The 22nd Annual Mens Fall Retreat in Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada
Before,
before
we
blast
into
something
else,
Anybody
else
will
throw
anything
in
there?
Yeah.
And
when
they
had
a
rule
that
wasn't
working
and
then
another
rule
to
compensate
for
it.
And
what
Doctor
Bob
said
is
let's
let's
let's
keep
this
thing
simple.
Let's
not
take
ourselves
too
seriously.
What
I
have
to
remember
is
that
when
when
somebody
else
is
using
the
tradition
in
the
group
where
they're
using
something
to
hurt
somebody
else
without
being
just
because,
you
know,
we're
Alcoholics,
we
could
make
sign
that
we
could
make
sign
an
agreement
like
Mother
Teresa.
And
when
I
apply
that
Rule
62,
I
have
to
remember
that
the
first
person
whom
it
needs
to
be
applied
is
me
in
trying
to
help
something,
to
do
something.
I
just
can't
take
myself
too
seriously.
And
that
goes
on
from
there.
Thank
you.
Yeah,
Good
deal.
Right.
Thank
you
very
much.
Yeah.
What's
what?
Oh
yeah,
the
three
things,
one's
recovery,
you
know,
the
steps,
that's
the
program
of
recovery.
And
so
legacy
recovery,
that's
fundamental
to
the
whole
thing.
Unity
is
essentially
invited
into
traditions
and
that's
about
how
we
work
together,
how
we
work
in
unison,
how
we
have
unity.
And
then
the
third
is
the
one
we
talked
about
this
morning
service.
So
that
that's
the
legacies
and
and
the
that's
a
package
deal.
You
know,
if
I
don't
have
good
recovery,
I'm
going
to
do
lousy
service,
you
know,
so
if
there's
a
package
deal.
So,
yeah,
good
question.
We
assume
everybody
knows
that.
They
don't
judge.
Yeah,
other
traditions
and
spiritual
principles
or
what
are
exactly
the
other
nine?
I
think
black
and
white
somewhere
to
find
them.
I
can't
find
them
anywhere.
Best
I
understand
traditions
were
the
product
of
our
experience.
You
know,
it
as
a
founders
were
sort
of
putting
things
together
and
dealing
with
the
mistakes
and
all
of
the
kind
of
stuff
traditions
were
formed
to
to
to
establish
the
unity,
the
cooperative
kind
of
environment
that
steps
a
personal
unity
is
how
we
get
along
with
the
world
around
us.
Yeah,
I
I
think
a
lot
of
it
came
really
came
into
fruition,
started
to
have
impact
when
when
in
55,
you
know
when
when
Bob
was
gone.
But
Bill
at
the
International
in
Saint
Louis
introduced
the
traditions
had
been
introduced.
They
were
introduced
a
little
earlier,
but
they
weren't
really
implemented
much.
And
and
then
in
55,
when
in
in
effect,
Bill
turns
a
fellowship
over
to
the
membership
with
the
design
of
the
general
Service
conference,
with
the,
with
the
notion
his
his
his
vision
was
that
the
Home
group
would
become
the
driving
force
in
Alcoholics
Anonymous
and
that
traditions
would
be
the
framework
for
sure
how
this
works
together.
And
so
that's
where
that
that
legacy
thing
came
in.
That's
where
the
triangle
and
this
kind
of
thing
really,
really
got
got
identified,
you
know,
got
really
be
a
landmark
for
what
we
were
about.
And,
and
so
traditions
were
vital
to
that
whole
idea
of,
of
how
we
would
function
as
a
fellowship.
And
if
your
Bill
was,
Bill
was
a
little
optimistic
about
that.
He
was
an
optimist
anyway,
but
he
was
a
little
optimistic
about
how
well
we
would
do.
We'll
talk
about
this
a
little
bit
earlier
in
the
in
the
session
about
how
well
we
would
do
because
that's
a
marvelous
concept.
You
know
that
this
idea
that
grassroots
will
drive
the
process,
but
just
like
we're
talking
about
the
other
day,
it's,
it's,
it's
the
concept
simply
has
not
achieved
fruition,
meaning
that
that
when
we,
when
we
meet,
you
know,
rather
than
having
a
group
conscience,
we
wind
up
with
a
minority
opinion
because
it's
predicated.
His
whole
idea
was
built
on
the
fact
that
home
groups
would
be
like
we
had
a
little
public
aid
called
Home
group
heartbeat
of
a
A
and
the
whole
idea
was
that
the
Home
group
would
be
the
driving
force
Alcoholics
Anonymous.
It
would
it
would
it
would
dictate
what
we
would
do
and
the
conference
would
be
simply
trying
to
pull
that
all
together
and
and
package
it.
Well,
it's
a
great
plan.
And
but
just
I
mean,
it
looks
like
a
mission
The
other
day.
I
know
you
all
wrote
this
down
that
what
what
we
see
is
a
travesty
compared
to
what
Bill
envisioned.
That
when
we
meet
to
it
to
to
gather
the
group
conscience
where
the
the
the
the
feelings
and
ideas
and
beliefs
of
the
the
Home
group
are
expressed
and
carried
forth
for
decision
making.
23%
representation
in
the
United
States.
Now,
I'm
sure
Canada
is
better,
but
but
that's
what
it
is
in
the
United
States.
People
have
been
asking
your
opinion
and
your
ideas
and
we've
been
asking
questions
and
your
thoughts
on
things
for
three
days.
It's
fair
to
say
them
that
what
you've
been
sharing
with
us,
this
is
a
representation
of
your
group.
To
what
the
way
I'm
dealing
with
is
a
representation?
No
idea.
I
probably
am
not
In
Sync
with
an
awful
lot
of
people,
and
I'm
not
a
revolutionary
thing
yet,
but
I'm
an
active
member
of
Alcoholics
Anonymous.
I
am
not
a
spectator,
you
know,
I
am
a
participant.
And
it's
not
always
true.
An
awful
lot
of
people
quit
functioning
at
a,
A
just
because
you're
old,
you
know,
I
don't,
you
know,
I'm
still
wide
open.
So
I
don't
know
and
I
really
don't,
I
try
not
to
get
into
to
controversial
things
where
there's
a
real
polarization
and
I
try
not
to
get
in
into
the
too
much
of
that.
And
I
just
simply
share
what
I,
what
I
honestly
believe
is
it's
just
like
what
we're
talking
about
now.
I
have
trouble
to
find
out
that
we
do
have
23%
representation
and
expressing
the
group
conscious.
I've
shared
that.
I've
shared
that
at
the
area
level
and
considerably
at
the
area
level.
Shared
it
with
our
delegate
in
an
open
session
just
just
recently.
And
she's
a
marvelous
girl,
marvelous
girl,
great
delegate.
And
she
said,
I
sure
wish
that
wasn't
true,
but
it
surely
is
because
I
was
inviting
some
dispute
of
that.
You
all
for
God
sakes,
I'd
love
to
hear
somebody
say
you're
wrong.
It's
40.
I'd
be
the
happiest
guy
in
North
Carolina,
but
nobody
argues
with
it.
And
so
we
haven't
voted
on
it.
But
it's
just
defeat.
Do
the
voting.
When
you
got
23%
of
people
showing
up,
you
don't
have
to
worry
about
your
whether
that's
the
expression.
And
it's
very
troubling.
You
know
what?
Because
what?
Rather
than
dealing
with
a
group
conscience,
we're
dealing
with
a
minority
opinion.
