The Primary Purpose Group's 15th anniversary in Dallas, TX
talking
about
she
she's
going
to
do
a
shorter
one
of
these
things
box
back
here
maybe
hi
everybody
my
name
is
Margaret
and
I'm
an
alcoholic
this
is
this
is
just
so
cool
you
know
because
this
thing
work
exactly
the
way
you
said
it
was
optimized
like
on
January
the
fifteenth
of
eighty
eight
I
was
kidding
with
Clifford
I
think
liberty
you
guys
started
this
group
they
say
they
started
this
with
the
same
month
I
sobered
up
because
I
didn't
go
here
but
you
know
you
know
it
would
that
would
come
later
but
it
was
so
cool
to
think
that
they
started
just
for
me
so
it
rejected
seven
years
later
I
could
I
could
tool
in
here
suicidal
and
in
that
case
and
and
get
the
help
that
I
needed
I
want
to
say
before
I
read
the
the
original
deal
about
how
it
works
we
always
talk
about
being
grateful
about
things
but
I
can
tell
you
guys
that
I
am
truly
grateful
that
fifteen
years
ago
there
were
some
men
and
women
who
had
their
yeah
because
just
to
stand
on
the
firing
line
and
take
the
heat
in
the
fellowship
to
to
to
to
have
meetings
where
all
we
did
was
study
the
big
book
big
book
you
I
call
it
and
and
and
it's
just
the
coolest
thing
and
over
the
years
this
group
has
taken
a
lot
of
heat
because
of
that
stuff
and
I'm
telling
you
I
cannot
tell
you
how
grateful
I
am
if
you
guys
were
here
and
strong
and
doing
it
many
years
ago
now
click
on
the
market
you're
going
to
be
staying
here
you're
gonna
have
to
get
in
the
trenches
with
us
and
I
did
and
the
cool
part
about
that
stuff
wasn't
I
never
realized
that
you
guys
a
bunch
of
you
are
already
in
the
trenches
doing
the
deal
and
I
never
realized
what
kind
of
friendships
and
what
kind
of
coolness
would
spring
out
of
that
that
that
deal
you
wanna
you
wanna
get
a
fellowship
around
you
that
you
crave
get
the
trenches
with
a
bunch
of
guys
and
go
carry
a
message
for
out
of
this
big
book
and
see
what
happens
it's
the
coolest
thing
in
well
this
group
on
Saturday
nights
we
always
read
the
original
manuscript
of
how
it
works
with
the
other
chapter
five
eight
states
things
a
little
bit
different
and
it's
interesting
you
can
always
tell
what
bill's
original
intent
was
when
you
read
this
manuscript
from
this
form
but
it
doesn't
leave
any
middle
road
stuff
there's
no
house
we
are
in
it
or
you're
out
of
it
you
see
there's
no
gray
area
so
listen
this
really
was
in
person
failed
was
thoroughly
followed
our
directions
those
who
do
not
recover
people
who
cannot
or
will
not
completely
give
themselves
to
this
simple
program
usually
men
and
women
who
are
constitutionally
incapable
of
being
honest
with
themselves
and
their
such
unfortunates
they
are
not
at
fault
they
seem
to
have
been
born
that
way
they
are
naturally
incapable
of
grasping
and
developing
a
way
of
life
which
demands
rigorous
honesty
the
chances
are
less
than
average
there
are
those
who
suffer
from
great
emotional
and
mental
disorders
but
many
of
them
do
recover
if
they
have
the
capacity
to
be
honest
our
stories
disclosed
in
a
general
way
what
we
used
to
be
like
what
happened
and
what
we
are
like
now
if
you've
decided
you
want
what
we
have
in
a
willing
to
go
to
any
lengths
to
get
it
when
you're
ready
to
follow
directions
if
some
of
these
and
you
may
balk
you
may
think
you
can
find
an
easier
softer
way
we
doubt
if
you
can
what
with
all
the
earnestness
at
our
command
we
beg
of
you
to
be
fearless
info
from
the
very
start
of
some
of
you
some
of
us
have
tried
to
hold
on
to
our
own
ideas
and
the
result
was
nil
until
we
let
go
absolutely
number
that
we're
dealing
with
alcohol
cunning
baffling
powerful
without
help
it
is
too
much
for
you
but
there
is
one
who
has
all
power
that
one
is
god
you
must
find
him
now
F.
measures
will
avail
you
nothing
you
stand
at
the
turning
point
throw
yourself
under
his
protection
care
with
complete
abandon
no
we
think
you
can
take
it
here
are
the
steps
we
took
Twitter
suggested
that
your
program
a
recovery
hello
he
says
that
he
wants
to
get
admitted
we
were
powerless
over
alcohol
that
our
lives
have
become
unmanageable
to
came
to
believe
that
a
power
greater
than
ourselves
could
restore
us
to
sanity
three
made
a
decision
to
turn
our
will
and
our
lives
over
to
the
care
and
direction
of
god
as
we
understood
him
or
made
a
searching
and
fearless
moral
inventory
of
ourselves
admitted
to
god
to
ourselves
into
another
human
being
the
exact
nature
of
our
wrongs
six
were
entirely
willing
to
god
remove
all
these
defects
of
character
seven
possibly
on
our
knees
asking
to
remove
our
shortcomings
holding
nothing
back
man
wanted
to
change
that
they
made
a
list
of
all
persons
we
had
harmed
and
became
willing
to
make
complete
names
of
them
all
nine
major
recommends
to
such
people
wherever
possible
except
when
to
do
so
would
injure
them
or
others
and
can
continue
to
take
personal
inventory
and
when
we
were
wrong
promptly
admitted
eleven
we
thought
the
prayer
and
meditation
to
improve
our
contact
with
god
praying
only
for
knowledge
of
his
will
for
us
the
power
to
carry
that
out
well
having
had
a
spiritual
experience
as
the
result
of
this
course
of
action
we
tried
to
carry
this
message
to
others
especially
alcoholics
and
to
practice
these
principles
in
all
our
affairs
you
may
explain
what
an
order
I
can't
go
through
with
it
not
be
discouraged
no
one
among
us
is
been
able
to
maintain
anything
like
perfect
adherence
to
these
principles
we
are
not
saying
the
point
is
that
we
are
willing
to
grow
along
spiritual
lines
the
principles
we've
set
down
our
guides
to
progress
we
claim
spiritual
progress
rather
than
spiritual
perfection
no
description
of
the
alcoholic
the
chapter
the
agnostic
interpersonal
adventures
before
and
after
have
been
designed
to
sell
you
three
party
ideas
they
did
your
alcoholic
and
cannot
manage
your
own
life
be
that
probably
no
human
power
can
relieve
your
alcoholism
and
see
that
god
can
and
will
if
you're
convinced
on
these
vital
issues
if
you
are
not
convinced
on
these
vital
issues
you
want
to
re
read
this
book
to
this
point
or
else
stored
away
that
one
of
the
cool
things
that
I
get
to
do
interviews
quick
version
and
and
I'm
not
gonna
roasting
and
I'm
gonna
be
the
nicest
guy
world
tonight
because
click
bishop
is
my
hero
he
is
and
for
years
now
he's
been
standing
taking
heat
and
doing
the
stuff
he
was
doing
it
a
long
time
before
I
got
here
and
I
suspect
you'll
be
doing
it
a
long
time
after
I'm
gone
you
know
in
those
well
he'll
he'll
he'll
tell
you
about
the
history
stuff
and
we
we
sometimes
take
it
for
granted
that
we
can
show
up
here
any
to
take
third
in
Saturday
night
and
get
a
bagel
does
a
big
book
and
go
out
and
do
what
we
need
to
do
but
when
you
stop
and
think
how
much
accountability
had
to
go
in
to
get
into
this
many
people
to
come
do
this
stuff
it's
an
amazing
deal
and
I
will
truly
always
be
grateful
for
the
fact
that
I
was
held
accountable
and
they
do
the
things
I
did
not
want
to
do
and
it
only
saved
my
life
thanks
for
coming
with
you
know
he
gets
respect
me
long
to
get
the
old
you
know
what
good
lord
immersive
look
at
theirs
would
you
well
good
evening
all
you
fellow
jurors
one
welcome
everybody
to
the
celebrating
our
fifteenth
year
of
the
primary
purpose
branch
of
the
great
one
of
world's
largest
lost
and
found
department
yeah
we
used
to
hear
that
a
lot
I
don't
hear
much
of
it
anymore
but
didn't
interest
hi
my
name
is
clear
vision
but
I
am
a
real
alcoholic
curtains
and
you
can
tell
also
there
is
a
very
grateful
member
of
Alcoholics
Anonymous
and
because
of
a
loving
god
I
found
your
twelve
day
it's
a
loving
and
lively
I
went
online
to
search
in
writing
sitting
through
all
of
this
and
god
whether
this
technology
minute
or
second
day
she's
been
able
to
get
out
this
year
and
she's
here
for
us
tonight
and
I'm
so
thankful
for
the
he
wanted
to
tell
me
how
to
follow
directions
during
the
steps
of
the
big
book
and
a
whole
bunch
of
people
exactly
like
you
I
am
truly
enjoying
my
seven
thousand
three
hundred
and
second
day
of
sobriety
not
by
god
love
live
in
Salem
Oregon
little
bit
of
most
online
I
don't
know
exactly
why
that
Ellen
taught
me
a
great
deal
especially
in
a
close
about
the
day
we're
going
to
make
theirs
creator
of
our
fellowship
is
greed
of
our
lives
creator
of
everything
good
in
our
lives
and
see
if
we
really
enjoyed
this
great
Terry
did
he's
given
us
hi
or
get
into
this
so
I
look
around
here
now
and
what
a
heck
of
a
deal
we've
got
tonight
Darren
I
want
everybody
who
had
any
part
of
setting
this
thing
up
in
making
this
possible
not
stand
out
so
we
can
get
recognized
yeah
I
don't
want
to
say
thank
you
so
much
you
know
it's
sort
of
interesting
start
at
if
you
have
already
given
this
program
a
tested
you
recognize
something
if
you
just
turn
the
lights
on
the
thing
and
let
life
happen
god
lead
you
down
the
path
to
that
pretty
wonderful
and
if
I
have
a
lot
of
money
on
first
of
all
to
it
just
in
twenty
years
and
I'm
coming
up
on
next
week's
it's
not
all
allow
college
known
as
I
was
in
a
good
bit
more
because
over
thirty
eight
years
of
my
life
I
can
get
total
credits
Alcoholics
Anonymous
will
time
around
I
didn't
know
what
to
do
I
got
a
sponsor
didn't
have
a
clue
what
this
thing's
about
they
died
so
I
drank
and
I
almost
didn't
thirteen
years
after
I
found
myself
back
which
are
gonna
permanent
change
in
the
fellowship
back
in
the
sixties
when
I
was
here
we
had
speaker
meetings
and
that's
about
all
we
hadn't
people
get
up
until
what
they
were
like
what
happened
what
they're
lacking
day
and
we
have
a
lot
of
people
dying
so
when
I
got
back
to
America
is
bigger
meetings
been
off
a
lot
of
discussion
meetings
and
I
love
him
because
we
got
to
talking
ever
blessed
one
of
but
I
started
noticing
something
if
you've
been
around
during
the
time
you
don't
have
to
tell
you
all
of
a
sudden
that
large
group
is
no
longer
a
large
group
of
start
planning
I'll
but
I
ran
into
an
article
by
attacking
her
biggest
reprint
of
a
copier
guys
speak
made
by
a
guy
named
Bob
they
can
Bob
was
a
delegate
from
northeast
Ohio
in
nineteen
seventy
six
he
said
we're
making
a
tremendous
mistake
in
Alcoholics
Anonymous
in
our
meetings
we're
no
longer
focusing
on
a
big
look
we're
no
longer
stressing
the
traditions
we
are
not
bringing
to
the
newcomer
domestic
it
was
brought
to
us
and
I
took
a
look
at
what
was
happening
and
I
realized
how
true
that
was
this
group
started
in
the
library
of
the
surrounding
house
in
little
rock
Arkansas
I
had
heard
a
tape
of
a
guy
named
Joe
that
lived
up
there
and
my
daughter
was
on
a
guy
from
Arkansas
and
I
moved
back
to
little
rock
an
image
in
December
nineteen
ninety
three
to
nine
making
and
I
told
him
I
want
to
visit
when
he
met
her
just
take
band
so
we
invited
me
down
to
the
office
or
device
or
any
house
and
went
down
and
we
sent
her
a
few
moments
and
I
joked
I
mean
what
you
say
and
what
I
heard
Richard
ever
going
to
what
he
said
I
don't
remember
what
I
heard
was
quick
you
don't
know
what's
going
about
alcoholism
can
you
dance
or
don't
know
anything
about
the
programs
out
college
loans
now
I
have
over
six
years
in
the
fellowship
and
it
hurt
my
feelings
and
I
started
on
lake
also
know
you
belong
to
find
this
guy
shut
up
and
listen
I
said
something
about
being
powerless
over
people
places
and
playing
to
care
for
that
your
problem
you
need
to
go
P.
