The 12-step Happening in Reykjavik, Iceland

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my name's Chris Raybon recovered alcoholic

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R. I. A.

thank you

I am I am so honored to be here on

I'll try to make this quick got it's tight quarters here for some of you guys you're gonna get a little hot in here and I have I. D. I can't tell you at the hospitality here at Mars in and Peter and I if I am absolutely delighted by this experience I I need it it's not anything what I expected I can assure you I I put this trip offer year just but it just doesn't because it was it

unbelievable experience and I'm sure they'll agree we get a chance here Myers in the morning and Peter did a great job last night SO elegant

Peter asked me to call him on the phone asking us how many bags you bring in Iceland because it's a long way to travel you know night I usually I do a lot of speaking are travelers but mostly in the states I do not have any bags to bring I mean what what do you take you know and a lot of coach you know they have judicial jokes and

you know I Peter said he's taken three bags he's taking one back for coaching staff and close and he's taken to for hair care products

look at these guys here I mean it's like

it is like the guys yes Peter stand up to these guys because like I didn't see this morning

if you will we have a willing to go to any lengths in us like it is in the bathroom for ever on this like so there's a reason that they look like I just crawled out of a dumpster you know it took me about three seconds to get ready and

great hospitality I think Peter in on armor and all the guys at the house anybody else anything to do with getting us up here this is a a truly a blessing I I look at the guys check this out like I had yeah yeah I wanna be amused all you know I got my the chic T. shirt in honor

we have some sheep **** waiting for us after we finished talking

I suggest you very highly that I did not eat that before but I'm gonna try I mean I I I used to be the food business out anything you know and I didn't I'm absolutely honored to be here

the nicest people I've ever met I got to tell you that the government open I don't know if that's just

because you're just bored **** was on this island I don't I don't know what you just so open I was like you know I speak rather conferences it's been weeks it weakens in Congress as a good will ever ask me about this I you know and I've had an endless procession of people coming up

what's up with the I. pace whatsoever

and then like a little kids it can I see it

nobody can see this if you want to

I didn't because in case of that the two of you in here that have not asked me what happened the I've

I was in a rock fight when I was a kid about eleven years old you know mom was right you know you can rock five stone rocks in the backyard and Texas and I just didn't duck and I got him out of the rock and then lost his sight yes I do have an I. it looks like **** no you can't see it

I don't know I used to tell me when I was growing up when I was drinking the disease I used to tell him because like you can go on like little Vietnam bars you know the real beer joints all over take all of the state's anywhere you could go in there and and tell them that not a lot I lost in Vietnam it is just it has a better ring I lost his eye in Vietnam then a lost in Iraq by you know it is

thousands more Houston so we all heard me say if I told this guy that I was in Vietnam and we started drinking beers at any I had that you know I mean it had been too long that we had enough alcohol in me and I kept talking enough to know that I've never been out of the state of Texas much less Vietnam you know I got to tell you that bad that I was talking to was not amused you know I gotta say this if you have an Arab you're asking my guy in a wheelchair

you don't want to you buddy I want to date

as they remember laying on the floor that Bartlett listen guys take that got run over him again Jackson

when

well it's not cool

everybody ask me if I was nervous yes I'm nervous you know I know people they can get up to this podium and not be nervous at all I throw up before I speak I I swear I sit up here you know just you know god please I'm not pray and I'm I'm begging you know got don't don't deserve me now I don't

I mean there's a trade off centers on the podium before and I can say with you because because we're we're like kissing cousins now but I get it you know

I'd rather keep the cats but then do this

because I know what's going to happen some of you guys are gonna enjoy this talk and some of you guys are not going to enjoy this talk

you know anytime I validate you that say that you're doing something well you like me and then in that time I say something that you're not doing so well and I might bring it to your attention not that I'm the bad guy yeah yeah with this you know it's like that relationship you give your girlfriend tells you the best in the west and then she makes one little commented on the way then you might be able to change your immediately pissed off all the compliments his went out the door

some of you heard my tapes and CD's and stuff around you will you'll hear my eyes in the morning it's the same kind of stuff which which is not guys we don't want to piss anybody off and we're not trying to gun for anybody it's just it's just that is I'm so passionate about recover somebody said earlier she's on her journey takes you you seem so angry you know that's that's a tape you know and I'm in the middle of a talk in and I'm not angry but I but I'm passionate about recovery I just

no I nearly died get alcoholics anonymous and may not I spent time eating out of dumpsters and I spent time make a lot of money it was real confusing for me and I spent a lot of time in seven years in and out of Alcoholics Anonymous in the states in Texas dying of what we call untreated alcoholism and I and and I am not going to stay so for per time and leave and go in is because it just lights up so many of you all in this room it is not necessary because I never heard the solution all I wanna do is talk to you about my experience in that if if my experience please stick with me this if my experience doesn't jive with your experience forget it don't take it personal you'll be with us if you're a hard drinker hanging out may eighth all you want to do is coming to the meetings and use them as a dumping ground for your freaking little problems go ahead if you think that you're right please go ahead

