
down
by
the
organization,
has
completely
forceworn
the
use
of
any
and
all
alcoholic
beverages.
The
moment
he
wittingly
takes
a
drink
so
much
as
a
drop
of
beer,
wine,
spirits,
or
any
other
alcoholic
drink,
he
automatically
loses
all
status
as
a
member
of
Alcoholics
Anonymous.
What
about
kombucha
A.
A
is
not
A.
A
is
not
interested
in
sobering
up
drunks
who
are
not
sincere
in
their
desire
to
ring
completely
sober
at
all
time
to
the
newcomer.
It
is
your
life,
It
is
your
choice.
If
you
are
not
completely
convinced
to
your
own
satisfaction
that
you
are
an
alcoholic,
that
your
life
has
become
unmanageable,
if
you
are
not
ready
to
part
with
alcohol
forever.
It
would
be
better
for
all
concerned
if
you
discontinue
reading
this
and
give
up
the
idea
becoming
a
member
of
Alcoholics
Anonymous.
You're
out,
loser.
You'll
love
this
ladies
to
the
ladies
which
are
very
separate
from
the
God.
Different
kinds
of
Alcoholics.
Evidently.
If
we
seem
to
slight
you
in
this
booklet,
it
is
not
intentional.
We
merely
use
the
masculine
pronouns
he
and
him
for
convenience.
We
fully
realize
that
alcohol
shows
no
partiality.
It
does
not
respect
age,
sex,
nor
estate.
The
millionaire
drunk
on
the
best
Scotch
and
the
poor
man
drunk
on
the
cheapest
rock
gut
look
like
twin
brothers
when
they
are
in
a
hospital
bed
or
the
gutter.
The
only
difference
between
a
female
and
male
drunk
is
that
the
former
is
likely
to
be
treated
with
a
little
more
consideration
and
courtesy,
although
generally
she
does
not
deserve
it.
Get
in
the
car.
Every
word
in
this
pamphlet
applies
to
women
as
well
as
men.
A
word
to
the
sponsor.
You
must
fulfill
all
pledges
you
make
to
him,
either
tangible
or
intangible.
If
you
cannot
fulfill
a
promise,
do
not
make
it.
You
have
in
your
hands
the
most
valuable
property
in
the
world,
the
future
of
a
fellow
man.
Treat
his
life
as
carefully
as
you
would
your
own.
You
are
literally
responsible
for
his
life.
That's
pretty
heavy.
Alcoholics
Anonymous
is
100%
effective
for
those
who
faithfully,
faithfully
follow
the
rules.
It
is
those
who
try
to
cut
corners
who
find
themselves
back
in
their
old
drunken
state.
Before
long
you
will
have
a
new
thrill,
the
thrill
of
helping
someone
else.
There
is
no
greater
satisfaction
in
the
world
than
watching
the
progress
of
a
new
Alcoholic
Anonymous.
No
whiskey
in
the
world
can
give
you
this
thrill.
Above
all,
remember
this.
Keep
the
rules
in
mind.
As
long
as
you
follow
them,
you
are
on
firm
ground,
but
the
least
deviation
and
you
are
vulnerable.
Big
about
rules
and
structure.
As
a
new
member,
remember
that
you
were
one
of
the
most
important
cogs
in
the
machinery
of
a
A.
Without
the
work
of
the
new
member,
A.
A
could
not
have
grown
as
it
has.
You
will
bring
into
this
work
a
fresh
enthusiasm,
the
zeal
of
a
crusader.
You
will
want
everyone
to
share
with
you
the
blessings
of
this
new
life.
You
will
be
tireless
in
your
efforts
to
help
others.
And
it
is
a
splendid
enthusiasm.
Cherish
it
as
long
as
you
can,
for
you
are
ready
to
sponsor
some
other
poor
alcoholic
who
is
desperately
in
need
of
help,
both
human
and
divine.
So
God
bless
you
and
keep
you.
I
love
this
one.
This
next
one
is
very,
very
good.
You
aren't
very
important
in
this
world.
If
you
lose
your
job,
someone
better
will
replace
you.
I
If
you
die,
your
wife
will
mourn
briefly
and
then
remarry.
Your
children
will
grow
up
and
you
will
be
but
a
memory.
In
the
last
analysis,
you
are
the
only
one
who
benefits
by
your
sobriety.
Seek
to
cultivate
humility.
Remember
that
cockiness
leads
to
a
speedy
fall,
so
you
can
tell
they
were
already
having
trouble
with
this.
Medical
men
will
tell
you
that
Alcoholics
are
all
alike,
at
least
in
at
least
one
respect.
They
are
emotionally
immature.
In
other
words,
Alcoholics
have
not
learned
to
think
like
adults.
At
meetings,
don't
criticize
the
leader.
He
has
his
own
problems
and
is
doing
his
best
to
solve
them.
Help
him
along
by
standing
up
and
saying
a
few
words.
He
will
appreciate
your
kindness
and
thoughtfulness.