PH
ng
Hey
for
Alcoholics
Anonymous
I'm
a
broke
college
certainly
open
a
big
American
hearing
and
what
we
heard
tonight
to
forward
to
the
first
injection
we
got
three
with
me
in
about
I
don't
know
less
than
half
an
hour
nineteen
years
after
a
grounding
and
I
was
looking
for
a
way
out
I
understood
what
alcoholism
was
in
there
I
was
now
going
to
my
heart
of
hearts
Joe
internally
came
to
Dallas
the
next
spring
and
I
sat
there
and
looked
at
these
guys
Friday
night
all
day
Saturday
and
up
to
one
o'clock
on
Sunday
morning
and
realized
when
I
sit
there
and
look
at
these
two
guys
go
through
the
big
dirt
or
something
and
I
had
been
totally
ignored
of
this
whole
period
of
time
going
back
up
a
little
rocky
Carroll
spends
more
time
joking
home
and
when
I
want
to
do
it
we
started
to
get
one
groups
are
going
to
start
thinking
of
starting
out
we
had
some
great
said
what
they
call
big
book
study
committed
read
a
paragraph
and
then
they
talk
about
whatever
they
wanted
to
do
was
another
form
of
discussion
making
and
I
wanted
something
like
what
I
had
witnessed
at
certain
we
start
having
meetings
in
my
home
in
elderly
along
about
nineteen
eighty
seven
good
Jones
early
work
but
on
the
first
seminar
held
in
our
part
of
the
country
insults
in
Jones
road
were
open
dinner
during
the
make
that
comes
alive
it
this
alone
group
and
I
went
up
and
I
got
released
anymore
not
so
it's
I
mean
I
heard
about
the
same
in
our
in
our
sights
on
George
and
what
what
about
this
seminar
and
intelligence
of
archer
likes
so
user
will
it
become
a
sponsor
that
foreigners
are
likely
do
something
I
didn't
we
didn't
sit
around
discussing
I
just
didn't
four
days
of
the
program
employs
nonstick
twelve
steps
and
twelve
traditions
of
choral
concerts
and
after
a
presentation
the
victim
and
as
I
got
ready
to
leave
us
I
don't
drink
a
lot
I
said
man
I
wished
I'd
had
waited
I
mean
I
did
it's
a
shame
that
I
had
to
come
back
all
the
way
to
Tulsa
to
find
out
about
this
seems
to
me
that's
what
we'll
be
doing
our
meetings
and
and
so
that's
what
we
do
here
now
you're
kidding
he
said
now
there
was
a
November
the
ratings
Levin
and
I
said
can
I
come
and
visit
you
in
January
of
eighty
eight
I
went
up
during
that
big
arsenal
and
your
internet
manager
there
is
always
our
group
or
Joe
missing
Hey
I'm
Joe
McCoy
of
like
almost
everybody
knows
Joe
is
a
guy
who
has
taken
my
Joe's
points
in
both
of
their
jobs
very
dramatic
impact
on
us
being
here
tonight
but
we
went
over
there
and
it
always
was
on
the
streets
and
never
got
a
hundred
fifty
young
people
there
everyone
was
a
big
and
they
open
the
big
book
and
I
read
the
big
book
in
Iran
study
today
the
next
agent
took
me
over
to
his
greatness
abroad
a
lot
of
group
or
gang
and
most
of
the
kids
showed
up
during
the
noon
hour
had
their
bigger
but
that
not
everyone
I'm
dating
again
it
was
a
very
large
grant
I
came
home
with
my
tail
on
fire
outside
their
engines
dining
area
while
he
was
working
and
adult
conversation
with
god
in
order
to
procure
Wilder
god
I
would
like
to
see
something
like
that
at
back
home
I
need
now
this
is
a
separate
from
what
we
want
to
accept
it
or
not
I
don't
know
why
you
came
down
from
his
knowledge
that
I
gained
out
always
gonna
save
my
****
would
you
gamble
and
I
do
what
I
do
today
is
like
my
aunt
although
I
learned
if
I
want
to
do
that
I'm
going
to
give
everything
away
and
a
little
bit
more
but
I
came
back
home
and
I
got
with
my
kids
once
again
coming
over
the
house
and
some
of
the
others
and
we
sent
a
letter
out
consumer
good
brands
along
about
January
twenty
six
that
Johnson
had
nineteen
ninety
eight
we
had
our
founders
meeting
we
had
about
sixty
or
seventy
people
some
of
them
have
been
around
a
good
long
while
and
what
they
told
me
that
after
that
founders
meeting
the
clever
lawyer
understudy
big
that
you
don't
have
a
prayer
you
don't
have
a
chance
of
this
thing
being
successful
I
don't
know
if
any
how
many
brands
are
choosing
our
big
book
study
but
if
you
haven't
come
by
and
check
it
out
one
the
largest
single
meetings
in
Dallas
today
but
we
started
that
big
they're
starting
I
just
been
sort
of
an
evolution
and
has
the
ball
we
started
reading
the
big
book
and
we
have
a
tendency
to
go
gripping
off
on
a
tangent
sometimes
and
so
we
got
Joe's
big
security
guard
and
we
use
it
for
a
couple
years
when
you
stop
a
chapter
seven
we
like
going
straight
three
chapters
eight
nine
ten
eleven
doctor
Bob
store
in
the
ground
conditions
and
so
we
put
together
our
study
guide
did
it
become
our
guiding
influence
within
the
group
itself
I
have
been
overwhelmed
the
government
was
what
has
happened
as
a
result
of
his
work
now
all
I
can
take
credit
for
knowing
I'm
so
grateful
for
is
it
I
was
willing
to
follow
that
path
to
stardom
Joe's
charged
library
in
little
rock
and
we're
up
to
this
point
or
not
we
have
been
invited
to
bring
the
big
book
in
there
somewhere
between
three
and
four
doesn't
wind
up
places
in
the
Dallas
community
what
are
lined
up
like
that's
where
the
hell
we
wind
up
not
in
a
meeting
salvation
army
souls
harbor
former
going
on
Maggie's
house
on
down
lifting
one
of
my
real
blessings
not
as
young
lady
came
out
and
gave
me
her
and
she's
a
clip
I
was
at
Maggie's
when
you're
doing
a
big
vehicle
there
nineteen
ninety
to
what
a
blessing
and
that's
kind
of
why
we
have
been
waiting
to
we
have
been
very
very
blessed
to
have
some
of
the
most
fantastic
wonderful
willing
people
to
show
up
and
become
a
part
of
this
group
and
as
a
result
of
that
I've
been
able
to
back
off
and
take
care
of
my
precious
bride
and
do
a
little
tape
back
there
in
and
turn
this
basic
responsibility
getting
off
a
bus
and
going
on
during
this
message
to
those
of
you
who
have
been
wanting
to
come
in
here
and
become
a
part
of
what
we're
about
we
got
a
speakers
become
almost
an
annual
band
around
here
and
I
couldn't
be
more
pleased
with
it
because
he's
been
a
big
part
of
our
success
and
one
of
the
guys
that
I
love
dearly
I
just
think
the
world
of
course
right
the
group
showed
up
here
a
few
years
ago
and
it
is
an
old
story
this
one
a
lot
of
detail
because
again
the
way
god
works
in
our
lives
we
just
give
him
a
chance
the
crash
out
after
one
night
and
be
on
a
Thursday
night
and
I
for
whatever
reason
I
just
happen
to
remember
their
back
when
we
are
sharing
meeting
we
did
take
a
topic
and
what
was
your
experience
and
knowledge
on
that
topic
and
then
I'd
have
to
be
to
promises
I
don't
know
Chris
was
up
here
checking
us
out
with
a
specific
goal
in
mind
he
had
a
brother
who
was
looking
for
a
place
to
go
to
maintaining
sobriety
credentialing
is
on
read
about
three
weeks
later
here
shows
up
again
the
patches
going
out
all
holy
mackerel
if
we
can
get
that
kind
of
power
may
we
go
there
would
be
more
likely
I
found
out
that
Chris
had
a
twin
brother
just
as
screwed
up
as
he
had
been
horrified
Informatica
years
around
here
Chris
out
of
the
Myers
was
kinda
did
what
he
I
mean
he
he
was
hearing
it
is
yes
well
this
is
a
program
rigorous
honestly
we're
not
gonna
cut
it
up
finally
going
on
a
family
plan
okay
dammit
all
do
it
and
they
did
it
and
we
have
not
been
able
to
put
out
the
fire
since
he
learned
what
those
things
are
down
and
he's
been
out
there
I
don't
know
how
many
lives
have
been
touched
because
Chris
and
Meyer
dentists
and
also
the
study
guide
we
have
a
chance
after
tremendously
influence
on
so
many
people
and
and
has
been
the
source
of
other
groups
being
created
can
possibly
happen
if
Chris
signs
and
markers
because
I
get
that
down
and
put
a
plan
together
A.
