History workshop at the Men Among Men Conference in Reykjavik, Iceland
My
name's
Jay,
and
I'm
an
alcoholic.
And
god's
doing
for
me
today
what
I
couldn't
do
for
myself
because
it's
a
little
before
2
o'clock
on
a
Saturday
afternoon,
and
I
haven't
had
anything
to
drink
all
day
today,
which
for
an
alcoholic
of
my
variety
is
a
really
cool
thing.
By
way
of
qualification,
for
those
of
you
who
I
haven't
had
the
pleasure
to
meet
yet,
I
came
to
you
on
the
2nd
day
of
May
in
1979.
And
although
I've
found
it
necessary
on
a
lot
of
occasions,
I
haven't
taken
the
front
drink,
smoked
any
of
that
non
habit
forming
marijuana,
done
any
of
that
Peruvian
marching
powder,
or
any
of
those
other
things
that
I
found
to
be
so
consoling.
So
this
is,
an
AA
spiritual
history
workshop.
What
I'm
gonna
do
is
run
through
some
information,
and
then
at
the
end,
I'll
be
open
for
questions,
and,
we
can
talk
a
bunch.
The
Oxford
Group.
This
is
a,
from
the
Lincoln
Library,
which
was
a
reference
book
that
was
found
in
many
homes
in
the
United
States
in
the
thirties
forties.
Kind
of
a
precursor
to
the
the
encyclopedias.
The
Oxford
Group
was
a
semi
religious
but
informal
movement
founded
by
Frank
Bookman
while
an
undergraduate
at
Oxford
University
in
1921.
The
name
was
first
applied
by
the
press
of
South
Africa
in
1928.
The
professed
purpose
of
the
movement
is
to
solve
personal,
national,
and
international
problems
by
bringing
men
and
women
everywhere
back
to
basic
principles
of
Christian
faith,
enhancing
all
their
primary
loyalties.
Please.
Without
benefit
of
organization,
membership,
subscriptions,
or
definite
creed,
the
movement
gained
adherence
in
nearly
all
countries
of
the
world,
particularly
in
the
middle
and
upper
class
and
was
accorded
recognition
by
the
heads
of
many
government.
Adopting
the
slogan
of
moral
rearmament
in
1938,
the
leaders
of
the
movement
sought
by
spread
of
its
principles
to
stem
the
rising
tide
of
international
hostilities.
Now
the
Oxford
Group,
that's
a
description
of
it
by
people
looking
from
the
outside,
and
this
is
from
the
inside.
This
is
from
a
book
called
what
is
the
Oxford
Group?
It
was
written
anonymously
by
was
the
layman
with
a
notebook.
And
he
said,
you
cannot
belong
to
the
Oxford
Group.
It
has
no
membership
lists,
subscriptions,
badge,
rules,
or
definite
location.
It
is
a
name
for
a
group
of
people
who,
from
every
rank,
profession,
and
trade,
in
many
countries,
have
surrendered
their
lives
to
God
and
who
are
endeavoring
to
lead
a
spiritual
quality
of
life
under
the
guidance
of
the
Holy
Spirit.
Please.
Yeah.
The
Oxford
group
is
not
a
religion.
It
has
no
hierarchy,
no
temples,
no
endowments,
and
workers
have
no
salary,
no
plans
but
God's
plan.
Every
country
is
their
country.
Every
man
is
their
brother.
Now
every
historian
has
a
prejudice,
so
I
wanna
get
mine
to
you
upfront
before
we
even
get
started.
Okay?
Mine
is
that
I
am
allergic
to
fundamentalism
in
any
form.
And
one
of
the
things
that
I
saw
in
my
AA
community
as
time
has
gone
by
is
there
were
people
that
were
actually
acting
as
if
punctuation
had
spiritual
significance.
Do
you
know
what
the
meaning
of
that
comma
is?
I've
seen
people
use
Bibles
and
other
spiritual
literature
in
that
fashion.
And
so
one
of
the
things
that
I
like
to
do
is
I
like
to
show
that
we
in
Alcoholics
Anonymous
are
part
of
a
spiritual
continuum
and
that
this
is
the
movement
that
we
grew
out
of.
Now
Bill
Wilson,
said
that
that
if,
we
were
to
tell
the
story
of
Alcoholics
Anonymous,
we
could
start
with
Noah.
I
don't
have
quite
enough
time
to
do
that.
So
we're
gonna
start
with
with
the
Oxford
group,
which
all
the
early
members
of
Alcoholics
Anonymous
were
members
of.
Now
you
have
to
remember,
this
is
the
United
States,
which
very
much
like
Iceland.
You
know?
70
years
ago
or
75
years
ago,
It's
mostly
Anglo
it's
mostly
Caucasian.
Almost
everybody's
a
church
member.
Most
of
them
in
3
or
4
different
religions
or,
I
mean,
3
or
4
different
churches.
It
was
not
the
society
that
we
have
today.
Now
what
was
it
that
the
Oxford
group
believed?
Their
main
tenants
came
from
a
theologian
by
the
name
of
Robert
Speer,
who
was
at
Yale
University,
who
had
a
lot
of
effect
on
the
evangelist
movement
in
the
United
States
and
then
worldwide
through
the
Young
Men's
Christian
Association,
the
YMCA.
And
he,
distilled
the
Sermon
on
the
Mount
down.
He
said
if
you
took
a
look
at
everything
that
was
in
there,
that
what
Christ
was
actually
talking
about
was
honesty,
purity,
unselfishness,
and
love.
And
the
Oxford
group
believed
that
you
could
discern
any
movement
in
your
life
by
these
4
absolutes.
Now
were
they
absolute
all
the
time?
No.
They're
guideposts.
They're
like
stars
that
we
steer
by.
These
are
the
things
that
we're
growing
towards
along
spiritual
lines.
And
if
you
go
to
Alcoholics
Anonymous
in
Akron,
they
still
have
these
on
the
wall
because
that's
the
program.
That's
where
it
came
from.
It's
these
4
absolutes.
Now
they
also,
the
way
that
they
carried
their
message,
one
to
another,
was
what
they
called
the
5
c's.
1st,
confidence.
In
other
words,
you
had
to
have
confidence
in
me
that
I
used
to
have
this
problem.
And
that
I
didn't
have
that
problem
anymore.
And
then
the
second
was
confession
in
which
you
would
say,
yeah.
I
got
that
problem.
I
don't
wanna
have
it
anymore.
And
then
the
conviction
that
I
could
change
and
I
could
I
could
not
have
that
problem
anymore.
And
then
the
conversion
that
I'm
gonna
do
whatever
it
is
that
you've
done
so
that
I
don't
have
this
problem
anymore.
And
5
was
continuance.
In
other
words,
that
I'm
gonna
keep
doing
whatever
it
is
that
you've
done
so
that
I
can
keep
getting
what
you've
got.
Now
the,
I
mentioned
this
book
to
you,
by
Vick
Kitchen.
This
was
published
in
1932.
When
Bill
Wilson
got
out
of
town's
hospital,
he
started
going
to
Oxford
group
meetings,
and
there
was
a
guy
there
who
was
sober,
and
his
name
was
Vic
Kitchen.
And
he
wrote
a
book
about
his
experience
called
I
was
a
Pagan.
And
in
it,
he
says,
the
Oxford
group
had
a
power
I
did
not
have.
They
said,
however,
that
I
could
have
it,
just
as
they
did.
If
I
would
pay
the
same
price,
comply
with
the
same
conditions,
and
go
through
the
same
series
of
exceedingly
simple
steps.
So
what
were
those
steps?
Well,
the
first
step
that
the
Oxford
group
had
was
the
sharing
they
called
it
sharing.
The
sharing
of
our
sins
and
temptations
with
another
Christian
life
given
to
God
and
to
use
sharing
as
witness
to
help
others
still
unchanged
to
recognize
and
acknowledge
their
sins.
In
other
words,
their
first
step
would
be
like
our
4th
and
5th
step,
but
it
would
be
in
reverse.
In
other
words,
if
we
were
together
1
on
1
and
we
had
the
opportunity
to
talk.
They
used
to
call
it
having
an
honest
conversation.
And
I
would
tell
you
about
what
I
was
like,
and
hopefully,
you
would
respond.
Because
most
of
the
people
that
came
to
these
Oxford
group
house
parties
were
folks
that
were
having
troubles.
Now
what
were
the
house
parties?
The
house
parties
were
exactly
what
we're
doing
this
weekend.
There
would
be
people
who
were
brought
from
out
of
town
generally
because,
as
you
all
know,
a
prophet
is
not
a
prophet
in
his
own
meeting.
You
know?
So
you
get
some
clowns
from
out
of
town
to
come
in
and
to
talk
about
what
had
happened
in
their
lives.
And
you
give
them
a
little
more
credence,
right,
because
you
don't
know
them,
And
you
don't
have
all
that
baggage
of
knowing
exactly
who
they
are.
Do
you
know
who
they
used
to
that
kind
of
stuff.
So,
anyway,
so
they're
sharing.
So
they
would
actually
do
a
4th
and
5th
step
first.
After
that,
their
second
step
was
surrender
of
our
life
past,
present,
and
future
into
God's
keeping
and
direction.
So
they
do
the
sharing,
then
they
do
the
the
the
the
third
what
we'd
call
our
3rd
step.
Okay.
Once
oh
my
god.
I'm
a
mess.
Help.
Okay.
Then
the
3rd
their
third
step
was
restitution
to
all
whom
we
have
wronged
directly
or
indirectly.
