"Commitment 92" in Milwaukee, WI

one of the many lenders here

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thank

and I think everyone in Milwaukee

you know

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I thought we

really

I don't know

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what I know what you

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so

I would

thank

very very very low and opening of the first

and they are great

my heart is broken down through

what is your basic alcoholic family

alcoholic all of my brothers are either alcoholic or

order three

more than one

you know how that goes

all go without

poverty violence thank you

what do you look like

well there was one

for everybody there

always

you know what

why was that my

we would like everybody else and while

because I love you

you

we are there nobody knew what it was three for all

both parents

right finally

well my father

we don't you know who

you know that he had a hard every

you know

you know you know

all over the place

you know what

anything

anything with

okay great you know like no other

even though my parents were funded one

one of

the family very

yeah

a lot of people

and we wanted to do

and my mother replied

really like

yeah

you got

you know

no one

so I

really like

do you know I you know I

yeah

I work

I'm really grateful I remember when I hear

you know I really don't

really later in life right

other people are taking care of

we used

well the people in the family

you are

you have to be good

my

and here are

part of what

a lot of invoking the name of god

right after you know

yeah

right wing

one year later

yeah you know

but I want

the wrong side of the street you know so here we are you know

are you riding around

you know I

we

right

but I don't

right

my mother

probably like eleven and I had no idea

ninety

my

happy and everything was fine so I don't have

yes

thank you

you know it was like working with

you know I really thought I

so

well it was

yesterday I think

and I might

yeah yeah and then there

sorry

really you know I didn't know

yeah right

yeah I

in line for our daughter and I went over I was like

right right

everything

my mother was also having a hard time

he was giving her thank you bye

you know I love that

so I

we like

here's everything was

I don't think

credible

I started

right there I mean I couldn't find that you're not

I am

it comes with like fourteen fifteen thirty

I do like

right

is there

well you know I

it really is it's a lot of drinking a lot

well you know I

my self and others

yeah you know in public and you know having a lot of people I didn't know

right you know

really

but I think

and I started like the next fifteen years my

fifty dollars

thank you for alcohol and drugs

really great well I have three three

Florida three years

right

I really I really reality thing

and I did

twenty five years ago for the simple reason that are putting up only thing I

really great like

you know

right

it's a very long

are you with I

right

he was you know I would like

you know I

I'll be clear I'm going to

I knew something was

press one over to

there

you know I I don't really know what was going on

something I didn't even know what what

actually I was playing with them

and I got together with everything we get together we talk about like what we're doing here yeah I would like