on
paper
but
how
do
you
get
a
better
form
well
Myers
in
the
book
binding
business
and
so
it
all
became
a
national
it
may
sound
a
little
bit
you
know
I
don't
know
what
the
word
I'm
looking
for
but
the
truth
whatever
it
is
this
group
is
a
result
of
god's
reaction
in
the
lines
of
a
bunch
of
people
his
will
it
to
get
back
to
what
we
are
back
have
you
been
around
very
long
you
know
that
Alcoholics
Anonymous
is
an
real
real
deep
trouble
we've
gone
from
a
very
high
success
rate
of
seventy
five
to
ninety
percent
success
in
people
maintaining
long
term
sobriety
less
than
three
percent
and
the
reason
is
that
we
have
elected
to
ignore
the
one
thing
that
has
saved
the
lives
of
more
alcoholics
not
going
all
guns
are
the
book
Alcoholics
Anonymous
they
also
said
you
know
if
you
re
displaying
carefully
you'll
come
to
understand
unfortunately
most
of
us
don't
read
it
very
carefully
the
Danish
group
we
studied
it
very
carefully
and
as
a
result
of
that
we
learned
what
the
program
is
we
took
the
problem
to
the
change
in
those
who
have
found
themselves
greatly
rewarded
is
Meyer
said
he
found
the
fellowship
is
great
I
would
may
begin
to
gas
and
even
when
I
know
it
would
be
illegal
to
damage
we
ever
found
but
the
number
of
people
come
to
Mars
and
said
will
you
be
my
sponsor
the
ladies
have
gone
to
Darren's
and
will
you
be
my
sponsors
the
people
who
have
term
to
members
of
our
group
who
have
been
around
any
period
of
time
and
say
would
you
be
my
sponsor
Alcoholics
Anonymous
group
is
to
be
a
spiritual
entity
you
know
this
person
limiting
the
extent
of
the
members
of
that
group
wind
up
adopting
this
program
is
available
on
a
spiritual
way
of
life
and
commit
themselves
to
helping
others
as
long
as
I
can
grow
spiritually
the
crescent
man
cited
regulate
a
primary
influence
on
our
group
the
magic
carries
over
here
he's
been
out
here
is
banned
Byron
brimstone
board
get
off
your
****
and
go
do
it
but
also
we
believe
there
was
another
one
here's
a
chance
to
send
people
to
us
saying
if
you
really
want
this
on
here's
where
you
go
because
you're
going
to
get
a
strike
I
can't
tell
you
what
occurs
I
really
can't
tell
you
what
I
think
of
this
group
of
people
of
god
said
Madeline
the
Christian
in
a
very
positive
influence
in
our
living
dearly
and
cut
them
down
I'm
I'm
gonna
go
ahead
and
just
tell
me
how
wonderful
you
are
Indonesia
go
screw
it
up
no
we're
deeply
indebted
to
Chris
and
I'm
so
thankful
he
again
the
group
decided
as
the
year
committee
decided
they
wanted
Chris
up
here
again
this
year
and
I
want
to
go
out
there
again
this
year
and
I
hope
you
know
inviting
them
back
next
year
you
say
that
are
going
on
about
Christmas
you
can't
find
a
damn
going
to
argue
with
him
about
interpret
there's
a
line
of
bigger
companies
libertarians
as
we
have
a
way
in
which
we
can
actually
agree
and
join
in
brotherly
and
our
money
section
related
articles
are
saying
pages
same
paragraph
missing
since
Chris
my
hero
get
your
vote
up
here
and
this
gives
me
one
time
it
is
a
lot
of
people
in
here
I'm
my
name's
Chris
Webber
I'm
a
recovered
alcoholic
can
you
hear
me
alright
let's
get
a
little
sweaty
here
for
and
I
can
adoption
has
the
I
I
was
just
trying
to
think
I
don't
know
how
many
times
I've
talked
the
primary
purpose
their
anniversary
remember
the
first
one
talk
that
with
a
nine
year
anniversary
and
I'm
and
I'm
I
don't
know
I
may
miss
a
few
years
in
between
there
but
what
it
already
is
to
be
here
and
I
got
death
I
have
family
in
this
room
and
blood
family
and
I've
got
a
lot
of
people
that
I
know
and
love
in
this
room
I
actually
got
some
heroes
in
here
people
I
haven't
seen
in
a
long
time
and
he's
I'm
I'm
up
I'm
a
little
emotional
about
Iraq
I
case
become
a
kind
of
strange
day
I
yeah
I
was
with
my
girlfriend
all
day
long
Patty
yes
from
New
York
Yankee
and
I
just
I
think
we'll
go
there
but
I
talked
him
down
I
talked
in
in
its
last
night
and
we
woke
up
this
morning
to
hear
and
know
the
blooms
you
know
the
sonic
booms
and
and
it's
like
you
know
the
news
in
the
shuttle
stuff
in
Lester
hearts
and
I
I
I
I
I
don't
know
I
personally
it's
called
March
as
well
I
guess
we
have
to
cancel
the
night
because
you
know
I
mean
everybody's
gonna
be
tied
up
with
it
and
now
we're
still
gonna
do
this
and
I
and
I
am
honored
that
we
did
I
think
that's
the
way
it
should
be
clipart
generic
instead
Love
Me
and
I
he
said
he
forgot
to
tell
him
how
sorry
I
was
and
he
laughed
you
know
patted
me
on
the
back
you
know
I
think
I
think
I
need
to
make
it
real
clear
tonight
to
get
some
you
guys
on
I'm
so
we
all
heard
me
speak
a
thousand
times
and
you
are
you
always
keep
coming
back
from
that
from
from
the
****
Kickin
so
you've
never
heard
me
speak
or
think
you've
ever
heard
me
speak
for
maybe
it
takes
that
you
heard
or
CD
the
club
around
the
countryside
and
in
the
end
you
you
hear
his
voice
this
this
this
guy
just
as
angry
some
****
I
you
know
it's
like
you
know
it's
like
you
just
as
like
you
know
what
I'm
so
passionate
about
alcohol
to
nana's
talking
life
not
only
keep
referring
back
to
that
because
I
mean
I
may
repeat
myself
so
we
all
were
in
the
in
in
there
last
night
but
you
know
I
I
if
you
got
a
look
at
this
from
the
perspective
that
I
come
from
I
mean
I'm
here
twenty
one
years
in
Alcoholics
Anonymous
is
thinking
twenty
one
years
and
I've
got
fifteen
years
of
sobriety
five
or
six
years
six
it
leads
in
and
out
of
this
fellowship
are
dying
out
there
and
when
I
finally
got
the
scholarship
in
nineteen
eighty
it
didn't
get
any
better
because
it's
just
the
stories
just
exactly
what
cliff
was
talking
about
I
walked
into
meetings
where
they
were
carrying
a
message
of
hope
what
they
were
doing
was
carrying
some
some
some
junior
therapists
idea
of
what
bill
Wilson
was
probably
intending
to
say
when
I
wrote
the
big
book
yup
yup
all
I'm
saying
is
you
draw
that
will
threaten
it's
like
it's
like
you
know
but
I'm
I'm
a
little
off
the
whole
week
you
know
I
mean
I'm
not
alone
a
little
disco
doctor
I
mean
I'm
I'm
the
real
McCoy
and
not
I
don't
I
don't
sell
me
on
in
this
room
all
our
disco
drunks
in
that
you
got
here
because
of
them
some
therapist
told
you
to
come
here
you
gotta
be
happy
I'd
you
came
you
got
comfortable
you
put
the
plug
in
the
jug
and
you
stop
and
you've
never
worked
a
single
step
that
you're
managing
to
stay
sober
I'm
not
take
it
you're
welcome
in
this
fellowship
and
I'm
gonna
take
this
point
what
you're
not
gonna
like
this
talk
and
I
can
I
feel
it
I
feel
it
which
is
really
important
for
me
I'm
a
try
to
keep
this
short
and
sweet
because
it's
gonna
heat
up
in
here
but
I
think
it's
important
because
I
need
to
tell
you
go
in
the
door
I
love
everybody
in
here
I
love
everybody
in
here
if
you're
going
to
a
group
that
carries
mill
road
solution
you
like
a
open
discussion
meeting
you
take
election
just
talk
about
whatever
is
bothering
you
during
the
day
and
you
you
got
sober
those
meetings
and
you
like
those
meetings
correct
I
just
I
didn't
think
that
such
you
know
I
don't
know
I
hi
everyone
I
have
watched
more
good
alcoholic
dinette
crap
that
I
can
shake
a
stick
at
and
I
do
know
that
the
perspective
I
come
from
I'm
really
not
getting
the
fellowship
I've
seen
a
lot
of
people
stay
sober
when
I
finally
got
connected
to
the
program
each
unit
see
and
and
and
I
can
tell
you
that
I
did
clerical
work
at
three
considered
some
of
you
got
cats
in
here
I
know
through
the
hospital
and
I
did
tell
you
that
I'm
a
I'm
a
firm
believer
in
treatment
I'm
a
firm
believer
in
in
drying
out
and
get
your
feet
firmly
planted
on
the
on
the
ground
but
my
job
is
in
the
hospital
is
to
do
some
statistical
work
I
called
the
cat
that
daily
treat
me
to
check
and
see
how
they're
doing
and
I
love
her
to
be
a
thousand
times
status
all
the
chance
to
leave
our
hospital
and
end
up
coming
back
into
groups
like
this
primary
purpose
and
other
groups
in
the
metroplex
when
I
carry
the
message
of
hope
through
the
through
the
big
book
about
Cortana's
they
stay
sober
and
the
cats
that
don't
don't
yes
please
treatment
centers
don't
fix
you
treatment
centers
dry
you
out
without
a
day
reprieve
I
can't
live
off
the
food
I
had
last
week
I
gotta
have
today
my
spiritual
connection
am
I
going
to
be
in
a
room
full
of
men
and
women
are
going
to
help
me
on
this
personal
path
well
I'm
not
gonna
be
a
room
full
of
men
and
women
who
don't
have
a
clue
what
this
is
about
yeah
it's
it's
it's
the
hardest
thing
I
think
for
the
newcomer
to
understand
maybe
some
of
your
family
members
understand
you
think
we
would
all
be
on
the
same
page
I'll
tell
you
this
right
now
even
in
a
room
like
this
one
of
my
friends
people
bid
or
a
primary
purpose
for
years
we're
not
all
on
the
same
page
because
a
lot
of
people
do
not
understand
what
alcoholism
and
drug
addiction
is
about
I
think
if
you
want
you
want
to
go
into
a
discussion
meeting
and
sparked
some
controversy
talking
to
us
who
are
some
of
the
other
guys
earlier
if
you
want
you
want
to
search
for
the
product
walk
in
interview
yourself
just
like
Clinton
marketed
as
a
recovered
alcoholic
but
Chris
please
you
don't
you
don't
understand
will
always
be
recovering
yeah
I
I
want
a
pizza
I
go
to
the
hospital
where
I
work
it's
one
more
team
to
somebody
shared
their
stupid
opinions
I
think
I
think
I
close
in
on
this
would
be
great
if
we
just
all
understand
going
in
the
door
when
you
get
here
you're
not
allowed
to
share
your
opinion
there's
a
lot
of
there's
a
lot
of
places
to
share
your
opinions
there's
a
lot
of
places
to
talk
about
how
you
think
this
this
fellowship
ought
to
be
run
you
know
but
you
know
when
you
get
here
gosh
it's
just
unbelievable
I
don't
work
out
a
recovered
alcoholic
I
will
take
a
little
bit
about
my
story
and
I
just
need
to
tell
you
fifteen
years
ago
when
I
finally
met
in
a
room
full
of
people
that
had
big
books
and
I
understood
what
the
message
was
in
the
care
that
message
of
hope
to
meet
two
weeks
after
I
got
to
that
room
the
desire
to
drink
left
me
and
I
recovered
from
alcoholism
you
know
the
books
that
you
read
the
recovery
habit
I
mean
you're
still
obsessing
about
alcohol
you
haven't
recovered
it
doesn't
mean
that
you're
bad
or
worse
than
anybody
else
just
means
you're
still
sick
you
still
have
about
the
mind
of
an
alcoholic
and
what
you
have
to
do
is
get
well
and
and
that's
what
the
steps
are
about
she
does
two
things
that
go
on
there's
a
fellowship
out
here
and
then
there's
the
program
you'll
download
apps
and
a
lot
of
people
coming
to
this
thing
this
thing
we
call
the
fellowship
and
eat
dinner
we
will
get
one
liners
and
we
do
all
the
little
stuff
you
know
little
little
we
get
together
in
discussion
with
the
Dennis
the
program
and
that's
the
big
book
of
Alcoholics
Anonymous
you're
with
us
and
a
lot
of
people
have
been
on
the
starship
for
years
and
I've
never
been
in
the
program
and
that's
why
they're
not
getting
well
which
is
real
simple
one
hundred
percent
success
rate
in
Alcoholics
Anonymous
don't
understand
that
nobody
that
I've
ever
come
across
nobody
did
anybody
in
this
room
I
bet
you
a
dollar
has
ever
seen
it
work
the
steps
didn't
recover
and
you
continue
to
work
the
steps
to
stay
connected
with
god
and
you
stay
recovered
this
is
absolute
crap
they
were
all
gonna
always
gonna
be
sick
I
just
but
I'm
trying
to
turn
over
nicer
easier
life
dot
com
I'm
not
into
this
thing
ten
minutes
and
I'm
already
lead
up
to
this
is
not
so
I
apologize
going
in
the
door
make
amends
to
you
right
now
if
you'd
like
to
stay
sick
it's
your
privilege
stay
sick
I'm
reading
something
bill
Wilson
and
a
vision
for
you
he
writes
about
the
story
when
Dr
bother
him
first
got
together
bill
Wilson
says
of
doctor
Bob
he
had
a
desperate
desire
to
stop
drinking
date
but
saw
no
way
out
for
he
honestly
tried
many
avenues
of
escape
painfully
aware
being
somehow
abnormal
the
man
did
not
fully
realize
what
it
meant
to
be
alcoholic
you
with
me
he
he
was
an
alcoholic
but
he
didn't
understand
what
was
to
be
an
alcoholic
and
that's
the
biggest
problem
that
we
have
an
Alcoholics
Anonymous
today
we've
got
a
bunch
of
people
in
our
fellowship
that
still
don't
understand
what
it
is
to
be
an
alcoholic
you
at
U.