Notice
there's
no
wiggle
room
there
at
all.
And
then
4,
listening
to,
accepting,
relying
on
God's
guidance,
and
carrying
it
out
in
everything
we
do
or
say,
great
or
small.
Now
this
is
you
know,
a
lot
of
people
say,
well,
you
know,
the
great
thing
about
Alcoholics
Anonymous
is
Jim
Burwell
and
God
as
you
understand
God.
Well,
Samuel
Moore
Shoemaker,
who
was
Bill
Wilson's
spiritual
adviser,
was
one
of
the
big
guns
in
the
Oxford
group
in
the
United
States.
His
church
was
basically
the
clearing
house
for
all
the
books
and
sent
out
a
lot
of
the
teams
to
work
in
different
places.
And,
in
a
book
that
he
wrote
in
1927,
called
children
of
the
the
second
birth,
they
talked
about
praying
to
God
as
you
understand
him.
So
they
prayed
together,
opening
their
minds
to
as
much
of
god
as
he
understood
removing
first
the
hindrance
of
self
will,
surrender
of
much
of
himself
as
he
could
to
as
much
of
Christ
as
he
understood.
In
the
beginning,
we
know
only
a
little.
But
as
time
goes
by,
we
learn
more
and
more
about
ourselves
as
we
work
through
our
steps
in
Alcoholics
Anonymous.
And
as
we
learn
more
and
more
about
ourselves,
we
learn
more
and
more
about
this
power,
whatever
that
power
is.
So
here's
a
here's,
from
this
what
is
the
Oxford
group,
book.
Here's
a
thing
now.
I
say
3rd
step.
They
wouldn't
call
it
a
3rd
step,
but
this
this
is,
I
think,
a
wonderful
thing.
What
is
it
when
we're
talking
about
surrender?
It
is
a
simple
decision
put
into
simple
language
spoken
aloud
to
God
in
front
of
a
witness
at
any
time
and
in
any
place
that
we
have
decided
to
forget
the
past
in
God
and
to
give
our
future
into
his
keeping.
Nothing
more
need
be
added.
Nothing
can
be
taken
away.
And
one
of
the
things
that
I
like
about
this
is
that
it
kinda
says
that
maybe
over
time,
even
though
I've
surrendered
my
life
to
God,
I
might
pick
up
a
few
more
problems
and
I
might
need
to
do
it
again.
You
know,
again,
that
we're
it's
not
that
I'm,
you
know,
am
I
washed
clean?
Of
course.
Or
am
I,
you
know,
do
I
have
a
new
life?
Of
course,
I
do.
But
over
time,
at
least
over
my
27
years,
I've
tended
to
pick
up
a
few
problems
and
had
to
slough
them
off
too.
Vic's,
now
this
is
a
great
3rd
step
prayer.
I
mean,
we
all
know
the
3rd
step
prayer
in
the
big
book,
but
here's
here's
one
again
from
from,
from
I
was
a
Pagan.
Here's
Vic's,
surrender
prayer.
I
surrender
thee
my
entire
life,
oh
god.
I've
made
a
mess
of
it
trying
to
run
it
myself.
You
take
it.
The
whole
thing.
And
and
run
it
for
me
according
to
your
will
and
plan.
Now,
back
to
this
thing
about
sponsorship.
I
love
this.
Again,
this
is
Vick
Kitchen.
I
was
able
to
in
in
our
book
Alcoholics
Anonymous,
they
talk
about
the
how
and
the
why
of
it.
This
is
where
this
comes
from.
I
was
able
to
supplement
the
all
important
why
of
life
with
the
still
more
important
how
of
living.
I
was
able
to
begin
really
solving
my
problems,
and
for
the
first
time
in
my
experience,
was
given
the
power
to
begin
helping
others.
Oh,
back,
please.
Now
if
you
take
a
look
at,
this,
this
is
from
I
Was
a
Pagan
and
this
is
the
the
page
that
really
got
me
all
fired
up
about
this.
If
you
take
a
look
at
the
the
way
that
the
the
typeface
of
the
book
is,
it's
almost
exactly
the
way
our
4th
step
the
3rd
column
of
the
4th
step
isn't
there,
but
the
whole
basic
setup
of
the
page
is
the
same.
See,
what
Bill
Wilson
was
was
he
was
a
great
synthetic
thinker.
I'm
not
saying
that
he
ripped
stuff
off.
That's
not
it
at
all.
But
he
took
things
and
he
synthesized
them
in
a
way
that
works
specifically
for
alcoholics.
And
then
it's
this
is
this
is,
what
they
called
the
the
Oxford
group
game.
And
you
you
think
about
well,
these
are
these
first
Christian
the
the
first
name
of
the
Oxford
group
was
the
1st
century
Christian
group.
You
know?
And
what
are
all
these
drunks
doing
with
these
good
Christian
people?
I
mean,
what
are
they
doing
there?
I
mean,
doesn't
that
sound
just
a
little
bit
odd?
But
here's
how
Vic
described
his
old
life.
In
my
old
life,
I
have
most
liked
myself.
Liquor,
tobacco,
and
almost
every
other
stimulant,
narcotic,
and
form
of
self
indulgence.
Anything
which
gave
me
pleasure,
possessions,
position
and
applause,
or
pumped
up
my
self
esteem.
I
most
like
to
be
left
largely
to
myself,
and
I
really
liked
my
wife
because
of
the
comforting
and
complimentary
way
which
she
treated
me.
In
my
old
life,
I
hated
most
poverty
for
myself,
prohibition,
right
on,
work,
people
who
disapproved
or
tried
to
interfere
with
me,
and
any
betrayal
of
my
inner
thoughts
or
feelings.
So
you
can
see
now
why
it
is
that
the
guys
felt
comfortable
being
with
these
folks.
I
mean,
because
they
were
relaxed
and
comfortable.
Okay.
Please.
So
that's
the
4
step
program.
Now
if
you
read
the
book
Alcoholics
Anonymous
Comes
of
Age,
in
it,
Bill
talks
about
the
6
step
program
that
the
early
alcoholics
worked.
So
this
is
after
they've
split
from
the
Oxford
group,
and,
this
is
what
the
early
alcoholics
were
doing
before
they
the
12
steps
were
written.
1st,
they
admitted
they
were
hopeless.
2nd,
they
got
honest
with
their
self.
3rd,
they
got
honest
with
another.
4,
made
amends.
5,
helped
others
without
demand
for
payment.
And
6,
prayed
to
God
as
you
understand
him.
So
that's
just
a
little
background
so
that
you
know
about
what
it
was
that
the
Oxford
group
was
when
I
speak
about
them.
Okay?
So
it
only
looked
like
a
chance
encounter.
This
is
how
AA
really
started.
Now
this
is
Frank
Buchmann.
He
was
founder
of
the
Oxford
Group.
His
family
was
German
Swiss.
They
were
Lutherans.
They
came
to
the
United
States,
in
the
18
fifties.
This
is
a
picture
of,
Frank.
Frank
believed
that
he
the
reason
that
God
created
him
ugly
is
so
that
he
wouldn't
be
threatening
to
people.
Back
a
little
bit.
Back,
please.
Now
Frank,
what
what
happened
with
Frank
is
that
he
he
was
his
mother
was
very
religious
and
he
grew
up,
and
he
had
an
experience
when
he
was
young
that
he
believed
that
he
would
be
used.
He
had
this
vision
not
a
vision.
The
voice
spoke
to
him
and
said,
you
will
be
used
to
remake
the
world.
And
there's
a
book
called
On
the
Tail
of
a
Comet
by
Garth
Lean
that
that's
a
biography
of
Frank.
And
it's
real
it's
very
long,
but
it's
it's
a
remarkable,
remarkable
book.
At
least
to
me,
it
was.
Frank,
was,
he
was
brought
up
in
in
Allentown,
Pennsylvania
and
he
became
a
Lutheran
minister.
And
somebody,
accused
him
of
being
prideful,
and
so
he's
decided
to
show
them.
And
he
went
into
the
slums
of
Philadelphia
where
he
founded
a
hospice
for
boys.
And
this
kind
of
hospice
was
what
it
was,
was
a
place
where
people
could
get
these
boys
could
come
together
and
they
could
get
a
safe
place
to
sleep
at
night.
And
they
could
get
a
meal
and
they
could
get
a
shower
and
they
could
get
some
bible
study,
and
they
could
get
some
help
in
getting
a
job.
And
what
happened
is
is
that
stay
with
Frank.
Yeah.
And
what
happened
is
is
that
Frank
the
place
became
so
successful
that
the
board
of
the
of
the
the
the
board
of
the
the
boys
home
said
we've
gotta
change
things.
We're
gonna
have
to,
cut
back
the
food
we're
giving
the
kids.
And
Frank
said,
no.
No.
No.
No.
No.
You
don't
understand.
You
can't
get
to
them
if
their
bellies
are
empty.
He
said,
there's
a
reason
we
give
them
pancakes
on
Sunday
morning.
So
they'll
get
up
and
come
to
church.
You
know,
Frank
was
real,
he
was
brought
up
his
his,
father
and
mother
had
a
had
a,
a
little
hotel
along
the
the
railroad.
And
so
hospitality
was
always
a
big
part
of
him.
In
fact,
the
group
initiatives
have
changed.
They
they
they
say
that
one
of
the
things
that
we're
to
do
is
is
that
we're
supposed
to
practice
radical
hospitality.
Frank,
so
Frank
got
ticked
off
and
he
and
he
left
in
a
huff
and
he'd
worked
himself
into
exhaustion.
