The Primary Purpose Group's 12th annversary

group five ninety nine

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hello welcome everybody to the

primary purpose brand to the world long walk with them

I would like to go live for a long while while the founder one bit well all of you live nine

I was reading okay my name is with the but I am a real

very very enthusiastic map member about going on

the card allowing got out there and you will learn a lot of mail online marketing right there

Barbara valuable working today with the staff and the bigger than off on people exactly like you know I'm really enjoying my six thousand two hundred fifty of them right now by god's love live below I go

we work with around here

yeah he called me today though that the bottom three hundred fifty five you will come up with a number for everything

a dental private morning

fifteen or twenty years ago I had my last drink but I didn't know

the restaurant where the here we go I had been to a meeting I had a sponsor and had it been on orange juice and honey and damn near dies and ready for a long

read about math

in fact Gandhi

very briefly how we got this group is the result of a guy named Joe live in little rock Arkansas

I had heard a favor by marrying the in February nineteen eighty three and get them back a little while

it happened our that man and for the first time with all the years I might mention I came down the only known to the family and in the fall of nineteen sixty four not quite around delivering of nineteen family and they learned one thing about Alcoholics Anonymous big they have

growing up maybe the yeah alcoholic light around you can because the running like they'll win you can go and get by without during

and it works real well for me for about five and a half years and I thought I need to get out and be improve my financial status

well the way my wife to the right decorating your article I think writing dead serious about

David Jones out of like nothing else I had going and and the thing that made me was when I came back after that thirty years of medical

there have been a tremendous change in about

in effect we have big remains I remember the very first discussion meeting with part of that group I was going to get that done

and I got back in a bar we had a discussion meeting and I thought they were warned

because I got the target area blessed one of

and I got real good at it because I've got this burning down around here what you're doing that but I almost invariably after me but I'm not gonna make clear about your life what you put a map all we need to feed my fireman make me

well what I want to get a feel better I'm beginning to feel worth the time went on that's when I met your man fed me down in the library of his plate that there and he opened the book of Alcoholics Anonymous and nobody's ever done

and if you are reading them and I'm not going to take you through the process with the you get let me prove it in a very few mall

I can understand exactly what happened with the more than they were in my heart of hearts that I was now going into the nineteen years after I killed after pleading for

and Charlie came down here they want the accord group that in Naples

they did a big rectangle live and I had never gotten anything like that in a lively Friday evening all they barely enough until one o'clock on the phone

and I came back I went to another when they came back I went to another when they started to

the big women are at the very first one up and called

I don't know anything about that and then the man a man I met a man named Jean a lot of things gone they'll forget magic nine

and then I became very good friends and I am the man and he told me about this big with them or they were having a golf and and I thought this is pretty ridiculous after driving down the hall to find out about the big back on they were going and they know any

they'll go under like an update on this long group and I went up to see them in

at the end of the they're back on Friday morning up and I understand you guys are going to be cold

what that all their needs with the you need to go out there and find out I'm very I really would like to leave here

start over

I probably I had never experienced in my life the big benefit Perlman Perlman is welcome but they could get through the whole program now click on the ball pretty thankful

well enough that I am amazed I can't believe that I had to come up here and learn all I have learned about alcoholic non

April I don't know why you're lying because that's what we do in our group you're kidding and although

and I could get I could reference point in time with anything you sure can always traveling for Motorola that time if you have a good day for calling right after Christmas I'm going to get done

they gave me the weekend final you may remember that there was a tremendous fight the warm up in Oklahoma and in Kansas there pardon the end of January nineteen eighty at

and I thought it was gonna be there nothing gonna make anything with god's help you can fill out the gap insurance

we went over there in the way of our group the first nine

all night long the greeter about a hundred and fifty people there everyone and had a big

and the next day we were no Regina group and nine hang around a hundred people there most of them have big but they were coming to more

with my background I never got a hundred and fifty people all with the

and I figured I could not believe what I was doing they were starting a program available like not offend anybody in the group therapy thank Vandervell

and I came back in and I got with my father that I'm appalled him

and going what I wouldn't want to wonder anything go forward but we do

January twenty third nineteen eighty eight we had a banner made

where about fifty sixty people tell

you will find that night what what we want to achieve through the primary purpose group in our our title rather nine Margaret give you a clue what we're about

we decided on Thursday night we were going to setting the big guy had gone to the other group out here and I think if we can get a big bug back regarding they didn't care to do that

they didn't really want to get involved in a few discussion meetings on the big they're gonna starting all but that wouldn't work

we got part on Thursday night we were studying the big book in either of the last month we have named now twelve years