S.
eat
up
I
lectured
my
hospital
I
lecture
my
heart
to
the
hospital
that
I
work
for
a
lecture
the
hospital
number
eighty
people
in
the
room
and
I'll
say
how
many
people
it
is
regulated
or
alcoholics
or
addicts
and
and
eighty
people
won't
raise
your
hand
yeah
now
listen
he
did
a
bunch
of
wires
in
this
room
you
see
because
because
if
you
really
understood
and
you
really
know
what
it
means
to
be
an
alcoholic
you
would
never
relapse
again
because
you
have
the
desperation
of
a
drowning
man
to
get
well
you
understand
it's
not
that
they
don't
know
the
solution
they
know
what
the
solution
is
is
the
big
book
of
Alcoholics
Anonymous
it's
a
call
to
notice
the
fellowship
but
they're
not
gonna
do
that
they're
not
gonna
seek
dissolution
how
many
people
we
send
back
click
basically
Myers
you
know
there
are
we
doing
the
numbers
I
called
the
company
a
lot
of
people
in
this
room
or
or
have
been
in
the
hospital
and
you
all
hooked
up
and
stayed
hello
yeah
but
I'm
gonna
tell
you
everyone
of
you
in
here
there's
a
hundred
more
they
came
back
the
metroplex
chain
one
common
left
inside
the
bridge
over
there
too
rigid
let
me
tell
you
I
love
a
friend
of
mine
named
Jerry
he
we
bury
him
on
Thursday
in
San
Antonio
hi
he
drank
up
one
level
and
drank
up
another
and
he
was
a
cool
guy
he
was
a
licensed
chemical
dependency
counselor
and
probably
was
responsible
for
I
don't
know
hundreds
and
hundreds
of
people
come
to
treatment
getting
well
you
have
to
give
it
a
good
man
for
the
last
eight
years
of
his
life
were
spent
using
alcohol
and
drugs
he
could
not
understand
he
could
not
get
a
clear
idea
a
little
heads
what
he
had
to
do
because
his
case
was
so
different
L.
A.
pay
some
folks
here
you
can't
finish
remember
sat
down
to
watch
somebody
die
an
alcoholic
death
that's
rigid
what
the
steps
ask
us
to
do
like
kids
in
a
baby
but
compared
to
what
I'll
call
ask
us
to
do
the
compromises
the
alcohol
caused
us
to
make
and
what
we
supposed
to
be
unbelievable
I
thank
god
for
the
big
book
and
I'll
get
out
of
here
so
that
you
don't
hear
me
read
all
night
long
but
this
is
my
new
favorite
paragraph
I
read
all
the
time
jadi
that
drive
a
little
favor
to
go
digital
this
is
whether
such
a
person
can
quit
upon
a
non
spiritual
basis
depends
upon
the
extent
to
which
he
has
already
lost
the
power
to
choose
whether
he's
going
to
drink
or
not
US
many
of
us
felt
we
had
plenty
of
character
there
was
a
tremendous
urge
to
cease
for
ever
yet
we
found
it
impossible
this
is
a
baffling
feature
alcoholism
as
we
know
it
is
under
inability
to
leave
it
alone
no
matter
how
great
the
necessity
of
the
wish
to
approach
that
alcoholism
that
alcoholism
and
I'm
gonna
tell
you
something
that
a
lot
of
people
out
there
in
the
real
world
out
there
that
have
this
unbelievable
idea
if
for
some
strange
reason
alcohol
into
the
behavioral
problems
you
don't
don't
don't
tell
that
to
Jerry
if
you
can
give
me
back
out
of
a
casket
in
asking
Hey
buddy
or
you
just
misbehaving
are
you
know
did
you
drink
up
to
labour's
because
you
were
mistreated
the
child
I
mean
whatever
it
is
I
mean
is
that
really
or
do
you
perhaps
have
a
genetic
predisposition
to
do
this
this
problem
you
come
are
you
genetically
wired
in
such
a
way
that
you
can't
choose
whether
you're
going
to
do
it
or
not
but
you
see
so
many
people
out
there
I
think
this
is
part
of
the
one
key
piece
that
we
miss
an
arc
in
our
in
our
fellowships
today
in
our
meetings
in
our
treatment
centers
in
our
hospitals
because
we
will
make
sure
that
the
alcoholic
understand
if
you
could
choose
to
drink
you're
not
an
alcoholic
if
you
could
choose
not
to
drink
then
choose
not
to
drink
and
I
would
just
assume
you
believe
this
fellowship
so
you'll
cost
opulence
everybody
else
around
you
people
some
of
them
holding
all
the
time
to
say
is
is
is
is
is
is
that
I
got
up
this
morning
by
the
grace
of
god
not
chose
not
to
drink
with
no
kidding
get
out
of
here
no
no
close
you've
you've
actually
got
up
this
morning
and
and
and
and
brush
your
teeth
and
comb
your
hair
to
consolidate
all
the
stuff
that
you
and
and
and
made
a
choice
today
I'm
not
gonna
drink
but
you
know
I'm
gonna
tell
you
something
god
it's
a
great
time
in
the
last
fifteen
years
and
most
of
that
I
want
to
be
sober
but
I
tell
you
there
were
some
of
the
data
there
I
didn't
want
to
live
yeah
I
understand
that
you
want
I
want
a
drink
I
didn't
want
to
live
in
about
how
to
make
a
choice
where
I'm
gonna
pick
up
but
balor
not
god
loves
me
way
too
much
for
that
and
that's
what
the
whole
crux
of
alcoholism
is
about
and
that
was
what
this
book
was
about
what
clip
was
talking
about
that's
what
March
is
talking
about
our
whole
point
of
this
fellowship
is
for
us
to
get
together
do
a
few
things
that
are
uncomfortable
and
we
don't
want
to
do
but
we
do
it
anyway
and
we
have
a
thing
called
a
spiritual
experience
as
a
result
and
a
lot
of
changes
forever
and
the
desire
to
drink
leaves
were
placed
in
a
position
to
neutrality
Scott
but
is
there
any
better
news
it
would
you
tell
a
newcomer
than
that
changes
at
all
I
wanna
do
here
when
I
got
this
fellowship
that's
all
I
wanted
to
hear
nineteen
eighty
as
a
result
of
a
mill
domestic
disturbance
with
my
first
wife
I
ended
up
in
a
in
a
Kmart
a
nice
counter
secrets
but
he
wouldn't
do
some
therapy
with
you
but
what
you're
really
gonna
need
to
do
is
go
to
our
hearts
and
honestly
you
would
drop
you
got
some
tough
times
with
alcohol
business
and
it
makes
it
easier
to
do
an
a
a
meeting
in
Denton
Texas
and
I
went
to
a
a
meetings
we
were
laughing
about
it
last
night
a
lot
of
it
is
dark
stairs
walking
up
with
these
not
just
walk
up
the
doctors
not
walked
into
the
one
little
balls
on
a
lamp
back
into
effect
and
I
was
up
there
the
easy
chair
an
old
crusty
summit
level
sedated
or
anything
this
creek
up
the
hill
stairs
you
know
I'm
saying
god
of
darkness
no
one
and
I
walked
in
there
was
about
my
height
it's
like
being
in
my
phrase
in
Houston
you
know
you
walk
into
a
center
for
a
few
minutes
here
I
will
get
adjusted
like
what
the
hell
I
walked
into
was
it
a
seance
of
what
Milwaukee
into
six
other
people
in
the
room
with
this
guy
and
they're
all
you
know
like
this
and
there
they
are
booking
a
place
in
the
village
just
like
this
and
they
said
sit
down
I
do
I
have
to
you
know
it's
like
and
I
set
out
and
I
like
that
we
start
to
go
around
the
room
this
little
guy
talked
about
twenty
minutes
about
some
I
didn't
have
a
clue
what
was
about
and
this
latest
let's
listen
I
am
a
problem
she
was
an
al
anon
or
husband
was
drinking
and
she
want
to
talk
about
the
disease
and
she
want
to
talk
about
what
and
it's
got
started
shares
of
opinion
that
we
know
basically
not
just
I'm
freaking
out
you
know
I'm
very
you
know
I
like
I
split
big
after
the
meeting
random
set
my
pick
up
truck
finished
the
other
half
of
the
six
back
that
I
had
before
I
went
to
the
meeting
not
boy
that
was
a
that
was
that
was
an
experience
I
just
had
a
pair
NetMeeting
six
but
you
see
I
don't
drink
anymore
and
I
didn't
want
to
do
anything
else
and
I
didn't
want
to
get
in
trouble
and
so
I
went
back
to
Alcoholics
Anonymous
and
I
spent
the
next
seven
years
why
another
data
the
Oxnard
bailed
me
up
at
night
a
a
I
talked
to
three
businesses
lost
health
compromised
what's
that
white
on
on
on
instead
of
getting
out
of
apple's
anonymous
listen
to
that
crap
this
guy's
his
recovery
at
you
like
what
kind
of
means
I
Polish
I
make
mine
and
now
we're
here
in
you're
right
click
we
got
off
the
page
we
got
up
to
take
somewhere
along
the
line
we
got
off
the
page
and
all
we
ended
up
doing
was
help
in
the
hard
drinkers
and
alcoholics
the
people
like
me
die
by
the
thousands
success
right
now
because
none
of
us
went
to
the
toilet
how
can
you
take
the
statistics
in
nineteen
forty
worst
case
scenario
sixty
five
percent
getting
sober
best
case
nearly
a
hundred
percent
around
Akron
I'm
taking
the
day
to
the
statistic
that
could
basically
talking
about
I
got
a
I
got
a
lot
of
almost
it
up
this
far
from
a
pissing
contest
with
Clancy
last
weekend
to
we
can
go
down
a
potter
county
sheriff's
department
I'm
sure
he
can
upset
by
his
crisp
we
appreciate
your
your
sharing
the
good
here
but
you
know
your
statistics
are
wrong
you
don't
want
to
take
exception
with
it
everybody
wants
to
look
the
other
way
pretend
everything's
great
and
Alcoholics
Anonymous
if
you
happen
to
be
coming
to
meetings
like
this
everything's
great
in
Alcoholics
Anonymous
if
you
haven't
been
going
to
some
other
groups
in
towns
where
they
let
you
off
the
hook
they
will
hold
you
accountable
things
are
not
so
great
you're
dropping
like
flies
up
there
where
the
old
timers
four
three
have
you
ever
watched
I
never
watch
okay
honey
Easter
eggs
yeah
you
know
what
I
mean
it's
like
it's
like
you
got
a
bunch
of
little
kids
and
you
go
on
a
hobby
the
spread
you
know
what
it's
like
to
make
some
hard
you
make
some
you
just
check
them
out
online
that
is
that
is
that
is
out
there
you
know
who
you
want
to
give
a
little
kid
something
that
comes
up
in
the
box
and
they're
out
there
run
around
looking
as
well
hello
there
looking
up
there
down
here
the
right
here
you're
stepping
on
them
you
know
that's
exactly
what
the
solutions
about
everybody
that
works
to
step
it's
going
to
have
an
experience
with
god
and
the
obsession
to
use
is
going
to
lead
but
we
can't
we
can't
get
you
to
work
the
steps
and
over
you
won't
work
especially
if
you
don't
understand
what
alcoholism
really
it
a
physical
allergy
coupled
with
the
middle
of
the
session
the
insanity
that
the
book
was
just
talking
about
this
believe
it
you
can
stay
sober
on
a
non
spiritual
basis
you
know
what
I'm
gonna
do
I'm
gonna
change
my
life
and
everything's
going
to
be
good
everything's
gonna
be
great
I'm
a
given
that
stupid
woman
Alex
moved
to
another
town
and
turn
over
a
new
leaf
and
man
what's
going
to
be
great
yeah
how
many
times
we
done
this
guy
how
many
cats
are
here
in
this
in
this
room
right
now
you
alcoholic
I
mean
he
got
drunk
we
have
tons
of
money
we
do
it
every
time
I
went
I
I
get
to
visit
with
you
guys
how
many
we
had
no
money
I
did
learn
a
lot
of
it
how
many
when
you
live
in
a
great
big
town
that's
yeah
apple
crop
will
die
like
Ingram
where
I
live
may
house
burned
out
trailer
here's
the
kicker
with
somebody
that
you
really
love
it
without
being
fine
person
with
with
with
some
beef
with
one
of
guilty
this
week
I'm
gonna
get
to
do
a
deal
and
I
get
to
do
a
little
group
with
a
bunch
of
therapists
upturn
in
Karbala
it's
a
it's
a
it's
a
it's
a
big
deal
nice
gathering
of
people
up
there
a
lot
of
professional
gonna
be
there
and
I'm
gonna
ask
him
that
you
know
because
it
seems
like
when
we
go
to
the
veterans
with
all
these
professional
that's
always
seem
to
want
to
talk
about
how
can
you
organize
alive
over
here
so
you
don't
have
to
drink
over
here
it
just
doesn't
work
that
way
folks
and
I'm
gonna
tell
you
something
I'm
organizing
school
cannot
change
my
life
in
a
heartbeat
S.