another learning

thank you right now right

I look at what was that my

every year for the last five years

only

and I

identify them

five more years

thank

so

I really do not know what happened with the ninety seven

you are here

right right

yeah he

it was a wonderful

I did not know what my

you know

no

you know

later

really now I'm going to I'm going

I know it every

really

my

you have

you don't you don't

are you ready

about no honey you don't

in my life I did not

ET I

I

really the wonderful thing

I think you're

my family would like

so

everybody is like drinking

hi

I mean I

I

what

thank you bye bye

you know I was really very

where you

one

yeah

a little

what might be getting

everyone in the family Facebook or

really

one

with a hit my

I went to my first over

right

or whatever and I was like no thank you

yeah

wearing

right

after the close thank you bye you know

and I was like what's going on but I hope that

the only thing

we

you know

one

term exactly my recovery

anyone in my family and I really wanted

I want to think it was wonderful I wonderful

I don't know I

they were you know what

thank

and I have

I think that what was happening in

you know what I would do

you know

well I normally log

call every find out where where what can we do we honestly great

it was a great thing

even though you know

not only

right

I would do their laundry

and

I

I was waiting and worrying and wondering

you know well I do want someone to overdose what

on Monday morning

I would wake up and realize that

I want

I didn't know what

it really was

because I was working

I was doing it all wrong I think it's always easier

you

well you

yeah

and I'm not doing

when

the one ring

I thought I knew prior

you have the higher power was

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thank you

do it like everybody

would you want a higher power

right yeah

warning

and I believe we

you have to bring the price

you know I don't know I think I would likely go over well

really

does everybody know what you're looking for the

like what you like

yeah there is

right

well I'm not

I was very critical for me because my car always

groove to it you know and and what I found in the program

it is adapting well

it is about

it is about being myself right

myself and

but I

well

you know there is one other thing

we're gonna be nice

you know

I

you know what recovery really

right right right

well

what do you like

yeah

right right

well I'm not

I'm very critical

what was

what a great

all the

after a while

I

okay all my

armor

you know what to do in the morning I'm learning

my favorite well I would like to learn all the other

yeah

I you know I can't get over to

you know

yeah

I love the

sorry

I mean it really

yeah

you know

and my

about my

you know

I don't know if you've played under the ninety nine

whatever

I am going to the wedding I'm eager to make

right large

and I'm

and you know where to live in a suburb of parking right there

I don't

yeah

I work for

I

it is I'm

thank

but

I

not likely

really yeah

world rejecting

you know when I really

the last so a lot of

so

what I noticed was that I you know I think

the

we got out with his parents

all in all right

well I'm what I noticed in my living room don't have brought up in my bathroom

borrowed money that they couldn't pay their

it is now

the thing very

they really are now

my family I have never in the program

I think they

our program where

five years ago

thank you

I don't know if you know what I want to know

I feel it is a feeling inside

everybody in the market

what I really wanted to mine is I have

I have

and I'm friends with

and when I was like you know what

and I think you know the whole listening and blah blah blah and what

that group of nine people if I can have three friends

actually I'm doing better than I can really you know

thirty three

I never close my parents

sometimes I you know and that's all right

I have the you know what I want to do with relationship

yeah

nobody's going to nobody's going to grow

I'm gonna say right here

right now I'm not real close my parents

I've actually had in the last year a lot

and

well we

this is very interesting for a while

yeah I think when I was you know two years on the program and

thank you very much you know I've been on the line

what's the matter with me

you know

ground

I don't know

the truth of the matter is

thank god

you know where that you know I'm able to like make a living for myself

and then I don't have to worry about running out drinker blow my head off

you know

Palestinian and I really am grateful for the way it's gone from me after I called I called earlier

even believe what is coming up for

the only only to go and I'm like

yeah

I love the rampage I really

the last

my father

a few months ago I I just wanted to talk to I want to find out like what

no one in our house what was going on

for twenty years I thought about all the violence I thought about all this stuff and I like going away very well so I went I went

you know I don't really care about all the

Ryland

you know every night

you look awful the way

your brother

you know and I was like I look

for him

you know what

world

no no no okay and let me tell you the real

it really really does I mean this is like

what is the difference

sorry and we all

seventy years younger than I am

and

they call Linda

you know

what

meeting

I immediately got my heart

put it back in my body

the end of the meeting what happened was

I

I wanted to go over I'm going to run you over

I would

hello how are you going to be like

yeah

from my phone numbers

with somebody over there

thank you

I do

you know what I mean

it was like

thank you that I

your available

a lot of family

in another area of my life

I found

I wanted in life because one is like one of the regulars

you know I want to

nine ways loud

everything we have health insurance

Florida and there I was very

so I left

your banner

so I went down there

I don't loan right

the only thing I go to grad school I cry every day

I thank you that I got I got the master's degree then I would be important

you know it's a little bit I mean I'll be

pardon take my hand I don't know what's going to happen the only problem was I cry every day I will

I don't like the people in my

I don't like anything

I want to prove that I

I

that I would like everybody else I need to prove that I've been on the whole I don't think somebody out there and

when I realized that maybe now

I don't know what to do I need to get everything

I will

if you want

I will open my eyes will be on

and one day I was like well maybe

when I went

right you know

and I got a higher power that is

hello client

your

really

anyway you know what I could do it you are going to do the thing where it's like well if you can do

yeah

the next

in grade school you know

I'm meeting

my lover

I have learned to

thank

and you know the rest

I am

and I think

the woman who professionally and I love

three

every now and then I'll give people advice and they paid me a lot of money for

I really don't know

however might be boring

well my work right now really if you don't do it on the right nobody told me

right

what would be happening if I did

I can't keep up and all the

a couple weeks ago I actually had someone clean my office you know we really got to get it for me I'm like

