The spending plan tool at the DA Regional Fellowship Day in Minneapolis, MN
Good
afternoon
everybody.
My
name
is
Renee.
I'm
a
compulsive
debtor,
spender
and
under
earner.
Can
you
hear
me?
OK,
OK,
let's
start
up
here.
Well,
I'm
going
to
do
something
a
little
different
than
you
probably
would
normally
here
for
spending
plan
because
I
want
to
give
you
a
little
bit
of
a
preface
on
how
why
I
do
my
spending
plan
the
way
that
I
do
a
little
bit
of
my
story
1st
and
hopefully,
hopefully
it
won't
be
too
long.
But
but
anyway,
I
want
to
just
tell
you,
I
came
into
DA
in
1996
in
May
and
I
really
didn't
believe
that
there
was
any
way
that
I
could
get
out
of
debt,
let
alone
live
one
day
without
overspending
or
debting.
And
life
pretty
much
had
no
meaning
because
I
just
didn't
feel
like
there
was
any
hope
for
me
anymore.
And
I
didn't
believe
that
my
dreams
could
ever
come
true.
And
I
thought
the
only
way
out
of
my
debt
unfortunately
in
my
mind
was
if
I
inherited
money.
That
was
the
only
way
I
could
think
of.
And
I
felt
very
sad
and
ashamed
about
that.
But
when
I
came
into
Dai,
think
I
got
it
right
away
that
I
was
getting
against
myself
and
people
sometimes
said
that
was
kind
of
a
cop
out,
but
I
still
believe
that.
I
didn't
believe
it
for
a
lot
for
a
while.
But
when
I
come
back
to
it,
I
think
it's
a
program
of
self-care
and
how
I
would
deprive
myself
and
debt
against
myself.
And
I
really
don't
believe
I
would
be
here
today
if
it
weren't
for
this
program
because
I've
had
medical
issues.
I've
had,
you
know,
who
knows?
But
there
are
lots
of
things
that
could
have
happened
that,
you
know,
at
least
I
wouldn't
be
standing
here
and
I
wouldn't
be
in
the
situation
that
I
am
today.
So
I'm
really
grateful
for
the
program.
We
had
lots
of
PR
GS,
I,
we
used
to
call
pressure
groups
you
heard
before
and
I
was
like,
I
don't
need
any
more
pressure.
I
can't
help
one
of
those,
you
know,
But
then
found
out
that
it
was
really
pressure
relief
groups
and
I
didn't
debt
one
day
at
a
time.
I
really
kind
of
grabbed
on
to
the
program
right
away.
I
didn't
believe
that
it
was
possible
not
to
debt,
but
by
taking
it
a
day
at
a
time
and
doing
the
steps
and
having
pressure
relief
groups,
I
didn't
need
to
debt
and
I
kept
a
spending
plan
and
I
wrote
out
my
spending
plan.
And
I
think
maybe
partially
because
I
didn't,
you
know,
we
didn't
use
computers
all
that
much
back
in
96.
That's
amazing.
That's
only
12
years
ago,
but
but
I
still
do
my
spending
plan
by
hand
today.
And
I
do
it
because
it's
a,
a
meditation
and
it
keeps
me
grounded
in
my
numbers.
It
keeps
me
knowing,
taking
time,
seeing
it
as
a
priority,
looking
at
those
numbers
every
month
and
seeing
what
am
I
doing
and
is
this
how
I
want
to
be
spending
my
money?
So
that's
kind
of
stuck.
So
I
didn't
debt
for
while
I
was
in
the
program
for
a
really
long
time,
except
I
started
to
feel
like
I
didn't
have
enough.
And
I
started
to
sit
in
the
rooms
and
I
felt
like
maybe
I'm
not
really
a
debtor,
but
I
just
feel
like
I
don't
have
enough.
And
I
remember
going
through
month
after
month
feeling
like
I
just
don't
have
enough.
I
don't
have
enough
money
in
my
spending
plan.
How
can
I
do
this,
you
know?
And
I
started
to,
now
I
look
back
and
I
think,
you
know,
that
was
deading.
I
started
to
pay
my
bills
a
little
late.
I
got
and
I
got
kind
of
lazy.
Michelle
talked
a
little
bit
about
some
of
those,
you
know,
mid
year
or
whatever
they're
called,
I
don't
know,
midtimers,
lackadaisical
kinds
of
things.
And
I
see
that
I
got
into
a
lot
of
that.
But
then
I
got
hoping
in
through
the
World
Service
Conference
and
I
remember
Christy
and
I
were
sitting
in
New
York
and
we
talked
about
it
and
she's
like,
why
don't
you?
You
could
finish
that
degree?
Because
I
believe
that
was
another
thing.
I
hadn't
started
a
degree
and
I
had
quit
because
as
I
decided
I
wasn't
going
to
debt.
And
she
was
like,
why
don't
you
finish
that
degree?
I'm
like,
I
can't
do
it.
And
we
decided,
she
kind
of
encouraged
me
that
I
could
do
it
and
I
could
do
it.
And
I
started
to
go
back
to
school
and
take
classes,
and
eventually
I
did
finish
that
degree
without
debting
or
without
incurring
debt
to
go
to
school.
I
should
say
another
one
of
my
dreams
was
to
go
to
Africa
and
work.
And
I
didn't
believe
when
I
came
into
the
program
that
I
could
do
that
without
the
degree
while
I
went
to
Africa
and
worked
without
getting
a
degree.
But
in
my
last
lackadaisical
Ness,
I,
I
got
on
the
plane
and
it
was
just
after
the
World
Service
conference
here.
And
then
we
did
a
lot
of
service
work
and
it
was
great.
And
I
had
just
done
another
4th
and
5th
step
and
I
landed
in
Switzerland
and
I,
I
had
plenty
of
money
and
I
decided
I
didn't
have
enough
money
and
I
didn't
have
a
camera
and
I
couldn't
go
to
Africa
without
a
camera.