Meyer
should
ever
come
across
as
mark
can
you
help
me
move
she's
not
again
he
might
get
bring
some
of
the
girl
that
was
who
is
this
I
mean
it
is
a
different
change
girls
change
houses
changed
course
change
jobs
change
change
change
change
change
what
what
are
running
from
one
of
my
friends
this
internal
condition
the
third
piece
of
art
in
these
instant
spiritual
malady
the
internal
conflict
is
the
most
terrible
terrible
place
to
be
on
earth
day
in
day
out
night
in
night
out
this
internal
discomfort
stays
with
me
and
that
alcoholism
and
you
know
you'll
die
from
it
when
you're
drinking
or
when
you're
sober
what
do
you
got
in
you
know
exactly
what
I'm
talking
about
you
put
the
alcohol
and
drug
away
from
Chris
Rayner
I
don't
I
get
worse
not
better
he'll
get
down
with
that
study
night
Alan
Arkin
as
you've
seen
is
when
we're
dry
not
sober
we're
dry
you
know
I
mean
you
did
which
will
drive
you
nuts
will
wear
you
out
because
nothing's
good
enough
you
got
to
do
something
to
make
me
happy
unbelievable
unbelievable
the
internal
condition
is
what
we
would
get
you
and
and
and
we
know
how
to
treat
it
but
nobody
wants
to
do
it
I'll
go
ahead
just
take
that
right
now
nobody
wants
to
talk
about
the
guy
I
think
we
can't
charge
for
what
was
the
truth
and
I'll
tell
you
another
reason
because
it
takes
courage
to
talk
about
god
it
takes
courage
to
stand
for
why
I
don't
know
it
takes
courage
to
stand
for
the
power
stand
for
something
we're
also
speaking
to
the
concerned
some
stupidly
concerned
about
how
we
look
all
you
want
to
put
anybody
off
you
don't
offend
anybody
great
so
far
there
because
some
of
you
guys
in
this
room
don't
have
a
problem
going
into
a
meeting
and
and
and
cleaning
house
and
taking
next
to
I
think
we
ought
to
be
an
entertaining
speaking
fights
with
people
absolutely
not
do
I
think
we
need
to
stand
for
the
clear
message
of
hope
it
was
given
to
a
sixty
seven
years
ago
absolutely
absolutely
only
game
in
town
it's
with
what
if
you
only
need
to
fall
back
on
we
did
discuss
that
used
in
the
twenty
two
hundred
twenty
two
hundred
discussion
meetings
a
week
in
Houston
Texas
fifty
five
big
meetings
fourteen
twelve
twelve
made
now
what
the
hell
is
this
about
twenty
two
hundred
meetings
a
week
and
only
only
fifty
five
of
them
a
big
meeting
I
think
if
you
wanna
talk
about
god
and
the
power
and
learn
how
to
have
a
spiritual
experience
you
got
fifty
five
places
to
go
and
talk
about
it
but
you
wanna
talk
about
that
stupid
pathetic
lack
of
yours
one
more
time
I
gotta
tell
you
can
we
cannot
be
in
Canada
he
was
later
I'll
be
in
I'll
be
in
New
York
talk
and
if
I
didn't
make
did
Mike
Jack
Ross
speaks
when
I
start
talking
about
this
you
can
see
the
faces
of
the
goods
of
grinding
well
he
had
me
there
for
a
while
I
thought
it
was
pretty
good
so
we
started
talking
about
that
one
of
the
meetings
up
I
mean
that's
what's
for
celebrities
who
share
our
problems
that's
where
we're
off
the
page
I
hope
the
numbers
was
never
intended
to
be
a
dumping
ground
for
your
problems
and
you're
describing
you
you're
calling
it
sherry
I
call
it
dumping
I
wanna
tell
you
something
you'll
be
halted
in
the
room
he's
been
drinking
eternity
what
some
hope
you
know
what
he
calls
it
boring
you
know
it
seems
like
it's
like
all
of
us
have
problems
a
friend
of
mine
from
from
the
Houston
owns
that
someday
he
sent
me
some
day
any
service
you
know
and
I
wear
my
what
I'm
gonna
wear
the
dentures
you
know
it
looks
good
I
think
that's
the
place
we
need
to
go
and
talk
about
this
stuff
let's
go
far
we
don't
talk
about
it
on
tape
before
we
all
get
together
that's
what
we
did
and
when
I
got
sober
nineteen
eighty
seven
those
are
the
times
got
around
me
and
I
said
but
we
talk
about
her
anymore
we
talk
about
the
car
insurance
when
I
talk
about
the
job
we're
not
talking
about
Jack
we're
going
to
talk
about
is
gotten
steps
you're
not
connected
to
god
yup
we're
gonna
step
you
guess
what
you
got
nothing
to
say
what
happened
in
the
nineteen
eighty
seven
I
was
working
for
Myers
thank
god
that
he
hired
me
I
couldn't
cook
anymore
my
my
my
hand
ships
that
are
out
of
the
process
for
years
and
I
wasn't
you
know
little
hearing
the
nab
don't
you
know
we're
not
depressions
killing
me
and
I'm
off
I'm
off
the
page
and
I'm
not
a
happy
camper
now
I
got
some
big
name
of
the
person
by
the
handfuls
of
try
to
stay
young
you
know
functioning
and
it's
just
it's
just
not
working
and
I
go
home
one
night
and
they
decide
to
off
myself
the
tribunal
will
selfish
people
on
earth
is
the
only
solution
I
could
find
you
know
what
thank
you
it's
not
that
I
want
to
die
if
you
I
just
didn't
want
to
feel
the
way
I
was
feeling
anymore
you
know
I
did
alcoholism
is
a
progressive
and
you
know
there's
a
date
when
alcohol
working
I
mean
it's
like
it's
like
alcohol
is
good
guys
we
drink
to
the
effect
I'm
down
with
that
but
after
puritanical
stops
working
to
stop
treatment
internal
conditions
and
I'm
drinking
in
the
depth
of
the
depression
didn't
leave
it
stayed
with
me
now
and
I'm
not
happy
joyous
and
free
anymore
the
ship
was
still
working
I
still
be
drug
use
and
we
do
it
you
know
but
it
stopped
and
now
I'm
in
trouble
and
it's
the
you
know
what
I
want
to
go
to
work
and
I'm
not
doing
good
at
work
and
I
want
to
be
happy
I'm
not
happy
and
I
just
I
just
it
was
the
scene
like
that
but
the
thing
to
do
just
like
so
many
of
us
I
just
want
to
die
I
will
tell
you
something
right
now
guys
there's
some
of
you
in
this
room
right
now
that
are
in
that
spot
and
and
I'm
here
to
tell
you
I
want
you
to
I
want
you
to
listen
what
I'm
saying
stand
what
you're
going
through
and
a
bunch
of
people
in
this
room
I
understand
and
that's
why
we
take
the
thing
so
series
we
laugh
a
lot
but
but
but
there's
a
way
out
it's
call
got
a
great
my
job
is
to
get
connected
to
that
power
how
can
I
do
that
that's
what
we
were
talking
about
pick
seventeen
it's
a
common
solution
some
of
you
guys
been
through
the
ringer
high
time
you
got
connected
to
some
power
I
boarded
that
suicide
attempt
at
night
I'll
never
forget
that
not
as
long
as
I
live
I
don't
talk
about
it
much
I
hit
real
superficially
superficially
on
tape
side
headed
superficially
groups
when
I'm
talking
I
I
just
it's
just
it
was
just
a
scary
damn
night
you
know
it's
just
a
scary
night
out
it
was
no
different
than
any
other
not
accept
the
depression
was
killing
me
and
I
just
haven't
done
a
twin
brother
that
I
loved
in
a
family
and
it
was
just
I
board
the
teams
I
made
myself
sick
after
the
pill
that
I
believe
I
heard
god
say
don't
do
it
go
back
to
a
don't
know
what
I
heard
I
heard
go
back
to
AA
the
next
day
I
went
back
I
had
a
guy
that
did
a
twelve
step
called
me
one
night
after
a
blackout
he
picked
me
up
over
here
in
grapevine
and
called
me
a
little
looser
grouping
to
Chris
you
want
to
go
and
I
said
no
I
don't
I'm
not
dressed
right
and
number
the
truth
is
I
don't
want
to
go
in
there
because
it
was
to
make
people
laugh
and
have
a
good
time
and
I
but
I
went
back
to
his
me
I
knew
where
it
was
a
never
been
there
before
and
I
went
back
I
just
met
a
girl
from
that
group
and
I
did
not
bless
I'm
glad
it's
still
there
or
not
I
yeah
I
when
the
back
door
that
night
and
there's
a
room
full
of
people
about
forty
people
in
there
they're
all
smoking
cigarettes
and
laugh
and
they're
all
carrying
big
books
just
like
click
was
talking
about
they're
all
talking
about
gotten
steps
your
problem
saying
we
won't
be
in
the
Alaskan
lakes
senior
associate
for
years
and
several
people
knew
me
and
they
just
like
Chris
here's
what
we're
gonna
do
tonight
would
anybody
like
to
share
some
hope
with
this
guy
we
might
like
to
share
what
god
has
done
for
you
with
me
now
I
don't
think
I'm
making
this
up
because
you
know
every
first
at
me
I
went
to
the
first
thing
they
did
was
start
with
a
stupid
****
more
stories
they
didn't
do
that
to
me
tonight
there's
a
lot
of
the
book
and
in
bill
story
talks
about
VAT
doing
protocol
in
Billings
has
never
mind
the
must
be
passed
here
said
I'm
still
a
man
I
know
really
if
god
here's
a
man
shouting
great
tidings
and
that's
exactly
what
these
people
did
to
me
they
didn't
sit
around
telling
stupid
war
story
got
I
don't
know
why
we
do
that
in
our
a
a
meetings
there's
one
place
you're
stupid
war
story
and
it's
a
twelve
step
call
once
the
cat
comes
in
the
door
we
got
in
yeah
with
us
speaking
for
getting
it
done
I
mean
why
you
why
you
want
to
do
the
cooking
you
know
it's
a
lot
I
know
what
you're
doing
my
job
is
to
share
my
experience
with
that
whole
I
didn't
mention
this
to
you
I'm
Lou
some
of
you
here
Gimme
Gimme
Gimme
a
Li
Li
right
here
experience
we
can
hope
that
line
comes
in
the
practices
with
me
and
that
purpose
was
at
the
second
edition
I
don't
know
who
wrote
it
but
bill
Wilson
didn't
ride
it
you
with
us
the
original
purpose
of
the
first
page
of
the
first
edition
I
didn't
say
anything
about
sharing
your
experience
stricken
hope
big
but
everybody
wants
to
rub
on
it
that's
my
one
job
but
my
one
doesn't
know
the
conditions
clearly
state
what
your
one
job
is
just
carried
a
message
of
hope
to
the
newcomer
your
job
is
to
carry
the
message
of
hope
to
the
newcomer
in
that
right
our
primary
purpose
of
the
craving
for
groups
cliff
it
would
be
after
the
meeting
will
work
on
something
you're
looking
for
something
in
unbelievable
that's
our
primary
purpose
built
to
carry
the
message
to
the
oncology
still
suffers
he
didn't
say
anything
about
your
concert
experience
strength
and
hope
what
do
you
think
I
know
what
I'm
speaking
about
what
area
I'm
talking
in
the
margin
I
do
workshops
together
we
talk
about
this
and
get
this
I
got
a
standing
ovation
Corp
lost
people
well
if
it
if
it
drives
everybody
crazy
why
are
we
allowing
it
to
happen
who
the
hell
group
candidates
fellowship
this
is
our
fellowship
why
don't
we
take
it
back
when
we
change
the
format
of
our
groups
do
not
allow
that
there's
a
place
for
your
war
stories
both
in
a
twelve
step
call
you
get
the
call
he
didn't
do
anything
even
the
backbone
he's
drunk
you
need
to
get
it
you
need
to
get
attention
you
need
to
get
accomplished
share
some
stories
with
them
so
that
they
can
understand
where
you're
coming
from
you
with
this
then
bring
to
a
meeting
and
now
we
got
in
share
the
hope
share
the
hope
don't
hear
another
stupid
war
story
we
didn't
hear
we
tried
a
new
steering
in
the
study
and
you
can't
scare
an
alcoholic
its
walls
what
I
don't
understand
going
back
to
the
the
whining
Kissimmee
mountain
stuff
here's
what
I
don't
understand
if
our
primary
purpose
is
we
have
a
C.
