Blackstone Retreat in Blackstone, VA

give us a great big Blackstone welcome for don M.

from Whitney Texas

reshaped it always always good to be asking anywhere and and good to be

good good to be sober my name is don Maloney I am an alcoholic

read through the grace of god people like you have not had a drink now says July first of nineteen seventy five and for that I'm grateful I really am and my whole group is the lake Whitney group it is the A. capital the world were humility is our primary purpose and and I need to let you know that because my sponsor Bob white who's passed on since nineteen eighty four said that if you ever have a chance to get past somewhere to go talking you're in front of a group of people in Alcoholics Anonymous you must always wear a coat and tie

you will because you said you have to clean up and looked like you're so over and saying even though you may not be he said number one and number two you must always tell them that you're from the a cap of the world and if you don't you will be struck drunk within twenty four hours

so I'm here to report it that is my home group and if your heart you don't think you have the best home group then by golly do something about it say right in there hang in there with him and changes were you do feel that way because I think that's where Alcoholics Anonymous happens for people like those that are asked to come back to a place like Blackstone is just more than my mind will allow to me even to conceive because they used to always say things to me like out instead of come on in you know and if you drank a lot got Drake and probably there's maybe where you came from two bit I want to first of all thank the committee and the trustees for having the courage not to wisdom but having the courage of asking me back again after after six or seven years or however long it's been you got to hear precious today and she did a wonderful job I'd like to give her a hand she loves

she said don't embarrass me Alan iser said that a lot though I know you know

when I read the back of your program a lot of what it says on the back your program about this being a spiritual weekend and this being a spiritual life free trade and and said that is the nature of what we're doing Hey I'm here to tell you that I believe Alcoholics Anonymous in the recovery program is spiritual period though and thank god and we do give credit to thanking god for that particular privilege but it's good to be at a retreat or at a conference were we our primary focus is on the spiritual side of the Alcoholics Anonymous in the outgoing on fellowship side of the program and and a it's an honor for me to be asked that as I was in the room earlier after dinner this evening and I was trying to think

well how do I get real spiritual you know real quick no because it won't be long I'm all have to be afraid for the people and every one of the rooms and I don't know about in the rooms over here but in the rooms they basically put in there a thing called the Bible you know and and I opened it up maybe just flopped open you know and when it flopped open it flopped open to proverbs and it describes alcohol is not listen real careful and maybe you can relate to this if you want to know I think is maybe one of the best definitions of alcoholism and I've ever heard yeah I know and I learned it tonight you know in that room here at Blackstone this comes from proverbs verse twenty three and chapter or verse eighteen and it says

show me someone who drinks too much you has to try out for a few drinks and I will show you someone miserable and sorry for himself always causing trouble and always complain

his eyes were bloodshot and he has bruises that could have been avoided

got a few of you didn't don't let wind tempt you even though it is rich red and it sparkles in the Cup and it goes down smoothly the next morning you will feel as if you have been bitten by a poisonous snake

weird science will appear before your eyes and then you will not be able to think or speak clearly

you will feel as if you were out on the ocean C. six winging it high on the rigging of a tossing ship

can have you at one

I said I must I must have been hit you will say my must have been beaten up but I don't remember it said why can't I wake up and then it says in ends I need another drink

it's in the book it's in that book

so I thought that was sort of a funny thing to me about pick up and read and just sore having hit me there but but I think that probably describes alcoholism you know and I have alcohol is and by the way I don't have alcohol wasn't I need to let you know that I am an alcoholic and will always be an alcoholic in the in the isn't part of the disease for me is the high and the self in the me and that's the self centeredness of of our particular illness and I think that's what we constantly have to stay and watch over

is the self centeredness that always can appear

my sponsor told me that my mind was like a bad neighborhood I should never go up there alone yeah

he said you better if you can't get a hold of me before you go up there you say the least ask god to come to the meeting yeah so and that's true because left to my own devices and left to my own way of thinking I can convince myself of anything you know and using that committee in my head will meet and most of them are up there in fact I happen to believe we have one of the only illnesses are the only disease that the disease is always telling you that you don't have the disease yeah so so it's always up there to get you and if you leave yourself alone too long without sponsorship without meetings without stamps and without god in your life the disease will say you don't have the disease and I think that's why the alcoholic goes back to drinking it really is not a big secret I've watched it now for twenty three years and and what happens is we get away from each other is what we do we call that missing meetings yeah

