The 47th Annual Florida State Convention in Naples, FL

my name is planned G. insulin and I'm an alcoholic

and we're glad to be here at the young man who read the traditions where to go

as far as I'm concerned you can read the long form because we need to hear a multi

in my home group to Pacific group Russia's we read them the long forms the second Wednesday of every month there's a thousand people there they need to hear whether glad to hear them

at I was a little surprised as he got into it

I certainly will read them but not it may be some other meetings

I'm very glad to be here I'm glad to be back in Naples haven't been been Naples

maple seven coming to Naples at the last week of October for every year for the last since nineteen seventy staying in bill's case housed on Gulf drive and with a bunch of guys around the country who are known as the knights of humility

because of their arrogance

there's only one humble night and I'm too humble to tell you that is

but I really love name so why should grow unfortunately but it was a celebrity soon I'm glad to be back here glad to be at this convention or thank Joe on the committee for inviting me my first I first talk to the Florida state a convention I guess and thirty years ago over in Miami and I remember how much I enjoyed that and I and joy being here and this is really I've I've really kind of utilities is spent so much good entertainment you kind of feel like you hate to spoil it by having a talk in the middle of a general

they moved maybe and get these honeys out you're like coming there

I wish one would collapse in my arms

they did a wonderful job though

an idea last night I mean you know today we got the star studded stuff in my study of the medieval stuff and I was watching Joe March around would dress to king Henry the eighth and and Tom or was it some kind of a night

in some gone of some sort and I

and I noticed Joe kept his costume on a timer took his off by the end of the evening

I said why is that Tom Herman what's what's wrong why are you changing music on CD project once a king always a king but once a night is enough

I really enjoyed the commission joined the meeting so going to meetings I enjoyed last night Brian for many times I was like to hear me talk I certainly enjoyed gains presentation instigate G. on the

on the singleness of purpose which again is something we need to hear and unfortunately most people need to hear it don't go to the meeting that's that's a trouble those kind of meetings you singleness of purpose hello aren't going there and and really you really find out front what aid is about those kind of meetings she does remarkably good job number those of us that were there enjoyed it very much and I of course her Alan on speaker this afternoon who's a

one of my

you'll have to say about that

one of my very favorite she's the only on on speaker I know that I refer I recommend people go in here and

I mean I don't go myself but I recommend a lot of people

get a very excellent talk nice nice girl and a

it's been a good all the small management goes for just a good

find a moment of a history

I was killed in a crash on these people and outside there can you people back understand me at all

I have been able to understand anybody

the secret

hi

summation there and we have some new people some of our reading here's a surprising to see that

and it's hard to remember that you look around the room as well well the hotel today thinking I'd like to find some new coaches look at all these people already so well all casual and try to imagine everyone of them sick and the man on shaving in the women's smelling bad after drinking and drunk and sick I think everyone here has been like that and what a miracle it is for us to be here and so hard to remember this so easy to take this for granted because no that's that's the bad thing about eight talks you know how they're going to turn out

sooner or later no matter how sad I make this story

here I'm going to say and then

I put the plug in the jug

it's just been wonderful objection

Hey would be a lot more realistic at the group level food have speakers are resolves it and then it turned out god dammit I just couldn't make it

more closely to watch this is gonna be one who makes it or not you know

because that's the way it is in the in the groups

are you a

I think it's a funny thing we we talk a lot about eighty and how easy it is and it is so easy as a man really nothing to it and that's why this is so strange that so many people slip and have such a hard time with that I was in and out of a year after year after year after year and I don't like pain and I hate being treated like in for I hate to go back to those meetings is it well that jerk is back again I hate these things I don't like pain and yet I keep slipping and I never it just seems as though I was one of the ones god shows us was the main reason was because I felt like I was a bad man in the center and I'd hear people say well I'm sorry to god's grace and when they say that I don't I'm going to stay sober because I'm not going to get god's grace god's grace goes to good people just go to bad people and I I sometimes can stay sober day till we got talking about returning to god and that was the beginning of the end I just I can't do that

they only have one

also one probably the holy centers I had I never could identify you know the the new people here tonight you're saying you don't alcohol is a first alcoholics purchase problems alcohol and you come to eighty eight and had major problems alcohol then you return to god and then after you get new life you show your gratitude by helping others and I can't do any of those things because my problem really isn't alcohol and I can't return to god because of god exists I am damned there's no way around that and there's no way I'm going to stay around here

you don't many years ago nineteen nineteen fifties by the gradual to ensure the grapevine