R.
singleness
of
purpose
not
traditions
tell
us
that
we
have
one
job
here
yep
yeah
call
it
get
well
you
policy
we'll
have
any
problem
at
all
it
was
a
drug
addict
in
one
of
our
meetings
to
shut
him
down
now
listen
I'm
down
with
singleness
of
purpose
I
got
a
comes
in
certainly
all
the
dopey
shops
we
shutting
down
told
to
be
quiet
we're
not
here
to
talk
about
your
build
date
date
but
you
can
come
and
talk
about
your
stupid
freakin
divorced
until
tiles
come
home
how
is
that
different
brands
how
is
that
different
it's
an
outside
issue
it's
got
nothing
to
do
with
what
you're
staying
sober
or
not
it
has
nothing
to
do
with
hello
Bruce
it's
got
nothing
to
do
with
god
so
are
we
talking
about
there
wasn't
a
letter
in
nineteen
nineteen
what's
the
date
on
here
sixty
six
well
great
little
article
it's
an
Advil
secretive
except
for
this
it
has
an
a
a
group
as
such
cannot
take
all
the
personal
problems
of
its
members
let
alone
the
non
alcoholics
in
the
world
around
us
this
was
a
tradition
came
from
this
is
what
sobriety
freedom
from
alcohol
to
the
teaching
and
practice
based
will
step
to
the
sole
purpose
of
the
group
why
are
we
drinking
if
you're
drinking
because
of
those
problems
are
not
one
of
us
I'm
not
making
a
lot
of
the
problems
that
you
need
you
need
to
talk
about
that
once
you
do
this
once
you
see
one
of
us
after
the
meeting
that
you're
coming
apart
at
the
seams
we'll
go
to
Denny's
and
talk
about
it
if
we
don't
have
the
expertise
to
be
able
to
find
you
somebody
topics
we'll
find
you
a
great
counselor
a
therapist
somebody
trying
to
help
you
talk
about
it
because
that's
our
job
the
absolute
absolute
absolute
arrogance
arrogance
of
us
to
think
that
we
can
fix
everybody
and
every
problem
my
bloody
workshops
all
around
talk
about
sponsorship
stuff
you
know
one
of
the
number
one
reason
that
we
don't
sponsor
people
that
the
newcomers
afraid
to
go
sponsored
because
they're
afraid
they're
going
to
hurt
somebody
therefore
they
don't
have
a
right
answer
newcomer
supposed
to
share
hope
with
the
next
newcomer
he
just
can
we
do
that
the
new
cover
supposed
to
share
the
information
out
of
this
book
can
we
do
that
other
than
that
there's
nothing
else
for
us
to
do
we
are
not
terrorists
Hey
Eddie
is
not
syrupy
this
is
not
a
self
help
program
if
you're
using
it
as
that
leave
go
away
March
just
read
how
it
works
the
eighty
feet
what
it's
likely
that
no
human
power
could
fix
what's
wrong
with
me
at
that
right
I
gotta
do
get
connected
to
god
I
think
that
something
like
that
something
she's
why
that's
a
controversial
whether
it
makes
somebody
feel
uncomfortable
because
we're
gonna
leave
these
rooms
are
guaranteed
some
you
guys
go
to
primary
purpose
and
some
you
guys
going
to
be
that
a
great
you're
gonna
go
right
back
into
the
first
thing
you're
gonna
listen
to
a
live
look
at
the
look
on
your
face
already
he
just
didn't
have
the
luck
tells
what
we
consider
to
meetings
screw
you
I
didn't
have
time
to
pick
up
our
valuable
recovery
time
you'll
have
time
to
take
our
valuable
recovery
time
talk
about
your
most
selfish
people
on
earth
can
you
believe
this
god
we
can
give
an
absolute
gift
of
sobriety
the
absolute
number
one
guaranteed
path
to
god
I'm
gonna
let
you
come
here
talk
about
your
craft
I'm
not
I'm
not
having
a
I'm
not
having
a
very
good
day
okay
next
disguised
we
will
have
a
problem
getting
these
cats
alcohols
anonymous
we
don't
have
any
problem
getting
people
to
Alcoholics
Anonymous
they
don't
have
any
problem
didn't
have
to
cook
and
I
was
in
a
call
to
arms
you
know
what
we
have
a
problem
doing
we
have
a
huge
problem
getting
people
to
stay
once
we
get
through
this
fellowship
correct
I
can't
stand
it
they
cannot
stand
listen
to
the
one
they
cannot
stand
listening
to
this
stupid
war
stories
the
two
things
that
we
are
not
supposed
to
do
in
our
meetings
where
is
the
hope
where
is
the
hope
T.
as
in
nineteen
eighty
seven
when
I
walk
back
in
that
room
little
program
told
me
sent
me
on
a
chair
to
sit
out
but
you're
not
going
no
where
to
go
on
the
calendar
for
getting
them
as
any
she
said
attitude
it
adds
to
I
will
but
can
she
can
hold
her
cut
off
on
I
mean
I
was
busted
up
she
set
out
to
clean
up
my
act
spill
coffee
and
a
little
handle
money
the
whole
time
just
to
stay
right
here
stay
right
here
and
right
up
to
the
minute
was
the
old
timers
got
together
article
timers
he
was
a
girl
it
was
the
girl
was
sitting
there
holding
model
hand
which
was
a
year
older
than
I
did
about
nine
months
of
sobriety
the
guy's
gonna
be
my
sponsors
had
a
little
less
than
a
year
at
about
eleven
months
of
riding
in
a
couple
of
guys
in
there
with
it
with
a
couple
of
years
and
they
came
up
ravenous
to
Chris
we're
talking
about
the
big
book
real
quick
you
got
a
minute
I
started
talking
to
me
about
they
asked
me
point
blank
do
you
want
to
stay
sober
the
rest
your
life
you
heard
me
a
thousand
times
as
I
may
be
wrong
the
ultimate
mistake
that
will
trigger
the
time
I
said
well
you
know
one
day
at
a
time
nope
that's
it
but
we're
not
interested
you're
ready
to
get
sober
or
you're
not
we
don't
have
time
to
mess
with
you
what
they
did
they
qualified
me
that
not
they
ask
me
about
alcoholism
they
asked
me
if
I
was
really
need
to
be
here
they
were
checking
to
see
if
I
need
to
be
a
sister
fellowship
or
not
they
were
checking
to
see
if
I
needed
to
be
in
a
room
about
false
alarms
I
did
hello
the
next
day
they
came
and
got
me
let
me
back
over
the
meeting
with
your
third
step
prior
to
getting
some
information
before
step
and
I
started
my
journey
two
weeks
later
I
had
a
spiritual
experience
and
my
life
changed
forever
two
weeks
two
weeks
during
those
two
weeks
real
quick
I'll
let
you
guys
go
two
weeks
I'm
sitting
there
in
that
meeting
and
the
person
they
had
me
do
I'll
never
forget
I
came
in
on
a
Friday
yeah
with
me
that
if
there's
a
prosperity
and
then
starting
at
six
o'clock
I
suppose
of
course
we
can
identify
owns
has
it
you
need
to
get
somebody
else
to
answer
your
stupid
phone
as
I
sit
in
this
room
detox
and
I
don't
have
time
to
mess
with
it
it's
what's
his
phone
business
little
papal
against
the
wall
so
we
all
remember
in
Lewisburg
there's
a
take
on
what
counts
in
the
nation
and
it
was
a
meeting
scheduled
on
the
wall
next
to
Chris
if
the
phone
rings
answer
it
can
help
somebody
get
a
meeting
schedule
that's
all
we're
asking
you
to
do
what
I
can
go
and
save
any
lives
are
really
run
into
the
burning
buildings
or
anything
we're
just
asking
you
to
answer
the
stupid
phone
I'll
never
forget
I'm
just
pissed
because
I'm
embarrassed
I
don't
know
I
don't
know
what
it
wants
in
the
transporter
argued
leading
it
also
in
writing
that
all
should
what
do
I
do
answer
it
I
think
the
house
they
look
into
the
like
near
naked
like
what
cleaning
house
loose
will
group
I
think
of
the
pump
it
was
over
just
how
much
you
want
out
of
a
meeting
I
think
there's
there's
a
means
get
about
their
short
without
limiting
it
tell
what
time
it
is
a
seven
thirty
little
seven
thirty
talk
to
lay
and
turned
up
I
know
the
lady
C.