I think that in a big group on Thursday night we study the effect

not entered in here and I am I made my way my day or that the other thing

we want to get away from what is killing alcoholic the

and I don't know if you're aware of how different we are you have a chance for you to get a remove water coming out this month

I think you have to log back in the back of that because it's going to tell you

give your core and how well we're doing in Dallas

we compared almost identically with how badly they're doing in your

beltway when he wrote the foreword with back in the day

the rapper the game day really privately within government remain that way twenty five complete but we're not there after some really

February twenty five percent of the game day got the replaced over they got a father and the father got into the program what are the things

and I recovered my favorite go

what the error with that last thirty years or blow and then minimize and I've been checking in to cover his

and we have a walk away from the local program Valkenburg on the twelfth day of protected by the put up today

very very few meetings that I've been able to go to work or anything about the problem of a novel about a lot of other things

but for the first time in the history of Alcoholics Anonymous we have a declining membership

by the very fiber slant front bumper riding and and people who were sort of like the the Dr Bob and clearance items from the other we're getting the best of ninety percent document

if they have a ninety percent because

all the indications that we have there's nothing scientific about chip in battalion but over there certainly very indicative of what Bannon are probably

reporter there the night before eighty percent of those people who came to meeting for ninety meetings in ninety days no longer there on ninety four the

the ninety percent ever gone at the end of one year only ten percent of when I went in there to collect the one your mentality

ten years later

we want to be a part of that decline in project probably bring about the decline in the day after so many awful if we want to get into the solution

and I was very pleased to find out the back and northeast around Boston in that area there's been a real way

the people getting into your starting group and bringing the program into the

with the announcement that the only reason we're here to help alcoholics arrive alcoholic

we're going to pay the seven if you have experience with that you're welcome here but if you have not we're going to ask you to identify who you are why you're here and with them because you don't know how to live sober or you would be coming to

we have joined a group of people it's not popping up and we're not here to be popular

well you know you're a reliable phone time because it's all black and white we do not believe that I think

yeah I tried it that group therapy waiting or kill me I've been trying for the last sixteen years I've been living for the better

every good promise never become a reality for me

and that's what we're here for to learn how they did it

so we can do it the way they did it and get what they go

so yeah I am so very living thing you're continuing to Brian over thirty five years of my life and I'm calling from

your presence here tonight is my favorite

but the real presence nightly back we've got Chris back here Amanda young man that

I would say I live in the background I look up to him and I am giving all the encouragement I can't keep doing what he's doing a good deed after picking apples lady once we got done do we do

but I'll get up with them you're still going over here and if you're not happy with the group you're in and you're willing to

because I'm responsible members of Alcoholics Anonymous we better care for you Tuesday night we couldn't make the thirty nine with thirty eight they have a insurer and predictions

thirty weeks of a

the map we have bigger meetings

laughter three we have now have a family afterward maybe

we're very family oriented

certainly glad you're here and I didn't want to take a bit to much of your time but I want to let you know

what we are about

and growing not only what we're doing rolled it back a little known anything that everybody would have one group like yours

you could make a dramatic change in the lives of many alcohol

those are the rumoured boundaries likely what that means no

though that he didn't have the opportunity

to hear Chris knows what that means

not I would take a beating more retirement I want to tell you how grateful I am that you're here and how much I love you for being here if you're having your sobriety come join us we're walking along the path for you but I got a big later now called thank you for

thank

take the money and run them

my basket now

at this time I'd like to get Susan to come up here and introduce our speaker for tonight the evil twin Skippy

my name is Alan alcoholic

by grace of god that I have been sober since September ninth nineteen ninety seven yeah

and I'm very grateful and very nice

I have I have the privilege and honor of introducing to you the person that introduced me to this book and thank god and it is such a privilege to see so many of you here one of my family and I know that

many of you based on your own experience no that is not an exaggeration of of what I when I say