Don't
criticize
the
methods
of
others.
Strangerly
enough,
you
may
change
your
own
ideas
as
you
become
older
and
sobriety.
Remember,
there
are
a
dozen
roads
from
New
York
to
Chicago,
but
they
all
land
in
Chicago.
How
soon
you
will
be
cured
of
a
desire
to
drink
is
another
matter.
That
depends
entirely
upon
how
quickly
you
can
succeed
in
changing
your
fundamental
outlook
on
life.
For
as
your
outlook
changes
for
the
better,
desirable
become
less
pronounced
until
it
disappears
almost
entirely.
It
may
be
weeks,
it
may
be
months.
Your
sincerity
and
your
capacity
for
working
with
others
on
the
a
A
program
will
determine
the
length
of
time.
So
they
don't
say
working
the
steps,
it's
working
with
others.
That's
what
they
were
doing.
They
weren't
working
steps
like
we
do.
My
father
got
sober
in
1954
in
Los
Angeles,
and
he
never
wrote
an
inventory.
He
never
made
amends.
Not
like
we
do.
That
isn't
what
they
were
doing,
and
it
wasn't
what
they
were
doing
when
I
came
in.
It
wasn't
until
around
that
time
in
the
70s,
eighties,
where
this
whole
emphasis
on
the
book
started.
These
groups
like
the
Denver
Young
People's
Group,
you
know,
came
out
of
Denver
and
the
primary
purpose
guys
now
and,
and
a
lot
of
these
other
groups,
you
know,
I
mean,
this
is
what
it's
all
about.
Even
the
Pacific
group,
they're
not
really
big
in
steps,
you
know,
I
mean,
they
do
it,
they
do
the
work,
but
they're
not
thump
book
thumpers,
you
know,
And
what
we
have
now
is
like
really
breaking
this
thing
down
and
and
working
it.
And
I
think
for
the
most
part,
it's
better.
The
12
Steps
Alcoholics
Anonymous
is
based
on
a
set
of
laws
known
as
the
12
Steps.
Years
of
experience
have
definitely
proved
that
those
who
live
up
to
these
rules
remain
sober.
Those
who
gloss
over
or
ignore
anyone
rule
are
in
constant
danger
of
returning
to
a
life
of
drunkenness.
Thousands
of
words
could
be
written
on
each
rule.
Lack
of
space
prevents,
so
they
are
merely
listed
here.
It
is
suggested
that
they
be
explained
by
a
sponsor.
If
he
cannot
explain
them,
he
should
provide
someone
who
can.
That's
little
excerpts
from
the
Akron
Manual.
So,
so
these
guys
are
like,
this
is
not
a
vision
for
you.
You
know,
this
is
not
promises.
This
is
like
work
it
and
if
you
don't,
you're
going
to
die.
And
we
don't
really
care
because
there'll
be
another
person
in
the
chair.
And
so
this
is
the
message
that
was
coming
from
Akron.
And
it's
but
another
thing
along
those
lines
is
there's
another,
there's
another
part
of
these
the
Akron
pamphlets.
There's
five
of
two
of
them
are
blended
here.
There's
another
one
on
how
to
speak
at
a
meeting.
We
never
use
that
because
it
says
never
talk
over
20
minutes.
So
we
never
use
that
pamphlet.
We've
grown
past
that,
but
there's
one
called
a
spiritual
milestones
in
Alcoholics
Anonymous
Now.
Again,
this
is
the
Akron
response
to
the
Big
Book
and
the
the
entire
pamphlet
up
until
the
end
is
really
good
mid
century,
mid
19th
century
Christian
consciousness,
because
that's
where
these
guys
all
came
from.
But
at
the
end,
when
they're
when
they're,
they're
they're
finishing
the
they're
talking
about
that.
All
ethical
religions
practice
the
same
precepts
that
are
in
the
12
steps
example,
and
this
is
from
Akron
in
19401941,
followers
of
Muhammad
are
taught
to
help
the
poor,
give
shelter
to
the
homeless
and
the
traveler,
and
to
conduct
themselves
with
personal
dignity.
Consider
the
8th
part
program
laid
down
in
Buddhism.
Right
view,
right
aim,
right
speech,
right
action,
right
living,
right
effort,
right
mindedness,
and
right
contemplation.
The
Buddhist
philosophy
as
exemplified
by
these
eight
points,
could
literally
be
adopted
by
a
A
as
a
substitute
for
or
an
addition
to
the
12
steps,
generosity,
universal
love
and
welfare
of
others
rather
than
the
considerations
of
self
or
what
is
important.
Now
if
I
would
say
that
in
my
Home
group.
Hey,
I
just
got
done
reading
the
Upanishads,
I
got
done
reading
the
Da
Mopata
and
I
think
that
the
eightfold
path
could
be
a
substitute
for
the
12
steps
Alcoholics
Anonymous.
How
quickly
would
they
burn
me
at
the
This
is
from
Akron
and
this
is
from
Doctor
Bob
and
his
four
best
friends,
the
oldest
guys
at
the
time.