no one is helping my thing no one and no one complains

right

I'm willing to let people help me I don't know what I don't know how to do this

and I'm like okay and I know the guy

you know like I

you know I really don't know plans are a bad idea for me

I do love a good plan

they never they never

my work it will work

I don't think I

I mean this is really

I worry about what people think so I'm very

well

you know I'm going out with my girlfriend Barbara

great I don't know where I heard the word lesbian but I know I heard

with my mother I don't know what

my mother

yeah

I

I got a good idea

I mean you know I

I am not over you know

I would like I can be alone I'm gonna be alone we need

I love

love them you know

be there at all the ones who have no money

and you know they don't remember your name

girl I was

they were in a life threatening you know

you know

we

one one meeting I don't think

no

my go to girl doing was like oh this is not working

when I was thirty I might

over to my parents and I like I am offering you may have to

he with them right I am like not being and I can't live with it and I'm like

and everything is still fine

I would like to go

welcome to relate

I tell them I think my parents

well

what my mother did

it was like

one of my life

I mean you know

you know

only when I

I need my lover

all my lover to leave them

we went to lunch and I myself

the main thing I have ever met in my life

never anyone

what do you do for a living you know I'm trying to be like I don't know what I'm going to be like somebody I'm not right

it was really bad

yeah like

in three years

like

you know the job of the month

why would I mean really

you know

thank you

what happened though but like I wanted to go out with someone who was

I want to go out the movie

people like talk about something other than the relationship

and you know so I called her up and we've been together ever

America

it's really incredible

it's likely because of the program and

you know

there weren't you know what I like

the word

where the

we

still every day I'm like waiting you know like who could be the

really great I know that if

yeah I have this thing like when I you know when I

when I worry about my life what I'm gonna do what I do is I plan for growth right

now that I have like cross the line

the thing that impressed

during

you're not really going to be a big thing in my life

read

three weeks ago

and I want to have a family and leave and

it really is and and I do not like

okay

okay here

yeah

so

things happen in the in the middle

I did what I'm gonna do it

thank

so I get more

we are calling all my friends thing I have to get the baby my girlfriend quickly

where where where

right

the next

you know we gotta do that

America

it was really loud while all the

first is the first time in this

he has a plan for the

right I am not leaving

would you mind I like all the labor

cancel

one thing I could

two hours long I couldn't think of

we

thank you our

how

my

incredible

you know all my planning all night trying all night you know there are

in the world

I got a call from some people to do some work in California and they said we don't need it

so here I am the love of my life our program I'm broken and I tell her I'm going to go to California

well the end of October but in my mind I was like

I can't go to her at this point I don't talk about it I want it all to go away and I

right about that

my favorite

my favorite program

my

you've got to live your life

I'm sorry

get a life and so I'm going to go ahead

reservations for business and I got

you know

you know I don't

yeah I really got

every time I have to tell the truth I will I

I never got over there

really

three days you know what I

when I first

yeah I mean I would like

I

open mind willing

for me today you don't

it's got nothing to worry about all this

you want

you know

what I notice is that the

the better my life

you know I have a higher power today you want to be happy

the money

they live in a deep and playing

you know

you know

and

yeah

one second place

and

I mean a lot

other people were out yeah I thought they hated me in a proper

I am very

very wrong about other people what I have noticed like even here I mean I don't know I just don't feel like

you know it's

people are now

we're certainly not I thought you know I understand god today is currently a higher calling we're having

I think if someone told me coming over years ago when I first came in the program that you know

the card reader

I really

I didn't know that I could be happy I don't even know if that works

one of the

you know I'm really glad I did the end of my life the cries you know there's really

well well I want to move here and I want to go there what about

you know

wonderful I am really grateful the yeah

thank you

thank you very much I am so grateful that I got to be very nice thank you Linda thank you

thank you

but nothing really

wonderful higher power

I am really glad when I think of your