and it without fail when somebody comes back to Alcoholics Anonymous I will say to them did you quit going to meetings and they usually go yes yeah no and none of them have said oh man this last time it was great I had three weeks of Florida in late on the beach of all the girls if they don't come back with those stories they can always come back saying it absolutely was worse than it was the last time and they've quit going to meetings Sir must be a key somewhere and I was attending meetings on a regular basis and I think a sober member Alcoholics Anonymous is somebody that attends our home group on a regular basis and if I'm in the lake Whitney area on Mondays Thursdays and Saturday nights on or I'm supposed to be at eight o'clock and that's in a meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous my sponsor told me said real drunks get sober at eight so you'll be there hill

no I'm not sure whether there's a six o'clock meeting and there's a noon Maney said real gross gets overnight you know

what I found out is this when he went to meet each of his check all may make sure our stay in Seoul

and thank god for those old timers it is such a pleasure to be here and to be in the presence of so much sobriety you know and to feel like a new pup you know because it is really true I mean to see these guys standing up with thirty five years and thirty eight years in thirty three years and forty years and I think this German set down on forty eight or fifty you know and I just think that's wonderful I have the privilege of still being a junior person in my home group you know we had a and an average median our ranks somewhere in middle sobriety you know and that's pretty neat because there's a lot of groups if you got over ten years you got a lot of sobriety and you're the use you the senior person in the group

so I'm grateful to have always had and will continue to always have the old timers around me and that's neat and it's been real special this weekend to be in the presence of doctor Marley and his beautiful red rose either I want to thank you for the hospitality that you presented is with it's always a pleasure I call how the gentleman's gentleman of alcoholics in general and I think he has because one of the things that how passed on to me early in sobriety and somewhere along the line our paths crossed on West Texas early in the sobriety and and he sort of adopted me and and what I learned is that we have to have those people the gold before or as that we can still hold on to hold on to and continue to live in their legacy and then turn probably have somebody they're holding on to it I think that's where Alcoholics Anonymous is for me and he has given me that attitude of gratitude that I love so dearly and I and I learned that from how long long time ago and when all else fails sit down and figure out what you're grateful for and I'll tell people our work with it'll say well what are you grateful for what's your attitude of gratitude that say well I don't have any great gratitude today and I said well are you in jail no we're right it down I'm not in jail you know I said it will start with a negative gratitude list called what are you grateful for I'm not in jail you know I'm not locked up I'm not right this minute you know and and you go through that listen for you knowing you can add to that a gratitude list to start getting some other things that you're grateful for

because again left to our own device to lift your own thinking I believe that that we will totally be immersed in our illness one more time and that is alcohol is in the active disease of alcoholism and the way we keep interested is back continued to help each other

I also want to thank Joe Joe carried is over Petersburg the other day and and and though I don't know where we're going Joe said there's a church over there in Petersburg take some folks over would you like to read over you and Karen I should yeah I like to do that and I wanna thank you Joe because that was the spiritual trip for me it really was it was in the trip and he said well we're going to go look at some stained glass now so we're going to cause some stained glass you know and I don't know if you've been fears road but if you haven't I recommend you do that because we went to this church and we saw the stained glass and we saw a gentleman named Tiffany who you've heard of probably before and what Mr Tiffany did under contract because he he contracted for the Confederate states to put together a memorial and stained glass and and what he did is that he created the apostles and staying glass and and I've been studying the apostle lately and it was just to me was magnificent and when I left out of there I felt that there was a little difference in me somehow or another my consciousness had shifted one more time in because what I saw is the similarity and the girl that I've had in the last six to nine months of my life has been to look for the similarities in each other rather than the differences in each other not only an Alcoholics Anonymous but in all areas of my life

and I'm here to tell you when my consciousness shifted to look for the same this is instead of the differences the world became alive one more time and what I saw in the stained glass over there as I saw Alcoholics Anonymous you know if you take that beautiful portrait of Palmer portrait of Peter whatever apostle was depicted over there and you took all those little pieces of stained glass and laid him out apart from each other they would appear to be just a bunch of broken rubble

and that's sort of like we are in Alcoholics Anonymous left to our own in prior to us getting in the Alcoholics Anonymous we're just a bunch of assorted glass that appear to be broken rubble in somehow or another because of god working in our labs and sponsorship and the steps we come in here and you all sort of glued together yeah or god loses the gather or those old timers it stood up longer than you were able to stood up glue you together enough to create this beautiful masterpiece of this beautiful mosaic