I've heard him speak enough to tell you that he's going to say that he does clerical work in a treatment center and

hi I'm

part of that that I want to make sure that I clarify for him

the part that he does it for free and doesn't get paid for and he also does a big book study there and I know again that if if you were at that treatment center you know what I say when I say it is five B. O. B. B. and that he has to do that and the demonstrated miracles and promises and his wife that I am alive and forever you're free

and

I would like to hear my mentor teacher and a very dear friend Chris are from England

back in at the north American

there

it would be on here

all this is no good

right exactly I don't know

how to get out of here I mean do

I know I read buttons on these open debates over here but then the young

one moment Garcia

how come they didn't have to do this

don't answer that question I don't want

now I got

hello now the the availability of

you

I was wanting to know if I like to work **** catheter

well our program start I would look over their brother can you get ahead of him because I want to pull anything out unless he might prescribe or non alcoholic

I'm grateful to be here November thirteenth nineteen eighty seven I called in a room full of people that were all carrying big book and they all started talking to me about the steps and god and and I'm gonna talk about that tonight

somebody asked me Chris do you get nervous before you do this

yeah

yeah

I want to

I think

in Baghdad on a different path but then the the

I did I did need to share that way yeah I I you know I

the other day because because you're both your second passions bigger you look a lot of autonomous is a problem or not a circuit you know you're not out there part of the big conferences that I'm not polished enough you know when I think of the day that I start get back policy will be the time it'll be time to quit for me because I've only got one message to share somebody big book the other day if it's good if you do the same thing every every day with

while we're on the front the now brother your five five click it it what this is about you think because it's not about it's not about your weird stuff out there you know this is this is just one message that we were given you know I I gotta tell ya I'm so honored to be here I

also you have this group if this is the third time I've got to speak at an anniversary that primary purpose group

I'm not really that should be indicative of your house six this group via

you know you you I'm bored and I'm honored to get anywhere you know what you know but they they don't they don't have a back you know just because we we got through this one okay thank you very much we want to do it again you know because the truth of the matter is the some of the stuff that I'm also going to be a little controversy over that especially in Dallas Texas you know the home of middle of the road solution

yes that's right I'd like to tell you if not Dallas Texas the farming the more recovery it is we can thank about fifteen thousand three consider the ground them out in the bottom violence in the seventies and eighties and they stayed local and I guarantee you they learn just enough about recovery to be dangerous and and I didn't judge people ever since and that's the kind of stuff I think on the podium both brothers property thing I'll say is that everybody is weird if you copy settle down we're going to rebuild a little bit I have very real quick this is like talking to my home group you know what this is is it extra uncomfortable I know so many of you all in here sometimes I I'll be out on the road I don't know one or two people in the audience that it's a pretty cool thing to you know you don't

you know

you don't have a lot of it in here you know what it's like being at home you know how many of you I have I have a pet

my little sister is in the audience

the one with the yellow hair this is interesting palette that I did tell you think will make lots of money any server guide I'm not

you need those guys that have a job

there you go you have my permission

take your best shot

he's not like the results you been thirty seven I got a problem here that he got a backbone inner use you guys again I got my first sponsors in here we're done with

Smith and that Smith's

the reason I'm so right here this is a very long time

apple

I didn't I didn't find out until it out of the years over that he was going to win a group I mean he lost the bet you know I was like no I don't know nobody wanted to sponsor me nobody near me

and he is it was like well you know he was a low man on the totem pole he married years over when he came out and then unbelievable unbelievable and merry is

and

my current funders here Mister Houston Mr Houston

and I'm so honored

good friends

right back

we have

my hero

okay

okay I'm gonna tell you real quick I

I am at queer is the right word

I am the product absolute product of absolute find sponsorship I nearly died in the fellowship I I I'm gonna take you straight to things going into this movie crack in here

in nineteen eighty I walked into my first room up here in North Texas hat was signaling the wife I've already lost a business and I was thinking lose another one and I needed some help the depression was choking me to death I was taken every kind of added but who lack of my thought homeward bound those guys had me on a on an a the president was so big you had to use it as a repository

