The Swedish Serenity group's spring convention in Stockholm, Sweden
My
name
is
Gail
and
I'm
a
grateful
alcoholic.
Hi
everyone.
I
want
to
begin
by
thanking
my
host
who
just
walked
in.
Suzanne,
thank
you
for
your
hospitality.
Thank
you
Gunner
for
picking
me
up
from
the
airport.
Ivaletta,
thank
you
so
much
for
coordinating
so
many
plans.
And
Marie,
for
all
your
thoughtfulness,
knowing
that
I'm
a
history
lover,
which
you're
going
to
find
out
in
a
minute.
and
all
the
Andreas's
that
helped
hook
everything
up.
You
got
some
smart
boys
here
in
Sweden.
I
had
a
little
trouble
in
Scotland,
so
I
appreciate
that
you
were
able
to
do
this.
Well,
I'm
going
to
begin
because
I
want
to
make
sure
we
have
enough
time
for
this
talk.
And
as
I
told
you,
I'm
an
alcoholic,
but
I'm
going
to
prove
it
because
a
picture
is
worth
a
thousand
words.
Now,
I'd
like
to
tell
you
that
this
is
Woodstock.
It's
not.
I
was
on
a
camping
trip.
If
you
notice
to
the
right
is
about
a
half
a
gallon
of
wine.
I
was
a
winnette.
To
the
left
is
a
can
of
beer.
I
think
there's
a
pack
of
cigarettes
there
and
a
cigarette
in
my
hand.
And
my
zipper
is
not
down.
That's
just
the
way
those
pants
were.
So
I
think
that's
a
pretty
good
qualifying
picture.
And
by
the
way,
my
sobriety
date
is
May
13,
1978.
I
found
my
way
into
this
wonderful
program.
Thank
you.
Thank
you.
And
I
was
lucky
enough
to
sober
up
in
Akron,
Ohio,
and
so
I
hope
I
can
bring
Akron,
Ohio,
to
Sweden.
That's
my
job
today.
Now,
here's
another
picture
of
me.
That's
a
picture
of
me
in
a
blackout.
I
think
you
can
relate.
Well,
when
I
came
into
Alcoholics
Anonymous
in
Akron,
Ohio,
they
told
me
to
say,
whenever
A.A.
asked
you
to
do
something,
say,
yes.
You
might
have
heard
that
here
as
well.
And
that's
what
has
actually
led
me
all
the
way
to
this
moment
here
with
you
tonight.
And...
I
happen
to
have
said
yes
to
someone
who
asked
me
to
seat
Lois
Wilson
at
Founders
Day.
After
Bill
died,
Lois
continued
to
come
back
and
visit
us
each
year,
and
we
honor
that
on
June
10th,
Dr.
Bob's
last
drink.
And
so
we'll
have
12,000
people
here
this
June,
and
we
have
a
big
party.
So...
I
was
seating
Lois
and
I
was
going
to
seat
her
companions
down
in
front
of
her,
and
I
met
this
beautiful
woman
here.
This
is
Nell
Wing.
Nell
Wing
was
secretary
to
Bill
Wilson,
and
Bill
saw
that
this
program
could
get
distorted,
could
become
myth,
so
he
asked
her
if
she
would
keep
the
history,
and
she
eventually
became
an
archivist,
our
very
first
archivist
at
headquarters.
So,
I
was
talking
to
her,
and
I
said,
No,
if
there's
ever
anything
I
can
do
for
you,
well,
just
ask.
Don't
ever
say
that
in
Alcoholics
Anonymous.
She
said,
well,
yes,
Gail,
there
is.
I'd
like
you
to
start
an
archives.
I
didn't
know
what
an
archives
was.
I
thought
it
was
some
smelly
old
papers
somewhere
until
I
came
to
this
country.
I've
spent
a
good
day
and
a
half
enjoying
your
history
that's
hundreds
and
hundreds
of
years
old.
And
tonight,
I'm
going
to
bring
you
history
that's
just
a
little
over
almost
75
years
old,
but
it's
traveled
quite
far
since
its
birth
in
Akron.
So
I
want
to
tell
you
just
a
little
bit
about
Nell.
She
was
like
a
Wilson.
If
you
go
to
the
Wilson
House,
there's
actually
Nell's
room
is
there
at
Stepping
Stones,
and
was
a
constant
companion
to
Bill
and
Lois.
So
when
she
asked
me
to
do
that,
I
didn't
know
how
am
I
going
to
do
this?
Ackerman
didn't
care
about
its
history.
We
hadn't
done
anything
in,
you
know,
a
half
a
century.
And
so
I
got
involved
in
the
purchase
of
Dr.
Bob's
home.
In
fact,
I
negotiated
the
purchase
on
the
home,
and
I
thought,
okay,
I've
done
it.
I
have
a
place
for
the
archives
now.
We
can
put
it
in
there.
So
I
took
off
and
went
to
New
York
to
stay
with
Nell.
I
stayed
with
her
for
about
10
days
and
I
visited
Lois
to
learn
how
to
do
archives.
And
Nell
said,
well
Gail,
if
you
want
to
be
an
AA
archivist,
A.A.
can't
own
property.
And
I
started
doing
what
alcoholics
do
when
they
don't
hear
what
they
want
to
hear.
I
started
whining.
Whining
is
anger
coming
through
a
very
small
hole.
And
I
tried
to
talk
Nell
Wing
out
of
our
traditions
the
next
three
days.
So
here
I
am
on
a
visit
to
Stepping
Stones.
This
is
Bill
Lois'
home
in
Westchester
County,
New
York,
with
the
lovely
gardens.
And
there's
Nell.
I
took
a
picture
over
while
I
was
there,
and
you
can
see
the
beautiful
interior.
Lois
Wilson
was
an
interior
decorator.
And
here
I
am
having
a
drink
with
Lois
Wilson.
Now,
I
know
you
don't
recognize
me
in
that
picture.
You
see,
I
was
sober
in
that
picture,
but
my
hair
hadn't
sobered
up
yet.
It's
still
kind
of
unmanageable.
Stockholm
weather
got
a
hold
of
it
last
night.
But
anyway,
it
was
a
sweet
visit,
and
I
left
to
go
back
to
Akron,
and
I
broke
away
from
the
house
and
to
try
to
set
it
up
under
the
structure
of
Alcoholics
Anonymous.
And
that's
what
I'm
going
to
tell
you
about
now.
Now,
I'm
a
retired
school
teacher.
So
if
you
don't
mind,
I'd
like
to
take
you
on
a
field
trip
to
our
office
first.
So
you
know
when
you
come
to
Akron,
and
I'm
inviting
you
all
now
to
please
come.
You've
showed
me
a
wonderful
time
here.
And
I
would
like
to
do
the
same
for
you.
If
you
were
to
make
it
to
the
year
2010...
to
Dallas,
I
mean
not
Dallas,
San
Antonio,
Texas,
where
we
are
going
to
celebrate
AA
together.
You
know,
we're
all
just
one
family,
the
one
circle
of
Alcoholics
Anonymous,
and
that's
how
I
feel
when
I
come
to
meet
you.
You're
just
my
brothers
and
sisters
in
AA.
And
so
the
office,
we
were
getting
mixed
up
with
855
Ardmore,
which
is
Dr.
Bob's
home.
So
we
took
this
large
picture
window,
and
it
took
us
about
a
year
to
do.
We
cut
it
into
about
a
thousand
pieces
of
glass.
If
you
had
come
in,
you
would
have
cut
a
piece
of
glass
and
become
a
part
of
the
window.
Or
you
might
have
thrown
us
a
sobriety
coin.
We
are
men
and
women
who
normally
would
not
mix,
and
that
window
is
surrounded
with
sobriety
coins,
of
various
members
that
came
through.
And
then
we
framed
it
with
what
I'm
going
to
be
talking
about
a
little
bit
tonight,
and
that's
called
the
Four
Absolutes.
They
would
not
have
taken.
This
is
a...
symbolic
picture,
and
the
gentleman
on
the
bed
is
symbolically
Bill
D.,
who
was
the
third
member
of
Alcoholics
Anonymous.
And
when
he
got
sober,
he
walked
out
a
city
hospital
on
July
4th
of
1935,
a
free
man
to
never
drink
again.
And
that's
when
group
number
one
began,
and
in
your
big
book,
you'll
see
that
in
his
story.
Bill
makes
a
comment.
Okay.
So
we're
not
the
only
one
over
in
America
Celebrate
in
the
Fourth
of
July.
You
can
celebrate
with
us
because
it's
our
Independence
Day
as
well.
I
call
this
Embassy
Row.
The
big
book
just
turned
70
in
April.
And
we're
going
to
talk
about
that
book
tonight.
It's
a
great
history
book,
and
we'll
be
talking
about
it
But
it's
in
many
languages
now.
It's
in,
I
believe,
58
languages.
It's
in
nearly
160
countries.
And
if
you
should
come
in
for
a
visit,
please
look
for
your
big
book,
because
we
lift
that
plastic
up
and
you
sign
it.
And
these
books
are
becoming
archival
as
well.
Right
there
on
the
end
of
the
left
is
a
poster
that
was
given
to
me
by
the
first
France,
a
group
in
France,
it
was
signed
by
the
first
AA's
in
Russia.
And
we
recently
had
one
of
those
AAs
visit
the
office
and
see
that
poster.
Also,
well,
we're
not
in
the
UK,
but
there
was
some
tartans.
Are
you
aware
that
there
was
tartans
commissioned
for
recovery?
They
wear
ties
and
things
in
Scotland
and
stuff.
So
there's
actually
three
tartans
that
have
been
commissioned
that
are
there
as
well.
Pretty
cool,
huh?
Now,
I'm
a
retired
school
teacher,
so
I
have
26
displays
from
A
to
Z.
And
if
I'm
not
there,
you
can
put
some
headsets
on
and
you
can
walk
around.
And
we're
redoing
these.
So
by
the
time
of
the
international
year,
we're
going
to
have
them
really
special.
So
that's
the
outside.
And
the
whole
history
of
AA
is
portrayed
there.
And
then
if
you
go
to
the
inside,
there's
Reverend
Tonks'
chest.
That's
the
man
Bill
called.
It's
filled
with
AA
books.
