Betty P. from Las Vegas, NM at the 19th Annual Crested Butte Mountain Conference
good
evening
everyone
my
name
is
very
quiet
and
I
am
an
alcoholic
and
it
is
only
through
the
grace
of
god
a
god
that
I
found
in
this
program
and
people
just
like
you
who
loved
me
enough
and
encouraged
me
to
get
involved
in
my
own
recovery
that's
the
only
reason
I'm
here
tonight
filled
with
with
along
with
the
peace
and
with
joy
and
for
that
I
say
thank
you
Alcoholics
Anonymous
my
sobriety
date
is
April
twenty
third
nineteen
eighty
five
before
I
get
started
I
would
like
to
say
thank
you
so
much
to
each
and
every
member
of
the
committee
that
put
this
wonderful
conference
together
I'm
not
real
good
with
names
and
I've
met
so
many
new
and
wonderful
people
and
so
I
just
say
to
each
and
everyone
of
you
I
know
how
hard
it
is
to
put
together
something
like
this
and
to
do
it
from
out
of
town
to
me
it
would
seem
what
an
order
I
couldn't
go
through
his
but
it's
been
a
wonderful
experience
for
me
and
I
thank
each
and
everyone
of
you
the
phone
calls
the
love
the
concern
the
hosting
to
all
of
you
on
the
committee
thank
you
so
much
you
know
every
time
I
try
I
Michael
this
program
and
I've
tried
the
best
of
my
ability
to
pay
back
and
you
know
it's
so
hard
because
I
just
keep
getting
and
getting
and
getting
and
so
again
I
say
thank
you
I
want
to
thank
all
the
wonderful
people
that
hosted
us
and
took
us
to
dinners
and
two
lunches
with
all
of
their
friends
and
to
each
and
everyone
of
you
who
has
helped
me
through
this
whole
weekend
and
is
here
tonight
to
sharing
your
love
with
me
thank
you
you
know
when
I
go
home
and
I'm
going
to
want
to
come
back
to
a
release
special
place
I'm
going
to
close
my
eyes
and
I'm
going
to
be
able
to
see
that
mountain
covered
with
chocolate
chip
cookies
never
seen
so
many
chocolate
chip
cookies
thank
you
I
I
spoke
with
my
sponsor
yesterday
and
she
reminded
me
that
when
I'm
asked
to
share
I
have
nothing
to
share
with
you
but
my
experience
strength
and
hope
and
anything
else
I
try
to
say
it's
going
to
be
a
lie
so
with
all
earnestness
of
my
command
I
will
try
to
share
with
you
as
honestly
as
I
can
what
it
was
like
what
happened
and
what
it's
like
to
get
and
for
that
I'm
gonna
take
you
all
the
way
back
I
was
born
December
thirteenth
nineteen
thirty
and
I'll
let
you
do
the
math
to
another
mother
who
was
a
student
nurse
and
that
back
in
nineteen
thirty
I
was
given
away
immediately
for
adoption
I
stayed
in
the
little
girl's
orphanage
for
a
couple
years
and
was
blessed
to
be
taken
up
for
it
and
adopted
by
a
family
who
lived
in
Las
Vegas
and
had
a
daughter
who
is
four
years
older
than
I
was
and
so
I
stayed
in
Las
Vegas
until
I
was
around
four
years
old
and
that
was
in
the
early
thirties
and
times
were
hard
and
so
my
dad
moved
us
all
back
to
Santa
Fe
where
he
could
get
a
job
with
the
state
and
I
was
immediately
enrolled
in
Loretto
academy
school
for
girls
now
I
want
you
to
know
that
right
from
the
get
go
I
did
not
fit
the
plan
of
the
good
little
Catholic
girl
that
sits
with
her
skirt
pulled
down
and
her
hands
folded
because
because
I
want
to
know
one
and
because
when
you
tell
me
why
I've
got
a
better
reason
and
don't
tell
me
they'll
show
not
because
I
I
can
figure
out
a
way
that
it'll
be
okay
for
both
of
us
so
that
was
my
experience
in
Catholic
school
I
have
to
tell
you
that
my
mom
and
dad
never
told
me
that
I
was
adopted
but
you
know
how
kids
learn
they
have
big
ears
and
and
people
would
visit
with
my
mom
in
that
state
always
is
is
that
her
and
isn't
she
cute
and
I
knew
there
was
something
different
going
on
when
I
was
eleven
years
old
my
mom
had
a
little
boy
and
of
course
he
was
the
apple
of
my
dad
sign
so
now
I'm
in
the
middle
kit
I've
got
an
older
sister
and
then
there's
me
and
then
there's
my
little
brother
and
people
would
say
to
my
mom
you're
so
lucky
you
have
a
daughter
that
looks
just
like
you
and
the
sun
that
looks
just
like
his
dad
and
I'd
say
well
mom
polite
and
she'd
say
oh
Betty
Marie
you
just
look
like
Betty
Marie
well
you
know
there
was
there
was
unrest
within
me
and
I
know
one
time
we
were
out
on
the
playground
playing
a
silly
little
game
called
colors
where
there
was
a
step
mother
in
the
big
bad
wolf
and
colors
and
there
was
no
reading
the
step
mother
couldn't
do
any
running
and
so
nobody
wanted
to
be
the
stepmother
and
some
one
of
the
little
girl
said
repeat
the
step
mother
she
step
mother
she'll
know
how
to
well
my
heart
sunk
my
secret
was
out
they
knew
and
I
immediately
went
into
not
just
anger
but
a
tremendous
range
and
that
was
pretty
pretty
frightened
because
we
were
all
pretty
young
kids
that
I
knew
then
that
my
secret
was
out
that
everybody
knew
and
I
was
different
well
we
continued
on
I
went
to
school
when
I
was
in
junior
high
school
the
war
was
on
World
War
two
and
there
was
a
tremendous
shortage
of
nurses
and
so
I
got
a
job
as
a
nurse's
aide
at
the
local
hospital
and
at
that
time
they
had
the
cadet
nurse
corps
in
right
away
I
idolize
those
women
and
what
it
was
you
would
graduate
from
high
school
and
and
sign
up
for
the
ticket
at
their
score
they
would
put
you
through
nursing
school
and
then
you
would
serve
a
certain
number
of
years
with
the
military
and
so
I
went
that
was
my
life
it
was
planned
that's
what
I
was
going
to
do
but
in
nineteen
forty
eight
when
I
graduated
from
high
school
the
war
was
over
in
the
cadet
nurse
corps
was
abolished
and
so
so
much
for
that
plan
well
I
decided
I'll
show
them
all
just
get
a
job
save
some
money
and
put
myself
through
school
now
in
Santa
Fe
New
Mexico
at
that
time
there
wasn't
a
big
demand
for
young
ladies
just
out
of
high
school
with
really
not
known
skills
and
so
I
had
an
opportunity
either
to
go
to
work
for
state
government
or
the
telephone
company
and
I
didn't
have
any
political
mentor
to
get
me
into
state
government
so
I
went
to
work
for
the
telephone
company
and
that
was
in
the
days
when
there
was
lights
on
the
board
chords
and
the
operator
said
number
please
it
was
a
good
experience
for
me
and
taught
me
responsibility
I
had
my
own
spending
money
I
didn't
learn
much
about
how
to
handle
that
but
that's
another
another
program
another
story
we
all
have
to
join
the
union
now
you
know
I'm
seventeen
eighteen
years
old
I'm
going
to
do
what
everybody
else
SO
we
join
the
union
and
once
a
month
we
had
a
meeting
and
we
would
go
to
different
people's
houses
and
we
would
deal
with
our
business
and
then
we
would
all
pitch
in
money
in
the
Kitty
and
they
would
order
either
a
K.
case
of
beer
or
a
bottle
of
booze
in
those
days
they
were
delivered
to
your
house
and
I
don't
remember
getting
drunk
at
those
meetings
but
I
do
remember
that
I
stayed
until
I
drank
my
share
and
if
if
anybody
had
to
leave
early
I
was
available
to
help
finish
it
up
we
used
to
get
paid
once
a
week
and
we
wouldn't
the
one
time
we
all
all
us
girls
got
together
and
decided
we
would
go
to
a
little
town
Espanola
New
Mexico
which
is
about
twenty
six
miles
north
of
Santa
Fe
and
go
dancing
because
they
wouldn't
card
is
there
and
so
we
all
drive
up
there
and
and
so
we
sit
around
this
table
everybody
orders
drink
some
one
else
that
I
can
call
him
a
song
well
I
don't
know
what
that
was
something
like
a
plan
to
me
so
I
didn't
have
one
zombie
I
had
to
and
what
happened
was
I
got
drunk
act
out
and
I
got
very
very
sick
and
I
can
remember
those
skills
driving
round
and
round
in
town
until
I
got
sober
enough
to
be
able
to
crawl
up
the
stairs
home
and
when
I
got
up
the
next
morning
feeling
really
bad
you
know
what
my
first
thought
was
that
was
fun
I
wonder
when
we're
going
to
do
it
again
well
you
know
I
continued
working
my
sister
was
dating
a
young
man
they
were
getting
kind
of
service
and
he
came
over
to
visit
my
mom
one
time
any
broader
this
bottle
of
sherry
hearing
Ansel
my
dad
opened
the
bottle
everybody
got
a
little
glass
you
know
in
the
alt
right
shift
and
everything
and
mom
put
the
bottle
away
she
said
you
know
wasn't
very
good
will
you
know
nobody
asked
me
but
the
same
group
of
gals
we
get
together
and
once
a
week
we
go
roller
skating
so
I
lived
on
the
north
end
of
town
and
the
only
girl
that
had
a
car
would
come
by
and
pick
me
up
first
and
I
would
invite
her
into
the
kitchen
and
we
pour
out
a
little
glass
of
this
year
hearing
and
then
we
go
stating
what
well
you
know
one
Saturday
morning
we're
cleaning
house
mom
looks
at
the
bottle
and
it's
empty
and
she
said
well
what
do
you
suppose
happened
at
this
and
I
said
mom
mom
is
all
sugary
beverages
so
you
know
I
was
already
the
beginning
my
journey
my
sister
got
married
and
my
brother
in
law
had
had
his
younger
brother
be
the
best
man
so
we
were
invited
to
a
lot
of
parties
he
and
I
got
along
pretty
good
and
after
my
sister
was
married
he
and
I
were
dating
and
my
sister
was
married
in
June
and
the
following
February
I
was
pregnant
and
merry
we
do
that
a
lot
of
my
family
and
so
the
one
thing
my
husband
said
to
me
was
no
wife
of
mine
is
going
to
work
so
I
was
a
stay
at
home
mom
and
god
blessed
us
with
five
children
one
of
the
traditions
we
had
in
my
house
I
didn't
drink
when
I
was
pregnant
not
because
I
didn't
try
that
but
I
just
physically
couldn't
and
when
I
had
my
first
child
the
doctor
said
to
me
I
need
to
nurse
the
baby
and
I
said
yes
and
he
said
well
I
suggest
that
you
drink
a
little
beer
that
helps
the
process
and
so
it
was
a
tradition
every
time
there
was
a
new
baby
in
the
family
Daddy
would
go
pick
up
mom
from
the
hospital
and
the
new
baby
stop
the
liquor
store
for
a
case
of
beer
and
I
mean
you
know
I
was
raising
my
family
I
can
also
tell
you
that
my
husband
was
in
Catholic
but
I
still
was
and
so
we
were
raising
our
kids
in
the
church
and
that
means
you
know
there's
got
parents
because
you've
got
baptism
confirmation
and
first
communion
and
you
know
graduations
and
on
and
on
and
so
the
one
thing
that
I
can
tell
you
as
I
look
back
over
for
now
that
I'm
sober
is
if
you
didn't
drink
you're
really
weren't
invited
to
be
part
of
this
godfather
hood
you
know
and
we
would
have
these
big
party
and
we
lived
I'm
sure
some
of
you
have
heard
and
Santa
Fe
they
have
the
burning
of
old
man
gloom
at
the
annual
fiesta
and
we
lived
only
a
couple
blocks
away
from
the
big
park
with
that
all
took
place
people
would
come
to
our
house
and
parked
the
car
and
we
would
have
a
party
so
for
about
a
week
before
the
party
your
friends
would
start
bringing
in
the
supplies
you
know
there's
always
cases
of
beer
and
booze
and
we
order
it
K.
