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and from the ground up

thinking how

this

you know we

most everything

I learned over

so I'm just going to

ladies

right now

I was born in Dallas

and you know people make fun of me

really really really didn't

well you know you

the manager

the legal

because

and you know

rant and rave and

in the front yard backyard would you really got the virus and

you know

you didn't have

you know you can scream and holler and games and you know getting on

when I was

you know when the baby anymore that really have nothing

nobody talked to me about

nobody asked me what was going

only there was somebody else

when the baby anymore and you know

yeah

when I mean the

only because

the little brother Big Brother in the middle and you know I don't know broke loose and we want every Friday night and we had the money

and then we will go

you know I can run a little bit meaning

you know

I don't know it just it just seems nobody

good for me for a long

do you pay people what they don't know you

you know

I will run

you know what

regular

I don't remember and then I would go with

the car

we really can't tell everybody

your door and you

in my

making

in my opinion that we don't

well

you know yeah we were a little rock

you know

you

so we never got any we never got any

so you know we

we can all wait for a long

dominating

Monday the mechanic told everybody my family import your writing again hello everybody my phone rang

fifty six

you know we have a lot of behavior long

right

and

manipulating the Kannada novel kind of thing

the main

all of the

and we have a lot of that going on and so anyway I got my first year of the

I think

okay

yeah

one three and

and so I do what I ran away from home thank you again for about a year and

thank you

no no no no

you are going

the Boulevard which was

you know I was raising a feat even

actually you know what

you

you know every

somebody come get me

but nobody ever mentioned it was never

so you don't know what I want to talk about anything going on

one

ninety eight

thank you for your

we ran aground

you know twenty five dollars by

when when you get

the

another

in the middle

if you want to

working in the

yeah

in nineteen seventy one when the professional football

is there anything

all of a sudden GT ninety twenty five

I mean I wouldn't want to let you know what role do we want to

name

pretty fun

you know we were I mean we're just we're

last week and then now we can handle it

we strongly

I think I'm going to be like twenty four twenty three years I've been you know a lot

you know when you go through one of those

right now I'm not

so I kind of thought that

well the good thing is you know when you drink so much drinking more

yourself you know you're doing what I

thank you live in with or without alcohol and I was like

why not you don't

well we start

we can you know well because I think everyone

well

somewhere

this is

that

we

and

well you know

my my Francine Brokaw was a

this is

and what is

you need to be that good

the same thing is going to want to use you know

the music played from

I am going to

I mean

you know

in my own

did you know you got a lot

your mission in there and you know

good job you know

good news

a new truck and I had being

you know you can

why would you want to or not

but

and I was a part of the

and so you know that in your last long either

or for a few years and then I ended up

thank you for being you know

yeah they're going to prison

you know

thank you thank you

he

right

if you

there's not

you know

one of

I want you know I live

you know when you go to

we come up with

yeah

Brandon and I got drunk

when you

welcome to the blackout meal plan so

no manual

major in

anything

the last long enough for me

only

everything else is the problem

your brand of the year

and you know

no more

all the time

my

for that reason I would come back and go online and we've been through three

thank you for the Dallas

you know what I mean

on his house

you know when your drug dealer you got going on

thank you

you know

you know being

we are

I mean that I got what I want for my personal use

or for a couple years with the little

thank you

right

but you know you you will put your mom

you know

after a while you know your priorities

bring in new drugs that's all they go

there you go

you need

going through my hand with a court appointed attorney and

and it's never the same

twenty years

no one comes up and

I got a little bummed out about that

you know it's

you know

you know it was supposed to go down right

you know one in

you know

really

me or something like

for twenty years

we

I went back to prison and

and

Monday

I see no reason why you know you're like

people

anything

so whenever I wanted to

everything you know when you

right during the day you know we're alcohol while you're

yeah

only

you really I mean you know

are you know going to prison you know you

dear governor Ann Richards

and

over a lot of man because because

you know it's not my life Williams and I live anybody in progress in alcohol related crimes as opposed to being thirty three

so you can get any kind of problem right to work

like

yeah

the thirty three made

it is not you know

the longer the more I was there you know

more than alcohol were often the more reality steady and

and I'm looking

while

there are

do you

yeah

it could be somebody

you can only

you can get the lump turned around for you

if you have

in the green range

really

can you give me your

really

and

and

then in the nineteen eighty nine

walk in the first

anything that remained the only

the old

your

nineteen

right

not only how old

bring them on board right

thank you anyway I went out there you know

really I

go to

you know

you know because

you know

working on a meeting and I walked around

and there's the you know there's

the gal in the front row there may be able to keep their

your you know

you need to win to seal and

thank

and it is not the main reason

did you know that the police were involved

the

I am right now you know

you

you know

the only problem the TV

because you can make people miserable with delays

T. V.

you

nothing

you know what the problem one of these

you know when you get

the deal

the one that you know

it could be going on over there

did you know

well you know what

you know what your program and I'll never have the

the program

thank you no problem

your

when I was

thank you

I mean

you know you

you know

well

what about me

people who live lives down there

we'll be able to bring them down to their level

yeah

and from a broken home

American

no

and the only

yeah

you know so I was

most women

they're pretty much

because

did you know

when you know your mom

I got a letter that you got

we won't go to jail you

what

so you know we need to build a family you know that's why women do when they get in jail