There's
the
magazines,
and
you
can
take
them
down
and
read
them,
and
I'll
tell
you
more
about
those
in
my
story
tonight.
The
Bunn
bookcase
to
the
left
is
filled
with
big
books,
including
the
ones
that
influenced
Bill
on
the
writing
of
the
big
book.
So
that's
the
interior
room,
and
we'll
open
the
safe
and
show
you
some
very
special
things.
So
if
you
come,
I
know
many
of
you
are
coming.
I
know
some
of
you
are
going
to
New
York
and
you're
renting
a
car.
It's
only
10
hours
from
New
York,
and
there's
many,
many
things
to
see
when
you
come
to
Akron.
And
I'm
going
to
wet
your
appetite.
This
is
a
gallery.
Some
artists
have
been
doing
some
paintings
that
have
brought
some
of
the
scenic
things
to
life
for
us,
so
it's
there.
And
then
finally,
no
archives
would
be
complete
without
conservation.
And
it's
there.
We
want
this
to
be
here
for
the
next
generation,
paper
dyes,
so
we
are
cleaning
it,
repairing
it,
deacidifying
it,
encapsulating
it,
and
taking
care
of
it
for
you
because
this
is
your
archives.
If
you
don't
have
a
first
edition,
first
printing
big
book,
come
and
see
yours
at
our
office.
It's
a
we
deal.
Also,
if
it's
pretty
far
away
for
you
to
visit,
you
can
go
to
Akrona.a.org.
Some
of
you
may
know
about
the
book,
Dr.
Bob,
and
the
good
old
timers.
We're
trying
to
keep
those
voices
alive,
and
we're
putting
on
an
MP3
files,
and
you
can
directly
download
them
off
of
our
webpage.
And
for
those
of
you
that
would
like
definitions
of
the
steps
and
the
traditions,
you
can
click
on
any
of
the
words,
and
little
definitions
will
pop
up.
And
more
will
be
revealed,
because
we're
always
adding
things.
So
please
visit.
And,
well,
let's
start
on
our
story.
That
took
me
about
six
weeks
to
learn
to
do
that.
I'm
going
to
ask
you
to
go
back
in
time
a
little
bit
to
Akron.
Now,
a
lot
of
our
story
is
going
to
take
place
during
depression
times.
And
our
co-founders
thought
that
was
providential
because
this
is
a
fellowship,
and
it
brought
people
together.
The
hard
times
caused
them
to
have
to
work
harder
to
help
each
other.
I
don't
know
if
it
could
happen
in
good
times
if
we
could
have
birthed
this
thing.
Akron
was
the
rubber
capital
of
the
world,
and
we
didn't
have
royalty
like
you
have
here.
What
we
had
was
the
Industrial
Revolution
that
produced
a
lot
of
money
for
some
families.
The
family
you're
looking
at
here
is
from
the
Firestone
Tire
and
Rubber
Company.
This
is
Harvey
Firestone's
family.
Harvey
is
here
in
the
center.
And
the
son
to
the
right
of
him
is
Russell,
and
his
nickname
was
Bud.
And
he
was
a
terrible
alcoholic.
And,
you
know...
Money
can't
buy
sobriety.
They
tried.
They
sent
him
away
to
treatment.
They
did
all
the
family
could
do
with
all
the
power,
prestige,
and
wealth
this
family
had.
They
could
not
help
this
young
man
get
sober,
so
they
gave
up.
It's
like
all
the
king's
horses
and
all
the
king's
men
couldn't
put
bud
back
together
again.
Well,
this
man
here
on
the
left,
his
name
is
Jim
Newton.
And
he's
my
favorite.
He's
just
my
favorite
guy.
He...
You
might
already
know
this,
but
God
can
use
womanizers
in
our
story.
He's
a
young
luggage
salesman,
and
he's
chasing
pretty
girls
in
Massachusetts,
and
he
thinks
he's
on
his
way
to
a
singles
dance,
and
he
follows
him
into
the
hotel,
and
he
ends
up
in
an
Oxford
group
meeting.
And
after
that,
you're
probably
all
familiar
with
a
man
by
the
name
of
Thomas
Edison.
Well,
he
ends
up
working
for
Thomas
Edison
down
in
Fort
Myers,
Florida.
And
next
to
Thomas
Edison
is
Henry
Ford,
and
Charles
Lindbergh
is
one
of
those
guys
down
there,
and
Harvey
Firestone.
And
they
would
all
get
together
down
there.
Well,
Harvey
Firestone
likes
Jim,
and
he's
going
to
invite
him
to
Akron
and
get
him
a
good
position
with
the
company.
Thank
God
or
you
don't
sit
here
tonight.
Well...
Jim
Newton
takes
the
son
on
a
train
trip
to
Denver
where
the
Oxford
group
was
meeting.
And
on
the
way
there,
they
nursed
the
bottle,
controlled
drinking.
This
is
before
Alonon.
And
on
the
way
back,
a
man
by
the
name
of
Sam
Shoemaker
was
on
that
train.
Now,
some
of
you
might
nod
because
I
hope
you
know
who
Sam
Shoemaker
is.
Small
world,
they
put
him
in
a
train
car
coming
back,
and
he
made
a
surrender
in
that
train
car.
And
he
gave
his
life
and
his
will
like
we
do
in
the
third
step.
And
when
he
got
off
the
train,
he
didn't
look
the
same.
Lines
on
his
forehead
were
gone.
The
family
looked
at
him.
This
was
a
new
man.
And
if
you're
familiar
with
the
prodigal
son,
when
the
son
comes
home,
the
father
is
so
overjoyed,
what
does
the
father
do?
The
father
throws
a
dinner
for
all
his
friends.
And
he
invites
the
Oxford
group
to
Akron.
Now
the
Oxford
group
was
for
the
down
and
uppers.
If
you
were
down
and
out,
you
went
to
the
Salvation
Army.
So
this
was
society
times.
It
was
who
knew
who.
And
you
can
see
that
our
society
got
all
dressed
up
and
came
out
to
meet
the
Oxford
group.
Now,
the
Oxford
group
traveled
like
an
army
for
God.
They
were
what
originally
was
a
return
to
first
century
Christianity.
Later,
they
became
the
Oxford
Group,
and
then
they
became
moral
rearmament,
MRA,
when
Buckman
had
a
spiritual
experience,
another
conversion
experience
in
the
Black
Forest
in
Germany,
and
they
changed
their
name,
and
they
were
going
to
change
the
world,
one
leader
at
a
time.
And
today,
they're
known
as
initiatives
of
change.
Do
you
ever
hear
up-up
with
people?
They
used
to
travel
up-up
with
people.
Do
you
ever
hear
that
group?
Do
you
know
that
they
broke
off
from
the
Oxford
group
just
like
us
in
the
60s?
I
thought
that
might
be
interesting
because
I
think
they
traveled
around
a
lot.
So
the
newspapers
pick
it
up
because
Frank
Bookman's
coming
to
town
with
anywhere
from
40
or
60
of
the
group.
And
Mr.
Firestone's
going
to
put
them
up.
They're
going
to
have
the
dinner.
And
his
son
is
going
to
give
testimony
to
his
recovery
from
alcoholism.
You
see,
this
is
how
the
Oxford
group
came
to
Akron.
This
is
how
the
story
gets
started.
And
it's
important.
It
gets
started
with
a
drunk's
recovery.
That's
not
what's
going
to
happen
in
New
York.
But
in
Akron,
it
gets
started
with
the
drunks
recovery
and
Henrietta,
Cyberling,
attended,
because
for
the
next
10
days,
they're
going
to
have
house
parties,
and
they're
going
to
have
meetings
in
the
morning
and
at
night
for
the
next
10
days,
and
they'll
go
out
into
the
pulpits
of
the
churches.
Well,
Anne
Smith,
this
is
Dr.
Bob's
wife
here,
began
attending.
Now,
these
two
women,
they
had
a
way
of
manipulating
poor
Dr.
Bob.
You
know,
he
started
out
okay
in
Akron,
but
eventually
his
alcoholism
increases,
and
he
doesn't
have
too
many
friends
left.
So
by
the
time
he
joins
the
Oxford
group,
he's
grateful
to
have
these
friends.
And
he
likes
the
people,
much
like
when
you
walk
into
a
meeting
of
Alcoholics
Anonymous
today.
They
were
comfortable
with
themselves,
they
were
laughing,
and
they
were
of
good
spirit.
But
Dr.
Bob
and
Ann
Smith
are
going
to
be
in
the
Oxford
group
for
two
and
a
half
years.
Now...
It's
going
to
be
the
same
principles
that
we
get
sober
on
today.
I
mean,
they
read
lots
of
books.
Dr.
Bob
read
the
Bible
a
couple
times.
He
read
all
the
books.
He
prayed,
even
went
back
to
church.
He
did
everything
the
Oxford
Group
told
him
to
do.
And
he
did
not
get
sober
in
two
and
a
half
years.
That's
an
important
point
because
there's
a
reason
why.
So,
um...
This
is
Henrietta.
A
woman
by
the
name
of
Delphine
Weber
calls
Henrietta
and
says,
what
are
we
going
to
do
about
Dr.
Bob?
She
goes,
what
do
you
mean?
What
are
we
going
to
do
about
Dr.
Bob?
Well,
he's
a
terrible
drinker.
He's
about
ready
to
lose
his
practice.
He's
about
ready
to
lose
his
home.
And
she
did
what
they
did
in
the
early
days
of
the
Oxford
Group
and
AA.
They
would
get
up
in
the
morning,
and
they
would
open
the
Bible
or
a
spiritual
inspirational
book,
and
they
would
read
it.
and
then
they
would
stop
and
they
would
go
into
the
listening
part
listen
to
what
God
had
to
say
for
them
and
then
they
would
get
a
sheet
of
paper
and
a
pencil
or
a
pen
and
they
would
begin
writing
what
they
thought
God
was
saying
to
them.
Then
there
was
another
part
that
they
did
it
was
called
checking.
You
never
went
it
alone
any
more
than
you
should
in
AA
I
suppose
But
they
did
this
thing
called
checking,
and
then
you
would
check
it
through
the
four
absolutes,
honesty,
purity,
and
selfishness,
and
love
to
make
sure
that
guidance
wasn't
coming
from
your
ego.