again
you
know
one
of
my
kids
said
to
me
you
won't
you
don't
mind
do
you
remember
those
fiesta
parties
it
was
a
bigger
celebration
Christmas
was
and
so
and
so
it
went
you
know
my
husband
was
self
employed
and
every
Friday
he
had
to
put
out
a
report
and
in
those
days
he
had
a
mimeograph
machine
hand
cranked
mimeograph
machine
and
then
you
fold
up
these
papers
and
would
like
the
envelopes
with
stamps
on
it
so
Friday
at
noon
he
would
quit
work
come
home
and
run
off
his
report
and
we
buy
a
case
of
beer
because
we
had
to
lick
the
envelopes
and
so
the
weekend
which
starts
Friday
afternoon
and
Saturday
and
Sunday
you
know
and
as
the
years
progressed
sometimes
a
weekend
would
start
on
Thursday
to
get
ready
for
Friday
EDM
sometimes
by
Sunday
it
was
better
to
have
a
little
bit
more
on
Monday
my
husband
and
I
were
were
drinking
but
he's
so
the
kids
grew
up
and
we
found
ourselves
with
three
children
in
college
and
although
they
were
all
working
and
have
scholarships
finances
were
a
little
tight
and
so
my
husband
said
yes
you
can
go
back
to
work
so
I'm
back
to
the
telephone
company
to
work
and
I
was
working
late
hours
and
after
a
couple
of
years
I've
reached
my
previous
service
and
so
I
had
some
pretty
choice
hours
I
could
go
to
work
at
say
five
in
the
evening
and
work
till
eleven
or
six
till
midnight
and
that
worked
really
nice
because
I
could
be
home
during
the
day
and
then
work
in
the
evening
the
only
thing
is
like
on
the
weekends
it
was
hard
to
spot
to
drink
all
day
and
then
shower
and
sober
up
and
go
to
work
and
one
Saturday
night
I
guess
I
went
to
work
a
little
boisterous
and
chief
operator
called
me
off
the
off
the
board
and
she
said
that
Betty
I'm
only
going
to
ask
you
this
once
and
I
knew
what
was
coming
but
you
see
I
had
I
been
to
parties
and
I
had
had
drinks
with
this
lady
and
I
knew
she
was
worse
than
me
I
mean
I
saw
some
mornings
shaking
you
know
she
said
did
you
come
to
work
drunk
all
she
said
all
right
well
you
know
what
that
means
it
meant
I
had
to
keep
warm
mince
and
not
be
someone's
life
continued
on
and
technology
improved
the
court
boards
went
away
the
dial
tone
came
in
you
know
there
was
there
was
a
lot
of
progress
in
technology
and
pretty
soon
different
offices
begin
to
shut
down
and
officers
begin
to
consolidate
and
by
then
I
had
worked
myself
up
through
a
supervisor
and
then
I
was
an
evening
chief
operator
and
the
only
choice
I
have
left
at
that
point
they
were
going
to
close
the
office
was
either
could
commute
to
Albuquerque
or
trying
to
get
into
the
business
sales
department
and
so
you
know
how
we
are
you
give
me
a
challenge
and
you
give
me
a
test
and
I'm
going
to
be
ready
and
I'm
going
to
do
it
and
I
did
and
I
just
stood
up
and
I
was
accepted
as
part
of
the
sales
team
now
they
were
very
kindly
sent
me
to
Phoenix
for
a
month
to
be
trained
on
the
type
of
equipment
I
was
going
to
be
selling
and
the
training
center
was
they
had
a
motel
that
was
within
walking
distance
of
the
training
center
and
every
day
we
would
go
in
we
get
three
tickets
one
ticket
was
for
breakfast
and
two
tickets
were
for
cocktails
well
you
know
it
didn't
take
me
long
to
figure
out
who
didn't
drink
and
a
lot
of
tickets
so
I
would
go
to
go
to
class
all
day
and
then
in
the
evening
I
would
study
in
the
bar
any
popcorn
you
know
worked
really
well
you
know
it
was
a
job
I
really
enjoyed
I
jokingly
they
used
to
say
to
me
or
the
EEOC
I
was
Hispanic
I
was
over
fifty
five
and
I
was
female
and
so
you
know
I
was
selling
telephone
equipment
and
enjoying
it
it's
a
matter
of
fact
I
was
doing
a
little
bit
better
than
most
of
the
men
in
the
office
and
I
think
it
kind
of
bothered
them
and
so
they
would
have
these
meetings
and
they
would
set
this
benchmark
you
know
and
then
you
know
I'm
competitive
you
tell
me
I'm
going
to
do
this
I'm
gonna
do
this
you
know
and
so
I
continued
on
and
work
and
work
and
all
that
was
going
on
my
husband
is
still
self
employed
he
developed
heart
trouble
and
don't
at
one
point
had
have
bypass
surgery
and
so
what
we
took
in
Albuquerque
he
had
that
done
and
had
a
quadruple
bypass
and
after
about
nine
days
in
the
hospital
I
brought
him
home
some
of
the
things
that
I've
done
in
in
my
drinking
days
I'm
not
really
proud
of
but
I
want
to
share
this
with
you
because
I
want
you
to
know
where
my
life
was
headed
I
went
to
Albuquerque
and
picked
him
up
and
most
of
you
that
are
familiar
with
open
heart
surgery
know
that
yet
to
crack
the
ribs
and
and
and
make
an
incision
and
it's
it's
pretty
ugly
and
it
was
just
healing
and
he
was
sitting
in
the
backseat
of
the
car
with
the
shirt
open
still
healing
from
this
wound
and
I
had
a
nice
just
to
be
or
not
Oct
one
open
and
I
said
you
haven't
had
a
drink
for
a
whole
week
you're
a
good
boy
and
so
we
started
drinking
on
the
way
home
now
when
we
got
home
we
try
to
develop
a
better
healthier
lifestyle
he
was
walking
every
day
and
he
said
are
drinking
was
just
gonna
be
Saturdays
and
Sunday
afternoon
after
the
football
game
was
over
we
wouldn't
drink
anymore
and
I
thought
who
made
that
rule
you
know
when
I
learned
that
I
could
pour
Bourbon
on
Kate
concluded
in
****
I
had
my
way
he's
we
only
had
one
child
left
at
home
all
the
rest
were
we
had
college
you're
working
and
I
can
remember
coming
home
from
work
and
my
husband
saying
to
my
youngest
son
if
you
want
dinner
you
better
get
it
before
you
really
get
strong
well
well
I
knew
what
it
was
because
I
would
come
home
and
we
had
this
little
cabinet
and
it
made
a
noise
when
you
pulled
it
open
and
I
pour
out
you
know
what
some
Scotch
and
then
I'd
go
to
the
refrigerator
and
get
some
ice
that
makes
noise
and
you
know
so
I
solved
that
problem
every
morning
before
I
went
to
work
I
opened
up
the
liquor
cabinet
and
I
learned
to
drink
drinks
without
ice
there
is
a
solution
well
so
we're
continuing
on
technology
is
getting
better
you
know
and
then
comes
the
big
split
the
bell
system
and
you
know
all
of
that
and
they
started
offering
early
retirement
people
and
all
my
friends
and
my
family
got
wind
of
this
hopefully
you'll
get
to
retire
early
and
you
can
call
in
and
stay
home
and
take
care
of
your
husband
well
I
had
a
job
that
I
really
liked
and
I
had
a
I
had
a
an
accounting
or
business
account
at
these
power
lunches
and
you
know
one
of
the
accounts
was
to
call
each
the
brothers
passed
one
and
I
you
know
but
I
I
didn't
want
to
one
of
the
things
was
they
told
me
I
could
retire
early
and
then
when
I
was
sixty
five
I
would
get
a
little
pension
and
in
my
heart
I
knew
I'm
gonna
live
to
be
sixty
five
you
know
I
wanted
to
stay
here
and
do
this
to
keep
on
doing
this
but
there
was
a
lot
of
pressure
on
my
family
and
my
friends
were
all
expecting
me
to
do
it
and
so
reluctantly
hi
I
took
the
early
retirement
package
and
I'll
tell
you
right
now
that
was
god
working
in
my
life
I
I
I
never
went
to
work
to
work
drunk
but
I
did
drive
a
company
car
with
bad
hangovers
and
you
know
I
was
working
toward
a
situation
where
I
could
have
made
a
bad
mistake
with
one
of
these
poor
customers
or
or
heard
somebody
in
a
company
vehicle
and
it
would've
been
tragic
and
so
so
god
took
care
of
the
bell
company
I
retired
so
my
husband
and
I
might
I
had
a
son
that
was
teaching
in
Topeka
Kansas
and
we
decided
we
take
a
little
vacation
and
we
take
a
couple
of
the
grandkids
and
flying
there
and
we
didn't
do
that
and
we
flew
to
Topeka
and
that
night
we
all
we
had
the
little
sight
seeing
we're
sitting
down
having
a
drink
what
else
and
trying
to
plan
what
we
were
going
to
do
the
next
day
in
my
husband
suffered
a
heart
attack
and
we
left
on
vacation
at
that
weekend
and
then
we
came
home
eight
days
later