I hope you die soon but I

he

here's the problem that we face with here's the problem in Alcoholics Anonymous in the state's insurance here too you know you you got a lot of cats we had a real clear message back in nineteen thirty five nineteen forty when we sure got when we got the message the book was published in thirty nine we had a real clear message down to great success right now the messages been garbled up by a bunch of people I work for treatment center I did clerical work for a hospital in in Texas the high dollar treatment center and I got a taste of it's a great facility what we do the same thing in that facility that we do here in in in the Iceland we dry you out we get you away separate from the chemicals long enough to get your little head straight to figure out what to do and then the cats that walk out to get connected with that strong a I wish I could send them all to Iceland because I gotta tell you got a core bunch of people in this room that are Kickin **** Kickin but forget the amount of sobriety body until you passion is in this room you're the cats I'm talking to and if the cats if you can identify what I'm saying very

just bless you I was truly a nothing personal not really

here's what happened there was a doctor Bob bill this is talking to his little book I'm right now I'm still a big book and it talks about he said he said that I confuse the newcomer he

he said he had a desperate desire to stop he's talking about Dr Bob the co founder of Alcoholics Anonymous we saw No Way Out forget earnestly tried many avenues of escape painfully aware of being somehow abnormal the man did not fully realize what it meant to be alcoholic you with this and that and that that is that is still true today in our fellowship we got a lot of people that are in in this fellowship because somebody sent in here or because they drink too much this great land this little book

every alcoholics every alcoholic to drunk but not ever drunks an alcoholic

if you get it

the scene that's the problem that we have we we have this idea that if you drink a lot you're an alcoholic and that's not true and that's what the book's been sixty pages trying to explain alcoholism is a disease drug addiction is a disease if you've got it there's just a small percentage above us that habit and it is about fifteen percent in the states right now they've got it and if you got it buddy its failings progressive it's going to kill you if you follow us if you don't have it then you're going to get to a place where the pain of staying drunk is too great and you make some decision

based on your own well being to stop you'll have the power to stop you with this the book says if you can check here on page thirty four hundred this one or not but this down

somebody help me with my glasses please

page thirty four we read it this morning and not Peter referred to it last night it says it says weathers

for those who are unable to drink moderately the question is how to stop altogether drug modeling Yakin subject words in here what if your demon is worse there's nobody in here this modern anything I can assure you but

we're assuming of course that the reader desires to stop no that's an assumption I'm look at this room thinking you all want to be in recovery but the truth is some of you guys can't wait to get the hell out of here you don't want to you don't want to get sober you what you want is the pain to go away your followers you what you want is the heat to get off you want that road towards to pull back from your but if you make changes so you can move a little bit you want the woman to come back you want the job to come back with a lot of you know if you're and then and then you're gonna go right straight back to it you with this and again you're welcome but you're not gonna understand what I'm talking about here okay here's what it says

whether such a person can quit upon a non spiritual basis that means can you if you can stop without god

I E. working the steps

depends upon the extent to which you've already lost the power to choose whether you're going to do it or not

if you can choose to stop you're not one of us but you know what I mean by stop guys I mean stop

if you could choose to quit and leave it all I don't mean for six months I don't mean for a few weeks I mean quit for good you'll you'll follow me if you can do that you're not one of us this is the baffling feature alcoholism as we know it this is utter inability to leave it alone no matter how great the necessity or the wish to save but I didn't hear any of that when I got out of college anonymous in nineteen eighty I don't hear any of that what I heard was a lot of stuff to talk about your problems and if you just live your life around and manage better you'd be okay and this is what treatment centers teach if there's anybody from a treatment center that's teaching it quit

alcoholism is genetic folks and we get it genetically we because we we're we're wired different than normal people it's got nothing to do with my circumstances the

alcoholism is not a behavioral problem we got we got industry out there that wants to turn us all into a bunch of free cases all world world just mixed up people in this no we're not we're we're the finest people on earth the most talented

certainly in this room the most beautiful Jesus I never saw anything like it

I'm glad I got a girlfriend home I'll be staying here

and so you so you ladies if you haven't a homely damn babies I can promise you unbelievable unbelievable with the best folks with the cream of the crop but we are wired genetically different he's like it's we laugh about in this hospital it's like being allergic to certain foods you know anybody that's allergic to certain foods nobody's gonna Jack is some guy can't eat shellfish right and so it's actually the third person across from him help let's just go back and talk about your mama some more you know because I

this is how is it how is it that you were potty trained because I believe it is I believe this is this is interviewed in the shellfish problem