That
guidance
is
one
of
the
reasons
why
I
think
we
have
the
program
today.
So
many
people
were
listening.
By
the
way,
your
24-hour
book,
how
many
people
know
about
the
24-hour
book?
That
came
from
two
listeners
from
the
Oxford
group,
just
two
women
who
listened,
and
then
a
drunk
came
along
and
made
it
into
a
book
for
us.
So
anyway,
Henrietta
comes
up
through
her
guidance,
and
she
calls
her
friends
T.
Henry,
Claris
Williams.
Now,
T.
Henry
looked
like
a
drunk,
but
he
wasn't.
It
was
actually
a
tire
mold
inventor.
Bill
Wilson
comes
to
town,
and
he
loses
his
job
because
of
Bill
Wilson.
In
the
proxy
takeover
fight
at
his
company,
because
it
was
a
National
Rubber
Company,
and
he
was
the
inventor
there.
And
they
had
this
beautiful
home.
and
they
almost
lost
their
home.
Yeah,
he's
lost
his
job.
He
almost
loses
his
home
because
they
were
for
closing
on
homes,
much
like
they're
doing
today
in
the
United
States.
People
can't
pay
their
mortgages.
And
the
bank
stopped
short
of
taking
this
house
because
they'd
already
taken
so
many.
They
couldn't
take
any
more.
So
Henrietta
asked
him
if
we
could
use
the
house
for
a
special
meeting
for
Dr.
Bob
and
Ann
because
they
weren't
sharing.
And...
They
agreed,
and
so
Henrietta
set
up
the
meeting,
and
she
said,
it
was
on
Monday.
The
first
meeting
was
what
they
called
a
set-up
meeting.
Now,
we
call
when
we
speak
a
lead,
because
from
the
Oxford
group,
there
was
always
a
leader.
And
when
you
speak
in
AA
in
our
country,
we
call
it
a
lead.
Well,
she
was
the
leader
of
this,
and
she
said,
you
come
to
mean
business.
There's
not
going
to
be
any
pussy
footing
around.
We're
going
to
share,
and
we're
going
to
share
deeply.
Sounds
like
intervention,
doesn't
it,
for
some
of
you
that
might
know
what
an
intervention
is.
Now,
she
got
that
from
her
guidance.
So,
they
planned
the
meeting
for
Wednesday
at
8
o'clock.
And
I
don't
know
what
they
said.
They
all
went
around
the
room
and
they
shared
it.
I
don't
know.
Those
were
down
and
uppers.
What
did
they
do?
Touch
the
stove
and
say
some
four-letter
word.
I
don't
know.
But
when
it
came
Dr.
Bob's
turn,
there
was
this
long
pause.
And
he
thanked
them.
And
then
he
said,
now
there's
something
that
I
want
to
share
with
you.
I
am
a
secret
drinker
and
I
cannot
stop.
Oh,
he
said,
at
the
cost
of
my
profession.
He
was
a
doctor.
I
am
a
secret
drinker
and
I
cannot
stop.
Step
one.
Would
you
like
us
to
pray
for
you,
Bob?
Yes,
I
would.
They
all
get
down
on
their
knees
in
this
home.
That's
what
they
prayed
back
then.
They'd
all
get
down
on
their
knees
and
they
prayed
for
Dr.
Bob.
Now,
Henrietta
would
continue
to
pray
for
him.
For
the
next
couple
weeks,
it's
not
going
to
be
long
before
something
happens
here.
But
she
will
continue
to
pray
for
him
in
her
morning
quiet
time.
Well,
Bill
Wilson,
as
you
know,
comes
to
town
and
the
deal
falls
through,
and
he
is
left
in
the
lobby
of
the
Mayflower
Hotel
that
you
see
here.
And
he's
pacing
the
lobby
and
he
hears
the
tinkling
of
the
glasses
and
he
thinks
he's
going
to
go
in
and
have
a
drink
or
strike
up
a
conversation
when
he
remembers
something
Lois
said
to
him.
You
see,
he'd
been
working
with
alcoholics
for
months
before
he
came
to
Akron
and
not
one
got
sober.
And
he
was
pretty
depressed
about
that.
But
Lois
said,
but
you're
sober,
Bill.
So,
thank
God.
He
walks
over
to
the
telephone.
He
puts
a
nickel
in
the
phone.
Oh,
before
he
does,
he
looks
at
the
directory,
and
he
finds
the
most
perfect
name
he
can
find.
Reverend
Tunks,
when
Bill
went
for
a
walk,
he
took
a
Tunk.
That's
an
old
Vermont
term
that
he
used.
You
know,
thank
God
he
picked
that
name
or
we
might
not
be
here
tonight.
Because
this
is
the
only
name
he
picks,
and
it's
the
Firestone
Minister
that
had
brought
the
Oxford
group
to
town.
So
when
he's
looking
for
the
Oxford
group
and
he
needs
help,
Reverend
Tunks
will
give
him
10
numbers.
Thank
God
nobody
was
home.
We
might
not
be
here
tonight.
People
are
busy.
They're
not
home,
and
he
finally
gets
a
hold
of
one
man,
the
last
number,
and
it's
Norm
Shepard.
And
Norm
Shepard
gives
him
Henrietta
Cyberlings
number.
Oh,
Bill
doesn't
want
to
call
a
cyberling.
That's
probably
the
president's
wife.
He
doesn't,
that's
what
he
thinks.
So
he
walks
away
from
the
phone.
He's
not
going
to
call
her.
And
then
he
hears
that
voice
of
guidance.
He
says,
I
heard
a
voice
say
to
me,
you
better
call
that
lady.
He
turns
around
and
he
goes
back
upstairs
and
he
calls
her
slender
threads.
Now,
Henrietta
Cyberling
was
very
proper.
She
was
raised
at
Vassar
to
marry
a
Vanderbilt.
but
she
had
ended
up
marrying
a
cyberling.
Now,
I
want
to
remind
you,
this
is
high
society
times
back
in
the
30s,
and
it's
going
to
be
Mother's
Day
weekend.
What
a
great
gift
we
got
for
all
the
moms,
huh?
He's
going
to
call
her,
though,
on
a
Saturday,
and
when
he
calls
her,
he
says,
I'm
a
rum
hound
from
New
York.
Can
you
imagine
saying
that
to
her?
Total
stranger.
I'm
a
rum
hound
from
New
York,
and
I'm
looking
for
another
alcoholic.
Because
of
her
faith,
because
of
her
morning
prayers,
she
thinks,
Mana
from
heaven.
You
come
over
here
right
now.
I've
got
just
the
man
for
you.
Well,
that
man,
you
know,
was
drunk.
So
the
next
day,
she
says,
if
you'll
go
to
church
with
me,
we'll
try
to
do
it
the
next
day.
And
Bill
did
that.
Now,
I
want
to,
and
as
you
know,
Dr.
Bob
didn't
want
to
meet
with
him.
I'm
going
to
give
that
bird
15
minutes,
and
Bill
looks
at
him
and
says,
it
looks
like
you
could
use
a
drink,
and
then
two
of
them
go
back
and
retire
into
that
little
library.
Right
here
is
where
they
met.
And
if
you
come
to
Akron,
you
can
visit
there,
same
wallpaper,
same
everything.
And,
you
know,
they
talked
late
into
the
night.
Two
real
quick
stories.
I
just
feel
like
I
want
to
tell
you.
One
is
when
I
told
the
story
about
Delphine
Weber...
The
woman
who
called
Henrietta,
I
did
it
at
the
50th
anniversary
of
group
number
one.
A
gentleman
came
from
the
back
of
the
room
crying.
He
came
up
to
me
and
he
said,
Delphine,
Delphine
Weber,
that's
my
grandmother.
I
didn't
know
my
grandmother
had
anything
to
do
with
the
start
of
AA.
Then
a
woman
comes
into
the
program,
Ethel
Macy,
And
she
saw
F.A.
Cyberling's
limousine
driver
who
drove
Bill
home
that
night,
Bill
back
to
the
Mayflower,
shortly
after
that
had
come
into
the
program.
And
little
did
he
know
that
night
when
he
drove
Bill
back
from
the
gate
lodge
that
that
man
would
be
starting
a
program
that
would
save
his
life.
So
we
never
know
what
we're
doing
today
is
a
link
in
a
chain
of
events
called
Alcoholics
Anonymous.
I
have
many,
many
stories
like
that.
I
could
tell
you
because
I've
met
the
offspring
of
all
the
pioneers
and
many
of
their
children
and
grandchildren
to
this
day
need
the
program.
So
something
you're
doing
today
is
going
to
help
somebody
downstream.
So
this
is
the
man
on
the
bed
we
talked
about.
And,
you
know,
Bob
didn't
have
too
much
sobriety
when
they
called
on
him,
but
they
knew
they
needed
to
work
with
another
drunk.
I
want
to
tell
you
a
little
bit
about
the
four
absolutes
that
they
took
to
him.
You
see
the
words
there.
These
are
the
only
yardsticks
we
had
in
Akron.
We
didn't
have
12
steps.
These
are
the
four
words
that
we
got
from
the
Oxford
Group
that
is
what
we
used.
We
still
studied
these
today
in
Akron
and
the
area.
There
are
four
questions
that
go
with
those
four
words.
Is
what
I'm
about
to
think,
say,
or
do,
right
or
wrong,
true
or
false,
ugly
or
beautiful,
and
how
does
it
help
the
other
guy?
Now,
those
were
real
powerful
tools.
What
happened
though
with
the
Oxford
group
is
that
when
they
started
going
country
to
country,
they
wanted
to
convert
Hitler.
and
a
telegram
got
intercepted
that
said,
God
bless
a
man
like
Adolf
Hitler
or
whatever.
But
the
real
intent
was
to
try
to,
if
they
could
get
him,
they
could
turn
the
whole
thing
around.
But
instead,
it
caused
so
much
controversy
that
Bill,
who
was
trying
to
take
care
of
this
new
little
group,
backed
away.
And
you
will
not...
They're
in
the
big
book,
but
he's
kind
of
got
them
woven
through.
But
we'll
talk
more
about
how
important
the
Oxford
group
really
was.
So
after...
That
prayer.
This
house
here,
remember
they
said
a
prayer
Wednesday
at
8
o'clock
at
the
meeting
here?