and
and
and
I
buried
him
and
you
know
I
said
to
my
children
nine
you
know
when
I
said
to
god
I
know
you
were
going
to
get
even
with
me
some
time
but
did
you
have
to
do
this
you
know
no
never
mind
that
my
children
have
lost
their
father
that
his
brothers
and
sisters
had
lost
a
brother
they
really
care
for
that
my
mom
had
lost
a
son
in
law
that
she
really
loved
I
had
lost
my
drinking
partner
and
I
was
fine
every
night
I
would
close
the
curtains
and
sail
away
with
cutting
by
them
gosh
was
my
drink
of
choice
somebody
told
me
that
if
you
drink
Scotch
you
don't
get
a
handle
don't
believe
also
I
was
developing
some
sort
of
gastric
problems
and
the
only
way
I
could
drink
this
to
mix
it
in
milk
now
when
I
sit
in
meetings
and
we
read
that
story
about
the
man
in
the
milk
punch
and
everybody
says
they
don't
know
what
they
were
missing
so
I
guess
that
I
I
know
I
found
myself
no
I'm
home
alone
I
had
quit
my
job
and
I
decided
to
go
back
to
college
I'm
going
to
go
to
college
and
I'm
gonna
get
a
new
career
and
computers
were
the
big
thing
then
you
know
so
I'm
going
to
become
a
computer
programmer
my
sponsor
tells
me
a
little
grandiose
but
you
know
so
I'm
enrolled
in
computer
programming
and
computer
science
algebra
now
if
any
of
you
know
me
very
well
you
know
that
to
balance
my
checkbook
I
break
out
in
hives
and
I'm
you
know
I'm
taking
all
these
classes
and
then
I'm
taking
swimming
because
I'm
going
to
be
a
well
rounded
person
was
gonna
get
cars
beat
this
beats
that
did
this
did
that
and
this
little
guy
comes
running
across
the
room
I
wanna
be
I
wanna
hear
your
CS
yes
yes
yes
yes
yes
he
did
you
all
do
it
and
I
believe
this
is
somewhere
right
in
here
that
it's
not
just
not
double
crucial
and
vital
stuff
is
about
six
fifteen
in
the
morning
this
is
the
birds
are
singing
in
the
movie
I
believe
that
god
will
and
can
restore
you
to
sanity
over
to
the
book
look
at
the
problem
from
entirely
different
angle
we
look
at
it
where
was
I
felt
you
egotistical
yourself
this
could
send
your
self
centered
you
want
everything
your
way
but
you
have
seen
in
the
spirit
and
I
was
walking
into
a
fourth
dimension
of
existence
yeah
but
what
happened
was
is
that
the
six
myself
if
you're
an
alcoholic
mind
with
an
alcoholic
mother
and
that's
what
I
was
trying
to
instill
Joe
isn't
about
going
back
to
people
and
telling
them
how
sorry
you
are
they
know
that
making
them
the
one
hundred
eighty
three
dollars
and
sixty
eight
cents
on
nine
different
jobs
I
calculated
how
much
I
spent
on
drinking
and
it'll
jewel
I
heard
they
they
are
scrutiny
back
there
are
absolutely
this
is
this
sunglass
boutique
all
I
guess
they
want
drunk
last
but
I
loved
it
Margarita
I
really
what
I
hang
out
Marston
I'd
drink
water
for
a
long
time
right
I
love
the
box
pops
up
make
a
laughs
you
know
in
the
hospital
well
you
know
they're
out
there
dancing
together
and
then
they
left
together
in
on
there
I
wasn't
drunk
drivers
never
get
picked
up
and
that's
not
cool
I
can
drink
okay
when
I
drink
it
returns
yeah
I
feel
comfortable
I
just
cannot
intuitively
Easton
all
had
a
handle
situations
that
would
baffle
in
the
mountains
it
really
is
it's
right
up
there
in
the
mountains
sound
hearing
aids
that
people
who
live
at
high
altitudes
for
prolonged
periods
of
time
working
on
taking
my
blood
when
you're
in
that
kind
of
I
didn't
have
a
driver's
license
they
take
in
that
three
D.
W.
eyes
earlier
you
know
because
I
didn't
have
one
at
eighteen
thousand
dollars
I
couldn't
leave
also
fresh
resident
we
have
a
better
for
you
tonight
now
the
high
pressure
me
get
me
to
come
in
down
there
that
consumes
the
nine
dollar
nature
John
I'm
not
going
these
two
guys
mess
I
talked
for
a
long
time
in
the
I
didn't
hear
dancing
this
one
watch
whatever
the
way
he's
on
and
I
did
the
way
he
acted
I
was
totally
scared
to
death
now
what
I
do
I
know
I'm
in
a
class
so
you're
after
care
if
you
go
to
a
I
will
be
your
aftercare
program
you
go
to
a
so
I
go
back
there
now
so
that
we
can
meet
I'm
not
going
as
well
then
you
know
call
them
and
let
them
know
that
I'm
coming
it
is
W.
he's
not
even
anonymous
anymore
I
mean
I
can
look
him
up
in
the
phone
book
and
a
lot
son
of
a
****
jealous
I
feel
better
some
walk
around
Reno
feeling
better
going
in
the
men's
bag
me
was
Christmas
Eve
Thursday
fell
on
Christmas
Eve
and
they
announced
that
the
men's
in
that
month
that
been
going
one
problem
again
in
this
meeting
and
I
was
asked
if
I'm
gonna
win
the
bus
some
prints
from
my
book
that
right
I'm
glad
dont
believe
that
nonsense
I'm
glad
none
understood
you
know
any
space
after
one
more
night
you
know
he
just
drive
into
the
meat
so
I
started
going
on
about
I
think
when
you
would
leave
this
man
we
use
all
the
women
at
your
first
meeting
you're
gonna
love
there's
you
know
any
women
is
going
to
come
back
every
Friday
night
it
is
at
school
and
then
you're
gonna
love
it
and
then
when
you
get
there
tell
me
how
god
works
because
god
works
through
people
god
works
through
people
thanks
by
working
another
after
drinking
and
dining
with
both
had
great
moments
I
think
what
happens
around
large
numbers
really
pretty
simple
my
mom
screw
that
I
did
worse
yeah
we
keep
and
no
issues
that
I
need
to
cover
with
analysts
in
the
van
I
was
so
screwed
after
next
after
about
six
months
I
want
my
sponsorship
you've
been
so
kind
of
like
me
up
and
treat
us
so
well
I
don't
want
to
leave
and
not
all
that
simple
and
the
main
purpose
of
the
book
is
to
enable
you
to
find
out
how
as
the
first
access
there's
a
lot
of
people
in
the
world
you
know
yeah
that's
the
real
I
need
to
do
something
myself
I
need
to
take
control
of
my
birthday
party
big
big
party
people
that
after
the
record
primary
leads
all
enjoyed
working
the
front
desk
for
an
eighty
acres
we
got
away
with
what
we
got
around
a
hundred
fifty
groups
in
the
metroplex
people
in
Dallas
north
that
night
he
joined
picks
need
to
give
the
crosstrek
copies
and
I
know
our
downstream
you
know
the
argument
that
that'll
work
that'll
work
all
right
a
few
years
back
when
you're
ready
go
on
airplane
at
south
one
United
Kingdom
points
and
she's
embarrassing
so
not
an
issue
you
are
what
about
your
needlepoint
but
you
lost
your
love
the
conference
room
prior
to
that
I'm
finally
specialized
railway
yes
you
need
a
plan
okay
anyway
you
know
in
a
time
where
I
wasn't
running
to
do
something
and
some
sickness
auctioneer
fire
started
in
the
last
no
one
an
incredible
thing
we
got
here
and
that'll
happen
when
we
come
out
pocket
rocket
are
any
mood
changes
I'm
we'll
go
you
wanna
and
they're
on
my
lap
I've
had
a
lot
of
you
know
what
it's
like
and
that's
all
right
I
never
saw
it
as
a
special
assistant
to
the
United
States
the
general
in
the
criminal
division
of
the
department
of
justice
for
the
files
I
I
thought
a
man
arrested
I
had
quite
a
different
being
dry
and
being
stolen
in
my
book
that's
just
my
opinion
sometimes
when
someone
said
that
there
was
a
certain
principle
which
is
about
a
long
information
and
proof
against
any
argument
the
message
as
I
was
concerned
I
while
reading
what
both
now
once
that
I
may
not
agree
with
the
word
that
you
say
but
I'll
get
there
I
was
in
a
while
and
I
started
to
may
I
respond
and
I've
got
all
the
help
we
can
on
our
everybody
isn't
ready
for
this
day
let's
not
kid
ourselves
you
bet
you're
wrong
you
keep
coming
back
you
get
a
chance
reminds
me
of
the
guy
down
here
in
Dallas
this
is
not
being
ready
racket
going
at
a
rate
that
Dallas
marketplace
and
he
started
his
changes
but
I'm
not
ready
and
he
kept
talking
about
poor
woman
like
they
had
a
connection
it
well
that
he
sighed
because
I
wanted
to
go
home
the
light
J.
O.
