Arnor K. from Oslo, Norway speaking topic of "Now that I've gone through steps...now what?" at the June NOLA workshop in New Orleans, LA

This section is now I've been sober a while, taken some drunks through the steps, and I've read all the books with them. Now what? For me and for them.

Ardmore Colic. Yeah.

Does. OK, just nod your head. So. So, so you and for a while so I can scan the room. Who here has has thought? Yeah, I've done everything. Why, you know, is this all? Anybody relate to that stuff? Yeah,

yeah. All right,

so

worshipping method is,

you know, like 111 like that guy that we got into got got to speak at the book storage facility in Iceland, he said. I don't remember anything that he said during the two things that I remember from that talk is the massive applause. It's like a wall of sound.

And the the the other thing

he said was what do you think you know? Is the news around your neck?

So

I did

the arts and crafts steps for a certain way and I had the guys do it a certain way.

The the people that can be asked to to to ask me for help or say yes to my approaches when I'm when I'm hitting on them

are usually

too crazy to fill out a form. OK,

so I what I tried what I did was I changed the method.

I told them, just write down all the people you hate and let's start there.

And I would take one guy who didn't stay sober and then he got sober again and didn't stay sober because he had a better idea. I took him down to the lake in Reykjavik where I would take guys and have them meditate and we would write the inventory together. Or I would just basically sit there and, and, and, and wait while he brought inventory. So

the the point of that story is I'm not, I'm not going to talk a girl. Let's talk about inventory.

I my, the method I use, and the method you use is not important. There is a lot of room for experimentation.

When I was,

when I was three years over, just short shy of three years over,

I went and wrote inventory with three friends

and I did that, read the inventory, read my first step to them. They read their first step. To me,

that's experimentation. OK. I have sat in

with Assad with with the guy that assaulted me and we heard somebody else's four step

2211, OK.

And but

the methods thinking, OK, if you're honest with your about your think, your train of thought, you know, you will find out that there is some stuff that is

wrong. OK, it's, it's dysfunctional. That is, it works

sort of, but not as it should, not as well as it should. It

you know, it's it's it's it's it's, it's like a, it's like a, a busted chocolate absorber. It works sorta, but not as well as it should. OK. And it will affect the rest of your life or the rest of the car. So

what

this I would tell the guy that that that I picked up from the psych ward and, and I I told him the belief system that I had then. And this is 2005 I think.

I told them

I know how to work these steps. If a newcomer wants to know how to work these steps, he can just ask me.

And that's dysfunctional thinking

because he, it doesn't matter how great my method is if I'm not there for him

to, to, to help him and basically him getting sober basically naked and paved that, that, that that way of thinking from me. This is about being left from for the newcomer. But I think that I have this method that I would try. I would make everybody do laser inventory.

OK, you, you take a sheet of paper, turn it around, put it in landscape mode, write columns on it for for resentment inventory. You would take another piece of paper, do the same and write the fear inventory. And you can see a laser pointer through the inventory. It's powerful stuff, but not everybody is saying enough to do it.

Haitu Theater of the Lie.

It's an inventory

where I ride regular inventory and I put a zeroth column with my rolls. So I'm an A A from time to time, I'm a boyfriend from time to time. I have, I'm I'm I'm, I have a work stuff. I have certain roles and I write down who is resentful at home. I'm resentful at myself. It helps a lot with those types of resentments.

Everybody here has at one point or another be receptive at themselves, but they don't really understand the causes and conditions of it. I wouldn't worship that method and use it as the holy truth of a, A and, and it's you know, these are guides to progress. You know

their guides to progress. The 4th step is a guide to progress. It's not progress. It's a guide to progress. You know it's a milestone.

You know, it's, it's a, it's a sign that says

Baton Rouge 65 miles. You know, it's not that important. It's a guide to progress. You know, it's, it's a sign saying, you know, this way,

but I would worship that stuff

and I would think that this and that way of thinking, worshipping method made me think this was all about me.

And I had this job, which in hindsight wasn't a really good job. And maybe and I'm, I was overqualified for the job. We had some guy come from a vendor and I took him to state radio and I would take him to post production facilities because that was part of the job. And I would show him around the market and he, he, he would say stuff like,

did you really bring me to this country to, to sell five seats,

5 licenses

and another place. He would say, you say you've done a lot of damage here as in a good way. And we go out eat the owner of the company and me and then this dude and one other good dude. And I would, it's a place called Argentina, Argentina. And you can get these great steaks. And I went for the vanilla ice cream afterwards and I had my Cuban cigar

with me because, you know, we don't have an embargo with Cuba.