call a same last please and that's what I saw when I went to Petersburg and that left an impact on me and I and I challenge you to go over there and look at that some day and maybe have that same enlightenment that came to me

the other thing that impacted me over there was that we got to stand on the grave site of thirty thousand Confederate soldiers that were buried in that cemetery

and it was awesome to be able to stand there on top of that many people that have gone because of a commitment because of a commitment they have made they were willing to die over whatever that commitment was whatever their belief system but the awesomeness of that and somebody said it may be it was Joe or maybe was the curator of the tech is on the tour but said that

fifty years they bury those people in a mass grave in you know for all of us you know we would have been dead for me I would have been dead for sure if I to continue to drink but they break those people in a mass grave and then fifty years later they dug them up again to find the lapel pins they were worried so they could put him in the proper states and now you can walk around the cemetery and see Texas and see North Carolina NC Tennessee and it just created a feeling for me that that I can't tell you what it meant to me so I want to thank you Joe for that trip you know I had no idea that was going to be a spiritual trip for me and and it end up being that way for me course I want to thank Dave in Juliet I mean we've had fun with them you know and we they met is at the airport and we stop tourists replace deed on the way up you know

the

finally ended up with one and Julie I had it right all right away we split a beer together you know action actually was a repair but wish I said event Goldring's repair frosted mug she can't be all bad yeah and we had fun get to know Julie and that's been a real pleasant part of our journey this trip are they tell me they're not supposed to share with you my experience my strength and my hope

I don't try to do that in a sort of brief way in and maybe cover some ground at night so maybe that you can identify with something that I might say if you're new here I ask that you stay here you got nowhere else to go I've tried it you know I can just tell you that when you're here you might as well stay here you don't get here by actually model just hang in there with his don't be like me for the first couple years in Alcoholics Anonymous I would bounce in and out Alcoholics Anonymous and not getting any sobriety I used to get what I call ninety days I was a ninety day wonder every ninety days I'd wonder what I was doing today you know and

and and I would take a drink you know now I didn't get a chip on it inside a birthday card and I didn't get a sponsor I didn't work the steps and I sure didn't do what you people do it because that was not abnormal behavior for me because I never did do it the way it was supposed to be done so for me to come in today and do it your way right off was nothing that I could do but I'm telling you if your news here you never have to go back out there again and if whatever you have lost to get here and that could be a wife a job of family your health and that story goes on and on from this point on from this point on tonight you're no longer operate now to ignorance there's another way to live and everything can be added to you from this point on instead of taken away from you and if you got here like I got here seem like everything was taken away from me everything was gone it just you know this was usually not our first stop on Black Hawk Elise who was in for made in Alcoholics Anonymous so stay here with his

I remember a bassoon Alcoholics Anonymous and this man met me at the door he said kid and I was a kid then you know and he said I didn't like you call me kid you know and he said clearly said you'd better stay here with this

I'm not sure why he said well you look like a pretty smart young man I said I am

he said your best thinking got you here tonight did it

he said you better stay here with us and I said the famous words alcoholic always says why why

any says I'm gonna tell you why he said this is where the magic is then he turned around walked all and I'll never forget that man my life because he's right what we have here in Alcoholics Anonymous is magic it just happens and we have can't be understood and it can't be figured out and you will never be able to analyze this in detail it down to where you can grasp it and thank god my sponsor said if I ever understood alcohol is my would probably try to franchise it or sell it you know and and he's right he's right so people like me could be dangerous you know and so what we do is this is a disease is what it is and I happen to believe it's an illness but the reality is is that we will never fully understand how Alcoholics Anonymous works because it is a spiritual programs and for us to understand how it works we would have to have the same understanding that god has in in that big book it says deep down every man woman and child there is the deep reality of god and I believe that for us I really do

and if you don't have a gun in your understanding I will be glad to lend you mine

I have a strong faith in my god today and I lend them out a lot yeah and so if you need one I'll let you have mine for awhile don't hurt him please I need him on occasions you know but I will tell you that that is the system that I think hoses together as far as Alcoholics Anonymous is concerned

I've been a similar program for about two years before before I finally heard an old timers say