And
I
was
going
around
and
I
hadn't
slept
and
I
was
going
around
Switzerland
with
a
friend
or
around
Geneva
or
wherever
it
was.
And,
and
I
borrowed
30
bucks
from
him
to
buy
a
camera
and
I
was
tired
and
I
was
afraid.
I
was
afraid
I
didn't
have
enough.
And
I
had
1600
dollars
and
I
had
to
borrow
$30.00
for
a
camera.
So
it
didn't
click.
But
I
guess
one
of
the
lessons
in
that
is
that
when
I'm
tired
and
when
I'm
afraid
and,
and
just
not
connected,
I
really,
those
are
times
I
have
to
be
careful
and,
and
it
is
like
a
very
cunning
and
baffling
disease
because
anytime
I
just
have
to
be
very
cautious
and
watch
my
program
and
be,
be
with
myself.
So
when
I
came
back,
I
just,
I'm
going
to
get
on
with
this
story
here.
But
I
came
back
with
a
lot
of
money
in
the
bank
and
I
was
going
to
finish
school
and
I
lived
on
that
money
and
finished
school
for
six
months.
And
I
didn't
want
to
work
while
I
was
finishing
school
because
I
had
the
money
saved
up.
I
had
a
prudent
reserve
and
I
thought
I
don't
have
to
work
and
I
don't
want
to
be
an
under
earner.
And
the
only
jobs
I
saw
were
like
$10.00
an
hour
jobs.
And
I
thought
I'm
not
going
to
work
for
$10.00
an
hour.
And
so
I
didn't
work.
And
I
saw
other
people
going
to
school
and
they
were
working,
but
I
didn't
think
that
I
needed
to
because
I
had
money.
And
I
thought
I
was
going
to
finish
my
degree
and
then
I
was
going
to
get
a
job
and
then
live
happily
ever
after.
And
funny
to
to
my
dismay,
it
came
to
be
January.
I
finished
school
well
and
I
did
take
a
part
time
job
during
that
time
and
I
thought
I
was,
I
finally
became
willing
to
take
a
$10.00
an
hour
job
and
it
ended
up
being
$14.00
an
hour.
So
it's
like
you
never
know
what's
going
to
happen
when
you
became
willing.
So
I
became
willing
and
I
got
a
$14.00
an
hour
job
part
time.
And
that
job
was
going
to
end
shortly
and
it
came
January
and
I
didn't
have
a
job.
I
had
this
part
time
job
that
was
going
to
end
and
I,
I
didn't
have
any
money.
So
I
had
started
with
almost
$20,000
in
June
and
by
January
it
was
0
and
so,
or
maybe
it
was
25.
See
that's
my
vagueness
again.
I
thought
it
was
more
but
I
was
looking
the
other
day
and
it
was
someplace
between
15
and
20
anyway,
so
I
didn't
have
any
money.
And
so
I
was
faced
with
my
under
earning
and
I
never
thought
of
myself
as
an
under
earner
before,
but
all
of
a
sudden
I
had
two
masters
degrees
and
I
didn't
have
any
money
and
I
didn't
have
a
job.
I
mean,
it
was
just
like,
how
can
this
happen?
And,
and
I
applied
for
a
couple
jobs
and
I
think
that
was
my
magical
thinking
early
on
in
the
program.
Miracles
happened
and
miracles
happened.
And
I
just
thought
this
miracle
was
happening,
going
to
happen,
but
I
didn't
take
the
action
steps
that
I
needed
and
I
wasn't
willing
to
work.
I
wasn't
willing
to
work
while
I
was
during
that
time.
And
I
remember
I
didn't
know
what
I
was
going
to
do.
And
it
was
a
really,
really
rough
time
for
me
personally.
And
I
remembered
in
October,
I
had
gone
for
a
test
at
at
H
Stamp
or
at
Hennepin
County.
And
I
got
into
the
bathroom
and
this
woman
followed
me
in
and
I
walked
out
and
did
what
I
was
going
to
do
and
then
went
did
this
test.
And
I
came
back
and
used
the
bathroom
later.
And
I
saw
that
the
woman
had
stolen
all
the
toilet
paper.
And
that's
February
when
I
had
no
money.
In
March,
I
thought,
I
can
see
why
she
stole
the
toilet
paper.
I
didn't
have
any
money
and
I
got
through
that
time
without
getting
and
it
was
a
miracle
and
I
didn't
know
from
data
one
day
to
the
next
how
I
was
going
to
have
enough
and
I
had
major
purchases.
I
ended
up
with
a
huge
dental
bill.
I
had
a
license
to
get.
I
didn't
know
how
I
was
ever
going
to
pay
for
those.
But
with
getting
a
sponsor,
temporary
sponsor
and
in
working
the
the
steps
around
under
earning,
I
didn't
have
to
debt
during
that
time.
I
didn't
debt
and
somebody
I
had
heard
on
a
Tay
points
that
if
you
debt
before
the
very
day
that
something
is
due
or
the
very
moment
you're
not
waiting
for
the
miracle.
And
I
could
really
relate
to
that
because
there
were
so
many
miracles.
I
didn't
know
where
my
money
was
going
to
come
from.
And
then
it
came
because
I
was
committed
to
not
getting
and
I
remember
I
I
had
to
I
took
this
job
and
I
didn't
want
to
take
this
job.
I
was
offered
this
job
correcting
tests
for
12
dollars,
$11.00
an
hour.
And
I
was
like
telling
my
temporary
sponsor
I
don't
need
to
take
that
job.
You
don't
understand.
I
got
in
that
room
and
I
don't
like
it,
you
know,
it
feels
weird.
And
she's
like,
well,
how
are
you
going
to
earn
money?
You
don't
have
a
job.
I'm
like,
but
I
can't
take
that
job.
You
don't,
what
are
you
going
to
do?
You
don't
have
a
job.
How
are
you
going
to
earn
your
money?