I can't eat shellfish because genetically I'm wired that way big that's what's all it is I can't drink alcohol because my body will metabolize it like a normal individual in the statement it's got nothing to do with the way we were raised and if you're in this room thinking that you're drinking and drug has got something to do with the way you were raised or something bad happened to you you need to really pay attention to this talk

and after I'm gone and you finish taking my inventory you need to get

you need to get real quiet and it was somebody that understands this work and try to find out what's going on because we got this idea can't stand this coat we've got this idea

we got this idea in in into spelled in most treatment centers that we would just manage better

we would stay sober but I mean how do you explain the times I made a lot of money and I had a great and all the stuff lined up you know that there's a lot in the book and read stories as that was the end of a perfect day not a cloud on the horizon next paragraph he gets drunk it's like how are you going to be

the end of a perfect day not a cloud on the horizon you see guys because I'm not drinking about because of external circumstances this is real list I can see the basis some of you already your collector because yours here

it is practically peeing on myself over here

this here's what you want to do here's what you wanna do you want to draw a direct line between something that happened to you or something that is happening to you and blame that for your drinking and as long as you're doing that you're never going to get well

you're always going to be a victim

say there's a

some don't know Marion Williamson I'm a big fan of hers she is she's written some great stuff here's a little paragraph I want to read it to you we are tempted to do in our personal lives exactly what we do in our global scale we try to Tinker with the external speaking that we tinkered up with externals they're gonna change our lives we come to understand if we don't change our thinking and you just change the externals then ultimately what you're going to experience his despair of having seen the whole thing blew up in your face again and sing it well again is the only thing worse than seeing it blow up

big talking to some of you guys and how many times you've been in treatment how many times you've been to treatment I mean is it blew up again did it huh what

like to keep your collective but didn't in here you go again marching back in there how come you're back in here she left me well she you know last time you were here you tell me you're drinking because of her and now she's gone what it was

we got the guys in the hospital you know the guy come in and that's using his own treatment plan you know if he's drinking because it because he's a wealthy man and there's pressure owning money in this all this problem of having money and they got that negative he's drinking because you got a pot to piss in you know any

any any really be tormented about business so it's like these these dualities this image is restricted you got too much money this is doing that he can get any money you know it's like the guy up in the penthouse we were talking about last night looking at the bomb on a park bench and they're both taking each other's inventory you know goodbye could be they're gonna just be there ever thinking that that's a that's what I did all my life

got checked baggage I was a professional chef from for years you know good luck just get out of the kitchen you know if I could just you know go back up there get when those big tall hats to this little chicken **** they're going cap I don't

I'd be I'd be a happy camper I would have to drink so much booze you know how god does

are you get the bay had

because I can just get to be that of the kitchen if they're gonna just get to be the sushi chef W. just could be the executive sous chef got about getting I can imagine a goddess like dis buddy you know I'm I'm working overtime with your skin last why what we doing here

fine just give me the food and beverage director got to just get out of hotel get the barbecue restaurant

god we just get the catering company chief I just bought a house Jeez we just expert just sell this expensive **** you know we what we did when we do it in the psychotic just finished school got to just have kids but we we laugh about all the I never forget that I went to got it sitting in a parking lot in a rest in a in a in a bar that Myers work god if you let that woman marry me choose a cocktail waitress in this bar and asked if you let that woman marry me I'll quit drinking I'll quit doing cooking OB I'll clean up my act I was thirty years old time set some roots down right man I'm a taste in guys a month or so later we're married

that's it in that little drives apartment I'm living it took over the back of the whole hung over what your shovel and Cheerios intermountain got it you can just kill this woman right now I

what do we do it but we're all we all do it we all do it that's why we go to open discussion meetings we sit around we will talk about the problem of that we call it the problem de jour the problem of the day what what is it that you think is is is keeping you drunk today and I gotta tell you guys you'll chase that bread until they throw dirt on your face to your dad if somebody didn't finally get you the message and tell you exactly what's wrong with you you're not breaking because of external circumstances

are they are they make in your life tougher yes do you need to deal with them yes

do you need to do within my meeting

no

because that's not the place to deal with that's a good therapist office is a place to deal with that in a group of your friends before and after the meeting is a place to deal with it but during a meeting for Christ's sake why don't we just talk about god and the steps when we pull the newcomer with a vision of how absolutely cool why can be