He
went
off
to
Europe.
And
he
was
just
resentful
of
these
people.
And,
he
spent
a
year
traveling
around.
And
and
he's
a
minister.
Right?
And
so
his
whole
gig
is
supposedly
trying
to
help
people,
you
know,
make
a
decision
for
Christ.
And
over
a
whole
year,
he
doesn't
have
anything
at
all
happen
along
those
along
that
along
those
lines.
And
he
ends
up
in
Keswick,
England.
And,
he's
listening
to
a
woman
who
is
a
Salvation
Army
preacher
talk
about
the
cross
of
Christ.
And
as
he's
listening
to
her
talk,
he
see
he
he
has
this
this
idea
of
the
cross
collapsing
into
an
eye.
And
he
goes,
oh
my
gosh.
I
was
the
7th
wrong
man.
It
wasn't
all
them.
So
he
goes
home,
and
he
writes
a
letter
of
apology
to
each
of
these
people,
and
he
sends
it
off.
And
that
evening,
he
took
a
walk
with
the
young
man,
and
he
described
the
feeling
of
having
all
this
weight
lifted
off
him.
And
this
young
man
says,
I
want
that.
And
he
made
a
decision
for
Christ
that
day.
And
so
Frank
has
this
this
idea
that
in
order
for
me
to
be
a
channel
of
spiritual
power,
I
have
to
be
clean.
And
so
that's
why
we
have
that
think
of
the
chaplain
Keswick.
Next
year
will
be
the
100th
anniversary
of
this
experience
of
this
man.
And
I'm
gonna
be
part
of
a
group
that
goes
there,
and
then
we're
going
up
to
Visby
where
he
declared
moral
rearmament,
and
then
we'll
end
up
in
co
in
Switzerland.
Now
Frank
Bookman's
the
most
interesting
cat
I
never
heard
of.
I
studied
poor
Stuart
War
European
history
in
in
in
university.
And,
he
was
nominated
twice
for
the
Nobel
Peace
Prize.
Once
before
the
war
for
his
efforts
to
stop
the
2nd
World
War,
and
then
after
the
2nd
World
War
for
his
efforts
in
helping
bring
nations
together.
He
was
decorated
by
the,
governments
of
France,
Germany,
Greece,
Japan,
and
the
Philippines
for
his
work
after
the
2nd
World
War.
He
founded
the
Oxford
Group
at
Oxford
University
in
1921.
He
changed
the
name
of
it
to
moral
rearmament.
So
we
say
that
he
initiated
moral
rearmament
in
1938.
And
the
reason
that
he
did
this
is
he
had
this
this
inspiration
that
all
the
nations
of
the
world
were
rearming.
And
that
the
only
way
to
keep
the
nonsense
that
had
happened
in
the
First
World
War
from
happening
again
was
for
the
world
to
morally
rearm.
And
then
he
was
my
my
father
taught
me
when
I
was
young,
my,
he
he
taught
me
a
lot
of
interesting
things,
like
it's
not
adultery
if
it's
outside
the
area
code,
font
of
wisdom
and
knowledge.
I
come
by
my
alcoholism,
honestly.
But
he
said,
you
can
tell
a
lot,
about
a
man
by
his
friends,
but
you
can
tell
even
more
about
a
man
by
his
enemies.
And
this
guy,
Frank
Bookman,
was
hated
by
everybody.
He
was
equally
vilified
by
hawks
and
doves,
by
labor
and
management.
The
fascists
called
him
a
communist.
The
communists
called
him
a
fascist.
Just
every
so
fascinating
person.
Now
this
is
Frank,
and
he's
with
a
gentleman
by
the
name
of
Blair
Buck.
Frank,
when
he
came
back
from
Keswick,
he
went,
he
went
to
the
YMCA,
and
there
he
was
directed.
He
was
sent
to
be
the
chaplain
at
the
most
godless
university
in
the
United
States,
Penn
State
University,
a
place
awash
in
alcohol
and
student
unrest.
And
Frank
showed
up
there,
and
he
took
a
look
around.
Now
one
of
the
knocks
on
the
Oxford
group
and
on
Frank
was
that
he
was
only
interested
supposedly
in
the
well-to-do
and
in
the
powerful.
But
in
the
y
in
the
Young
Men's
Christian
organization,
in
any
spiritual
evangelical
movement,
or
if
you're
involved
in
any
kind
of
revolutionary
movement,
the
the
what
the
first
things
you're
taught
is
what's
called
the
key
man
strategy.
In
other
words,
you
come
into
any
town
or
any
area
and
you
take
a
look
around
you
and
you
find
who
are
the
people
that
if
they
come
over
to
my
side
are
gonna
touch
the
most
people.
And
so
the
Oxford
group
was
very
big
on
what
they
called
strategy.
I
mean,
they
really
thought
about
where
they
were
going
and
what
they
were
doing.
And
so
please
stay.
So,
so
Frank,
when
he
comes
in,
he
thinks
of
takes
a
look
at
Penn
State
and
he
thinks
of
3
people.
One's
the
dean
of
men
at
the
university
because
he's
he's
an
agnostic.
He's
not
involved
in
anything.
The
second
is
this
guy,
Blair
Buck.
Blair
Buck
was
as
handsome
as
Frank
was
ugly.
He
was
this
incredibly
energetic,
good
looking
guy,
and
everybody
liked
him.
And,
and
then
the
third
guy
was
a
guy
by
the
name
of
William
Gilliland.
Now
so
Frank
approaches,
Blair,
and
they
start
to
become
friendly.
And
Blair
was
from
this,
family
in
Virginia,
and
they,
they
both
liked
horses,
and
so
they
their
friendship
kind
of
formed
on
that.
And
they
went
along
and
and,
at
one
point,
Frank
says
to,
to
Blair,
hey.
I'm
a
Christian.
What
are
you?
And
he
says,
well,
I'm
a
Confucianist.
He
says,
great.
He
says,
one
of
the
things
that
I
like
about
being
a
Christian
is
is
that
we
like
to
try
I
I
believe
that
what
I
do
is
that
I'm
helpful
to
people.
How
about
you?
He
says,
yeah.
Being
helpful
is
good.
So
he
says,
let's
pick
somebody
and
you
try
and
help
them
with
your
Confucianism.
So
Blair
says,
great.
And
they
picked
this
gentleman,
guy
that
I
like
to
call
alcoholic
number
1.
William
Gilliland.
Bill
Pickle.
And,
and,
Blair
comes
up
with
this
this
thing,
and
and
it
after
about
3
months,
there
doesn't
seem
to
be
much
movement.
And
Frank
says,
well,
what
do
you
do
you
think
there's
been
anything?
He
says,
no.
There
really
hasn't.
So
Frank
says,
well,
why
don't
we
try
it
my
way
for
a
while?
Blair
says,
cool.
Says,
let's
try
we,
in
Christianity,
we
pray
for
people.
So
what
I'd
like
to
do
is
I'd
like
let's
pray
for
this
guy.
So
Blair
comes
up
with
this
prayer.
Is
that
the
next
one?
Is
it
there?
Okay.
Blair
comes
up
with,
this
prayer.
And
the
prayer
is,
oh,
god,
if
there
be
a
god,
please
help
Bill
pickle
and
all
the
little
pickles.
Because
Bill
was
living
in
this
house
that
was
all
trashed
and
and,
had
lots
of
kids
and
all
that.
See,
Bill
happened
to
be
the
bootlegger
that
controlled
the
booze
for
the
entire
university.
And
so
they,
they
started
praying
this
prayer.
And
one
of
the
things
that
I
like
about
this
is
that
the
Oxford
group
and
I
think,
my
personal
opinion
is
is
that
in
Alcoholics
Anonymous,
one
of
the
things
that
we've
lost
is
this
this
thing
about
we're
not
asking
you
to
believe
anything.
But
what
we
do
ask
you
to
do
is
make
an
honest
experiment.
That's
all.
And
that
I
believe
that
this
prayer
is
the
linchpin
to
everything.
Because
it
says,
oh
God,
if
there
be
a
God.
So
you
don't
have
to
believe
anything.
You
can
even
come
in
doubt.
You
can
even
pray
in
doubt.
And
what
happened
is
that
one
day,
Bill
had
said
loudly,
publicly,
repeatedly,
from
the
time
that
Frank
had
come
to
Penn
State
that
he
would
rather
stick
a
knife
in
Frank
than
breathe
the
same
air.
Not
exactly
of
an
approachable
guy.
But
one
day,
Blair
and
Frank
are
are
walking
down
the
street,
and
Bill
comes
out
of
an
alley
in
front
of
them.
And
Frank
realizes
that
either
I'm
gonna
approach
this
man
or
I'm
gonna
lose
all
credibility
with
Blair.
Now
Frank
had
this
great
big
nose.
So
he
got
up
really
close
to
Bill,
he
figured
so
that
if
he
hit
him,
he
wouldn't
break
his
nose
too
badly.
And
he
said,
Bill,
we've
been
praying
for
you.
And
Bill
snapped
around
and
looked
at
and
looked
at
Frank,
and
and
and
the
story
is
that
all
the
fight
went
out
of
him.
And
he
looked
up,
and
he
and
he
said,
you
see
that
that
church
up
there
on
the
hill?
He
said,
my
mother
helped
build
that,
and
and,
I've
got
a
I've
got
a
nickel
from
when
I
was
a
little
kid
that's
under
the
cornerstone.
And
what
had
happened
is
his
mother
had
committed
suicide
and
wasn't
able
to
be
buried
there
at
the
church.
