The Serra Retreat in Malibu, CA

OK, let's start with the Serenity Prayer.

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference

well. I hate when Sunday comes and then we'll dissolve into our own individual lives.

I have had a wonderful time and I'll take back a lot of good stories and memories.

And I was thinking if someone walked in the door and asked us who are you

and I, the answer that came to me would be we are each other.

And I like the feeling of that answer because we really are,

and it's events like this

and extra effort and are trying to get closer to our higher power that enables us to see that. And I think we felt that during the silence that you suddenly realized that that other person was part of you and you were part of them. And that awareness is precious. It's just wonderful to have that sense,

and we realized that we're not in competition with each other. We're not trying to be better or worse than, we're just having fun.

Like Chuck said, we're just God's kids having fun,

and I just think that's such a wonderful way to look at life.

But in order to get there, you have to honestly realize you're being taken care of

and that

God is there for all of us.

Let's see.

Oh, there was a couple things that I wanted to.

I thought I'd just bring up two more things about our good friend. Death

put this guy to rest a little more

the more we can get comfortable with that. And so the the two thoughts that I had were.

Without doubt,

there is no not even a close second. The biggest cause of death is birth.

That is, there isn't even a close second.

And if you let that resonate a little bit, you can realize that it's a package,

that it's the most natural thing that that's of course.

And then the other one was a little story about

two spirits who finished their tour of duty down here

in the reunion took place and they were back in the embrace of God in the the extreme

amount of love that just overpowers them. And they're talking to each other. And

the first one says, well, how long were you down there? And by the way, they called down here Seoul School. That's what planet Earth is for.

And the first one said, I was down there 97 years.

Wow. So in the last ten were really hard. I was sick and it's just it was just, Oh my God, it was painful. But I'll tell you, it's worth it to be back here. How long were you down there? And said, well, I was just down there two months.

I was lying in my crib

and I went to roll over and somehow the blanket was kind of in my mouth and I ended up suffocating myself.

And the first one said you didn't do that on purpose, did you?

He just saw that as a very lucky event.

From the human perspective, it looks like a tragedy. Oh my God, what an awful thing to have happened. But what's tragic about it,

if you follow what I'm saying, What's tragic about it?

I really can't overemphasize my feelings on getting totally comfortable with the fact

that that is just the beginning of something even better, and the only thing it's the end of is our ego. That's the only thing that

is very reluctant to talk about death is the ego, because he knows. Well then my game is over

when that happens so I just throw those out for what they're worth.

This

lecture is called Your Own Little World, and I thought about it one time when I heard one gal talking to another and they were talking about Heidi. And they said, well, you know Heidi, she lives in her own little world. And I think we've all heard that Expression lives in his own little world.

Well, I would submit. So do you.

So does everybody in this room lives in their own little world, and I live in my own little world.

And these worlds

are unique. They only exist in your mind and my mind.

And so if you wanted to take the totality of it, that there's 6.7 billion little worlds on our planet

and someone might say, well, yes, sure, I can go along with that. But then there's the real world,

you know, we know that there's the real world. And the answer would be, well, maybe there is and maybe there isn't, but no one lives there.

You probably what I'm saying, no one lives there. And so I've known Steve Abrams for a long time,

but the Steve Abrams I know is only known by me, and some of you know him. And

the Steve that you know is only known by you.

And so when I died, the Steve Abrams I know dies too,

because he just exists in my little world,

He continues in your little world. But Steve Abrams I know dies with me. So if somebody were to ask me the question, when does the world end, I would say when I die.

And that would be the end of it.

That is, the death that Saint Francis is talking about is by dying that we awaken to life eternal. It is the destruction of that little world,

and that world

is, as we said earlier, is put together with ideas.

It's the only building material that we have to construct this separate world that we all end up trapped in. So it's not a pejorative statement to say that someone lives in their own little world. How could you not end up there?

It's as natural as anything else.

The trick is to be lucky, as we are to realize that that is the core of all of our miseries

is that world that we created as Chuck talked about, and that the answer to everything is the destruction of that world. And we talked earlier about how a A talks about this and it talks about our old ideas availed as nothing. And so those are the ideas that get smashed. And I think we start out in the very first talk that

smashing the idea that we can drink like others. Well, then there's this next idea and the next idea and the next idea,

and we suddenly realized the wonderful freedom of being wrong

and how delightful it is to go from having it an embarrassment to having it fun.