So
when
we
think
about,
well,
it
was
a
Christian
program.
That's
not
what
Bob
was
doing.
He
relied
on
the
good
book.
But
his
son
Smitty
said
that
he
was
interested
in
all
kinds
of
stuff.
And
if
you
take
a
look
at
the
library
and
the
books
that
he
was
reading,
he
was
reading
Oshvinsky,
he
was
reading
the
Domapada,
he
was
reading
all
kinds
of
stuff
to
get
a
spiritual
experience
like
build
that
we
should.
OK,
one
more
question
and
we're
going
to
move
on
and
actually
go
ahead.
I
mean,
I
know
I
have
six
years,
so
I'm
not
saying
I
agree
with
everything.
The
active
manual
that
Bill
read,
it
seems
to
me
when
I
hear
like
that
direct
approach,
I
know
I'm
six
years.
So
I've
grown
a
lot.
When
I
hear
the
direct
approach,
it's
more
effective
and
I
say
I
agree
with
everything
they're
saying
there.
But
I
like
that
director,
coach,
I
like
the
fact
that
it's
death.
It's
death,
their
life.
And
I
think
that's
to
me,
what
is
what
is
missing.
No,
it's
not.
It's
not
missing
because
you're
carrying
it.
That's
why
the
guys
between
and
gals
between
two
and
eight
years
sober
are
the
best
sponsors
because
that's
the
consciousness.
Come
on,
man,
we
can
do
it.
But
I'll
tell
you
something
about
that,
Eric.
That's
a
good
point
is,
umm,
you
know,
one
of
the
things
that
I
take
umbrage
at
is
when
I
go
to
meetings
and
I
hear
people
say
my
thumb
sponsor
thump
me
in
the
chest
and
called
me
stupid.
Because
I've
read
this
book
a
number
of
times
and
it
repeatedly
tells
you
not
to
do
that
over
and
over
again.
And
it's
because
they
tried
it
and
people
died.
I
tried
it
and
people
died.
So
I
want
to
counter
that
and
tell
you
a
little
story
because
I'd
rather
give
you
my
experience
and
my
opinion.
I
had
a
guy
that
had
to
come
live
with
me
because
there's
dying
alcoholism.
His
liver
was
gone
and
he
had
nowhere
to
go.
He
couldn't
go
back
home
'cause
every
couple
weeks
drug
dealers
came
and
beat
him
up
till
he
gave
him
money
for
stuff
he
didn't
get.
And
he
lived
in
my
trailer.
And
I
go
out
there
and
I'd
read
the
book
with
him
and
do
my
morning
meditation
with
him.
And
at
night
I'd
come
and
take
him,
put
him
in
the
car
and
we'd
go
to
meetings.
And
he
started
waking
up
a
little
and
getting
brighter
and,
and
I
thought,
man,
I'm
really
having
an
impact
on
this
guy,
huge
impact
on
this
guy.
And
then
one
day
he's
going
to
move
out
from
my
trailer
in
my
driveway.
And
before
he
left,
he
goes,
I
need
to
talk
to
you.
And
I
go,
OK.
And
he
goes,
hey,
in
the
morning,
it's
important
before
you
leave
for
work
that
you
do
the
dishes,
because
Philippa
can't
do
the
dishes
and
I
do
the
dishes.
In
the
afternoon
we
vacuum
and
mop
and
sweep
and
we
make
the
beds.
And
Phillip
has
only
got
one
hand.
He
may
want
to
help
her
with
that.
And
sometimes
she
needs
help
chopping
stuff
up
for
dinner
at
night.
What
was
helping
Mike
was
not
me
at
all,
the
bullshit
coming
out
of
my
mouth.
But
he
became
part
of
something
where
he
could
contribute
and
help
him
be
loved
and
cared
about
and
he
wanted
to
live
in
it.
So
I
never
thought
that
guy
in
the
chest
and
called
him
stupid
and
I
mistakenly
thought
I
was
raising
him
from
the
dead.
And
it
was
my
wife
saying
Mike
mop
Mike,
can
you
cut
the
vegetables?
And
you
know,
I
that's
why
we're
here
kind
of
because
we
don't
want
to
tell
you
our
experience
at
just
three
years
and
five
years
and
six
years.
This
has
never
stopped
revealing
itself
as
we
call
each
other
all
the
time.
Go,
dude.
You
won't
believe
what
just
happened
and
what
you
won't
believe
what
we
just
had.
I
was
wrong
about
right.
Sandy
Beach
is
big
about
that.
This
is
a
constant
revelation
of
what
you're
wrong
about.
So
you're
perfect
where
you're
supposed
to
be.
You
are
gonna
help
people
that
we
wouldn't
help
right
now.
But
I
like
that
your
your
approach
to
the
question
was
open
mindedness.
So
we
actually
want
to
get
into
the
fruits
of
sponsorship.
You
guys
need
a
break,
All
right.