And
so
he'd
had
a
justifiable
resentment
against
religion
ever
since.
And,
you
know,
he'd
lived
this
life
of
desolation.
He
didn't
say
that
at
the
moment,
but
he
he
they
just
they
started
talking.
They
became
friendly,
and,
Bill
loved
to
bet
on
the
horses.
And
so
they
go
along
and
become
friendly.
And
at
one
point,
they
invite,
Frank
had
given,
Bill
his
beaver
hat,
which
was
the
best
possession
that
he
had.
And,
they
were
going
up
to
Toronto
to
a,
temperance,
young
men's
Christian
temperance
movement.
And
they
invited
Bill
to
go
along.
And
Bill
went
because
he
thought
maybe
he
could
get
a
coat
out
of
the
deal.
And
while
they
were
up
there,
Bill,
this
guy
who's
the
bootlegger
that's
the
you
know,
I
don't
know
that
he
was
an
alcoholic
but
he
was
a
chronic
drinker.
He
and
Frank
are
sharing
a
room.
He
and
Frank
are
going
to
bed.
Frank
says,
hey.
We
can't
go
to
bed.
We
haven't
prayed.
He
goes,
I've
even
forgotten
how
to
say
the
lord's
prayer.
Frank
says
it
with
him
and
his
obsession
to
drink
left.
And
he
became
part
of
this
Oxford
group.
And
he
went
when
they
came
back
down
to
Pennsylvania
to
college
station,
people
were
pissed.
The
man
had
gone
over
to
the
other
side.
They
would
they
they
walked
up.
They'd
pour
booze
on
him.
They'd
put
it
as
he
never
took
another
drink
the
rest
of
his
life.
And
he
went
around
the
world
helping
Frank
carry
this
message.
Frank
helped
him
while
they
were
on
that
trip
to
write
an
immense
letter
to
his
wife,
and
then
he
was
able
to
start
a
new
life.
When
they
started
at
Penn
State,
there
were
10
bible
studies
that
had
about
200
people.
Now
when
the
connection
goes
over
to
the
other
side
in
fact,
the
football
team
at
Penn
State
was
known
for
showing
up
to
their
games
drunk,
and
that
when
within
a
year,
they
had,
like,
over
3
quarters
of
the
men
at
the
college
were
involved
in
bible
study.
And
they
were
going
through
these
steps
that
I
I
went
through
a
little
while
ago
about
doing
the
sharing
and
then
making
amends
and
doing
all
this
stuff.
And
all
of
a
sudden,
people
from
all
over
the
world
are
coming
to
find
out
what
had
happened
at
Penn
State
University.
Okay.
Where
is
he?
Now
another
one
of,
the
important
people
in
the
story
is
Samuel
Moore
Shoemaker.
Sam
Shoemaker
was
a
close
close
associate
of
Frank
Bookman's.
Could
you
could
you
go
back
there?
I'm
sorry.
He
was
the
most
prolific
Oxford
group.
I
don't
know
what
the
this
one.
The
most
prolific
Oxford
group
member.
Now
He's
the
he's
the
head
of
a
big
episcopal
church,
yeah,
or
Anglican
church
as
you'd
know
it
in,
New
York.
And
I
was
always
wondering
how
does
this
guy
have
enough
time
to
write
all
these
books?
Well,
you
he
wasn't
writing
the
books.
What
they
were
doing
was
they
were
taking
his
sermons
and
putting
them
together
and
and
and
publishing
them.
He
was
the
rector
rector
of
Calvary
Church
New
York.
He
was
the
founder
of
the
Calvary
Mission.
Bill
Wilson
referred
to
him
as
a
cofounder
of
Alcoholic
Anonymous,
and
he
was
the
confessor
and
spiritual
mentor
to
Roland
Hazard,
Shep
Cornell,
Sebra
Geraves,
Bill
Wilson.
And
he
was
an
amazing,
he
was
an
amazing
guy.
Sam,
was
another
guy
from
Virginia
from
a
good
family,
good
looking,
talented
guy.
And
he
decided
to
enter
the
priesthood
and
he
ends
up
going
to
China.
And
he's
in
China
and
he's
not
having
any
success.
He'd
been
given
this
bible
study
to
run,
and
it
wasn't
going
real
well.
He
was
having
a
tough
time.
Number
1,
he
didn't
like
the
Chinese.
He
didn't
like
China.
The
word
god
and
pig
were
really
close.
So
if
you
mispronounced
it,
it
was,
you
know,
completely
off
the
board.
And
he
started
out
with
this
great
group
of
young
men,
and
by
he's
been
there
for,
like,
3
months
and
he's
down
to,
like,
12
guys.
So
Sam
Shoemaker,
is
is
there
in
in
Peking.
And
and
Bookman
comes
through.
And,
he's
talking
about
these
4
absolutes.
He's
talking
about
that
if
you're
going
to,
have
an
experience,
you've
gotta
be
clean
yourself.
If
you're
gonna
transmit
any
power
that
you've
gotta
be
clean
yourself.
And
so
Sam
listens
to
all
this
guy.
I
mean,
he's
from
Virginia,
and
this
guy's
from
Pennsylvania.
You
know,
and
he's
a
Lutheran.
And
oh
my
god.
You
know,
how
can
he
have
anything
really
to
share
with
me?
So
what
he
does
is
he
goes
over
to,
Frank
after
they're
done,
and
he
says,
hey,
Frank.
I
need
you
to
help
me
out.
I
want
you
to
come
to
my
bible
study
because
I
know
that
there's
one
key
guy.
There's
this
guy
and
if
you
get
him,
I
know
that
everything
will
go
fine
and,
you
know,
it'll
it'll
be
wonderful.
So
will
you
come
help
me?
And
Frank
looked
into
me
and
he
said,
what's
wrong
with
you
that
you're
not
able
to
carry
a
message?
Well,
Sam
got
a
little
upset.
He
went
home
in
a
huff,
but
he
couldn't
sleep
that
night.
And
he
thought
of
all
the
places
that
he
hadn't
completely
given
himself
to
God.
And
that
night,
he
decided
to
make
a
surrender.
He
got
together
with
Frank
the
next
day.
He
he
called
this
the
night
of
his
second
birth.
And,
then
he,
went
back
to
his
bible
study
and
he
said,
hey,
guys.
I'm
sorry.
I
hate
China.
I
hate
you
guys.
I'm
really
sorry.
I
wanna
get
better
at
it.
Will
you
help
me
to
do
that?
And
what
happened
is
is
that
from
that,
the
whole
thing
turned
around
and
and
it
became
this
powerful
group.
So
now
here's
a
picture
of,
Frank
Bookman
and,
Bunny
Austin
and
Sam
Shoemaker
and,
missus
Edison
at
a,
Oxford
group
rally
in
Los
Angeles.
And
this
is
Calvary
Church.
Now
after
his
experience,
and
when
his
term
in
China
was
over,
Sam
became
Frank's
kinda
right
hand
guy.
And
they
went
around
the
world
going
to
different
missionary
groups
and
sharing
these
Oxford
group
steps
and
really
helping
a
lot
of
people.
And
Sam
became
known
as
one
of
the
great
life
changers.
Now
he
has
never
had
his
own
church.
But
in
New
York
at
this
time,
they're
losing
a
bunch
of
people.
So
they
want
something
vibrant
brought
in.
A
lot
of
folks
are
moving
to
the
suburbs.
So
Sam
gets
called
to
have
this
really
great
job
at,
at
Calvary
Church.
And
you
can
see
here
that
there's
this
big
building
on
the
side,
and
this
was
part
of
the
church
property.
And
this
is
was
a
a
housing
area,
apartments
where
Oxford
grew
people
from
all
over
the
world
would
come
and
stay.
Here's
a
picture
of
the,
Thursday
night,
Thursday
night
meeting
at
the
Calvary
Church,
in
1932.
Same
thing
here.
Some
lame
guy
up
here
speaking,
people
sitting
there,
and
people
telling
their
stories.
Please.
There's
a
great
picture
of
Sam.
Now
after
Sam
had
been
there
for
a
while,
they
decided
that
they
needed
to
do
a
little
outreach
work.
So
the
church
owned
some
property
down
in
the
Bowery
and
they
founded
the
Calvary
mission.
And
what
this
place
was
was
a
place
that
guys
that
were
on
the
streets
could
be
brought
in.
They
could
be
given
a
place
to
have
a,
you
know,
a
plate
of
beans
and
some
coffee.
They
could
take
a
shower.
They
could
get
cleaned
up.
They
could
go
to,
they
could
go
to
some
Oxford
group
meetings,
and
then
they
could
hopefully
go
out
and
and
get
a
job.
And
when
Sam
was
looking
for
somebody
to
run
the
place,
the
person
that
came
to
work
for
him
was
Harry
Hadley
junior.
Harry
Hadley
junior
had
been
a
very
bad
alcoholic
and
drug
addict.
His
father
was
a
bad
alcoholic
and
drug
addict,
who
had
had
a
spiritual
experience
at
Jerry
McCauley's,
mission
down
on
Water
Street.
And,
the
old
man
had
gone
around
the
world,
you
know,
being
a
prohibition
and
a
temperance
preacher.
And
then,
after
his
father
died,
he'd
wanted
his
son
to,
you
know,
get
cleaned
up.
The
son
wasn't
able
to.
After
dad
died,
the
son
had
an
experience
and
and
carried
on
the
family's
work
and
was
going
all
over
the
world.
He
was
tired
of
doing
that.
And
so
he
came
to
work
for
Sam
running
the
cavalry
mission.
