A 11th step retreat in Camp Monroe, NY

Thank you very much.

I begin to wonder who he was talking about.

First of all, I want to thank the committee for making it possible for me to be here, inviting me to take part in this program. This is the first program of this particular

11:33. I was privileged to speak on the 1st program, the Kampmann Rd. Retreat,

so I'll certainly get a size of doing these things.

I have enjoyed this retreat that far as you probably have. Let's make change at any moment.

I was thinking about some of the talks I heard up to this time, and there's some pretty difficult people to follow,

but everyone has his own story and his own experiences and his own way of putting them across.

I know in a A we hear a lot about miracles and I always like to

talk about the medical of AA.

You heard something about miracles just a few moments ago from our visitors, from the, you know, institution

is the people who are in such position and they set fire with a desire of betterment and do something about it and continue to do something about it in the face of seeming hopelessness. With this,

I think that every person here, every Taskah Horizon and every other person who belongs to an alcoholic that is associated with one in any quorum, I think perhaps he's been touched by miracle. I know that my interest to this fellowship is not being short of miraculous. I've often told this story,

by the way. I got to a A I came to a fellowship which was not in existence,

became a member of something that wasn't going either.

The mathematical cancers of my other being associated with this feature for practically, no,

I is not a uh, I have something like, uh, one of the speakers last night, our old friend Julian said I was not a chaotic picture. I was a chronic thinker. I was drunk all the time. This was normal operating procedure for me

and I noticed that get into all the guys about PTS and this because I never gave these things a shot.

I'll have the medicine to keep them away. Only these people have made it so tough on themselves is to get these kind of activities right ahead. Chronic

Alcoholics. And it was normal, as I said, for me to be drunk. I wound up above and I'm in a bottle. I whip myself out of position where I could even work. Julian was making a short trip to work last night. I go along with him and a lot of work business. But to go to the place, as far as I'm concerned, it wasn't by my choice at all.

I became absolutely unemployed.

I got and told a story about how I couldn't even get on WPA

and when it is nothing more unemployable. Relax. I also mentioned one time about the fact that my ex-wife had a big interest in my going to work naturally, and she happened to be the head of a news department in an employment Bureau and she couldn't get me a job.

So I would say that as far as I'm playing with this concern, that is about at the bottom of the barrel.

And my last crash died in a bit. He's out of my winding up similar city, my brother and his truck attentively. This is my last chance to be able to stay home and live a respectable life. This was predicated upon the idea to go to work for him

and I accepted the challenge. Not without some reluctance, however, but I accepted it. So

I get jumped on before I ever get to New York. We got to New York, He dumped me out on the waterfront and left me there. I can't tell you how long I stayed in New York, but I didn't deserve a long time. I did not lie around in the bowling. New York. I found something better

to my liking. I got myself the first gainful employment I had had in many a long day, and this gainful employment consisted of it. There were a lot of truck drivers used to drive their trucks into New York, and they parked their tractors there under this overpot down by the Canard steamship lines on that district,

and they would go to the hotel room someplace for the night or so they had to wait to get a return. Low class.

These fellows employed me as a watchman.

A truck driver gave me $0.50 a night to watch his tractor. With this $0.50 I was in business,

so I was paying seven cents a pound for my booze. I bought it in the wallpaper store

and with this $0.50 I couldn't drink that much food, it was impossible. So I save money.

I'd be staying with capital.

I didn't have to eat. I didn't pay anything for eating. Rather, I found out how to eat for free. I didn't have to buy any clothes. I had no taxes to pay. I had no old lady on my back. I had no troubles. I had no creditors. I had it made

and I was saving money.

That is my Commission,

but I when I landed in New York, I had tried to get in the good places of Assistant Long Line and Yonkers, and she picked me up and took me right back down at the waterfront and threw me out of her brother had told me previously.

Yeah, one time sometime later had the doctor over for her youngsters

and they got talking about drinking and she told the doctor about the experience she had with her drunken brother-in-law, her who used to be a nice guy but now is nothing but a drunken bump. He says. You know that, God, I had a brother-in-law like that, was a drunk too.