And if you haven't gotten there yet, you really ought to hurry. It is, it is really a transition to take joy in being wrong and to frankly be looking for what else you could be wrong about. What other judgment have I made? What other opinion, what other prejudice do I have that I could get rid of, get rid of?

So we described spiritual growth as getting rid of things

rather than acquiring anything.

And so hopefully this weekend we've gotten rid of. Maybe we got rid of,

umm, the preconception that three hours of silence would be a horrible thing.

Or the I don't want to do that, I don't see any value in it. And then you go through it and you the only thing you can say is, well, I was wrong.

And there's the freedom. I was wrong.

Umm, we get locked into, umm, God, I used to love to be right.

Oh man, I thrived on that. I just would get in the argument with somebody and I would pursue that thing until a guy would surrender, which he wouldn't do either because he was going to be right also. And I can remember some getting home at after drinking in the bar and getting out of damn Dictionary of some history book and looking up something and calling him up at 3:00 AM.

Let me tell you something else about that.

Here's one more closing. Bam.

And then I that showed him. And then I'd go to bed and it would be such a hollow victory. It was just that sickening feeling of having to be right. And that energy is used to create this whole world that we're living in. And the problem with the world is we're the only one in them.

That's why we're so lonely and frightened.

It is really lonely in there when you go home and you lie in bed in your own little world. So you start reflecting on your own little world. Then you see how screwed up it is and look at these people are over there and these people over here. And we can just

'cause every problem that we have by looking at this, thinking about it, and then reacting emotionally to our thoughts,

we spend a great deal of time. The most normal thing that everybody does is to try and find a way of fixing that world. Well, if I could just get this to happen, if that group of people, I'm going to get involved in this. If we can get this straightened out, it'll be a great world. It won't be a great world till we destroy it.

You follow what I'm saying. We're trying to fix something that doesn't exist.

We're trying to, you know, it it only. So if you and I are working on something and we're going to fix it, it may get fixed for you. And I still don't see that it's fixed because mine isn't exactly the same. So there's such a shallow

sense of accomplishment when we change something in a world that doesn't exist,

because immediately there's fifty other things that have to be changed because we realize that we're not happy, we're not at peace, we're still uncomfortable in that world. And we come here and we go forget that we got to destroy the world. And it just seems so contrary to everything that we've been involved in. Destroy it.

And then when that is done, we get glimpses of

the real, which is God's vision of everything. And to have even a glimpse of that is quite a joyful thing. And how do you get glimpses? We talked about that.

You suddenly have a tremendous feeling of peace when there's nothing causing it. You have no reason to suddenly feel better than you've ever felt. You didn't close the deal. You didn't do anything. It's as if an opening appeared in some of that great healing energy comes in, and we call them awakenings.

Profound personality change. Whatever label you want to put on it, we all have had that

if we've been working the steps. I can't believe anyone who has

had a good sponsor and has guided them and has done the work that hasn't had that experience so that we all know what we're talking about. And as I said yesterday, it's very hard to put into words. So experiences can only be experienced when we go to try and talk to someone about them. It's very difficult.

So how do you communicate that you've had one of these experiences? You can see it.

We talk about early sobriety. We see the change in the pigeon that we're working for before they do.

We see their eyes look different. We see that their body energy and the body movement has changed and is there's a relaxation starting to set in and we see it way before they do. And it's a great that helps me believe in God as much as anything is to see the next person transformed.

And it reminds me of an old story God that's not part of this. But anyway,

umm, the priest sees the young boy who's kind of sobbing by the side of the road and he says to him, what's the matter, young man? And he said, oh, father, I got an algebra test tomorrow and I can't understand algebra. I can't even get the right answer with my book open

and I'm really I'm really getting low grades and I'm so sad. I'm going to disappoint my parents

and I just feel bad. And the priesthood, son,

I can tell you how to pass that test.

You just have to summon all the faith that you have and pray as hard as you can

and you will pass that test. And little boy said, Are you sure? And he said, yes,

you summon all that faith and pray as hard as you can and you will pass that test.

Well, about a week went by and the priest saw the young boy walking down the street and he went over to him and he said, how did you do on the test? He said, I passed. It was amazing. I just, I prayed as hard as I could and I got all the faith I could get. And I sat down and I passed the test. And he ran off whistling and the priest said holy shit.