They
will
continue
to
meet
in
this
home
until
late
39.
This
is
what
we
call
the
flying
blind
period.
We
didn't
have
conference-approved
literature.
The
big
book
wasn't
conference-approved.
We
were
just
hanging
on
to
the
Oxford
group.
And
what
would
happen
here...
is
that
a
little
squad
of
drunks
began
to
form,
and
it
was
called
the
alcoholic
squad,
and
it
was
like
a
subgroup
to
the
Oxford
group.
I
mean,
the
Oxford
group
was
there,
but
these
drunks
were
coming
in,
and
they
were
kind
of
taken
over
because,
you
know,
for
us,
it's
life
and
death.
So
we
were
kind
of
out-growing
these
guys.
Well,
you
know,
the
guidance
part
I
told
you
about?
Well,
those
drunks
were
pretty
serious,
low-bottomed
dr.
and
they
were
Jones
and
man,
they
were
shaken,
and
they
couldn't
sit
still
for
the
guidance.
So
Dr.
Bob
would
take
them
upstairs
into
the
upper
room
and
they'd
have
their
own
prayer
meeting.
Now,
the
reason
today
that
some
of
us
use
the
Lord's
Prayer
is
because
in
the
Oxford
Group,
we
opened
with
the
prayer,
you
gave
some
testimony,
and
you
closed
with
the
prayer.
And
then
you
had
a
little
literature
on
the
table,
and
we
read
the
Oxford
Group
literature,
and
then
we
went
and
got
donuts.
So...
Now
we're
going
to
go
to,
there's
two
places
that
this
story
takes
place
in.
One
of
them
is
Akron.
And
now
we're
going
to
go
to
the
other
stage,
which
is
New
York.
This
is
Calvary
Church.
This
is
Sam
Shoemaker's
Church.
The
Oxford
Group
headquarters
is
there
in
New
York.
This
is
where
Roland
Hazard,
when
he
comes
back
from
seeing
Carl
Jung
in
Switzerland,
this
is
where
he
will
get
three
months
of
sobriety.
This
is
where
Ebby
Thatcher
will
come.
and
he
will
get
a
couple
months
of
sobriety
and
make
a
call
on
Bill.
So
this
is
very
important
to
us,
this
church.
That's
Sam
Shoemaker.
Bill
would
say
that
we
got
some
of
the
steps
from
him
because
Sam
often
spoke
of
the
same
principles.
We
read
a
lot
of
his
books.
And
this
is
where
they
held
the
Oxford
Group.
Let's
go
in
and
see
what
a
meeting
there
was
like.
That
is
a
typical
picture
of
when
Bill
and
Lois
were
attending
the
Oxford
Group
there.
Now,
after
Bill
gets
sober
in
town's
hospital,
he
gets
this
idea
of
primary
purpose.
When
you
read
his
story,
he
said,
and
I
saw
how
my
experience
could
benefit
others.
So
Bill,
Oxford
Group
wanted
to
be
all
things
to
all
people.
Bill
just
wanted
to
help
a
drunk.
So
when
he
came
in,
he
just
about
knock
you
over
looking
for
a
drunk.
The
Oxford
Group
didn't
like
that
too
much.
So
they
started
giving
Bill
and
Lois
the
cold
shoulder.
They
didn't
like
them
at
all
doing
that.
So
that's
Clinton.
That's
an
artist's
rendition
of
Clinton
Street.
This
is
Bill
and
Lois's
home.
And
they
start
inviting
the
drunks
back
to
their
home.
This
is
1937.
This
is
happening.
And
you
can
see
they're
greeting
them
there.
And
they
form
a
group
called
the
drunk
squad.
So
you've
got
the
alcoholic
squad
in
Akron.
You've
got
this
drunk
squad
in
New
York.
Well...
One
minute
Bill's
a
millionaire,
the
next
minute
he's
broke.
Have
you
ever
seen
Bill?
You
can
tell
he's
got
a
motion
disorder.
He's
up,
he's
down.
He's
up.
He's
down.
Well,
he's
making
a
comeback,
and
he's
coming
back
to
Akron,
and
he's
on
a
business
trip.
Things
have
been
pretty
slow
going,
and
he's
going
to
stop
in
to
see
the
Smith.
This
is
855
Bardemore.
This
is
Dr.
Bob's
home.
And
they're
going
to
be...
A
lot
of
failures.
I
don't
know
if
you
understand
how
hard
this
program
was
to
get
going,
because
people
were
just
falling
off
the
wagon.
Somebody
would
get
a
few,
you
know,
a
little
time,
and
there
was
a
lot
of
failures,
and
they
didn't
really
know
what
they
had.
So
they're
sitting
around
the
house.
By
the
way,
that's
Photoshopped
in.
Can
you
tell?
I
just
wanted
you
to
know
that
the
three
of
them
got
together,
and
they
started
counting
noses.
That
should
say,
1937.
And
they
began
counting,
and
they
came
up
with
40
people
sober.
And
this
feeling
came
over
the
three
of
them.
It
was
like
a
moment
of
ecstasy.
And
then
they
bowed
their
heads
in
gratitude
because
they
realized
that
a
light
had
come
into
the
dark
world
of
the
alcoholic.
It's
the
first
time
it
dawns
on
them.
This
thing
might
be
catching
on.
Well,
if
you
know,
Bill,
the
next
moment...
That
humble
moment
turns
into,
hey,
he's
been
working
on
Wall
Street.
Why
don't
we
get
his
chain
of
hospitals?
And,
hey,
we
need
some
missionaries.
And,
oh,
we
better
get
some
literature
to
keep
this
message
from
getting
garbled.
I
mean,
that's
where
he
went
straight.
You
know,
poor
Dr.
Bob.
You
know,
he's
like,
whoop,
what
happened
here?
And,
well,
you
know,
the
two
of
them
were
best
friends.
They
were
both
Vermonters.
And
they...
They
always
got
along,
but
that
doesn't
mean
they
always
agree.
They
agreed
to
disagree
agreeably.
Thank
God.
I
think
that
was
so
important
to
getting
this
thing
off
the
ground.
Imagine
that
they
were
fighting
all
the
time.
I
mean,
I
don't
know
if
we'd
have
made
it
either.
So
Smitty,
Dr.
Bob's
son,
said,
if
it
was
up
to
Dr.
Bob,
A.A.
would
have
never
left
Akron.
But
if
it
was
up
to
Bill,
he
had
franchised
it.
So
here
you
can
see
the
two
co-founders.
It's
a
very
touching
video.
I
think
it's
the
only
one
we
actually
have.
In
a
little
bit,
you'll
see
Anne
Smith,
the
mother
of
AA.
And
what
they
did,
and
you
can
see
the
wild
ties
of
Dr.
Bob.
He
was
pretty,
that
in
Argyll
socks.
And
they
were
both
funny.
You
know,
they
both
had
great
senses
of
humor,
as
I
think
you
can
tell
there.
Pretty
happy
in
their
sobriety.
Yeah.
Now,
Anne
Smith
was
kind
of
more
shy.
She's
going
to
be
uncomfortable
when
she
comes
on
here.
There
she
says,
get
me
out
of
here,
Bob,
come
on.
Just
stay
in
the
background.
But
she
was
sweet
and
everyone
loved
her.
And
she
certainly
earned
her
title,
Mother
of
A.A.
Bob
wasn't
too
keen
on
the
idea.
He
just
wasn't
quite
sure.
And
they
had
come
up
with
the
idea
of
a
group
conscience.
Once
before
that,
Bill
had
been
offered
a
job
at
Towns
Hospital,
and
he
got
pretty
excited.
You
know,
they
were
hungry.
They
weren't
eating.
You
know,
Bob
had
hardly
wasn't
working,
and,
you
know,
Lois
was
supporting
all
the
drunks.
Bill
was
running
around
being
a
missionary.
He
wasn't
working.
And
so
when
he
got
offered
this
job,
he
was
so
excited.
But
he
came
back,
and
they
said,
Bill,
you
can't
make
this
into
a
profession.
You
can't
take
that
job
at
Towns
Hospital.
So
this
time
they
decided
to
try
the
group
conscience
again.
And
they
went
over
to
the
house.
They
had
19
men
sober
at
that
time,
good
and
true,
they
said.
There's
the
living
room
where
they
said
the
prayer,
and
this
is
where
they're
going
to
hold
this
group
conscience
meeting.
And
there's
Bill
there.
He's
going
to
pitch
it.
He's
quite
the
salesman,
you
know.
Need
a
chain
of
hospitals?
We're
going
to
need
those
paid
missionaries.
And
literature
to
keep
the
message
from
getting
garbled.
Well,
the
alcoholic
squad
says
the
man
of
Galilee
had
no
press
agents,
newspaper,
pamphlets,
or
books.
Keep
it
simple,
Bill.
Bill
said,
you
can
keep
it
so
simple.
You'll
have
anarchy.
He
said,
there's
alcoholics
dying
within
gunshot
of
here.
So
they
took
it
to
a
vote,
and
with
one
vote
over,
they
sent
Bill
back.
They
said,
Bill,
if
you're
going
to
do
this
thing,
you
go
raise
the
money.
So
he
went
back
to
the
Big
Apple,
and
he
began
to
pitch
to
the
rich.
But
you
know
what?
The
rich
weren't
too
impressed.
40
drunk,
sober,
that's
not
a
very
big
deal,
is
it?
We'd
rather
give
our
money
to
the
Red
Cross
or
the
Salvation
Army.
Well,
some
of
you
might
know
that
Bill
was
subject
to
depressions,
and
he'd
get
these
imaginary
ulcers.
So
he
was
at
Clinton
Street,
and
he
got
one
of
those.
Well,
thank
God
his
sister,
Dorothy,
he
had
married
a
doctor.
So
he
trots
off
to
the
doctor,
Leonard
Strong.
Leonard
Strong
is
going
to
become
a
trustee
in
later
years.
But
at
this
time,
he's
a
doctor,
and
Bill
goes
doing
that
whining
thing
again.
Those
rich
people
won't
give
me
any
money.
And
Leonard
says,
you
know,
I
think
I
know
somebody
who
was
once
related
to
the
Rockefellers.
And
he
makes
a
phone
call.
And
to
Reverend
Willard
Richardson,
he
couldn't
have
picked
a
better
guy.
