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And it just establishes some kind of idea because remember when we read our book, it said deep down every man, woman styles the fundamental idea of God

and sometimes is covered by circumstances and problems and all kinds of stuff.

To leave it, leave it turned and turned to the non God site

and get your pen out. Now our measurement is like a speedometer zero to 100. That's how we're going to measure. This is not rocket side tree. This ten step inventory. If you go across the just the United States alone, you'll find it in different forms

and everybody will insist that their form is the right form. You know, it's just, it's just an easy way to look at things in a way. And I can get some helpful suggestions can be made.

So anger how much of my life zero to 100 in some sort of a figure 50 percent, 25%,

75, I don't know whatever it happened, you think it is anger. How much percentage zero to 100 do I spend in anger? So it might be 10/15/2020 5:30

Of course, when we're I used to be angry all the time when I was drinking unless I was good and drunk.

Let's go down the page down. Do not think about this with the mind, you will mess up.

Just let it come naturally as a feeling. Don't worry about thinking it over. The ego wants to argue with you.

How much time do I spend criticizing zero to 100?

Do I spend 2550 percent, 100%?

How much dishonesty do I have? I'm going to move quickly now because I don't want you thinking, I want you just to write a number. The number is not that important at the moment because that number probably changed before long. How much doubt do I have?

20 percent, 50%,

100 Envy. How much envy do I have?

Zero, 200. Now we're not going to add up and down, We're going to go across. So don't worry about just zero to 100. You get a figure, you can change it as we go. Cross pride. Cross pride is when you have to tell people things that you really aren't because you don't think maybe you think you'd be better if you tell them something like he would say to me,

you're so tall. Did you play basketball? Yes. Had a whole story with it was a big lie, but I didn't have.

You're from Oklahoma, You play. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I could play three chords and two runs.

I couldn't carry 200 a bucket.

Am I frightened? Am I frightened?

The overwhelming of things? It doesn't have to be food. The over wanting of things

Greedy. I'm not greedy.

Do I have harmful acts? It's one where you sit down and plan something.

I'm going to get even with you for what you did to me at the meeting.

Do I have hate?

Some of these are hard to admit.

Am I impatient?

Am I inconsiderate?

You can't help it. You're selfish and self under. You got to be a little bit confederate, you know.

And my insincerity, Do I go to people who smile at their faces as soon as their backs are two men starts talking bad about them?

Am I insincere

and my intolerance

just can't stand it, you know?

Do I have laziness?

Just put a figure in there as we go. It's easy, just make it so. Don't work it hard. It's not like you're going to pay a life.

Am I lustful? I tell the boys a little lustful. Lust is good. You know

better than a dead fish.

I always tell the boys are going to overeaters. Are you going to get your bait in shape? You know you're going to find God. That's one thing that's do I have negative thinking.

I sit around all day long going. Nothing's ever going to happen. Good for me,

you know? Life just sucks.

You had my life, you'd feel the same way.

It's living on emotions. Emotions are given to you for a reason, but not to be lived. Or pride. I have a lot of pride,

procrastination. Pride is in things you might be able to do well. People are just here and you talk about it. You know

you have procrastinate that put off

resentment. Do I have some resentments?

Is there salvation and self seeking,

the next line cells, self condemnation and what I want you to do, I don't want you to put a figure in there. I want you to write in there in the blank spot next to it, playing God.

Beating you up is playing God,

not your job.

You're just not smart enough, I hate to tell you that.

Self importance,

Yeah. If this we wouldn't be having a meeting this week, we wasn't for Mike and Don or yes, we would. There'd be somebody else do it. Self justification. Now I'm good at that.

I can almost rest. If you hadn't done this, I wouldn't have done something. You started it all. I mean it just goes on and on.

Self pity.

Stingy

Sloth Salt is an animal in the jungle as part of its self defense's mechanism

is it moves so slowly it blends right in with the with the colors of the landscape. They turn colors like white or black or and they just fade it very hard to see in a tree and what it really is meaning is yeah, they got a plan but boy they don't go at it very quick. You know they

suspicious. Are you suspicious of everything and everybody?