And
I
was
like,
OK,
I
guess
I
got
to
take
that
job,
you
know,
And
it
turned
out
to
be
a
really
good
job
because
it
gave
me
the
structure
and
consistency
that
I
went
to
8
finished
at
4:30
for
11/25
an
hour.
And
I
got
to
see
a
lot
of
under
earners
there
because
you
had
to
call
have
a
college
degree.
And
there
were
a
lot
of
other
people
in
my
situation
doing
the
same
thing.
And
it
got
me
through
that
period
of
not
having
that.
I
didn't
have
to
debt.
And
I
tell
you
what,
when
I
really
learned
that
I
was
a
debtor
when
it
came
through
and
I
got
the
job
that
I
have
now,
just
in
time,
my
health
insurance
was
going
to
run
out.
And
I,
I
then
I
didn't
know
what
I
was
going
to
do,
came
up
and
it
had
insurance
and
it
was
a
decent
pay.
Wasn't
the
profession
that
I
wanted
to
be
in,
but
it
was
my
old
profession.
It
was
familiar.
And
I
took
the
job
and
I
got
started
getting
paid
and
I
carried
around
an
Excel
bill
for
$15.00
in
my
purse
for
a
week.
And
I
sent
in
that
bill
late
and
I
got
a
fee
for
it.
And
so
I
did
it
because
I
had
believed
once
I
got
out
of
that
situation,
then
I
didn't,
I
wasn't
a
debtor
anymore.
I
mean,
some
place
inside
of
me,
I
thought
once
I
get
a
job,
I'm
done
with
this.
You
know,
I
didn't
think
I
was
going
to
quit
the
program,
but
I
thought
I
was
going
to
be
free
and
then
I
never
going
to
be
free
of
this.
You
know,
it's
just
there.
And
I
think
that
you
do
become
more
free,
but
I
do
become
more
free.
But
you
know,
I'm
never
entirely
free.
It's
a
day
at
a
time.
So
I'm
going
to
hand
out
my
my
spending
plan
is
right
there.
I'm
wondering
if
people
want
to
spending
an
earning
plan.
I'll
just
give
you
a,
if
you
just
you'll
have
to
share.
There's
two
sheets.
There's
one
savings
and
one
spending.
And
one
of
the
things
that
I
learned
during
that
time
is
that
during
the
time
when
I
felt
there
isn't
enough,
I
was
thinking,
all
I
was
thinking
of
spending
plan.
And
what
I
learned
during
that
time
of
learning
about
under
earning
is
the
importance
of
savings
earning
and
spending
plan.
And
so
now
I
put,
I
remember
John
B
told
me
years
ago,
why
don't
you
take
$25.00
out
of
your
check?
There's
two
pages
and
you'll
probably
need
to
share.
There's
a
savings
and
then
there's
a
spending
plan.
And
I
remember
John
was
telling
me
in
pressure
relief
groups
years
ago
said,
why
don't
you
just
take
$25.00
out
of
your
paycheck
and
have
it
directly
deposited
into
a
savings.
And
I
said,
yeah,
it's
a
great
idea.
And
I
couldn't
do
it.
I,
I
just
couldn't
get
myself
to
do
it.
And
then
when
I
started
this,
this
job,
I
started
to
put,
I
took
$200.00
out
of
my
paycheck
every
month.
No,
every
page
pay
period,
I
take
$200.00
every
pay
period.
So
$400.00
goes
into
savings
automatically
that
I
don't
even
see.
And
it's
a
miracle
because
during
all
of
my
time
in
DA,
I
never
saved,
you
know,
I
couldn't
save
money.
I
could
save
enough
for
a
vacation
or
I
could
save
enough.
So
if
a
big
crisis
happened,
but
I
really
couldn't
save
money.
And
so
it's
a
miracle
that
I've
been
able
to
save
any
money.
And
I
also
put
14%
towards
my
retirement
because
as
a
debtor,
I
kind
of
got
a
bit
behind
and
putting
money
towards
retirement.
And
so,
so
that's
where
I'm
at
today
is
putting
14%.
So
this
doesn't
include
all
that.
Let
me
just
see
a
couple
of
other
things.
You
know,
if
I
don't,
if
I
feel
like,
let's
see,
you
can
just
look
at,
you
know,
the
numbers
really
aren't
important,
but
I
sometimes
will
put
in
additional
money
needed.
And
I
never
could
get
that
before
because
it's
like,
well,
this
is
what
I
have
to
work
with.
But
the
job
currently
that
I
have
now,
I
work
per
hour
and
I
never
in
my
year
earning
days
ever
realized
that
there
was
a
connection
between
working
and
earning.
I
didn't
know
that
if
you
work
more,
you
could
earn
more.
And
because
I
always
had
salary
jobs,
so
I
didn't
make
that
connection.
And
I
never
thought
that
I
could
take
an
extra
job.
It
just
seemed
beneath
me.
And
besides,
I
was
too
tired
at
the
end
of
the
day.
And
you
know,
I
just
have
it,
have
these
excuses
and
now
I
see
I
can
work
more.
And
actually
it
takes
less
energy
to
work
more
than
thinking
about
not
having
enough
money.
That
takes
a
lot
more
energy
for
me
than
working
more.
And
so
I
pick
up
extra
shifts.
And
usually
I
put
an
intention
when
I
don't
have
enough,
what
I
perceive
is
not
enough
in
my
spending
plan.
I
put
out
an
intention
of
I'm
going
to
get
this
extra
shift.
I
work
one
act,
one
call
shift
per
two
weeks
and
I
I
get
paid
more
if
I
get
called
in
And
so
I
just
have
an
intention
that
I'm
going
to
get
called
in
for
a
certain
number
of
hours
and
it
almost
always
happens.
So
that's
so
I
always
put
the
additional
money
needed
and
I
mean,
I
do
have
other,
I
can
always
adjust
my
spending
plan
if
needed.
Um,
so
like
I
said,
I
do
it
by
hand
and
then
the
savings,
I
put
a
certain
amount
into
savings
and
I
pray
about
that
too.