Y.
we
didn't
go
that
way
we
get
in
and
out
of
there
and
I
asked
him
I
said
what
are
we
going
Johnny
and
the
while
we
going
on
and
I
didn't
want
to
stay
sober
Rita
I
love
it
so
much
copy
the
poor
a
shot
of
gonna
be
honest
John
Huston
the
things
in
the
cloud
has
come
out
the
ends
of
my
fingers
to
change
the
direction
of
a
matter
a
woman's
life
is
the
same
length
of
time
it
takes
off
one
and
I
go
far
there
will
what
do
you
call
your
dad
like
housework
and
one
of
the
boys
on
the
really
calling
second
rider
but
I
do
travel
a
lot
and
I
was
in
the
right
hands
in
action
but
should
Canadian
brothers
and
sisters
these
are
the
words
of
bill
Wilson
he
sat
down
on
his
wife
probably
we
were
divorced
in
nineteen
fifty
one
yeah
I
promise
Darling
and
I
had
to
set
up
tables
and
get
everything
ready
I
said
Karen
I
look
if
I
saw
those
it
might
might
get
home
and
come
home
and
of
course
when
she
said
this
I
couldn't
get
it
out
quick
enough
that
you've
that
honey
my
promise
of
Listerine
condescension
this
thing
might
command
bye
and
we're
trying
to
do
something
out
there
at
window
rock
Hey
hello
Larry
his
grandfather
got
and
I'm
three
years
ago
teachers
I
tried
Dr
Gregory
and
I
tried
to
call
and
he
said
now
he
had
not
contacted
had
anytime
to
contact
stone
the
rock
would
be
okay
MRI
is
and
bell
and
that
little
fellow
who
want
to
build
on
that
November
afternoon
rush
in
my
opinion
would
be
today
if
it
hadn't
been
for
every
factor
thank
you
Dr
fourteen
years
and
then
that's
fine
today
since
it's
convinced
me
at
that
I
was
born
worthless
I
came
here
with
three
strikes
against
me
the
only
way
that
I
could
to
survive
was
to
admit
that
I
was
not
worth
anything
that
moves
toward
some
sort
of
record
you
were
the
logical
very
seriously
hi
I
really
felt
as
though
I
was
not
a
very
worthwhile
zero
five
this
is
a
signal
for
one
more
round
and
I
want
this
house
long
enough
I
was
able
to
tell
you
that
it
was
because
my
father
last
you
gotta
you
gotta
my
most
effective
ways
of
my
life
you
know
that's
one
thing
I
have
learned
nothing
at
all
about
the
waters
because
the
solution
is
the
same
regardless
of
the
conditions
five
or
five
source
got
loaded
up
when
I
was
serviceable
I
was
eighteen
years
old
I
was
in
a
walkable
bands
and
stuff
we
were
in
a
place
called
the
lucky
Mississippi
and
it
was
in
the
height
of
the
Vietnam
War
and
successive
sailors
who
were
getting
shipped
off
and
on
a
few
days
and
so
we
have
got
a
bunch
of
blues
I
think
we
actually
robbed
a
liquor
store
to
get
it
really
rob
this
is
the
sensitive
articles
on
like
a
house
in
a
couple
of
there's
a
lady
who
was
head
of
the
since
you
couldn't
see
anything
anyway
and
what
you
can
do
that
I
just
regular
bottles
like
because
I
didn't
know
anything
about
who's
although
he
was
always
around
my
house
and
being
with
us
from
the
world
yeah
this
was
on
the
will
of
the
size
of
the
force
of
happy
hour
any
waking
moments
we
whatever
we
could
to
add
up
and
went
to
the
back
of
this
club
with
my
bands
playing
and
and
we
have
a
very
very
setelah
selection
it's
like
a
collection
of
all
everything
from
schnapps
to
southern
comfort
the
I
haven't
had
a
chance
to
go
for
the
second
one
for
some
reason
the
more
likely
searching
yourself
what
sort
of
samples
there
were
like
eight
of
us
in
the
stands
and
since
there
was
and
everybody
so
sample
from
the
bottles
and
found
something
like
that
had
a
few
more
Swiss
citizens
and
I
continued
to
drink
continues
to
saver
the
office
of
the
Romans
and
textures
and
colors
of
the
about
a
half
hour
later
I
just
in
those
huge
technically
go
on
all
of
this
I
don't
know
if
you
guys
know
this
was
going
to
say
is
what
is
a
drink
that
has
different
colors
layers
of
the
floor
west
of
my
car
seat
looks
like
and
I
so
the
moment
I
started
drinking
I
drank
alcohol
there
was
never
enough
somewhere
in
my
personality
I
have
the
psychology
that
if
something
is
good
then
more
of
it
must
be
better
it
seems
very
logical
and
very
simple
equation
I
I
could
never
understand
why
someone
would
go
out
and
and
have
a
drink
for
two
days
with
my
wife
and
my
wife
this
is
alcoholic
beverages
I
don't
understand
that
a
loss
of
three
to
me
it's
medicine
and
the
more
medicine
you
take
the
better
right
whether
it's
blues
or
or
later
in
the
eighties
right
before
that
Michael's
well
before
I
go
to
drinking
and
no
less
not
only
in
in
retrospect
I
I
if
I
was
born
in
alcoholic
I
have
the
personality
defects
that
everything
else
hold
it
should
have
stream
lack
of
self
esteem
coupled
with
this
grandiose
self
image
issues
if
not
we'll
have
to
take
well
and
they
produced
a
phenomenally
allowed
behavior
I
was
very
afraid
of
you
because
it
was
logical
that
if
I
didn't
know
who
I
was
and
what
he
very
much
how
could
you
possibly
and
so
in
the
sixties
luckily
the
Beatles
came
along
and
I
was
able
to
stop
personalities
that
will
more
than
full
time
I
mean
I
was
nuts
before
I
ever
sorry
for
this
world
to
this
day
fast
that's
heavily
since
you're
simply
for
months
on
end
as
a
political
person
the
name
specific
countries
I
don't
know
that
there's
some
fifty
year
old
woman
out
there
sitting
at
home
and
I'm
looking
at
television
and
things
Jesus
Christ
he
was
like
I
mean
this
guy
and
this
is
what
is
so
wonderful
to
be
able
to
concoct
a
life
that
I
think
it
was
successful
it
was
so
easy
to
pretend
I
was
somebody
else
so
that
I
could
have
put
in
place
personality
traits
and
emotions
that
I
thought
was
made
up
a
whole
healthy
human
being
and
I
was
very
good
at
right
then
in
the
early
seventies
I
heard
was
actually
place
where
you
go
what
they
paid
you
to
do
so
I
was
I
I
thought
there
was
nothing
else
I
could
be
with
an
axis
you
know
I
like
you
a
lot
of
these
I
don't
like
it
much
anymore
by
the
way
so
when
I
get
paid
these
days
our
system
and
the
fear
and
all
that
stuff
will
be
most
of
my
life
I
mean
I
was
I
was
I
was
such
a
scholar
I
have
had
such
fear
that
at
any
moment
either
Saddam
or
sarkari
figure
of
whoever
happens
in
front
of
me
was
going
to
be
radically
my
systems
and
this
constant
low
grades
for
years
from
class
to
talk
about
that
where
you
wake
up
every
morning
and
you
just
know
that
the
day
is
probably
not
the
one
that's
being
very
nice
that
something's
gonna
happen
to
use
to
verify
the
opinion
you
have
of
yourself
I
can
only
say
that
I
am
very
glad
that
I
found
out
what
I
did
because
I
do
believe
that
alcohol
prevented
me
from
going
completely
psychotic
I
do
believe
that
you
when
your
consciousness
hard
enough
I'm
sure
I
will
talk
to
my
boss
and
he
would
be
telling
me
Google
chill
if
I
had
not
had
something
that
was
first
turn
it
off
you
know
that
was
turned
me
off
unfortunately
I
was
in
charge
of
the
sixties
consequently
I
had
the
opportunity
to
blaze
trails
in
the
technicals
that
as
I
like
that
you
know
this
happened
because
I
was
going
where
no
man
has
gone
that
I
was
I
was
blazing
and
I
was
absolutely
off
the
edge
of
a
woman
you
know
I
didn't
get
arrested
very
much
I
didn't
I
didn't
have
a
lot
of
people
which
if
you
heard
but
it's
open
I
I
didn't
but
I
certainly
still
people's
lives
in
a
way
you
know
I
was
once
described
herself
as
a
psychic
vampire
so
I
was
sort
of
this
I
would
do
everything
worthwhile
and
then
leave
you
high
and
low
and
starting
on
the
ground
unlike
other
homes
it's
horrible
but
it's
true
well
I
was
saying
I
was
this
is
about
your
when
I
was
in
fourth
grade
I
was
ten
years
old
I
lost
the
ball
catechism
books
and
the
non
member
states
including
my
mind
shifted
from
sister
meri
white
for
some
I
knew
that
I
could
not
go
back
to
her
classes
on
his
book
otherwise
my
****
with
the
grass
so
I
thought
what
can
I
do
what
logically
I
thought
long
run
away
I'm
sorry
what
is
important
I
was
on
playground
within
less
than
one
hundred
for
music
lessons
and
I
walked
off
the
school
yard
and
I
what
has
become
the
Mecca
of
walking
and
I
was
ten
years
old
I
was
in
the
heart
of
New
Orleans
were
close
to
the
Mississippi
River
levee
runs
right
back
of
the
school
so
I
got
a
couple
of
years
of
walking
down
rivers
towards
no
man's
land
Sean
that
segment
of
workplaces
installations
and
fireworks
of
wonderful
people
some
other
I
love
going
back
in
the
afternoon
I
hadn't
even
thought
I
was
scared
and
I
thought
well
I
guess
I
have
learned
you
know
look
at
the
documents
for
well
this
number
here
because
we
have
an
option
of
it
wasn't
like
I
had
I
thought
it
wasn't
true
or
it
was
which
is
why
and
I'm
thinking
I'm
going
to
take
any
responsibility
whatsoever
for
my
actions
a
devise
a
plan
so
I
tore
my
clothes
the
goods
are
my
little
shop
of
uniform
and
I
split
my
knuckles
on
the
sidewalk
and
also
going
back
to
a
school
about
two
blocks
from
the
school
I
assume
the
sort
of
quality
mobile
phone
so
back
to
school
and
the
nuns
come
you
know
floating
out
of
the
building
number
nine
is
or
the
carpenters
artists
such
a
long
way
to
go
yet
yeah
and
brought
me
to
the
schools
that
will
happen
and
being
faced
with
this
dilemma
I
I
I
I
fessed
up
that
I
had
been
kidnapped
on
the
outside
a
hundred
just
recorded
that