This
guy
is
Rockefeller's
spiritual
advisor
and
best
friend.
Now,
can
you
imagine
Bill's
going
from
an
ulcer
to
the
54th
floor
of
the
Rockefeller
building.
Right.
I
mean,
this
is
Bill's
life.
It
just,
you
know,
it's
those
slender
threads
I'm
talking
about.
In
fact,
he
says
on
what
slender
threads,
our
destiny
does
lie.
And
he
meets
with
Willard,
and
Willard
arranges
a
special
meeting
in
December
of
that
year
in
the
boardroom
of
the
Rockefellers.
In
fact,
Bill
sat
in
a
chair
that
had
just
been
vacated
by
J.D.
himself.
And
he
thought,
ooh,
I'm
getting
close
to
the
money.
He
was
so
excited
when
he
sat
in
that
chair.
Well,
let's
look
at
who
was
there.
We
have
Albert
Scott,
Willard
Richardson,
Leonard,
Dr.
Silkworth,
Frank
Amos,
and
Leroy
Chipman
were
there.
The
alcoholics
that
were
there
were
Bill
Wilson,
Dr.
Bob,
Hank
P.,
Fitzm.,
Ned
P.,
and
Dick
S.
from
Akron.
And
they
don't
know
what
to
do.
They're
so
uncomfortable.
They're
sitting
in
the,
I
mean,
these
are
just,
you
know,
these
are
low-bottom
drunks
that
are
cleaned
up
a
little
bit,
and
they're
sitting
in
the
Rockefeller
office.
And
they
don't
know
what
to
do,
and
they
look
at
each
other,
and
they
say,
why
don't
we
just
tell
our
stories?
So
they
started
to
tell
their
story,
and
in
the
middle
of
it,
Albert
Scott
goes,
why,
this
is
first
century
Christianity.
Interesting,
isn't
it,
after
I
just
told
you,
that's
what
the
Oxford
group
was.
So
the
next
thing,
and
you
know,
now
remember
they
want
money.
They're
hungry.
They're
looking
for
money.
Gentlemen,
up
to
this
point,
this
has
been
the
work
of
goodwill
only.
No
plan,
no
property,
no
paid
people,
just
one
carrying
the
good
news
to
the
next.
Isn't
that
true?
So
Frank
Amos
was
from
Ohio,
and
he
said,
look,
I'm
going
to
go
check.
Oh,
so
they
didn't
get
the
money.
Then
they
started
saying,
well,
we
really
need
some
money.
You
know,
we
really
need
to
get
this
thing
going.
So
Frank
Amos
comes
to
Akron,
and
he
checks
us
out.
And
he
sees
that
Dr.
Bob's
a
pretty
good
doctor,
and
he
could
probably
do
the
job.
And
he
writes
a
report
that
goes
back
for
$50,000,
and
they're
going
to
pay
off
the
mortgage
of
Dr.
Bob's
home,
so
he
doesn't
lose
it.
They're
going
to
start
a
rehab
place.
They're
going
to
put
Dr.
Bob
in
charge.
Subsidize
a
few
people,
start
a
chain
of
hospitals,
and
get
busy
on
that
book.
Well,
the
paper
goes
from
Richardson
to
Rockefeller,
and
it
gets
held
up
because
he
says,
somehow
I
am
strangely
stirred
by
all
this.
Please
go
back.
But
this
interests
me
immensely.
Let
me
do
that
again
so
you
can
see
that.
Oh,
I
think
I
had
it
automatically,
so
we'll
have
to
be
real
quick.
But
isn't
money
going
to
ruin
this
thing?
I
think
the
thing
that...
interests
me
the
most
about
that
statement
is
that
he's
strangely
stirred
by
all
this.
I
wonder
who's
up
there
strangely
stirring
him.
He
says,
no,
I
want
to
hear
what
goes
on,
but
please
don't
bother
me
for
any
more
money.
No,
I
won't
be
the
one
to
spoil
this
thing
with
money.
Thank
God.
And
the
$50,000
gets
shrunk
to
$5,000,
and
they
take
the
$5,000,
and
they
use
$3,000
of
it
to
pay
off
the
mortgage
at
Dr.
Bob's
house,
and
that's
going
to
leave
the
boys
2,000
that
they're
going
to
pinch
from
in
the
coming
months.
They're
going
to
take,
it's
an
unbelievable
story,
isn't
it?
They're
going
to
put
the
money
in
the
Riverside
Church.
This
is
the
Rockefeller
Church.
Foszdick
is
the
head
of
that
church,
and
they'll
read
a
lot
of
books
by
him,
and
he
is
going
to
write
the
first
big
book
review
that
will
appear
in
the
New
York
Times.
Then
they're
going
to
borrow
an
attorney
from
the
Rockefeller's,
a
young
guy
by
the
name
of
John
Wood,
and
they're
going
to
try
to
put
together
a
charter.
They're
going
to
call
this
the
Alcoholic
Foundation.
But
how
do
you
define
us?
What's
an
alcoholic?
Well,
they
came
up
with
this.
What
is
the
difference
between
an
alcoholic
and
a
non-alcoholic?
That's
where
we
first
started
using
that
word,
and
a.
That's
a
joke.
Oh.
Anyway,
Leonard
Strong
is
going
to
be
the
secretary,
and
you
can
see
Richardson's
there,
Chipman,
Frank
Amos,
Dr.
Bob,
and
they're
going
to
add
two
more
dr.
Now,
the
problem
in
the
ratio
of
that,
we
have
Class
A
and
Class
B
trustees.
They
had
more
Class
A
non-alcoholics
because
they
don't
drink,
and
the
alcoholics
were
slipping
all
over
the
place.
So
that
was
kind
of
difficult.
Bill's
going
to
be
on
the
steering
committee
kind
of
as
an
advisory
committee.
And
he's
going
to
start
writing
the
book
here.
Now,
some
of
you
have
been
to
New
Jersey.
This
building
is
in
New
Jersey.
It
is
called
the
Camelot
Building.
Hank
P
is
the
first
guy
out
in
New
York,
and
he
becomes
Bill's
partner.
And
they
start
a
company
called
Honors
Dealers,
and
they're
going
to
do
car
products.
And
they're
going
to
be
in
this
building
here.
There's
another
picture
of
it.
And
they
hire
this
gorgeous
gal
here.
This
is
Ruth
Hawke.
Ruth
Hawk
was
a
very
good
secretary,
and
here
she
is
with
Bill,
and
Bill's,
it's
in
Pass
It
On,
if
you
read
and
Pass
It
On,
it
says
she
did
not
know
what
she
was
getting
herself
into
when
she
took
this
job.
She
thought
it
was
car
products,
but
it
wasn't
car
products.
She
didn't
see
too
much
business
going
on.
She
either
saw
somebody
passed
out
in
a
chair
or
somebody
down
on
their
knees
making
a
surrender.
Right.
By
the
way,
if
you
visit
Stepping
Stones,
this
table
is
in
the
kitchen.
And
this
is
where
Bill
and
Evie
sat
when
Evie
made
the
call
on
Bill.
And
he
pulled
out
the
pineapple
juice.
There's
another
picture
of
Ruth.
Now,
the
interesting
thing
about
Ruth
is
that
when
they
start
this
deal
up,
they
don't
have
any
money.
So
they
start
like
this
stock
company
up,
and
they
get
these
stock
certificates.
And
they
were
worth
nothing.
But
they
were
supposed
to
be
worth
$25
that
the
book
ever
got
written.
And
they
would
rip
off
one
of
these
$25
certificates.
They'd
ration
her
one
a
week.
And...
Little
did
she
know,
and
there's
the
old
typewriter.
Now,
we
have
word
processors
today.
Can
you
imagine
Bill's
pacing
behind
her
with
a
cigarette
in
one
hand,
and
he's
dictating
to
her,
and
she's
typing
up
the
big
book.
And
this
is
Hank,
who
had
a
terrible
crush
on
Ruth.
It
was
his
idea,
you
know.
He
had
in
like
an
idea
a
minute,
so
he's
going
to
be
the
promoter.
And
little
did
she
know,
when
I
gave
this
talk
for
the
first
time,
it
was
in
our
international
in
Toronto.
And
little
did
she
know
that
the
book
she
was
typing
would
one
day
save
her
daughter's
life.
And
Lori
was
my
roommate,
and
I
asked
her
to
stand.
She
has
over
30
years
of
sobriety
in
Chicago.
That
was
pretty
moving
that
she
was
there
for
that.
Well,
by
the
way,
she
got
the
five
millionth
copy
of
the
big
book
in
Montreal.
What
are
some
of
the
people
that
influence
Bill?
You
know,
he
didn't
channel
it
all
in.
There
was
William
James,
a
variety
of
religious
experiences.
That
book,
Bill
said
he
devoured
it
in
Towns
Hospital.
Have
ever
tried
to
read
that
book?
It's
pretty
hard
to
devour.
And
this
book,
What
is
the
Oxford
Group?
I
have
to
tell
you
a
quick
story
about
this
book.
I
showed
you
the
Gate
Lodge.
Well,
there's
a
big
large
property
there,
and
we
have
harvest
festivals
there.
So
I
was
attending
one
of
those.
It
wasn't
an
AA
event.
It
was
a
harvest
festival.
And
they
had
a
tent
right
behind
the
Gate
Lodge.
And
it
was
an
old
book
bin.
And
I'm
kind
of
a,
you
know,
not
a
junkie,
but
a
junker.
You
know,
I'm
always
looking
around
for
something.
So
I
said,
do
you
have
any
old
AA
books?
And
they
said,
no.
And
I
said,
well,
do
you
have
any
spiritual
books?
And
they
said,
yes.
And
so
my
hand
went
across
a
little
blue
book,
and
it
said,
What
is
the
Oxford
Group?
And
I
was
kind
of
newly
sober.
I
had
about
three,
four
years
sobriety,
and
I
thought,
I
wonder,
was
that
the
Oxford
Movement?
Was
it
the
Oxford
Group?
And
I
opened
it
up,
and
it
said,
R.H.
Smith,
855
Ardmore,
his
book,
please
return.
Okay.
Or
should
I
say
the
book
found
me?
I
want
you
know
I
tried
to
get
them
down
to
25
cents,
but
they
made
me
pay
35.