And
where
the,
the
money
goes
into
the
different
categories.
I
was
going
to
say
something
about
not
enough.
And
I,
I
guess
the
question
for
me
to
ask,
I
was
walking
around
Lake
Herring
on
Sunday
and
I
was
thinking,
you
know,
when
I
feel
like
there's
not
enough,
I
need
to
ask
myself
that
question.
What
is
what
is
it
that
I
don't
have
enough
of?
You
know,
do
I
not
have
enough
love?
Do
I
not
have
enough
companionship?
Do
I
really
not
have
enough
money
or,
and
what
is
it?
And
then
how
can
I
fill
that
need
within
my
means,
within
our
means?
And
so,
you
know,
maybe
I
feel
like
I
need
a
great
big
long
retreat.
And
I
remember
once
I
thought
I
need
a
two
week
retreat.
I
need
a
two
week
yoga
retreat.
That's
what
I
need.
I'm
so
burnt
out
and
I
didn't
have
money
for
it.
And
then
I
went
up
north
for
four
days
and
I
got
way
more
than
what
I
would
have
gotten,
you
know,
in
that
retreat.
But
it
was
within
my
means.
Or
maybe
it's
just
a
walk
around
Lake
Harriet.
Or
maybe
I
used
to
do
these
artist
things
where
I
would
just
go
to
northeast
Minneapolis
or
wherever
around
town
and
act
like
I'm
a
tourist
and
do
something.
And
I
felt
like
I
went
on
a
vacation
because
I
got
to
see
things
and
I
never
saw
before.
And
so
I
think
that's
really
important
is
what
is
it
that
I
don't
feel
I
have
enough
for
of
and
how
can
I
meet
that
within
my
meet
means?
And
if
it
means
money,
then
I
need
to
work
more.
Maybe
I
need
to
earn
more
or
be
open
to
something
else
that
the
universe
has
for
me.
Let's
see.
There
was
a
couple
other
things
that
I
wanted
to
say
really
as
kind
of
that
I
thought
were
important
doing
my
spending
plan,
praying
ahead.
Did
I
tell
you
that
that
a
lot
of
times
it
will
just
come
out?
Exactly.
Especially
when
I
started
the
program,
I
would
pray
and
then
I
would
come
to
the
dollar.
It's
like,
how
can
you
come
out
to
the
dollar?
It's
a
miracle,
you
know,
it's
a
miracle
that
that
can
happen.
And
you
know,
I
save
in
different
accounts
and
I
kind
of
had
a
crisis
this
week
because
I
decided
I,
I
had
a
medical
issue
last
year.
I
spent
over
$5000
in
medical
stuff
and
I
had
the
money
for
it
and
I
have
insurance.
So
like
above
and
beyond.
And
I
don't
know
if
I
needed
all
those
things,
but
I
felt
I
needed
them
at
the
time.
And
this
year
I
had
said
in
one
of
the
meetings
that
my
goal
is
this
year
to
not
have
to
spend
that
much
money
on
on
health
because
I
didn't
necessarily
save
it
for
health.
But
then
I
ended
up
using
it
for
that.
And
I
had,
you
know,
I
still
have
a
decent
amount.
So,
so
I
had
this
health
thing
come
up
and
I
was
like,
what
is
it
that
this
is
trying
to
tell
me?
And
it's
like,
well,
you
need
to
live
your
life.
You
need
to
do
more
of
who
you
are.
And
so
I
was
like,
what
is
it
that
I
want?
You
know
what,
what
is
it
that?
And
so
it
came
up
that
I
really
am
or
need
to
do
this
one
thing,
this
conference
thing
or
this
sort
of
as
a
vacation.
And
it
costs
more
than
what
I
have
in
my
travel
fund.
And
so
I
kind
of
had
a
crisis
about
how
much
money
I
could
board,
how
much
I
could
spend
on
it
and
what
I
could
do
because
I
didn't
have
in
my
plan
to
spend
the
amount
that
it
was.
But
I
do
have
enough
money
in
my
account
to
do
it
and
I
won't
deplete
my
whole
account.
You
know,
it'll
be
a
portion.
And
and
so
after
talking
with
some
people,
I'm
going
to
go
and
I'm
so
excited
that
I'm
going
to
go
because
I
feel
like
I'm
alive
again.
You
know,
it
just
and
I
have
the
money.
And
so
when
you
save
money
or
you
put
in
your
plan,
I
realized,
I
don't
know,
I
might
think
I'm
saving
it
for
these
things,
but
maybe
my
higher
power
has
another
plan
for
me.
You
know,
whatever
it
is,
it's
there.
It's
a
miracle
because
I
never
could
save
money.
And
I
was
like
going
the
other
direction.
And
I
don't
have
a
lot
in
debt
repayment
because
I
don't
have
debt.
I
have
a
car
and
I
have
a
couple
of
people
I
need
to,
I
want
to
make
amends
to.
And
so
I
put
some
money
towards
debt
repayment
to
do
that.
And
then
I'm
thinking
I'm
going
to
start
paying
off
my
car
with
the
debt
repayment.
So
I'm
not
putting
a
whole
third
in
it,
but
I'm
putting
a
little
bit
to
keep
that
intention.
And
the
other
thing
I
learned
when
I
came
back
from
Africa
is
in
my
savings
plan,
I
put
things
like
I
said
in
categories
because
I
came
back
with
15
or
$20,000
and
I
thought
that
money's
to
spend.
You
know,
I
didn't
think,
well,
maybe
I
want
to
save
5000
or
10,000
for
a
house
and
10,000
for
this.
And,
and
I
think
I
would
have
worked
if
I
had
had
it
in
categories.
But
since
I
didn't,
I
just
thought
it
was
free,
free
for
all.
And
now
I
am
choosing
to
switch
some
of
this
money
around
because
I'm
seeing
this
other.
Is
more
of
a
priority,
so.
And
then
one
last
thing,
I
think
I
did
say,
did
I
say
this?