you know the only

you know

in order

don't get around them because

you don't even have a moment

so

thank

what

but you never have to make yourself so

you know

working I don't know how you're going to be as well as anybody else because you know

somebody

the only thing that ran

in the

there was a long time anyway

try to work to make things

don't over beer commercial one day and

hello

I was always

the football game and

you know

yeah

you know that's what got me here

I think people just got home the hours of you really wonder

but you can't

you know what I mean

so here I was playing

that's what got me here you know

you know the thing is is that

thank you

what got me to

because you know somebody

and the only thing that ran

you know

according

thanks

somebody ran

the

thank

what

I don't really think that is what I'm thinking

the argument with

we always

things here and there on the

by myself any longer

information

and

and I knew that

you know I knew that

I will power something like

because

by bringing new drugs and violence all I can do

it was going to work for me

they're always going to do this I was actually gonna work

you know what I'm going to work for me I don't even want you give me your name tell me when you're going into

you know

you

you're going

I don't know where to stand

and I didn't get that so many of them have been on a lot

he was actually

work is this

I'm going to do

and when we know

going to

in your

I can't remember what the

I'm thinking that you know really good work the only

what was the reason that

three please

thank

you know

it wasn't given a chance I'm going to work you know we

we know that

I didn't know that when the book

three years prison I do not know the steps when the book because nobody told us anything you know yeah

yeah

you know there was a couple of

you know getting

your

we will work

the ruling in there you know

one of them

is there anyway I was going to work

maybe an hour or so

but the thing is

the mobile wallet

we may remove barriers

the thing that

is not limited

I'm from

right now

the killers and murderers

the thing is is that I don't have a clue what's going on and I'm reading these little stories in the back and it's like

mmhm we

thank you you know when they have the meat

you know what

you know there is a lot of words that into much understand so sometimes when I read the big book I'll feel stupid and you need to feel no worse about myself I don't read as much as I needed to

I don't know what it would feel better so

the rating in June and try to do the stamps and I mean never hear it again and try to get this gets over

is that really can relate to that like there was a few people because I mean it's like you know I wrote two checks to the liquor store oh my god I'm gonna break your career was over

such a mild manner

in there with a bunch of Khan being

this is what they call it all over and over

it takes about three years I want to stand

well there's a couple times in the in the

get out of prison abiding and I've kind of got in touch with a lot of things about me I knew I knew that I knew that

why no more

thank you

right okay on the

you go to school

okay okay because that's what got me that's what got me here so I came out of prison and I was scared I was scared

the only reason I'm scared to death of course I mean you don't have to be scared because I had never been scared because I was acting my

what you know when you're when you're right when you do all those kind of things ready because you're scared thank you for not eating it

so anyway the reason that I was really scared no I wasn't so you're kind of my brothers you know I've got two brothers and a sister and everybody has been the penitentiary but my mother

not anything in

federal law you are generating craze

and so

it's kind of like when I was getting out of prison and we had a

wagon wheel driving is going between me and my brothers and my sister and so they was running the business while I was gone and I wrote a letter when I was in prison you know try to make things right now tell them that you know I can't play John more

you know I'm

yeah the money but

I know you guys

you know when I get out I'm gonna stay away from me all you know and in in that in any any help that you can give me on that I'd appreciate you know because I don't think they're gonna be able to find myself and I really serious this time and

I have never been here before but I never told anybody other than ever before so

well it was all he was only would allow for right now I don't know how to act because

it has ever had to be scared out loud in public you know it's so weird and course my dad was sick and had all of them P. as he had so he was up in the close of business and you got a pretty good little shop over on over a cliff in Dallas and thought that my dad shop over I started working there and all I could do was