It's
what
it
is
a
minority
opinion
that's
guiding
and
directing
what
we
do
in
our
college
anonymous
that's
troubling
to
me,
but
right
here
would
go
right
here
from
the
time
now
this
this
percentage
is
23%.
Had
you
on
previous
years.
Was
there
a
specific
time
that
you
can
say,
OK,
they're
starting
to
become
a
change
around
this
time
of
of
that
nature?
Like
before
it
was
40%,
before
it
was
70%,
now
23
or
it's
always
been
somewhat
around.
The
20%
from
my
experience
has
never
been
earth
shaken,
but
but
it
has
been
better.
It
has
been
better.
I
got
into
general
service
work
in
1960,
the
first
time
I
served
as
the
DCM.
We
were
a
smaller,
simpler
deal.
Our
area
committee
for
the
entire
state
consisted
of
20
people.
So
we
had
the
excellent
representation.
Nobody
ever
missed
a
meeting
because
you
couldn't
hide.
I
mean,
it's
pretty
obvious
if
you're
not
fair.
And
so
it
looked
better,
but
it
was
a
much
smaller
kind
of
a
deal
in
a
much
more
accountable
kind
of
a
deal.
And
over
the
years
we'll
get
there.
And
over
the
years
it
it,
it
has
just
exploded
into
a
whole
bunch
of
different
kind
of
stuff.
You
know,
that
back
then
we
were
much
closer,
more
intimate
kind
of
deal
we
pull
together.
There
was
a
lot
more
unity
and
a
lot
more
familiarity,
for
example.
They
will
get
there
in
a
minute.
Don't
you
forget.
I
won't.
Don't
you
forget.
We'll
give
you
an
example
of
what
that
looks
like
real
life.
And
I
mentioned
earlier
about
you
how
we've
had
an
explosion
of
meetings
developing
all
over
the
country.
And
that's
true.
I
mean,
my
God,
we
got,
we
got
more
meetings
that
you
could
possibly
imagine
back
in
the
days
when,
when,
when
I
was
really
getting
active
in
service
and
all
this
kind
of
thing.
If
a
if
a
new
group
started
somewhere
it
was
it
was
a
heartwarming
thing
to
exhibit,
to
observe
because
what
would
happen
is
that
every
group
in
the
in
the
area
would
join
in.
Yeah.
And
it
come
in
to
be
supportive
of
that
thing
real
tight
kind
of
a
connection
today.
We
barely
know
each
other
you
know,
we
barely
know
each
other.
You
know,
it's
like,
I
won't
divert
too
much
on
this,
but
my
wife
some
Saskatchewan.
First
time
I
ever
understood
the
culture
of
a
of
a
Prairie
wheat
farmer
was
when
I
watched
what
happened
with
my
with
my
father-in-law.
They
built
their
home,
they
failed
the
timber
and
they
checked
insulated
with
Prairie
sod,
you
know,
and
all
that.
And
they
next
door
neighbor
was
3
miles
away.
And
those
two
men
loved
each
other
dearly.
Yeah,
one
of
them
was
my
first
step
was
my
father-in-law
was
just
a
little
small
guy.
He
was
a
good
fellow
from
Scotland.
And
his
neighbor
was
a
guy
named
Jake
Niber.
Huge
guy,
big
old,
big
old
mountain
of
and
they
were
intimate
friends
and
I
didn't
understand
why,
but
it
didn't.
And
I
looked
at
that
culture
a
little
bit.
These
people
literally
depended
on
each
other.
I
mean,
they
depended.
If
somebody's
horse
get
was
sick,
the
other
guy
bring
his
horse,
excuse
me,
In
that
country,
if
you
don't
get
your
crops
in
and
you
let
that
snow
get
them,
you're
done
for
that
year.
And
so
it
bred
something
in
the
culture
that
was
tremendously
important.
And,
and,
and
so
I
use
that
analogy
because
it's
very
much
like
a,
a
was
there
because
we
were
people.
You
know,
I,
I
had
the
experience
of
starting
Alcoholics
Anonymous
in
a
town.
I
know
what
it
feels
like
to
be
the
guy
standing
there
holding
the
flag
hoping
somebody
will
show
up.
And
it
was
more
in
that
mode
today.
We've
got
groups
everywhere,
you
know,
just
almost
every
corner
got
a
group
of
the
meeting
or
something.
So
it
was
a
big,
big
difference.
So
back
then,
I
don't
think
it's
a
fair
comparison.
But
of
course
you
had
a
larger
representation.
There's
no
hiding
place,
you
know?
And
so
either
showed
up
or
say
word
John,
you
got
that.
So
it
was
different,
but
the
whole
culture
was
different,
I
think
is
the
point.
But
it
it
was
never
as
bad
as
23%
to
my
knowledge.
So
I
think
it
was,
but
it
was
a
changing
world
that
we're
in.
Thanks
for
asking
about
that.
Yeah.
The
question
is
if
you're
if
you're
referenced
the
23%.
I
mean,
I'm
not
sure
what
number
you
thought
that's
23%
of
Home
group
membership
of
registered
groups
of
registered
groups.
Like
in
my
state,
it
means
that
23%
of
the
groups
that
are
registered
in
North
Carolina
show
up
to
express
the
group
conscience.
Yeah.
And
so
you
see
what
the
trouble
is,
You
got
77%.
Ignore
it.
Yeah.
I
hate
to
use
a
bad
reference,
but
it's
like
the
political
world,
you
know,
that
we
get,
good
God,
we
get
ridiculous
numbers
to
to
to
elect
national
leadership,
but
we
don't
need
to
to
smirk
at
it
because
ours
is
just
as
bad.
And
so
it
is,
it's
a
troubling
thing
to
me,
is
troubling
in
terms
of
Bill's
vision
that
this
would
be
a
fellowship
driven
by
the
grassroots,
but
it
can't
be
driven
by
the
grassroots,
stays
home,
you
know,
So
we
have
to
engage
in
that
kind
of
a
thing,
he
said.
Yeah,
yeah.
Thanks
for
asking.
Clarified
a
little.
Yeah,
phenomenal.
Within
5
organization.
For
instance,
I've
I've
experienced
here
just
being
only
recently
returning
to
the
fellowship
where,
where,
where
we're
calling
out
to
other
groups
to
come
in
to
support
us
because
we're
having
difficulty
even
maintaining
our,
our
proper
accounting
just
to
keep
the
doors
open.
And
so
we're
we're
making
appeals
to
other
groups
who
are
also
struggling
with
their
membership
and
fellowship,
trying
to
keep
their
doors
open.
And
so
basically
playing
top
Skitch
hop
stock
that
one
another's
rooms
to
try
and
keep
everyone
supported
in
this
endeavor.
So
well,
The
thing
is
our
our
structure
should
bridge
that
gap,
but
only
if
we
participate
in
it.
You
guys,
the
whole
design
is
that
the
groups
come
together
and
the
group
conscious
of
the
collective
wisdom.
So
that
that
that's
a
great
concept.
But
when
you
only
have
23
steps
showing
up,
you
know,
you
don't
have
a,
you've
got
a
minority
opinion
being
expressed.
So
it,
that's
as
ideally
as
what
it
would
be
that,
you
know,
it
seems
like
it
for
tragedy
groups,
autonomous
acceptance
matters
affecting
other
groups.
And
so
it's
sort
of
a
warning
to
us
not
to
let
one
group
forge
ahead
an
impact
on
others
and
all
this
kind
of
stuff.
It's
cooperation
that
we
need
to
have.