My
under
earning,
I
learned
that
not
working
is
more
under
earning.
This
is
my
opinion,
my
humble
opinion.
And
for
me
under
earning
by
not
working
was
much
bigger
under
earning
than
working
for
$10.00
an
hour.
So
kind
of
like
what
Michelle
said
as
humble
beginnings
and
my
spending
plan
is
humble.
I
mean
it's
not
extravagant
by
any
means.
And
I
am
a
kind
of
a
deprivation
addict.
I
never
got
a
cell
phone
until
a
month
ago.
And
until
I
realized
that
it
was
holding
me
back
from
my
recovery.
And
the
same
as
a
computer,
I
see
by
not
having
it,
it
really
holds
me
back
from
from
connecting
with
people
and
doing
things
that
I
want
to
do.
So
no,
I
guess
that's
all
I
have.
Thank
you
so
much
for
listening.
Hi,
I'm
Mary
and
I'm
a
compulsive
debtor
spender
and
under
earner
and
I'm
going
to
be
talking
about
spending
plans
and
under
earning
today
and
I
want
to
read
the
7th
tool
which
is
spending
plans.
The
pressure
relief
meeting
usually
results
in
the
formulation
of
a
spending
plan
which
puts
our
needs
1st
and
an
action
plan
for
resolving
our
debts
and
taking
the
first
steps
towards
solvency.
And
one
of
the
things
that
came
to
me
as
I
started
to
prepare
for
this
talk
was
many
times
I
see
a
connection
between
the
tool,
the
step
and
the
tradition.
And
so
I
wanted
to
talk
about
the
connections
that
I
saw.
The
7th
step
says
humbly
ask
God
to
remove
our
shortcomings.
And
so
I'm
going
to
read
a
few
prayers.
God
please
remove
my
under
earning
and
show
me
how
to
earn
more
money.
God,
please
remove
my
poverty
and
deprivation
mentality
which
keeps
my
life
small
and
unmanageable.
God,
please
remove
my
fear
of
financial
insecurity,
my
isolation
and
make
me
ready
to
accept
your
help
and
the
help
of
my
pressure
relief
group.
God
please
help
me
consistently
use
my
spending
plan
and
to
follow
the
action
steps
outlined
by
by
my
pressure
relief
group.
And
then
the
7th
tradition
says
every
DA
group
ought
to
be
fully
self
supporting,
declining
outside
contributions.
Today
I
really
see
Minnesota
DA
being
self
supporting
by
putting
on
this
fellowship
day.
Individual
members
are
contributing
their
time
and
their
effort
and
their
money
to
reach
out
to
the
larger
community
with
the
message
of
hope
for
the
still
suffering
debtor.
And
I
see
that
all
three
of
those
are,
are
related
that
in
order
to,
in
order
to
have
a
pressure
relief
group,
it
takes
humility
to
to
come
and
sit
with
somebody
else
and
to
open
up
my.
I
mean,
I
think
they
talk
about
that
the
hardest
things
for
people
to
talk
about
are
sex,
money
and
religion.
And
I
think
for
a
lot
of
people,
money
is
harder
than
sex
and
religion.
And
that
it's
really
hard
to
open
up
my
life
and
say,
you
know,
here's
what
I
have
financially
and,
and
to
really
look
at
that
at
a
deep
level,
it's
just
a
very,
very
difficult.
And
then
the
7th
tradition,
when
we
put
when
I
put
money
in
the
basket,
you
know,
I'm,
I'm
showing
up
for
the
group
and
I'm
showing
up
with
a
willingness
to
to
contribute.
So
I
have
my
spending
plan
and
it's
back
on
a
chair
back
there
for
a
couple.
People
would
spend
send
them
around,
not
spend
them
around.
And
I
apologize
for
the
poor
quality
of
the
handwritten
numbers,
but
I
made
a
copy
and
then
made
copies
from
the
copy.
And
of
course
my
shame
would
have
me
redo
the
copies,
but.
So
I'm
showing
up
in
my
imperfection.
Yay.
So
what
I
do
is
I've
put
together
this,
this
plan.
It's,
it's
in
the,
it's
in
Word
format.
And
the
thing
that
I
feel
really
has
been
helpful
is
there
was
a,
there
was
a
spending
plan
workshop
that
Minnesota
DA
put
on
sometime
last
year.
And
that
going
to
that
workshop
is
really
tremendously
helped
because
what
I
got
clear
about
is
that
I
get
paid
every
two
weeks.
So
it's
26
*
a
year.
And
it
just
was
really
hard
for
me
to
have
a
month
spending
plan
and
get
paid
every
two
weeks.
And
it
just,
it
never
quite,
I
don't
know,
just
I
was
always
feeling
like
I
was
taking
an
extra
$300.00
from
the
next
pay
period.
And
I
actually
sat
on
a
PRG
with,
with
one
of
the
speakers
who
spoke
at
that.
And
then
I
also
got
a
copy
of
her
plan.
And
I
really
like
it
because
what
it
does
is
I
decided
to
start
living
on
two
paychecks
a
month.
And
then
that
those
two
extra
paychecks
are
kind
of
like
windfalls
and
I
can
end
up
putting
them
into
savings
or,
you
know,
doing,
you
know,
doing
what
I
need
to
do
with
that.
A
third,
a
third,
a
third,
or
how
I
usually
take
it
with
my
either
to
my
sponsor,
to
my
PRG
and
say,
OK,
now
I've
got
this,
I've
got
this
windfall
and
what
am
I
going
to
do
with
it?
So
at
the
top
it
shows
you
my
income
and
this
was
actually
for
the
month
of
March
and
my
work
sends
me
to
different
conferences,
but
I
end
up
having
to
foot
the
bill
before
I
go
and
then
get
reimbursed
for
it
afterwards.
And
so
and
I'm
I'm
also
going
to
go
to
another
conference
in
May.
And
so
in
order
to
pay
for
those,
I
had
to
take
out
$1670
from
savings
and
then
get
reimbursed
for
them
later.