And he met a group of men who spent all their time trying to fix drums. And this fella hasn't had a drink for quite some time and gave a Doctor Who seems to be in cahoots for him, the doctors over in Akron, OH. And he says all of his time fixing drugs. And if your brother Maria should get back to Ohio, maybe he can get down there to Akron and meet this doctor. Maybe this doctor can fix him. I don't know. This is going on, of course,

sending to my business.

Why God only knows that we head to home. There was nothing there ahead for, but I had it for there and I got there one truck that took me to hear you. I remember that, and I hit the right in from there to Cleveland, try to get in the next, and the little woman met me at the door

and I didn't get in, of course, but she did tell me about this doctor and asked me if I'd like to go down and see him. So I had nothing to lose and I wanted to quit drinking for a long time before this but I was unable to.

So she got me a one way bus ticket to Akron, OH and put me on the bus and sent me. And that's How I Met my sponsor Doctor Bob. He put me in Action City Hospital eventually

and I covered up there and the last drink I had was February 11th, 19 and 38

and I discovered this day

now I had quite an experience there

that says you heard a few moments ago, used to be the Oxford Movement. They did things a lot differently in those days than they do now.

To be out of it May

they didn't suggest anything to me. They told me what I had to do and I'm so glad they did. Just giving this idea of giving drunks a choice as to what they want to do and take a choice between this and that and do this any way you want it. To me, this is a lot of hogwash. It'll never work

to get our drug at strike. You'll always pick the wrong one. He's always looking for an easy way out. There's a price to this and we must pay it.

Their country we have to do

we don't come in here and get hypnotized or do we get well just by rubbing elbows with a lot of other drunks who happen to be sober for a while? Don't work this way. There's a way of doing it. They taught me about this in Akron, OH.

OK, so much for that. I'm not going in anymore of that story I wanna discuss. Some people ask me to relate a couple other things they want to. Some of them heard and they wanted me to relate again. We sit around sometimes reminiscing about things and talking about some experiences and experiences with some of the characters we have met over the years. Believe me, I'm not talking about the good old days, because some of those days were not too good

that many years ago in a A vessels. But I'll tell you one thing, Sir, we used to meet some more interesting drunkster than we ever find today.

We met a bunch of monkeys who were really ready, and they knew that as well as everybody else did. And we really met some characters, and no inroads had been made yet as far as taking area muscle. The world was our oyster. We had plenty of people to play with and plenty of people to experiment with.

Way back about 1939, the Cleveland Plain Delay ran a series of articles about AA. We had started a movement up in Cleveland as AA and their own Grammys article, and we were debuted with responses. Everyone seen was writing us and wanting some help with somebody. A few drunks even wrote in.

This is unusual, but as usually these drug refunds couldn't even write anymore

and none of read newspapers. They use newspapers that make mess with and that's about the use they have for now

anyway. As time went on a lot of judges, social workers, police

ministers, priests, none of the class doctors and what have you. They got interested in this idea about these a a sober nuts. A lot of people who are starting to get off the streets if you could be laying in them and people naked them

and they found out that some of these budget servers did many people have covered up. So some of these social workers got busy and while I want to say the story about her, what she did to me,

this social worker would not be denied. She was a big gal and her name was Mooney.

She was big and she was Irish and she had some little Irish chum named Catherine that she was interested in

and she got on my back about Catherine. She insisted that Catherine was the only girl in the world that amount of anything or should amount to anything, and she's going to teach her that. I fixed classes for future. Stuck with it. Every time I turn around I get in trouble for moving about Catholic

pattern. I'll tell you something about her background. She came from very wealthy people

as we've been educated abroad. He had a good, wonderful opportunity. For one time in her life. She's quite a dao. Catherine broke up one of her uncle's homes when she was 15 years old. She was a swing of gals and at the time that I met Catherine, she was living with some Italian bootleggers in a colored neighborhood

and there was nothing, nothing but nothing the classic wouldn't do for a drink.

And Captain was quite a character. She spent a good deal of her life. In fact, I think she was spending her a life sentence on the installment plan and the woman's workhouse at oneself. How many times she'd been out there, God only knows, but she if she knew every nothing tiny of this place.

