Celebrate Sobriety in Vancouver, Canada

hi everybody my name is sherry I'm calling

and I'm tired and it was one of those times were you think every paycheck that you haven't made is going to come back to haunt

because anytime I have ever gone to a convention if it hasn't been in America and I've got your

like

people like you know I don't know

but I can go here you know

we can do

so it's supposed to be a breakfast meeting

help desk you can still be

Friday night because with wonderful I was in the water and I could you repeat women in the washroom saying I'm not going with the new wonderful he was amazing what a good speaker on it on a lot and I'm in the school bathroom stall

what after I need more

so

and I believe

he was

thank you

what a wonderful thing Alcoholics Anonymous there's because you know how sick I have an interest program number

is there was a time when I would have gone to the basketball

waiting and hoping that would give me a reason to stand the pain and anger that I found

you know I would create these Alternaria you know I needed to return you know I was still full and

so much so much that I could make an invite and I didn't know why I just knew that it was there and I could turn around in a little over over you know

Dover breaking shifting and stones to be crazy and three more and the sickness and stuff that I would go because I didn't know one

honest to god no one

so anyway I'm going to try to stay out of the bathroom first

so

okay hello little bit about what it was like

I don't know I mean it's probably fairly similar to a lot of other people's stories

rating mother you know what I'm mortified that this has been taking my thinking is there anybody in the service my anything else my mom

your karma my mother took her husband nobody was talking about but anyway

but anyway

I had everything must

father so I can pull up your skirt surgery for

and I've been in therapy a couple of times throughout my sobriety and came to realize it and thirty two cents

you know the damage that living in that kind of party has done

and you know as far as office team and not getting internet on on and on and on you know so any of those times your available

sure

myself and my brother and sister you know

so anyway so

working and you know went to school and do you do then it would go crazy

and the final learning from the function and and get real sick on all the time

and I mean really mercilessly you know and you know

it's just nothing going on that was the same school no sales might

we but that was a nice little Kerr

nice little you know

and I remember the moment that is all kind of came

there was the

when they have kids and comfortable

and I'm not

thank you for

the kind of don't get in

and we're gonna get the police

thank god and I heard this personally because I thought

while learning all

okay

and

they have been in places where they had

D. A. R. and figure out the box and and I'm terrified of everybody and I kind of stay away from everybody even

one one more time hunting in the back of the head

these needed kids came some kind R. from the port or they came over to me and they said you know one

you can not allow her to do that

hello this is what

when he comes down the hall and

you

your locker and we're

you know if you

I'm a little bit

it was my friend well nobody else was looking

she was my friend and he would come to my house when none of the other bridge and anybody else did you do that and then if there were other around she didn't want it okay

so it was pretty intense so anyway

because down the hall and they're just kind of like

you know

great pain that was inside and it was unbelievable I would have told her not to call me on my monitor in her locker I I truly believe that you know like all the stuff you hear in the paper about these kids I don't know it's like I

talk to me you know I thank you

and we will kind of go off but I

please tell me

so anyway

but what happened to me at that moment while

that we person is ninety nine because I pulled out

the whole time

looking

the whole time that I was losing her my heart at the same time

she was the only friend I have even though

you know

so it's saying that I need to sit and talk with the consideration of

and

I can't remember when I had my first twelve thirteen fourteen fifteen I don't know but

I had a friend and just sort of hanging around but the back you know they were the only case that would really have to do is

I have been labeled

you know we just served a trouble maker you know all those things you know they had to leave me all those things so when I started

and the behavior actually or you know anything to do with printing I was acting crazy or any of that kind of stuff I'm gonna ever connected it to because

I don't you know that we may need someone on site that was you know just all the documents that you know

I mean I I I mean I was in line before I was walking and dealing with him away and like I don't even know I was almost two years over and I'm not saying that that's a good thing and I'm not saying that I'm not recommending it but I understand if you want

you don't need to draft a letter thank you can you don't want we don't give up overnight and when I first got

I have crossed my mind

to put my daughter started getting started like your society and and I have the money you know

one of the best practices in in all of your

to it you know like I love the only requirement for membership

I love my life save my life

you know

and I

anybody everybody my pocket and I tell everybody I need to send you know just kind of you know

you know all that stuff and you just

if you don't want to

well anyway we're working on so long but anyway I was feeling I was lying I I was you know

no I was because that was something that I probably wouldn't you know it can go only years later you know

email address and and started getting into trouble and

later but we hang around like a work

got kicked out of school I remember at one point my my Kerr we have you know putting me into this you know I have a girls school thinking that help me and I

that any

hi

one basket in with all the other

that was really you know

so I called here earlier and I got married in a blackout I

I do I don't I don't

well I got your money D. that was another thing I thought money if I had money if I had money I would be okay if I had money people with lots of email please click on