So
that
shows
up
in
the
figures
there,
but
it
really
helped
me
to
see
if
you
look
at
the
top.
So
I've
got
my
fixed
expenses
and
for
that
first
check
of
the
month
I
pay
my
second
mortgage,
my
homeowners
association
dues,
my
spiritual
ties
and
meetings,
heat,
electricity,
phone,
trash,
charter
bill,
and
my
debt
repayment.
And
one
of
the
things
that
I
really
want
to
celebrate
today
is
that
as
of
today,
the
only
debt
that
I
have
is
my
mortgage.
So
I'm
debt
free
and
that
happened
in
the
month
of
April.
And
the,
the
debt
that
I
had
taken
out
actually
before
I
came
into
DA
was
I
had
taken
out
two
debts
against
my
life
insurance
policies.
And
I,
if
anyone
would
have
told
me
that
it
would
take
me
14
years
to
pay
off
$6000
in
debt,
I
don't
think
I
ever
would
have
done
it.
But
I,
I'm
a
daughter,
you
know,
and
I
just
was
pulling
money
from
every
account
that
I
could
possibly
think
of
at
after
my
divorce.
And,
and
originally
my
payments
were
like
$15.00
a
month
and
then
I
was
able
to
move
them
up
to
$20.00
a
month.
And
when
I
paid
off
my
car
and
my
daughter
graduated
from
college,
I
increased
it
to
$100
a
month.
And
so
I
really
feel
like
it's
a
spiritual
accomplishment
and
victory
that
that
was
paid
off.
And
then
the
other
one
I
was
encouraged
to
just
cash
out.
It
was
a
like
a
very
small
life
insurance
policy,
$1000
and
so
so
they're
both
gone.
It's
very
exciting.
And
then
in
my
second
pay
period
of
the
month,
that's
where
I
pay
a
smaller
amount
in
spiritual
ties
still
pay
go
to
go
to
or
still
have
money
to
put
in
the
basket
and
my
mortgage
payment.
And
then
down
below
are
my
flexible
expenses
and
I'm
not
going
to
go
through
all
of
those.
And
then
I've
recently
been
asked
by
my
sponsor
to
keep
track
of
when
my
bills
are
due.
And
so
on
the
backside
of
the
page,
these
are
the
permanent
bills
that
come
every
month
and
to
figure
out
what
day
are
they
due
and
then
to
put
down
the
date
that
I
pay
them
so
that
I'm
keeping
track
of
that.
And
then
I
just
wanted
to
show
you
in
order
to
get
the
numbers
for
that
spending
plan,
you
know
what,
what
do
I
do?
And
so
I
have,
I
just
have
some
like
small
notebook
paper
instead
of
actually
having
the
notebook
because
for
a
while
I
was
having
carrying
around
a
little
purse
that
was
about
this
big
and,
and
I
managed
to
do
all
my
money
out
of
that
little
tiny
purse.
It
was
very
exciting.
And
so
I
put
this
slip
of
paper
in
there
and
I
write
down
the
date
and
I
write
down
what
the
money
goes
for
and
I
write
down
how
much
it
is.
And
then
when
I
go
to
reconcile
it
on
my
spending
plan,
I
check
it
off
on
here
and
then
any
checks
that
I
write
for
fixed
expenses,
it
goes
into
my
check
register.
And
it
really
has
helped
me
be
able
to
be
well,
I
shouldn't
say
that,
but
because
recently
I
did
debt
again,
ended
up
having
insufficient
funds.
And
so
my
check
registers
really
been
kind
of
a
source
of,
of
pain
for
me
as
far
as
the
program
is
concerned.
But
I
think
by
really
working
more
with
cash
and
decreasing
the
amount
number
of
checks
that
I
write,
I'm
going
to,
I'm
hoping
that
I'm
going
to
be
more
able
to,
it's
just
cleaner
when
I
go
to
reconcile
my
checkbook.
It's
simpler.
I'm
not
making
mistakes
in
it
in
addition
and
that
type
of
thing.
And
I'm
also
being
encouraged
to
keep
a
higher
balance
because
one
of
the
things
that
I
do
as
a
debtor
is
that
I
wanted
to
build
up
that
savings.
And
so
I
was
putting
as
much
money
as
I
could
in
savings
and
keeping
checking
just
small
and
tight.
And
and
that's,
you
know,
if
I
make
a
mistake,
then
I
have
nothing
there
to
cushion
it
from
those
NSF
charges.
And
that's
my
debtor
mentality
is,
you
know,
let's
keep
this
small
and
so
that
I
can
save
for
those
big
things
that
I
want.
And
guess
what?
That
didn't
work
and
then
I
I
did
talk
a
while.
I
didn't
bring
my
savings
plan,
but
I
do
automatically
have
$200.00
from
every
paycheck
put
into
savings.
And
I
have
again,
a
little
slip
that
shows
10
different
categories
and
I
put
$20
into
each
of
the
10
categories.
And
I
recently,
I'm
very
excited.
Two
weeks
ago
I
bought
new
furniture.
I've
had
the
same
furniture
for
37
years
that
I
bought
in
my
marriage.
I
had
slip
covers
on
it
for
seven
years
and
I
bought
a
new
sofa,
two
chairs,
a
coffee
table
and
end
tables
and
all
for
money
that
I
saved
by
working
a
second
job.
And
it
was
cash.
And
the
lady
was
so
excited
and
so
helpful.
She
was
like,
this
is
the
way.
This
is
so
cool.
I'm
going
to
be
telling
everybody,
but
not
your
personal
name,
but
I'm
going
to
be
telling
everybody
about
this
client
I
had
who
did
it
the
right
way.
And
I
was
like,
so
it
was,
it
was
really,
it
was
sweet.
It
was
very
peaceful.
I
had
a
program
friend
can
help
me
go
with
come
to
my
house
and
look
at,
you
know,
my
furniture
and
look
at
my
arrangement
and
help
me
figure
out
and
went
shopping
with
me.