I didn't I didn't try to bother them to present again we

I was off the market you know a little bit

I mean I'm not a happy camper and I'm in a bit god wanted me to you know not that I you know and here it is in the nineteen eighties I'm like cool I'm in the food business I I'm I'm working a little restaurant you know it's a big shock at how if I got I got two DVRs I mean out of a role in a black you know what I'm saying but I'm dying inside I'm dying inside I walk in this room is a bunch of people sit around yeah I just you know I try to this is all in that chair you know I'm in

Alcoholics Anonymous

it

I mean how lame can this get you know I mean how how can how can a guy like me managed to screw I thought so much that if that if the tender alcoholic and non

I hated it hated every person in there and I gotta tell you something about but I don't have any place else to go and they talked to me about a lot of staff and I gotta tell ya they did not talk to me about the big book I didn't know what a big book was I was on a fellowship for nearly eight years nearly died I tried twice during that eight year period kill myself was unsuccessful obviously both private

W. rocket scientists that are in here I mean

I feel compelled to spell some of this out for you it didn't go real well for me though and I'm gonna tell you this and this is a part that really great a lot of people in there because everybody wants to think Hey is wonderful and it's about and I'm telling you Hey the fellowship is what saved my life with a lot of well meaning people nearly killed me before to play

they and I did eighty seven when I walked in the rooms of a again after one more suicide attempt it damn near nearly succeeded one cold November ninth and I walked in the room and Smith was there

Janin and wine into the body you know the room was there within forty people back at smoking room is one of the real long shot down with a lot of

if you don't get too quickly you pass out of the smoke you know

you know I started out in the little Haiti amid about eliminating your data right down again everybody's

I mean why is it and I was in that room for three years

I

people are not yeah I got

unbelievable

but I gotta tell you guys that the

in eighteen ninety nine when I first came to the meeting what people were talking to me about and again I say this because I do I work for treatment center I'm gonna I'm gonna reiterate what what what my benefits instead I I'm paid to do clerical work in a treatment center when I went to work there I mean a perfectly clear that I couldn't charge for a message that the nobody charge me for

I run a little slower I produce a little newsletter we do clerical work I called about the lot of the people in this audience I know would love a call on a daily basis on a regular basis about one a daily basis accounts but said the bridges they got to have a phone call from me but

you know we call we try to stay in touch with that's what I get paid for but until you turn the messages while we worked there I've got four people work in my apartment that's all we do is give her the message of hope Dalhart Connecticut if you wanna work in my department I don't care if you got a degree I don't care how old you are I don't you know the big book have you had a spiritual experience has your life changed as a result we get them off your debt but doing some work

you're eligible to work for me

they

Kathy

I can't tell you how honored I am to be in this room tonight yeah I look around the room in there so much find sobriety in here and I hope I'm not talking about longevity we got some long term sobriety in here but I will get it people in this room right here they have less than a year sobriety that that that I would spend my own kids who defeated twelfth that

and he will be off that quote I'm not

really no question about it is it's just a matter of time did not win okay but here's the deal and these type of coming out what's what's so different about them why would you send your kid to somebody with less than two years ago you think that's that's what the message is not so much of the month we've got this thing figured out we've we've we're we're four point figures if I can save both your your kids you're reading it here so many years summer union you can't sponsor do you got that you can't and and of course have none of that none of that this is where everybody is taking a message of hope that we were given sixty four years ago and tried to put their own little twist in there a little bit

latest quick before I go in here because some of you guys gonna get grinding I don't pay if you're gonna pass the basket I think did you pass it now okay

even better get somebody very big stand at the door because I was thinking that separate the men from the boys are going to

die if you walk into a meeting

perhaps a woman meeting where you're there to share your your intimate issues about being a woman if you're staying sober and you're happy with that and you're like he's been on fire because of that welcome

more power to ya

if you're going to a nice professional meeting isn't around talking about insurance and this that and the other is sharing some of your problems about the practice and and you're you're better for that and your things over with that welcome