And,
and,
and
we,
we
have
really
cut
down
on
those
things
where
we
gather,
you
know,
as
a
larger
community,
we
cut
down
big
city
like
this.
You
don't
have
to
go
anywhere.
You
got
a
big
crowd
with
you,
but
if
you're
of
Saskatchewan,
you
need
a
neighbor.
You're
bad
because
they
folks
few
and
far
between.
Different
world.
One
second,
they
would
be
right
here.
I,
I
think
when
you
look
at
the
percentage
you're
talking
about,
I
mean,
you
can
look
right
down
the
whole
structure
of
a
A
and
you
go
sit
in
an,
a,
a
meeting
and
how
many,
how
big
of
a
percent
of
people
at
the
end
of
that
meeting
pick
up
a
chair
or
do
anything.
And
when
you
go
to
an
A,
a
function,
how
many
feet
percentage
of
the
people
actually
work
when
it's
done
or
send
out
for.
So
you're,
you're
probably
looking
at
the
same
thing.
And,
and
I
think
that's
pretty
well
worldwide
when
it
comes
to
anything.
I
mean,
I
sat
through
a
lecture
of
a
fellow
that
that
talked
about
service
work
throughout
the
whole
community
of
the
whole
world.
And,
and
they,
and
it
wasn't
just
for
aid,
but
for
the
whole
thing.
And
then
the
numbers
were
almost
identical
to
what
you're
talking
about
on
people
that
actually
volunteer
in
this
world.
So
you're
looking
at
that's
about
the
best
you're
going
to
get.
Well,
most
people
are
not
suffering
from
a
fatal
condition.
Yeah,
yeah,
we
don't
do
it
because
we're
nice
people.
You
know,
we
do
it
because
we
need
to.
And
it's
a,
it's
AI
understand
what
you're
talking
about.
It's
not,
it's,
it's
not
exceptional
to
us,
but
we
need
to
be
exceptional.
And,
and,
and
we're
dealing
with
some,
I
can
tell
you
that.
And
it
gets
back
to
that
thing
we're
talking
about
on
leadership.
Of
the
people
I
sponsor,
100%
are
involved.
You
know,
if
I'm
inside,
well,
that's
part
of
it.
You
know,
part
of
my
job
is
to
enlist
them
in.
But
people
are
not
going
to
just
automatically
just
just
jump
in
and
do
stuff.
You
know,
when
you
get
very
interested,
set
back
fat
mouthing,
you
know,
So
we're
good
at
that.
So
I
know
exactly
what
you
talked
about.
But
I
think
that's
where
those
of
us
that
that
have
been
here
for
a
little
while
have
a
responsibility
to
help
people
understand
that,
you
know,
for
example,
when,
when,
when,
when
I'm,
when
I
get
a
new
person,
in
all
honesty,
the
first
thing
I
give
is
not
a
big
book.
First
thing
I'm
more
apt
to
give
them
is
a
coffee
pot
or
a
broom
or
a
table.
Because
what
I
find
is
that
sense
of
belonging
that's
connected
with
being
part
of
a
team
is
vitally
important.
And
so
I
don't
want
it
to
be
brilliant.
I
want
it
to
be
busy.
Yeah.
I
want
him
to
get
in
there
so
he
feels
like
he's
part
of
something,
you
know?
So
that's
what
I'll
do
with
him.
And
we'll
get
down
to
cases,
get
down
to
program.
But
first,
I
to
know
that
he's
in
the
right
place
and
he's
got
a
place.
He's
useful
as
I
do
that,
and
that's
my
way
of
getting
folks
done.
And
I
like
to
do
that
kind
of
thing.
Yeah,
yeah.
Why
did
Bill
Wilson
have
such
a
hard
time
promoting
the
General
Service
committee?
He
did
a
good
job
promoting.
I
just
think
we
didn't
have
receptive
customers
or
something.
He,
he
got,
he
was
introducing
a
whole
brand
new
idea.
And
I
don't
know,
I
wasn't
there,
but
I
was
waiting
in
the
wings.
And
but
it
was
this
whole
thing
was
new
to
people.
The
whole
deal
in,
in
55.
I
came
in
at
57
and
this
whole
idea
of
the
structure
of
a
a
that
was
still
in
the
infancy
stage.
And
and
so
I
think
of
bills
that
had
a
tremendous,
tremendous
challenge
in
trying
to
get
that
vision
out.
Got
it
out.
You
know,
that
he
literally
was
asked
to
not
speak
about
traditions
as
as
he
went
around
to
different
places
in
the
country,
people
would
ask
him
tell
you
a
story,
don't
tell
about
those
traditions,
you
know,
And
so
it
was
a
hard
sell,
you
know,
for
for
him
to
try
to
get
this
deal.
But
most
people
are
thinking
provincially
about
the
US,
about
me
and
here
in
my
little
corner
in
the
basement,
yeah,
hard
to
get
people
out
of
that
thing.
Going
to
see
that
that
thing
of
I
don't
know,
but
but
that's
what
it
looked
like.
He
had
a
hard
time
getting
people
to
listen
and
think
So
about
something
more
than
themselves
is
I
think
what
it
really
came
down
to.
Hardself.
Just
somebody
on.
Yeah,
No,
no,
sorry.
Yeah,
this
fellow
right
here.
Yeah.
I
just
want
to
ask
that
when
you
talked
about
the
last
time
that
I
was
here
when
you're
here
on
the
floor
and
that
when
you
talked
about
the
difference
between
a
vote
and
a
group
conscience
and
just.
You
kind
of
graced
upon
out
here
in
the
last
couple
of
questions.
Did
you
just
take
a
very,
very
brief
experience
without
being
the
difference
between
a
group
conscience
and
a
boat
place?
Not
a
very,
very
brief,
not
not
a
very,
very,
very.
I've
got
I
I
went
over
that
the
other
day
a
bit
with
the
and
I
gave
the
example
about
the
thing
of
reimbursing
speakers,
you
know,
for
this
kind
of
thing
that
and
say
it's
same.
It
was
a
group
conscience.
I
gave
that
example.
Yet
I
don't
expect
older
members
to
remember
all
this
stuff.
Yeah,
young
members
remember
it.
The
I
gave
the
example
and
it
really
gets
you
that
whole
business
about
representation,
all
that,
that,
that
we
were
going
over
the,
the
pre
conference
report
in
my
own
group
in
the
business
meeting
and
that
I
was
watching
that
and
thinking
about
Bill's
vision,
you
know,
and,
and,
and,
and
so
I
said
to
the
group
that
when
we
finished
our
report,
I
said,
you
know,
if,
if,
if
old
Bill
could
see
what
we're
doing
tonight,
he'd
smile
because
that's
exactly
what
he
envisioned
was
that
the
group
conscious
would
take
a
concern
or
consideration
and
then
really
give
it
the
test
of,
of,
of
thorough
discussion
at
the
Home
group
level
and,
and,
and
then
would
move
that
forward,
you
know,
and
so
that
was
his
whole
idea
with
this,
this,
this
deal
of
the
general
service
conference
and
how
the
Home
group
would
be
the
driving
force.
But
it's
hard
to
be
a
diving
force
if
you're
not
there.
And
so
when
you
got
77%
staying
home,
you
got
a
very
weak
kind
of
a
deal.
And
so
that,
that's
the
thing
that's
troubling
to
me.