means
the
room
in
the
back
of
his
truck
add
up
to
be
away
and
and
check
me
all
day
and
I
don't
know
anything
about
sex
with
time
but
it
never
occurred
to
me
that
so
you
know
you're
touching
a
special
place
or
maybe
I
wasn't
a
little
bit
of
an
issue
I
know
this
time
of
the
absolute
what
you
made
me
do
I
I
all
I
could
think
of
was
made
because
of
the
radio
someone
called
and
like
when
we
were
so
much
more
money
all
my
life
so
we
moved
in
with
my
grandmother
grandfather
sensibly
raised
by
my
grandmother
my
mother
works
so
anyway
she
comes
screaming
and
crying
the
only
reason
why
he's
been
looking
for
me
for
a
second
home
changes
me
ice
cream
this
means
bad
and
I
think
well
it's
not
going
to
go
over
those
men
standing
at
the
door
and
it
was
the
police
absolutely
staggeringly
they
make
seven
dollars
over
the
year
and
severely
hurt
terrible
happening
tell
us
about
this
well
it
was
a
little
too
early
draft
stories
and
so
I
have
receded
to
lighten
them
amongst
my
predicament
that
day
on
he
will
give
it
some
more
so
give
a
description
of
a
guy
who
really
sort
of
liked
wasn't
wells
within
the
and
it's
not
about
the
times
with
the
image
I
had
in
my
mind
there's
of
Harry
lineman
they
they
they're
not
even
in
the
days
they
get
a
lot
of
sympathy
with
anyone
away
half
of
us
are
two
days
later
they
came
back
into
the
heart
of
since
you
have
a
good
alcohol
abuse
I
really
thought
from
a
women's
advocate
since
so
I'm
yes
are
you
losing
a
seventy
five
cent
book
less
than
a
thousand
year
over
thirty
the
scales
were
always
but
I
didn't
I
I
I
finally
in
the
end
he
cheers
and
and
gnashing
of
teeth
by
contrast
what
happens
and
everyone
who
you
know
that's
the
thing
that's
great
about
us
we
think
we
have
this
phenomenal
and
we're
streaming
through
the
universe
and
nobody
can
touch
us
and
everybody
knew
from
the
from
the
ghetto
these
guys
want
hospitals
and
schools
really
what
really
goes
on
simply
one
part
of
the
story
yes
it
is
it
is
hard
with
my
wife
faced
with
the
possibility
of
getting
to
use
that
I
was
a
liar
and
a
thief
and
a
hall
of
the
people
I
would
far
rather
in
Hong
the
most
absurd
reality
to
trying
get
any
responsibility
deflected
away
from
the
for
my
own
actions
and
he
went
on
and
on
more
than
one
you
know
I
I
did
that
school
I
did
that
United
States
Navy
you
know
I
mean
I
think
that
this
is
the
United
States
government
for
god's
sakes
Morgan
assessable
the
knowledge
of
the
stature
limitations
of
or
inspired
I
don't
I
I
drank
a
lot
and
I
do
a
lot
of
drugs
into
Colorado
for
some
reason
the
guy
that
used
to
make
my
office
do
you
live
there
hi
this
is
when
the
technician
was
stopped
on
the
side
of
the
of
the
twenty
five
or
nothing
I
can
look
myself
once
again
my
breaking
I've
never
heard
the
problems
that
I
only
have
like
five
dollars
on
the
I
wanted
to
leave
the
store
and
try
to
be
with
these
no
facts
of
Gallo
mountain
form
line
for
half
price
of
Lafayette
Konya
watchers
will
bus
yeah
so
I
figured
you
go
for
quality
not
quantity
you
can
have
a
problem
California
nineteen
seventy
three
to
pursue
an
acting
career
and
was
successful
rather
quickly
as
well
as
far
as
that
goes
considering
your
monolog
one
of
my
business
I
receive
Rosenfeld
and
Sara
I
married
a
woman
in
nineteen
seventy
four
things
are
going
along
well
this
was
my
career
was
concerned
for
us
on
the
phone
like
for
some
for
the
nineteen
seventy
seven
all
right
that's
all
I
had
a
series
of
regular
job
my
first
service
hold
on
public
lecture
you
know
we
were
supposed
to
be
brighter
and
and
Bobby
balls
and
this
is
the
world
we
live
the
parts
off
screen
as
well
as
on
screen
things
are
going
downhill
that
thanks
for
changing
things
changed
because
for
the
first
time
that
I
really
can't
recall
getting
loaded
became
more
important
than
anything
else
well
my
wife
had
to
be
designed
around
the
possibility
of
where
are
we
gonna
get
screwed
up
tonight
and
with
what
my
son
was
a
was
a
ten
months
old
I
sent
my
wife
and
he
and
my
my
my
adopted
daughter
to
England
my
wife
is
a
respectable
to
England
because
I
thought
would
be
better
if
you
live
alone
separately
financially
would
be
easier
I
just
want
to
be
able
to
revive
the
old
so
I
moved
on
to
a
friend
sailboat
and
basically
I'm
I
would
lay
down
for
three
months
I
was
too
big
to
stand
in
the
polls
discover
how
to
win
as
regular
was
like
being
that
the
still
able
to
dance
and
I
wasn't
working
I
was
living
off
of
residuals
and
unemployment
etcetera
and
right
out
of
the
blood
bank
downtown
Los
Angeles
some
very
large
like
fellow
grab
me
and
brought
me
into
this
because
you
get
an
extra
two
Bucks
if
you're
on
the
buddy
system
people
are
friendly
I
gave
you
an
extra
two
Bucks
and
I'm
going
on
this
on
this
table
having
won
the
precious
bodily
fluids
my
personal
vehicles
it's
rained
out
for
twelve
dollars
and
I
looked
over
the
television
is
a
little
little
black
and
white
television
that's
the
bedroom
I
see
myself
on
the
television
I
thought
you
know
this
is
a
really
wacky
instead
of
saying
the
time
for
myself
if
you
don't
sorry
this
is
a
great
story
of
Johnny
Carson
show
on
the
it
was
actually
so
I
got
a
job
and
I
was
wondering
what
that
is
like
an
inland
and
a
supplement
to
a
small
little
park
in
the
north
Hollywood
somewhere
this
is
horrible
and
it
it
just
got
worse
and
worse
and
worse
and
they
are
one
of
the
few
that
I
didn't
think
my
children
or
or
any
of
that
stuff
it's
just
a
few
years
of
so
I
was
kind
of
songs
that
would
just
wanna
be
left
alone
so
I
was
over
get
on
a
flight
and
refocus
will
possibly
any
place
that
was
away
from
anybody
I
knew
where
I
could
put
some
unity
if
unity
knocked
out
the
notice
of
surplus
water
from
there
was
forty
forty
pounds
of
sciences
I
look
at
my
face
is
just
like
stuff
with
your
mom's
in
nineteen
eighty
I
got
a
job
in
a
film
called
strikes
and
we
want
you
to
do
this
film
John
candy
and
I
shared
a
a
motor
home
and
during
the
time
of
their
John
Lennon
was
killed
and
that
we
are
not
just
wait
for
about
a
month
I
can
watch
the
film
today
literally
not
remember
doing
some
serious
it
is
toward
the
end
it
just
got
so
bad
that
I
really
kind
of
you
know
some
ways
appreciate
the
fact
that
the
salon
shop
because
it's
working
so
far
and
I
went
to
a
place
I
had
never
done
before
I
was
replacing
being
alone
in
a
room
number
thank
you
for
asking
for
this
for
three
weeks
could
be
bass
what
I
was
doing
to
myself
at
all
to
try
and
steal
something
other
than
this
whole
mom
of
snow
white
forty
three
dismissals
it
may
likely
want
to
check
with
them
to
a
hospital
just
at
the
state
has
to
Hans
a
good
morning
welcome
all
the
symptoms
are
mentioned
when
I
was
growing
up
those
numbers
was
asked
what
it
was
before
we
went
we
went
for
a
walk
and
he
said
I
would
be
to
drop
this
man
in
the
world
sorry
that
was
my
goal
I
thought
all
of
my
defects
were
losses
following
our
history
I
thought
the
high
alone
in
the
world
has
the
pioneer
spirit
of
being
out
there
on
the
ads
to
show
you
the
old
****
what
life
is
really
like
we're
going
to
walk
through
the
fire
will
god
then
I've
not
come
across
this
is
what
I
want
to
this
hospital
on
on
the
bed
stand
next
to
me
was
this
this
for
this
flu
for
saying
this
you
guys
I
guess
or
some
of
your
I
just
got
up
at
night
right
that's
what
and
I
was
working
on
my
cell
phone
since
so
I
left
the
hospital
I
realize
now
that
I
know
what
the
problem
is
like
intricacies
who
will
be
the
making
why
he's
doing
this
thank
you
about
seven
months
and
nothing
to
worry
about
my
G.
two
okay
so
for
the
for
the
first
time
the
only
time
I
didn't
go
in
and
out
a
lot
I
just
can't
imagine
going
back
out
there
I
was
gonna
be
living
here
what
it
was
about
out
there
on
those
days
with
mandatory
smoking
so
I
was
sitting
in
his
room
centric
and
basements
of
churches
in
Glendale
and
and
in
a
place
that
only
read
about
John
Fontaine
novels
and
Rita
Chandler
novels
I
know
you
know
existed
at
all
these
old
men
with
these
long
cold
sweet
if
you
know
your
sister
you
couldn't
tell
the
difference
from
the
ankles
on
their
feet
they
were
so
swollen
I
thought
you
know
what
has
happened
to
me
what
this
is
this
luckily
I
was
in
one
of
those
church
basements
and
comments
about
an
actor
whose
work
I've
admired
all
my
life
and
told
the
story
it
was
something
so
about
six
years
and
and
I'm
sure
as
many
of
us
have
had
this
experience
my
life's
a
lot
of
this
man's
mouth
my
on
my
spine
sharks
it
was
the
most
amazing
experience
I've
ever
had
and
I
realized
you
know
what
I
notice
is
that
anybody
who
is
active
status
as
a
single
person
in
this
room
for
your
woman
or
man
we
throughout
the
policy
when
ninety
years
old
we
all
have
something
so
intrinsically
in
common
the
thing
that
I
feel
for
all
my
life
was
the
rest
of
the
letters
where
are
the
other
members
we
extreme
individual
I
am
I
got
so
acted
so
fast
that
it's
amazing
that
his
lotus
as
I
said
thinking
of
being
Catholic
I
have
very
heavy
atheists
and
that
since
the
only
thing
I
thought
that
would
stop
me
from
staying
here
was
this
worth
the
phone
everyone
walks