You can't hardly watch the World News anymore. I heard these politicians talking the other day on the news. They said, well, the American people don't trust them. We haven't trusted you people for 100 years. Even, you know, vulgar, moral and trashy thinking. Now lay that one on you for a minute. Okay, if you got that done, open your page.

We probably won't finish this. It's noon now. We'll probably stop for lunch, but we maybe we can get an idea of how this works.

Somebody give me a figure out there of anger. Just any of them. 15% look across the page. That means you have to be 85% calm.

This is checking your thinking. If you're not 85% calm, adjust the anger figure to what it what. It would make it come out to be 100. Does that make sense?

So if maybe I've missed it, maybe I'm. I'm angry 75% of the time and the other side ought to be 25. Got it. I told you, don't worry about the first number 'cause it's gonna change as you work your way along here. Next one is give me a figure of criticizing somebody. 30% means 70% looking for the good in people.

Does that fit? Is that right? You looking for the good people 70% of the time

do. You don't. This is a yes or no,

OK, So we'll give her that. So she that's hers, that she belongs her. All right. Dishonesty. Give me a figure on dishonesty. Somebody,

anybody, 5%. You look across the page and honesty is at 95%.

That's it. Good. If it don't change it

doubt. Somebody give me a figure 40%, OK, faith is 60%.

That's it. Are you? Do you have faith 60% of the time?

Someday, Some days.

OK, so if it doesn't fit, change it to what the figure ought to be. This is you're just getting as close as you can. We're going to go real quick now. I don't want you thinking too hard. Envy.

Give me a figure on envy. Anybody. 50 on envy. So that means I'm grateful 50 got it. Change the figure to fit false pride. That's a lie about me. Social instincts involved.

They fall asleep. 80% on false pride. Thank you. Sold to an American. There you go, false fried 80%. Simplicity is 20% the answer to life, even though it doesn't sound like it is. Simplicity

and in a God-given life is in the way we live here is in simplicity.

Frightened you may Figure

10. Courage 90%

OK Gluttony, give me a figure 50. Moderation 50 Got it. OK Greedy give me a figure

1585 giving her sharing. If it don't fit, change the figures. Harmful acts.

Thank you. Nobody likes to admit this. 10.

I got 25. I'll say 25.

That means if yours is 0, then good deeds in your life are 100%.

You believe that they're going to change that? OK

Hey

hey, 20% on hate means I got 80% love.

Secret of life. You cannot have what you will not give.

So if you want love, you got to give love. Can't have what you won't give. You won't forgiveness. You've got to give forgiveness,

impatience,

55, somebody says 45 and seven patients in on a 55 meal. Inconsiderate

2575% Consider it insincerity,

money, straightforwardness. Haiti intolerance.

Play the game

£30 on 70 Laziness,

55 activity. I'd buy it.

I buy less from US. Empty.

OK,

All right. Anybody want you guys got to open up And what are we going to do?

Keep after? All right, here we go. God bless you. Good to see you. It's like some people got washed out by rain. No, they just hadn't got back yet. We're going to go on without them.

So working on this list that you guys have made. So what do we do next? So when you come in at night,

remember what the book said about pluses and minuses. You come in at night and that day you had a chance to be angry

and you decided to remain calm and trust your God to give yourself A plus.

If you carried the anger out, you give yourself a minus. Is that? Do you understand how that works?

Pluses and minuses? And you just keep going along and doing that? Pluses and minuses, Pluses and minuses. Some things will need more attention than others.

If you're heading somewhere to see this thing up on top here says 90 to 100 equals an A in the third column

is used to grade the score you end up with. For instance, what does yours say about anger? The first one, What did you come out with when you 25 angered 75? So you put down 75 over here on this third column and look up here on your score sheet and that'd be a C

Got the idea? Pretty easy,

just stay with me. Now you got 3 columns,

22 you only got 2. You show them. That's right

here. They're giving these Mike, so they'll have some that a whole list of them.

So you're going to score it. Yeah, you're going to store yourself.

He needs one over there. It's nice to keep one clean so you can make copies for your for your sponsorees

or just to give away to people the pretty simple exercise. So if I said I'd been criticizing somebody give me what their final figure on criticizing or we're looking at the good was

all can't be that much.

