The Carry This Message group's first annual Fall Retreat in West Orange, NJ

and now as you know this this we can retreat is called a sponsor and protege and the first speaker here this evening was the protege and no it's not chase car and so at this time I'd like to bring up they sponsor Tom from Glen Burnie Maryland Minot South

sometimes when I call it

I am not a problem drinker I am not in surgery her

life was a problem alcohol was an answer that is a reason that is right

it was an answer it made the rough with the smooth

he made a long day short

that is made to cloudy days right

alcohol is taking me to places that National Geographic has never seen

it is a job action to reach is nice right if you need to reach a what's a must sponsor I do have a sponsor Michael right now this N. truck driver talk to each page about you know

but I say to you

and

he said you really have to know what your alcoholic

and I was in the midst of an intellectual she here when I try to use it for a year I was operating under the delusion that I knew something of value

that is handled it successfully it was a solution I did not know how to live successfully

the state so eloquently touched one I didn't have a clear purpose

for my life

the show river meandering

wondering

poorly directed Sri

some of us

just follow the three

we're everywhere

well

he said well if you really must know Tom when they tell you why why you became an alcoholic all good Juanita Holley he says sometime ago when your little boy you're seated Irish grandmother was making crap shoot in her kitchen in south Baltimore

she had the wrong kinds shoes or

to discuss you order wrong shoes that variety it was years ago you became an alcoholic

okay

he says now that you know do you think you can drink successfully

he says why all the bother

and while the

it doesn't make any difference I am an alcoholic

that's all

it is really really good news because there is a solution

for the disease of alcoholism to people with cancer which raises easily

even those with diabetes you guys got a solution you go to

right

that only do you get well

you get a clear vision of a higher power your gift better than well

better

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you get better well because you are required to examine your life your exam yet like he gets better you examine laci green to another day

wonderful motivator

reading is good

readings for you it's not difficult option to Dan Chris Korman dockside down

as to where you do the steps

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I've done a lot of change would you recommend

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just sort of follow up with that simple

well I came to

Alcoholics Anonymous as a result of some direct hits

J. a near miss won't do anything for me

just another good luck day you know can go past my here a quarter inch away and I will admire the home

what was told she sharp

directives

that's what happened me got me here

I believe that I'd never met her while

I've never met anybody

who had a

just a bone shattering

Sri Chinmoy

they didn't have a tremendous opportunity for

wonderful spiritual awakening

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orders closure came here no deductibles low should apply to all of you know what we have to go out on heavy handed with me you know

these issues thank you Sir for your wall you're going to have issues with us air of the compass fictional meant

should you be flattered Eurovision tension

thank you what do you mean for each other

some guys here who get separated I got divorced some guys got

you know

fighting for working and I got fired

some guys had to go see the doctor you have to talk about the job within the shift all that are needed to be but did not have sex with fresh fruit

in this bad no jobless and you know

this is the next best no abandonment the machines are being overcrowded nothing like actually

not

you're not sure some of loss of money and I went for

I was living under a bridge drive a Chevy and Polish this depends how you look at it

the way you mean well I think it was a hot shot like you look great too says years ago he used to be a franchise didn't

you were saying is that we're willing to sponsor that's where we're saying okay well I

well sure ritual words I've learned today it's okay well you

get the car Tom who okay while you read the book titled to you probably we're going to go to a meeting okay well we're going to I don't believe in one god while which we're going to create a way okay well we

search first words the words will keep you never asking doctors to email blasts

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or at worst it but

knowledge which you save

it you're different you're different we want our state fair you face them thank you

okay with us

he says this hot shot was that there was a bounty hunter because it wasn't

these people

has some kind of a spiritual programs in the readers are rabble rousers he returned I mean for for money

she is reporting about a hundred

and he says

in a higher power knocked this son of a gun all before she put him down in the mud

he couldn't see you couldn't copy clean here they set him up to see another guy they were missing munitions report tech makers Petry using was at I. S. HMM up their CNIC put some will be here's the pier and she leaned back up voice for singing he looked up school towards resort guide listen we do this crap to me for their big boss is ready for one of my people for

any changes today includes all the poll which is now your vegetarian message that must watches his sentence simmering the connector that's happened to you stop **** I suspect your excellent company