Oh,
by
the
way,
you'll
see
that
in
Dr.
Bob's
house.
I
did
return
it.
Common
sense
of
drinking.
That's
where
we
got
the
idea
for
our
stories.
This
is
a
big
one.
The
Sermon
on
the
Mount
by
Emmett
Fox,
if
you
ever
get
a
chance
to
read
that,
when
we
did
not
have
conference-approved
literature,
the
co-founders
had
recommended
reading
lists.
As
a
Man
Thinketh
by
James
Allen,
Henry
Drummond,
the
greatest
thing,
was
another
classic
that
you
might
be
familiar
with,
and
this
book,
The
Sermon
on
the
Mount,
heavily
influenced
both
of
our
co-founders.
and
AJ
Russell
from
the
Oxford
Group
for
sinners
only.
And
I
must
mention
Ebby.
Those
of
you
who
might
read
in
Bill's
story
in
the
big
book,
you
can
almost
number
the
steps
that
Ebby
brings
to
Bill
in
Towns
Hospital.
So
they
were
kind
of,
you
know,
Bill
puts
them
into
12-step
form,
but
those
ideas
were
floating
around.
He's
going
to
ask
Ann
Smith...
to
write
a
story.
Chapter
to
the
Wives.
Now,
Anne
was
the
kind
of
woman
who
was
very,
just
wanted
to
stay
in
the
background,
and
she
declines.
Lois
got
a
resentment.
I
think
she
might
have
worked
it
out
in
Al-Anon.
I'm
not
sure.
You
know
who
writes
Chapter
to
the
Wives?
Bill
Wilson.
For
some
of
us,
that's
not
our
favorite
chapter.
So
Bill's
going
to
get
busy
writing
the
book.
By
the
way,
this
is
the
document
actually
that
I
just
received
recently,
where
Bill's
actually
writing
to
Dr.
Bob
and
talking
to
him
about
what
they're
going
to
call
the
program
and
mentioning
to
Ann
that
he'd
like
to
have
her
write
the
book
and
talking
about
the
stories
and
how
they
developed.
Bill
starts,
he's
going
to
write
an
introduction,
He's
going
to
write
his
story,
and
he's
going
to
write
this
chapter
here.
There
is
a
solution.
Now,
Bill
really
wasn't
a
writer.
He
hadn't
really
done
much
writing
up
to
this
time.
And
he's
going
to
get
an
end
to
go
to
Harper's
religious
editor,
Eugene
Xman.
And
Eugene
Xman
reads
these
three
pieces,
and
he
goes,
Bill,
this
is
pretty
good
writing.
And
now,
remember,
they're
hungry.
And
he
says,
Bill,
can
you
write
more
like
this?
And
Bill
says,
yeah,
well,
yeah,
I
can.
I
can.
Well,
I'll
offer
you
a
$1,500
advance
if
you'll
write
more.
Well,
can
you
imagine
Bill
Zigo?
He's
up
again.
He's
up.
So,
wait
a
minute.
Is
something
wrong
with
a
projector?
What's
going
on
here?
Uh-oh.
Whoa,
wait
a
minute,
folks.
Bill.
Hi,
Bill.
You
know
where
we
are?
We're
in
Stockholm,
Sweden.
And
I
was
just
telling
these
folks
about
the
writing
of
the
book.
But,
you
know,
a
lot
of
people
thought
I
knew
Bill.
because
I
talked
to
Bill,
and
I
never
knew
him.
You
guys
thought
I
was
75
years
old?
Is
that
right?
They
were
so
glad
I
could
scoot
in
a
pair
of
tennis
shoes
so
they
could
take
me
around.
They
were
relieved.
I
feel
like
I
know,
Bill.
I've
read
everything
he
wrote,
but
I
didn't
meet
Bill.
However,
I
have
the
power
to
bring
him
back
from
the
dead.
So,
Bill,
would
you
be
willing
to
share
with
them
your
perception
of
the
writing
of
the
book?
No.
Now
then,
I
think
he
agreed.
As
a
graphic
illustration
of
how
pain
and
fear
and
all
of
our
worst
motives
can
eventuate
under
God's
grace
for
the
best,
I
would
like
to,
in
a
hop,
skip,
and
jump
fashion,
tell
you
about
the
preparation
of
the
A-A-book
Well,
Bill,
I
was
telling
him
about
when
you
went
to
Eugene
and
you
showed
him
the
chapters
and
stuff
and
he
offered
you
the
money,
did
you
decide
to
take
that
money?
A
few
of
us
stood
for
the
proposition,
well,
this
would
be
bad
because
control
of
our
literature
would
be
in
other
hands.
And
some
of
us,
in
a
more
self-serving
way,
and
this
definitely
included
me,
we
felt
that
the
book
might
make
some
profits
and
some
royalties.
Out
of
which
its
creators
could
eat.
Well,
I
think
they're
getting
a
sense
of
your
personality,
Bill.
What
did
you
decide
to
do?
Some
of
us
in
New
York
consider
the
possibility
of
publishing
this
book
ourselves.
Really?
Well,
nobody
knows
about
the
program.
What
are
you
going
to
do
about
that?
How
are
you
going
to
sell
a
book
when
there's
only
a
couple
guys
sober,
for
God's
sakes?
What
are
you
going
to
do
to
get
the
word
out?
So
then
we
went
up
to
the
Reader's
Digest.
and
told
them
about
our
budding
movement.
And
I
guess
we
brandished
Mr.
Rockefeller's
name,
pretty
liberally,
you
know,
as
a
close
friend.
He
wasn't
giving
us
any
money,
but
he
liked
us.
Well,
did
that
work,
Bill?
Would
they
impressed?
The
Digest
said,
well,
fine.
When
will
your
book
come
out?
By
now
it's
the
fall
of
38.
Oh,
we
said
about
next
spring.
They
said,
this
is
just
the
kind
of
story
that
we'd
like.
We
will
do
a
piece.
We'll
put
a
feature
writer
on
this.
Well,
Bill,
that's
a
pretty
scary
deal.
Didn't
you
have
some,
you
know,
to
write
a
whole
book
and
get
it
published?
Did
you
have
any
fears?
Who
would
publish
such
a
book?
Who
could
assemble
such
a
book?
What
should
go
in
it?
Supposing
it
turned
out
badly.
These,
indeed,
for
us,
were
great
and
most
natural
fears.
Well,
did
you
have
a
plan?
No.
And
then
a
plan
came
into
being.
It
was
thought
there
ought
to
be
a
text.
It
was
thought
these
ought
to
be
backed
up
by
stories.
And
this
text
was,
in
the
first
edition,
two-thirds
of
the
stories
came
from
Akron.
Yes.
Yes,
they
did,
Bill.
Bill,
we
have
up
there
actually
the
outline
for
the
book
because
it
was
Hank's
idea,
and
he
wrote
the
outline.
So
what
happened
next?
So
down
east
we
began
to
peddle
stock
in
what
turned
out
to
be
the
AA
book,
but
we're
a
peddling
stock
to
drunks,
$25
a
share.
The
purpose
is
what,
to
feed
Wilson
and
the
gal
who
helped
do
the
book
and
the
promoter
and
the
collector
of
the
money?
Oh,
I
see,
Bill.
So
this
was
your
plan.
One
third
was
going
to
go
to
you.
One
third
was
going
to
go
to
Hank,
and
you
were
going
to
go
after
the
rest
of
the
folks
getting
sober
for
the
rest
of
the
money.
Well,
why
did
you
call
it
works
publishing?
The
title
was
chosen
because
there
would
be
a
lot
more
work,
you
know,
after
this.
Okay.
Well,
there's
the
prospectus
that
you
two
wrote
up.
Can
you
tell
us
a
little
bit
about
what
was
in
there?
So
in
the
prospectus,
we
totted
up
what
the
profits
would
be.
Oh,
I
think
we
started
in
with
something
like
100,000
books.
And
you
know,
the
first
few
carloads.
And
I
think
we
got
as
high
as
a
million
copies.
Well,
of
course,
if
they
only
cost
35
cents
and
you
sold
them
for
350,
it
would
be,
frankly,
a
great
rise
in
that
$25
stock.
It
might
go
to
$1,000
a
share.
We
didn't
put
all
this
on
paper,
but
it
was
a
part
of
the
promotion.
Well,
then
when
you
went
and
talked
to
the
alcoholics,
what
did
you
tell
them?
How
did
you
get
them
to
try
to
buy
the
stocks?
We
would
sell
these
35
cents
books.
For
the
sum
of
350,
we
didn't
indicate
any
other
expenses,
but
that
seemed
quite
a
margin
of
profit
to
the
prospective
stockbuyer.
And
we
pointed
out
that
they
couldn't
possibly
miss
because,
after
all,
the
digest
piece
with
millions
of
circulation,
in
which
they
definitely
would
mention
the
new
book,
would
simply
move
these
volumes
out
in
carloads.
Well,
that
was
a
pretty
absurd
idea,
don't
you
think?
While
this
job
was
being
done,
in
other
words,
people
were
asked
to
buy
stock
in
a
book
that
hadn't
yet
been
written.
Yeah.
I
think
this
is
a
world's
record
for
sheer
audacity.
Well,
tell
me
what
was
the
reaction
when
you
presented
this
plan?
Well,
this
was
heard
out
in
this
country
that
this
ex-Wall
Street
swindler
was
contriving
one
of
the
greatest
rackets
known
to
the
mine
man.
Well,
what
was
the
response
then?
Well,
when
this
motivation
began
to
be
suspected
and
became
apparent,
quite
a
violent
opposition
rose
up.
Well,
tell
us
a
little
about
that,
what'd
you
do?
So
then
we
had
only
begun
our
troubles.
Then
the
book
had
to
be
written.
So,
did
you
start
writing?
Well,
I
wrote
another
sample
chapter
and
tried
that
on
them.
No
stock
purchases.
Oh,
man,
the
trustees
must
have
been
pretty
upset.
Yes.
And
the
trustees
were
very
dubious.
They
had
no
money
at
the
time,
so
we
were
able
to
face
them
down
and
say,
well,
we'll
separately
incorporate
this.
And
sure
enough,
by
an
appeal
to
the
loyalty
of
the
stockholders
to
the
cause,
but
also
by
an
appeal
to
the
pocketbook,
the
baser
nature,
the
money
began
to
dribble
in,
$25
parvettes.