C.

one of the

one of the

I guess I don't know what to tell you exactly except that is that we got ourselves in trouble with I get it back in the seventies and eighties of the treatment centers in the country I don't know if around here but you know that that was the construction of the day for the for the cat the coming out of treatment if you have a problem you've done great work here thirty days later but if you have a problem go to a meeting and talk about it where where did this shift comes from

I tell you what happened a lot of people in Alcoholics Anonymous in in our attempt to help the newcomer and make them feel comfortable we forgot the book and just allowed to take place I'm gonna tell you we came within

a short period of time of losing this fellowship for ever

I'll say this folks I make in within a minute

what we need in our fellowship is more spiritual mentors and a few less junior therapists

miss crying to see because everybody in this room has done it everybody in this room is gone into a meeting and talk about their problems every I including myself I've done it and I've gotten some good feedback you see but the temper and I have and and it's all in and help me through the day but you see what I didn't hear for seven years in and out of alcohol tonight on this is Chris it's time to take your little head out of your little but now

it's time to get active and start helping others so you can start thinking about them a little bit more than your little pathetic life so that you can recover from alcoholism take that's the cool thing about being rich you know what it means to be a recovered alcoholic and drug addict it means that I wake up every day and have for fifteen years and not obsessed about alcohol and drugs the obsession the desire to use has been lifted from me those are the teams that promises I'm gonna be taken to a place of neutrality around alcohol and drugs and some of you in this room right here uncomfortable having to be around it I'm gonna tell you somethin folks that's a terrible place to be

to be dry sober one day at a time and not be able to be around outside or drugs worried about the next day but you might start thinking about it again and go down the toilet

recovered alcoholics and drug addicts is a position of neutrality around alcohol and drugs that's what you need to be that's where you need to go but it's not gonna happen by sit in a meeting talking about your chicken **** problem it's just not

I used to do that Hey is not one of them

you're with me yeah I understand what I'm saying

okay if if if everybody's real clear that alcohol is a drug addiction is not about the problems then why do we allow it to happen he is he is not the personalities that guy back there every time he comes in he **** about his problems that's not the problem the format allows it if the format of the meeting allows it that's what you're gonna get you're gonna get people come in and talk about the problem change the meetings make a miniature base means when you open a paragraph and you read a couple paragraphs in the book and then discuss that so the new cover can start getting some hope into somebody's coming apart at the seams gravel might take them out after the meeting and let's do some let's let's help them let's get help and get connected with a problem help him help him understand what it's about I'm down with that but sitting in a meeting that one the one hour a day that we have to talk about god the steps and wasted on your chicken chip problem I tell you is a damn day to day damn travesty

listen folks I heard about these knuckleheads in in the in the state say it all the time they get a special note taking a cake you know they're picking up a chip you know I'm I'm fifteen years old

and I know less about this program now than I did when I got here

here it is it's it's it's an attempt to be as a humility but I'm tell you it's a it's it's it's it's it's absolute horse **** see if your fifteen years on the fellowship folks yeah I'm gonna tell you something if you know how to work the steps and you know how to have a spiritual experience why the hell you stand up from a podium saying that you don't understand how this thing works we know exactly how it works everybody in here is allowed to have a spiritual experience everybody in here it's it's it's still not taking

what we have to carry that message to the newcomer so you guys continue to relax over and over and over you're running out of time folks you're running out of relapses you know when you pick up one chip and done as people here they got sober one boom done

we just think it's perfectly okay for you to go back out

it's not

we need you in the trenches we need you in the trenches work and help us help others to stay sober you see nobody can affect another alcoholic and addict like another alcoholic and addict you have to have experienced this to know what it's about if you follow us people that are not alcoholic and addict can't help me because because I I will not dignify you can't

if I want to know about sex just say hypothetically that I want to know about

and you had a choice he had two twin brothers and and they're coming like Myanmar's now what happened with me in Mars and we wanna know about sex SO Myers he went and read a lot of books he got a lot of books and what the playboy about all the other stuff is looking even looking point and we got a little diagram and you know you don't he knows a lot about having sex