And
with
that
whole
idea
that
and,
and
group
conscious
is,
is
nothing
more
than
the,
it's
the
what
I
like
to
do
is,
is
pull
something
out
for
group
conscious
that
really
tests
principles
that
we
really
need
to
prayerfully
consider,
not
just
a
quick
vote,
but
more
than
that,
it's
got
to
be
a
thorough
kind
of
examining
of
what
is
the
right
thing
to
do.
You're
not
most
popular,
but
what's
the
right
thing
to
do.
And
that
that's
what
the
group
conscience
is
about
is
just
getting
down
to
that,
to
what
we
honestly
believe
is
the
right
thing
to
do.
And
so
to
me
that's
that's
an
awfully
important
kind
of
a
distinction
that
that
between
just
doing
business
and
getting
down
to
what?
Good
to
see
you.
Thanks.
Yeah,
I
just
wanted
to
comment
that
when
I
first
got
involved
in
service,
my
sponsor
at
the
level
of
ECM,
GSR
and
up
the
ladder,
I've
never
been
involved
in
that.
So
he
suggested
I
go
and
ask
somebody
that
was
in
that
kind
of
service
to
be
my
sponsor,
which
I
service
sponsor.
And
one
of
the
greatest
things
that
he
gave
to
me
that
helped
me,
I
said,
well,
I
said
will
you
be
my
service
sponsor?
And
he
says,
yeah,
I'll
do
that.
And
then
after
that,
I
says,
well,
as
a
new
guy
does,
right,
what
do
I
do
now?
Right.
And
the
first
thing
he
said
was
go
away,
get
the
book
called
Language
of
the
Heart
and
read
the
book
Language
of
the
Heart.
Because
a
lot
of
this
stuff
we're
talking
about
here,
like
it
was
the
greatest
thing
you
could
tell
me.
Like
I
found
out
how
all
these
traditions
came
together
and
how
they
were
developed
and
very
valuable
resources
to
put
the
plan.
You
bet.
Yeah.
Thank
you.
It
really
is
that
language
as
hard
as
nothing
more
than
a
collection
of
articles
Bill
wrote
long
ago.
That's
all
it
is.
It's
not
a
new
publication.
It's
the
old
thing.
But
it's
really.
I
use
it
a
lot.
I
use
it
a
lot.
Thank
you
for
that.
And
by
the
way,
yeah.
Now
I'm
somebody
who
does
not
do
service
sponsorship.
Yeah.
I
like
a
package
deal.
I
like.
I
like
to
have
the
all,
all
the
legacies
met.
And
so
if
people
ask
me
about
being
a
service
officer,
no,
Now,
I
wouldn't
want
to
do
that.
Yeah.
What
I
want
to
do
is
we
hate
the
whole
deal.
You
know,
if
we
get
too
stratified
in
one
area,
you
know,
I
want
to
be
concerned
about
the
entire
fellowship
and
not
just,
you
know,
11
particular
area.
That's
just
my
own
bias
about
that
thing.
By
the
way,
right
here,
can
you
talk
about
getting
through
hard
times
and
recovery?
I
did.
I
did
That's
that's
that's
that's
because
of
a
hard
time
in
recovery.
That's
him.
It'll
make
you
shut
out
stuff.
Yeah,
yeah,
not
only
thing.
The
only
thing
I
said
that
you
have
two
things.
I
just,
I
mentioned
that
I
run
into
a
lot,
you
know,
as
as
a
general
rule,
when
somebody
I'm
not
sponsoring,
they're
just
talking
to
me
about
a
problem.
My
response
is
not
automatic,
but
but
it's
almost
always
fits.
You're
working
on
the
wrong
patient.
You're
working
on
the
wrong
patient.
And
somebody's
somebody's
talking
to
me
about
a
problem
they
got
with
somebody.
It's
not
to
somebody's
themselves.
And
and
so,
you
know
that
that
thing
of
being
in
tune,
practicing
the
principal
and
all
that
kind
of
stuff.
And
the
other
illustration
I
gave
was
about
getting
through
that
crisis
time
of
just
survival,
you
know,
of
making
sure
that
I
don't
drink.
And
that
that
what
it
boiled
down
to
me
was
two
things.
One
was
to
when
I
get
it,
and
I've
had
it
not
for
a
long
time,
but
I've
had
it,
where
I
absolutely
was
overwhelmed
with
the
obsession
to
drink.
And
what
I
did
was
two
things
that
I
don't
know,
but
nobody
taught
me.
I
by
necessity,
if
one
is
to
pray
and
the
other
is
to
hang
on
and,
and
I've
gotten
through
everyone
of
them,
you
know,
so,
but
I
think
that's
what
it
comes
down
to.
There's
there's
there's
no
neat
trick
for
doing.
It's
just
a
matter.
Sometimes
you
just
got
to
grit
your
teeth
and
pull
them
through
and
the
antidote
to
it
may
just
stay
in
really,
really
engaged
in
the
program.
So
it's
a
way
of
life
and
not
just
something
I
attend,
you
know,
with
them.
That
that's
for
me
is
what
what
works
a
great
deal.
Yes.
Somebody.
Somebody
with
you.
Yeah,
Just
to
back
back
up
to
six,
understanding
of
that
perfect
peripheral
consideration,
because
I
know
how
it
works
in
our
business
means
we
call
a
vote
and
that's
pretty
simple.
Hands
up
yes,
hands
up
no.
When
you're
bringing
a
group
conscience
in
the
way
you've
described
as
prayerful
consideration,
would
you
bring
up
an
issue
that
needs
to
be
decided
on
and
have
everyone
go
home
for
for
a
week
or
so?
We've
had
an
experience
in
prayerful
consideration
and
then
bring
it
back.
Is
that
the
process?
Yeah,
we'll
often
do
that
in
that
meeting
where
you
may
all
pray
together
and
then
come
up
with
a
conscience.
What's
the
process?
Yeah,
we'll
often
say
give
this
some
thought
and
then
we'll
do
a
group
conscience.
We,
we,
we,
we
don't
confuse
group
conscious
and
business
people.
They're
two
totally
different
worlds
where
you
bring
it
up
and
let's
have
a
group
conscience
and
not
too
much,
not
too
much,
a
couple
weeks
at
most.
Yeah,
but
you
basically
just
want
each
individual
to
have
an
opportunity
to
think
it
through.
So
we're
not
just
doing
a
pop
quiz,
you
know,
in
some
sort
of
spontaneous
thing.
So
it
wouldn't
happen
all
in
that
same
meeting.
There
would
be
a
gap
of
time
where
where
people
would
take
it
home
and
the
opportunity
to
examine
tradition
like
the
one
I
use
a
reimbursed
and
speakers
for
the
expense.
And
that
got
into
traditions
about
self
support
and
that
kind
of
thing.
And,
and,
and
the,
the
solution
that
the
ad
hoc
committee
came
up
with
and
recommended,
I
didn't
agree
with
it.
I
didn't
vote
against
it.
It
would
not
have
been
my
suggestion,
but
it
was
a
pretty
darn
good
suggestion.
And,
and
so
I
think
that's
what
happened
with
prayerful
consideration,
people
will
come
up
with
things,
but
but
given
thought
to
it
and
not
just
some
spontaneous
reaction
to
it.
And
to
that
to
that
to
me
is
what
critically
important
about
it
and
a
differentiating
that
we
really
do
trivialize
the
term
group
conscious
a
lot.
But
calling
that
a
business,
a
business
being
a
group
conscious.
And
that's
not
that's
just
survival
stuff.
That's
stuff
you
do
to
operationally
to
to
to
have
to
group
run,
you
take
care
of
coffee,
stuff
like
that.
