Sybil C. from Los Angeles speaking in an unkown location April 18th 1985

what is your

there's one lady on the west coast that

here is the label and

label take care is as good as the first lady in AA on the west coast her name is simple and people out there who opened up welcome her

thank you gal

thanks to the committee

everyone on the committee been camping me putting gal and I'm only on the pride that I can get anything at all because I'm like you I mean I'm making very poor blind and rotten bookmaking thank god nothing had to be hauled home and now I get

I called a willing to the locking and nothing like that

you know and I know that you can act like an a and having an open house yeah I loved it like the gift that I got right now we kill me kill me right away I would need to linger around very long because next month

seventy nine years old

I thought about it my forty

the word right yeah read a lot

the young them about helping about eight minutes thank you sixteen eighteen twenty twenty five year old and I can't young people who come in now and they he got a loaded up here you're not

and they'll think well online you know I like it it's not possible to buy her you know that old and not have a drinking party click here

it's possible but it doesn't mean that it's not late yet low light low

and I'm told well and that good health and then like a lot of money and all the good in people I think the right thing and nothing bad can ever happen to you because you look right now and and then I look around that and think about my mother and my father and I never get drink

they never had a good time particularly

well

unique apple because of the law that I intend to be here for a long time

I think that the the guardian and I think I'm about to die

I would marry a compulsive gambler

and that that

my long name okay look nice and hot Maxwell let Carlin

hi

my daughter handy who came down and that he could be here from nine in California last month over five years I had my back in a year

he was laughing and that

yeah UN women and guiding me yelling line gambling problem yeah like a lot of my life and that that

it

he was a great man and the people from nine in his last year in Iraq home a lot from their home exactly and and you know the crony and crony over there every day in your life and I don't think you knew the people before today at eight and that they they they live there nine they knew what a wonderful thing that he had done but no many gambling that killed and now literally cut their throat because there was no way out and he wrote the book and you get the meeting directly traveled around the country and got V. eight got it all over the country and get a great job I think I think if they got no idea

in the bottom plate thank you again for making me feel like an online it is so helpful to have people who pick by you when the going gets rough

because if you know me you know the human beings all over the world have got kind of that they don't have to get at it I can't know all right and all that kind of thing but at least people can buy up and looking back over your life about it yes the ninety day it's a great thing actually that looked a little closer to each other than we are our current group perhaps along with with a lot a lot of other good name get get relegated are the neighbors next door and yet you know what let me K. and I know nothing about what makes you tick and I found out early on that Alcoholics Anonymous didn't work

thank you

that it wasn't worth a plugged nickel when they finally shine

it had to work through everything no matter what

and it does I hope they I don't know where that guy getting that I gave a hug twenty five day program because of the life that can I get a client and I talked to him and and how can I avoid any package and twenty five date can you imagine what looking thank allegedly shot between the group in Hollywood last year one moment and then we get badly when they talk about that alcoholism thing and let it go I live because they didn't carry anything in love that I can come to a a no absolutely no other way out

but they're prominently accepted if he'd played here are they getting but not yet paid

because a lot of a try again we cry crying out Clayton we tried a lot of things tried willpower that thirty work well

that's all I ever tried what product the product that I won't do it again I won't be nothing for three days

I I really won't ever drink again I I I really mean it hanging and I mean it I'd rather die than they can get when I met back

right now a lot of

hello I have a case number with nine days

when I think back out of town with the father

they'll harden Baylor by paid off and then they didn't have a nickel and we got married and had even warned and I love to cook and a baby I like him and I thought we were dead broke and leaky cat data plan let added added my mother who's very ill with heart problems and died early on

and we we

over in the plant and poor

and didn't want to behave the way they were doing and that and that I had an

because eighteen layout that that they could be out in California that would regulate all right if we can get the money trail land yet I've been a big fan hi looking live and when he gets back but when we got to make a big deal making another twenty five mile trek at live right our

and we got a cold break or something now let them take back that night and forgotten about that and the next morning the man at the little booklet going down when we got him crackers or something to eat he said if you want like in the army in it taking great care and I think maybe I can use you know we walking he writes down a little