don't don't you even consider

Brian Apodaca cannot

it's not

alcoholic anonymous is a fellowship of men and women in action

gathered together shoulder to shoulder to try to carry a message

to those who have not been given the message yet

it is not anything else but that

not now not ever

along with this little one and come back to the live in caregivers I met a lot of cliff here's ray and mark Houston and view your other cats out here we're not gonna let this thing go down the toilet because that's exactly you know what Chris said set me up I mean what he said in the back of the truth the fellowship that pulled me out of the toilet did save my life twelve years ago it is a strange graphic Ron we sat right down and watch the whole fellowship go down the toilet

everybody wants to sit around and talk about the the collective little issue and I'm gonna hit it harder not about it because I'm sick and tired of hearing

the book is pretty clear about it both

I'll bring you up to speed on hills maybe is one of the reasons why get the passion about this one because when the the desire to drink and drug left me I was changed at a cellular level it wasn't one of these deals were you know I just don't drink anymore everything in my life changed my attitude towards life changed my ability to be a good important change but everything changed everything changed the way I felt the way I tasted the what if everything changed

not very good one the date of time

and that's what I've been listening to for years just take one day at a time when data we are minimizing the power of the program we talk like that no remembers her sixty four pages about the delivery date we're going to stay sober one day at a time we're gonna live life one day at a time

we are very little platform if we do everything just perfect and everything finalized and a little white people get play a pokey pokey at home everything from there right

we got a good job and make lots of money everything's fine the kids are well behaved everything don't want the birthday because he may have a lead up

back in the early days of the holiday not amiss they didn't do that we were a spiritual fellowship will broaden the steps and that's what we did and let me tell you something at that time if you'd like you can go ahead getting

right

right

yeah

the archive because we're talking about different great literature out there and we have a big resurgence thank god for the internet we're not starting to see now is a lot of literature this

yeah regular going riding a haters didn't get a chance to go look at you see because it was all gone back to New York okay under under wraps and how much people have gone in the fellowship to research and now we're going to get the thing is you know no matter what because right today because the message that we're getting the date ain't even close to the message we were getting back there

not only you know the the lady that helped doctor Baden bill get together but separate hold union opted displayed my life sixty four years later she was she was not displaying right after doctor Bob died

about nineteen fifty when he got nineteen fifty nineteen fifty five

when Dr Bob died fifteen of nineteen fifty

he got up and said because all of a sudden what took place of course

complete right no one is available for you you got you got you got a patch over in Akron and Cleveland the Midwest

well working out of the big book or invalidate had a Bible on the podium with them you know they're they're coming out of the spiritual well young and they were talking about god the staff and they were having the success rate that they could have quoted one Cleveland the weather in New York they couldn't get anybody over in New York

the plane was slip and slide like a big dog because of the way he was approaching the captives although we're not doing this for everybody without making a commitment this is gonna be after all one day at a time I want to get into or do a little moral psychology we did try to reach you on the idea of staying sober you know it was all

I mean even call

no

we we we find we were the better way plan the bulls financial woes of the fellowship the doctors thought with so we can improve

Cleveland Ohio they've got nearly one hundred percent success rate

in New York he again because like less than like twenty percent this is an archive photo anybody wants what gives me you know what happens when you guys do it over here so many people so now we're just a little doctor Bob dies on its right and bill Wilson and I now what we do and Henrietta get give them he goes on record as saying in letters you know what's happening here the bill wasn't walking on egg shells around the dog we don't want to be drunkenness remark by talking about god he will talk about a higher power we'll talk about the very not

the thing else you get sober that's right they don't want anybody all

that's the bottom how to take it or leave it attitude you're going to come in here you know what the steps to get on your knees Bob dot

tell you what got the breakthrough well let's see what we will be open to women about that well I'm going to tell you you got to be this or that or the other whichever operated something

and you don't want to go in the door you will hit the streets take it or leave it

you want to argue with me about god

your your your wife a crack pipe Robert you want someone to tell me about god

are you with me no no no I'm twelve years away from a great

because the fight was knocked out of me

I wanna argument with consummate dot listen I don't have time to

good good good good yeah

yes

well

that is what you come join us

all man

what what was different this time that we've been before in nineteen eighty seven when I walked in that room a bunch of people they got around me and Love Me enough I've said it a thousand times to tell me the truth