And
it
just
has
all
just,
it's
just
been
easy.
And
I
expected
it
to
be
big
and
traumatic.
And
I
think
I
remember
someone
saying
that,
you
know,
about
patience,
you
know,
it's
important
to
have
patience.
And
that's
probably
like
about
five
or
six
years
ago.
And
I
thought
that
meant
patience
for
like
about
one
week,
you
know,
And
if
I
probably
would
have
known
that
it
would
have
been
that
long,
I'm
not
sure
I
would
have
had
the
patience.
But
it,
but
to
me,
it's
different
today
than
it
was,
you
know,
um,
even
five
years
ago
what
that
means.
So,
um,
I
think
that's
what
I
have
on
spending
plans
and
I
think
we'll
be
open
for
questions.
Both
of
you,
what
is
your
structure
around?
Yeah,
I
think
the
question
was
what
is
your
structure
around?
Working
a
spending
plan.
Is
that
what
you
said?
OK,
well,
I
like
Mary
write
on
my
numbers.
You
know,
sometimes
I'm
better
than
others.
Some,
sometimes
I
save
receipts,
which
I,
I,
I
think
it's
better
if
you
write
it
down
right
away.
I
mean,
personally,
I
used
to
do
that
and
I
do
it
sometimes
and
you
know,
sometimes
it's
a
struggle,
but
I
do
keep
my
numbers
and
then
on
the
weekends,
either
Saturday,
usually
Sunday
morning,
I
will
sit
down
and
add
up
the
numbers
on
in
the
different
categories
out
of
the
little
notebook
and
then
I
add
for
the
week.
And
then
I
do
that
each
week.
And
that
keeps
be
kind
of
on
track.
You
know,
if
I've
overspent
in
one
area
or
spend
more
than
I
kind
of
look
at,
you
know,
I
need
to
spend
less
the
next
week
or
do
I
want
to
spend
less
in
another
category?
I
have
you
as
cash.
Like
when
I
had
very
little
money,
I
use
cash
and
sometimes
I
use
cash
only.
I
mean,
you
know,
like
envelopes
or
whatever.
And
I
don't
do
that
consistently
or
I'm
not
currently
doing
that,
but
I
think
that's
a
good
plan
and
I
always
think
I
want
to.
I
want
to
do
that
because
I
know
it
works.
And
let's
see.
And
then
I
do
my
savings
reconciliation
about
once
a
month
and
also
my
checkbook
once
a
month
and
make
sure
I've
got
that
all
cleaned
up.
And
I
tried
to
add
in
one
thing
I
forgot
to
say
is
that
I
went
with
the
$200
I
have.
I
put
in
every
category
usually.
And
then,
yeah.
So
anyway,
that's
kind
of
what
I
do.
I
think
we
get
the
questions
that
we
need
to
work
on.
My
my
structure
is
in
regards
to
my
spending
plan
is
that
I'm
very
structured
as
far
as
writing
down
my
money
immediately
when
I
spend
it.
If
I
don't
write
it
down
immediately,
I
can't
remember
a
lot
of
times
from
the
time
I
leave
the
store
till
I
get
to
my
car
what
amount
of
money
I've
spent.
So
if
I
don't
do
it
right
there,
it
it's
just
not
good.
So
I
have
that
I'm
very
structured
about
that.
And
also
with
writing
checks,
like
I
have
to
write
it
down
right
when
I
write
the
checks
in
reconciling,
not
so
structured.
My
biggest
structure
is
in
transferring
that
to
my
spending
plan
is
that
I
have
my
rule
for
myself
is
that
I
have
to
have
it
done
before
the
next
month
so
that
I
can
see
that
I've
reconciled
for
the
month.
So
getting
it
from
the
the
register
and
the
sheets
of
paper
to
the
spending
plan
is
I'm
more
on
a
monthly
basis
right
now
than
I
am
a
weekly
basis.
And
I
wish
it
were
different,
but
I
think
that's
what
this
question
is
helping
me
to
see
what
I
need
to
do.
Thanks,
Mary.
And
Renee,
I
wanted
to
add
to
that
too.
I
have
a
Palm
Pilot
that
I
keep
for
my
calendar
and
my
contacts
and
that
has
a
financial
area
in
it.
And
so
that's
where
I
write
down
all
of
my
spending.
And
that's
been
really
helpful
because
I
sync
it
up
with
my
computer
and
then
at
the
end
of
the
month,
I
just
print
it
out
and
it's
really
slick.
OK,
So
here's
another
question,
Mary.
Do
you
pay
your
bills
on
the
due
date
or
all
at
a
time,
all
at
all
at
one
time
during
the
month?
Does
that
make
sense?
Two
times
every
month.
There
you
go.
What?
Actually,
I
typically
pay
them
two
times
during
the
month.
So
I
what
I'll
do
is
as
the,
as
the
bills
come
in,
I
will,
I
have
a,
a
spot
for
them
in
my
where
my
desk
is
and
I
will
put
the
bills
there
and
write
as
I
know
that
I'm
going
to
be
paid.
And
I'm
going
to
have
to
switch
it
because
I
have
been
writing
the
check
the
night
before
I
get
paid.
And
then
the
next
morning
when
I
go
to
work,
I
have
put
the
put
the
bill
into
the
mail
after
I've
picked
up
the
receipt
from
work
that
says
that
I've
been
paid.
But
I
think
I
need
to
wait
until
and
write
them
the
night
that
I
get
paid
rather
than
the
night
before
I
get
paid.
But
and
I
also,
I
know
that
a
lot
of
people
talk
about
NDA,
about
writing
the
check
and
paying
for
the
bill
as
it
comes
in
as
a
spiritual
practice.
And
I
still
kind
of
like
to
keep
it
so
that
I'm
keeping
my
bills
for
March,
for
April,
I
pay
in
March.
You
know,
the
ones
that
are
due
on
the
1st,
I'm
paying
it
out
of
the
last
paycheck
of
the
month.