I don't know what

our go to meeting go to bed now I learned in prison do you know that if you will you know I don't want to go to bed at night if you keep a job

you know

I went when I was really scared and so I just kind of like we went everywhere right

we got all the scenarios over my head was

using a joint popping up from me nothing I just

yeah I know no one was

jump up and run

every scenario

I thought I could imagine it I would have

yes

I was working this job and you know make my two hundred dollars a week whatever was in

and I went to my brother's rolled up in there with a pocket full of money and

one of the year and yes

he remained in jail are often bogged down

and I'm still not back against the wall you know just like close my eyes and I couldn't get to me quick enough can you tell me quickly at first and out of prison I went to a meeting of the board of making everything the thing is is that

slowly but surely I watched every one of them thank you St you know in my mind I think

yeah

we went

it was

you want to know more okay my name is on the lease

this is the only one all set up there and I was a man in and you know it is a mere two hundred dollars a week you know right

dollar fancy it you know they got a pocket full of money and I'll

coming out having given you know it just wanted to see if you know I'm I'm not

I would

thank you scared man so you know I

yes yeah I would go to this little group group is wonderful wonderful

but if you got three much needed you'll need your group when I read the literature and stuff you know

if you go when you can just smoke cigarettes do you download

three months there remains real what are your

over there and after awhile I needed to start

you know what

so again so I had to I had to seek some added another group and I went to a lot of different personalities around

I didn't really feel I mean you know

I would want to be like six eight people so we're all clear for you know I'm just a little too loud for the amount of

skews me

Landon

and if I may not want to

it was a win was made and it was on a Sunday morning now when I was there I was going to sit in and I thought you know it's kind of quiet in there I was looking around and also

the reason that is is changing like twelve years old when she was talking about she was

so

transaction so many feelings going on she she just couldn't

you know

and there's like cool cool group

but in reality

I feel the same way I've never been suicidal homicidal

I feel so bad I want to kill you

I mean that with all sincerity

the thing is is that

what you have so much pain in the middle ball inside me com so tight that could only chip off a piece of paint every once in awhile and then fill it and have to fight the lack of ideas

and she'll pull away at the

and and

and insecurities and and

little

another group the sounds a little group of going too because when I was four years old

is it for years last year we all four felt in two thousand nine the same year I think that's what you're

when I was four years old right get out of prison for about a year and and I was trying to run my days will shop in the deal is my dad

he wanted me to do what do you want me to make the decisions and I thought our house people who work there so that I could get along with them because I don't work well with others

well with

whatever you wanna call it

okay

there was a big big

thank you for telling me what a good

twenty five so right then

I managed to dial this guy out of me just plug it in with wire you know that stupid he was not yet because I didn't know I had not changed

not going to be

not drinking but I was the biggest **** you ever met

and

stand myself but I wouldn't drop

but anyway so I just got all the time you know and just about everything yeah you don't have any mechanical aptitude my dad's when hiring

record inspect the cars you know what I mean like that's a no brainer you know you fill in the blank and look at the screen is filling a blank I mean you know you don't have to think if I'm lucky absolutely and

I imagine that quote on

yeah

I'm always

and so

no one

I was just being a little aggressive so I will call our

find real fast and close

he thought I was going heating with

they have to rely on their not get out of the car you know sleeping

and even though they're both my

that was the wrong thing to say to me

yeah and

he's the one who started he started

why don't you call the plays acid

well into a crown management for about a month you know

there's a great

you know

his bag and when you think you're going

this will be my conviction that would call me

it's real criminal

and

oh my god I'm thinking you know what have you got yourself into I haven't talked about yet

thank you know what this is funny

this

well I'm in jail

and call the police on him I couldn't do it

I'll take things into my own hands so I have stayed in jail for aggravated assault with a deadly weapon I want to give me for a plea bargain well

you know how they got here not all monies into yours

the main thing he does something

these things in the

and they got a lot of C. I was thinking I was thinking maybe and I thought you know what guns you will see the big freeze let's go you don't see any big friend you got something to do that if not we'll go do my job so I can get out of here because you know what I was wrong ET

I hope you

and

I'm I'm a little bit you know

you know the number you know I think that's certainly a little lax on the job you know

but it also

you know just in case I don't get off

so I think you know they'll do that so when the phone rings my personal going to court this morning

I mean it may not

and so that's

make your

so anyway you know I'm just going I'm thinking okay well I'm going to prison you know what

anyway so we don't go to court the guidance of their

the card

it'll

well now that kind of stuff but there was two people that were there and what was my dad my dad

the card by

I mean I started fighting she said I don't see what happens hitting him with the car