But
when
you
get
into
a
real
issue,
that
principles
matter
a
great
deal.
You
know,
that's
awfully
important
to
me
to
have
a
differentiation
between
that
a
lot
more
members
will
say,
well,
we
need
to
have
a
group
conscious
on
this.
And
I
don't
think
a
lot
of
them
know
what
they're
talking
about
when,
when
they
say
that
because
it's
usually
there's
a,
there's
a
5
minute
discussion
and
then
there's
a
vote.
And
pretty
much
everybody
in
that
room
thinks
that
we've
just
had
a
group
conscious.
And
I
wanted
to
would
be
one
of
those
up
until
this
weekend.
Yeah,
we
offer
trivialize
it.
We
sure
do.
Yeah,
yeah.
Good
point,
Good
point.
So
we
need
to
study
it.
We
need
to
look
at
it.
Otherwise
what
it
really
becomes
is
a
can
report.
Yeah.
And
that's
what
that
time
thing
could
do,
is
give
people
time
to
get
informed.
That's
a
good
point.
Yeah,
yeah,
yeah.
Jeff,
sorry,
but
we've
been
missing
that
thing
yet.
A
couple
of
things
that
come
to
mind.
One
of
the
I'm
a
GSR
for
District
42
and
when
I
if
it
was
new
to
me
when
I
started,
but
one
of
the
things
my
sponsor
did
very
early,
he
says,
you
know,
if
you
want
to
say
so
where
you
do
what
sober
people
do,
which
is
pick
up
ostrich
chairs
and
you
know,
you
said
that
coffee,
you
know,
that
little
thing.
And
so
I
learned
that
and
anyway,
when
I
got
became
a
GSR,
it
was
all
new.
We
learned
quite
a
bit
of
things
that
we
were
having
a
separation
of
another
district
and
somebody
and,
but
at
the
end
of
the
day,
one
of
the
things
that
came
up
is
that
there
was
the
amount
of
GSR's
in
our
district
was
a
small
number,
you
know,
compared
to
the
number
of
groups.
But
then
we
found
out
by
doing
some
research
is
that
there
was
a
lot
of
meetings
that
they
weren't
groups
and
and
some
meetings
didn't
know
that
they
weren't
a
group,
right?
They
just
moved.
They
just
naive,
they
didn't
know
any
different
and
they
felt
that
when
they
registered,
you
know,
in
ours,
in
our
Vancouver
area,
that
they
become
a
group.
But
that's
not
the
case.
You
have
to
register
with
New
York.
That's
a
group.
And
so
we
did.
We
were
able
to
get
our
GCM
to
go
to
some
of
these
meetings
and
tell
them
the
difference
between
a
group
and
a
meeting.
And
just
on
this
Saturday,
we
set
up
a
workshop
that
was
a
service
in
a
a
show
us
by
the
GSR
is
a
DCM.
And
you
know,
we
tried
to
come
with
it
sort
of
like
a
little
popular
lunch.
And
the
one
problem
with
that
we've
got
the
most
loosely
defined
expression
of
what
a
group
is
that
it
could
not
be
more
general.
You
know,
two
or
more
people
gathered
for
personal
recovery
may
solve
themselves
A
group
provided
to
have
no
other
affiliation.
And
there
really
is
no
criteria,
you
know,
that
if
if
if
people
call
it
a
group,
that's
what
it
is.
And,
and,
you
know,
and
the,
I'm
a
strong
group
guy,
but
in
terms
of
trying
to
define
it,
you
know,
that
that
it's
an
arbitrary
kind
of
thing.
I
do
a
lot
of
workshops
on
home
groups
and
this
kind
of
thing.
And,
and
I
always
use
that
thing
of
trying
to
differentiate
the
two.
But
it's
time
I
differentiation,
you
know?
Best
definition
I
ever
heard
of.
A
group
is
2
or
more
people,
one
of
whom
needn't
be
present
as
an
anybody
Got
a
definition.
But
it
really
is
what
it
is.
It's
a
sense
of
belonging.
Yeah,
it's
a
belonging,
you
know,
like
my
wife
and
our
group,
she's
not
here,
but.
But
she's
still
my
wife,
you
know,
that.
And
that
same
thing
with
the
group.
But
you
got
a
meeting,
you
got
a
casual
collection
and
in
a
group
where
you
got
some
committed
relationship.
So.
But
there
is
no
definition
for
it,
you
know.
And
when
we
make
up
one,
it's
ours
because
it's
not
supported
in
the
in
the
literature,
not
supported
in
traditions
yet.
But
yeah,
but
you
know
that
I
feel
strongly
about
it
that.
But
as
far
as
a
clear
delineation
period,
there
is
none.
We
just
ought
to
make
it
up
because
yeah,
just
one
second.
We
got
Joe
right
here.
Just
one
minute.
You
ever
met
Bill
WI
did.
And
how
did
you
relate
to
your
meeting
with?
Well,
I
already
loved
him,
but
when
I
met
him,
the
primary
reason
I
went
to
my
first
International
65
was
to
meet
Bill.
I
didn't
want
to
tell
him
anything.
I
just
want
to
make
sure
he
was
there,
you
know,
and
that
really
was
it.
I
just
wanted
to
be
there.
And
so
as
he
was
there,
he'd
like
to
energize
her.
Bunny
was
all
over
the
place.
There
were
where
you
see
him
a
lot,
but
I
know
you
won't
believe
this.
We
had
a
traditions
meeting
and
we
had
a
skinny
craft
and
I
was
one
of
the
crowd,
so
I
had
a
chance
to
meet
you.
Now
we
didn't
become
fishing
buddies
at
all,
you
know,
but
my
mission
was
accomplished.
I
met
Bill,
had
a
chance
to
say
hi
there.
We
chatted
for
two
minutes
and
then
it
was
gone.
My
mission
was
accomplished.
And
I
I
had
believed
that
might
be
my
last
opportunity
to
turn
out.
It
was
because
the
next
one
in
Miami
he
had
he,
he
died
immediately
after
and
I
couldn't
get
to
Miami.
And
so
I
was
right,
you
know,
I
followed
the
instincts
that
that
that
it
helped
me
a
lot
over
the
years.
So
yeah,
I
did
meet
Bill.
And
but
that
man
was
truly
a
visionary.
He
really
wants
it
to
me.
I
mean,
he
just
absolutely
was
able
to
describe
this,
this,
this
movement,
this
energy
of
secret
to
none.
I'd
I'd
loved
him
dearly.
Yeah,
there
are
a
lot
of
lot
of
people.
I
swear
to
God,
it
it
must
be
bored
or
something.
But
you
got
a
lot
of
muck
Breakers
that
are
trying
to
dig
up
stuff
and
and
to
verify
scandals
and
stuff
that
for
what?
For
God's
sake,
what?
I
mean,
he
was
a
human
being
and
I
was
I
was
in
a
state
just
South
of
here
recently
and
a
guy
there
that
I
love
dearly
and
he
wanted
to
get
together.
He's
quite
I'll,
you
know,
quite
I'll,
he
wanted
me
to
stop
by
see
him.
So
I
went
by,
went
in,
here's
a
guy
that's
that's
at
the
end
of
his
if
he's
rope
pretty
close.
And
I
went
in
and,
and
he
was
telling
me
about
what
he's
doing
and
he
started
telling
me
some
stuff
that
didn't
make
a
lot
of
sense.
And
he
had
a
big
old
book
there
and
I
was
and
he's,
he
said,
take
a
look
at
that
book.