I think she took tried when she went out there. Anyway, Nooni thought the caption had possibilities and this is a real challenge. So poor Catherine and cool me I had to work with her

Catherine. I finally got a sober enough effort to a meeting and the women threw out.

It wouldn't have it

I might say. The Catherine was Irish and she had all these mouth that goes with the good Irishman.

She also was she used to keep sailors out of swear.

He was thirty. He was profane, she stumped

and she was really something.

So I figure this meeting and uh, we are meeting in a home at the time and the women there would have no product pattern. So I'll see when I mean almost me with it. But I knew you wouldn't let me cut loose for my so I had to do what I could with Captain. I took it on acting a few meetings. I took it to a few picnics at daytime too.

The trap in the coupon getting drunk. So I'm walking down just that Ave. one day down near 82nd in UKIP in Cleveland. Busy night throughout noon time. All the people are coming out of the business places going on. And here's passage somewhere down the street and she's staggered all over the place. Draster then on paper,

so I think I'm going to do a place got you take Catherine home. I don't want to land enough neither again, so take her home. So I'm getting along all right for about a block or so the person decides You want stuff to eat.

Well, Captain isn't isn't in any condition to eat, but she thinks so

that's that's a humor. So I think, all right, I'll run her in the street joint down here and get her a fat sandwich and get her home. But she won't have this good junk. Catherine has been raised better than that.

The captain wants a place with tablecloths. And here's the first big mistake I ever made with captors

outside a meeting there.

I take her into this nice restaurant. It's 79th and Euclid, which is a spaghetti restoration. And it had rugs of hapas on the floor, and they had waiters there with tuxedos. And I walked her in there at high noon and all these business people there, and there's a nice, quietly fine place. And she shouldn't she, she just don't belong. She thought so.

So Captain, as I say, she's dirty, she's loud, she's profane and she's stinks. And he sits down and a waiter comes over and then the trouble begins. And she says, given an order and he has something to say if you don't like what he said. So she told him something about his, his ancestry, his family background. You don't like this either.

So eventually he brought the food and what she ordered with spaghetti.

Spaghetti is I have a one of these spaceships, but the spaghetti comes and this waiter comes with it and he gets some more lip from passers. And I mean fact, he's making a lot of noises. He has everyone in the place disturbed. So everybody, everybody.

So Captain begins to eat his spaghetti. I mean, she tries to get in her hair.

Spaghetti.

Well, all this ruckus, the head waiter comes over and tells us you have to class down or shut the lead if you don't like this. She likes him less than the waiter. She told him a few things and he's got to leave and he changed his mind and came back and he shouldn't have done this.

Captain did nothing but pick up that plate of spaghetti. Spaghetti and spillover.

You let him have it, right?

Well, in about two minutes the wagon was there and Catherine and I are both in the wagon

and away we go.

Now try to explain a thing like this. I get in with all that dumb knuckleheads down there in the can and I try and tell them I don't belong here. No, I mean we know you don't belong. Nobody does

this goes on and on and on.

I'm not guilty. Well, nobody in jails guilty. Well, anyway, I find him. I'm screaming about her. Should get ahold of Ed Crawley, the probation office and he'll explain the whole thing. So finally, sometime later in the afternoon, one of these knuckleheads broke down and decided with call Crawley and Crawley. But this is hilarious. And he came down and Get Me Out, but he kept he kept capturing and let her out.

Well, sometime later, I guess Mooney arranged the captain, only spent her

can enough to get sobered up or something. Anyway, a few weeks later I'm walking down Euclid again, same corner.

I'll never forget this part. Unitarian Fix is on one side in the Jewish Temples, across the street in a big traffic light,

and Catherine is coming down the street again, and there she is. If I run right into it,

same condition. So I'm going to be a Boy Scout and get it off the street again, at least. So I thought Kathleen was going home. We don't eat this time,

so it's OK. We sat for home. We start crossing that traffic at the traffic light and Catherine gets an idea. She feels a call of nature.

Right in the middle of

thousands of people walking up and down here. And she squats.

I hold her hand.

Well, I was.