Now, I don't know if you've had experiences like that in AA, but I've had a guy I'm working with and I go even God can't straighten this out. This is this is impossible.

And then six months later I'm looking at and I'm going, I don't even think that's the same guy. I don't even think that's the same guy. So as you are participating in the awareness of someone else going up,

your connection gets deeper and deeper and deeper. You're not even working on your connection, you're working on their awareness.

And so you can see how important. That's why part of builds awakening there was the two parts,

the freedom and awareness of God and the absolute necessity to take what he just had happen and give it to all the Alcoholics in the world. I mean, what a Brandy oath vision. But that's what you and I all feel. I mean, we're just waiting. We're finished with this person. We're going to start on another one and another one and another one. So all of this

idea,

the need for a fellowship,

there's just the two parts are so integral. The awakening and being part of a society, and we could call this society that encourages spiritual growth. Those are the two beautiful parts of Alcoholics Anonymous, are the individual awakenings that take place and then the society that keeps our mind focused on

First things first.

And that's a weekend like this. But I mean, all the meetings and the groups in our literature, everything is just devoted to that. But without the society, it would be a struggle on our own to maintain this. And then where would we find Alcoholics to help? And and so we're so lucky to be in this fellowship.

Let me see, I put down

the rest of this is just stories that I've tried to come up with

that talk about

living in your own little world.

And one of them was when I made-up for my granddaughter who lives here in California. Her name is Zoe and her father is the head of the drama department at Redlands University. And I love visiting when I'm in the area, try to get up and see them. But sometimes she'll, he'll bring her down to the conference. And so she's out in the audience. And so I she's trying to learn about God, learn about this. So I make up stories for her, but they're really for me because.

When I make them up, then I go, yeah, I like that.

And so this was

informing her that it's very important to understand that everyone

has an exit door.

And the trick is to be able to be aware of it and to see it.

And an exit door I'm talking about is like in the theater.

And when you go to a theater, you may see the exit door. I don't know if you happen to glance down, it's there. There's red light and I mean white light shining through red. And so it's there in case the places catches on fire. But as the movie starts, you no longer are aware of that door. I mean, it's not even part of your awareness because you're so totally focused on the movie.

And you could, we could turn the exit lights out and you probably wouldn't see them go

because you're so focused on the movie.

And

the reason this exit door is so important

is

the door

serves the purpose of telling us this is only a movie.

Don't

fall and get in it and

get the actual feeling that when the movie ends, you're going to end. You ever get engrossed in something and you just, Oh my God. Well, life can be like that. We're so engrossed in it that we think it's real. So I come up with this idea of an exit door, and one day

we're really going to see this door. Maybe in your most sacred place, may be totally unexpected, but suddenly the only thing you're going to be able to see is that exit door and you're going to go, God, that's familiar. I kind of remembered that door. Now I can really see it. So you walk over and you open the door. And the second you open that door,

the light comes in

and you realize you're touching God and you just, Oh yes. So you just walk in it and there's that great feeling. The contact is 100%. And you reach up and take God's hand and he says, did you enjoy the show?

You go. The show. Yeah, the show. You remember when I brought you here? Don't you enjoy this? Go. And it's. No, I don't really remember that. We'll turn around and look and turn around the other side of the door. It says theater entrance.

I dropped you off here about 70 years ago

and I told you this is the greatest show on earth. I put together a real theater in the round.

You got to admit the stage, the staging I did with the mountains, with the oceans, with volcanoes, with hurricanes, with wars, with churches, with all kinds of people with, I mean, there's just everything. I, I just put this all together

for you to enjoy and I said just go enjoy it, but keep your eye on the door or you will fall for the fact that it's not a show. You'll just get totally swept up in that. And so the trick is to try and remember that there's this exit door right here and that this is the greatest show and it's only here for us to enjoy.

It's the only purpose. All this work was done for that. So I thought it was a childlike story.

And later on I was talking to my son and he said she's still talking about that. She's still talking about that now. I have no idea if when she's 60 years old, she'll go. I remember that exit door and it made my life a little more comfortable.

But it's things like that that are needed to prevent us from getting so absorbed in the what we think is real, the business deal that this is happening, my health, this and that. I can get all wrapped up about all these health problems or I can just have fun. I mean, those are the two choices. And

I've been, I've really give myself about a 90% on just having fun,

you know, and all the rest just gets taken care of. If you have a health problem, as soon as you contact the doctor, it's his problem.