Have
you
ever
seen
that
big
old
thing
look
like
one
coffee
table
Books
picked
it
up
and
I
said,
what
is
it,
Johnny?
So
he
started
telling
me
some
goofy
off
the
wall
stuff
about
some
notion
of
Bill
doing
this
or
that.
And
now
I'm
looking
at
a
guy
that's
terminal.
I'm
a
kind
hearted
person,
but
I
thought
about
that.
He
was
complaining
and
bitching
because
nobody
would
come
to
see
you.
He
had
to
get
a
guy
from
North
Carolina
to
come
see
you.
And
so
I'm
listening
to
that
and
I'm
thinking,
do
I
just
act
like
I
don't
hear
anything
and
just
walk
off
into
the
sunset?
I
said
no,
let's
don't
do
that.
So
I
told
him.
I
said,
I
said,
I
said,
my
friend,
let
me
suggest
something
to
you.
You're
not
reading
a
book,
you're
doing
an
investigation
for
what
I
mean.
Come
on
man.
Good
God,
you
don't
need
that
thing
at
this
point.
Now
what
you're
doing
is
driving
people
away.
Who
wants
to
come
in
here
and
romance
something
like
that?
And
so
you
no
wonder
nobody's
coming
to
see
you.
They're
not
going
to,
you
know,
you
know,
it's
so
it's
it's
just
sad,
you
know,
people
get
off
into
that
kind
of
junk.
You
know,
instead
of
trying
to
find
out,
you
know
what
the
what
was
the
values
of
a
guy
that
introduced
a
fellowship
to
the
world
and
you're
going
to
throw
some
little
piece
of
something
a
good
God.
Give
me
a
break.
And
so
anyway,
it's
it's
just
just
unfortunate
we
see
that
kind
of
stuff
going
on.
He
was
a
human
being.
Yeah.
You
got
in
the
corner
been.
Yeah,
I
just.
But
what
kept
me
here
all
weekend
as
I'm
waiting
for
the
homework.
Excitement
go
team.
Thank
you
for
that
by
golly
I
really
appreciate
that
you
got
Let
me
lay
this
out.
Did
we
come
back
because
of
Yeah,
I
know
that
the
president's
going
to
call
time
to
do
the
quick
one
And
but
group
conscience
is
sort
of
looking
for
the
spiritual
solution,
is
looking
for
what
the
principles
are.
It's
going
group
inventory
is
evaluating
how
you're
doing
what
you
said
you
were
going
to
do,
you
know,
so
that
just
says
your
evaluator
plan.
Our
group
inventory
is
simple.
We
we
laid
out
those
20
things
we
did
in
that
starting
that
that's
how
we
evaluate
how
we're
doing
on
that.
So
it's
basically
like
a
merchant
would
you
know,
if
he
wants
to
know
what
his
inventory
is,
he
counts
as
Kansas.
If
he
wants
to
know
what
his
customers
are
values,
he
evaluates
his
principle.
So
a
big
difference.
That's
really
what
it
comes
to
me
the,
the
assignment.
Let
me
tell
you
the
assignment
and
obviously
it's,
it's,
I'm
not
going
to
check
on
you,
see
if
you're
doing
it.
I
can
tell
next
time
I'm
here
for
you
smiling
when
if
you're
somebody
that
wants
more
than
you've
got,
if
you're
somebody
that
wants
to
see
a
field
that
you're
carrying
out
your
primary
purpose.
If
you're
somebody
that
would
like
to
see
Alcoholics
have
a
better
chance
at
recovery,
then
the
homework
assignment
might,
might,
might
be
worthwhile.
I
mentioned
now
don't
walk
out.
You
don't
get
that.
What
what,
what
it
is
is
this,
you
know,
Yeah,
I
was
telling
that
little
deal
the
other
day
about
the
detox
and
the
lady
over
the
behavioral
unit
and
the
fact
that
nobody
knew
what
happened
to
the
Alcoholics
who
hit
the
wall.
We
have
Alcoholics
hitting
the
wall
every
day,
everywhere
within
walking
distance
where
we
are.
And
I
guarantee
you
Alcoholics
will
hit
the
wall
today.
It
just
it's
universal
thing.
What
what,
what
I
would
suggest
if
you
really
want
to
do
something
about
that
and
then
you
don't
have
you
don't
have
a
plan
of
action,
go
back
to
your
neighborhood.
You
know,
Vancouver,
I
don't
talk
about
all
of
them
like
Vancouver.
Go
to
a
place
where
you
live,
where
you're
part
of
a
community
where
you
really
have
concern
about
the
health
and
welfare
of
folk
in
that
community
and
identify
a
place
where
Alcoholics
hit
the
wall.
And
that
could
be
anything,
you
know
that
give
it.
You
have
a
big,
we
hit
the
wall
in
a
lot
of
different
ways.
Broken
marriages
with
welfare
stuff,
social
services
with
ministers.
You
know,
that's
amazing.
You
know
how
many
places
Alcoholics
hit
the
wall
and
where
they
go.
And
you
know
that
a
hospital,
a
detox,
a
triage
nurse,
places
where
Alcoholics
go
when
they
are
absolutely
up
against
it.
And
when
you
identify
that,
evaluate
it
and
see
what
you
think
ought
to
happen.
If
there's
nothing
happening,
if
they're
hitting
the
wall
and
lost
and
don't
know
what
to
do,
think
about
what
ought
to
happen.
Take
the
example
that
I
used
about
when
I
was
talking.
That
Gala
was
over
the
behavioral
stuff
and
and
neither
she
nor
I
knew
what
happened
to
Alcoholics
who
couldn't
get
admitted.
So
what
we
laid
out
was
a
plan
where
we
would
provide,
simply
provide
phone
numbers.
And
if
you
have
to
send
somebody
out
in
the
cold,
tell
them
they
can
get
some
help
by
calling
one
of
these
numbers.
Simple
plan,
eh?
Simple
plan.
Simple
to
us,
not
to
somebody
running
a
hospital.
They
don't
have
a
clue
how
to
do
it.
And
you
try
to
call
it
in
the
phone
book.
Try
it
when
you
get
home.
Take
a
look
at
the
phone
book.
See
what's
listed
under
the
A
column.
My
God,
man,
you
can
phone
call
to
the
moon
looking
at
some
of
that
stuff.
That's
so
just
a
clear
little
thing
like
that.
The
to
identify
the
problem,
think
about
what
needs
to
be
done
and
then
try
to
implement
it.
Try
to
implement
it.
The
last
three
test
12
step
'cause
I
had
I
only
had
three
last
year.
I
used
to
have
three
a
day
and
only
had
three
last
year.
All
three
of
them
came
from
ministers.
All
three,
because
that's
where
alcohol
is,
go
when
they
don't
have
any
money.
Hey,
girl,
got
here.
That's
where
to
come
from.
And
it's
as
simple
as
that.
Yeah.
I
mean,
you
don't
have
to
start
a
movement
or
any
kind
of
thing
like
that
or
organized
committees.
Just
just
take
it
on,
you
know,
and,
and
go
somewhere
where
to
hit
the
wall
and
we've
got
that
going
everywhere.
And
then
lay
out
something
that
that
here's
what
you
can
do
with
that.
Most
people
don't
know,
you
know,
it's
been
a
long
time.
Go
to
employers
who
are
having
to
fire
folks,
don't
know
what
to
do
with
them.
Your
treatment
is
becoming
less.
I
don't
know
about
Canada,
but
it
is
certainly
becoming
less
available
in
my
country.