I was surprised in a few minutes to wagons

where it came from. I don't know if people thought they're interested. Pastors by stop and they looked and they made remarks and Catholics returned to complications.

The next thing you know, we're in the wagon again.

The way we go,

well, it's a family team. I get down there, I'm in the same trouble again. It's a different bunch on this time.

Like I said, that same routine that finally got trolley again and Charlie came down. He really thought this is great. I didn't,

so he got me out and they kept Catherine again.

Tell wizard down to this sky is this

seems funny now. It is funny. It wasn't funny then to me. It's probably too on which it probably was, but this is quite tragic at the time.

We can't keep it to this up anymore. We gotta do some. So we said throughout it was easy to fix Catherine. We arranged to give her a year, to give her a year as a habitual in the women's warehouse at Warrensville. And the way she went, what happened, Of course knew that I had something to do with this. And so I dare not go out of here. I got murdered,

so I waited.

Settlement Surveyor Katherine has coordinates the maintenance and words of Captain Wanderini.

So I was living in a lousy $10 a week boarding house at that time. We're talking about time. One of the ladies here knows the color that came to that boarding house and got us indoctrination A

and I was living in this joint. I had no money. I was making 20 bucks a week and paying ten of us to room and four. And the rest of it I had to take care of my clothes and ponder on women and a A. And so

I went to the dinosaur and did some shopping

per capita before I went out to the workhouse. I bought it from gum drops and some stink water and some powder and some cigarettes. I think I must have said at least 6065 cents on it, which is a big deal. And the last is a big spenders. And so I take this out to speak Captain Places about it 1520 miles out of town.

So I went out there and boy, oh boy, when Captain was called the CV, boy did she let loose. I heard things from captains that I never knew were ever, you know, he makes up words.

She had and I got them, but she finally ran out of gas and I gave her my little peace offering and she took it. She wanted to get out of there, so she wanted us out of there. If there's no passing, you're not going to go out of here in there for a year and you're going to stay here for a year. You're not going to get out. Make up your mind. This is it.

For once, we got to do something. Just got allowed to do this guy allowed to do a year hearing you're going to do it.

Well, eventually she resigned herself to it. I went out to see captain every week at all times. You said most times twice a week I go out here and Catherine, they put her in the hospital out there. Catherine actually, I think had everything from standard to Follow My Truth and ingrown toenails and athlete's foot yet at all. And it took them a long time to clean her up. They didn't have all these wonder drugs there, you know,

But eventually they got it cleaned up and passed into Zune, all right. And she was, I might say, the skinny. The match went out there. She was really emaciated. They tightened her up

and she come out of that a year later and Mooney got a job as a lifeguard. I'm one of the city beaches. The captain worked on that job all from along, so it's closed. Then she got her a job in one of the hotels as a room clerk to pick up the keys if people went out.

The captain was on that job and he started to take up her study of typing and shorthand. She's done this once before and so through better self brushed up on this and eventually Catherine got herself a job as a phenographer. Mooney didn't get this job, happened at this job. Mooney got the other people and eventually she got promoted to the secretary.

Catherine saved her money. Mooney had gotten in a nice place to stay when she came out off with some police people way out of another part of town. They knew nothing about Alcoholics or rummies or anything,

and Catherine took an interest in young people to work in her church. She was a captain and she went to work in a church

and she she's good at this stuff. She really was a little bit sick and she saved her money and Captain finally, eventually went into the real estate business and became wealthy woman,

now retired, living down in Florida.

Now when I think of capture and I know that there isn't a person in the world who, if they have the proper artist who wouldn't give them half a chance, can't make good on this program. Somebody comes around, gives me a lot of study on her. To hear from some of them. I think it's happened.

Then it gives me the curve to tell people what they can do and where they can go.

That's captain taught me to give them anything now.

Catherine never took up with AA, didn't feel that she wanted to after the reception she got, but she's still sober woman. She's as big as a house now. She's sober and I've had a successful life.

Patton learn the principles of how to live and supply them. But we, you and I here learn, you know, coming to a, a

anybody can get sober. It doesn't take any genius to become sober, but it takes something to stay that way.