So
there's
a
sober
alcoholic
running
this
cavalry
mission.
This
is
Jim
Newton.
Now
are
there
any
is
anybody
here,
bipolar?
K.
Bisexual?
In
America,
I
say
bicoastal.
You
know
people
that
live
on
in
New
York
and
Los
Angeles.
Because
if
your
mind
can
work
on
2
tracks,
this
story's
a
lot
easier
than
if
it's
just
on
1.
Okay?
Because
we're
gonna
start
talking
about
Ohio,
and
we're
gonna
start
talking
about
New
York.
Now
this
is
Jim
Newton.
This
is
another
one
of
these
really
powerful
people.
Without
this
man,
I
don't
believe
I'm
sober.
Jim
Newton
was
a
was,
a,
he
was
a
flimflam
man.
He
was
a
he
was
a
con
artist.
He
would
go
into
town
selling
stuff
and,
and
then,
you
know,
get
the
deposit
money
and
leave
and
never
bring
the
product.
There
was
a
there's
an
old
American
show
called
the
Music
Man.
And
in
it,
the
guy
comes
and
he
sells
band
instruments.
Anyway,
that's
the
kind
of
person
that
Jimmy
Newton
was.
Anyway,
he
ended
up
at
one
of
these
Oxford
group
house
parties.
And
when
he's
there,
he
he
he
listens
to
people
talk.
He
identifies
what
they're
sharing.
He
goes
up
to
Frank
Bookman.
He
says,
Frank,
will
you
help
me?
Frank
sends
him
to
Sam
Shoemaker.
He
goes
down
to
New
York.
He
works
the
steps
with
Sam.
Then
he
goes
home.
And
in
those
days,
his
family
moved
down
to
Florida
and
his
father
was
a
land
speculator.
And
his
father
had
bought
the
piece
of
land
that
was
between
the
Fords
and
the
Edisons.
And
in
those
days,
I
know
this
doesn't
have
in
Reykjavik,
but
land
value
tends
to
go
up
if
there's
rich
people
there.
People
wanna
be
next
to
them
and
just
kinda
bask
in
the
glory
of
it
all.
And,
so,
anyway,
Jim's
down
there
and
he's
helping
his
old
man.
And
when
he's
getting
to
the
details
of
the
development,
he
started
going
over
and
asking
mister
mister
and
missus
Ford,
mister
and
missus
Edison
whether
or
not
they
felt
that
this
would
be
a
violation.
They
didn't
wanna
upset
the
neighbors.
And
they
fell
in
love
with
him.
And
Jim
was,
you
know,
he
was
he
was
very
charismatic.
Anyway,
in
those
days,
there
mister
Edison's
birthday
party
in
the
United
States
was
one
of
these
events
where
all
the
politicians
and
all
the,
the
industrialists
came
because
they
wanted
to
find
out
what
it
was
that
Edison
was
working
on,
and
he
would
always,
like,
give
a
preview
of
what
it
is
that
we're
working
on
because
he'd
done
so
much
to
change
our
our
lives,
you
know,
with
electricity
and
and
the
movie
and
all
this
other
stuff.
So
and
you
can
see
the
old
kinescopes
that
they
used
to
show
in
the
movie
houses
of
Edison's
birthday
party.
You
know?
And
and
there
they
all
are.
And,
anyway,
they
asked
Jim
if
he'd
run
the
party
and
because
this
Oxford
group
guy
seemed
to
be
able
to
handle
all
these
big
egos.
And,
and
one
of
the
people
that
that,
that
he
met
was
mister
Firestone.
Mister
Firestone
liked,
Jim
so
much,
he
invited
him
to
come
to
Akron
to
become
his
personal
assistant.
He
was
grooming
him
to
run
the
company.
And
Jim
was
a
a
really
talented
and
an
amazing
man.
There's
a
biography
that
he
wrote
called
Uncommon
Friends
that
is
about
his
relationship
with,
Henry
Ford,
Harvey
Firestone,
Alex
Carrell,
and
Charles
Lindbergh.
Please.
Now
Firestone,
Newton
comes
up
to
Akron
and
he
goes
to
work
for
mister
Firestone.
Mister
Firestone
has
some
kids.
And
one
of
the
kids
is
a
guy
that
they
called
Bud.
And
Bud
just
had
a
little
bit
of
a
drinking
problem.
He's
one
of
these
guys
that
when
you
read
about
him,
you
know,
it's
on
Saturday
in
the
little
crime
stoppers
part
of
the
paper.
You
know?
Oh,
let's
see
what
he
did
this
weekend.
You
know?
Anyway,
he
was
a
horrible
alcoholic,
kept
getting
into
all
these
scrapes.
When
he's
sober,
everybody
loves
him.
So
Newton's
there
for
a
while.
And
after
a
couple
years,
he
goes,
god.
This
is
really
a
problem.
And
he's
he
he
has
an
idea.
He
has
some
information.
He
has
some
guidance.
And
his
guidance
is
he
goes
to
mister
Firestone.
He
says,
let
me
go
with
Bud
on
his
next
dry
out,
and,
you
know,
I'll
find
out
what
it
is
that
he's
doing.
And
then
when
he
comes
back,
I
can
help
him.
So
the
old
man
says,
we've
tried
everything
else.
Let's
go
along.
So
they
go
off
to
this
dry
out
forum
in
New
York,
and
I'm
sure
it's
just
like
what
you
got
here
in
Reykjavik.
You
have
to
make
your
own
bed,
get
lots
of
physical
exercise,
you
know,
you
get
some
food
in
you
and
all
that
stuff.
And,
and
the
treatment
worked
so
well
that
when
it
was
time
for
them
to
leave
30
days
later,
the
best
deal
that
Jim
could
cut
with
Bud
was
that
he'd
hold
the
bottle.
He
started
drinking
again
immediately.
And
they're
on
the
train
back,
and
Jim's
really
upset.
He
didn't
know
what
to
do.
He's
going,
I'm
really
in
trouble.
The
old
man's
gonna
be
pissed.
And
then
he
remembers
that
his
friend,
Sam
Shoemaker,
is
at
a,
a
bishop's
conference
in
Denver.
So
they
take
the
train
to
Denver,
and
they
get
on
a
train
with
Sam,
and
they're
going
towards
New
York.
And
on
that
train,
Sam,
who
was
known
as
one
of
the
great
life
changers
or
the
great
soul
surgeons,
he
gets
along
with
with
Bud
Firestone,
and
the
2
of
them
talk.
They
make
a
decision,
and
Bud's
drinking
obsession
leaves.
And
they're
so
stunned,
they
just
send
him
off
to
an
Oxford
group
place
in
New
York.
Jim
goes
back
to
goes
back
to
work.
And
a
few
months
later,
mister
Firestone
and
the
the
family
doctor
go
to
visit
the
son.
And
when
they
got
there,
the
doctor
said
this
is
a
modern
medical
miracle.
You
know
when
really
bad
alcoholics
get
sober
and
all
the
pain
goes
out
of
their
face?
And
it
was
that
prodigal
experience.
They
had
a
walk.
The
son
made
amends
to
his
father,
and
they
came
home.
So
that's
Akron.
Now
it
just
so
happens
at
about
the
same
time
on
the
East
Coast,
there's
another
guy
with
a
lot
of
money.
You
know,
did
you
ever
feel
like
if
you
just
had
enough
money,
you
wouldn't
have
a
drug
and
alcohol
problem?
Right?
I've
used
all
of
my
money,
all
of
your
money,
all
of
her
money,
her
retirement.
Oh,
and
can
I
borrow
your
car?
And
it
still
doesn't
work.
Anyway,
this
guy,
Roland
Hazard,
comes
from
a
family
whose
fortune
came
from
selling
blankets
to
the
Union
Army
in
the
civil
war.
Lot
of
money.
Burlington
Northern,
later
they
became
the
Allied
Chemical
Company.
They've
got
lots.
Anyway,
he's
the
same
guy.
I
mean,
beautiful.
I
mean,
I'd
do
him
for
Christ's
sake.
I
mean,
charismatic,
wonderful
guy,
except
when
he's
drinking.
And
he
bad
to
his
wife,
bad
to
the
family.
You
know,
they
had
it
with
him.
Anyway,
they've
tried
everything.
And
then
one
of
his
cousins
has
been
going
to
Zurich,
Switzerland
and
has
been
involved
with
doctor
Carl
Jung.
And
so
Roland
ends
up
going
to
doctor
Jung.
And
he
goes
back
and
forth
with
Yung
a
few
times.
And,
and
he
gets
sober.
He's
not
drinking.
And
then
he
shows
back
up
after
drinking
again.
He
was
he
was,
he
was
in
Paris.
Somebody
asked
him
the
wrong
question.
Would
you
like
wine
with
your
dinner?
He
said,
yes.
Off
to
the
races
again.
And
he's
off
to
the
races
for
a
while.
He
comes
back
to
the
doctor.
He
says,
doc,
you
know,
what's
up?
And
Jung
says,
sorry.
I
can't
help
people
like
you.
And
he
goes,
what?
I
got
all
the
money.
He
you
can't
tell
me
you
can't
help
me.
He
says,
no.
I
can't
help
you.
Says
the
very
best
you
can
do
is
align
yourself
with
the
spiritual
movement.
There's
a
there's
something
that
happens
sometimes.
There
it's
a
it's
a
mystery
to
me,
but,
sometimes
people
get
struck
by
a
religious
experience.
Now
Jung
knew
about
the
Oxford
group.
Some
of
his
some
of
his
students
were
involved
in
it.