And
and
so
you
know
that
that
would
be
the
only
thing
I
would
suggest
because
just
feeling
good
and
that
we've
talked
about
some
stuff
that
has
some
worth
and
value
has
to
me,
I
hope
it
has
to
you.
But
but
what
does
it
mean
unless
you
take
some
action
on
it?
And
so
how
to
make
it
come
alive,
You
know,
that's
that's
that's
what
I'm
talking
about
is
to
do
this
thing
and
that
that
would
be
the
homework.
And
next
time
I
hear
you,
you
can
give
me
a
report
on
on
what
happened.
Yeah.
Yeah,
Tom,
inspiration
here
in
your
53
years,
you've
heard
what
you
need
on.
I
would
love
to
hear
what's
in
these
53
years
at
that
point
where
you
were
thrown
back
in
your
chair
and
off
and
we're
as
a
result
of
a
situation
of
something
you've
seen
that
just
you
knew
God
was
working
in
these
rules.
Something
where
you
went
down
or
up
which
something
that
really
was
exhilarating
knew
God
was
working
in
groups.
It
was,
it
was
just
a
beautiful
been
a
tongue.
There'd
been
a
ton,
not
so
much
moving
wide.
I
don't
have
that
kind
of
oversight.
But
but,
but
I'll
just
give
you
an
example
of
just
some
things
that
many
years
ago
I
was
working
with
a
bunch
of
guys
in
prison
and
I
was
really,
really
exasperated
at
the
seeming
futility
of
the
world
because
it
looked
like
nobody
was
catching
on.
Nobody
was
really
becoming
a
member.
And
I,
I
took
ten
guys,
ten
guys
and
said,
let's
build
a
group.
And
to
10
guys,
we
went
to
work
and
built
a
group
and
we
wound
up
calling
it
the
Triangle
Group
recovery
service
and
Unity.
It
happened
to
be
located
at
a
place
called
the
Triangle
and
there,
but
it
was
the
Triangle
that
put
it
together.
Recovery
service
unit.
I
watched
that
group
develop
three
different
groups
within
the
group
1A
recovery
group,
A
newcomer
deal
1A
Unity
group,
which
was
a,
a
speaker
meeting
or
somebody
came
in,
we
had
Unity
with
people
outside.
The
other
was
service.
When
they
developed
the
service
group,
I
didn't
get
to
go
to
it
because
it
was
it
was
a
closed
meeting
conducted
by
inmates,
only
inmate
AA
members.
No
coffee,
no
brownie
points,
no
nothing.
And
I
all
ten
of
those,
and
that's
been
45
years
ago.
All
ten
of
those
men
are
either
sober
today
or
died
sober.
Yeah,
that's
why
is
that
exhilarating?
Because
it
proved
to
me
that
this,
this
intensive
work
where
we
really
get
in
to
to
the
nitty
gritty
of
this
program
doesn't
miss.
It
absolutely
works.
It
will
just
take
the
time
to
get
it
to
do
it.
And
and
so
that
that's
just
one
that's
had
great
meaning
watching
what
happened
during
the
big
book
workshop
and
something
that
produces
absolute
results.
It
proves
to
me
there's
nothing
broken
in
a
a
it's
a
matter
of
us
just
not
hitting
the
ball
and
not
moving
forward.
So
I've
had
many,
many
mountain
top
experiences
that
that
exhilarating.
The
president
said
we
don't
have
to
go
home,
but
we
can't
stay
here.
Yeah.
Always
disturbing
when
the
captain
deserts
the
ship.
Who's
the
vice
president?
Oh,
I
thought
10
minutes.
Yeah.
What's
your
thoughts
on
roundups
and
convention?
Stop.
Love
them.
Love
them.
Yeah,
that
what
was
I
tell
it
was
enormously
important
to
me.
And
I'm
glad
to
see
you
guys
here,
particularly
if
you
relatively
new
the
program.
You
know,
when
I
came
into
a
I
was,
I
was
a
pretty
isolated
guy
and
you
when
when
I
hit
North
Carolina,
conventions
were
absolutely
essential
to
me
because
it
expanded
my
family
and
I
got
to
know
people.
I
tell
you,
the
cattle.
Funny
thing
happened,
but
drugs
are
really
slick
dude
and
I
just
got
out
of
jail
and
I
don't
have
any
money.
Yeah,
I
mean
I
I'm
a
poor
as
a
church
rat
and
we're
getting
a
group
going
and
the
minister
of
church
came
by
one
night.
He
said
can
you
stop
by
the
office
for
a
minute
and
and
before
you
go
home.
I
said,
yeah,
sure.
They
did
not
be
working
late.
He
said,
well
you
have
to
hang
around.
So
I
went
up
by
and
he
said
funny
if
I
sneaky
drunks
you,
he
said.
I'm
pretty
naive.
He
said
the
A
members
in
this
area,
they're
having
a
convention
in
Durham
and
they
would
like
for
you
to
go
there
as
their
delegate
and
well,
I
didn't
know
anything
about
God.
We're
going
to
vote
on
the
coronation
of
somebody.
I
didn't
know
what
we're
going
to
do.
That's
all
I
said
OK.
And
he
said
that
they
will
they
they
will
pay
your
expense
at
you.
And
I
said,
well,
I'll
be
glad
to
do
it.
So
I
go
down
to
the
convention.
A
demon
is
naive
as
I
was.
It
didn't
take
too
long.
Says
I've
been
had
we
vote
no,
nothing,
man.
I
mean,
this
is
a
party.
This
is
good
time,
whoopee
and
all
that.
And
I
said
those
suckers
have
sandbagged
me
just
big
time.
I
went
back,
I
got
that
minister
and
I
said,
I
said
look
here,
I
said
that's
not
the
way
this
thing
works.
I
got
snookered
and
I
said
you
going
to
have
to
give
that
money
back
to
wherever
you
got
it,
he
said.
That's
the
problem
with
anonymity.
I
don't
know
who
it
was
so.
But
that's
how
I
got
to
my
first
convention.
Yeah.
But
what
a
wonderful
thing
to
start
seeing
the
world
grow
and
seeing
that
at
that
time
at
that
convention,
I
knew
nobody
at
the
International
in
Toronto,
where
I
went
to
see
Bill,
I
didn't
know
10
people.
I
was
in
San
Antonio
a
couple
of
three
weeks
ago.
Whatever.
Swear
to
God,
I
think
I
knew
just
about
everybody
there.
Some
marvelous
thing.
That
is
the
thing
of
the
growth
in
the
fellowship
and
watching
it
grow
up
around
you.
You
know,
to
me,
that's
what
ordinance
is,
not
this
scintillating
dialogue
and
all
that
stuff.
That's
OK,
but
that
thing
of
being
part
of
a
family
that
we're.
There's
hardly
a
place
on
this
planet
that
I
can
go
and
not
know
somebody.
What
a
wonderful
feeling.
Wonderful
feeling
that
doesn't
happen
by
just
sitting
home
and
And
wait.
It's
about
getting
out
and
being
part
of
the
action.
Yeah.
So
that
it's
a.
They've
been
tremendously
important
to
me
and
I
love
them.
And
you
got
your
hand
up.
Yeah.
What's
your
experience
with
dissipation
and
cooperation
with
Helen
without
not
I'm
glad
you
mentioned.
Let
me
let
me
just
tell
you
good
news,
bad
news
with
me.
I
believe
I'll
cause
of
the
family
illness.
I'd
rarely
hear
that
said
now
unless
I
say
it.
You
rarely
hear
that
in
our
cross
anonymous.