It can sustain power. It takes doing something. I hear a lot of things in a meetings about how you can do this program or how you can choose this and choose that and all this kind of crap. But believe me, this is not just as far as I'm concerned. I think there's a technique to this. I think there's a way to do it

and if a person doesn't do it according to the way it prescribed, you may not get drunk but he's going to miss an awful lot.

The classes are most of them will get drunk.

I could speak with authority on this because I have seen a good deal of this the first two years and 1/2 that I was in this fellowship after we started in Cleveland. I must say I I've been in the Philippines. I only started there. I took record of people who came in and I had the opportunity to keep weapons of people. I knew them all all. I went through my hands to come in there. I saw that it was an activity,

so I got all the inquiries that came through the newspapers. Anything, any way off in New York or any place, they all came in the first. So I had a good time taking care and keeping records on people

for quite some time or just out of hand completely. So I can remember keeping records of several 100 people, and after two years and a half, 91% of them never had a drink. Remember that. Now if any group can tie that or come close to it within 10% of it, now I'll kiss your foot so I'll eat your hat like they said on TV.

Now why is there a difference? People ask you this, Why are we talking about this last night? A couple of exception. I'm talking why people get concerned. They should be concerned

for the very reason that people come here and give a drunk a choice of what he can do and tell him to make up his own program. This is suicide for a rummy. There's a program of cloud steps in a, A, and these have all been written in the past tense, which indicates that someone has used them and done them and it has been successful.

I don't care what fellowship, what club, what large, what organization or what church or whatever you might want to join

line yourself with. There are certain things required of it. If you want to join the nations, there are certain things you're supposed to attest to. You want to join the KFC? You'll find something else. You want to join the kids. You have to stand for something appalled. It doesn't stand for something. You're very at the father most anything.

So we have to stand for something, but we stand for an AA as this 12 step program. If we could have gotten by with four step, seven step, nine steps or 11 steps or what have you, we have gladly done it too. But it took 12. And why did it take 12? I'll tell you why

I don't have any. As you heard when they steps were written, I was in on the writing of these steps and I know the purpose of them and I know the origin of them, where they came from. These are nothing that we just dreamed of. There's a certain routine to these steps represent the old Oxford Movement used to talk about life changing, and it is a life changing process

as long as this world has been going on.

But thousands and thousands and thousands of years as well as history is recorded.

There has been Alcoholics and we've heard about them. They've been recorded in history. They've been recorded in the Bible. They've been recorded in ancient history. The first reference to anyone getting drunk in the Bible. You can look right in the first right in Genesis and find out what happened to old Noah on the arts. Read that, see what happened to him. He really went on a real buck. Yeah,

and there's plenty of other ones that this happened to. This is not yesterday. This is a long time ago.

You read about things in ancient history. You read of all bouncer history, the exports of Alcoholics. You also read about epic, which were put into effect to try and curb alcoholism, or overcome it, or overcome the alcoholic in one of the three. And nothing ever was successful until

the idea comes along that this is not just something that a person does because you just are no good so and so there's something wrong with an alcohol. It's a person that's obsessed with this thing of alcoholism

and there's no way of fixing him without his whole life changing. So it knocks with movement. The alcoholic was given the opportunity of having his life changed and to change a persons life there are certain things that have to be attacked. First of all, it has to be a need for a change. The person's all right, he's perfect, nothing wrong with him. What should he change for? Let's go on through the same way where we are.

Obviously, any rummy certainly needs a change. He sure does.

Our program has all the elements in it, which, if you will put them together and apply them, accept them, believe them, use them,

your life will be changed. Now we come to this fellowship. Why do we land here? I told you how I got here.

How come I got here? How come you got here?

Thousands and thousands of other people will never get here. And millions and millions of people, people who walked across the face of this earth before we were on it, live, existed and died in misery as Alcoholics

and trade, a lot of their friends and family with them in this district and misery they never had. This time you might have a cat. You and I have been exposed to this. You and I are blessed. This is only by the grace of God that we have this. It isn't because we deserve it. Is there any rummy out here that deserves what he gets here?