We're looking at the good side.

All right, so you got a 70 on looking for the good. So you go up to your score, plant up here and say, oh, that's a C and you put a C over here on in that third column.

Now the idea is to continue on with this as long as you can and you keep working with it every night. Just leave it by the bedside. You can make this one sheet go for weeks at a time. Just a little plus or little minus everything on here doesn't apply to every day. Don't

build yourself a sweat here. Just go easy.

But you'll see there's certain areas of your program that needs some support and some help. And if you're on this side over here under trust and you're, you know, you don't trust 30% of the time you need some help.

So anything below 59 is failing.

You're failing life.

Anything that's 90 and above we call an A light,

and that's what you're looking for in a life. Now we've already told you that self can overcome self, right?

So let's go to step 11 of this book and find out a way to get a little help, because Lord knows I need it.

Look on page 99.

Very simple exercise. If you use this exercise in combination,

which is called the Saint Francis Prayer,

I will educate you to this fancy sit and write this prayer.

This prayer is written as a summation of his lifestyle, but we call it the Saint Francis prayer. Someone else wrote it about him. He can't find any roots where he ever wrote this. So let's take a look at this thing and see if we can find a ten step inventory as we're just now looking at within this prayer. He says, Lord make me a channel of thy peace. He knows about powerlessness.

Francis knows about powerlessness.

Why? He wouldn't have to ask God if he had any power. He just go do it. No, God, I want to be a let me be a channel. What is a channel? Something that's passing through? God works through you,

you have no power, but if you stay in fit spiritual condition, He can use you.

That where there is hatred, I may bring love. Does that look anything like this ten step inventory we're looking at? Sure it does, Sure it does. Whether it's wrong, I may bring the spirit of forgiveness. Here's some more.

Where there is discord, I may bring harmony. Where there's error, I may bring truth. Where there is that, I may bring faith. Where there's despair, I may bring hope. It's like the 10 step inventory. This is just expanded. That's all. Thanks.

There were shadows. I may bring light, and where there's sadness, I may bring joy. Lord Grammy, I may seek rather to comfort them, to be comforted.

Amazing

to understand and be understood. Big principle in AA.

Those are those are called paradoxes.

To love than to be loved.

For it is myself forgetting altruistic behavior that one finds. It is by forgiving that one is forgiven, and it is by dying that one awakens to eternal life. Amen.

My sponsor says, and there are some segments of AA who believed that the 1st 60 pages will kill the old person. My sponsor says the spirit. He says if the steps are carefully taken, that the steps will burn a man into ashes upon those ashes that rise as a brand new being that's never been here before.

There's a chance here

becoming brand new.

I don't know of any other places some churches do that. I guess I'm not that familiar with them.

Now you use this at night, this prayer,

or particularly in the morning when you go out to your life. Just use it every day. Don't have to believe it, just use it

and you start working this ten step inventory at night.

I will guarantee you in one month

this, which is your negatives on this side will begin to move over to the positive side and you haven't done anything

and you will gain yourself what we call an A life and an A life is where you are happy Joyce and free. It's 4th dimensional living. That's very best. OK, If we have questions later, we can talk about them. We're going to get into a vision for you. Is this bill summation?

Of history

from the start in June of 35 to April 39.

He does a wonderful job. I think I heard somebody. I think I heard you say your favorite. Captain Bill is not a professional writer.

He writes from the heart, therefore a book called Language of the Heart.

He writes by feeling. He does not. He's not a professional.

He in this particular chapter by feeling and that's why he could write to wives because he wrote some feelings.

It's like you'd write a lot of stuff.

So, he says. A vision for you. Chapter 11, Page 151 For most normal folks,

drinking means by this time I know I'm not normal, right?

Means conviviality, companionship, and colorful imagination.

It means release from care, boredom and worry,

its joyful intimacy with friends and a feeling that life is good. I had all that feelings when drinking in the first part of my drinking, in the early days until the disease to dress, but not so with us in those in those last days of heavy drinking. Old pleasures were gone at the bottom. That's exactly. I understand it perfectly. They were. But memories. Never could we recapture the great moments of the past.