so I

I mean I didn't know that I was an American the morning the day that I was in a very

got up and took a handful of few Arnold is down and had a couple of drinks and was gonna go by she was going to grab my sister was there with me and she said we do

well I'm gonna have to pull down your

like nine o'clock in the morning and I'm like yeah

no I I blacked out before we actually left the restaurant we're going to go out and change to make about four eight later

and look at this here man he wasn't here that you know about four days later and

and he was one of the many many people that did everything they could to try to help me and they only let me if they did say that you know I mean I remember one time going and spending a couple hundred Bucks to get my here analyzed and I

well I didn't tell you everything that was wrong

and we're going to maple ridge

like to tell me that I had and he

you know

all this stuff to get his name

yeah

you know what

or the people around her home we

my daughter

with fire and was five years old when I covered up and

I was not at the moment

the end of my number is an Intel I truly truly thought that the best thing that I could possibly be able to

because nobody can take care of her and and

stop you from doing that with my friends had to lay

in the building three for today after he was not there and he was the guy that

she was not there

he was

the doctor recently off I found out it

my problem so and

thank you Sir you know that is doing very very much

because the P. and before my household and you can count on one of those people that really

okay

and one

and I also

didn't want to be calm when I had let you know I didn't want her to come when I

and I started to become

and that particular

when you become like you know

company one of the things I have learned on the home

project and then you know that

and

yeah I

but I have done a lot of people do that to put this one on one

hello

so anyway I have a little girl and my life it would I mean I could go on for hours it was just one second here after that I was always leading I was always a little bit and that was new to me I think when I was a little like a letter sponsor different elementary schools my mother with crazy seems not

you know that's something that we can you know you know my step father would you know what I mean it's always

and and we just moved and I was just always crazy and had to Kerry on you know

Oscar Mayer recorded you know and also my

yeah also at

when I was nothing sixteen or seventeen I remember trying to save my life and it wasn't it wasn't getting

we responded and he planned

I plan I need I need someone to my head fabulous you know I clean the seats on the bed so that when the sounds good because my best friend seems fine

and I'm saying it to me acting

I'm gonna let it kind of new one

do you have nearly done your mother

so I don't really talk about anything and you just don't tell anybody nobody Kerr doesn't matter you

what I learned was that no

and

anyway

I think the very first

I had surgery or something I was living with some guy

I can't remember what happened but I

because

I think I did I think we

and I thought because he would have made the police came to the house and one kind of

certainly not going to Blackpool and everything and he stopped me and I remember you telling him that

stop going to the community this call

morning my million

so I

the staff of the store asking me and I

well I'm interested in a police state

good morning I've got here the next morning or something to

they were still in my P. C.

so

the pharmacy in the plainclothes comes in my

and they have a piece of paper and they say

you were withdrawing everything that you said

and you will not like any

you do

we don't

and we ordered and we are

one one nine

I don't matter you know

and

nine five ten the first family member

S. for Sierra

three

I looked a little

I was twenty years old

I had nobody

human beings that I

the reason I mean I could at that point I could go to my mother's

and my mother today

and

hi

but I'm not very much and I don't know that he

well somebody that lives

with I need to know five two party leaders

and I don't know

I can go with my daughter and my daughter and I'm doing my thing

so

the only number I could find a manicure you know I wish I knew where he was I I don't know where to get

on it was it was called children on

and I talked to somebody a few years prior to that date certainly you're not an alcoholic

they were and I kid you not I mean

I'm sorry

or did you want to

because I was crazy and I was on the field and

eighty

because he

and

somewhere

and I would need to do you know

this is not going to be all right look at this little moment please god help me god help me like

Terry are you crazy from the all the details

but I thought I thought it was really

your

leased car

don't you know I don't

and your two years before that

had an altercation with police and he was stating the other guys were looking for any support you know so

I'm kind of here all my life because the police

and like I said child any kind of saw the police services in our neighborhood

you know and we were always there you know it might be and possibly many times

I just need to hear and

so I

I don't have any of those connected

you know

so any weight my conversation with this man on the cleaning up in my life because he

and you know I said to him you know what you mean on a

he was now you know

so anyway I I just was talking on the phone and and talk to him on the phone and

I don't know that it kind of started I went to someplace in Richmond and when years went there and started just words and then you know you need a

just one time and there was a need for a week now

and

and I just didn't hear yet and

and I remember this one time when I need it and then I heard that I heard a blackout he used to come home and find out from the literally across the street

mine's gone had a drinking and all that kind of stuff so I want to read

fire

and what is doing this one

you're supposed to be my friend why do you know what you know thank you

Christine I

sure

I'm sorry

you're talking to and you know after

do you want to leave anything on this day I still haven't

do you want

so anyway

that means

name

you

and there is no

and I was talking about my daughter and I'm talking about all this stuff and make another

because no longer

but he's not a good mother to the

her daughter anybody will ever know you is

you know it's just like somebody on the way that works in the and

listen to how can you talk thirty

great day at all

did you kind of have to go through all the things that we

in order to people there that work there were really no program and

so I went there and I was very

I don't know anything about

I tried online there's a lot of lines there

D. like really he okay I just don't know how and only

you need to need

I I went into like

like I was like there was nothing like I don't know how many pounds it is portable I just like