I've I went to the drive in and had some sex

now you want to come up in his meeting and talk to somebody knows about sex you wanna go to somebody's has read about it or you want to go to somebody that's done it

come on ladies the first thing you do when you get pregnant as you go find some of your friends have been pregnant don't talk to somebody that hasn't they don't have a clue what it's about

it made a truce you want to start a business will start pop somebody started a business you want to go get dental work go talk to somebody had been work it's just it's identification you want to talk with up all you got a problem with alcohol and you need some help go talk to somebody that's recovered

and they can

they can help you they can show you what it's about and that's our job in this fellowship that's our job everybody in here you think you got so we're just so you could be Mister nice guy you got sober so you can turn around to help somebody else that's what it's about nobody told me that for seven years

now I'm gonna talk about that

I don't die

must've been the shark **** or whatever they were we I got a

I don't know what they were I don't know whether I just

I

is drinking early on

in high school and we were talking some of the cats earlier about this you know I believe all of us in the early early age once we started drinking if we'd had the weather all to say this is looking Graham maybe we could have stopped but see most of us that things started going weird on week we got to a place we just we were already some deeper the quicksand we couldn't get out anyway we still think we can get out and that's the problem in our fellowship everybody thinks they can quit so when a newcomer comes in what we need to do is qualify we need to find out first before we talk to about anything else we need to qualify and find out if they're in the right room or not are they really an alcoholic or not in ten seconds the claim here Clinton second so you can understand what I'm talking about it's kicking case we got people that are not working the steps in here an alcoholic is somebody that physically is different than a normal person because they can't metabolize alcohol they have a thing called a phenomena called craving that kicks in and once you start to break a once you start to take the drug you can't control this remember the word control this is the amount you're going to take it with us the problem is not a because I drink the problem is that I drink a lot big enough I could not drink a lot I would have gone to jail and I would have done the crazy stupid stuff I did I drank too much why can't I learn from my mistakes he's like he's like we laughed about it this morning a little workshop I mean how many you guys in here ever get were out drinking and got sick leave over the bushes and Peter got that last thing you saw your toenails coming up yeah

and he walked right back up to the bar what amounts and blame it on the chickens got most of it is to take it

yes one more and into and you're good at them that's not normal your body soak in that stuff up physical allergies one piece and then you get the second piece the mental obsession why can't you stop when given sufficient reason it's just like what they talk about with doctor Bob it he wanted to stop but he couldn't figure out why I couldn't stop why do we keep going back hello guys why do you go to treatment once and then and then go back out and drink again and go back to treatment and then go back out to the kitchen to learn from your mistakes

are you are you

I was talking to a mother of a of a of a page in the high school the other day she says I just he just went back again he would not a treatment to which he was drinking again I just think he's crazy

and we're getting close and we're getting

I think your body's going to get on with this is about here we're both guys the book doesn't use the word in denial we're not we're not denying what it will look at this we're we're looking at it he is like my **** is on fire and everybody's going Krister puts on fire and I'm

I don't see anything wrong

we're all going down you know it is like everybody's looking around like is this is

unbelievable unbelievable that's the insanity of the first drink why do I keep going back to it and if you and if you if you have the power to stop the you're not one of us but if you have had how many of you guys in this room of events a bit to get reason to quit the book says on page twenty one just be aware the little stickers on the personal page twenty one I understand that you know we hear that your pages don't line up with our pages but sorry I'll figure it out said you some new stickers but yeah

how many do you had to be sufficient reason to stop in and we quit prepared of time and then we started drinking again see your family members here to look at that your family members think see here's what they think but he's just lying to us you know alcoholics addicts are all a bunch of liars that's not true some of us are some of us have character depicts alliance some of us in this room are the most honest people on earth

don't blame your dishonesty on alcoholism

it's it's ridiculous what listen there was a time in nineteen eighty I was a little domestic disturbance in my house and

and after I was laid back in the house was about four o'clock in the morning I was ripped on alcohol and cocaine and I was in a bad shape but I mean as I'm coming down this I realize what I did I scare the daylights out of her name it was just too scared the daylights out of me and I went to I mean with tears in my eyes and I'm never gonna do that again I becoming somebody I don't want to be one day it seemed like I had the alcohol and drugs and the next day it had me you'll understand that in it's not it's not that I'm drinking to avoid anything I'm drinking to

I don't understand the target right you know I'm drinking to get okay in my own skin out I started drinking that morning just a couple of beers just kind of settle in owner so I so I can go to work and just take care of business I would I wasn't drinking at seven o'clock in the morning because I was partying down guys

everybody thinks that that's what is I'm not family members he would he just parties too much if that's all you're doing then quit party in this like this like it's more on what's Nancy Reagan you don't just say no what