There was an insistent yearning to enjoy life as we once did, in a heartbreaking obsession that some numerical of control will enable us to do so.

Alcohol took me down a path and it took me to hell and I couldn't kill myself and I just lived in hell. Drinking was no fun anymore. Just like in Wilsons life, it just wasn't. It was survival wasn't fun. There was always one more attempt and one more failure

trying to trying to get that old thinking. The first time I ever took a drink, man oh man, I never, never felt that good in my life.

The less people tolerated us, the more we withdrew from society and from life itself. As we became subjects of King alcohol, shivering denizens of his mad realm, the chilling vapors that his loneliness settled down,

his thickened, ever becoming blackened. You find in bottom here. Some of us sought out sorted places, hoping to find understanding, companionship and approval.

Lord companion. I was the Lord companion. In the end. I didn't want to drink with anybody but me. I didn't want to share anything.

The awful awakening to the face of the hideous 4 horsemen. Terror, bewilderment, frustration, and despair.

How many? 22GO here took it far enough that you got to see a few things that aren't real.

Yeah, that's good.

And I think drinkers who read this page will understand by experience. They will understand

now and then he says, a serious drinker being dry at the moment, says, I don't miss it at all. Feel better, work better, have a better time. X problem drinkers As X problem drinkers, we smile at such Sally. We know our friend is like a boy whistling in the dark. To keep up his spirits. He fools himself inwardly. He would give anything to take a half a dozen drinks and get away with them. He comes the a, a like that.

He's forced here. He doesn't like it, doesn't like being here. He wants to be able to go back to the good old days

he would represent. He tried the old game again, for he isn't happy about his sobriety. You got it. He cannot picture life without alcohol. Someday he will be unable to imagine life either with alcohol or without it. Then he was no loneliness as just as you do. I have been there. I have been there,

incisionally drank until I couldn't. You can only go in a laboratory about 14 days. About 10 days is pretty maximum for most people who don't eat and just drink. And that's what I did. And then you got a detox, and I don't know anything about detox. I think I got the flu and I would have this. We had a bed in this big old place we lived, and I would jump up and take hot showers to try to get that smell out of my system, that vodka smell. If you can't smell, you know the one

and it wouldn't wash off

and it'd take about four days. I didn't know what detox was. Three days, four days later I'd come out of it and I'll see a few things along the way. I think I told you how to, did I ever tell you how to 12 step a speed freak? You walk in the door before you can open his mouth. You see, there it goes. And before you know his mouth again, he said here it comes and he got him going. And then you lay the message on.

But if he starts talking you'll never shut him up. Then he will no longer in such as few do.

You'll be at the jumping off place he wishes for the end. It's called suicide

and I've had the gun against my head

and I broke January the 15th of 1985 and they called upon God.

I didn't think God owed me anything.

Madam had a drink since I said God help me. Pretty simple prayer. When you're in real big trouble, you don't have no fancy prayer. You know what I'm saying? Prayer gets real simple. God help me

and with there been a very short time I got help and I ended up in a 28 day treatment program.

I'm so drunk that to bring in a wheelchair I won't pass out. I bet they wish they would have. And

I'm laying in this bed and this lady brings me some

Downers. Valium,

which is alcohol and fill form.

And I I raise up my elbow my best of my trying to look like I know something.

And I said, what do you think I am a drug addict?

And she left and the head nurse came in and she was great. You knew Alcoholics inside. And now she said, Mr. Brown and I talked to you, Mr. I said that we wanted you to take these pills because it'll help you to come down. There's a guy like this been drinking all for as much as you have for as long as you have. Sometimes you're such a big man, was scared of you

and there's a heart machine in the corner. I know what that thing is

and I said give me the pills. I'll be glad to say

she just knew how to approach me. I've never forgotten her.

We have shown how we've gotten out from under. You say yes, I'm willing, but am I to be consigned to a life where I shall be stupid, boring and gum like other righteous people I see, Or the old ideas? I know I must get along without liquor, but how can I have you a sufficient substitute?