in
sixteen
oh
one
in
every
four
one
one
six
is
this
three
letter
word
I
thought
you
know
I
don't
I
don't
know
how
I
can
stay
here
if
I
have
to
accept
the
fact
that
owns
this
blog
the
thing
can
keep
me
sober
I
thought
you
know
this
doesn't
seem
fair
and
then
what
was
the
second
step
to
save
my
life
because
it
it
it
doesn't
say
you
know
it
just
says
a
high
powered
greater
than
myself
and
I
at
that
point
even
as
as
one
of
the
enormously
bloated
ego
I
have
I
couldn't
accept
the
fact
that
universe
somewhere
there
must
be
a
power
greater
than
myself
and
I
don't
mean
that
facetiously
sing
on
it
I've
I've
got
a
lot
of
anger
and
I
can
walk
to
the
beach
so
I
could
stand
on
the
beach
I
guess
all
those
ways
to
stop
all
day
long
and
they
won't
they'll
just
keep
doing
your
thing
the
planet
is
a
strong
power
in
our
hearts
are
with
myself
and
I
found
it
I
found
a
sponsor
very
quickly
and
I
chose
an
atheist
the
Jewish
atheist
this
is
a
responded
to
my
ugly
as
I
possibly
can
again
I
you
know
I
need
to
do
so
I
was
nineteen
years
old
I
didn't
know
what
it
was
being
very
happy
with
the
result
that
the
system
is
something
that
was
not
very
much
else
except
themselves
transaction
this
of
this
Jewish
atheists
and
I
said
you
know
I
don't
know
if
I
can
stay
here
but
I
have
to
believe
in
god
and
he
said
fine
okay
trump
I
don't
know
how
it
is
going
to
compromise
or
somewhere
there's
always
a
paper
you
wrote
these
words
but
as
I
understand
obvious
influences
three
dots
is
a
government
assistance
so
I
went
back
to
my
little
part
of
and
what's
normal
I
would
watch
before
I
never
respond
along
Doss
Krishnamurti
and
all
of
those
guys
that
that
I
that
I
really
craved
as
a
young
man
to
try
to
find
the
answer
to
myself
find
a
part
of
you
that
was
collected
some
possibility
somewhere
I
don't
have
to
be
connected
so
I
finally
finished
the
seventh
one
place
rebels
activists
are
those
both
my
hands
it
was
very
very
sensitive
to
the
Florida
is
a
final
courtesy
I
think
it
was
it
doesn't
matter
what
it
is
while
he
was
on
the
phone
thing
I
you
know
I
got
really
as
I
said
very
active
I
wasn't
jealous
and
I
was
in
the
process
faster
I
would
I
would
walk
in
the
bars
of
the
four
things
like
some
some
likely
candidates
you
know
sitting
at
the
bar
like
I
wouldn't
with
with
with
an
essay
and
intelligence
is
I
would
rather
go
out
of
your
way
and
it
can
be
as
I
became
willing
to
realize
that
unless
you
ask
for
them
I
can
give
you
the
message
for
this
reason
we
get
to
do
that
and
also
that
I
only
have
to
carry
the
message
about
the
drugs
and
I
was
really
surprised
marking
lock
brought
into
my
house
my
number
one
of
the
scandal
the
end
of
your
heart
and
I
would
show
them
my
son
at
this
point
was
five
or
six
years
old
yeah
I
was
taken
with
the
Barnsdall
park
is
work
on
most
of
my
life
because
of
this
remarking
Hollywood
over
the
distribution
Frank
Lloyd
Wright
houses
houses
will
solve
these
problems
of
this
whole
city
that
lives
in
front
of
the
school
site
overlooking
for
months
and
I
would
get
on
their
final
look
this
is
not
taken
through
meetings
and
other
music
so
most
of
them
died
for
that
matter
some
of
the
states
over
for
a
little
while
I
had
guys
would
actually
go
through
the
mother's
perfume
and
stuff
on
there
but
I
couldn't
find
any
clues
never
thought
about
a
salon
for
I
was
we
are
given
over
the
years
usable
strong
emotional
concerns
are
so
very
grandiose
pompous
****
most
of
our
for
that
he's
now
I
recognize
that
for
so
long
before
I
thought
it
was
an
advantage
you
know
and
I
was
just
but
I
realize
that
in
order
to
see
what
she
needs
some
sort
of
real
women
and
spiritual
awareness
I
have
to
be
willing
to
admit
that
someone
else
could
teach
me
something
about
my
own
life
they
are
growing
up
Catholic
there's
always
people
tell
you
about
your
license
and
actually
there
are
some
priests
but
sadistic
actually
opened
me
up
to
a
lot
of
world
literature
art
music
these
rooms
and
look
at
some
guy
who
is
not
that's
my
definition
of
the
lotus
notes
that
I'm
willing
to
look
at
your
life
and
take
from
this
some
particle
obscenity
that
Olympians
will
fly
tomorrow
it's
remarkable
expressiveness
it's
it's
it's
it's
proven
to
me
that
we're
all
very
much
alive
and
I
don't
I
don't
say
that
with
any
sort
of
yeah
hi
I'm
some
heartless
what
I
really
try
to
think
about
the
works
for
me
and
my
wife
and
I
are
you
know
I
would
be
getting
referred
a
lot
from
this
podium
this
is
actually
not
about
it
beforehand
John
Belushi
right
now
it's
just
I've
had
a
lot
of
people
are
dying
on
the
fourth
newsletters
and
so
I
recognize
that
most
people
in
most
meetings
will
die
drums
which
is
no
doubt
about
that
just
before
the
system
show
that
this
is
a
killer
and
that
many
of
us
will
die
from
regardless
of
how
long
stays
overnight
no
notice
on
August
twenty
years
twenty
five
years
and
never
got
past
once
one
day
classes
in
the
first
half
of
uniforms
we
got
to
do
make
it
fast
and
this
is
all
going
to
look
for
my
fiance
one
question
when
did
you
stop
to
with
the
help
of
what
if
you
get
this
in
your
mind
yeah
and
almost
invariably
the
card
that
they
stock
solutions
that
they
started
isolating
because
they
started
setting
in
the
back
of
really
going
I'm
not
I'm
not
that
S.
damn
why
don't
you
go
get
a
drink
but
it
this
separation
again
you
know
I
lived
most
of
my
life
separate
from
the
rest
of
your
and
once
I
was
connected
and
I
got
connected
in
these
rooms
are
connected
to
hospitals
and
walk
offs
around
this
country
in
the
world
you
know
I
go
to
meetings
on
and
in
many
countries
of
the
world
I'm
fortunate
to
have
a
job
that
actually
allows
you
to
travel
to
Sydney
and
Newcastle
upon
Tyne
England
no
or
or
Paris
France
or
or
Auckland
New
Zealand
and
noted
somewhere
in
that
sounds
there
are
levers
so
I
can
walk
with
a
bunch
of
other
people
who
don't
have
noses
and
parts
of
their
faces
are
falling
off
you
know
and
I'll
be
right
at
home
it
is
a
it
is
a
spectacular
thing
is
a
simple
thing
you
know
I
used
to
think
that
the
answer
has
to
be
what
we
come
here
to
see
what
works
I
mean
anything
that
it's
simple
popular
possibly
boards
might
investments
you
know
there's
a
there's
a
bookstore
in
Los
Angeles
call
the
poetry
spiritual
bookstores
with
born
in
the
sixties
I
guess
when
we're
all
of
the
friends
of
some
sort
or
another
most
of
us
from
the
rest
of
the
world
up
in
the
papers
or
I
understand
this
bookstore
ten
thirty
at
night
and
before
I
got
sober
and
toward
one
of
these
books
is
just
sort
of
fly
off
the
shelves
and
hit
me
in
the
head
with
Paul
Wilson
and
there
would
be
the
answer
how
can
I
be
comfortable
without
the
necessity
of
wanting
to
use
force
myself
I
can
tell
you
this
for
what
is
the
answer
for
me
I
think
it's
the
S.
forty
off
all
of
our
listeners
have
spread
across
the
world
who
who
are
not
helpful
because
there's
Henry
Miller
right
right
once
was
enough
always
wants
me
to
have
a
look
for
you
to
know
what
it
was
was
in
the
process
of
one
of
the
friends
and
after
that
you
wouldn't
necessarily
have
to
use
all
the
power
of
the
man's
identity
describes
I've
always
known
he
was
a
little
bit
by
the
fact
that
as
we've
done
tonight
can
laugh
at
the
most
when
this
disaster
is
more
more
it
was
like
we
can
actually
get
some
sort
of
fulfillment
out
of
the
fact
that
he
lives
that
haulers
desperate
sickening
lives
let
people
you
know
hordes
believing
women
get
behind
us
so
he
wrote
in
this
essay
that
is
the
world
ran
like
a
hole
so
I
was
meeting
you
could
just
spend
every
police
force
in
every
argument
finest
here
was
a
group
of
people
who
supposedly
had
nothing
in
common
other
than
the
fact
that
they
suffer
from
this
malady
called
off
the
hallways
and
in
the
time
that
they
are
in
this
room
together
what
they
care
about
most
is
staying
sober
and
helping
the
person
next
to
say
so
for
that
reason
I
mean
that
comes
through
all
the
bullshit
you
know
that
cuts
through
any
political
any
sexual
anymore
racial
lines
you
know
it
is
our
souls
together
this
is
a
phenomenal
player
so
there
were
a
lot
of
a
lot
of
need
some
answers
and
I
don't
know
that's
a
lot
of
this
sounds
like
you
know
when
I
was
new
when
I
listen
to
people
talk
to
have
any
kind
of
time
I
was
just
hoping
for
hawking
since
but
it
really
is
and
symbols
of
the
motives
of
the
missiles
I
don't
think
that's
enough
I
think
about
four
seven
this
whole
bloody
thing
is
number
four
because
I
think
without
that
were
able
to
I'm
sitting
with
a
full
share
so
much
longer
than
the
absence
sure
and
I
go
through
that
myself
I
want
to
be
honest
with
me
because
I
knew
that
there
was
no
other
way
for
me
to
live
and
when
guys
would
tell
me
it
doesn't
matter
what
you
do
as
long
as
you
stay
sober
I
thought
it
was
a
pretty
good
answers
but
I
do
believe
it's
more
than
I
do
believe
it's
important
that
we
moved
beyond
that
I
think
we
got
as
a
launching
pad
for
my
wife
wasn't
so
that
happens
I
have
no
choices
whatsoever
however
once
I
stay
sober
will
talk
about
the
four
seven
this
is
a
separate
mentally
we
are
on
the
defensive
side
we're
after
B.