And, and I would be, I

go outside and smoke the cigar and, and I would think to myself,

what do I need a A for?

I haven't made.

I haven't made,

I'm taking this dude with a big shot at this vendor and I'm I'm there listening to what I have to say. You know, I am somebody in this business world

and I had a vision and the vision was

upon. It's a white pawn on a white square

and it comes immediately when I think the thought, what do I need a A from here? What what what good can a, A do for me from here,

which is the topic of talk, right? And,

and instead of handing in my membership and just, you know, go off on a tangent, I said, you know, and make a decision based on this idea that, you know, I really haven't made. I don't need any more.

I sit with it and this is Friday night. I think on Sunday this dude calls me and he wants to get sober again. He was the great hope for a a he was a newcomer of the year in Iceland back in the day and and he wants to get sober again for the, I think the third time.

And what do you do?

I have all the answers, right? I have everything

and I meet him at the clubhouse and, and, and, and I asked him where does your book open? And he opens his book and it's chapter 4 and we read chapter 4.

I can tell you what the experience was, but I realized why I was in a A and I got the rest of the vision. It's a chess table. Pawn on a white field zooms out to a chess table,

to the whole chess table, and there's one move. One move has been made. It's pawn E4

and the answer to the question.

So if the assumed inversion is, what good? What can AA do? For me, the answer comes out in the in the assumed out version.

Why don't you want to have this power in your life anymore? That has thus far made the change that it has

and I have a lot of answers for that.

I have a lot of answers. I'm selfish, I'm self-centered, I'm something, something, something, but those are just words and definitions in my mind,

he suggest.

Words.

And I realized why I do this, why I read the big book with them. He is more or less sober today, that guy. He is more or less sober today,

but,

and this is not about result. If you do, if you're going to do a A for itself, you're missing out. Just like in that pamphlet that you that you guys have that we don't in the rest of the world. As far as I know, the members I view of Alcoholics Anonymous, you know, a A is whatever you want to get out of it. If you put in 50,000 work hours into AA, you will get 50,000 work hours back.

If you're trying to to to to, you know, 50 hours in the thousandth gear,

sorry,

you only get 50 hours back.

The stuff that I have, I have done. You know, you know, I'm I was a

like one LED great, a member said. I was a total failure of living and total failure of dying.

And, you know, I want, I want more out of this program. And I realize that I can only get

so far by manipulating you guys to take me there.

You know,

I can only get so far by manipulating other members to take me there. I have to go there myself. I have to up, you know, accept the responsibility. You know, this is

I'm here and I'm, I'm, I don't do this. I don't, you know, I don't have. I've never done this before. Be gentle on me. But,

but I'm asking,

I'm hearing people are coming up to me and they're saying the exact same things that we did in 2003 and 2004 and 2005 when we were getting members from the state to come to Iceland to speak.

The exact same questions that the Norwegians in Norway ask the Americans when they come over. The exact same things.

There's nothing special about me

as such. Sure, you know, I have a few qualities, but unused,

you know,

just ask any woman, you know, any straight woman. That is what good a big penis that she doesn't have access to is to her. It's not, you know, it's it's you know, to give you an analogy that that everybody understands. So, you know, yes, you have big muscles, but if, if you're not lifting anything, you're just showing off,

you know, So the stuff that I have done in my life outside of a A has all been a result of a A every, every single thing.

The car I bought in 2006 to buy first car that didn't have alcoholism at any point in any time of his life. OK. And, and the car I'm getting when I get back back to Norway or this fall sometime is the result of me taking responsibility, making my amends, paying my debts, trying to do the right thing, you know, sober time. I've been sober 14 years and, and to some people in here, that's a long time. To some people, to other

people, it's not.

And but let me tell you that it's amazing what you can do in a a

if you don't screw up your life again and again and again, like like 11 great member, one not she's not a member, but she said, she said the only thing that is worse, only thing worse than screwing up your life is screwing up your life again.

Great lady.