If you've been in a A and you feel that way, you haven't been in a A

you. There's no telling you from my experience what it's like to take a person through the steps and watch transformation take place in front of you

and you know it's not you and you know it's not them. Well, I don't leave much, right? I put whatever name on it you want to put on it, but that don't leave much. Something beyond ourselves has done something,

and when you get into the battle here, get on the battle line with the rest of us that do this work. We need all the help we can get.

Yes, there's a substitute, and it's vastly more than that. It is a fellowship in Alcoholics Anonymous.

Here comes a little promise. There you will find release from care, boredom and worry when you're in the battle for people's lives. And I will add soul, Let me tell you something. That's an exciting thing to do.

Your imagination will be fired promises. Life will mean something at last. Promises

the most I for years life really didn't have much meaning other than drinking. For me,

the most satisfactory years of your existence lies ahead. I don't care how old you are when you got here, Asked Mike. He was kind of old when he got here.

You can tell this kind of old. He's been somewhere a long time. You can tell that

another promise. Thus we find the fellowship and so will you.

I asked that to come about. You asked where am I to find these people? You are going to meet these new friends in your own community near you. Alcoholics are dying helplessly like people in sinking ship. It's absolutely true. Somebody said to me once, why don't you become a delegate? And I said I got more Alcoholics probably within a four block through of my house, but I couldn't take care of. I don't need to run to New York to do that. God bless the people that do. We need them to do that.

If you live in a large place, there are hundreds, high and low, rich and poor. These are the future fellows of Alcoholics Anonymous

of the promise here. Among them, you will make lifelong friends. Oh, you betcha. God bless us. I mean it's a wonderful experience.

You will be down to them with new and wonderful ties, for you will escape disaster together and you will commence shoulder to shoulder your common journey.

Then you will know what it means to give of yourself that others may survive and rediscover life.

You have the power to do that.

You don't. God doesn't

has not chosen to qualify. He qualifies. The chosen make sense. So don't worry about time. Don't put time limits on God. God, I love people that do that. You're well, you know, you ought to be around here for about 5 years. And you know, if I could stage over for five years, I don't need you.

I would have needed you.

I couldn't. That was like Mike. I didn't know I was going to make the first meeting. Even in the hospital I wasn't too sure. Rediscover life. You will learn the full meaning of love, thy neighbor as ourselves.

It may seem incredible that these men are to become happy, respected and useful once more.

That's if you're not glad to be a part of that. I'm trying to tell you, you so self-centered you you need to look. I mean, you're not seeing what's going on around you. You go to meetings of A and we have some fun and we listen to the speakers and it all sounds great. But underneath all of that, something is happening to people, something extraordinary,

something beyond our own selves.

And it happens every day worldwide. Nowadays, worldwide, there's nothing like us anywhere in the world.

How can they rise out of such misery, bad refute and hopelessness? The practical answer is that since these things have happened among us, they can happen with you. All you got to do is listen to our stories and look at this and say, well, it's great. You know, one of the beneficial things of anything has just come to a meeting and sit there.

I mean that that tells people something. You don't have to open your mouth. Oh, there's old George over there. He's been wizard for 38 years. George ain't saying nothing, you know, but he represents 38 years of continuous survival,

should you wish them. Above all else, be willing to make use of our experience.

That's the newcomer. If you want to use our experience, we are sure they will will come. The Age of Miracles is still with us. Our own recovery proves that you're not supposed to recover.

There's no known cure to this disease.

Yet we do,

I hope, is it? When this tip of a book is lost on the world's side of alcoholism, defeated drinkers will seize upon it to follow its suggestions. Many, we are sure, will rise to their feet and March on. Amazing. That's what happened to me. You could have killed me. I was ready to die

at 50.

I love life at 72. It's been the best thing I've ever found. I wouldn't have it any other way.

They would approach still other sick ones. And the fellowship of Alcoholics may spring up in each city in Hamlet Haven for those who must find a way out in 1939. That's quite a prophecy. We are worldwide organization today without a business plan. Think about it,

without a business plan,

because we didn't kill the spirit here. And so individuals took the program to other countries. Individuals, nobody told them to. Individuals got up and got a meeting started.