My heavens, the bestie. You see a fellow walk into a A? Just think about this for a minute. The guy walked in here, a gal.

They broke their annulus. They haven't got a home, they have no clothes, that their feet are on the ground, on their hinders, out of their britches. They have no place to go. They're dirty. They think there's, they're scared of death, hopeless, and they come in here.

What happened? You see them, the same person a few weeks later is unrecognized. He's all to get it different. We've got patches on his bricks or he's got a new pair. His bare feet are an underground anymore. He's got some shoes and masks. I used to have a brown and a black one because I haven't got shoes at night.

You get a maybe a coat that matches the pants either you get a little Jingle in the pocket. Get a job and most and the best of all, you've inherited a lot of friends that people here are pay pension to you and make a fuss over here. All the people before her made a big cut over you. All right, They want to get you out of the way.

They wanna avoid you. That's about the size that changes. It happens off quickly without now,

who deserves this and why do you get chosen and why do I get chosen? A lot of other people don't. This is something we should ask about. Where do we get the answer to it or not? I think that if we lose each one of us to be very, very thankful, no matter what our circumstances happen to be, we should be more thankful that we are chosen for his opportunities. Now that what we do with this opportunity, this is what's important

forgiveness task. Every person comes here, something happens to him, he's touched with something he is touched with. He never gets space over at all. Something has happened to him. He never forgets the experience of having been exposed to a a don't forget it. It'll even room his drinking for us. If nothing else, he's never the same because he knows there is a way out.

Now,

I have learned many ways ago in dealing with people coming to AA. As far as I personally am concerned, I know how the qualified person in my sight as far as a person is concerned, that I may be able to help. I don't know about some of you. Maybe you'll have to knock your brains out to what I did to learn this, but I know that there has to be certain things of time

when a person comes with this fellowship

if I'm going to have any kind of

success with him at all in helping him to begin a new way of life and stay with it.

Effective change First of all,

person must be an alcoholic and he must admit it. I didn't make this up. This has this all comes from the big books, remember Second thing that I want to know about a fellow is what do you want to do about it? A lot of alcohol and they'll admit they are they don't do anything about it and do OK because he wants to quit. OK. The big important thing now is I asked him the next question.

OK, you're an alcoholic and you want to quit. Here's here's what that separates them. I asked this fellow, what are you willing to do

to quit drinking forever? But are you willing to do to quit drinking forever? I understand. I didn't say anything about cooking drinking for an hour or 24 hours or a day or anything else. I said forever. And that's exactly what I mean. I want to know how interested to spell it. You hear a lot of funny answers to this, a lot of sometimes, but I want to spell it to tell me he's willing to do anything.

We quit drinking forever,

terrorizing the authority for that. Am I taking his inventory? What am I doing? I don't mind if I take his inventory. Whose wealth is going to take it?

I guess you're sorry that's not 5th chapter. That book of eyes, there's a sentence in there. It's so important. A lot of us overlook it or we don't hear it very well.

It stays in that 5th chapter. If you want what we have and if you're willing to go to any lengths together

now, you already take it instead

of your story coming forward. An alcoholic is a type of individual. People disagree with me on this.

I believe that wholeheartedly. As alcoholic is a type, everyone can't be an alcoholic. This is a privilege reserve for a chosen few, believe me. And I think you can take an after you can cataloging by characteristic. I'll tell you a few of his characteristics.

I've never seen an alcoholic yet who is not a high stung individual.

I've never seen one that didn't have a work of imagination.

I've never seen one that wasn't a an extremist. Never anything by halfway makers of the rummy. When he worked, he worked hard. He played, he plays hard when he makes a career of it.

He denied dealers. Be sure, be sure. And he's a very sensitive soul. He's always going around looking for someone to hurt his feelings

and then he's shot. He's a penis, he's a Pennsylvania. He's the biggest liar that ever wore shoes

and will steal anything, including a red hot stove. If it has to be done, you'll do it. When it comes to the way they ought to get that booze, if you have to do, you'll do it.