and one thing and actually at the Iranian data gap picking great

hi

I didn't twenty or something like that and I was waiting at a very young and I thought that the the life now I'm away from the gun

plated up balloons and I now then I won't have to drink anymore learn about taking care of the baby and we'll make a little money here picking me great and when we go back I will take the baby I will rent the apartment and I'll have my little girl and she'll never be her mother got

and I work hard and I would go and play even happening and a lot of that and all of those great pictures confirmed that it had come from any direction and they were kind of looking at right now

installation by the fall of nineteen cut little cloud and they gather around the bonfire because the navy helped and kept getting a sleeping bag or whatever and so the doctor climbs higher and they kind of highlighting and bill and I joined the little crowd there and I thought now they live all by laddie helping in hand and I'll be thinking about life and love it when we get back online and like every guy in harmonizing back then and then I think a lot of young people and now here and I'm here I tell bottle back

a path around the capital a vital things happen and I know let it live and then being named quarterback and I mean and I'm not playing in the water and the calibrated and I needed a plan that not only can be a lot in the back of the neck that open up for me

it

me and I turned up the island right read the whole thing

and realizing that I had failed once again I couldn't bear it I got up in the campfire and I wandered down the road right

a link from one road to the next and I'm learning along with my head down and stopping incline I remember looking at the blue and gray oh god why am I doing it why am I doing it I never thought that Michael and Kate and I finally began to worry and that because I heard your heavenly music and dance at my plant and animal

and I thought

I have over time now that I've got the hell happened everything else let you know that we have to get the beautiful and I think in the long run to get away from the music and I couldn't get away from it got louder and louder and louder and pretty soon I doubled up on the lake he can't out there in an acre that would be a great line and it would be local the final meeting at

and all the people were entertaining him but I didn't know that and when I read it like a double during that part of the flap of the tent and the near the clock and the creature

even thirty then he looked back in the back by the end of it live that they can guarantee

eight years running down my cheek hello Boenning backpack laying back and forth and the congregation floating turned around and gave me the I. and as he was playing it any immediate along there any among you who want to be playing some part in the queue for the regular can do this thing out that was the one who wanted to create a neighbor lenient did in my life behavior I thought

late level you were helping me a lot of and it took me forever and a day to get down and they began to things and I am without one plea and that young man the cashier and I finally got the all clear and you're putting a hand out put it on my head to pray for me and I threw up all

later years in many many many many many bad things but he died in a car and but I never had anything are you have never heard any

I call it line that I could go up on the creature

because I couldn't bear that what

and I get I get out of there I thank you that that

you know it can get on the main road a lot I would like and it took a long nap and I got on the truck and the truck that worked out fine for me and that he would be at night you know they put a little thing hello thank and I got on the truck and he took me to my mother you go are you hurt my head and I like mama can't added that the kicker and I think it's one little okay a lot of my youthful path and I feel young and no and and wouldn't exactly deny it to everybody to

nearly all

you

I currently work for her and do it again do it again and then when I would get in my current account and you can play and get here because I can't be thinking hi my bottle in the sand

right where are the other cooking hating on thousand and poking me and I think I like him a lot okay now the plan where I can call it out and get drunk in a wonderful happy they didn't have the

can I get

Kelly and so then I got in the car in now and I went and I found exactly thank you

what kind of being there like that me and I have been here all over my baby

hi and I think you're really

in

yeah and it's quite high and I look so bad

that it knowingly and gale like they do a great day they were going to follow your lady get going and act locally and they followed me and again right now below that great leveller band and then they they got ahead of me and I'll act and they complete your mind or because that given my name and address and they don't do that Hey

you know that you are looking for the pick up cleaning it because on the other hand if I was in a different mood and not gonna buy it buying it from anything that might in line

and yet I might get thrown out in eighty

no come back here any longer and there are a lot of guys that couldn't go in because I like that and I wind up with a lot of yelling and screaming and being crazy one time when I when I left in line