Dr silk with two of the bravest man eight history not able to duck bill Wilson Dr

wrote an article for the grapevine discussing slips he's I don't know why alcoholics make such a big fuss about slips is that there's some sort of supernatural thing god coming down to punish bad people he said we see this in medicine all the time he said we have someone who has a severe heart attack and we we pulled him through the heart attack and we get on their feet again and we give them a regime to follow a regime of you must get your rest and you must watch what you eat and you guys check certain exercises and you take these medications at this table fine but after awhile it gets boring

and they start making little alterations and pretty soon well I don't need all that restrict me after all this time and I don't you know I could have been a little thing to eat and little by little and they don't ever go over here they just go off a little bit but they keep going off a little bit and one day there over here and they have another heart attack and sometimes die just same thing with diabetics receipt all the time diabetics with the weather feed together we covered can't have sugar must take your insulin take this diet get your rest and they do just wonderfully the left one is so boring

and I can't believe a little sugar thing would hurt me and I don't really need all I'll get more rest next week just you know and on and on what either read on the go that's all that happens alcoholics drug use I don't need all this stuff and little by then you're over there and you're gone you should not make a big deal out of it is just human nature

and it really I can understand that so welcome looking back in retrospect

I I grew up but I was raised in a very strict religious family up in northern Wisconsin Norwegian Lutheran

you don't see many Norwegian restaurants in Florida or anywhere else

a few years ago speaking an op you know Oslo and after the meeting that took me up to north of there too

racial group run stolen or my grandfather had come from the eighteen eighties a whole bunch of game in America my grandfather's brothers and all kinds of people came to America in a big mob to get out of that damn climate

and they all settled in Wisconsin and Minnesota

and spend the rest of your life thing yes this is cold here too

when I go in there they brought to the Norwegian Lutheran church with him I thought this California when I went to Norway the church the Norwegian with intrusion or was much more liberal than this Wisconsin because they had needed what should liberalize the kept up the way they remembered it eighteen eighty five as much as they could and you know you just have to it is a good idea ten commandments you try to observe the ten commandments you you don't see him and you stay away from Catholics

it seems reasonable

and when I I was the bad you know you seem to need more fun than other newsrooms in the pajamas eight or nine and broken couple committed a second lease it forgot to honor my mother my father my couple did my neighbor something on it and little by the time I was twelve and then some more people think whatever's fifteen I knew that I would stand and I didn't want to be but I just I just can't do it

and would save me is that the war started I ran away to the war

and I browse had this secret knowledge I'm really going to go to hell you know usually when you grow up you get over that reply Hitler said you give me their minds under twelve and they'll be a little bit of **** went by the winter ninety five and so I

are you one day I was having trouble in school I was having some trouble with life and and a small and skinny other people but your pimples and I

the war started I thought I'm going to the chapel I'll go toward I'm going to kill ****

and I in the side of my mother gave me I was going to order one of the superior Wisconsin visit my aunt she packed my little bag and gave me bus fare and I checked out and he tried to San Francisco had no idea where the hell is going on one ride all the way or I would never would have made it I told this guy I wanna I wanna be in there

really bring Cargill chaps you know small this character to be in the navy going back to the ship he said you're looking at the Rinker realty you might get the merger minority Cryin for men they really need every little breed they'll take

message me show me how to go to go to the Coast Guard office I went there sanctions killed zero three sixteen I lied my age she said you're only sixteen a have to have your parents permission try to run the block that my parents permission

and they gave me Siemens papers right there and got to be the national maritime union I signed a waiver for my dues whatever they were I got to me than Embarcadero put me on a big ship an hour later is about where the South Pacific

and it really was fun for about forty five minutes

you know these tough guys and I was stuck in a room I was they called it a cabinet was cabins have blogs this was a room with three of the worst type of people in any small skinny pimply faced dumb kid can be with these guys are called man

what was to be here

and I lay in my book these are these guys start talking and I never heard talk like that I was in the room with big time Sanders I thought I'd been listening these were big time center said they'd been doing dirty things with girls in that chances for for days apparently I

I mean I'd had section Claire Wisconsin at fifteen but I've been apprehensive but I've been afraid that been alone

these guys were doing people

in a study of four of course they've all got black here those are the Catholics have heard about

three hundred mission

I found a mission that ship by beginning ship fool you know after awhile I can't go up there not only left handed ranch