And and

what you know, if you only if you think of AA as something that the others are doing and you participate in,

you're right. You are right, you know,

but you're also not getting the full picture.

I did something in a, A and that has become a resource for a whole lot of people, a whole lot. I've made a big change in alcoholism and there is there are no if, if ifs and buts about that.

But I only, I can't see that stuff.

I can only see the guy that I'm next to. And if I'm great and if I'm awesome and if I'm, you know, getting a new new German car and you know, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, and not giving newcomer attention, you know, that is dying next to me or a, or a, or a friend that is going squiggly in a, a

I'm not giving everything back that I could.

You know, sure, sopa time can be impressive, but there, there were enough old timers in a, a in, in in Iceland that didn't have anything I wanted, didn't have anything. It was, you know, it was the newcomers that had something. My buddy who was with me in the not getting a sponsor club at the group, he betrayed me.

He got himself a sponsor. I felt betrayed.

You know

that, you know

the sky is the limit basically of what you can do. You know, if you're an alcoholic like me, you have to have your feet planted firmly in a A and I do,

but there is no limit on what you can do. I've I've, I've, you know, I, I am coming from and not everybody heard it, but, but I had this white IKEA bed with just a simple mattress. And I would pee in that bed bed until and it would dry out and the soft would turn the mattress crunchy. And, and you know, I'm coming from that place

and, and in Norway, I'm some sort of expert in it,

you know, and, and you know, and people, you know, they, they will laugh everything off by saying, you know, in about computer stuff, you know, and, and, and that is, and I've certifications, like like 31 certifications from 11 vendor. And, and that's, you know, impressive. And people go, oh, he knows what he's talking about.

And that is, you know, if, if we, if we move that to into a, a, you know, you're getting need to speak,

but there are a bunch of guys here that could do it. But I, I, I, I'm, I'm allowed to because I'm the foreigner, right? You know, because you know, the guys that could do it, they're just opinionated assholes, right?

You know, and, and, and I that my experience is not the only correct one. It's just, you know, I'm an example, not the example, but an example of how a a what a a does to a man's life.

And, and for some it's,

it's something. And for others it's yeah. You know, he's not, you know, his sponsor is not that important or, or something, you know, And I

you,

this is not important. What we're doing here is great. It's fellowship and it's great. And I make a few good points and stuff, yes, great. But that doesn't matter for the newcomer that isn't there.

That's your job. You're the locals. You can affect them. There's a lot of alcoholism in this city, kids, OK? There's a lot of alcoholism. There must be people that want to start drinking, OK? They should be easy to find here. OK.

And I think that's the the real, you know, that's the litmus test of, of how good a program you're working. What are you giving away?

And

so when when a a becomes boring, right, there are different, there are different things you can do. You can do exercises. You can do the Bill Wilson exercise. You can do the belief faith Bill Wilson exercises is from from from Bill story. You take a marker and you mark everything that you that you're where you're like bill. And then you take another colored marker and you mark everything that you haven't done

in recovery. And those are the things that are going to kill you.

Pastor Bill Wilson exercise you can do the belief faith. You take the words belief in faith and 4th, 4th chapter and you can see. And just by doing it, yeah, sure you can. You can see the you know, right now what I'm saying that yeah, there's a difference between belief and faith. But you have to read the text to see where he uses belief and where he uses faith,

you know? And that's something you can do in the English book, but you can't do it in the Islamic book. It's the same word, okay? You know that is stuff that will change your perspective.

OK,

you can you that's there are and then you know, if inventory is is getting boring, do a laser. Do do do a theater of the lie, especially guys breaking up with girls or or or especially the guys that broke up with girls they never dated but

or or where the girl doesn't know that they were dating.

They they, they can get a lot out of out of

out of

theater of the light.

And for the really sick Alzheimer's, there was 17 area inventory,

you know, because if I knew how fucked up I was when I came in here, just the inventory I did

the fall of 2013

and it was sex inventory.

It was a sex ideal inventory. I did that in Oslo because I had reached the end of my rope with. We enter the rope with with with something

that affected me profoundly.

Take another look.

But the point isn't fixing fixing my life. It makes makes it easier for me to do. Having done that inventory, it makes me, it makes it easier for me to talk to a newcomer with a certain set of problems.

And that is, I think, you know, that's, that's the litmus test, that's the acid test.

