Edie C. from Sacramento,CA at the 9th AALA conference in Los Angeles

hi my name

I know I know

before

my

B. Braun

you have to go

what I like to do is I would you know I don't see anything having opportunities everybody who's

what do we do really line

and

you are

if you don't

it's my opinion that utilize

and I know that only because I mean

conferences

I don't know it now would you like to welcome you to the program

before I could get

really

it's an honor to be here

I mean if you're going to provide

my heart

you really want me to win and you don't want me to

reading and thinking I can't remember

and then this thing happened here

you know I had the

story can end here who I met a few years ago

in San Francisco years ago

yeah my guess is the middle name of mine years ago and I didn't know that this is what I was

we like coming

I'm already going somewhere else and he said

that really can

a little different

thanks for the invitation

really really I want to know the

good to be here with you

you can

really what it's about is

the present and the future

the interesting thing

I need to ask

the reason I get them from the

my most

can you just

I've never really

you know

ironically

I don't think that can give you a little bit

it really quiet

and when I came to my

in court right

thirty nine years old

anything that means

anything

the eleventh nineteen eighty three

people living in the

companionship

you know like

you know we

it was cool

absolutely

Alcoholics Anonymous

now I'm going to think

actually happened in my

in a little

I think that you learn how to make the people that you want I didn't get the kind of people that

according to our glass and had a cocktail

they took a big swing

whatever else is in the car they'll take

you know they

I really

and I grew up with it because it was a little bit of a loose woman actually

you know you

anyway it was always going

we will be right

in the in the magazine

I don't have a lot of my

yes

no idea what you know

you know they're a little concerned have you lay down and

I don't know any different that night

see that's the problem

you know like this might

and I think doctor

think of it like you know I crank that late night

really

something

along the way down

all the way down I got to my

read out

you know right in that moment

the first time in years old

having my life

the center

because alcohol

for a winning field

a lot of people talking to people talk about when they

you know there's a guy that

his name is

I know

when anybody else

three three hundred pounds and

in the

and that was what I didn't want to do I just didn't want to

when I was really little

I understand you know you know growing

you know I have a lot of pain

either you know it's always always

to be here and like my mother's Indian and Mexican

how does family myself and my little brother

about my little brother

when I was in a meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous I would I would say hello to you

my mother took me to my first meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous back in nineteen seventy nine or eighty

my choices

thirty years in deer lodge Montana and he doesn't have a choice

you can go to places like that

I want to know is that if you're not if you're not

if you don't ever have to use again

so

northern California

I could see was rather intense

channels different things

I don't know

politically correct thing but I like

on the

because you can write

to those people but you know what it really listening

you never know

in my drinking for the rest of my life

he doesn't have a choice

you can go to places like that

and since when

the one that I live

we lived in that area

one of those people that they didn't think

for a long time I didn't think I was gonna make

it was in the back of the room

I couldn't allow anybody to get close

you know

all up in the streets of Oakland and San Francisco

you know I mean I got you right you really only

they

and all the people from Minnesota and Wisconsin

you know all these people

right down the middle of the car

you know you won't give me lots of money and then you go down into the Golden Gate park and all those people that went in there looking for free

idea

with people and taking care

you know I was in treatment one of the times I went to treatment I was telling them I understand I'm you know I'm not I'm not really no

it's really

people don't want

you know it's like oh my god

you know but the bottom line is

in my mind in my mind

what a woman alcoholic look like

the person years of my childhood

three years old when I was thirteen I

the woman that would do anything for

and I think a lot of things and I went to a lot of places that will

before we were taken from her

right now she's doing the labor camp

you know we're living things on the floor and we had

in the morning and

cleaner and cleaner

so in my mind I always knew what women

I never

we

that's

in order to be here

you don't have to go to those places you don't have to do the things that I did in order to get here