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still in the corner

so back ourselves to win him over

angel feels good

you just heard just after you can have less stress looking at what the budget is with us in the front of the bank yeah

yeah that's right and you said you saw the light because there's always a little filthy ness I covered our voices loans

right I didn't come here to the light are compared to a St Pete

are you guys a call back

little bits and pieces related one off

not enough to scare me

not enough to blind me

no I'm not to freeze me

not just keep me moving forward you put a little more warm you gradually acclimated me

she's a break this

two weeks your program

at a rate that I was able to absorb and digest

that's what you did for me

it was that simple

now

a lot of you are very intelligent and I thought I was very intelligent under longer thinks acts and I think it can be a major distraction

intelligence is very good when you're working out crossword puzzles

excellent you know when you get a mall Spanish save on any case of flood standalone

what I need a sponsorship wanted his desperation password recovery so

yeah how many people have told you Estatal make Tom you're going to be okay if you don't

finally believed

pressures on us to do

and I didn't drink

well they were in loving caring informed people

and they gave me the best they have you're going to be okay right

and I didn't drink any alcohol next and the problem state

that shiny new in here a media

there's a difference between alcohol and alcoholism

the alcohol that's the problem she

it's a surprise defeat and not

sobriety without recovery is the worst place in the world for an alcoholic to be

first place

restless irritable and discontent

when US age talking about sober people actually shared by discontent I stopped drinking and I was inside the house and I want to be outside choosing an outside I would be inside

so my database but didn't like it there was nothing on the second floor

I didn't like there was something wrong with that Sir what what Meryl

very unreasonable people America stay in America

I want to start my shift time right elects give me old people drive slow here in the

yes it will crack down really and

instead I'm going to check to see some real members over the flock images which is

west of here with that one of the owners San Francisco to good restaurants there right it was like foggy rainy

was exciting at all

recently about what should a great northwest that's rob Lowe Paul please type

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J. M. you know

all women had short hair

it's like getting to Chicago to cease to send

so

at their apartment house in Detroit

rest assured when discontent amid a holding I would drink rush this year I'm treated our holders

on street

that's what I had

so I got to give others a fisherman wants women

when a call like a treatment which is natural

your call for you they call for

actually no big surprise

so what happens when you do

you get involved in step you through the steps

well I wanna do a in depth study

full

Wall Street

you ain't got the equipment between two years to do it in that study and if you're finished with in depth study you don't know what your studies

this result work

you do not need a lot of intelligence in order to get sober what you need a lot of intelligence for in a used to make up plausible excuses for not getting it that's what she did tell us to support the Equifax

yeah intelligence is the back door out of a

this was

desperation the front door

your dash for

you want to come in here

you have to create this requirement number you'll say that was it the session he was the mother of invention you heard ten years ago I pleaded desperation his father of willingness

that's right pretty

restoration Mexican I like me will I would love to report to you all up such a spiritual journey that inspiration what pull desperation no light he

five

we'll need to get whatever I am told get in the car you'll only

hello Norman Oklahoma a big book to us your price of petrol drinking twice more once

well let me get this what just goes to show you that your thinking for you this little

Hey even you know it

police initially

no it does not enough but yeah sure very few

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we very they're very knowledgeable

unfortunately still just didn't

her score sure that after he wrote his notes and on that

if you don't live

the music

how do you know your alcohol

published in the study is responsible to study

we just look at yourself Tom

when you pick up a trait do you always know when you are going to stop

no longer I don't know when I'm going to stop

he says well it looks like to me that you're powerless over alcohol when you pick up a tree

well if you want to put it that way well he says we will on the sponsors

he made that clear he says you know you don't have anything I want you to have a a this group has a new one so you're going to listen I want to talk to us awakens

okay well we

that he says to me

can you tell me you stop for less one time to make brownie points with god will this be a good guy

so you remember that hello if you are consumer on this and I remember what you said

I said to myself what came live discussion members everything she's

this week it announced by default not by virtue of

so

he says when your stopped

do you know when you're going to start

not a lot of little buttons which are

he says were looks like to me that when you stop drinking your purpose over when you start

and we start drinking your purpose of when you wish to

really don't make much difference where you stop your started becoming the

she the fact is she sure this

texting

each topic we're starting

this is a

you should get your great college management will you remember did a little bit

he says now if your problem is powerlessness what is your answer

can I try the Hamden hall when you don't know insurable yeah don't do that with a sponsor please it's a waste of time it's very embarrassing you know

to the sponsor what you will rent like

it should it should

he says if you the powerless condition it seems like to me the answer would be get some power

for example

if you're a rainstorm we have no umbrella it looks like if you want to get try to get it on bro

if you heard of prior restraint Asian Diane and you don't want to die get some

but here's the trick

we must listen to a sponsor for this reason

we don't have the ability to examine our own failure she

we will try imitations of our discussion not convinced they're away doesn't work we'll try intellectual power

we will try family power

sure sure our political power

church of our willpower

all that kind of stuff so we do all of that we still don't know that we've done that and failed

eight exercise all the powers that we're familiar with him we have failed that's what power this means

now when I say that's me

all of this power has failed I am now ready for a new power

one that has not yet failed that's rich not yet here I was in a black Galahad power failure makes all the sense in the world