I can't love to keep British telecom we need to elbow grease

these guys all had whiskey in there but she makes me drink every night and drink when they get off watching it just to Palm Beach had never seen anything like that

and they drank and cursed and talk dirty and I just felt so bad

and one day this guy turned to me how much he'll join here you think you're Manafort all she's not

we shop the bottle in my face and I was dumb but I was basically a Norwegian author despite being a bad one

and I just was

developing a something to tell about just demolish

you big

badman get the bottle out of my face I have to be a Norwegian look through we don't drink whiskey and if we did I promised my mother grandmother we have not going to be quick and don't you ever do that again I may be small but I got some I guess some honesty

has your telemedicine what you're man enough I heard a voice say god damn right

I had my first drink of the respondents close to that I threw up and they laughed at me

in all the way across the central Pacific when nobody's again speaking that K. C. back sooner or later another one to take a drink I vomited that went up to the didn't know I was so desperate want those guys to think I was a man I could hold a drink down I never could we're coming into Pearl Harbor finally I saw that movie Pearl Harbor last year due to the terrible love story but it really had dated recreated that's where Pearl Harbor looks to be getting a World War two

and I was it was up to look at another ticket and drink the SLOC one more time in the day before my sixteenth birthday it stayed down

and I couldn't breathe

and all of a sudden something strange happened I found myself feeling significantly better

right I realize why people drink I did to in your teams you learn things you don't pay much attention to it when the ship smoke nobody my family small visual I spoke to Putin smoked infused

what do I spoke to didn't puke wrestled to a half or three packs a day every day for the next forty seven years I learned of course a little bit on that ship I learned to techniques for lost

not a member work but I had at least started

and I would be a terrible I'll call it the next day they took me to Honolulu bought before bugs appeared I got drunk they left I left a funny little

I want another ship to the motion islands after that and I look back and I I really like to do I tried to learn to drink from then on to drink they would think it would make me sick because what I found out as a teenager that drinking give me a good feeling I don't know what it was I guess in retrospect I think what it was was so significant I believe I would describe it as that was the first time I ever felt the way men looked

and it's just remarkable three holes in me were filled up

and many years later standing on Skid Row in Los Angeles

my teeth picked out and everything I had gone after being somewhat successful don't ask me why I drank alcohol I could give all surgeries based on my psychoanalysis I'd spend thousands of dollars in psychoanalysis I read books I read German philosophy did lot of things and I can give you reasons why of the conflicts in inter conference in my being but looking back the one answer I wouldn't have given because it would be understood it was the correct answer the correct answer was I had my last drink because it made me feel the way men look that's about the only thing I can describe

I remember the last day I drank so many years later

two big guys threw me out of a skid row mission I land outside the sidewalk

and I stood there in the rain and cold rainy morning sick and desperate

terrible feeling I don't know what the feeling was I know what it is now because I've seen it in others I'm sure there are people in this room of had a feeling there is no friendly direction you have no more friendly there's no place to withdraw to to go back to to say I'm sorry you are on your own you better make it

if someone guy would company that morning and said you know slam you're dying you're down to a hundred and twenty seven pounds she lost your wife and children or see them again

you lost your career once upon a time they called you a boy genius now you can get a job washing dishes

you've lost your all your clothes in that great car you're driving for someone that you lost in Phoenix new at the jail in Phoenix that for the guy kicked her front teeth out centers tend your with your blood dripping down your mouth and you're sick and bloated and got no closer your clothes are torn and covered with vomit

your little mother up in Wisconsin she no longer allowed to accept phone calls from you because your stepfather so tired of watching you call her and manipulators so should go to a little tiny bank account and send a few more dollars and try to help a little boy

now you're dying on the street or even go to a often on for almost ten years now and you sit in these meetings smugly even now and think these idiots in their little problems what what would what did you go back to a one more time and admit you're an alcoholic and do something about it

and if some guy had said that to me and if I'm in a mood to be honest which I probably would not have been how to handle pal

you don't understand I'm not really an alcoholic

we might as well prove you're not an alcoholic I would be able to do that

it would have been able to stand back and delineate the differences so I probably would have done what people like me do when we get cornered and were afraid I take refuge behind bluster

and I say things like object out of my face you son of a **** let me

because I'm afraid I don't know what free

I can look back now and to

really understand a little bit more about that situation I mean I knew I had problems I've had no problems I was a little boy there's I've always had the feeling I guess in red I don't know what the feeling was that I would look at it later in life