they loved me enough to tell me the truth they didn't terrify stayed away but there is

the month when we behave but all those people within that reversed over the day right because we were all doing the work we were doing the steps

that that's what this part of the file

while I place the passion about this this is

what is treatment center the wonderful facility I'm not here representing that facility it's no better or no worse than any other facility but I'm telling you

two years I've watched thousands of alcoholics and addicts come to that facility what do I see I mean by this is a microcosm of the of the world's worst alcoholic and addict the people that we're wouldn't work anywhere else in the coming to our facility and what takes place this week we get a shot at a we heard one shot out of an IRA morning and we can item on file if I could give inspectors be given full the big book of Alcoholics Anonymous and stop for just a second worried about the little chicken hip problems

but do not have that here because you've done it

the miracle thank right three that's why I couldn't stay sober for years but because I was so intent on the belief that if I could just fix my problems I would be okay

oh Jesus you know I mean we did this for years I mean the therapy and the charges and the geographical cures and and then what I'm trying to

six model I got here so it could be nice and perfect and everything will be wonderful and then I can stay sober is this this is working you know and we have a we have an industry out there wants to perpetuate this idea

thank you

well

but if you're doing it one day at a time you get it like that one of one of the points lead yeah

reporter dad dies right above the point you lose that job and then what do you want to do what's going to be holding your little back

if you're if you have a what the step you haven't had the spiritual experience we will be getting a hold your breath what fast

see that's why I couldn't stay sober eight years in and out of the fellowship because I believe this was some kind of self help program

you have not heard

but what would have been in the little directory but I'm gonna tell you this book is a spiritual action every problem I have in this world to be answered through this book

good sponsorship told me that

I won't do it both

change the requirements are going to do it warning from a doctor

the reddit imprisonment I had all of that vote nothing would stop

learn the real McCoy could help I'm a real real alcoholic

I am a real alcoholic I am the man on page twenty one I am the person who had

not right now

everything will be quoted I continue to call world on top of me what I can make your money and get a good place to be successful I continue to drink until I ended up back in the dumpsters again

why

hi guys I'm gonna tell you I would be psychiatry I went to therapy I am the most powerful person in here I gotta tell you

I did not have a big lead account money just like the buckle and I just like I want to go lay down

let me tell you something about myself so that you can better understand where I'm coming from the heart

a lot of well meaning doctors I'm not knocking therapy today Ian in recovery there are these the coolest but I gotta tell you I I have years of therapy

you know and in the bed and the very best way they could they tried to help me figure out

what Chris with with with a lot of poverty was there some abuse in your family I had one that we were laughing about the other day I had one therapist after detectives I went to this job for six months and he was soaking bath

Chris are you a homosexual

after six months he just wore the shirt he wore me down you know I'm I could not read it is gonna is gonna make a damn bit of difference if I tell you that I am

yeah we got that is the that's what you do you think you know we're not interested

no no no no no no I'm not very good because of my external circumstances what about what your present circumstances if you want the steps you'll have this personal experience

come on guys what would

I am not a situational problem is not some kind of behavioral problem with us alcoholism is a is a disease so you family members and you can absolutely understand what I'm talking about physically when you put it in your body does it trigger something to make you want more yes have you ever bought a bargain hunting I'm just going to have a couple

and I had a couple of them had a couple little yes people don't do that they did not have people go to the bar and have a Cup of I have a couple that not not safe now that given sufficient reason to believe the crap alone Hey you bet right not left about about about you can't ever laid up against our porcelain throne

right

I had a little girl out there

thank god I'm I'm never going to

I think you got that right and you get it up it's all said and done the trick you better make sure they know the people

Hey David

that's why you're playing in Maine right

okay okay okay but here's the deal you get rid of that and then what you did you got to go I feel better

we can pick it up Hey

again

yeah

I tell this story about I told a story about my sister a thousand times I could hear it ringing in my ear I find a good deal with the public because you know I'm talking about in Leslie we have to do right now is not what I want to drink and and and it will have some groceries I'll be watching the miracle take place and I'm feeling that day hit me and I'm already running okay not at least at least you ready for another break and she'll say