this is shut down

bangles weisse

Berlin Borussia

okay

there was a chance you can get some power that's that's one seven

that was no injection that he was

look out here in the heart

that's a

that say

the coach the heart goes to the heart but it's risky she had a lot of pressure for you to live

share from the heart Shrishti here you share here right exactly

here

why don't you

you better have a higher power if you want it that way

you can walk across the highway are nice if you was great the trip is exciting sorry but you better have a life next to catch your **** if you fall that step three

they can decision to go across the wire life

it's that simple

it took this long to shuffle

Allianz omission it was complicated

try to dress up a lie to look like the truth

that's complicated

for me to come here tonight and get dressed up to look like about a seventy five year old guy is going to take awhile eight

it's that simple

deception

tradition

license

to try to put the closing troops

one of one life is complicated you better get a good Taylor said he

it's not complicated I went to my sponsor one day thank god for his role playing man

the man the guy uses six

they're not block that was some kind of arrogance like I am

got users try to make some they'll be like much much

it's a long way to go you don't watch matches learned also watches I came to him

Mike Barnes road in twenty two years you because we have based you know

if you put a lot of growth

since

we have a lot of fun with this simple you know what your why should handle short heavy matter slightly

we let god carries a week

god says Akari way I'll carry your permanent solution for the ages or something new

global Doro critical

I can see that

what the possibilities are tried to impress seems a herd has hit another for the date yet as Spencer

I don't mean I quit drivers are never did it she says

so we are selected and I said you know what we are learning this is a simple program flow for complicated people

he looked at me in but she's you got half of it right I wanted right away when he asked why should

fifty eight he says it is a simple program absolutely right he says as far as being complicated have your position is a possibility that you have merely over estimated your intelligence

so one of their conversation I had a simple program for simple man and is that much better

is that much better

it's just a program for simple man

based on the plane trips my god it looks very uncomplicated as

principles troops simplicity directness speaking at risk from the heart living among people

looking at British trusting their mission to choose all

you know they love you

actual hire more

of life now discuss

when life message Tom

you better talk to your insurance agent

that's what this is about

that's what this whole Wally I can't tell you some of that that's for sure

thank you

you're a great singer

hello hi December despicable thing he says is a detection during

Alijah dictionary places so commonplace we haven't agreed meeting on the subject only some cases we got a second meet you in front of you

you have that coverage is on

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everybody who tells you to forty fifth step is hard ninety nine percent interest people have never done

so they're sharing experience with you or something they have not experienced that

we share with each group each

that's

that's what

your experience from the subject might be different from mine that's okay yes

it was also the same speed very boring world

you know you're should mean that god has no imagination you got a cookie cutter got

it'll work that way the

well because remember

yeah contribution

for Christmas but ten years ago I was up in arms flying around Chicago

it was a

heavy traffic in the snow on the ground and I should take you to your widget that she got into a certain church of certain nomination I believe that when I was younger I don't I

it differently now but

and we're flying around all must be five or six places women like that

jobs at the bottom when

and then

look at all these Roach the revolution all come in and work of major highways in this topic inside the shuttle hits lately that is there and looking down or you just see everything coming like his hub almost like a half hour really

in the

all these roads corner Chicago

yeah

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look at all the different reviews tickets Chicago

I thank god speakers Chicago

because they can't be bigger chunk of

your local religion must be of any use you can contact who is currently based in Chicago yeah you only got one road I suspect that your god is smaller than Chicago

sure you're going to get a bigger city or a bigger guys you know

this is what happens to us when we are we do what we're told to

I don't want to run their services with a long day for most you guys

and we're gonna spend some time to more

but I sure sure couple small things which you this happened to me

I never meant alcoholic in my life was not a structure the surgeon for us should be routed to different jobs in different states and different and different women every two or three different things

searchers looking

and we she initially she then rejected

some say that were running from the troops

that may be true but I don't believe is true in all cases

but now here's

I picture it this way we can dis **** enough for

it sounds like preaching to say

bridges says okay hello good evening Gordonstoun so forward thank god says don't you dare to hold

well to kick you out of here you know and you will die at all

not an adviser yeah that was a glitch around creatures apple would have to be doing it right thank you for your

one guy was a

I don't believe

sure why

thank you guys for just threatened them with death and he never sold that company to be a threat he's not going