Swanson
feels
self
loathing
what's
that
we
wallow
in
this
messy
bog
off
and
getting
ready
to
ship
in
a
painful
pleasure
out
of
it
that's
what
we
perceive
as
knowing
how
it
should
be
maybe
six
supported
spread
nothing
but
living
in
the
possible
solutions
of
course
we
have
lost
all
perspective
and
therefore
all
genuine
stability
for
this
fight
in
diverse
if
however
are
natural
dispositions
inclined
to
self
righteousness
will
grandiosity
we
will
be
offended
at
eight
one
suggested
inventory
no
doubt
we
shop
with
prices
to
the
good
lives
and
we
thought
we
left
before
the
bottle
cut
us
down
we
should
point
that
are
serious
character
defects
if
you
think
we
have
any
at
all
seven
because
chiefly
by
excessive
drinking
this
being
so
we
think
it
logically
follows
that
sobriety
first
last
and
all
the
time
is
the
only
thing
we
need
to
to
work
for
we
believe
that
our
one
hundred
characters
will
be
revised
the
moment
we
quit
alcohol
it
was
pretty
nice
people
along
surprises
and
what
needs
to
be
there
for
a
moment
for
you
know
we
are
so
well
this
is
real
real
importance
you
know
because
I
can
make
you
feel
like
you
are
you
are
you
are
you
pretty
damn
useless
you
know
if
I
want
willing
to
really
open
myself
up
to
myself
you
know
when
this
happens
it's
easy
for
me
to
deal
with
that
part
of
it
because
I
wanted
to
sexualize
I
love
it
actually
it
was
a
person
in
a
room
listening
only
to
make
and
he
has
refused
me
but
if
you
do
nothing
else
I
think
the
idea
of
sitting
down
and
honestly
and
forthrightly
looking
past
those
things
you
know
if
we
all
take
thirty
seconds
here
is
the
scan
across
our
allies
and
with
me
is
there
are
these
peaks
of
desolation
and
despair
and
sadness
and
anger
that's
just
always
there
you
know
the
ones
that
really
large
evidence
of
how
what
what
what
what
you
say
why
let
me
know
and
all
the
citizens
several
minds
around
includes
restaurants
for
more
on
what
to
get
into
when
I
was
willing
to
sit
down
and
really
examine
myself
and
take
responsibility
Northfield
what
responsibility
for
everything
I've
done
in
my
life
then
I
was
able
to
look
at
myself
in
present
times
we
know
you
want
to
continue
doing
that
and
you
can
they
don't
Russell
because
we've
all
heard
this
I'm
sure
the
definition
of
sanity
that
an
old
man
once
told
me
when
I
was
it
was
over
the
repetition
of
the
same
action
expecting
different
results
and
I'm
wondering
why
it
was
you
know
there's
only
two
givens
of
Frank's
message
across
the
district
walking
again
well
you
know
what
you
just
want
to
feel
I
thought
was
that
god
was
with
us
your
first
in
the
form
of
the
morning
and
I
was
in
some
fast
passes
you'll
know
how
you
feel
a
hundred
twenty
dollars
for
Italian
very
laxative
not
a
problem
with
them
about
the
morning
and
we
would
be
so
ashamed
to
go
into
the
house
that
would
go
into
the
garage
and
for
all
other
than
the
oil
staying
somewhere
on
the
order
so
my
family
woke
up
and
they
left
the
house
my
son
would
be
driven
to
school
by
his
mother
my
daughter
was
at
school
when
I
was
called
to
the
house
effectiveness
and
switch
to
one
of
our
many
aspen
is
it
is
two
years
removed
from
his
office
at
one
oh
three
years
with
one
of
our
members
it
would
be
a
horrible
disease
hi
America
say
within
the
next
twenty
years
with
several
children
together
I
have
an
eight
year
old
son
she
said
when
she
was
thrown
out
of
school
if
you
have
a
playground
for
close
around
his
appointments
about
somebody
else's
life
will
flash
before
you
know
what
only
next
to
me
she
saved
my
life
more
than
ours
is
she
says
now
if
you
look
at
the
weather
issues
understand
the
left
arm
this
is
not
for
the
children
choosing
what
should
we
do
the
more
homicide
yes
but
my
horse
the
scripts
for
the
first
I
think
we
have
a
special
relationship
I
am
successful
in
business
I
have
I
think
the
odds
are
many
turns
my
life
five
I
know
enough
about
me
to
know
that
if
I
were
more
of
anything
is
the
solution
to
my
problems
that's
when
I
get
in
trouble
what
is
not
the
answer
I
think
really
truly
from
the
last
is
the
answer
by
nineteen
eighty
five
I
was
I
was
on
because
of
the
story
was
with
this
disappoints
the
alcoholic
personalities
whose
minds
I
am
I
wonder
how
many
wards
for
for
activists
for
the
show
uses
and
one
of
the
awards
show
that's
nice
and
nominated
you
know
there's
no
way
I
was
feeling
very
upset
when
they
don't
if
they
don't
give
us
it
is
an
enormous
craft
on
I
was
up
in
the
coal
mining
right
on
the
stage
and
as
a
result
my
wife
myself
the
apostrophe
blessed
no
this
is
me
so
here
I
was
worried
the
walls
fifty
million
people
watching
on
television
I've
got
this
great
gold
statue
in
my
hands
I
am
a
fast
the
stage
when
I
walked
out
of
the
auditorium
of
my
people
who
wants
to
live
on
this
and
it's
like
beautiful
business
sector
of
my
beautiful
house
specific
ocean
I
walked
in
the
resources
section
I
placed
it
on
his
desk
so
he
stepped
back
very
close
which
will
be
one
of
the
government
just
hours
when
I
start
thinking
like
that
unable
to
really
understand
the
gifts
that
I
have
in
my
life
so
you
know
I
got
three
more
progress
what
was
actually
going
if
you're
new
to
this
journey
please
don't
take
anything
I
say
seriously
find
out
for
yourself
the
only
thing
I
know
is
the
experience
of
higher
has
signed
on
as
and
so
forth
the
only
story
I
knows
mine
our
flies
in
my
life
and
how
it
was
applied
to
my
daily
living
in
this
in
this
world
insanity
and
to
fostering
and
evils
and
anger
and
violence
I
don't
know
if
this
is
a
paid
in
advance
all
I
have
to
do
is
make
sure
that
I
understand
that
I
have
a
feeling
reprieves
from
the
situation
that
was
not
I
didn't
volunteer
for
this
well
I
didn't
wake
up
when
I
was
seven
years
old
there
will
be
an
alcoholic
I
have
a
home
I
was
born
in
alcohol
and
I
have
the
opportunity
of
the
only
places
like
Affleck
once
I
love
that
officers
some
days
of
sales
at
all
all
right
I'm
in
a
business
where
people
work
hate
to
satisfy
my
needs
you
know
their
jobs
depend
upon
satisfying
needs
and
that's
a
really
dangerous
place
for
the
holidays
because
I
can
get
very
wide
shifts
of
others
and
I
can
be
very
justified
and
I'll
tell
you
something
that
you
can
find
the
license
over
number
of
times
considering
my
position
that
I
walked
up
to
a
great
switches
and
others
like
pulls
cables
and
stuff
on
the
Senate
floor
four
or
five
minutes
that
something
was
wrong
and
I
feel
lost
in
the
moment
to
walk
up
to
one
of
these
guys
look
as
a
missing
woman
yes
I'm
really
sorry
is
there
something
I
can
do
one
time
loss
you
lose
millions
I
just
wanna
have
fun
of
what
you
know
how
fast
we
ourselves
as
well
thanks
very
well
I
don't
have
to
stand
behind
this
legislation
you
know
I
get
it
I
can
just
look
at
you
as
miss
Arnold
absolutely
and
totally
swirls
I
just
wanted
to
look
at
you
as
a
fellow
human
being
regardless
of
whether
you're
drunk
enough
you
know
I
believe
this
is
a
school
room
in
this
life
I
was
there
I've
got
a
treat
those
people
like
I'm
willing
to
treat
you
otherwise
I'm
only
half
full
I
really
do
believe
that
Sir
can
you
please
go
to
meetings
become
aware
of
the
opportunities
as
well
each
day
is
an
opportunity
to
feel
better
about
yourself
and
there
are
a
lot
of
people
around
here
who
feel
good
about
themselves
for
a
long
time
the
book
is
a
miraculous
thing
I
don't
need
any
of
you
if
I
have
to
force
what's
great
about
having
you
is
that
I
get
to
reflect
on
its
troops
from
your
experience
which
gives
me
a
whole
new
dimension
you
know
it's
like
watching
five
different
guys
have
what
I
see
five
different
service
stations
is
very
sick
by
listening
to
your
lives
I
get
an
opportunity
to
reflect
on
my
life
back
in
Richmond
because
your
people
in
this
world
wide
interests
in
other
people's
role
who
are
as
much
as
seventy
million
now
that
it's
only
six
of
twenty
do
not
become
quantity
I'm
just
glad
he's
not
the
only
one
time
or
another
you
know
much
of
the
time
I
would
say
for
example
allowing
me
to
come
down
here
and
share
my
experience
hi
if
you
love
you
I
don't
even
know
you
but
I
love
that
part
of
you
that
is
new
to
salsa
slacks
my
disease
and
like
your
specialization
thank
you
very
much
for
inviting
me
to
be
here
tonight
I
want
to
thank
the
committee
or
whatever
one
moment
thank
you
for
inviting
me
in
for
you
I've
been
in
town
when
done
at
dinner
tonight
you
don't
know
okay
all
right
down
front
right
now
we're
looking
up
over
the
negative
warrants
over
the
ground
it's
just
wonderful
to
be
in
for
an
honor
when
you
feel
like
it's
one
of
the
you
know
I'm
not
gonna
try
to
go
online
if
you'd
like
if
one
of
them
in
right
now
and
I
am
going
to
present
a
really
long
time
if
you
wanna
be
friends
finally
it
is
great
to
be
in
a
meeting
it's
an
honor
to
be
in
a
meeting
and
it
is
the
same
honor
speak
anywhere
anytime
our
problem
it
reminded
as
well
and
when
we
were
in
the
room
is
called
hold
I'm
in
a
pretty
bald
on
out
of
the
United
it's
hard
to
get
used
to
being
on
the
interest
but
I'm
not
going
to
warm
up
here
I
think
the
beginning
I'm
sorry
I
was
born
the
same
year
that
Alcoholics
Anonymous
I'm
sorry
warning
issued
months
before
it
was
over
and
I
started
I
was
born
in
February
of
nineteen
thirty
five
in
June
on
June
tenth
bottom
they'll
gather
in
Akron
Ohio
and
that
was
the
very
first
meeting
between
anyone
hello
world
final
word
everyone
waiting
because
I
Florida
started
because
I
really
do
believe
that
I'm
one
of
those
kinds
of
people
on
the
lower
left
at
home
they
told
me
that
in
hospital
management
firm
we
believe
I
don't
normally
talk
about
blocking
the
wind
it
means
getting
battered
thanks
for
a
while
and
seems
to
get
the
crowd
going
on
yeah
my
experience
was
when
I
started
running
I
never
remember
having
the
social
brain
our
whole
building
reminders
all
over
the
holidays
I
from
the
brand
is
also
part
of
the
one
of
my
brothers
medical
stays
over
for
many
years
your
religion
and
might
have
a
software
you're
welcome
now
this
is
not
the
only
way
the
if
certainty
about
the
first
line
where
site
one
school
with
the
psychology
our
young
nine
years
old
my
family
went
back
to