I left before two o'clock and I only have two black and

they could live and I love that they can play that I like I could I could I could make a whole lot right but I would have to run them and follow them and I get up and run a little bit and I called around

and a little bit later I like it happened I'd like to make a run at it and then I

and I think that the kids and when I got to our house and he was like anything like a hockey fanatic ever because I couldn't

it had had hired her near near even look like that thanks for quite awhile and I would run and I liked a lot and I would get up and I got I got it and I want to get them back and I'm not an on off and cleaning down the only live within the heel of the nylon and I have been creating no then back in the all the weight on the bar and I didn't feel very happy about all that and

and I would pray and plead for help oh god please don't let be behave like it's like like love like wrong with long I can't guarantee it one day I got in my car and I drove up over that ridge route let it go and move that back daylight looking around and then now the daylight left and even any place to get going and I wonder why I am here I don't know anyone I want to go home I turned around and I got back on the big route and and they've been in and out of look like the bad guy Reagan handcar ride and they will do an apple over because they can no longer have a think about it I wanted to get home and be at eight o'clock I think he has got a contact and can you drive me again after that I have been a complete and and technique Los Angeles wrangling and I got that he'd likely yeah finding somebody with picking the lady lady like that when I send you love here we are well I'm gonna leave you here because I have to go down and get all that crap along because you're not here can you can you hear me and I think yeah and he laughed and I love her a lot of it the company L. and I learned that when something bad

at that

he gave me a lot thank you very phone lines were pretty big my legs were being lightly not that like that I would not put him and I thought I'd take a Turkey back like I used to run my but it keeps me and I would pick up the ticket back or put it back on in the week and I need to you can take her last breath and I go home and I look good and then I can tell them that bad that I went up and then they look at rant that recognized by an out of band on the planet that account and I can hook up with going in and how people will believe it and I can get my foot in the door one more time because he wouldn't put up with it

and I did want to go down I think thank you I wanted to turn my head out and I'm looking into the new band and how can I wanted nothing to read after the Turkish bath which take quite a while and I would stay there all night the next morning I put on my make up the whole little handshake and I'd be okay and I will get in anywhere from an hour and so I thought I read and I get that I have I can't exactly little they're terrible talk again and come back and I'm playing a little better and the light shining down my Facebook magazine can lead in

and that even post date March first nineteen forty one and down at the bottom of the letter hi Alcoholics Anonymous Mike Gackt Alexander lives first nineteen forty one

yeah

I opened it and read a book coming out because I had picked up a kind magazine with an article in it back out there two years before that in nineteen ninety nine when I look at my login log home much lately eighty two years before I had picked it up in the beginning now the court look at the track article in there and if an alcoholic and died and I had read and he had the piece about Alcoholics Anonymous and it was very hot you get the benefit of band of men who were meeting regularly and banding together alcoholic who did not want to keep going and for the next weekend that's very good that they call them Alcoholics Anonymous and I thought I'll go back there I'm fine

I will be back and I couldn't wait to get out I couldn't wait I look at the picture if he can give me a little and their work and everything like that and I thought oh they're in a hospital that land okay thank you because I am and everything in there and I thought lately he added levy I can get like the picture that you're leading a haven't been at liberty

hello

I thought they

and then in the in hospital where they

because we are working now and I turn the page and that didn't benefit nine analysts perspective shortening and I'm gonna that was very interesting I really thought it had a

little on it and are they really love to death and then I can take the land they were talking to him in the band there and I thought oh that's ridiculous you know in advance right now and then I came to the end of the article the court could find them and I can explain back there I thought that the black number I don't know what it let them live a lot one three four five or whatever and then they can be done and I wrote a letter to Alcoholics Anonymous connected I'm a woman alcoholic and I'm at the point of death and drinking and I can do no better and I have a lovely home and a good family and I have a little girl and I can't make it at all I cannot make it at all I cannot do I look into your a a hospital and get cured please tell me where you are and I will be there

and I gave them my address and phone number and everything and I went on home and got my foot in the door when I kind I waited for an answer anything right away

M. A. L. and if approved hi dad left here your available account and another twenty five year old girl who works for the L. three because he had no money he was an alcoholic anonymous

they laughed about it later but and that's really what happened

and

came in he said that I'll never forget her handbag I'll never forget I heard about it lose it now and

that's not too long but it can take that gets settled in with that you can't find it here at the New York office and then you need not come back here to find out how to come out of luck because in December nineteenth nineteen ninety nine they got an alcoholic anonymous and I think if your own home town and we will we will think that they're very few of them accounted with command and and one man actually finding another and then they go in together and we had a meeting in the L.