Calgary he said I think I've got your problem figured out now should you do we had on that was sort of amazing that somebody could figure out my problem you know and I thought well I sure don't know what it what is my problem he said I don't think he said I don't believe you're having a problem with drinking well that was strange you know and I caught me off guard I said what do you think he said well he said we lost you for a couple years now and he says we think that you've got good and drunk down as well as anybody we've ever seen

we are absolutely without a doubt did you can I think you know and get drunk and get in trouble and do what this other book said let that forces think jump rope burn brightly you know

he said I don't know what your problem is what is my problem

he said you're having trouble with sobriety

you said you're having trouble with sobriety

slash huh

he said I'll bet you can't stand behind so I bet you hate those sober periods in between drugs and you know he was right for the first time that man read my mail he was right I hated to be sober I couldn't stay in B. and so you know broke is what I like best you know because that was the problem I didn't have to feel and I didn't have to worry about and if you don't I thought I'd write you right so you could get to that place it only last briefly trying to chase it but that was what I drink for I drink to get away I drank to leave drink too not things can I drink so I didn't have to be sober

and didn't know what it was called and they'll listen this call alcohol ism non alcohol was from and when that that became clear to me I'll walk to a sort of mystified and he said when you come to this meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous and sit in the chair he said why don't you spend your time trying to identify with these people instead of the state of trying to not identify with these people

and I said oh

he said the and so I went to meetings of Alcoholics Anonymous then to be able to listen and if you said I've been in prison for towns and I hadn't been to prison four times I no longer have to log that in my computer bag that says I'm not like them I'm not like them I'm not like them I'm not like them because we will develop a terminal uniqueness otherwise they will absolutely kill is without a doubt you know it is called the disease of alcoholism so if you're new here or if you're only here and I and I happen to believe that we need to twelve step the old timer as well as the new person an Alcoholics Anonymous because you're fortunate to have this much sobriety be able to stand up at this retreat I'm here to tell you that because the old timer needs to feel a part of two you know and we've been there done that and they've been there done that more and I am so if you're new you should hang on to that old timer because that's where your legacy is going to come from

so I just first of all got a sort of an inkling of maybe this thing wasn't such a bad deal may be Alcoholics Anonymous might work for me if I give it a chance to work for me yeah

I did my first drink when I was fourteen years of age I did took an earlier somebody would have asked me no nobody had asked me to take a break prior to fourteen in the in these eighteen year old boys

I said you got a money on yeah yeah they say can you get twenty Bucks to get arrested you mentioned the ship will pick you up on Friday bringing your twenty dollars us there are you know they come back pick mail is what we all do she will drive around drag cars and pick up some women us okay you know I've been waiting for that for a long time at least two years you know

and they showed up in my hand but twenty dollars not ready and we went out in the gas you give me a twenty dollars make him twenty dollars and we pulled up this liquor store in some little round one inner bark some blues and came out and gave a Jersey took a bottom and each one of us have panel whiskey and it was Kroll whiskey in America that black nasty looking curl on that model I see somebody on your own

you can always tell the are going to go down undergo what's old crow you know

in a symbolic around in the car and they gave me one they gave me a bottle of coke and that was back when Koepka shot me a drink yeah no I didn't put it up your nose you know and and and I sit there with my coke in my own

and they sort of looked at me you know and they continue just look at me and they said you know what to do don't you

in this a lot I've done this I've done this many times matter of fact you know you see because you always have to you can't ever let them know that you don't know you know and that's the trouble most alcoholics have is we carry that through our adulthood we always Fakin it yeah no I mean we're professional interviews we get any job we don't know how to do it alone but we can get him no

I had a baby a sponsor but I live in a warm hand he was a telephone manning when I'm down to jobs tile setter us you can't do that has not been arsenal your fears he said I needed a job he said they needed tile setters so about a week later he felt banister Ron you got to go telling people you can't set time so he went into the boss he says I need a day almost over member of Alcoholics Anonymous last post to be honest all my affairs and I can't set town boss looked and **** we know

now if your call we can you know before they know you'll quit just before they call you in to get rid of you

they've been firing my life but I've quit a hundred and four job

just before the ax comes falling down so the boys pick me up and we went out that night and they said you know if you hold your nose and break it down real fast and chase you with a coke it won't burn

I know that you know and they waited so I held my nose and I choked down part of that old crow whiskey and god it was awful this taste of ever had my mouth not spit in this field and you know it it was bad you know I I thought I don't know if this is worth it or not yeah no I mean you hear some speakers talk about whole we just set off bells and they warmed up and they could be a man amongst men and they were eight foot tall man I thought was terrible it was you know and then I will tell you that I drink at pine whiskey in twenty eight minutes I don't recommend that for your first drink by the way