I would tell the truth

making a big deal but you know

my time is okay you know when you get up on the stand you have to say when he came to you thank you for your for your life

here are some

strong anyway

I'm telling my side of the story

I don't like you know you're right

I don't know what

how much time you along with you know I was just working so you know then by that time I can't send the bank

the thing is it I started young messages going

is

not guilty

any family not guilty because

well really because my where I really found out Ian Bailey family not guilty because my party played tennis with the

in this court and the guys

I want to hear this sounds great

and then he played tennis with this dude in the garbage

our thoughts on the beach to main street

you know I think it was a bad thing because you don't want to means every day and they

so anyway when they coming up you guys

do that with you know who wanted to with my

you may pick on somebody will

well socially unacceptable

couldn't you just beat up anybody

it was very foreign to me I didn't understand because that's what I had always been

they need to see

I'm thinking

he she it

do you know if you know I'm still just a guy on the street I still just don't

with bad behavior to fill the mouth when I'm sober

so they made me go to this dolphins and loggerhead feeling secure

probably be a lot of Mexican gas

no disrespect no Hispanic people but out later that when I was being spanked me I'm here because I don't understand Spanish and so I would

they were talking bad about me you know

on the line

you know

the same to me

they were just talking **** about me you know and I can go a long

that was another reason I had

and so anyway I had to go to go to therapy and they told me that I had to start running after

the one thing you learn

and I had to learn how to I had a thing for when the Mexicans would come up and speak

again I thought we should stop

but you'll

no asteroid

no moment so

oh no moments

a spokesman for the

he wants to know can you look it is funny because it's like the only one side okay yeah

the Mexican

so anyway

that was my thing about

it took me a couple years to get down

a couple years ago and then I don't really

I'm

we're not friends anyway so

yeah inadequate online have been because you know when I was a kid we never got to doing all we can do is beat each other up that was our solution everything was to be together and they have found out that that was socially unacceptable you couldn't beat up anybody walk because they will press charges

and after all that went on

I'm working on

okay so then when I was when I was about

two three years out of prison I'll not say well this is my brothers my sisters that they had all

you know I'm pretty

you know they could be out there doing nothing

and so now they are you know I'm not

and if you don't

this will work

even going for me so because he was having a hand in the basket he doesn't like our chief enabler and Natalie in everybody's business and also when I get out of prison he decides to work at the shop

saying totally the other idea is coming

before we start working

you know I'm still a

this is something to me when I was a I don't know what it is I'm still a

the thing going on

well

you know

right

Janet was our problems and we stand over some car have word prayer

can't read

almost finished

and then there was a line you have to leave it all and I

for two more years and my sponsor can't tell me you know

get me from work you know because I'm saying

yes it would

even even

thank you for this is cool you know

people that me and all this kind of aggressive stuff and so anyway I

finally well that had nothing to

in my brother got into about something you'd like me to help the customers and I

we had our last blog he said yes I'm professional have the customer number one gene that's all you want and so anyway

you know

I just got off his

you know

you know

and bitter anyone

so anyway the thing is I put two more years and then you know we're just five every day and blah blah blah and he's on a four step every time I have one like once a week or whatever and

come get me all the time from work to keep us from committing further crimes and so what it all comes down to one that is winning a lot much two months up front you know just just inviting more inviting more healthcare intended you all go to hell out of here what happens with you know a lot of fun to watch the bus and the thank you letter and I walked off and never turned back and the thing is that

what I found is that you know my way usually isn't the right way I wanted because I want I want I want I think dissolving myself you know

degree from this well what ended up happening is that I

going into business for myself you can get along with me

your sales you know

your business from us and

I'm just fine in anyway I did notice that whenever it is not very good and successful and

for five years now you know I've been I'm all for five years and is really good and that's what I wanted all the time and because actually let go and not to mention that taught me little things and I have also done this to like what you know what if it's what it's not supposed to be your way you know that was someone comprehensible to me quite well you know what just happened to work out the way you like it is getting worse and you know

I'm just such a slow learner because I came with a real rocky foundation you know someone three years maybe four years one of the steps when

you know I mean I don't read all Danielle Steele it was more interested in the middle ground

get right down in the kitchen because a girl can keep your mouth shut

it was really really slow for me you know but the one thing that I knew that I knew is that I am going to be the way out for me it was really really hard when I had to do the things I do will force them to tell somebody you know you have to show somebody you're done don't you know I mean it's a bad thing it's humiliating is belittling but you know I had to make the same inside myself and I've got to do this

you do not need anybody

ians

we have more sense not

I don't believe

and you know all those things go with it the thing is is that

initial price

you know I had here over and over and over and over and you know just to this day it was

it is December you know we'll have thirteen years but until every day I still go to a meeting every day you know I drank every day I thank god every single day

all I was was a drunk at work

but you know

the the the thing about it is I had to go to a every day even if I you're one of the things that come back yeah the only people I ever asked me to come back

today you know he's been slow for me

because I'm so stubborn

okay

to do that anyway it's almost getting to the point where I will ask someone's opinion fires almost

no this would be something

every day we get a little bit more women and more women and you know I've only learned all those things it's not a business I'm just so glad that nobody's ever you know somebody get my answer get out of here and you know because they're so encompassing and so and so much love and kindness and intolerance you know and love and tolerance in our culture and our analyst so well today because of you know nobody or try to run the other day and I can ask for an

and grateful for that because you know I've been running I'm just better well being too they could be about the hybrid could be someone else on the