That's his problem. He's got to fix it. I'll go back to coming to this retreat or going to the movies. It it, it is a decision and an awareness that this really is fun.

And that's what by the essence of our 12 step, the joy of living action is the keyword.

And of course the action that we talked about is letting go. It's the main action verb in Alcoholics Anonymous. If, if in my opinion, is letting go and

it sounds so simple, but it's very difficult because we have a grip on the world that we created. It's pride of authorship. I'm, I used to say, you know,

Yemen jail, but I got here,

you know what I mean? It was

and they'd go, yeah, but your lifestyle. I know

there's bad consequences, but it's mine. I have took great pride in being a screw up sometimes. Yeah, I know I'm a screw up, but I'm a good screw up. I know I'm going down, but I'm going down big.

It's just like, what kind of insanity is that? And, and we're just saying to each other, I know it's a stupid idea,

but it's my stupid idea and, and I thought it up and it's more stupid than your stupid idea.

So we're having an argument about

brandiosity over stupid ideas, and we just don't want to change our mind about anything. So

let's see. I went through humility.

Oh, then there's

and we all know this. If if you have 10 people see a traffic accident and then the police come to get a report, they do not get 10 identical reports. They had really sort out because this person Oh no, no, that it was that guys fault. I was standing right here. I saw it. The light was changing green. He started the other then the person across the street. No, it's the other guy's fault

and you have to sort it out. So there's everyone's version, and you might say our story is our version of everything, our version of it.

And umm, the story that I remember that, umm, captures the essence of that is the one about the three umpires. And Steve likes baseball, and these umpires have been around a long time. And so they're bragging with each other about who's the best umpire.

And the First Empire says, well, I'll tell you, I call him as I see him. You can't do better than that.

And the second umpire says I call them as they are.

You can't do better than that. And the third umpire says until I call them, they aren't.

So you could see the increasing importance of your version of things and how we get locked into my version. My take on it is, well,

it's, it's just some ideas that flow through my head. Why don't I listen to your take on it? It might be better

really something better than my take. That would be a rare thing

and we've never really experimented. And so that's what

running things by.

It's it's that's how I survive is running things by I mean, why would you just rely on your own stupid head to give you the best guidance for your life when people in this room are available and you just pick up the phone and you just go, Larry, can I run something by you? But Joe, can I run something by you?

And then they're so delighted that you would like to run something by them. A closeness develops where we

are no longer worried that will be run by him he might use against us so we can't run it by. Remember that was the old feeling I had. Don't give him any information at all because they might use it against you. And now we just feel wonderful about sharing anything. Jeez, I think my wife is having an affair. I mean, you would never share that with anybody, so you just keep it to yourself.

And we just, it's such a way of life

to not get locked in through our version of everything. And

it's, I've almost forgotten how that is that why that was so important.

It was so important because it maintained the integrity of that separate world.

We didn't want any threats to it. So when anything, we didn't realize that, but we felt it was essential to keep that world intact, to keep that thing we had built.

And so I didn't even want to hear ideas that were contrary to what I put together. If there was a book that proposed this particular approach, I wouldn't read it. It was a threat to my set of ideas, and I didn't want to threaten my idea. You found one of them. That's how sacred my version of everything was.

We could. So from a point of view of a virgin, then we would say our steps are designed to destroy your version of everything

or at least call it into question. Maybe it is a good piece and we can put that back,

but calling everything into question, really, that's what

a good sponsor does. They help us think through everything,

and as soon as they hear us express something, they're going, let me sit down, let's talk about your idea about that.

I'm not talking about politics. I'm talking about things that are making us comfortable inside

and

and I think that's on version. It's just a synonym for other ways of looking at our own little story which is so powerful it doesn't want us to look at it.

Umm,

another way that I heard someone. It was just actually a speaker that I heard and I thought it was so nice that I wrote it down.

He was trying to describe the world that we created

and he said that if your life was a mural along that wall, if it just covered the whole wall and it was painted and it went all the way from the little baby through this and the football start, UCLA, or it went all along and it's all the way over to the present moment.

Your role in that mural was the brush.

It was painted by God

and you weren't even the paint.

It just there is your story,

the real story.

It shows the insignificance of all the planning that I've done

it and how I decided everything was going to turn out.

I made accomplishments. I became a fighter pilot in the Marine Corps. I

till the very end had a pretty good fitness reports and was seen as a good Marine, good officer, et cetera.