I was pretty sick puppy within a short amount of time you know and then I learned if they tried to sober me up and they said you got a more money in between me throwing up and I said sure and they should give me five hours we'll get you some coffee

and they went and bought me flowers were the black coffee and I will tell you in nineteen fifty six or whatever was that buys a whole lot of coffee you know

and they would pour Cup downpour cook from elitist head at the oval on

they finally took me home stood me between the screen door in the door and lane man and rang the bell and left

the my mother did come the door I fell right in the living room floor and my mother said

you know mothers like it they'll love alcoholic Bowers till we die they really just do

you just know when our wars are going home to mama you know they're on their way home to mom to get rated you know as far as

there may be a girls gone Danny I don't know

but she said I was yelling food boards and on the way down

the Monday incident so please drop

in the home and down the hall and threw me on the bed to read to Sharm we cling me up took twenty dollars out of my Wallace's son I don't mind you coming home grown but it's gonna cost you twenty Bucks of democratically via

there you go I've learned during my command you know

three weeks later

when I was finally on grounded

also in mobile is again they said Hey where are you man US open hang out another into town

chasing girls

how would you like to go with it again Freddie you got twenty dollars US said yeah I said but I got a problem an issue what's an asset I think I'm allergic to that old crow whiskey initiative you ever tried haven hill not should know all this **** it's smooth

so I went out with him again I made a conscious decision that night I had a moment of clarity number one I will never break old crow whiskey is longer

number two I will never drink coffee no because if coffee made USA because it did me you would never drink coffee and to this day I've never drank old crow whiskey and I drank stuff you can't even drink later on you know and I have never drank coffee ever since and because it left in my mind that that imprint is to god coffee will make you sick you know I have no clue how your consumers much coffees you do you just haven't had my experience I mean that's all there is to

well I like to tell you that was the only time I ever got real drunk and I just got lonely came day but that wouldn't be true

and so I went about my wife of improving my story long before even no one needed a story you know and and that's where alcohol is my having to believe it's a progressive illness you know and I drank my way up the ladder of success for a long period of years you know we have a tendency to do that when they still say he's a bright young brilliant young man and he he's one of the best man we've got our our sales team at and god were proud of him and and then they would start saying things but he drinks a little too much or he gets drunk at the wrong time or would you believe how much you drank the other night why does he get drunk like he does you know in that story and is this story gets worse your income starts getting less you know they start to have a relationship out there because after a while you can drink your way up the ladder only so long and you start falling down the other side yeah and it became a roller coaster for me was a series of ups and downs careers wise it kept getting lower and lower on the curve as my alcoholism could get more dominant in my life you know

to the eventual point where I just decided that all I really want to do is during

that's really what my goal was my goal was to hang in there and stay dry yeah and I could care less

couple things happened to me during my active alcoholism and I'm here to tell you that if you're alcoholic and you leave this room to go take a drink it'll be worse than the severance and absolutely worse than it's ever been in your life you know because it is a progressive disease consult my hand when the masses you mean I could go to a

zero then you go back and bring stuff will happen to you you can't believe what happened I mean I started going to jail on a regular basis you know on that one is thing on my list I started carrying guns hello I was paranoid carrying guns I'm fine I went to an old friend of mine I got in a fight with no more one time at the Country Club head do some with his wife I never could get all the details down and and

and I beat him up in the parking lot because he was trying to beat me up and I and I and I thought well you know but I really was losing because I was bloody too and we sort of kept score on who was the bloodiest knew that the most broken bones you know S. or how they are going thinks they win you know

Hey I support medium open gas don't worry about it said he'll kill you city killed worn Henderson really should not too long ago about four five years ago went penitentiary for three years it was self defense but they still sent away for three years you should help him shoot you want in days that's what he does shoot people

what is frightening for an alcoholic

I mean that guy's gonna shoot me you know so when you get that new information in your head that you're drinkin and you start getting paranoid he starts leaving out bad trees that aren't there and doing that sort of stuff so I decide I need me a pistol so I called a friend of mine who is a Dallas policeman asset I need me a gun he said what Forrest I said kill somebody he sure would be going there for us because you go kill me he's a

he said I'll get you a personal question okay

we drank on ninety hammy my pistol not sure what is it he said it's a three eighty automatic with a hair trigger on initiatives got nine clips the nine clip chamber in it he says he said in a flat kill us or our rights yeah