one of my last out in and out in and out in the

you know they got to the point where they didn't

thank you

when I was actually greater

one of them one

now

talk about the old times talk about

you haven't had any of those

I have never gotten drunk driving

I mean that that is a possibility

I really hope that won't be necessary

related to the world

in the early seventies

seventy

story

and then if you want to drink you can have

the meeting started

you can drink

because the Indian

I haven't been doing

really

one evening I went down to a little

in California called the wagon wheel

Michael

in the end in the

a lot of

you really don't

if you

you know

you know like people

I really need

this is

you can probably find out

this is a really good

really good one and get on with

we need to get complete with

these things are really

one million more frequently than you

thank you

in the bank insurance using

do something

everybody is working

you know it's it's a most peculiar

you know I always make sure I have numbers

on my body someone

I know you probably don't remember me

right

yes I remember you

I remember you

you got it and I've been kind of on a little lingering here

I don't remember

you

I really want you know it's really it's not it's not

in my

somebody has actually

the name

beyond the Green Line

you know

he wanted to take

grandiose

yeah

you know if you remember remember going

you know

we

when there was a man in there

when I went in and I

hello you know

you know there's been a mistake

usually you know you know I would

are you registered

for example

no I didn't

you know

this man was

he's a black man

save my life

and he said you know honey

I don't know

I would be able to reach you

in

but I don't think you have longer

that will get you right

thank you here with

you don't even know that god bless you

you know it's like

one and it was like an opening of my mind there was a

I let myself down

absolutely new he was

I didn't really feel anything and I just I want I want

the first time in my life

I went in the women's clothes a little shower curtain and I got on my knees

god help me because I know

I know that I'm in trouble

I know that I am in trouble

what happened is they have you graduate

the twenty

in the twenty you need to go

it was like just let me do the

the thought of going out

can you having to do it because

in my in my

and all of

the union because they couldn't tell and I couldn't I couldn't read that well and I work with my hands

it was a

and then

you know I

because

because that's where I came from

you know

will you give me the dimensions meaning construction I think you want

in the morning

they had a

after the meeting

they're all these killings between it was

the reality about three weeks later I got a job working for the city of Modesto

working for the city of

over there on the corner

there was no

on the thirteenth

it's been a long and I want to

he was

one thing that I learned

you know in this

three years ago

I was in the room

right right

my writing

for me to be in the

three years

and I was three years old

one

when you were working

really

one of

my little

you can go home

you can go home with me

you could

everything

when we really haven't done that lately

everyone

thank

and I didn't think I was going to be able to

yeah I was speaking

great

the great you can

he's been a blessing in my life

we didn't do it

it was wrong

in your living room

open

great

you know

you are really looking for someone who knows

I thought to myself

and it wouldn't have anything we want everyone to do the work

California

because the building inspector

your

you know what

yeah I can believe that

you know what I come from I couldn't believe you know my family

three years over one

I was on the news

really proud

oh my god you know maybe I have a right to

maybe I can do

you're deciding whether or not working

your

you're calling

I realize

it might be

having compassion for people when they're not in the place

because that was the only place anywhere to go

in the

you

you know

in the past over

you know I'm already going

we can go over

many people

the person I want to know what

and they call me when I was five years

California

three can you

the replication

you know

anything to me the whole time I've been there

one of the vehicles

what we need to

during working hours that'll really work for me

when I don't socialize with people outside of work

I want you to know that three weeks later when I am in the building and I was walking

one of the

when I went to the university

you know when I get

one of my best friends while the male friend told everybody with my with my

because you know what I

I never ever see them I never once said anything

I broke down

seven years

and what do you do

your sponsor

the big book of Alcoholics Anonymous

you know when the children of god he goes into the promises about

your question over here

grievance against

because it was harassing him to do it

orient

well my DMV records and they pulled everything they could

what

I want to know I

the labor relations with it you know there's a lot of things that have to come out

I think

we

we need

well

minding your

you know what I mean

by the grace of god

so for contributing member of Alcoholics Anonymous

I want to give it everything I mean about collagen on

here

because nobody else like

thank you

and

do you want

a little story

in the last couple years I really got my background my Indian background

when you

I'm never

incredible experience the Indian way

hello everybody completely

in the reservation

I'm just moving right now

people in the country that we look at a lot of

we'll never be able to

to be able to overcome

Alcoholics Anonymous we were in that meeting

important places in these young people

right

and all these wonderful places

what we

the reason is when you come home you know where you live

know where you live

but I want to know

the longest journey or whatever in your mind you're

share with your

my mind

thank you for the generous