I've always had the feeling there's something missing in me and I don't know what it is and nobody tells me but I know when I get close to people they act as though there's something missing in me because they don't seem to accept me the way the except other people and I don't seem to fit into places like I want to fit in to let other people seem to fit into and I feel different I feel lonely sometimes I get the middle crowds we should feel lonely I feel less than sometimes I feel superior summers but I don't feel equal to anybody I feel not a part of things and not all of these things aren't there all the time but the common goal like bubbles in a pot and I

I really hate that either right grow up a lot growing

but I didn't I did not grow to yeah I had I had some victories along the way you know I've had victories on which was fine but today

but the victory still never seem to last just they just seem to last a day and then now what you can do to prove yourself always got to prove myself I was going to prove something I don't want to work for what about

and I when I get older I

became somewhat successful as a writer

and I got it right said to money and wonders of the what I got to psychoanalysis

and I really I really got to like psychoanalysis I spent thousands of dollars in psychoanalysis and I don't know why I liked it because only ever hear in psychoanalysis new news and how you've been hurt in ways you don't remember yeah but I yeah I really liked it I use one of the things Jesus it's a sad story but I'm doing pretty well

and I never understood why psychoanalysis

people like me I don't know ten years later several quite a while a few years ago a guy that I sponsors telling me how much help you shooting by going to adult children of alcoholics not tia Allen on version of the other version

he said you wanna go to couple business ensure love to go

and I sat there and I watched this action going on and I suddenly realized that's what psychoanalysis did for me it really helped me

of all the emotions I know probably the worst one is deep seated guilt continual perpetual go you don't know is recognized but there's always that ball in your stomach and not only guilty of the things you've done but kill to the things you should have done and didn't do it is to lay down if you go through life it seems to me if you want to feel like this is always like this just always off somehow

and what do you think I don't know of any way to get rid of guilt drinking gets rid of it temporarily get rid of that scale at least

what what do you think with therapy yes really guilt

and that's what psychoanalysis did for me whether intended to work that way or not I don't know and I don't know whether the adult children of alcoholics and I'm supposed to work this way but it worked this way for me

it just boils down to this

it works on the principle

that the

patient is and has always been a victim

you haven't heard a great deal it's not your fault you may not receive the love you needed could not receive the nurturing the friendly hands that should have been there and on and on as you get that little by little you come to realize yes I was hurt a lot and little by little you come to realize it really wasn't my fault

I've been made this way by forces beyond my control

and little by little guilt slowly dissipates

and is great although I did I never thought of guilt dissipating I just started feeling better but looking back I can see that's what it does deal disappears

there's a great relief that hadn't hadn't come for years he said what's wrong with that that's a great thing and maybe it is for most people but you know you'll discover anything did you find good in this world there's always a little price tag for a little little tag attached to it and there are three little price tags for victimization that to you don't see the time but you can seem in retrospect clearly one whether you intend to or not you must accept and enhance Billings the resentment resentment toward the people of her chin resentment towards the people of failed you you go to those meetings where there's no laughter in those meetings they are intense meetings of people talking about how they've been hurt

and the second will price tag you praise you must accept the fact that you have been made irrevocably different

that you're you know you're different you're gonna stay different I didn't really understand what you're heard one of their groups talk one time he said

we're like trees or river sapling someone reach within us and pulled out our hearts we continue to grow physically we look like all other trees but we have no heart we have no soul because been taken from us

and of course the third of the price that you pay which is obvious if you're like me

intermittent but intense self pity

I could have been something by god you know I think you have seen on the waterfront word Marlon Brando's edges ready I coulda been a contender Jimmie few to taking care of me hi

and it will show that the inconvenience of to get rid of guilt maybe they're all right and maybe they are for most people

after I was here a while sober and begin to understand that and reading this book and started understanding I ran across something funny in this book

this book list the three most lethal emotions for people like me

resentment self pity and feelings of difference

and where they're so meaningful because they will justify every drink I take to lie die from it and it will never have been my fault

and you don't understand

those are the words of people who drink till they die

but I read philosophy I did love the I've got to do German philosophy which is just impossible to understand just backwards upside down and when you're reading it by yourself you go huh

people are looking you say how true

I did a lot of things but nothing in my life ever help me as much as a few drinks I didn't have any understands it that was not a natural effect I just have a few drinks help me with anything and I love drinking drinking makes me feel great he gets rid of that scale really makes me feel like I'm something

and what's wrong with that I just have one problem with it I have an unfortunate tendency to over drinks sometimes

because I prefer to believe I have many times been thoughtlessly over served

and then I ask bizarrely

the psychiatrist told me once you act is only because you repressed as a child but then are we going to church and you're not just breaking fourth