Jared see that white guys and I won't

city

he's not running from the truth

nine or accepting the unexamined truths

most popular

he's not running for senators

speeches will be sent

I think he's running towards the truth

that's what I really pretty

but there's not many of them

and I need not to spend more if you're one of those you need not to send

you are sure

he has a right to run in any direction you want

you can walk a free number

it really does make all the difference

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powerful stuff part of

where it does not change how will takes takes it up what I believe is

well dark at night later in the day you know waters west fires hot ice cold god loves missteps work she and other basic stuff

this site now

this is only going to have to know

I don't have a whole lot of frustrations

all my frustrations are less than twenty four hours

because I have no plans to go beyond twenty four hours

it's that simple yeah if you wanna have long range prostrations go makes long range planes quite

the

you have long reach fresh French

this is learning how to

short range

this

thank you he

the short range frustrations

rare changes me doesn't change thanks it changes her life she thinks

we think we she's a true freedom a minute one of the cable cars in San Francisco some years ago young hot shot he gets one nineteen years older so you know to see if we do not seek welfare guitar right

thirty five year range that to

thank you

yes on here one flip flops you

son who looks like you lost issue is those pops above one

the solution is

certainly not me

nor do I have the right to prohibit you from say

as with listed in that list means

I don't have the right to prohibit you from sinning

one six hundred four I was eighty six do you like he says for five and five Ralph yes I like eighty six for five

if you have questions I'm not gonna hire you do my bookkeeping issue instead

this is something that

this

when a single cut short wish everybody thinks is really heavy

meditation

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if he could do logarithms in his head he tells you don't have meant to

I said

did you ever see a young lady that's really like closer to completion

where you're a little afraid to ask her out for dinner so we'll open network

we will have only takes about a week before

in

which takes about four weeks so clever

this meditation

you knew how to meditate we are now going to show you how to change the subject

don't tell me you don't know how to meditate

he's just so we you know had a better

she shut down the TV

so when your how to books

come here for looking flat check out of your kid

right now I'm your kid

I'm not going to issue to help me to do anything you're not a high price spell

I'm going to be an issue

what you want me to do today

that's what I'm gonna do what you want me to teach

I'd appreciate it if you make a sort of plane for some alcohol they can have

yes

give me the gumption to get this done also we were

that one talks like gosh praise like that you know your parties it must be terrible to be caught you know

got some pertinent people real stretch long prayers hold these now's in different words

it's gonna be hard on most any

you don't get a headache we say when I'm simple prayers for god it must be like recess

we

sure praying like its research

you're talking to your father he's not sure

transaction

if you want to go beyond space into trust

trust is nothing but faced this done its homework

taking action that's where trust is facing another

if you want to get beyond that

go

the first two sentences chapter seven

practical experience has shown that nothing so much

sure

some individuals from law

what a color

unity from working as an intensive work with others since its actual work when you have time

intentions like jewel

with others

happy times we should be very low premium right unborn nineteen meetings today and I'm praying twenty six hours or during

I'm sure there's like a fourteen self help books and I'm doing yoga and I'm working at and I would like school and the uptake of swimming lessons and I remember

chase

what is our actions

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politician crap yeah

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show less intensive work with others in case we missed that at the first one comes the second swing this work which one other activities thank you

he closes and his lance's

that's what that's about

and one prayer

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I was like you're still short

it was a Spanish nun named Allegra washers and she'll slip and you can imagine that right

she's been on a past thirty five years she shrieked none

she looks over the shoulder all over even on lunch or kill some more American open land about three years ago six ninety that's her order she talked to there's not much into whatever Montreal

anyway is there all over the world that she is just all kinds of degrees in office she likes working with functional street philosophical figure yeah

that resolve our favorite after that out also the spiritual machines on it told me three years ago my favorite brother you know she got seven brothers so she was asked for punitive

this is just how much are you really well you're my favorite in my house as a kid you can get up from the table unless you clean up your plate when you're older people experience that she couldn't take stand spinach in a recent losses to shield and not lost me so much which eight Hirschman each

well she had the lake we're praying for me the labor was a Spanish ninety store permit me which he was either eighty nine or ninety she's been in and she was eighteen years old and

she ever spoken English you know but she's up all over the world news

she's praying for sister Sheila's brother to drop which may take ten years not scheduled for first year good C. system like work and course she doesn't she's not a hundred

and she doesn't speak English and have a lovely young man sits next to her or not social translating

ago and nationally come the sanctions to Malaysia for prayers for I've been sober now for here

and the two nuns start crying

or drop us and what the hell have I done now

you understand that you're an alcoholic

that's the end of the quiz

Hey

and the young man says my labor says

you are not to thank her and she is just thank you

Weinstein sister

she spent Laker says that Altman and she's been with

all over the world

for more than eighty years

has called home to the flag

an official today

my legs were selected because for contact where she wants

she says make recess today

not only does she know

the guy knows where she is

but more importantly to catch you here sure prayers for sixty shields brother to talk show before the grace of god Alcoholics Anonymous Allegri's careers thank you