R.
bard
his
next
door
neighbor
if
this
lady
that
he
this
cat
American
even
drinking
forever
anyway
anyway
I
know
this
place
is
high
I
know
you
must
not
do
anything
that
I'll
meet
you
out
front
you
just
look
for
me
cheap
cheap
record
of
the
patches
you
look
for
me
and
also
I'll
fly
you
down
you
come
in
while
you
had
me
at
that
and
I
did
that
and
I
will
tell
you
to
miss
out
on
that
phone
though
there's
a
little
bit
different
in
my
demeanor
you
know
anybody
else
from
that
time
on
a
bill
here
that
phone
I
mean
for
months
upon
at
a
private
job
away
from
young
I
was
wondering
if
somebody's
are
going
but
I
don't
know
I
you
could
you
could
you
could
kill
somebody
answer
the
phone
wrong
but
elements
all
of
a
sudden
guy
because
all
of
a
sudden
wondered
what's
the
difference
I'm
not
talking
about
your
fellowship
anymore
it's
not
about
my
fellowship
in
America
your
group
anymore
talk
about
my
career
because
quite
personal
when
you
start
participating
have
you
guys
you've
been
around
for
years
and
are
you
still
large
participants
you're
just
you're
out
there
on
the
on
the
side
of
it
just
watching
come
on
Dick
Clark's
it
is
some
going
weird
in
your
group
change
it's
your
responsibility
don't
wait
for
the
old
timer
to
do
it
they're
busy
doing
some
other
things
the
big
I'll
tell
you
what
else
might
be
happening
maybe
it's
just
me
plum
wore
out
the
side
in
the
battle
themselves
maybe
it's
time
for
some
of
what
little
nutrients
to
get
in
the
trenches
with
the
rest
of
these
cats
start
taking
some
responsibility
yeah
original
story
this
little
book
called
how
it
works
but
Clark's
matter
then
and
we're
not
pitching
class
here
but
you
know
he
was
a
big
twelve
separate
big
big
idea
basically
this
little
thing
coming
up
her
we
talk
about
this
for
the
traditional
skinny
guys
and
got
an
orgy
Mr
arches
agreements
were
real
story
minutes
of
real
real
cash
he
did
hold
a
napkin
doctor
Bob's
house
he's
been
there
for
about
six
months
they
they
just
been
sitting
on
this
guy
you
know
for
the
eagles
he
got
little
phobias
he's
scared
of
his
own
shadow
he's
just
scared
to
death
and
he
comes
out
he
can
go
back
to
the
room
that's
what
the
book
says
racks
and
doctor
and
doctor
monomer
sicken
tired
of
having
a
chat
hang
around
you
know
this
is
like
may
go
hang
someplace
else
you
know
actually
sending
back
with
clearance
back
to
Akron
to
Cleveland
on
clearance
is
gonna
use
images
this
is
to
see
if
I
can
find
it'll
be
a
are
you
look
at
me
like
he
was
a
lucky
was
hit
with
a
club
and
classical
nobody
ever
asked
her
to
do
anything
I
suspect
some
of
you
guys
in
here
are
you
with
us
they
end
up
getting
back
to
town
parts
locally
got
the
backseat
with
and
then
sail
into
the
long
rides
the
side
released
and
sent
back
to
the
driver
seat
he
relax
and
go
back
to
Cleveland
and
it
was
often
back
okay
listen
the
next
day
Arsene
somewhat
different
all
he
did
was
get
office
asking
me
and
drive
back
to
Cleveland
with
a
bunch
of
big
books
on
first
day
the
very
next
day
art
seems
somewhat
different
maybe
it
was
the
theory
class
with
forces
suffered
a
long
ride
with
Aetna
or
maybe
it
was
something
even
more
profound
ours
got
so
busy
with
a
in
Cleveland
that
he
appeared
to
change
right
before
turns
his
eyes
large
with
the
hospital
to
dry
out
places
help
with
drugs
all
over
the
place
he
got
so
busy
and
so
far
it
over
his
head
he
forgot
all
about
his
fears
and
phobias
surprisingly
he
became
a
big
asset
currency
became
one
of
the
boys
he
eventually
went
back
to
Akron
in
the
man's
within
a
few
months
he
returned
and
we
are
closed
points
and
started
first
aid
meeting
in
Detroit
big
Bucks
seventy
Bucks
for
six
months
and
didn't
do
anything
and
that's
what
happens
to
us
in
the
fellowship
we're
so
afraid
of
offending
the
alcoholic
much
I'm
going
to
get
up
and
come
help
us
right
trying
to
be
politically
correct
try
to
be
easy
does
it
take
it
easy
take
everything
out
of
context
you
see
that
we
will
ask
the
alcohol
to
do
the
one
thing
that's
going
to
save
his
life
program
of
action
folks
action
is
not
a
program
of
sync
is
a
program
of
action
we
act
our
way
into
wellness
Jeez
how
can
how
can
we
get
you
guys
to
do
it
how
could
get
people
to
do
it
two
weeks
after
I
walked
in
that
fellowship
and
buy
out
because
none
of
us
in
Lewisville
Texas
I
I
got
out
of
my
truck
one
night
up
in
North
Texas
and
I
pull
the
tail
gate
down
my
truck
in
that
set
in
a
parking
lot
out
there
one
twenty
one
and
I
cried
like
a
baby
and
I
looked
around
the
neighbors
liquor
stores
all
around
me
in
seven
eleven
stop
and
go
in
and
maximize
outside
issue
dealer
lives
in
the
apartment
complex
where
I
live
and
it's
probably
not
I
got
a
pocket
full
of
money
and
I'm
sitting
on
the
tailgate
crying
because
not
that
I'm
miserable
because
I
don't
want
to
use
the
desire
to
drink
and
then
lifted
from
me
next
call
recovery
and
it's
called
god's
grace
no
date
and
that's
where
everybody
in
this
room
can
be
and
that's
where
every
alcoholic
out
there
on
the
street
right
now
everybody
in
the
big
ten
houses
or
in
a
little
burned
out
traders
in
south
county
where
the
hell
they
are
that's
where
they
can
be
if
I
do
the
work
everybody's
different
Chris
everybody's
gonna
have
a
different
experience
that's
a
crock
that's
a
crock
you
say
one
more
thing
in
Malaysia
please
for
the
therapist
in
town
that
I
locked
horns
with
a
couple
weeks
ago
when
I
heard
that
we've
been
sending
patients
back
to
primary
purpose
and
primary
purpose
we're
getting
word
back
from
the
patients
with
basically
the
council's
tell
them
not
to
go
to
primary
purpose
within
a
primary
purpose
they
come
here
they
go
see
that
their
presence
there
for
the
taking
don't
go
to
that
group
little
different
very
they're
too
rigid
over
there
I
thought
I
called
the
old
one
and
on
because
you
see
that's
it's
called
mixed
messages
to
the
alcoholic
or
totally
up
how
to
get
their
life
depends
on
working
with
others
and
they
can
be
sent
to
a
group
where
where
they
tell
him
to
go
work
with
others
and
now
the
therapist
is
going
to
go
to
groups
where
they
ask
you
not
to
work
with
others
you
agree
to
be
here
for
the
first
year
you
can't
share
you
can't
bother
to
use
over
two
years
you'll
hear
that
crap
that's
exactly
what
it
is
what
happened
arch
whatever
the
bill
Wilson
whatever
the
doctor
Bob
what
happened
the
first
one
hundred
they
didn't
like
to
your
start
working
with
others
Jesus
died
we're
dealing
with
worse
that's
the
most
fatal
illness
and
again
the
World
Bank
alcoholism
drug
addiction
kills
more
people
than
cancer
rates
combined
that's
a
real
statistic
and
are
you
gonna
get
well
the
number
one
where
you
get
well
if
you
have
yourself
I
will
work
with
somebody
else
we're
gonna
have
the
absolute
absolute
arrogance
to
tell
newcomers
that
they
don't
have
anything
to
share
with
with
with
with
with
the
right
one
you
have
you
have
the
right
to
sit
on
your
****
one
we
don't
have
time
dice
is
desperate
after
folks
he's
desperate
and
we
need
your
help
she's
unbelievable
after
therapist
I
suppose
but
what
he
does
different
paths
to
god
this
people
wait
to
do
this
you
know
what
it's
a
protest
come
to
our
hospital
our
last
gasp
push
your
chronic
relapse
they
need
something
with
some
pretty
serious
medicine
it
as
you
know
I
mean
we
we
we're
we're
dying
from
middle
road
solution
they're
asking
the
kicker
well
you
know
you
have
to
be
pretty
critical
little
group
you
know
you're
you're
coming
down
the
hill
a
junior
boys
are
coming
down
pretty
hard
on
this
group
let
me
ask
you
point
blank
chances
are
did
you
ever
go
there
isn't
a
big
book
study
listen
to
him
talk
about
god
the
steps
and
see
how
they
they
work
remains
well
no
I
have
never
been
over
there
but
I
you
know
I'm
not
all
great
just
like
a
lot
of
people
in
this
fellowship
you're
talking
about
something
that
you
got
absolutely
no
experience
with
what
is
the
truth
come
on
guys
how
do
you
know
it
won't
work
you
go
to
one
of
the
one
that
joins
you
sit
across
from
somebody
it's
hopeless
this
got
ten
thousand
legal
problems
backing
up
over
their
head
and
a
wife
is
packing
in
sick
kids
home
and
no
money
interested
in
literature
here
compromise
health
problems
this
statement
is
reminiscent
of
things
like
what
the
hell
am
I
gonna
do
I
look
at
what
is
that
going
to
work
I've
been
to
treatment
before
this
I
go
to
work
do
you
sit
in
a
room
with
somebody
like
that
he
walked
up
to
him
share
that
hope
with
them
and
what's
the
life
changing
their
eyes
want
to
turn
the
question
turned
the
corner
what's
in
store
for
seconds
come
on
just
recently
not
believing
what
you're
saying
and
in
turn
the
corner
and
start
realizing
the
dot
didn't
work
for
you
maybe
it'll
work
for
me
and
you
watch
a
little
hope
come
across
her
face
I
used
to
see
if
you
wanna
go
direct
there's
nothing
like
it
in
the
world
one
alcoholic
one
alcoholic
working
with
another
alcoholic
and
I've
seen
it
a
thousand
hi
Alex
somebody
else
do
it
no
you
don't
understand
do
you
think
it
was
coincidence
that
marketing
to
this
group
do
you
think
it
was
coincidence
that
I
ended
up
in
in
in
in
hot
Texas
do
you
think
it's
going
to
take
a
quick
look
here
that
any
of
you
guys
in
this
room
we
showed
up
tonight
you
think
it's
a
coincidence
you
sit
in
the
meeting
and
you
watch
that
door
and
you
wait
for
the
newcomer
to
come
in
and
you
make
sure
that
that
new
coverage
yours
don't
talk
about
some
you
don't
know
anything
about
you're
not
doing
twelve
step
work
you're
not
sponsored
anybody
stop
Sydney
means
instruct
your
children
say
this
didn't
work
you
go
do
what
the
coaches
ask
you
to
do
please
please
we
sure
need
you
six
six
now
at
past
litigation
in
the
court
of
appeals
now
if
law
in
one
state
already
that
we
can't
talk
about
god
in
our
state
funded
facilities
reconsider
their
state
funded
federal
funded
monies
if
the
policies
are
not
gonna
be
able
to
talk
about
god
with
me
which
means
what
which
means
what
right
you
can
look
it
up
on
any
website
do
you
have
any
either
that
or
the
information
is
out
there
for
anybody
who
wants
to
read
it
the
most
recent
ones
when
we
were
talking
about
last
year
the
state
court
of
appeals
in
New
York
are
coming
down
the
pike
in
this
business
federal
government
in
trouble
because
they're
sending
probationers
towards
our
rooms
and
it's
a
religious
order
quote
on
quote
to
them
and
because
we
talk
about
god
they're
not
gonna
spend
and
not
and
not
going
to
find
these
facilities
so
here's
what
happened
they're
gonna
start
shutting
the
facility
down
good
guys
we
can't
talk
about
god
we
can't
talk
about
synonymous
what
the
hell
we're
gonna
get
these
patients
it
is
a
private
funded
facility
you're
not
a
problem
at
the
state
funded
facilities
where
they
get
the
real
damn
drunk
a
lot
of
times
you're
not
gonna
be
able
to
talk
about
this
business
now
for
these
guys
to
come
to
absolutely
we're
gonna
have
to
do
our
jobs
we're
going
to
have
to
get
back
in
the
trenches
we
were
supposed
to
be
all
along
we're
gonna
have
to
stop
looking
at
the
tree
considers
to
fix
what's
wrong
we're
gonna
have
to
start
talking
about
god
missteps
the
best
scares
the
daylights
out
of
a
bunch
of
your
budget
you
don't
even
kind
of
want
to
go
there
you're
going
to
actually
have
to
get
up
off
your
****
and
start
talking
about
your
pathetic
little
life
and
actually
do
the
work
that's
a
scary
thing
in
it
but
I'm
gonna
tell
you
guys
I'm
gonna
tell
you
to
shut
up
get
out
that's
absolute
greatest
as
a
greatest
hits
like
you
give
anybody
in
this
room
is
a
privilege
and
a
chance
to
participate
somebody
else's
recovery
you
think
you
have
anything
to
share
let
me
tell
you
something
buddy
what
new
cover
comes
in
you
grab
another
election
where
the
bathroom
is
the
mock
up
coffee
talk
to
you
about
god
instead
telling
about
how
your
life
has
changed
you
it
takes
my
breath
away
to
watch
and
see
what
happens
this
what
it
was
and
said
back
in
two
Advil
see
that
little
booklet
it
says
Hey
in
two
words
of
course
that
this
to
me
years
ago
all
I
A.