Now
you
used
to
hear
it
nearly
all
the
time
and
I
think
it
is
a
family
on
this.
I
think
the
family
suffers.
I
mentioned
the
other
day,
I
think
sometimes
the
family
suffers
more
than
we
do
because
they
have
to
explain
behavior
they
don't
understand.
And
so
I'm
a
great
believer
in
in
the
vital
nature
of
it.
I
also
believe
that
while
we're
not
affiliated,
there's
a
close
dependency
relationship
between
us
right
now
with
with
without
question,
Al
Anon
is
is
experiencing
a
huge
decline.
They're
they're
really
written
getting
into
into
not
trouble,
but
they're
just
losing
their
membership
is
really
going
down.
I
frankly
think
a
lot
of
it
is
the
product
of
what
we've
been
talking
about
with
these
little
one-dimensional
meetings.
You
know,
you
think
about
what
the
average
one-dimensional
meeting
looks
like.
Where
does
the
family
get
in?
How
does
the
family
get
involved?
They
can't,
they
can't.
And
so
I
think
we've
already
done
is
effectively
started
to,
to,
to,
to
minimize
that
vital
nature
of
that
relationship
is
I,
I
think
that
I
think
it's
awfully
vital.
You
know,
my
wife
told
me
a
while
back,
so
somebody
asked
her,
said,
how
on
earth
do
you
put
up
with
your
husband
traveling
so
much?
And
she
said
if
it
wasn't
for
Al
Anon,
we
probably
wouldn't
have
lasted
three
years.
She's
probably
right.
Yeah.
So
I
think
it's
a
vital
thing.
And,
and,
and
So
what
we
experience
now
is
I'm
honest
to
God,
I
think
we
have
basically
shut
family
out.
Nobody
planned
it,
nobody
drew
up
a
plan
for
it.
But
as
we
have
developed,
we
have
just
effectively
closed
out
the
family
in
much
of
the
country.
And
so
I'm,
I'll
give
you
a
specific
example.
I
I
spoke
at
a
convention
a
while
back.
Well,
as
Florida,
I
mean,
it's
gonna
be
dark
secret
in
Florida.
There's
a
huge
conference.
There
were
38.
It
really
struck
me.
There
were
3800
members
in
a
Tennis
Alcoholics
3800.
Now
listen
to
the
numbers.
There
were
240
something
Alamos.
There
were
23
or
4
outings.
Does
that
sound
like
a
family
illness
and
a
family
program?
I
don't
think
so.
Don't
think
so
that
it's
up.
You
know
that
I
think
there's
that
I
think
there's
reason
for
concern
in
that.
I
have
concern
about
it.
We
have
a
strong
Aleran
group
and
and,
and
the
same
place
we
meet
and
they're
not
part
of
us,
but
they
don't
go
on
well
are
part
of
the
the
the
fellowship.
And
I
think
so.
I
think
it's
awfully
important
kind
of
a
thing
that
families
so
often
we
have
an
extremely
high
divorce
rate
in
recovery,
higher
divorce
rate.
And
I
think
some
of
it
has
to
do
with
that
thing
of
your
ships
in
the
night
type
stuff.
So
it
it's
it's
it's
kind
of
a
live
nerve
with
me
with
with
that
kind
of
thing.
I
got
I
tell
you
that
I've
never
understood
this.
I
don't
know
if
I
ever
will.
We
we
Alcoholics
will
tend
to
be
about
as
emotional
and
and
modeling
about
how
much
we
care
about
our
kids.
Not
on
you
at
all
Season.
I
talk
to
my
kids
and
just
just
just
just
tear
up.
You
know,
it's,
it's
a
very
sore
point.
I'll
never
understand
if
you
go
to
a
conference
and
see
the
aliens
trying
to
have
a
meeting,
we
ignore
them
like
the
plague.
We
ignore
them
like
to
plague.
You
see
some
kid
in
there
trying
to
suck
up
the
nerve
to
just
get
up
and
speak.
I've
had
them
literally,
literally
say,
would
you
please
come
in
and
listen
to
to
us
that,
you
know,
we
got
to
have
somebody
to
talk
to.
And
that
same
conference
I'm
talking
about.
And
now
I'm
like
she
said,
let
me
tell
you
what
my
son
daughter
said.
I
was
in
the
outing
meeting
and
let
me
tell
you
what
my
daughter
said
that
she
caught
her,
said,
you
know
who
was
in
our
meeting
and
she
said
no,
who
said
Tom?
I
was
right
in
our
meeting.
Well,
my
God,
that's
a
little
brainer.
But
when
you
were
16
year
old
kid
or
a
14
year
old
kid
trying
to
speak
to
somebody
and
you
can't
even
get
anybody
to
listen
to
you?
Come
on,
man.
Yeah.
Where's
all
that
compassion?
So
I
think
we
really
have
gotten
pretty
sloppy
about
that
kind
of
a
thing
and
it's
just
we're
not
paying
attention
to
it.
It's
what
it
looks
to
me
like.
So
if
you
have
concerns
about
that,
you
do.
Yeah,
I
round
up.
We
have
Alan
as
a
guest
speaker
around
2:30
to
4:00.
We
have
lots
of
their
participation
in
a
meetings
on
the
Alabama
Meet
Everybody
Else
High
school.
I
learned
our
group,
my
kids
and
what
part.
I
showed
you
my
wife
attitude
through
going
out
on
meetings
and
go
to
1000
meetings.
That's
where
I
just
heard
it
from.
Lorraine
telling
me
what
the
hell
my
problem
was
like
their
stuff.
Yeah,
it
really
worked,
I
tell
you.
I'm
speaking
Tuesday
night
in
Chapel
Hill,
NC
Some
doctor
that
I
don't
know
called
and
asked
me
if
I
should
come
up
and
speak
Tuesday
night,
and
my
son
had
talked
with
him.
He
talked
to
my
son
about
getting
me
to
do
that.
My
son
grew
up
in
a
he's
not
as
a
member,
but
he
grew
up.
He
went
through
allottee
and
he
understands
the
program
and
I
thought
this
is
really
something
two
docks
trapping
me.
But
it
came
from
that
family
deal.
You
know,
this
guy
said
you
your
dad,
the
one
that
I
think
I
know,
and
he
said
yeah.
And
so
that's
that's
what
happened.
But
if
the
family's
not
in
on
that,
you're
not
going
to
all
he
says,
duh,
you
know,
and
so
but
they
grew
up
in
it
and
it
has
great
influence
on
it.
Yeah,
I
appreciate
you
bring
it
up.
I
think
it's
vital.
Yeah.
Just
quickly
on
that
own
on
2013,
the
Alvin
not
world
conventional
being
Vancouver
really.
All
right,
shoot,
I
might
bring
my
wife
up
here.
You
never
know
She,
she's
a
rich
Saskatchewan
farm
girl.
So
she.
Yeah.
Oh,
the
first
one.
How
about
that?
Way
to
go.
Couldn't
get
our
international.
So
you
get
to
Alan,
not
international.
Let's
go
for
it.
You
got
Well,
listen,
guys,
we
have,
we
have,
we
have,
we
have
beat
her
hard.
And
I
have
thoroughly
enjoyed
being
with
you.
It's
just
been
an
absolute
treat.
And
you're
a
good
bunch.
You
know,
there's
some
wayward
souls
here,
but
we'll
get
them.
We'll
get
them
and
we're
going
to
capture
them.
I
got
you.
So
thanks
a
million.
Great
to
be
there.