Whether
or
not
he
said
go
to
the
Oxford
group,
we
don't
know.
But
he
ends
up
back
in
New
York.
And
where
does
Roland
end
up
but
at
the,
do
you
have
a
picture?
He
ends
up
at
Calvary
Church.
And,
yeah,
he
ends
up
at
Calvary
Church.
And
there
he's
he's
he
starts
going
to
these
Oxford
group
meetings,
and
so
he's
drinking
and
going
to
meetings.
And
he's
thinking
that
this
is
really
a
good
idea.
And
then
one
day,
he
gets
a
copy
of
Vic
Kitchen's
book,
I
was
a
pagan,
and
he's
on
the
train
from
New
York
to
Detroit.
And
he
identifies,
and
he
surrenders,
and
he
quit
drinking.
And
he
became
a
member
of
the
Oxford
group.
This
got
out
of
sequence
somehow,
and
it's
not
her
fault.
It's
mine.
So
let's
go
back
to
the
Soul
Surgeons.
Yeah.
Okay.
So
we
got
we
got,
Bud
Firestone.
He's
sober
in
the
Oxford
group
in
Akron.
We
got
Roland
Hazard
and
a
bunch
of
his
cronies,
and
they're
sober
in
the
Oxford
group
in
New
York.
Now
mister
Firestone
is
so
excited
about
what's
happened
in
his
family
that
he
does
what
many
people
did,
which
is
that
they
would
invite
the
oxford
for
group
to
come
to
their
town
and
put
on
one
of
these
house
parties.
And
then
what
would
happen
is
is
that,
Sunday,
they'd
they'd
have
the
meeting
over
the
weekend
at
a
hotel
and
they'd
have
they'd
have
big
speaker
meetings
and
then
they'd
have
smaller
meetings
where,
like,
the
compulsive
overeaters
or
the
compulsive
sex
addicts
or
the
alcoholics
or
the
drug
addicts
would
get
together
and
talk
in
small
closed
groups.
Men
or
women.
Men's
work
for
men,
women's
work
for
women,
old
Oxford
group
line.
And
then,
at
the
speaker
meetings,
they
do
things
like
they'd
have
coal
miner
from
from,
Wales
get
up
and
talk,
and
and
then
they'd
have
some
princess
from
Greece
get
up
and
talk,
and
then
they'd
have
some
made
from
the
United
States
and
some
industrialists.
So
they'd
show
that,
you
know,
all
different
kinds
of
people,
when
they'd
had
these
these
problems,
When
they
worked
these
steps,
they
would
have
this
experience.
So
mister
Firestone
gets
together
with
a
couple
of
his
cronies.
They
bankroll
a
house
party
and
they
bring
the
Oxford
group,
some
heavy
hitters
to
Akron
where
they
have
this
experience.
And
at
that
house
party
that
weekend,
there's
a
bunch
of
different
people.
There's
a,
disaffected,
daughter-in-law
of,
of
a
rubber
company.
There's
a
proctologist
that
shakes
a
lot
and
his
wife.
Bob
and
Anne
Smith.
There's,
T
Henry
and
Clarice
Williams.
There's
a
lot
of
folks
in
Akron
that
respond
to
this
message,
and
they
start
to
have
meetings
there
in
Akron.
Now
here's
a
picture
of
Bill
and
his
sponsor,
Ebby.
Ebby's
another
one
of
these
guys
that
comes
from
a
family
with
a
lot
of
dough.
And,
the
family's
had
it
with
him.
He
can't
even
live
in
Albany
with
them
anymore.
He's
exiled
to
the
summer
house
in
Manchester.
And
while
he's
there,
he's,
having
a
few,
having
a
few
drinks
and
getting
in
trouble
here
and
there.
And
then
one
day,
he
drives
his
car
into
a
house.
And
he
gets
out
of
the
car,
and
he
asked
the
horrified
woman
who
was
in
there
cooking
if
she'd
please
give
him
a
cup
of
coffee.
She
got
a
little
angry.
So
they
throw
him
in
jail,
and
the,
the
the
judge
says,
listen.
You
were
just
in
here
a
while
ago.
You
caused
a
fire.
And
in
those
days,
you
know,
fires
were
horrible
things.
And
thank
God
you
didn't
burn
anybody
but
yourself.
I
said,
now
you've
done
this.
If
I
ever
see
you
back
in
my
court
again,
I'm
gonna
have
you
committed
for
a
year
to
the
mental
institution
as
a
chronic
inebriate.
Get
out
of
here.
So
Abby
goes
home.
Well,
I'm
not
drinking
now.
I'll
do
something
around
the
house.
And
so
he
decides
to
paint
the
house.
Now
he's
withdrawing
so
badly
that
he
can't
get
up
on
a
ladder,
so
he's
only
going
up
about
this
high.
You
know?
He's
going
around
the
house
and
he's
and
he's
he's
doing
this.
He's
Manchester's
a
resort
community.
And,
so
he's
going
around
and
he's
and
he's
going
up
and
down
the
stairs
and
he
notices
that
there's
a
case
of
beer.
Now
he
sees
the
case
of
beer.
This
is
about
the
3rd
day.
And
he's
and
he's
looking
at
the
case
of
beer
and
he
goes
well
you
know,
I
don't
drink
anymore
and
I
got
this
beer
here.
And
And
if
one
of
my
friends
come
by
and
they
see
the
beer,
they're
probably
gonna
want
me
to
drink
with
it
with
them.
Since
I
don't
drink,
I'll
just
drink
this
beer.
I'll
get
it
out.
There
won't
be
any
problems.
So
he
starts
drinking
the
beer.
Now
as
it
would
happen,
there
were
some
pigeons
around
the
house
who'd
been
messing
up
this
wonderful
painting
that
he
was
doing,
and
he
had
a
little
justified
resentment.
So
he
got
a
lawn
chair
and
his
shotgun
and
the
beer
that
he
was
drinking
so
nobody
have
to
ask
him
about
drinking
anymore,
and
he
starts
shooting
at
the
pigeons.
Even
in
resort
communities,
this
is
frowned
upon.
They
come
by
and
they
pinch
him
and
they
take
him
back
to
the
jail.
Now
while
he's
in
jail,
it
just
so
happens
that
the
judge
that
he's
been
before,
his
last
name
is
Graves.
And
his
son
is
a
good
friend
with
Roland
Hazard.
And
the
Hazards
have
a
house
in
Manchester.
And
Roland
and
Sebra
and
a
bunch
of
the
boys
have
been
hanging
out
with
their
wives
having
an
Oxford
group
time
in
Manchester.
And
in
fact,
they've
even
been
by
to
talk
to
Ebby
once
a
few
months
before
and
Eby
was
not
interested
in
all
in
this
message
of
depth
and
weight
that
they
had.
So
old
man
Judge
Graves
sends
message
to
his
son.
Hey,
we
got
the
we
got
your
buddy
and,
we're
gonna
have
to,
we're
gonna
have
to,
send
him
to
the
mental
institution
for
a
year.
Well,
the
Oxford
Group
boys
get
together
and
they
show
up
Monday
morning
at
court
and
they
say
and
Roland
gets
up
and
he
says,
judge,
you
remember
me?
Judge
goes,
yeah.
He
says,
I'm
not
drinking.
I
haven't
had
anything
to
drink
in
6
months.
Give
him
to
us.
Then
they
say
the
magic
word,
we'll
take
him
to
New
York.
Judge
is
real
happy
about
that.
We'll
take
him
to
New
York,
and
we'll
try
and
show
him
what
happened
with
us.
And
so
they
get
Ebby.
He
doesn't
have
to
go
to
the
to
the
nut
ward
and
they
take
him
to
New
York.
And
where
do
they
take
him?
They
take
him
to
Calvary
Mission.
They
take
him
to
the
Oxford
Group
Center
there
that's
run
by
Harry
Hadley
junior.
That's
that's
Sam
Shoemaker's
there
at
meetings.
He
meets
Sam.
They
start
talking.
He
gives
his
he
he
listens
to
the
sharing.
He
makes
a
surrender
and
his
drinking
obsession
leaves.
This
is
town's
hospital.
Towns
Hospital
was
this
is
the
Charles
b
Towns
Hospital
for
drug
addicts,
alcoholic,
and
neuroesthetics.
When
you
read
the
big
book,
they
talk
about
people
having
a
bad
case
of
the
jitters.
A
nervous
condition,
that's
what
the
neuroesthetics
is.
They
aren't
quite
as
bad
as
the
alcoholics
and
the
drug
addicts,
but
you're
pretty
fucking
shaky,
and
this
is
what
it
is.
Anyway,
Charlie
Townes
made
his
reputation
by
taking
a
couple
guys
who
were
members
of
the
mob
in
New
York
who
were
drug
addicts
and
getting
them
clean.
So
if
it
works
for
the
mob,
the
society
people
start
sending
them
too.
Anyway,
Bill
Wilson
starts
showing
up
at
this
hospital.
His
brother-in-law
starts
writing
checks
to
get
him
in
there
to
help
him
out.
And
this
is
the
spin
dry
that
Bill's
at.
And,
Bill,
Bill's
been
there
a
couple
of
times
and
Ebbie
has
started
to
really
do
this
Oxford
group
stuff
and
one
of
the
things
he's
doing
is
he's
listening
for
guidance
and
his
sponsor,
Roland
keeps
saying,
you
gotta
work
with
others.
You
gotta
work
with
others.
You
know,
and
they
got
the
guys
coming
in
here.