Do newcomers,

however long they've been sober

and, and, and maybe maybe I should should end with

with reading a little bit, you know, sorry for my for my accent.

The tremendous fact for every one of us is that we have discovered the common solution. We have a way out on which we can absolutely agree and upon which we can join in broadly and harmonious action. This is the great news this book carries to those who suffer from alcoholism, an illness of the sort. And Please note that it doesn't say disease. That's one exercise. Find the word disease in the big book. OK,

an illness of the sort, and we have come to believe it. An illness involves those about us in a way no other human sickness can. If a person has cancer, all are sorry for him and no one is angry or hurt. But not so with the alcoholic illness. For with it becomes an annihilation of all the things worthwhile in life.

It engulfs all whose lives touch the sufferers. It brings misunderstanding, fierce resentment, financial insecurity, disgusted friends and employers, walked lives of blameless children, sad wives and parents. Anyone can increase the list. Yeah, and the And the solution is just stop drinking, right?

We hope this volume will inform and comfort those who are or who may be affected. There are many

highly competent psychiatrists who have dealt with us have found it sometimes impossible to persuade an alcoholic to discuss his situation without reserve. Strangely enough, wives, parents and intimate friends usually find us even more unapproachable than do the psychiatrist and the doctor. But the X problem drinker was found. This solution was properly armed with facts about himself,

Can generally win the entire confidence of another alcoholic in a few hours.

Until such an understanding is reached, little or nothing can be accomplished. That a man who is making the approach has had the same difficulty that he is obviously knows. That he obviously knows what he is talking about. That his whole deportment shouts at the new prospect That he is a man with a real answer. That he has no attitude of holier than thou, nothing whatever except the sincere desire to be helpful. That there are no fees

pay, no access to grant, no people to please, no lectures to be endured. These are the conditions we have found most effective. After such an approach, many take off their beds and walk again.

It's right there in a big book. I don't know how often you guys read this, but you know, I love this.

I'm here because somebody reached out his hand. He's not my sponsor. He has helped me a lot. He has never had the office of sponsor, but he has helped me a lot. And he's probably the single person, the person who was single most responsible for me standing here today, really.

And we play this role in each other's life, each other's lives with our good and bad examples. You know,

you know those in here who are unwilling to make amends because of some, some stuff. They can be an example of how much what life's life looks like with unmade amends,

or they can be an example of

of a lost opportunity because they killed themselves. We, the others are watching you. You know, we are all watching each other.

There is no lineage, there is no line. If you only listen to your sponsor, you're missing out on a lot of experience. A lot,

you know, and,

and basically, you know,

show others that, you know, don't fall fall into the into the you know what for me and for them, the last point for me and for them, you know, show them that it's OK that you can do stuff in life that has nothing to do with Alcoholics Anonymous.

But you know, you can't really, you know, I can't really shake

the idea that everything I do at work or whatever, whatever has everything to do with Alcoholics Anonymous,

you know, my, my, my, my amends that I have to be keep current on are basically customers that I need to to help.

You know, that's, you know, my life is simple, but

so show them these are tools that can be used anywhere, not just in a meeting. You know, if a A is just a meeting for you, you're missing out. You're selling yourself short

real shot, and

it's all a A even though it's not a a you know what do you want a A to be members? I view, you know, read that it's short. You know, don't be a guest in a a participate. If you have fucked up your life, you're supremely qualified to help others. It's a thing that you don't want to miss out on,

you know, and they can be the boss at work and it can be anybody. I don't know. I, I don't know. But there, there are, you know,

you know, it's, it's really easy. It's real great that I paid the taxman back.

It simplifies my life a lot too. Being debt free is awesome.

I just want to tell you it's it's fucking awesome. And I did that as an immense, really simple.

I did that as an immense and you know, not rich or not anything, you know and

you know you can,

but it's you know, but just you know, if you can dream it, you can do it. Don't let somebody tell you that you're not sober long enough,

you know, don't I? The biggest change that I have inflicted on a A

is something that I did with

what, a little over a year so far.