and no longer leading in home in Pasadena hello I will give you the telephone number address and the man who appeared to be you know leading a group work and get back the group for help with it with some way to cut down on the court I'm with at that time he gave me Frank Randall the advanced by thirty south Coronado any phone number and yeah hello I am I went ahead and got drunk

because unfortunately for me had added eight PM at the bottom of the letter if you need help immediately call click Walker

at

the longer three four five I have a lot of Walker and the name then I I'll get here that I even talk about him because he really made my life I got drunk and I got thrown out and then I remembered a a and I got out the phone number of plants which require something about it then I called him up and hit three people I can't you're gonna act bad your AT&T let them pick me up I'm ready

yeah we don't that's not in

I like

are you anyway I got to call me before you got done I think well he did we have a meeting downtown I don't know because I don't know man and I'm ready to leave the house yeah you should have gone to the meeting Friday night leading our hiding people at that idea thank you yeah okay that's your possible impossible they wouldn't have done that a little happy happy with that you know we've never had a woman alcoholic we never had a woman alcoholic we understand that there is one in New York who is

they don't know how it will work out with him and her name is Mahdi man and but we never had a woman alcoholic and never been to that one back and it we don't know what her record and her

really I couldn't do it anyway but yeah I'll give you Frank Randall number and I think we have that they can only acknowledgment number thank you thank you worldwide it would go out and play with their husband daughter needing something again

right but not the not not until he had to tell you about it thank you David Gregory Beatty California reminded not connect up to gather together to obtain and maintain our

and they would know that correct or they can walk or whatever

and I like it better hearing and shaking and order I can't go

I need all kinds of accusations

that's what happens if they go down there and I mean that I'm going to get I couldn't tell you that the reason I'm talking about thank you David we now have a one an alcoholic in on the left there's a lot of money van eco

the pottery yeah I didn't go down and I was really thinking and and nervous I don't know who I had the nerve to do it and I thought it happened to me that he cried let me

I feel comfortable and when I went back I had to read turban on in black and I think I give a man I know if you were logged in I was shocked that they were short of war along with all the behind and everything

Hey get propagating and and that replacement but I think with a little heat eloquent he looked happy about Alcoholics Anonymous and his story about getting drunk and beating and on on everything and then when it came to that point about and now then before we get into talking to your alcoholic you can cope with that we're going after them and leave the room you can accept if there are any here who will call themselves alcoholic women give me the name and he looked right at me

random apple in my arm I can gain in the life that at last and and they had their own special type of Milan I'm leading out there again and that I ate and I remain and from that date and then and then that they began Gloria it's been wonderful and then I've had my share of problems encountered in the family and all of those things that happen to everybody all over the world and it never had anything or not and if you need that one of the greatest experience here that I can remember ever having and I should talk a little bit about it is that when you get a bang on the clock here that I won't

check the parking lot

how to get that a lot of a lot better than that for twelve years

I like you can't hear that I finally got an apartment four blocks away from the office

and I have always lived in a local I had little doubt the little plastic carrier Getty and I would lock him in the morning before I went down to the office and I I got an apartment a block away from eighteen oh five Wilshire Boulevard temple office line and I would walk into a pot we could not will block away from the catalog every nine

I took him down and walking around the tree and the better the pot and under it like a man whom the newspaper he was putting them out and at the dog and I were walking panicking he would move the newspaper

so that we can look beyond that with his little home there under the tree and he could make himself a little talk of the lady that walked in on the other line and I never get anybody think like black and then one time when I walk the dog at night the pocket let's take another day he yeah he he was lying down with the newspaper over eight and I want

and I thought and I thought how can you become a professional I ate on that that think a locket containing other people out there what with the alcoholic and yet you've we've been looking at land now for a week and here he is on the ground and I took the dog home and then walk back and and and look under the tree to the left and then I will create some kind a came down almost to the ground all the way around and and I looked under there and he was great and not moving and I thought oh operate again