I was so personal

and one hundred ninety today

and he's like

three

you're definitely wouldn't

so anyway

are you going to like in the morning I found out that kind of

gonna be phone internet everything

I believe so anyway

I

so anyway

and

delete for me

online

he was very

you currently right now and he was leaving he started to cry

I didn't know that it would like it and I didn't know

I mean with that I have to go there and I was

there again the animal is not going to meeting

through the loan but it on the line and we'll just go out and seven a month for two years and I was over anyway

and

and

and

leading and any errors or somebody

well I gotta tell you practices are

really well I'm here and your today for me and what is the scope of what you call it and when you enter

you know

and I need I'll be able to talk to people and

and

just a wonderful on it with

the word you need

she said she never

the

yeah one of the things I really need to practice that I don't know what's going on and you know we're not here and we're not in competition with each other because when I click on your I can see here in my and to you and I could hear it I felt inside how you look at your driving record W. one three months over I thought I had to like you know if you could go over all of that kind of stuff when the lottery you know I need to hear and he was greater or lesser degree I need to do it twenty one years over what you know what

you know somebody can do it I

somebody can do it in my records I mean well

well I think

because that could give me just one moment

most

really clean and then I would do

and I got to north street and I went back and I couldn't do it on my own and

like you said that you would normally

I know

because

what do you do what do you

because someone

and I was wondering if somebody always looking for a little bit of

you can

although

because I know that I

hold on one

my my

third

and I don't know hold on a

nah nah

call me for me or maybe you know like I'm not going to do and you know

so now I'm going to

what works for me

let me you know want me email you know what I need to learn you know that I did receive an account

and they're still only

and this is coming up with my father you know I mean you could

and

so I don't know

you're still right kind of got that

the requested popping up today but I am responsible and

and I want to make

what is

okay

you know I wouldn't know when a request

no no not here is that I mean I sponsored like eighteen people

you know

you know

only you know I called to report

we can manage that

you know there's this little girl all the time you know you got it right the first time and your

and that was when I started to really programmer and read what is her name on houses and you know and for me that I mean you know he

and the grand Cherokee plant

you know because I can't get away with it but I can't

I mean it's pretty stupid to be standing there talking to somebody about their last Thursday you know

my

so before you judge somebody about what they are doing in this program have a Cup of coffee you know coffee with a minute

point the finger is no longer doing

you know

because I sure everybody was part

what can I tell you

just wanted to let you know like you're wasting your time with your answer is no for me very soon

I remember being you know with my

nope

there was

I would

it was a little little critical and we would

is there and we would perform the halftime you have to do and you know I mean that that

and they would go to the highway and then write down the time waiting in the station wagon and he said in order wrong because one

one zero anymore

and

what would you like to go

thank

I don't remember picking up my daughter and her friend

I have over

kind of doing the right thing here in the hospital

and you know you're driving down the street household received the recycling your vehicle in the north

and I'm just driving in the car

hello this is in the car

for calling the error

it was just like you know

because

and

the little girl that she was so stupid you know

no

thirty five I need to do the program director of the

I need a pretty good

I think I have applied only

and the other one had an offer to make

change will happen to be on the line

you know you can do so much or anything you're absolutely and you know my dear friend of mine from put in my time when you're going

you know

you know

receive your problem you know not

they don't you know I mean I could just one moment I was telling her to be immediately said and

just a lot you know I said I don't

yeah

I need to know what the girls in the Saturday night

really and and and some of the women from live and let live because when I started going to those meetings I have no idea you know I mean I don't I don't want to go to those meetings because I had was just starting to come out and and it's coming out of there and it was not

and but it's getting better

no one good friend

so I

I just I don't know good

because because

I need somebody to come out on

zero and and I mean I think that you know a lot of work that needs to be done and they need and we

six years old I needed on that

Hey my

I don't know I just I just want to

so that

so if you're wanting your sobriety don't think

this program

all

three I mean

or anything that you're doing on here for you know

so what do I have to go on to the

and I

and

and

I I would

you know

and

our duty to morning I got up and I thought I had

E.

I have not I want to get anything today