The economic conscious down will drink anything. I know there's a lot of people coming here, since I have, who have only drank themselves down to their second last yacht. I know this,

but nevertheless, if there ever got print but they lose it and they lose it go go buy that seven cents cup too keep jump. It isn't a matter you know, you don't think I dragged that stuff because I liked it. Most Rummy's I know don't even like to take the booze.

Really, I done a Dutchman. I enjoyed beer. I can't say that I particularly enjoyed whiskey because I couldn't afford good whiskey when you drink that garbage stuff that I drink. There was a guy that started drinking bootleg days and I really I couldn't afford to stop. I had too big a bullet

rotten whiskey, and most of it was rotten anyway. In those days, I drank rotten with you in the beginning, and even when he came back, the short time was back before I clicked. I still didn't buy liquor store whiskey. In fact, they wouldn't let me in the liquor store.

Half ancestry has been tried, I suppose, in the composite experience of the folks sitting in here. People have been in nut houses, they've been in jail, they've been in sanitary, they've been in hospitals, they flew off, they've been fluoros. They can swore and rip. Everything has happened. We've made pledges, we've done everything, we've made promises. We tried everything. We tried being gentlemen drinkers, lady drinkers. We've been trying to drink this on Tuesdays,

just on Saturdays, and then we tried this beer. We just tried something else and nothing ever worked. It just got worse.

No matter how excited a lot of our efforts for real success and we see the figure we're doing the right thing, your time, the best of our ability, we couldn't make it. I was not

OK.

Something happened to my life and this is how it's taken out and this is how people get the benefit of their age. This is a life changing program and here's how it does.

And I think the person's life,

there has to be certain things present that's also recorded. They have to be a reason for it. And then we have to face the things. We have to face the issue.

We have the speaker this morning talking about the hospital experiences and he got to be one of these institutionally minded space. As soon as he got drunk, he wanted to get a hospital and then she didn't want to leave that hospital.

See, he'll live the rest of the life in the hospital because she hadn't faced up the things and made a stand for something. This is has happened to a lot of it. We may not get in the hospital, but we get in that joke. When something gets touched, we get in that jug. An alcoholic is afraid of pain

and he never, never wants to hurt too much. And the only time we're in really real trouble is when we're sober and drinking and sober when we don't feel any pain. We're an exercise. So the alcohol contains the real roughly jumps in that doesn't there's no problem. It's like he's uncomfortable, he's not feeling anything. He sit comes in and he don't know it. He has no bills, he has nobody to bottom. He has nothing when he's unconscious.

But maybe we have to learn how to face life. So we this program brings us face to face with it. So our first step here's what our program is broken down into it in four phases.

Program The first phase of our program is admission. We admit that we are powerless over alcohol, that our lives have become unmanageable. If we go to Mr. 5

throughout the first day, second phase of our program runs from the 2nd through the 7th step. I choose the college these days of submissions. We are fabulous in now we have submissions.

These are the steps in which we submit our role in our life to the care of God,

Chris and Robbie's read

Second Step says we tend to believe that a power greater than ourselves should restore us to sanity. We heard a lot about sanity last night.

Two has that referred to that was talking about that second step all through his process that you're seeing last night Manatee

but right as any Roman to take umbrage about this vanity that suppressed. We were allowed to say I wasn't insane

brother. Let me get over about five years and think about it. You'll be glad somebody will tell you enough.

Absolutely. I'm glad that somebody told me I was nuts. Just let me out and let me off the hook.

Some of the things I did, boy, that I wasn't nuts. They should have shot me, that's for sure. OK,

we tend to believe that Pi is greater than ourselves historic society. Why did I come to believe this? I came to believe this because of the inspiration of these men who might not in that hospital in Akron City Hospital came and visited me.

They were all older men than I was

and they bare on this path and they told me the stories of the lives and what happened to them. They were still with someone just a few weeks from a few months, but they were sober and I wanted to be one of them

and they sold me a power to help them. So I wanted this power to help me. I wanted to believe it would help me. They told me it would and I wanted to believe it. The power of example is what helped me and I think it does a good memory.

The player and I all have responsibilities here. To be a little example of somebody coming in,

we made a decision. Can you imagine running, making a decision? Here's where we start separating the men from the board. I remember we have to do something in a they made a decision