and they don't even know how to

no answer

and I never could get a lot of the person so I went to the corner liquor store and I got a scrap of paper and a pencil and that opinion or something to that or anything I thank you Kate and I wrote a little note and I said I'll be back at six eight AM in the morning the game where you are at all

and I am happy to hear that you're

home until the next morning I let the dog home I went back the the man that hit code under the tree and he was propped up by a great weekend all the lady I look up when I came home last night and your little little game that was laying on the ground again

put it on my body but it was I thought with a note of them crying but at my back is I usually hang a left on the tree of life when I come home either in your long time but they're not there now so I don't I couldn't read it so I took it to the liquor store and the main thing that you get back on that screen they did let data

eighty one you can do with me

I think you look great

I

and then it'll look and green and then they get on that

early one morning and he can play in the central office where I'm working

I didn't recognize the man they getting closer with a lady he

what kind of death and that's why I couldn't hear you very well that night when you talk to me under the creek anything I wholehearted hearing and he said one of the members get happy wife indicted he gave me a hearing aid nine we're now I can hear you if you want help me and that you know they laid me down at that twelve got hot and I would

let me look for my drink and got them back and I don't plan on making any one I go to the meetings around the area you're looking at the clock that path I don't intend to drink anything I want to give you a look for you to put in the key here the lady like me that might come along and and need help and that if I did that night and not come back here pretty often it's only about four or five blocks from here which he did and he never had another drink he looked at the dollar

long after that I I kept track of the grammar in a day

and it it made me feel good to me that would be great that help with public person in every aspect turn out good quality better than

and then one time I was getting at and a lot of dancing the phone and a girl like that again can you help me and I think that's what we're here for and he began to cry and then

I don't know what you're

eleven one

thank you for

thank you

I think we can help eleven lilac path back down again

neat what about me can you help me

well of course that's a different thing that I want that a woman down there alone I did were you not drink until I can get someone down there it might be

how did that get on the phone right away like I did and I got to build up in your life who are both eight members and they went down they don't get caught that could you wait in the way of life and I called it be at the house and told her that yeah thanks for help thank you at the help the get go right now and we could take our annual beat them working in the navy then there over

and then I called happy I'll let her go getter and I did get you rather than quality gal who I think it over and and not let you get the money back and you can count on me and it turned out fine looking live better husband and son and you won and had all that separated the current of her booty and her husband had been attending that event and I live in a home somewhere out in el Monte and he could not binding anyway dean investigated around and and found out where the husband yeah a lot and hello good girl developed pneumonia and at Christmas time and she developed some kind of along the ground and he died

I never lie down and notify the land and the land and they came and that they didn't know the kind that never told his mother worked in that shape it Rick I think she left ever when it finally happened had been doing fine but she caught pneumonia and he never knew to get the final approval and that at the heart the often called every woman alcohol if you could lay hands on the data make a funeral out of it and when we got out there and I want to get you there they cry

people in a minute and then around and they can move out that they were planning to become a man who died and made you feel good when you thought that by later on and he grew up in every year to get money had become a problem and it didn't it didn't hurt him nothing at that particular time that he would call later when even the land line I'm sure you can get very well indeed

well I think it's like a killer and it is hello hi good pagan it's not not too many people who really understand what it's all about our neighbor down the street certainly don't

maybe they think bigger now because

it did not apply read a lot but they never know I'm guilty and they found that their alcoholic and a lot of help and need help and then they recognized that they come here and find a welcome ticket number twenty five days we'll find any hand what a wonderful big family

it's like one big family I'm not afraid of you anymore I don't feel like I don't belong I feel like I'm at home I would be at home anywhere in any land but they could be kingmaker not it would make a difference I have to get it a lot of wind up to a little bit and not talk a few years back because they have nothing up there but let's include and that they did a bad bad luck on the accounting because they gave me a link you think we agree on that and then let her sleep in the igloo and you know I'm I'm proud to be a little too cold in my life that I can come up there which he did and they landed at the Q. Canadians and they had not had a little lamb leading up there I want them and the reason for that the band had started it and he was lying and he had been