You know,

it's that that fucking website. But I try not to mention

and I don't think of it, you know, I don't think of it. I want to talk to a newcomer. I don't think of it. It's just, it's just there. And once in a while I get a bad conscience and I need to do something with it. And, and, and and, and the guys are are, you know, you know, chew me out every every once in a while. And, and you know, you need to do something and something and something. And some of them have fears and some of them don't. Most of them are just OK

and, and it has changed AA to a degree

and and that's, that's what it is. But it's not me, you know, it's not me going to the download and download. I download the download. I would sit and watch that screen and refresh the status, how many downloads that I've had and, and, and I thought I could get something out of it, but really what I did needed to do was make amends.

You know, Yes, you're counting sponsors.

This is, it's not worth anything,

you know, I'd rather be able to sit down and, and, and really explain spirit, the spiritual way of living that book outlines and translate that, you know, from Icelandic to Icelandic, you know, and I get the impression that you guys need to translate it from English to English.

I'd rather do that than than, than anything else.

Go to a movie or go to a concert. Don't do anything. It's because it gives so much. It's so much and, and, and, and the, the feeling that I have that I when, when I got in there and, and, and, you know, when I sat down with him that I'm let's do this on yet another idiot that really wanted me, you know, and, and my life is all messy. I need to do this and this and this, you know, I need to, you know, go to the dry cleaners. And while I'm wasting my time here on this new comment, La La La La and and

up, and I don't have any problems anymore. It puts shit into context. You know, if I'm only in my mind, I'm only in my mind. You know, action is the great equalizer.

It shows, you know, if you want to see what you believe, look at your actions. If you, if you believe, you know, steps are great, but you only make meetings, you know, you don't really believe that,

you know, I don't, you know, now I've been sober a while, taking some drugs through the steps. I found a bunch of shit. I found the fucking duck, you know, I forgot about duck, you know, and, and, and you know, there's stuff in the past, you know, there's, there are guys that have that have, have done horrible things. And, and there was a military, American military guy who was in Iceland and, and, and

once he, you know, we did did a bit of reading the big book and he did some step work and and that basically was like a peeling a banana and and his PTSD came out.

You know,

I have no nothing to, you know, and when he left the country. But

it's, you know,

you know, we, we, we are this, you know, you know, the spearheads of God's ever advancing creation. That's the stuff that we should be doing and that we can do in the in the rooms and we can do that outside of the rooms.

Absolutely.

You know,

and yeah, let me let me

running close with with one thing. So

it's in the back, it's page,

it's paid 263.

We know of an A member who was living in a large community. He had lived there but a few weeks when he found that he that the place probably contained more Alcoholics per square mile than any city in the country. This was only a few days ago. At this riding 1939. The authorities were much concerned. He got in touch with a prominent psychiatrist who had undertaken certain responsibilities for the mental health of the community. The doctor proved to be an able and exceedingly anxious

to be able and exceedingly anxious to adopt any workable method of handling this situation.

So he inquired,

what did her friend have on the ball? Our friend proceeded to tell him, and with such good effect that the doctor agreed to test among his patients to to attest among his patients and certain other Alcoholics from a clinic which he attends. Arrangements were also made with the chief psychiatrist of a large public hospital to select still others from a stream of from the stream of misery which flows through that institution. So our fellow worker will soon have friends galore. Some of them may sink, and perhaps never,

but if our experience is a criterion, more than half of those approached will become fellows of Alcoholics Anonymous. When a few men in the city have found themselves

and have discovered the joy of helping others to face life again, there will be no stopping until everyone in that town has had his opportunity to recover. If he can and will

still, you may say, but I will not have the benefit of contact with you who write this book.

Or yeah, but I've only been sober one year or two months or one week or whatever. I have a holy excuse. We cannot be sure. God will determine that. So you must remember that your real reliance is always upon Him. He will show you how to create the fellowship you crave. Our book is meant to be suggestive. Only about what?

Doctor Bob says that if you have

pride and stuff that blocks you away from accepting what this book has to offer, you know that's your thing. But he is sure that he has a solution for you. The book is meant to be suggestive only on how to to create a fellowship. We realize we know only a little period about what how to create a fellowship. God will constantly disclose more to you and to us.

Ask Him in your morning meditation what you can do each day for the man who is still sick. The answers will come if your own house is in order. That's why we make amends.

But obviously you cannot transmit something you haven't got.

Don't try. Yeah, yeah. Please do your best with your immense before you start telling people what to do with their lives, OK?