I told our new arresting policemen that one night he didn't even care

hi I go to jail it's no big deal I just bring a drug act badly so I was sent to my first day meeting

I wasn't center someone suggested that some of the town drunk seem to be slowing down the growth maybe out of other children doing

how do my first drink in meeting in nineteen forty nine that's a long time ago

now do you little snot turn even born

we love you

and I don't know what I expected to find but I but I found wasn't anything to help me and seem to be a bunch of Edel guys sit round a table

but the pride in the job

but I just want to make a new year's yeah you figured I'll call it twenty two I said no I don't think I'm an alcoholic

what you're doing here I try to be honest as I think I'm too sensitive

I never told anybody else that for a long time

if you're working with the newcomer he says he's too sensitive issues you might try not to laugh because you maybe try to be honest for the first time a long time but I wanted me for awhile I think the final meeting I wanted really got me the guys in

I stayed drunk around the clock for twenty years one day I walked in that door

tell me to put the plug in the jug and I did

and I just never been so god damn happy

but I would love for Fairbanks Morse the nearby city drive judge Berman I got drinking a little too much and I went to a in the same old crap just different faces and what a good that's what Hey it's a nice place except for one thing my problem is not alcohol

I have some of the feelings they have been on my brother's alcohol I can't stop drinking anytime and have done it time after time my problem is once I stop sometimes a couple days later some of the weeks later somebody sneaks into my bedroom and middle of the night and puts an invisible spring in my gut and the next morning when I get up they start to tighten it

and then you start the restlessness

and the irritability and the

resentment of being treated like a child by people who are depending on me

and little by little I get will cross it and try to do things but I know they won't be able to cut that feeling is two or three drinks

and I pulled off a long as I can and eventually I take a drink but I don't take a drink because I'm a drinker I know how to explain that to people I drink because I have these feelings

then sometimes later I drink too much again Michelle your problems drinking you want to go to a a you'll be alright the FCG thanks for the advice which is run a shriek but you don't understand

does anybody understand our problem is not that bad there's something wrong inside of me but the one thing you don't want to talk about it much because I don't want to as our books is no rush to look very different from their fellows I guess

and so I drank and stayed sober and want to be psychoanalysis and read books and had jobs and good jobs went down another good job and went down I would down in Dallas I was the last time I was working for Tracy locked in are just advertising into the south and I was hoping right these LCD already through the board company

down I went and hid in a matter of just a few days I guess they've been setting up for some time been notified my wife she left they repossessed my car I was the victim of my house Justin we got Frank I work in the US Senate street corner nothing negative G. car to drive to Los Angeles to get out of there I got as far as Phoenix and got drunk and lost the card at the jail get my teeth out lost everything I had

one of the a club and how some some already for twenty dollars Tularosa newcomer and for twelve supposed to get them to Los Angeles and here I'm being thrown out of a skid row mission

that's standing here you troublemaker address right so I'm not a troublemaker three years ago I was on the faculty of the university of Texas

ads that I wrote are running this weekend in life and time in the New York region the post I had my picture in The New York Times for one of my treatments

but it's hard to explain these things in mid air

Mr send the damn old mission in the cold rain that'll guy did come up and talk to me but I I couldn't talk to anybody get out of the rain and I'm sick

right after you join a club and pretend to be a new cover initial stops raining

and if I were in a critical borders seventy two blocks away and I walked and walked and walked in the rain and I walked and walked and sick my mother reading like drenched in Warren New York asking them how they could possibly walk that far when you're so sick and desperate and course the number of people in the room with the answer that

that's the only time you can

you would not ever do that if you had any alternative and I got to this club with the same old crap in the stampede turned over to god and matured all calls and sickening smirks in just

and I lived there all day long at a meeting that night about four pounds a cake that I can eat with my gums yeah

at a meeting on gratitude almost puked up gonna just

then they all went home right no place to sleep is raining I said the magic of a plan to put on my new cover look