I
bet
you
were
relieved.
Now
you
get
started
writing
the
book,
and
I
know
what
you
did
is
you
wrote
it
chapter
by
chapter,
and
you
would
send
it
to
Akron
and
have
them
look
it
over,
and
then
they
would
send
it
back.
Can
you
tell
us
a
little
bit
about
that
process
of
writing
it?
However,
we
were
reading
a
few
of
us
on
the
stockholders'
money,
and
little
by
little
the
chapters
were
evolved.
And
we
thrashed
them
around
in
the
A
meetings,
and
we
carefully
checked
them
with
Dr.
Bob
as
they
went
along.
And
meanwhile,
he,
at
great
pains
and
difficulty,
got
storage
largely
from
this
town.
You
know,
that's
right,
Bill.
And
folks
today
can
go
visit
that
table
at
Dr.
Bob's
house
where
they
gathered
around,
and
Jim
Scott
got
sober
just
in
the
nick
of
time
because
they
were
so
uncomfortable
writing
their
stories.
They
didn't
know
how
to
write
them
and
edit
them,
so
they
got
a
little
help
there.
Well,
okay,
so
you
were
having
these
depressions,
and
out
of
this
depression
this
night,
you're
going
to
come
out
with
the
12
steps.
Would
you
tell
us
about
how
you
wrote
those?
No.
In
short,
here
was
AA
at
its
worst,
but
under
God's
grace,
coming
up
with
something
better.
Maybe
history
will
say
the
best.
And
so
the
work
went
on,
and
I
remember
one
night
we
got
through
the
first
four
chapters,
which
were
window
dressing,
and
I
was
having
an
imaginary
ulcer
attack,
and
it
looked
like...
Well,
things
were
very
gloomy.
The
stockholders
were
kind
of,
you
know,
falling
down,
the
meal
ticket
was
getting
in
danger,
and
I
was
very
resentful.
And
I
realized
lying
in
bed
there
in
Brooklyn,
Clinton
Street,
that
the
book
had
to
say
what
it
was
all
about
at
some
place.
So
I
began
to
write,
and
out
came
the
12
steps.
Well,
you
used
the
six
steps
that
you'd
gotten
from
the
Oxford
group,
and
I
know
that
you
thought
that
an
alcoholic
could
fall
through
the
cracks.
And
then
after
you
developed
them
into
12,
you
counted
up
12,
and
you
thought
that
was
a
great
number.
And
you
couldn't
wait
to
present
them
to
the
guys
at
Clinton
Street.
What
was
their
reaction?
Well,
when
they
appeared,
there
was
a
terrific
uproar.
And
as
a
result
of
the
uproar,
again...
the
constructive
came
out.
I
had
had
a
great
spiritual
experience
so
that
I
had
used
God
all
the
way
through
those
12
steps.
Well,
there
was
some
agnostics
that
weren't
real
crazy
about
that.
What
was
their
reaction?
Our
atheist
and
agnostic
contingent
said,
Drunks
aren't
going
to
buy
that.
They're
scared
to
death
of
being
God
bitten.
It
ought
to
be
a
psychological
book.
Well,
then,
what
did
the
religious
people
think
of
that?
On
the
other
hand,
the
religious
people
said
that
it
should
be
a
strictly
Christian
book,
Theologically
speaking.
So
one
had
to
sort
of
average
these
point
of
view.
Well,
I
know
that
was
really
a
tough,
tough
time
for
you
trying
to
get
through
that
conflict.
In
fact,
you
began
to
say
that
you
really
didn't
write
the
book
at
all.
You
umpired
it.
And
when
you
finally
agreed
to
God,
as
you
understand
him,
you
called
that
a
10
strike.
Because
that's
one
of
the
reasons
today
that
so
many
people
from
all
over
the
world
can
come
into
Alcoholics
Anonymous.
Now,
do
you
think
you
had
God's
help?
Sure,
we
must
have
had
God's
help.
We
never
could
have
produced
it
ourselves.
Well,
can
you
kind
of
sum
up
what
the
writing
of
the
book
was
like?
So
this
is
the
unholy
way
in
which
God
nevertheless
graced
us
in
the
days
when
AA
was
very
young.
Thank
you.
Well,
the
book
got
written,
but
it
needed
to
be
published,
and
that's
a
story
in
itself,
too.
Tell
us
a
little
bit
about
how
you
got
the
book
published.
Well,
finally
the
Great
Day,
a
publication
approach.
We
had
pre-publication
copies
as
a
book
made,
circulated
around
for
criticism,
and
with
the
last
of
our
money,
almost
the
last.
We
persuaded
the
printer
that
this
was
such
a
terrific
venture,
that
he
certainly
ought
to
accept
a
10%
down
payment
for
5,000
books,
which
were
going
out
by
the
carlo.
What
a
deal.
So
we
paid
him
$500
for
5,000
books.
Wow,
Bill,
what
a
salesman
you
are.
Well,
it
was
a
woman's
recommendation
that
you
had
a
doctor's
opinion,
so
you
asked
your
own
doctor,
Dr.
Silkworth,
to
write
a
letter,
and
he
did.
And
we
have
that
today.
And
then
you
ask
people
to
send
back
that
manuscript
copy,
and
there's
the
copy
that
you
and
Hank
worked
from
when
you
took
the
book
to
publication.
Okay.
And
you
can
see
that
it's
all
marked
up.
You
were
asked
to
take
the
eye
out
and
put
the
wee
in.
You
were
told
that
there
was
too
much
oxfordizing
in
there.
And,
in
fact,
it
was
so
sloppy
and
so
marked
up
that
you
and
Hank
and
Ruth
and
actually
Dorothy
Snyder
had
to
take
it
to
Cornwall
Press
and
help
them
typeset
it
because
you
didn't
want
to
type
it
again.
And
then
there
was
the
thing
about
the
name.
uh...
a
hundred
men
corporation
was
one
of
the
ideas
and
uh...
then
a
woman
got
sober
by
the
name
of
Florence
and
she
said
you
can't
call
it
a
hundred
men
you
have
to
call
it
a
hundred
men
and
one
woman
and
then
you
and
your
ego
you
wanted
to
call
it
the
bill
w
movement
we
already
had
uh...
out
a
nameless
uh...
bunch
of
drunks
dry
frontiers
makes
me
thirsty
empty
glass
the
way
out
and
uh...
There
was
a
guy
that
came
in
that
kept
saying
anonymous
alcoholics.
Joe
W.,
anonymous
alcoholics,
and
he
flipped
it
around,
and
he
got
out
of
the
nut
house
just
in
time
to
make
that
contribution.
And
he
says,
Alcoholics
Anonymous,
and
that
name
took.
Did
you
like
that?
We'd
been
calling
ourselves
out
there
a
nameless
bunch
of
drunks,
and
from
that
the
anonymity
idea
had
come
in.
In
fact,
the
book
title,
as
voted
by
Akron,
New
York,
and
the
few
Clevelanders,
was
chosen
as
the
way
out.
But
in
the
Library
of
Congress,
we'd
found
that
there
were
12
books
by
the
name
of
the
way
out.
So,
for
heaven's
sake,
we
couldn't
make
a
13th,
so
it
became
alcoholic
enormous.
And
New
York
got
its
way.
And
if
we'd
have
had
our
way
in
Akron,
we'd
be
the
way
outers
today.
Can
you
see
the
T-shirts?
Yes.
Then
we
went
up
to
the
digest
and
said,
Now,
what
about
this
piece?
We're
all
ready
to
shoot.
And
the
editor
whom
we
had
talked
vaguely
remembered
us,
and
he
said,
shoot
what?
Oh,
you're
kidding.
Well,
that
must
have
been
a
horrible
shock.
Well,
what
did
you
do
next?
Well,
we
reminded
our
friend
that
a
piece
was
due.
And
he
said,
gee,
Mr.
Wilson,
he
said,
we,
you
know,
after
you
were
here,
I'll
I
went
to
the
rest
of
the
staff
here,
very
sure
that
this
would
be
a
great
piece.
But
they
didn't
think
so,
and
I
forgot
to
tell
you.
Oh,
Bill.
Man,
what
happened?
I
mean,
what
was
that
like?
I
mean,
you
had
everything
set
up,
all
the
stock
certificates
and
everything.
What
was
that
like?
So
we
had
5,000
books
in
the
warehouse.
There
were
100
AA
members.
There
were
about
30
stockholders,
and
they
each
got
a
book.
There
were
about
30
guys
who
put
stories
in
the
books,
and
they
got
a
book,
and
that
was
60
books.
So
we
only
had
40
books
to
sell
the
rest
if
they
had
buy
it.
Oh,
Bill.
Then
things
really
hit,
didn't
they?
Well,
at
that
time,
things
folded
up
in
a
big
way.
We
were
about
to
be
evicted
from
our
house
in
Clinton
Street.
Stuff
go
into
storage.
Okay.
The
book
was
bankrupt,
and
we
made
one
last
great
gas
effort.
Oh,
my
God.
What
was
that?
A
drunk
came
along
by
the
name
of
Morgan,
who
had
been
in
the
ad
business.
And
he
said,
you
know,
I
know
Gabriel
Heater.
You
know,
the
guy
who
puts
on
those
wonderful
sob
talks.
And
he
said,
I
think
Gabriel
would
put
this
on
the
air.
So
we
scared
up
a
few
dollars
more.
And
to
get
ready
for
Gabriel,
we
decided...
Well,
you
started...
Well,
you
started
sending
those
postcards,
didn't
you?
Tell
us
about
that.
Well,
we
picked
out
a
hard
class
of
people
to
advertise
to
in
those
days.
We
picked
out
all
of
the
physicians
east
of
the
Mississippi
River,
all
of
them.
And
to
each
one,
we
sent
a
postal
card,
which
said,
listen
to
Gabriel
Heater,
as
he
talks
about
the
new
society
of
Alcoholics
Anonymous.
And
by
the
book
Alcoholics
Anonymous,
a
cure
for
alcoholist.
Well,
wasn't
there
a
little
problem
with
Morgan?
Well,
one
great
trouble
with
Ryan
was
that
he
wouldn't
sober
up
and
he
was
supposed
to
be
interviewed
on
the
air.