progress
can
be
reckoned
in
terms
of
just
two
words
humility
and
responsibility
our
whole
spiritual
development
can
be
accurately
measured
by
the
green
over
here
is
to
these
magnificent
standards
is
by
them
that
we
will
be
enabled
to
find
and
to
do
god's
will
humility
how
we
understand
what
your
job
is
in
a
your
job
today
is
not
to
bring
the
problems
your
job
is
to
bring
the
solution
you
invest
and
responsibility
if
you
got
a
meeting
that's
going
south
turn
it
around
you
got
somebody
in
a
meeting
this
pontificating
and
talking
too
long
like
I
am
now
shut
show
him
up
if
you
got
meetings
where
people
are
using
the
dumping
ground
change
the
format
to
please
returns
to
literature
based
meetings
so
that
we
can
start
here
is
a
selection
of
our
fellowship
we
need
every
single
one
of
you
everyone
of
you
in
our
fellowships
your
windows
I'm
so
honored
to
be
here
I
love
you
very
much
CSX
Hey
that
was
awesome
that
was
awesome
and
on
behalf
of
everybody
here
I
want
to
thank
Chris
for
for
being
up
here
and
and
share
his
message
sharing
sharing
the
message
and
at
his
request
like
what
I'm
gonna
wait
to
pass
the
basketball
then
do
my
deal
afterwards
rabbit
inner
child
workshop
so
if
you
heard
state
bar
doctors
bills
come
in
by
it'll
be
great
it'll
be
right
our
book
is
meant
to
be
suggested
this
suggested
only
we
realize
we
only
know
only
know
only
a
little
god
will
constantly
disclose
more
to
you
and
to
us
welcome
to
your
morning
meditation
what
you
can
do
today
for
the
man
who
is
still
sick
the
answers
will
come
if
your
own
houses
in
order
well
you
obviously
cannot
transmit
something
you
haven't
got
see
to
it
that
your
relationship
with
him
is
right
and
great
events
will
come
to
pass
for
you
and
for
countless
others
this
is
a
Greg
back
for
us
abandon
yourself
to
god
as
you
understand
god
admit
your
faults
to
HIM
and
your
fellows
clear
away
the
wreckage
of
your
past
give
freely
of
what
you
find
and
join
us
we
shall
be
with
you
in
the
fellowship
of
the
spirit
you
will
surely
need
some
of
us
as
you
trudge
the
road
of
happy
destiny
may
god
bless
you
and
keep
you
until
then
big
book
the
textbook
page
one
sixty
four
if
you
like
to
become
a
member
of
our
group
we
think
one
of
the
white
envelope
from
the
basket
when
it
comes
around
if
you're
already
a
member
and
you
have
a
change
in
your
phone
number
address
or
sobriety
date
righted
take
the
white
card
update
your
information
which
are
returned
the
card
to
me
R.
seven
tradition
states
that
each
group
ought
to
be
self
supporting
through
their
own
contributions
if
this
is
your
first
meeting
of
Alcoholics
Anonymous
or
if
you're
visiting
we
ask
that
you
be
our
guest
we're
glad
you
came
and
hope
you'll
come
back
to
become
a
part
of
our
lives
and
while
we're
passing
the
basket
we
usually
have
a
little
song
and
dance
but
I
I
want
to
read
something
from
a
couple
told
members
of
this
group
a
little
correspondence
I
took
place
couple
months
ago
says
if
one
out
of
ten
people
are
alcoholics
how
many
people
do
we
come
to
come
into
contact
with
throughout
our
days
Jan
twenty
or
more
be
sure
that
our
big
book
says
that
we're
to
be
of
maximum
service
to
god
and
the
people
about
us
who
are
those
people
about
it
we're
instructed
to
ask
doctor
doctors
ministers
etcetera
about
where
we
can
locate
those
who
are
still
suffering
so
why
can't
we
ask
other
people
with
other
professions
everyone
in
this
world
knows
somebody
that
has
a
problem
with
either
alcohol
or
drugs
why
are
we
trying
to
get
more
services
in
our
daily
lives
would
it
be
wrong
to
strike
up
a
simple
conversation
with
the
lady
behind
you
in
the
loop
in
the
grocery
line
how
do
you
know
that
she
hasn't
been
crying
and
pouring
your
heart
out
to
god's
brings
to
bring
someone
into
our
lives
I
can
help
help
her
son
or
daughter
how
do
you
know
unless
you
ask
and
let
you
take
the
action
we
don't
if
we
don't
I
personally
feel
that
we're
only
being
of
service
between
certain
hours
of
our
day
what
about
the
other
time
that
we
have
been
blessed
with
why
not
take
full
advantage
of
each
and
every
opportunity
that
we
are
given
can
we
step
up
and
step
out
just
a
little
bit
more
who
knows
what
kind
of
miracles
will
take
place
in
our
lives
we
just
reach
out
not
just
in
the
treatment
facilities
in
jails
but
to
the
quiet
lady
standing
behind
you
and
the
reply
is
this
there
is
a
world
of
misunderstanding
and
ignorance
out
there
and
our
mission
is
to
have
our
head
in
the
clouds
our
feet
firmly
planted
on
this
earth
as
that
to
our
fellow
travelers
are
the
doctor
Baden
Clarence
and
bill
and
now
we're
we're
live
what
actions
would
they
take
what
they
sit
back
and
wait
for
the
alcoholics
to
come
to
them
not
a
chance
would
they
show
up
at
a
meeting
or
two
in
hopes
of
finding
a
prospect
if
they're
not
too
bad
all
the
middle
of
the
road
is
alive
and
flourishing
and
it
breaks
my
heart
some
toes
will
be
stepped
on
to
bring
the
solution
to
those
who
seek
it
but
bring
it
we
will
what
better
way
to
thank
god
for
giving
giving
me
another
chance
thank
you
what
better
way
to
thank
god
for
giving
me
another
chance
the
my
getting
off
my
rear
and
caring
the
solution
to
someone
who's
dying
just
like
I
was
Dr
Bob
worked
with
over
five
thousand
people
before
he
died
do
you
think
that
the
concept
of
work
with
another
alcoholic
being
vital
to
permanent
recovery
was
a
big
player
in
that
it
was
think
of
the
healing
in
our
own
lies
in
the
joy
and
hope
that
is
brought
to
our
families
friends
it's
better
as
a
result
of
relying
on
god
and
practicing
these
principles
what
is
the
following
excerpt
from
bill's
story
held
true
today
all
of
us
spend
much
of
our
spare
time
more
repeat
that
all
of
us
spend
much
of
our
spare
time
doing
this
sort
of
thing
a
few
of
us
are
fortunate
to
be
so
situated
that
we
can
get
nearly
all
of
their
time
to
work
through
the
work
if
we
keep
on
the
way
we
are
going
there's
little
doubt
that
much
good
will
result
but
the
surface
of
the
problem
would
hardly
be
scratched
those
of
us
who
live
in
large
cities
are
overcome
by
the
recent
by
the
reflection
get
close
by
hundreds
are
dropping
into
oblivion
everyday
many
could
recover
if
they
have
the
opportunity
we
have
enjoyed
how
then
shall
we
present
that
which
has
been
so
freely
given
us
the
textbook
page
nineteen
it
ends
like
this
a
paraphrase
from
the
textbook
page
one
twenty
nine
I
plan
on
going
to
the
mine
today
armed
with
my
picture
in
god
in
my
heart
my
pick
will
strike
gold
today
and
I'm
gonna
give
the
entire
thing
away
well
I
got
on
that
in
the
practice
of
the
primary
purpose
moved
offer
desired
ship
to
anyone
who
has
a
desire
to
stop
drinking
this
chip
desires
this
chip
indicate
a
desire
to
never
drink
again
one
day
at
a
time
is
anyone
would
anyone
like
to
begin
their
journey
tonight
all
still
a
good
place
to
get
a
desire
to
have
I'm
telling
yeah
all
rights
are
announcements
are
all
regularly
scheduled
meetings
are
at
seven
thirty
on
Tuesdays
Thursdays
and
Saturdays
seven
thirty
PM
open
big
book
study
on
Tuesday
big
book
and
the
steps
and
traditions
study
on
Thursdays
the
first
Saturday
of
every
month
we
celebrate
birthdays
and
haven't
eaten
meat
the
the
remainder
of
the
month
we
dedicate
to
a
step
speaker
and
the
month
of
February
it
will
be
Scott
Y.
as
in
Baker
all
right
great
this
is
a
great
place
to
meet
people
who
are
doing
the
deal
working
on
the
firing
line
in
a
great
place
to
hear
what
this
program
has
to
offer
our
non
meets
Monday
and
Friday
at
twelve
noon
and
Thursdays
at
seven
thirty
PM
got
a
lot
of
people
on
our
prayer
list
I
don't
have
the
prayer
list
in
front
of
me
that's
my
bad
I'd
like
to
thank
Ellen
and
Chris
for
being
here
tonight
and
let's
give
you
a
regular
hand
and
I
would
like
to
thank
you
again
everybody
got
here
at
two
thirty
or
three
o'clock
this
afternoon
and
help
set
up
you
know
and
I
mean
it's
just
an
awesome
effort
and
and
every
time
we
do
this
that
we
were
always
stressed
about
who's
gonna
do
it
how
we
gonna
do
it
it
always
works
god
is
good
to
us
you
know
it's
so
great
and
if
if
you're
a
guest
tonight
you
know
it's
the
stick
around
for
the
mix
and
mingle
will
introduce
you
to
the
people
we
invite
you
back
in
the
future
and
I
I
again
I
want
to
thank
everybody
for
being
here
thanks
for
putting
up
with
my
stammering
fifty
hello
my
god
Hey
it's
been
a
long
time
because
I
had
to
wear
a
suit
I
don't
want
you
to
join
hands
to
close
in
the
lord's
prayer
thanks
for
being
here