But
one
day,
Eby's
got
a
couple
of
months
sober
and
he
and
he
he
thinks
about
his
buddy
Bill
Wilson.
Who
Roland
knew?
They
had
all
been
they'd
been,
you
know,
running
partners
together
and
gone
off
to
Cuba
and
flying
airplanes
and
being
weird.
And
and,
and
they'd
heard
that
Bill
was
in
really,
really
bad
shape.
So
Ebby
says,
I've
received
guidance
from
God.
Bill
Wilson.
And
his
sponsor
says,
go
get
him.
And
so
Ebby
goes
down
to,
no.
Back.
I'm
sorry.
Back
a
couple.
So
anyway,
Abby,
goes
down
and
he
talks
to
Bill
and
Bill
throws
him.
It's
not
in
the
big
book,
but
it's
in
all
of
the
other
stories.
Like,
there's
a
reason
that
the
book,
the
Al
Anon
book
is
called
Lois
Remembers
because
she
did.
You
know?
Everybody
else
in
this
story
is
either
way
buzzed
out
on
religion
or
shit
faced.
So
and
then
Lois
remembers
they
talk
about
that
Eddie
made
one
pass
and
Bill
threw
him
out
before
the
pineapple
and
and,
and
gin
incident
a
couple
days
later.
But,
so
Ebby
comes
by
and
he
talks
to
him
about,
hey.
This
is
this
is
what's
going
on.
And
and,
you
know,
clearly
it
worked.
He
Ebby
hadn't
had
anything
to
drink
for
2
months.
2
months.
And
he
asked
Bill
if
he
wanted
what
he
had,
and
Bill
said,
yeah.
Sure.
Sure.
Yeah.
I
want
what
you
got.
Sure.
No
problem.
Get
out
of
here.
And,
and
so
Bill's
a
big
thinker.
And
so
he
gets
rid
of
Ebby,
and
he
starts
drinking
and
thinking.
And,
before
he'd
become
a
stock
speculator,
what
bill
was
he
was
an
insurance
investigator.
So
he
gets
the
idea.
I'll
go
down
to
this
Oxford
group
place,
this
Calvary
mission,
and
I'll
see
what
they're
doing,
and
I'll
figure
it
out,
and
I'll
go
home
and
do
it
by
myself.
And
so
here
it
is.
It's,
it's
the
end
of
November,
and
he
goes
toddling
down
or
the
beginning
of
December,
and
he
goes
toddling
down
to,
to
the
the
mission.
And
on
the
way,
he
gets
kinda
lost
and
he
and
he
starts
stopping
in
saloons.
Now
he's
not
going
to
drink,
mind
you.
He's
just
going
to
look
for
somebody
that
he
might
know
that
might
be
in
the
bar.
And
he
doesn't
meet
anybody,
so
he
decides
to
sit
sit
in
a
bar
and
wait
for
somebody
he
might
know.
Then
he
has
a
beer
and
then
he
meets
Alex
the
Finn.
Gotta
have
a
Finnish
guy
involved
in
any
drug
story.
Right?
There's
always
the
Finn.
So
Alex
the
Finn
goes
with
him
and
they
and
they
go
and
they
start
weaving
their
way
down
and
they
get
down
to
cavalry
mission,
and
they're
both
boiled
as
an
owl.
And
they
they,
text
Francisco's
work
in
the
door
at
Calvary
Mission.
And,
as
Bill
said,
he
said,
I
was
about
to
get
my
accustomed
beating
because
they
were
too
drunk
to
get
in
supposedly
When
Abby
sees
him
and
goes,
no.
No.
I'll
sponsor
him.
And
he
brings
him
in
and
gets
him
some
beans
and
gets
him
some
coffee,
and
then
he
gets
him
into
the
meeting.
And
they're
in
the
meeting,
Alex
and
Bill
and
and,
and
Ebby
and,
you
know,
they're
they're
doing
the
sharing
and
all
that
stuff.
And
have
you
ever
been
in
the
meeting
with
a
guy
who's
still
drunk
and
he
wants
to
share?
So
Bill's
a
big
guy
and
he
made,
you
know,
Evie
made
one
of
those
mistakes
that
you
only
make
once,
you
know.
If
you're
sitting
in
a
pew,
the
sober
guy
is
always
on
the
outside
of
the
pew.
But
Bill's
on
the
outside
of
the
pew
because
he's
got
long
legs.
And
he
gets
up
and
he
takes
off
down
to
give
witness.
And
he
gets
up
there
and
he
starts
talking.
And
he
starts
talking
about
Abby,
and
he
starts
talking
about
this
and
that.
And
they
make
the
call,
and
Bill
gives
his
life
to
Jesus.
And
he
wakes
up
the
next
morning
and
he's
absolutely
horrified.
He
said,
I
was
jumping
for
Jesus
and
singing
old
camp
songs.
How
am
I
ever
gonna
be
show
my
face
on
Wall
Street
again?
They're
gonna
be
saying,
oh,
yeah,
Bill.
We'll
be
happy
to
be
involved
of
this
venture
with
you.
Would
you
like
to
sing
a
little
Kumbaya
for
us?
So
he's
just
horribly,
horribly
depressed.
And
he
doesn't
know
what
to
do.
And,
and
he
gets
the
shot
to
go
back
to
town's
hospital
again.
And,
and
he
goes
back
to
town's
hospital.
And
Ebby
shows
up
again.
And,
and
Bill
says,
what's
going
on?
You
know,
it
was
a
blizzard
day.
And
here
this
guy
is
going
out.
I
mean,
it's
awful
out.
And
here
this
guy
is.
He
says,
tell
me
again
about
those
about
these
4
what
these
steps.
And
so
Eby
told
him
about
the
4
steps
and
and
and
Bill
says,
well,
you
know,
and
Eby
said
to
him,
you
know,
I
really
thought
you
had
it,
buddy.
I
really
thought
you
had
it.
And
Bill
said,
well,
obviously,
I
didn't.
And
Eby
leaves
and
his
depression
gets
worse.
And
in
that
depression,
Bill
calls
out
and
he
says,
you
know,
if
there
is
a
God,
show
him
to
me.
And
he
has
the
experience.
And,
you
know,
and
he
calls,
he
calls
doctor
Silkworth
in
and
he
says,
Silke,
what
what's
going
on?
Have
I
lost
my
mind?
And
Silkworth
looks
at
him
and
he
says,
I
don't
know
what
happened,
but
whatever
it
is,
hold
on
to
it.
You're
a
lot
better
than
you
were
just
a
little
while
ago.
Okay?
So
let's
just
let's
just
stay
with
it,
and
and
this
is
the
miracle.
The
medical
man
says,
this
is
good.
Not,
nurse,
more
meds.
And
and
then
the
next
day,
Ebby
comes
back.
Bill
tells
him
what
happened.
This
is
wonderful,
man.
That
happens
all
the
time.
This
stuff
happens
all
the
time
in
the
Oxford
group.
We're
familiar
with
this
stuff.
And,
he
says,
you
know
what?
I'm
gonna
bring
you
a
book.
And
the
next
day,
he
comes
back,
and
he
brings
him
a
book.
And
the
book
he
brought
him
was
William
James,
the
variety
of,
religious
experience.
Now
you
hear
a
lot
of
people
in
AA
say,
oh,
it's
just
an
awful
difficult
to
read,
you
know,
and
all
that.
And
and
it's
an
elegant
book,
and
you
know
that
he
didn't
start
at
the
beginning.
Have
you
ever
met
any
alcoholic
that
reads
the
prefaces
or
the
foreword
without
a
sponsor
saying
this
is
what
you've
gotta
read?
No.
He
goes
straight
to
the
conversion
experiences.
And
in
the
conversion
experiences,
there's
stories
of
alcoholics
that
have
been
liberated
from
their
drinking
problem.
The
same
stuff
that
Jung
had
talked
to
Rolan
Azerth
about.
And
in
it,
one
of
them
is
this
experience
by
a
guy
by
the
name
of
s
h
Hadley.
And
it
says,
although
up
to
that
moment,
my
soul
had
been
filled
with
indescribable
gloom,
I
felt
the
glorious
feeling
of
the
noonday
sunshine
into
my
heart.
I
felt
I
was
a
free
man.
And
from
that
moment
till
this,
I've
never
wanted
a
drink
of
whiskey
nor
seen
enough
money
to
make
me
take
1.
And,
you
know,
why
is
it
that
Eby
brought
him
this
book?
The
reason
he
brought
him
the
book
is
is
s
h
Hadley
was
Harry's
dad.
That
was
Harry
Hadley's
father's
experience
that
was
in
that
book.
This
wasn't
some
musty
philosophical
tome.
It's,
oh,
you
had
that?
My
buddy's
dad
had
that.
Here.
At
the
same
time,
in
Akron,
at
the
Williams
House,
there's
the
West
Hills
group
of
the
of,
the
Oxford
group
going
on.
And
they
got
all
kinds
of
great
stuff
going
on
there.
And,
one
of
the
things
that
was
happening
was
is
that
there
was
this
this
woman,
Henrietta
Cyberlink,
who
in
the
month
of
April,
what
would
happen
at
this
meeting,
it
was
weekly
meeting,
format
was
the
same
as
ours,
basically.
What
happened
is
the
leader
would
be
picked
for
a
month.
They
would
pick
a
series
of
bible
readings,
you
know,
and
they
would
say
what
the
topic
was
for
the
next
week.
Anyway,
Anne,
Smith,
doctor
Bob's
wife,
was
a
staunch
member
of
this
group
and
doctor
Bob
had
to
go
almost
every
week
whether
he
wanted
to
or
not.