I'm a newcomer

no rushed everything have no place to stay can you help me

the Maybelline look

so you're lucky kid cutting Joe Quinn listen forty nine mark in the parking lot last summer so tall grass and you can sleep in apps

if you want me to sleep in abandoned car yeah good deal

thank you very much

I still remember sleeping that gamble card the dead cold and sick of my mouth bleeding

yeah I thought I can't believe this and that's why we're in the club on a Sunday morning it's working if you had a spiritual meeting about god or Jesus or somebody didn't want to hear about who is on my table and looked all after that that there's another meeting and I went to that needs more cake in this in this crap and semi abandoned car kept reading to get the next morning

we're thinking maybe I'm dead maybe I'm

maybe this is what hell really is it is

it is in fire and brimstone just cold and rain and your mouth hurts and every day someone talks to you but eighty eight

for eternity

and I had no idea then there after the beep my sobriety it didn't want to be I got sober a lot of times for good reasons I never wanted anyone to be so that puts a persisting so you know you think if you're a lot of people think like I used to think if you really want to stop drinking bad enough you will and and maybe some people do not people of are attacked apparently I

I was in jail one night overnight just overnight

I was in jail overnight a lot because I I have a tendency to drink to counsel police officers

you think you learn after awhile but I was there's a new officer that needs help

and if I get the morning again made me into you see Jesus and how much I I know I am sorry it's going to be better I just had a bad please well you are drunk essential son died we couldn't find you anywhere and that's just about killed me sent a bunch of girls and one little boy and I could not stand it I could not stop I felt such an wave of terrible guilt and

with very little boy Wisconsin I still remember that weekend sitting in a living room with my two big brothers and all their big healthy farmers Wisconsin farm boys and their dad my father in law and nobody said unkind word to me I just have some more pastry class here establece coffee here can I get you something but in their eyes you could just see what have you done to our sister you dirty **** you thirty **** we may have some more pace and we buried my son I put my hand is casket nobody's watching us I promise you John image when this will never happen again in our family I promise you

and

we buried next to those that

okay yeah I had a thought about this talking to carry the day he's had this problem

I didn't realize how guilty that made me feel I was sober five years before I could face the fact that my son was did I went backwards but I can't gravestone is great I could not I just could never think about it just

I got my to my father my father in law we went down to school country churchyard

end of

put some grief in our little boy journalism and was really touching took me I read for the deep thing it was but I stopped drinking when I went back to Texas was working and I really had a good feeling almost like it was a beast or something someone has died but the proof of purposes to make us all better and we got along fine and my family I got a lot but we prayed for John sold and I went to work can go a long way to work and things are going well and I

I thought it's so sad my son's death had happened but he did it so we can all live

and it was wonderful to one night somebody snuck into my bedroom and put an invisible spring and my god

the next morning it started

I just moved here to build a

as the days went by and restlessness now coupled with great self pity and

killing my son gives bad what kind of a rock god damn thing is that just

whose job the job is like a job anymore you just bunch of dumbbells and they don't like taxes and I give my daughters there nor is it merry take your systems in order to route for god sakes let me alone then hate myself I'm sorry girl we played a March

and knowing if I could just have a couple drinks I could break it

but if you can about your son's casket a couple drinks and one day it got to a point where my wife to to children church I just pulled the car in the garage and took the holders of the gospel

trimmer much sleep and died

and the neighbor had recently bringing coffins Dan and he knows that I went in there for the motor running too much we handled over she was wrongly found me dead in the car

pulled me out of my chest and breathe my maaf they rushed me to the hospital

examine me for we can determine how seriously mentally ill and committed me to the state insane asylum

and that's how I get when I stopped drinking folks that is not a drinking problem or something terribly wrong inside of me

I am a big classified me as a schizophrenic paranoid tendencies

I thought about that a lot of several times after been subject to back to Texas sometime and find that psychiatrist

he must be about nine you know I could probably have them pretty good you know

dear you categorize me as some sort of a dual personality you any act

if I could get my purse down his other two automated stays

my problem is always been this crowd that gathers in my head at the drop of a hat

this kid out here building we can what do you think I'm not sure

are they looking at you as funny as they are in a

I hear people say things like I'm not sure the programs enough for me I may need group therapy