But that was only the illusion that people might have from looking at me, because on the inside

there was a totally destroyed person who was of no value really to this world or to myself or anyone else.

I was maintaining an illusion of being competent of success

and I realized that all the measurements that we use for success don't apply here.

I mean, success

here occurred while we were quiet

and we just experienced the world.

It leads me into some thoughts about our literature.

Umm, one of the things that Bill was worried about and he wrote letters about was that our literature would become biblical.

And someone had showed him a book about movements.

People get together to accomplish something,

and then after they've been working at it a while, they decide to reduce it to writing.

You know, we got this little thing going, So what have we been actually doing? So they reduced

the ideas that they've had that are working well down to words

and they go great. Well, we got that all down there.

And as time goes on,

the actions that were accomplished by the people

fall by the side and the words start becoming the most important thing that In other words, the Big Book

takes on the trappings of a Bible

in that it is something that we should worship. This is a sacred book. This book is just contains everything about Alcoholics Anonymous

and that's why when he wrote the 3rd and 7th step prayers, he he said you may say something like this, you follow what I'm saying you make or at the 7th separate or you can make up your own words. I'm just throwing you the general gist of what I think the essence of this step is.

And now they're on little plastic cards and they, we hold them up and it's like, I'd be nowhere without this.

And we've taken it and lifted it to an importance. But this is. And so this book that Bill was given, it said that all these spiritual movements are these movements where people are helping each other, started with these ideas and then everything became

biblical. Is is the way he put it or the way the book put it?

And so I was trying to come up with the definition of our big book

for a different way of looking at it. And this is what I would call it. I would call it a treasure map.

A treasure map.

We follow the map and we get the treasure, but the treasure isn't the book.

There's, that's not it. The treasure is God,

so we are simply using this as a map and it will get us

to the treasure, but it's not the treasure itself. It's possible to get so engaged

that that we feel this is the reward is to know this by heart and to have it such a part of me and so on down. It is at best a map and what we receive are the transformations that come from following the map. And so anyway.

I've seen

too much attention on the words and not on the actions and the result of the words. It's impossible to put

spiritual experiences into words. We can do our best job at it, but it's the experience itself.

And so the experience doesn't come by memorizing or reading or whatever. The experience comes from doing the work, opening the channel and having the experience come in. It comes from being together as a group. It comes from the meetings where we can see a new person transform. This is the real experience that we're getting.

And let's see,

well, I'm on my high horse

uttering words of blasphemy.

We'll try this one on.

It was that silver vacation, Steve, and it was in one of the early morning meetings and a lady from New York got up and announced her name and she was from the 12 and 12 group and they only used the 12 and 12, the only literature they used. You should have seen the faces in the room. It was just this sense of

yes, you can feel the no, no, no, that is that is wrong, right? The y'all have that feeling that's wrong. I mean you can sense the and you can feel it in that meeting that morning. The problem was she had about eight years and she was very happy.

It was screwing up everything

so I I was able to sleep that night by saying,

well that may be true, but every night an Angel whispered the big book into her ear.

And that's what really happened.

All right.

Oh God, now you're going to have to listen to

see. I write things and then I think people would like to hear them, and then I find out later that they've just been polite.

No Ah, anyway, where shall I hide? I said where I will never find me. There should be a good game to play. Hide and seek with yourself.

I know. I'll pretend that I'm not me, nor you, nor he. I'll hide in a story and pretend that it's real.

Believe my thoughts and I'll feel my beliefs and I'll lie trapped in a web of painful feelings,

forgetting that I created the web.

Oh my God, I don't know where I am.

Oh my God, I don't know where I am.

Ollie, Ollie and free. Ollie, Ollie and free. Remember the hide and seek community. I can't find it. They call everybody back in to go, all right, now we can start over again. And so I, I just realized that's one way of looking at what I did through the process of growing up. I played a game of hide and seek with myself. And then I couldn't find out where I started from or who I was or what the real beginning was. And you asked me if I'm a child of God. I said no, I

think so, and it was a complete way of hiding.

I am the Ying and M the Yang and everything in between. I am the up and M the down. I am the hide and M the seek. I am the inn and am the out. I am the black and am the white. I am the life and am the death. But most of all, I am,

and we've all seen that in spiritual

writings

is to see normally the sentence I am has another word on it. I'm old, I'm young, I'm happy, I'm running, I'm jumping, I'm I mean it.