And,
and
her
sponsor
was
a
woman
by
the
name
of
Henrietta
Sibeling.
Henrietta
is
running
the
meetings
in
April,
and
she's
been
trying
to
help
Anne
for
a
couple
years
now.
They've
been
going
to
these
silly
meetings.
And,
you
know,
Anne's
get
being
able
to
survive
this,
and
Henrietta's
being
able
to
survive
her
marriage
problem.
But,
you
know,
Bob's
not
Bob's
getting
worse.
I
mean,
more
sedatives,
more
alcohol.
It's
horrible.
He's
awful
with
the
kids.
Henry,
what
are
we
gonna
do?
Bob
had
never
spoken
at
the
meeting.
And
so
Henrietta
says,
okay.
Next
week,
we're
gonna
have
a
meeting
and
I
want
everybody
to
come
prepared
to
share
something
costly.
And
by
costly,
she
meant
that
you're
gonna
tell
the
truth
about
something
you
did
not
wanna
tell
the
truth
about.
And
Henry
was
kinda
one
of
the
spiritual
glues
in
this
thing.
And
so
everybody
shows
up
at
the
meeting
and
they
start
going
around
and
they're
talking
maybe
about
beating
their
kids
or
padding
their
expense
account.
Maybe
talking
about
infidelity.
Who
knows?
You
know?
But
they
went
around
the
room
and
they
shared
costly
stuff.
And
everybody
goes
around
the
room
and
Bob
doesn't
share.
And,
T.
Henry,
whose
house
it
was,
looked
across
the
room
and
he
said,
Bob,
don't
you
have
anything
to
say?
And
doctor
Bob
says,
this
is
probably
gonna
cost
me
my
practice,
and
I
hope
that
it
will
not
leave
this
room.
But
I'm
a
closet
drinker,
and
I
can't
stop.
And
Henry
looks
at
him
and
he,
T.
Henry
looks
at
him
and
says,
do
you
want
our
help?
Bob
says,
yeah.
And
so
they
got
down
on
their
knees
and
they
prayed
that
there
would
be
a
solution
to
their
friend's
problem.
Bob
keeps
drinking.
But
Henry's
doing
this
guidance
stuff.
And
if
you
wanna
know
what
the
Oxford
Group
guidance
stuff,
I've
got
a
little
website.
I'll
give
you
a
card
for
it.
It's
3
minutes
of
silence
dot
org
and
the
actual
Oxford
group,
how
to
listen
is
on
there.
But
really,
it's
all
right
there
on
page
84,
85,
and
86
in
the
book
Alcoholics
Anonymous.
It's
our
11th
step.
It's
this
thing
about
asking
for
direction.
But
what
the
Oxford
group
suggest
is
you
always
write
it
down.
That
the
that
the
the
the
weakest
ink
is
stronger
than
the
strongest
memory.
And
so
one
morning
just
after
this,
Henry's
Henry's
doing
her
guidance
and
what
comes
to
her
is
you
don't
have
to
worry.
I'll
send
someone.
And
then
after
that
is
tell
Bob
he's
not
supposed
to
drink
anything
at
all.
So
Henry
gets
on
the
phone.
She
calls
him
up.
Bob.
Bob.
I've
got
guidance
for
you.
You
know?
I
mean,
if
your
wife
sponsor
calls,
you
know,
what
is
it?
You're
not
supposed
to
drink
anything.
Oh,
great
news.
I
think
I'll
have
a
few
more
high
powered
sedatives
to
be
able
to
take
this.
So
he
he
keeps
he
keeps
drinking,
but
she
goes
back
to
the
meeting.
She
says,
gang,
we
don't
have
to
worry
anymore.
I've
gotten
guidance
and
God's
gonna
send
someone.
So
what
happens?
Bill
Wilson's
got
6
months
sober.
He's
been
in
Oxford
group
meetings
3
times
a
week.
He's
come
to
Akron.
There's
a
real
good
chance
that
his
friend
Sam
Shoemaker,
the
guy
he
worked
the
steps
with,
has
said,
my
buddy
Walter
Tonks,
who
happens
to
be
the
ox
the
Oxford
group
member
in,
the
Episcopal
church
in
Akron,
Ohio
who's
the
Firestone's
personal
chaplain,
This
might
be
somebody
you
might
wanna
call.
Of
course,
Bill
doesn't.
He
just
goes
off
to
work
and
all
that
stuff.
But
he
gets
in
a
jam,
and
he's
thirsty.
The
the
business
deal's
falling
apart.
He's
walking
back
and
forth.
He
said
he
had
$10
in
his
pocket.
And
in
Akron,
you
could
be
king
for
a
weekend
with
$10.
And
he's
walking
back
and
forth,
and
he's
listening
to
the
bar.
And
the
the
girls
are
giggling,
and
the
glasses
are
tinkling,
and
he
realizes
that
he's
gonna
drink.
Now
he'd
had
a
conversation
with
Silkworth
where
Silkworth
said
quit
preaching
to
him,
Bill.
What
you
do
is
hit
him
with
the
medical
facts,
then
come
with
the
spiritual
stuff.
But
first,
let
him
know
that
alcoholism
is
a
progressive
fatal
illness.
It's
biological
in
nature.
The
other
thing
is
is
that
Bill
had
been
pulling
people
off
the
bar
stools
because
he
was
gonna
save
people.
But
now
he's
in
trouble,
and
he
needs
an
alcoholic.
And
so
what
he
does
is
he
calls
talks,
from
the
church
directory.
And
he
gets
he
gets
a
dollar,
and
he
busts
it
apart,
and
he
starts
dropping
nickels
and
making
phone
calls.
And
and,
Tungs
gives
him
ten
names.
They're
all
Oxford
group
people,
but
it's
Mother's
Day
weekend.
It's
Saturday,
and
everybody's,
you
know,
out
doing
stuff.
And
finally,
he
gets
to
the
end
of
the
list,
and
it's
Cyberling.
Now
at
one
time,
Bill
Wilson
had
been
a
very,
very
well
known
guy
in
New
York.
His
stock
speculations
had
made
a
lot
of
people
a
lot
of
money.
And
one
of
those
people
was
a
guy
by
the
name
of
Cyberlink,
And
he
was,
they
were
a
member
of
a
club
together,
and
he
thinks
that
this
Henrietta
is
mister
Cyberling's
wife.
And
he
goes,
I'm
not
calling
her.
Oh,
hi.
It's
Bill
from
the
club,
and
I'm
a
hopeless
alcoholic.
No
any
drunks?
I
don't
think
so.
And
he
goes
walking
back
across
the
hotel
lobby
when
the
miracle
happens.
And
the
little
voice
that
he'd
been
taught
to
listen
to
in
his
guidance
said,
not
a
good
idea.
Go
back
and
make
the
call.
And
he
does.
And
he
does.
And
he
gets
to
Henrietta.
And
Henrietta,
when
she
gets
a
call
from
this
guy
and
he
goes,
I'm
a
rum
hound
from
New
York.
Do
you
know
any
drunks?
She
doesn't
go,
well,
well,
in
some
Christian
kindness,
well,
I'll
see
what
I
can
do.
No.
She
goes,
of
course,
you
are.
Of
course,
you
are.
And
she
says,
get
over
here
right
now.
And
she
gets
on
the
telephone
and
she
calls
Anna
and
she
says,
he's
here.
The
one
who
was
foretold
to
me.
Get
Bob
over
here
right
now.
He's
asleep
under
the
piano.
It's
not
gonna
happen.
So
Bill's
in
desperate
shape.
He
ends
up
at
this
at
this
coach
house.
And
Henrietta
interviews
him,
and
he
said
it
was
the
first
time
he
ever
had
this
convince
somebody
that
he
was
an
alcoholic.
And
he
tells
her
the
whole
story.
She
gets
him
to
a
place
where
he
can
spend
the
night.
He
comes
back
the
next
day.
Doctor
Bob,
you
know,
he
comes
to
and
Anne's
going,
my
sponsor
called
and
you
were
asleep.
You
know?
He
says,
okay.
I'll
do
anything.
It's
Mother's
Day.
We'll
we'll
go
make
the
call.
He
said,
I'll
give
him
15
minutes.
And
on
the
way
over,
Smitty,
his
son,
if
you've
ever
had
the
chance
listening
to
one
of
the
talks,
I
don't
know
if
if
we've
got
it
on
the
on
the
XA
or
not.
But
but
but
he's
he's
he's
driving
over
there
and
the
old
man
saying,
now
listen.
After
15
minutes,
if
you
ever
wanna
be
able
to
drive
this
car
again,
you
walk
into
the
house
and
you
say
there's
been
a
train
wreck
and
emergency
proctology
needs
to
be
administered
and
get
me
the
heck
away
from
this
guy
or
it'll
be
your
ass.
And
he
walked
in,
and
Bill
looks
at
him
and
watches
him
shake
for
a
minute
or
2,
and
he
says,
you
look
like
you
need
a
drink.
Would
you
like
to
go
over
here
and
have
a
little
talk?
And
that's
the
way
that
we
made
it
here.
Thank
you.
I
always
get
verklempt
at
that
story.
It's
just
wild,
isn't
it?
You
can
go
ahead
and
turn
it
on.
Do
you
have
any
questions?
Well,
we
can
break
for
drinks.
Well,
thank
you
very
much.
We'll
be
back
in
a
while.
When
are
we
gonna
be
back
to,
to
the
next
workshop?
Okay.
Okay.
We'll
talk.