So
I,
you
know,
I
don't
think
there's
a
right
or
a
wrong
about
that.
I
think
that
people
have
to
find
what
works
for
them.
But
it
is.
Oh,
I
know
a
lot
of
people
use
a
spiritual
practice
to
pay
the
bill
when
it
comes
in
rather
than
waiting.
Any
other
questions,
Ann,
The
question
is,
can
you
explain
windfalls
and
what
is
meant
by
a
third,
a
third,
a
third?
To
me,
a
windfall
is
unexpected
money
that
I
wasn't
planning
on
or
that's
not
factored
into
my
spending
plan
already.
An
example
would
be
my
tax
refund.
An
example
would
be
a
gift
of
money
that
someone
gives
me.
An
example
might
be
an
extra
job
that
I
take
in
addition
to
my
salary
job.
Yes,
the
rebate
check
that's
coming.
So
those
are
examples
of
windfalls.
And
then
what
DA
recommends
is
that
if
you
are
getting
a
windfall
that
you
take
a
third
of
it
for
debt
repayment,
1/3
of
it
for
savings
and
1/3
of
it
to
improve
your
current
spending
plan.
In
other
words,
and
sometimes
those
windfalls
can
be
the
hardest
for
me
because
I
can
think
of,
you
know,
25
things
before
the
check
is
in
my
hands,
you
know,
of
how
I
want
to
spend
it.
And
so
for
me,
when
I
get
a
windfall,
it's
often,
it's
often
very
important
for
me
to
talk
to
my
sponsor
or
talk
to
my
PRG.
What
am
I
going
to
do
with
that,
Especially
if
it's
a
big
number,
you
know,
if
I'm
getting
a
fairly
big
windfall,
if
I
just
leave
it
to
my
own
thinking,
I
spent
a
lot
of
time,
you
know,
like
Renee
said,
it's
easy
to
spend
a
lot
of
more
time
worrying
about
money
than
it
is
to
earn
it.
It's
also
easy
to
spend
a
lot
of
time
spending
the
money
without
really
spending
it,
and
that's
what
I
do
as
a
debtor.
So
that's
what
you
do
with
those,
the
26th
and
52nd
check
each
year
or
two.
Yes,
although
I'm,
I'm
now
at
the
luxury
of
being
able
to
go
halves.
So
I'm
going
to
be
able
to
put
half
in
savings
and
the
other
half
is
going
to
go
to
increase
quality
of
life,
which
is
very
exciting.
OK,
there's
one
more
question.
Do
you
have
just
one
savings
account
for
all
of
your
savings
categories?
And
if
so,
do
you
then
keep
track
of
each
category
through
your
record
keeping?
So
again,
do
you
have
just
one
savings
account
for
all
of
your
categories?
Do
you
want
to
talk
about
that,
Renee?
Yeah,
I
handed
out
my
thing
on
savings
plan
or
savings
account.
I
happen
to
have
two
accounts
in
addition
to
the
retirement
accounts,
but
I
don't
know
that
that's
the
best
thing.
I
kind
of
started
juggling
because
I
would
take
a
little
bit
of
money
out
of
one
and
then
it
wasn't.
I've
been
saving
for
a
long
time
for
some
purchases
and
then
finding
out
that
that
maybe
some
of
the
money
was
in
another
account
or
something.
Anyway,
so
I've
put
now
I
have
the
two
accounts.
One
is
I
put
prudent
reserve
and
house
and
and
then
the
third
was
Christmas
herb
gifts
or
long
term
gift
type
of
things,
because
those
are
things
that
I'm
not
going
to
spend
over
the
year
or
that
I'm
not
intending
to
spend.
And
I
think
my
goal
is
to
put
that
in
like
a
better
account.
You
know,
I
I
haven't
into
an
interest
earning
account,
maybe
like
a
six
month
earning
account
or
something
like
that.
And
then
my
other
account
is
in
the
same
bank
as
my
checking
account.
So
that
if
I
do
need
money
for
a
medical
bill,
then
I
can
just
call
it
in,
you
know,
call
over
the
phone
and
change
it
over
to
the
other
account.
And
I
do
put
in.
Was
it
different
categories?
Was
that
the
other
question
part
of
the
question?
Yeah,
I
do.
And
I
really
pray
about
where
I'm
going
to
put
them
in
categories
or
talk
to
other
people
about
it.
And
like
I
said,
some
of
the
some
of
the
money
that
I
earned
last
year
that
I
had
put
into
accounts
for
certain
things
I
ended
up
having
to
use
for
medical
bills
or
because
I
didn't
have
that
specifically
targeted
for
that.
So
it
is
a
plan
and
I
guess
it's
adjustable.
No,
I
really
wanted
to
be
rigid
with
it
because
I,
it's,
I
like
to
have
control
and
that
makes
me
feel
like
I
have
control,
but
I
don't.
So
yeah,
so,
but
I,
I
think
that
having
it
in
categories
helps
me
because
otherwise
it
sounds
like
it's
this
great
big
amount
of
money,
but
you
know,
maybe
it's
only
$1000
for
something
or,
you
know,
$500.00
for
something
that's
going
to
cost
a
lot
more.
So,
so
that
helps
me
to
know
where
I'm
at.
And
then
when
I
get
in
money,
I
will
like
I
did
on
my
income
tax,
the
things
that
were
more
important,
I
put
more
on
the
bottom
there.
I
put
more
money
towards
the
things
that
were
important
to
me.
I
didn't
split
it
up
in
1/3
just
because
I've
been
waiting
for
a
computer.
I've
been
saving
for
a
laptop
for
years.
And
so
it's
like
really
important
for
me
to
not
feel
deprived,
just
get
that.
And
so
I
haven't
gotten
it
yet,
but
I
have
enough
money
for
it.
Thanks.
Any
other
questions?
OK.
Thanks
a
lot.
Mary
and
Renee
really
appreciate
it.