We never take the sentence and put the period after M and then go look at that sentence and go what is that send say? It appears not to save much of anything, but as we reflect on it

and allow it to come inside and we go, well, who am I?

And the answer to that question is kind of the jackpot.

In order to just BIM, I have to get rid of everything else. You see how this always works? By getting rid of everything else. I am a lawyer. That's not who I am. Try again. I'm a father. Nope, wrong again. That's not the answer to the question. And so finally, I just AM. And that's the end of the story.

It doesn't have to have anything added to that.

Umm. The only thing I can do with that is experience it

so that I am simply the experience that I'm having.

It is just another way of reducing our identity,

reducing the complexity of who we think we are and what the world is. And I think again, that was exemplified in the silence. We learn more about ourselves in the silence than

almost in any other way. It is,

umm,

it is a way of eliminating the concern about

who I am and what's going on and what the world is.

That is probably the most distracting thing that we do is to try to figure things out,

and it's almost impossible to stop it. It is

an integral part of ourselves.

Gee, I had a good time last night. I wonder why I had a good time.

Let me think it over. Let me the next thing you've ruined it into

you're tired because you have a good time. In other words, we can't allow an experience to simply be.

Just

live in the experience

and do nothing else with it.

So the more we can get our mind to stop

analyzing, criticizing, judging, or whatever it is, the more we're centered on simply being here and there. There really isn't anything else that is real except that we're here.

I don't know if that's helpful, but it is definitely a step towards the goal that we're after.

The last thing that I wanted to talk about was, umm,

where Bill writes something of great moment was apartment to occur.

The

the awakening

that each of us has

gives us the best information we've ever had about our higher power, and all of that information is contained in the experience.

And what I want to do is to do nothing with the experience except have it.

And so my mind wants to know what caused that experience.

It's almost inevitable that I want to know more about God rather than

experience God more. And there's a big difference. Know more about God or experience God more?

And so the best answer that I've been able to come up to about God is that he's a total mystery. The universe is a mystery and God is a mystery.

Now scientists and Bill Wrights of 1939 in the big book, scientists have been fortunate nature to disclose her secrets. And I can't remember exactly where that is. It starts the beginning, I think scientists have been forcing nature to disclose their secrets. And I'm sure in 1939 they were saying we're this close gang,

we're this close to knowing it all. And then every 15 years or so you'll see another breakthrough

were this close to knowing at all. And then somebody will go,

what are those little particles that behave differently when we observe them? I don't know. We got to look at those.

It's just a minor wrinkle in figuring out the whole picture

were this close to everything and then somebody finds a black hole and they'll man, don't worry, It will not take us too long to move that in and we'll have it. We'll have it. We'll have it.

So far, it remains a mystery that is very close to being solved.

And maybe there's some scientists in here that go and we're right. We are. We're dead, boy. Got one more

thing and we'll understand it totally.

And that's the problem with a mystery.

There's an overwhelming tendency to want to solve it.

Whether it's a detective story or whatever it is, there's a tendency to want to solve it.

But the universe and God are a different kind of a mystery.

They're unsolvable.

So what can you do with an unsolvable mystery?

How about behold it?

How about contemplated? How about wonder? How about looking at it in a great state of wonder? Just oh. How about awe Overpowered with awe awestruck?

I would think that would be

one of the great prayers you could have is to just go, wow, just look at God and look at everything and just go, hey, God, wow, this is freaking amazing.

That's it. I don't think we were ever supposed to go beyond that,

but there's the tendency. I wonder how this is done.

And there we start. It's like watching the great Magician. You can simply go, The Tiger's gone. I mean, do you ever do that in Vegas? And you just go, no way. And you remember how much fun it was to be just totally bamboozled, and you just sit there and go, whoa. But what happens after that? Wonder how he did that? I'm going to find milk. I wonder if I can go backstage

and ruin the trick for me.

Do you ever have that feeling? And then if you find it out, you go, well, now it's not a big deal at all.

It's not a big deal at all.

So if we simply stay in that just state of awe you, that's it.

I really believe that that you can't go beyond that. Just stay there. What get up every morning and just go what's he got out there today? And I'm going, you know, and just see the whole thing. And then when a problem comes, Oh my God,

just like you're out of play, you just go. I wonder how this turns out.

How about that for a way of handling problems?