Janene W. from Dallas, TX at Texas Roundup in San Antonio

my name is Williams and I am an alcoholic

in the kinds of programs work the great

since January twenty fifth nineteen seventy seven

and that is truly a miracle it's funny that I

I wanted

because death has been responsible for me speaking at three different round that seven year this thing the last three years

you know the things that take place

Graham are incredible because I need

he was not really worried about

when I heard the first three years ago recommended me to speak at around at

well that's wonderful you know that is really great it is my understanding right

it is probably not hear me

yeah it is

it is also that is probably one of the biggest

you know when you

first

go back and look at

and you can

and that's really been

I was

fourth nineteen forty six

right the end of the war

instantly

her body and

consequently it was very painful

another had to have

he was taken away from the only person I

in the hospital and

I wasn't nursing

I realized that

I once heard somebody say

it's not

always used to say

the war

sixty seven I had a brother

I was debating well

we had a little sister

thirteen forty

and then another

five years

right

all right

while the mother of three

well

the best way to describe it is

I was not pleased at all

I was very very angry

yes it was all the time when I was growing up

what is your

thirteen

now

you have to do this is interesting because I'm only coming

this year

your sobriety

nearly killed me

there was very little secret is

I mean is

right

and I said I will

I said I will

I'm I'm

yeah

yeah

many years

thirty years

in the spring

there was nothing wrong with me because my

and your family if you love somebody you are really

and that was always the

yeah he died

you know we don't sell them

you

a lot more often

because everyone else

I always

the cost

you know

anything I wanted

for the day

sometimes they

Dallas

I was not going to do that

I got my first job last year

I got a better

two years

and I got a

you know

really better

Mary

well

he was the first person I

he never forget it

there's nothing wrong with this

I would sleep with him

he was a very big

I really want

right after I got married

you need to make this commitment

where you gonna go

and I was sleeping

you're eating

but I couldn't take it anymore

I look in the yellow pages

honestly

I'm really interested in finding out

me

it is very careful to find one

yes

deal with other

this is not a woman

and I went over there

and I really want

I started going on

crying hysterically

what is the problem

I'm a homosexual

he said you know

and I decided

there are people here that were here when I first

number nineteen seventy seven

I ran

what is the big

and I'm

he said to me seven years

and I have never made

I made a decision

and I started going to bars and I started drinking

the four

I don't know what

I believe it is a

I know

we

I don't want

your

you know that there is no

and in the morning and

three months

I had no idea

I always thought it was

you know I was depressed

okay

more more more more

it was really terrible

several times

I got arrested

where are we

these walking towards me

and they were

I was with more than

it was like going public property resisting arrest

with me on the ground

sixteen hours

I think this is the car

I used to wake up in the park

seven o'clock in the morning on Monday morning

this

it is

to listen to

I think he's not worried

the network

one

it is incredible

the disease is

I never

for seven years

living on the street

one point

we were living on

well there's really

because

in a situation

you know

I will

but I was not raised

I was not

someone else

now this

it is just

and I don't care if you live in a

really

related story

because

we are

in

one more

about fifteen grand

a lot of money

thank

and it

it's crazy

and when I was

I don't

find out

in one of

here's

here's a year

and that was one

five hundred dollars

the easier softer way

every year

for years and every year

I mean

at least seven

one

twenty four

one one year anniversary and we

calling

anniversary celebration

or at this point

this

sometimes I get

all

really

January twenty fourth one

crystal clear

I was because I was going in yeah

and

you know

he was a

a year earlier

mostly

the next morning

any exercise

because I literally

did you know

people

he's been in the program

angry

one reason

the people that

because you're already

when you play in your life

fifty one

because

I was

I really do

I was more

women

twenty one

I think

you know

I never

the normal people I was not

I was

twenty one

I don't want to bring that I wasn't going to

yes

what a great

what we

at the end of the seven year

it was a miracle

speaking at work earlier remember his last

with that

working with

this

really great

because I believe it

and then another one

recall

the

what happened

right

it was one

the only problem

right

going out on this and the only thing I remember hearing

yes

if you want to stay sober get on your knees in the morning and ask

twenty four hours a night in

it's great for years got

and then

yes

the

no

you're not

leave your

yes

there's nothing in the world

but I've never

he's a little

what we're talking about

I got in here

you know

I started working with other people

it's

it has

one more

I don't think that

because

you need to

the process is grant

after three years

it was also in the program

it is a complicated issue started drinking again after your

basically major

and at that point

when I didn't know

I'm going crazy

in

the day out

here is

this wonderful

the wonderful thing

again

I need one of the things that happen in

thank you for

we're talking

I believe they were wonderful

I had a one and one of the ones that I was

that was

really

you know

thank

right

what that means

they

I

eleven years and

the

basically

eleven years

I was in you know when you get a

anything else I was

everything so many things

one of them being

why is that

finally got it here it's not

it is my

eleven years

now if

three

many users

this

eleven years

we'll discuss

this is one of the

welcome

it would be more powerful than north

there is

it's fine

every

all

really really helped me a lot

the thing that I can do this

is presently

one of the things

everyone is called everyone will

the only difference

it is behind me

I need someone

I have

is not available

it is not available to me is an absolutely

I don't want

I don't think

some of the

I was about eight years

I have done a real estate deal with a friend of mine

good research

it turns

and I was getting everybody out

the meetings talking about

yes

if you decide

is not available

and yet it is not available to me is an absolutely

sometimes I

it's going

if it doesn't turn out that way

information I don't

you know

yeah

a big

he's

if you're going

right

I'm

you know someone

it's never happened before

another person

today

I don't know what

exactly

exactly

what

someone

you're kidding right

the deal is

we don't know everything

get out of it

because nobody wants to be in

with your decision

that's

let me remind you

no he

I am not anymore and I'm not

you can see

please

and everything I need to change

from that relationship

your

sometimes I don't know

what I need what's missing

something you're doing the

everyone

you know

working hours

thank you you know the first thing you

because I was not

three

I

I was not

when I was

the reason

you know everything about

we're going to have everything

you're right you're right

what's your drive to work every morning

it's very simple

but you know the only way

to find out what you want

you know what

an example of what it is

learn how to deal

the person

the whole

our system I need

and flexible

we are we

all I ever wanted

and you learn one lesson

when I

Hey

you know there was

do you think

control control

your grandmother

for two weeks

don't change anything

on the back

where where

thank

well

someone

hello

well

your mind

and rebellion

every every single

right there's another one

your

you know I read recently that lesson one

I don't remember the first meeting

recently

but when the first meeting

during the meeting

only one of

if you remember you were

your brand

your

yeah

one

I don't

if you're ready

never

when I was getting ready

taking

here at the White House

one zero

he'll bring

because the definition of homeless

we

and

and I

the person

right

you're right

because it is

and we

I don't know

you can't make

four six nine seven eight

really

for some reason I wanted her

and I wanted

this is

thank you very much for having