There's a man named Noah up where I knew the where. I get to do the interview sometime, and we run to Noah's meeting on Tuesday night when we're there because Noah has a meeting that he opens and closes mostly by himself

up above Fort Bragg, not Fort Bragg, Russian River. And I think so much of Noah that I love to take people down there. And sometimes we go down there with 15 or 22. He's never met Bob Pearson, he's never met Bob Smith. He doesn't even know who the people are.

And we walk in there some nights he's got the coffee made and the cookies out and he's all by himself just waiting for somebody to show up.

And he did that for a long time,

and sometimes people would show and sometimes they wouldn't. The people have gotten sober there and moved on and know his faith and maintain that station to keep that place open in case some alcoholic wants to find his way to that fellowship. That's very disappointing. To go down there, would make a little coffee, drink a little coffee, eat your cookies. Oh, well, nobody's showing up tonight. I'll go home 15 minutes early.

And when you walk in with 15 people and they, they came in 1961, he looked at him like 61.

I wasn't born. This, this is exciting. You know

he's not the only guy that ever happened to

Old Timer. But from Kansas City to Johnny, the candy salesman manned the meeting by himself for 2 1/2 years. Waiting for an alcoholic to walk through the door, knocking on doors, looking for people.

That's the kind of fire that comes with us and recovers. That's the kind of fire that comes from the inside. We do things that we would never have even thought of doing before.

In the next chapter Working with others. In the chapter working with others, you gather an idea of how we approach and aid others to help. Suppose now that though you or several families have adopted this way of life,

he's talking about Akron.

You will want to know more of how to proceed from this point. Perhaps the best way of treating you to a glimpse of your future will be to describe the growth of the fellowship among us. Here's a brief account.

What he's saying is you're all alone.

And those old timers that were all alone were called founders. They founded the Kansas City meeting, They founded Trenton, NJ, They founded these meetings.

We walk in and they're already found it. We want There's 300 meetings in Kana Costa County. You can't hardly go anywhere without falling over one

years ago. And that's going to give you a little history. Years ago, in 1935, one of our numbers made a journey to a certain western city, Akron, OH. Bill Wilson.

I have a CD put out by GSO that has Bill arriving at Akron on the screen with all the train sounds.

Steve is George. The brakes are put on, you know, and the guy starts very professional. Board says. And Bill Wilson is coming to Akron. You know, it's quite a, it's quite a deal from a business standpoint. His trip came off badly.

Bill thought he was going to Akron. This is a lesson in God's will. Bill thought he was going to Akron

to take over a company. The company was a machine shop, a big one that serviced all the rubber industries, the good years, the fire stones and various and sundry other companies. And they all own this together. And there was a chance to to take over the stock.

And he had been promised a big job. He was sober a while. He was going to get a they had a house that came with it and servants and Dr. limousine driven cars and you can get boys out of the park. That's what he went for,

but that's not what happened.

And as things fell through, you see his personal little plans fell through. And he's desperate. And he's in the Mayflower Hotel and he's pacing the lobby. He's got about $10 down, enough to pay his room rent. He's got to stay through Monday to meet with the lawyers from the other side. He's already been put down for drinking. They know about him.

He

he gets desperate and he went to his experience. How had he stayed sober for six months? He'd stayed sober by working with others. No, even though they weren't getting sober. But he had stayed sober. That was all experience he had. And so he go. He could hear the tinkling of the glasses in the place and the camaraderie in the bar and the music and the gaiety. And $10 would certainly get him drunk

in those days

and maybe he could sit there because everybody knows what's going on. He's a big shock from Wall Street. And people in those days would invite you home. Maybe they get a tip on the market or something, but they just want to know what's happening on Wall Street and it's got a big deal.

So he went messes around, gets some nickels and goes through the phone booth and on the side. Over here in those days, they used to put a list of all the churches because good Christians and religious people of all types would want to go to church on Sundays even though you're traveling. So you'd want to know where your church was. And so he called along and he made this call and he got a guy by name of Walter Tung.

Walter Tunstall's Episcopal minister, who will play it. I've got a little bit of a talk on him. I'm just a nut over this kind of stuff. I just pick it up in pieces like I was, I was like a little, I got a new father over a child, and I found Walter Trump. Just the opening remark, you know, I got him connected. I know he is. And he gives Bill a list of 10 people.