My
God,
our
last
cent
was
in
this
thing
and
all
these
proposal
cards.
Well,
what
did
you
do
to
solve
that
problem?
So
just
as
a
precaution,
one
of
our
friends
who
was
a
member
of
the
Down
Athletic
Club
said,
well,
now,
you
can
have
my
room
over
there.
I
don't
use
it
much.
And
why
doesn't
somebody
live
with
Morgan
in
there
the
week
before,
you
know,
to
just
stay
with
him
and
be
sure
he
gets
to
heater
all
right?
A
little
codependent.
Okay.
So
did
he?
Did
you
guys
pull
it
off?
So
the
great
day
came.
The
postal
cards
was
out.
In
Akron,
New
York,
Cleveland,
the
ears
were
to
the
radio.
We
visioned
the
books
going
out
in
carloads,
orders
flooding
in.
Biggest
profit
of
all
in
direct
mail,
no
commissions.
And
sure
enough,
heater
pulled
out
the
tremolo
stop.
Ryan
was
sober.
And
boy,
we
were
made.
Well,
it
went
so
well.
And
then
as
I
recall,
You
had
a
post
office
box.
We
gave
a
post
office
box,
old
4.58
in
New
York,
I
think,
it
was
right,
where
we
had
a
one-room
office.
Little
Ruthie
Hawk,
who
helped
me
with
the
book,
Blesser
Soul.
My
promoter
friend,
Hank
Parker,
and
I
just
couldn't
wait
to
get
over
to
see
what
was
coming
into
that
box.
You
know,
you
held
back
for
three
days,
and
then
you
actually
put
luggage
in
the
car
to
go
get
those
cards.
And
when
you
got
there,
you
were
a
little
disappointed
when
you
looked
in
that
little
glass
box
there,
because
there
wasn't
too
many
in
there.
What
was
Hank's
reaction?
Hank
was
an
incorrigible
optimist.
He
said,
well,
they
couldn't
put
them
all
in
the
box.
He
said
they
got
several
mailbags
full
out
there.
So
the
clerk
came
with
the
cards.
Hank
said,
ain't
there
any
more?
No.
We
took
them
over
to
the
desk
and
we
counted
them,
and
there
were
12.
And
ten
of
them
were
from
doctors,
obviously
stooed
themselves,
who
lambasted
the
hell
out
of
us,
and
we
had
exactly
two
orders
for
the
book
Alcoholics
and
Arlottes.
Oh
man,
there's
some
hard
times.
But
you
know,
Bill,
when
there
was
hard
times,
you
always
pulled
something
out.
What
did
you
pull
out
of
that?
For
us,
almost
more
than
any
other
society,
pain
has
been
the
touchstone
of
our
spiritual
progress.
So
we
can
say,
thank
God
that
we
have
suffered
such
pain,
that
such
a
spectacle
as
this
has
been
brought
into
view
and
being.
I
agree,
Bill.
Yeah.
Hey,
Bill.
Bill.
Hey,
see
a
load
to
Dr.
Bob
for
us.
I'm
going
to
finish
up.
There's
one
little
story
here.
Case,
when
you
read
that
book,
you
may
have
ever
taken
it
for
granted
that
it's
even
in
your
hand.
Things
are
pretty
bad
at
this
point.
But
they...
They
go
ahead,
and
this
is
the
book,
and
that's
the
jacket,
by
the
way.
It
was
designed
by
an
artist
who
stories
in
the
first
edition.
Can
you
imagine
trying
to
be
anonymous
and
carrying
that
big
thing
under
your
arm
with
that
circus
jacket?
What
were
they
thinking?
They
used
to
turn
the
cover
inside
out.
That
was
one
of
the
possible
book
jackets
they
found
at
Stepping
Stones
later.
The
first
copy
of
the
big
book
that
came
off
the
press
was
Bill's.
And
in
it
it
says,
note,
this
was
the
very
first
AA
book
off
the
press.
We
used
thick
paper
to
make
the
alcoholic
feel
they
were
getting
their
money's
worth.
Bill,
I'm
going
to
ask
you,
do
you
guys
think
you
got
your
money's
worth
out
of
that
book?
I
sure
hope
so.
And
then
to
Lois,
he
writes,
One
Who's
Loving
Care
and
Fortitude
In
Our
Dark
Days
Together
made
these
pages
possible,
so
to
her,
this
first
book
of
the
first
edition
is
lovingly
and
thankfully
given
Bill
in
memory
of
the
Fifth
Christmas.
So
they're
down
and
out,
they're
broke,
the
books,
they're
all
sitting
in
warehouses.
Not
too
many
people
know
about
Alcoholics
Anonymous.
At
a
magazine
called
Liberty
Magazine,
By
the
way,
these
magazines
were
only
a
nickel,
so
think
how
expensive
that
big
book
was
at
$3.50
at
that
time.
Anyway,
Morris
Marky
is
going
to
do
an
article,
but
they
don't
have
enough
money
to
make
it.
So
they
really
want
that
article,
and
they
go
to
Bert
the
Taylor,
and
that's
his
tailoring
shop
on
Fifth
Avenue
in
New
York,
and
they
ask
him
for
money,
only
Bert
doesn't
have
the
money
to
give
them.
But
he
calls
Mr.
Cochran,
who
was
a
great
benefactor,
and
they
said,
Mr.
Cochran,
we'll
sell
you
these
books
for
a
dollar
off,
and
you
could
put
them
in
libraries.
And
Mr.
Cochran
says,
send
me
your
books,
and
I'll
look
them
over.
So
he
looked
our
books
over,
and
he
said,
I
don't
think
so.
So
Bert
said,
well,
Mr.
Cochran,
would
you
lend
me
the
money?
And
Bert
hawked
his
business
to
save
the
big
book
Alcoholics
Anonymous.
So
we
could
get
to
that
article,
September
30th,
1939.
It
comes
out.
It
was
quite
a
big
deal
to
those
early
members.
And
we
got
600
inquiries.
And
another
thing
that
we
did
not
know
was
that
Mr.
Rockefeller
had
been
watching
us.
And
he
wanted
to
introduce
us
to
his
friends.
And
in
1940,
he
holds
a
big
dinner.
And...
And
a
lot
of
bankers
and
a
lot
of
important
people
were
there.
I
mean,
the
list
was
the
who's
who
in
the
United
States
at
the
time.
Mr.
Fosdick
would
be
there,
Dr.
Kennedy
would
be
there.
Bill
Wilson
would
be
there.
Bankers.
And
there
he
is.
Morgan
Ryan,
the
guy
that
was
on
the
show.
Okay.
And
Nelson
is
going
to
preside
over
it
because
his
father
is
sick.
Now
what
they
did
is
they
put
an
AA
member.
They
all
got
cleaned
up
and
they
put
an
AA
member
at
each
table.
Now
Morgan
was
a
good-looking
Irishman
and
he
cleaned
up
real
nice
and
he
had
his
suit
on
and
he
was
at
his
table
and
one
of
the
bankers
looked
at
him
and
said,
and
what
institution
are
you
with?
And
he
said,
well,
I'm
not
really
with
an
institution
but
I
just
got
out
of
one
not
too
long
ago.
Now,
Mr.
Rockefeller
never
gave
us
any
money.
I
mean,
yeah,
very
little.
He
did
give
us
a
little.
But
it
was
the
prestige.
And
after
that
was
over
with,
he
wrote
a
letter
to
every
single
person.
And
those
that
were
at
the
dinner
got
a
first
edition
big
book
in
a
crate.
It
was
pretty
fabulous.
So
he
really
endorsed
us.
And,
but
what
happened
is
his
son
stood
up
and
we
thought
we
were
going
to
get
money
again.
See,
the
Rockefellers
had
joined
us
to
help
make
our
foundation.
Imagine
that.
The
foundation
of
Alcoholics
Anonymous
was
built
by
the
Rockefellers,
if
you
look
into
the
history
that
I
just
told
you
tonight.
And
his
father,
Bill
never
met
J.D.
So
Nelson
provides
us
over
the
dinner,
and
of
course
Bill's
looking
out
at
all
this
money.
And
he
said,
my
father
thinks
this
is
a
work
of
goodwill
and
money
will
ruin
it.
And
Bill
says
with
that,
a
couple
billion
dollars
got
up
and
walked
out
the
door.
We
did
pay
the
Rockefellers
back
and
here's
some
of
our
canceled
checks,
and
we
took
an
oath
of
poverty.
And
today
we
don't
accept
contributions
from
outside
organizations.
This
was
a
hard
lesson
one.
Jack
Alex,
we're
still
in
trouble
though,
folks.
We're
still
in
trouble
until
Jack
Alexander
shows
up,
and
he's
just
finished
writing
a
story
on
rackets.
And
he
gets
the
story
to
write
on
Alcoholics
Anonymous,
and
he
thinks
we're
a
racket.
And
he
comes
to
Akron
to
bust
us.
And
he
goes
to,
I
think
he
went
to
Chicago
in
a
few
other
cities,
but
that's
not
what
happened.
You
see,
the
press
can
be
our
friend.
And
he
wrote
a
beautiful
article
in
the
Saturday
Evening
Post,
March
1941,
and
in
that
article,
6,000
requests
came
in,
and
that
really
helped
establish
us.
So
after
telling
you
that
pretty
tough
story,
really,
slender
threads,
right?
Can
you
imagine
what
this
couple,
after
going
through
being
homeless,
living
in
the
club,
And,
you
know,
just
going
through
so
much
hardship,
losing
their
furniture,
having
it
be
out
on
the
curb.
What
do
you
think
they're
thinking
as
they
watch
big
books
be
sent
out
all
over
the
world
in
so
many
different
languages?
And
Bill
says
it
transcended
the
mountain
in
the
sea
and
is
even
at
this
moment
lighting
candles
in
dark
caverns
and
on
distant
beaches.
Now,
I'd
like
to
have
you
just
take
a
moment
of
quiet.
why
we
take
a
look
at
the
credits
of
all
the
slender
threads
that
went
into
this
story.
And
I
challenge
you
to
remove
one
of
them
and
think
if
we
would
actually
have
Alcoholics
Anonymous
today.
And
of
course,
the
real
author
of
the
story
is
a
higher
power.
Thank
you.