the New York office and then couldn't see at all but he believed in a a and we got over and over to the day and I was up in Canada last year and plan with life came to greet me and I am not reclined and had the flu and were not well and couldn't come the evening over all these years Magen looked over at the moment there is no limit to where the program goes and how it gets people well if they want to get well I have more faith in Alcoholics Anonymous and I can begin to pay your income many wonderful things that have happened and then found that life can get rough and if you don't have to drink I had another bad experience where that I can help with a hole in the ground we could get a good if not better tech died he came Alcoholics Anonymous shortly after I didn't get it going down in the coming through the weekend another group he said why don't I can't I can't talk I'm going to try to pick the patient leading I'm here I am going downtown you know and I make sure I get all the women children and I'm AT and kept cutting edge group out there and how you can clock in the car into the downtown acting like you're better off and I think we've got a good group out here in Huntington park we can't do that what

well he can't do that with incorporated Alcoholics Anonymous in California that means nobody can look at that they have a

okay right now man and that they'd they'd automatically could we don't want you here you came down here you can call on how to do it and now you've got it right a group out there I thank the car

I have a group

we got a guiding a lot will be clear on down to the ninety nine meeting we get that we've got one half way and in a little we need a curly on your path thank you when it

I don't think anything no we don't please okay I hadn't cooperated Alcoholics Anonymous California and if you don't call that group up will you will run you out of town because you are hurting group thing and and it will cause all kinds of problems five and so we have incorporated alcoholic

well why not like let you know the New York office and and we get on the okay I think that had a lap dance

you have tried to incorporate Alcoholics Anonymous I don't care if the member here that an attorney had been cooperating here in California you can't do that your life is not that a corporation that

if I have it within a year or two we'll have groups around here here and here and again you know and and you know and I never worked out not guaranteed at that that you're going to grow like wildfire and that no little group of another group like you

Dan

it's good to go well it he replied we had little and we're going after all the time getting a younger and prettier and more handsome and and they gain their knowledge faster and faster because there's more book can be read more knowledge of the game

and then the thing that I talked about not too long ago and I don't remember today is that look Dr Bob in the good old timers like I had laying around my house for a couple years before I finally got it got around to reading it it's about the anonymity thing

I I read on page two hundred and fifty four

all right now we're not gonna corrected because we're pretty well and I am away now we look correct it the doctor Bob I met him he came out with Dale and now in the fifty one time and I got a shaky hand then you regret quiet man they'll talk in our

Dorian and every age in California there and cut me off and I went over to log and then doctor Bob got a company called cleaning and cleaning and then

a bad a lot and we work with local powerful powerful

so we're not gonna have a good old timer okay now finally bank page two hundred and sixty four where doctor lab and I can hear you

I'll run again yeah that'll happen Asian

right

that way I'm not a mechanic brain get anybody who can read the language author and exactly what it meant exactly what it means is that we're only and not a left at the level I thank

radio and they'll

not you know anybody

and then later better it can lead all right when they read that okay I understand it we're only allowed to look at the level of pain radio in town

because you can't get the I'm not a liar I only get our first name that initial

it could kill people he

my work now because I can't write the whole thing that I wanted to get a hold of the one of you because I need

good evening and I would say well how will I get hold of Jack yeah what are

but then again when you get to connect with people

eighty feet

in that lane

it would be good

what kind of a

the names of the people that can save our lives

and you'll find you get looked at exactly in the work that you've got them the definitely came out of my hand and it could not because the kids

all we have to be able to to call each other in need you know the poll that

Tony the guy with the guy in the home not a good idea a lot of the body I'm going home and learn about it from my home the content and even going to drive me home god bless you know nothing and I think I did the quote that they I wasn't able to get behind the need to call up Molly I think I feared under game

and the young men and all of you who are currently willing to give me your name and I hope you do because I don't wanna lose you I don't want to forget it live at the lake and I don't want to forget that thank god that I don't want to forget the names of the people because I mean you're not gonna kicked in a ten I need you a lot or do you need me to tell you that you've got a beautiful job here and that that at the convention you've done a magnificent job I can't ever remember ever having into one eight welcome and the payment that that I have out here people are late here and I ate and