Bill would start his conversation. I'm a run hound from New York. You like to call himself that? Bill Ditto was picked that up. He calls himself that nowadays. And I haven't had a drink for six months

and he said I need to find another alcoholic to talk to. That's all he knows. He don't know nothing else, Just got to find another alcohol to talk to.

So he calls this list and everybody is doing everything. And he finally gets the lady by the name of Henrietta Stidling

In red is diving is the daughter-in-law of John Stiverling, the founder of Goodyear Rubber Company. And if you're watching Castles of America, you will see the castle, the styling castle.

In those days, the rich people used to like to show off a little bit like the Europeans that they came from by having huge manicured lawns, acres of it, big homes, hundreds, hundreds of rooms. And this cast has got, I call it Castle, over 100 rooms.

It's not clear why she's not. She's married to his son. She met him while she was while she was in college.

Basher. She's a bachelor graduate. Her daddy was a he was the only child of a of a judge out of El Paso, TX and his wife. They were pretty up upward mobile people.

And she marries this guy, meets a rich husband. What happens? And she marries this guy. And for some reason that's not going well. She's living in the gatehouse of this mansion with her three kids. And John Junior will become a congressman later on and has been interviewed about a a a lot

two weeks before this happened. I'll leave you to make these decisions. God, if it's not God's hands, it's certainly his finger.

Two weeks before this had happened, Henrietta, who runs the Oxford Groups in that area, calls up all the people that come to her meeting. He's like the secretary and said we're going to share something costly cost like sharing this list of your liability, sharing that maybe you're not as honest as you would like to think people think you are,

sharing that you're less than in terms of relationship to God.

And so everybody, everybody had that in mind. I guess you avoided the meeting if you didn't want to share something costly, just didn't go right. So they show up and Doctor Bosman going to this meeting for 2 1/2 years and you can't quit drinking.

Some people say historians, you get all kind of history, that it was a setup. I don't believe so. I believe it was just a normal function of the Oxford Group people.

And so in this thing, they're all admitting their character defects. And it comes to Bob and Bob says for the first time that we know of that he admitted he was an alcoholic. And he said, I'm a I'm an alcoholic and I can't stop drinking.

And as a group, they basically said, well, does everybody want prayer? Yes, we want prayer. And so they all got down and they knelt for and they prayed for Bob like we do here. When we leave you guys, we have you put it in the prayer circle and we pray for others and they're praying for each other and get the thing done. I don't know what you would think, but two weeks later a guy calls up from a guy you don't know and calls up and says my name is Bill Wilson,

I'm a rum hand from New York, and I must find another alcoholic to speak to.

What would you think?

She doesn't know this guy

Adam. He is wealthy or at least supported by wealthy family. She says. Come over right now.

He has no clue to this guy. He may be a folk cutter. We don't know what he is, but she sees it as an answer to prayer. That makes sense. That's how sure she was. And it turns out she's right. And Bill Wilson comes over immediately. How many times if I called you up and said I'm a I'm a wrong house in New York? My name is Don Brown. I got to find another Aki to talk to. Talking to you might get somewhere. But if I'm talking to normal,

they go. You're who's

now? I can't help you, Sir. Click

Orica. She calls Anne immediately because it's answered a prayer and ends in this awkward group and she's very excited about it. In fact is this woman is actually building Bobby sponsor in the spiritual life for a while.

And so

Doctor Bob couldn't come that day because he's drunk and his mother said he showed up with a pothole plant he was potted.

They like to make a joke to see he fell out of the table. Smitty said. That's not true. His dad always went up to the bedroom and passed out.

Next day they bring him over. Bill doesn't have any money. Bill is supposed to be there working on this other deal.

This lady has a little influence, so she gets him a room out of the golf course for a friend of hers had a room. And he stays there a while, not very long, about a week or so.

And then Anne Smith gets the idea to invite Bill, who's come to work on this deal, to come and live with their family. America. He didn't say come over and have soup on Thursday.

He said We want you to come and live with us.

Bill's got a wife called Lois up in New York.

Bill's got this deal. He's trying to cook together

and Bill says yes.