I mean I hope I get a chance to see her before she dies so

so I can kill I mean I

no I'm just joking but I mean if you have any sense of this is stupid it's somebody's tried a million times we've gone to our significant others we've gone to the court what you did when I was there from the judge not told us what I meant it when I went to that woman that night on bended knees and beg her forgiveness instead I'm never going to drink and drug again I meant it Dr Bob in the archives his Bible is got to places where he signed his name in blood a blood oath I am never going to drink again nobody he wouldn't go in smoke up anybody's **** he made it

did he have the power to manage the decision to stay stopped

did you get it

we have the power to manage the decision to stay stop we're great quitters folks we're just better starters

and the insanity is I don't remember the consequences of week or month ago and I just go back into it again and again and again and it progressively gets worse and the stuff hits the fan in nineteen eighty eight as a result of that domestic disturbance I got hooked up with a therapist at look being looked talk to me for about five minutes he said Chris you've been in therapy all your life I can't tell you anything that you don't already know that I have I've been in therapy for since I was a teenager on and off and I've been taking anti depressants I need to tell you that for ever I don't take them today thanks because the special experience for me but I took them for all my adult life because this depression was killing me you say nobody bothered to remind me that depression was the number one symptom of alcoholism and drug addiction state but we're trying to treat with a pale say ten nineteen eighty when I go to the services increase you need to get your **** Alcoholics Anonymous cause you're nothing but a dropped it all if you look at my chart bipolar you know manic depressive all this I mean I got the the laundry list of diseases all got in here it's the same stuff she's your disease of colder than my diseases

I never felt cold like yesterday's unbelief but you don't understand so I go to this their prison she finally tells me the truth and she says go to AA and so I walk in the door is my first trip to Alcoholics Anonymous and I'll never forget it was downtown Dayton Texas and I walk up the stairs you know the dark upstairs one light in this room downtown Dayton Texas I'll walk up in this one like this old man this this this guy I don't know how this geezer was old

all of the meat for Christ's sake I any and he said in this big easy chairs all fought back it is because I thought he was dead you know I walk in and you can't you can't see the light so damn every smoking in there and there's six people in this room including myself he says you have a problem with alcohol

this has been

well

how to kiss a pig I guess I do I mean I'm I'm I'm

I just finished a court in the truck was a qualified I mean I I don't I've been drinking all afternoon long I go to this is a a media walking he says well then you're welcome that was the extent of the qualification you want to you got a problem with alcohol that's that's a guy that's a qualifying thing too for membership and I ate but you see nobody ever told me that there's another thing you got to do in order to get well you can come in to discuss if you have a desire to be sober welcome to Alcoholics Anonymous you had a desire to stay off the drug welcome to narcotics anonymous cocaine anonymous you follow me but if you want to get well but it is big it is bigger and better requirements and that you've got to be willing to do certain things to get connected to god this is a program of action you can and you can't get connected just because you want to

or just because you need to you've got to do the work

nobody said anything about me nobody nobody tweak that meeting we talked about this lady when there her husband was drinking we talked about that lady's husband all night long we were now we talked about this place has been all my life to write we listen to peace in Mount Pleasant on everybody we're at this amount I walk as his goddam

how did it break hi this is

and I got a drink and then watch he says it's time to go back you said you were gonna go to a a let's make a stab at it I went to another meeting and that's exactly what we did and we know when we finish talking about your problems you know what we did we tell the stupid **** war stories until the cows came home

with the

both

there's one place to tell war stories

I'll say this there's two places you can tell from the podium it's entertaining it's the place to do it the other places in a thing called a twelve step call once they come into the meeting

they're here

we we we we have them

there was obviously something big got on here now then you got a choice are you gonna scare with your chicken **** war story

or you got a problem with the vision of how cool your life is

and we're taught to share the story I've said this from a podium a thousand times we kill women by the thousands in our fellowship by trying to tell our Billy bad **** war stories we kill the young people buy them untold thousands because we're too busy telling about our stupid drunk the logs in our time we spent in prison I mean this is this is my experience I'm sure from a million volumes this is my experience a walk in when I am eating busted so hopeless I wanted to die suicide or not case absolutely convinced that this wouldn't work for me you with me but I walked into this stupid meeting one more time all we have a new comer let's tell him how we got here no one in the living hell what I wanna know how you got here