soon I could round you know and and I put the clip over my visor and I put the gun between the seats and I'll grab a bagel pink blanket it was about eight foot long on the front hood you know who it is step way out there and look like a paint running down the road

just remember that buzzer Graham that clip thrown that done and get it ready to go in and I practice getting the sun behind we sort of blinding him you know and I mean

you go to practice the whole deal you know how we all

god told me says he said Maloney said is about four or five months later they added the club drunken Gandhi samadhi at awards back in town I said

he said

Sydney asked about U. S. our whole mark

some ran down the road one day and I thought I think on a bold for the good number to get me some votes for that gun I mean I've been practicing all this time but I'm bullish

so I wouldn't give his store up in Tyler Texas and I walked in there and I said I need votes from a gun in the gas what kind of gun you got masters look very good you know

he said now it's important we know what kind of gun it is to put both Watson I said oh I said I'll be right back I went out to my pet mobile and got my gun in there and handed it over to god this morning good I should fill it up

he's just me all kinds of questions

he sure will kind of show do you won't I said I don't want to fit the bill

he said well we've got let headed your only the hollow point jails and we got you know and he started going through the whole litany on different shell I don't know nothing about guns hello never had a gun Amala

I said I want the most expensive but what you got

he surely will use it for us if I stood eight people up in a row and shot the first guy want aids that rob did

he said and then he started getting excited

he's got some stainless steel jacketed hollow

just came in here I don't have a clue as to why we got him he said I got a whole box of

please I said how much are they said a dollar fifty a ball what I said I'll take the whole box

and I had silver bullets no man about us and now I got a gun boats and I'm all morning

well I'm right down the road one night you know and I got to thinking again you know and then the thought called

I hate this clip in broad pretty good it was time I myself had it down pretty good but I got to think anyone thought was one of the five fired his gun in the work order for the for her ill on at least practice you know a little bit make sure they're able to shoot no Giambrone down at when I'm grown that big Lincoln in

**** a gun put that clip in there

held it here and rhyme with my left hand here and

and I find it a win

it is the winner

for the show to them

is

you can get hurt this does

and I will tell you when you shoot a gun off inside a car

it makes no

no

I took the clip but god put it back over the visor in a sweat but from my left side to put it back between the bucket seats and as I went across you all forgot to tell me that when you put a bullet in an automatic there's always one in the chamber and generate anymore moments you know it is not too good because my left leg my finger hit the here triggering that went all

he shot a hole right through Malaysia

I went to the top of the lake bottom all they went through the seat of the car went through the floorboard of the car

I think it may have killed some although one channel

through the window

me

however with the owners go no news no not

it's going to slowly poured on

if you was married to her you to kill yourself to

and those kids from that job you know and I thought I don't really want them to think this is suicide not threatened suicide several times I mean I wouldn't serious charges do not get attention and I thought were my going to

and I thought I better do some quick come down at the

so I thought well I'll leave a note telling me as an accident

well I didn't have a pen and paper with me in

so I thought well honestly even blood and I have plenty of that phone so I did my finger in the hole and I was right on the window

this is not a suicide

and I just fell dead you know and

a past good idea went into shock and I woke up and I still you know head blood everywhere I mean you know and I went on home and threw myself on the hood of the car and yelled I've been shot

zero

never had an army never hit a ball just went right through that link you know

wow when I traded Carl fatal car dealership Maloney

he said I'm a link in your vote for me I said waiter tan Johnny he said if I ever did I ever ask you when you come in your name benders rolled bumped up I said no said iris yet time you come in you had back tail light shot out of it now has a virus can a question about your cars when you trade him and I said no he said I got to ask you how do you go to blow a hole in the CD your call

I said I don't know John

can't Taylor by you run around shoot yourself you do that at the Baptist church they look weird at you

one other story for us over a

I've been out Alcoholics Anonymous my father who's passed on now passed on eighty six used to drink with me

and we did wrong once a week about how he could stand you know but but we drink about once a week and and I was in the apparel business at the time that the pearl Martin Dallas and I was high rolling as usual and that

we left tomorrow and then we went over to one of the better places to drink it was called the Blue Note lamb sure you can tell by the name that it was elegant you don't land

we're we're near drinking elegant brings we were drinking fish bowls of beer and shots of whiskey submerged in the fish bowl in the column depth charges you go in the object is to mix at whiskey with that beer without that shot glass hit you in the nose you know