See to that your your relationship with him is bright and not good. It's bright

and great events will come to pass for you and countless others. This is the great fact for us. Abandoning yourself to God. As you understand God, admit your faults to Him and to your fellows,

clear away the records of the past, give freely of what you find, and join us. We shall be with you on the fellowship of the Spirit, and you will surely meet some of us as you treads the road of happy destiny. May God bless you and keep you until then.

Really simple guys.

Really, really really simple SO questions.

After studying,

the question is what are my thoughts on on after doing the 12 steps, starting the 12 steps and the 12 traditions, the 12:00 and 12:00

traditions, traditions and the concept. I think it's great. I think it's, I think it's awesome. I've had some great experiences in a, in a 12 and 12/12/12 and 12 in a in a traditions and concerts meeting that we started. Absolutely. But if you're doing that instead of working with a newcomer, I think you're missing out.

Basically, you can't eat instead of sleeping, and you can't sleep instead of eating. You know, it's

the blood of a, a is, you know, is newcomers and, and, and you know, you and yes, you can get a lot of intellectual stuff out of that. And I've done that. I've done intellectual stuff.

You know, but when you can explain the the traditions to a newcomer, that's awesome. You know, how it affects his life and his recovery, that's awesome stuff. You know, just like the simple 7th petition in, in your personal life, you know, being self self reliant financially,

that's awesome stuff. And, and yes, yes, absolutely study. It's, it's good.

You can tell yourself that.

Like, you know,

question is what keeps me going after years of sobriety?

What what keeps me going is is you know

somebody, you know, this is thing

in the beginning. We go to meetings because we have to. Then we go because we want to, and then we go because it's 8:00.

That's a really simple way of saying it. It's however, not everything doesn't encompass everything that drives me. What drives me is, is I'll go around and terrorize newcomers.

That's, I believe you have some terrorists who terrorists newcomers here. And that's our service, you know, and not to, you know, beat them down. But, you know,

for one newcomer, the only thing you can do for him is be nice to him.

And for another newcomer, the only thing you can do for him is be nasty to him.

And, you know, there is no set proofs. And, and, and what I get is I'm interested in, in, in like, I go to the Wednesday meeting because that's the first meeting I came to after I moved to Oslo. I go to the Tuesday night meeting because it's a men's tag. I go to the Atlantic meeting because I'm Icelandic. I go to the Friday meeting because I, you know, I need to be a good example for Norwegians and show them how a real meeting is with a podium and stuff,

you know,

you know, it's, it's different stuff. And, and along the way I find guys to talk to,

you know, and sometimes I never see them again.

And, and, but I hear, I heard one thing. I, I've made an immense once and I was asked to go to, to a shrink. I told to shrink my story. He told me that that violence is of all types, four types of violence. And they're all the same in the end, not only receiving end of violence, but but on the action end of violence. I told that story to some guy, some random guy that came to a meeting and he's not an alcoholic,

but his friend is, He's an AIM member. And he told me that that just just giving the longer version of the story really changed his life.

And, and that's awesome. I did that just because I, I, I, I went to a meeting and I, yeah, something before the meeting to somebody that was there at random. And it's it's, it's a little piece of, of who I am.

I've the only thing I wanted out of a is when I came was being some something, some somebody people could point at and say that guy is OK. That's only thing I wanted if that's the only thing I got.

Any questions more?

I saw a hand here somewhere.

Is there anything else that you do?

The question is, is there anything I do with sponsors after they've been sober for a while?

I've done stuff. I've shown, I've showed them how to meditate. I've done stuff. I don't do that anymore. I am not a sponsor. I don't sponsor guys. I will answer any question related to AAI will show them, but I don't have a recipe for anybody because that recipe is basically, you know, it's gumbo, you know, it's different stuff, but it's all the same.

It's no, I don't do anything really. I talk to them a lot. We, we talk, we meet at meetings, we, we talk on the phone. I, you know, and we will. And what happens? What happens? That's that's my method. Some guys do the 12 and 12, you know, after the, after the big book and stuff, and that's fine. I don't know how to, it's never made any sense to me. If you do that, hey, that's great. You know it's, it's awesome.

You know, it's

no, but there are, there are. We'll do theater of the lie when they go, when they go nuts and you know, I'll do some stuff, but it's all, you know, ad hoc there. There's no method or rule. I don't. I try not to get hooked up hooked on method.

More questions?

Yes, yeah.

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