the
family
farm
activists
contacted
mirroring
the
sun
and
there
was
a
great
deal
of
a
number
of
records
and
stuff
around
their
numbers
eleven
year
old
okay
but
I
have
to
call
him
back
on
the
floor
and
he
felt
kind
of
sorry
for
me
because
I
was
just
a
little
little
can't
and
never
got
anything
to
drink
he
called
me
one
day
since
the
autumn
who
this
farm
this
beautiful
park
back
in
the
summer
and
back
in
Wisconsin
they
cut
a
haze
documents
he
was
summer
months
before
the
winter
what
about
in
the
in
the
pharmacy
and
all
all
winter
long
and
he
showed
a
whole
new
meaning
into
Haiti
and
what
exactly
as
far
as
the
free
fall
in
like
for
my
farm
what
we
are
left
bottom
of
reputed
airline
in
ages
nine
ten
eleven
on
despite
about
twenty
two
years
old
and
I
don't
understand
what
this
bottle
of
wine
he
needs
a
right
hearing
this
whole
utility
one
thousand
nine
at
anytime
you'd
like
to
have
a
great
opponent
refuses
to
lock
me
up
in
the
morning
and
they're
great
you
can
buy
the
whole
part
of
it
also
increases
I'm
sure
a
lot
the
whole
summer
and
the
new
kind
of
a
general
doctor
that's
one
of
the
and
one
day
eleven
year
old
yeah
legally
blonde
he's
my
hands
went
down
on
what
they
were
having
a
movie
went
into
the
ladies
room
south
Africa's
parliament
overflowed
the
manager
was
Amanda
for
a
lot
of
myself
on
my
very
first
job
then
the
next
day
here
on
Amazon
right
here
okay
growing
up
sicker
than
a
dog
and
that
was
the
beginning
of
my
career
that's
how
I
kind
of
like
Houston
today
and
that
that
is
about
one
ninety
one
of
one
of
those
I'm
not
able
to
be
when
I
get
a
call
working
or
Record-Eagle
alcoholic
I
was
able
to
continue
on
with
the
school
and
I
was
shortly
afterwards
by
dialling
on
management
was
not
at
the
end
of
that
particular
year
and
the
nineteen
forty
six
I'm
gonna
get
me
back
and
I
got
polio
that's
one
of
the
real
estate
because
I
got
a
little
background
about
three
years
before
going
to
bed
in
the
morning
backseat
for
the
reminder
and
it
was
because
of
the
quality
of
my
life
is
built
around
the
office
whatever
you
wanna
call
that
was
all
I
could
work
on
finally
got
out
of
the
hospital
and
went
to
high
school
and
was
very
very
interested
in
all
the
things
that
happened
in
school
I
ran
for
all
that
has
to
be
the
best
I
don't
know
that
I
was
in
the
band
president
have
a
wonderful
time
but
about
every
second
or
third
weekend
hi
yeah
never
never
had
a
social
right
and
his
number
you
can
go
up
almost
right
through
my
hands
on
her
and
had
something
happen
usually
have
some
kind
of
a
lack
of
control
my
kidneys
are
a
little
bit
of
a
rack
or
something
or
something
or
not
although
I
was
constantly
involved
but
I
couldn't
yeah
when
I
couldn't
bring
it
on
the
forums
and
I
started
working
everything
seemed
to
go
along
with
five
of
the
same
sex
freezing
up
on
me
and
haven't
been
much
considering
having
these
problems
yeah
but
he's
talking
the
teenage
years
when
I
got
out
of
high
school
went
to
Salem
to
Brighton
this
is
another
story
and
I
went
to
a
regular
school
but
not
every
company
here
and
broadcast
engineered
under
the
broadcasting
and
television
although
it
was
just
wonderful
it
was
just
it
was
going
to
be
I
don't
know
we
don't
have
to
walk
because
I
can
talk
on
the
radio
broadcast
sporting
events
that
are
in
the
making
a
good
living
but
even
then
I
would
notice
every
once
in
awhile
hi
I
wonder
if
you
guys
want
to
do
I
love
my
work
I
love
being
in
broadcasting
I
just
want
to
be
in
my
style
but
I
think
one
of
the
reasons
I
was
always
the
one
who's
going
to
a
black
out
and
crossing
over
and
going
to
fox
and
hand
him
over
to
my
god
is
the
most
horrible
terrible
debilitating
following
up
as
some
issues
were
complicated
swear
I
never
drink
again
and
upon
arrival
yeah
and
I
also
we're
going
to
continue
to
work
and
then
I
got
on
the
wrong
one
time
doing
this
whole
thing
from
I
get
in
the
mind
so
we're
going
to
talk
about
myself
or
my
brother
when
I
went
I
went
into
this
worldwide
pants
and
in
nineteen
sixty
eight
I'll
never
forget
I
fell
alarm
accidentally
will
probably
those
you
love
Reuters
Wednesday
to
California
which
is
the
fabric
of
the
state
at
the
age
of
the
players
I'm
not
a
problem
of
interest
in
our
state
of
our
union
is
that
Republicans
wanted
to
do
away
with
unions
and
things
all
right
for
Democrats
and
all
very
proper
all
the
labor
number
that
it
came
up
and
killed
this
veil
called
right
to
work
and
I'm
just
one
of
the
more
than
thirty
five
hundred
fifty
eight
dollars
and
twenty
three
twenty
four
years
of
age
I
thank
you
for
reading
this
thing
began
to
work
a
little
bit
and
politics
very
funny
background
all
the
people
running
for
office
and
I'm
not
very
interested
in
public
life
and
decided
to
run
for
office
and
I
said
that
and
I
want
actually
mom
and
talk
to
people
in
the
act
a
little
better
and
out
of
the
nineteen
sixty
nine
and
so
it
was
just
wonderful
I
understand
I
just
couldn't
believe
what
a
wonderful
honor
that
one
and
I
remember
those
who
died
the
city
mayor
reference
number
one
six
nine
he
called
me
up
to
the
house
on
the
day
before
we
were
sworn
into
office
gave
me
a
this
is
Johnny
calling
me
and
I
will
point
members
of
the
city
council
certain
formulations
if
you
are
going
together
I
don't
know
those
guys
down
there
all
winter
for
a
while
and
I
feel
pride
in
the
future
for
you
Susan
I
want
to
look
through
the
walls
and
you
can
expect
for
our
appointment
you
want
and
I'll
give
them
to
you
and
then
I'll
get
the
right
Jeremy
long
leaving
well
everything
like
public
buildings
and
parks
and
the
finance
committee
and
all
that
stuff
in
certain
cases
police
commissioner
police
commissioner
yeah
they
don't
matter
when
you
feel
like
you
know
I
like
that
right
you've
got
it
so
the
next
Monday
it
was
one
of
the
offices
of
the
San
Marino
city
police
department
right
when
they
book
a
book
we
accept
what
they
were
going
to
take
my
picture
for
a
laminated
card
bring
it
up
I
mean
I
still
have
it
at
home
beautiful
part
of
it
John
P.
hallucination
Arsenio
not
exactly
what
you
want
to
live
with
that
money
in
my
pocket
and
the
way
we
go
actress
Anne
does
not
find
out
get
arrested
for
drunk
driving
the
city
of
Santa
Monica
you
know
when
you
are
finished
now
nobody
ever
left
the
United
soccer
because
I
don't
have
that
I
still
want
to
know
you
have
a
wonderful
wonderful
weeks
or
three
that
time
when
I
was
going
on
over
data
mining
the
salon
itself
thrown
off
for
now
and
get
into
some
kind
of
problem
but
now
I
have
some
of
the
driving
home
right
after
four
years
in
that
position
July
eleventh
very
much
when
they
found
out
the
man
who
won
the
state
if
someone
I
did
a
lot
of
popcorn
higher
office
Blair
William
northward
if
I
could
run
for
that
office
is
in
the
nineteen
sixties
why
not
let's
go
in
August
sentiment
in
general
I
don't
seem
to
be
having
a
lady
behind
him
and
I
said
yes
that
is
a
new
primary
at
that
nineteen
seventy
three
or
one
sixty
three
sixty
two
I
don't
know
what
is
available
in
your
state
legislator
I'm
only
twenty
six
twenty
seven
years
old
it's
about
this
that's
my
name
the
lady
and
we
actually
right
my
second
son
sometimes
people
live
with
the
second
one
hundred
is
very
impressive
lighting
Hey
I'm
working
at
the
radio
station
nice
name
of
city
police
commissioner
and
somehow
it's
not
if
the
people
in
that
ET
the
status
I'm
nineteen
I
always
get
a
reporter
nineteen
sixty
three
that
was
back
in
the
days
before
they
called
nine
hundred
seating
second
why
can't
you
just
everybody
because
Sacramento
for
three
or
four
five
or
six
months
and
I
came
up
to
Sacramento
swarming
in
background
will
bring
all
these
people
and
I
you
know
at
the
town
hall
all
of
these
incredibly
enough
most
of
us
have
which
is
that
any
any
security
like
mothers
than
in
life
you
don't
know
how
I
felt
I
was
surprised
that
I
was
there
I
couldn't
believe
that
I
was
there
on
the
other
hand
was
kind
of
an
old
self
centered
how
long
in
one
side
and
it
was
a
very
mind
blowing
things
like
what
the
hell
I
will
walk
through
morning
walkers
and
here
I
am
in
California
legislators
you
know
Karl
Marx
again
I
always
wanted
to
undergo
the
process
it's
not
that
I
remember
seeing
the
system
we
have
every
policy
follows
standard
automobile
program
at
any
hardware
and
any
car
you
want
and
I
have
a
black
box
nineteen
sixty
three
black
fever
in
your
member
that
was
almost
gone
and
she
even
had
the
license
plates
on
it
instead
members
following
the
legislature's
eighty
families
whose
numbers
within
the
days
it
doesn't
from
but
interrogated
me
that
the
legislators
several
salaries
he
was
entirely
automatically
California
highway
patrolman
when
I
asked
him
if
he
knows
okay
they
do
today
because
if
they
don't
let
him
not
because
of
that
luckily
I
have
the
drive
when
I
present
a
long
time
I
need
to
complete
this
nonbinding
this
is
one
of
the
state
and
the
big
paper
and
I
was
getting
it
is
common
you
know
ninety
five
hundred
miles
on
either
one
time
between
here
and
I
was
driving
towards
southern
California
he
began
to
reign
when
I
heard
until
I
was
running
one
worker
one
ready
for
work
and
I
looked
down
and
I
was
going
a
hundred
miles
an
hour
and
what's
the
problem
with
the
wind
the
work
and
move
the
blade
up
office
sign
up
for
the
Saturday
before
the
rubber
compound
impact
hello
this
news
letter
saying
one
thing
I
want
to
interject
one
little
thing
here
because
I
get
to
talking
about
alcoholism
and
alcoholics
and
how
bad
it
was
the
truth
is
during
all
this
time
you
know
what
a
great
member
of
the
legislature
I
remember
serving
I
wonder
what
number
I
can
contribute
greatly
say
hello
and
I'm
very
very
problematic
and
others
the
info
on
the
city
council
and
a
member
of
the
legislature
as
I
talk
and
he
had
controlled
about
those
times
and
penicillin
taking
run
down
stories
that
I
will
be
able
to
identify
with
thank
you
one
hundred
dollars
I
didn't
go
to
work
every
day
I
work
hard
now
I'm
not
one
of
the
members
of
the
legislature
by
local
services
moving
body
armor
coming
alcohol
and
the
first
one
I
was
one
over
the
line
you
can
hear
me
loud
getting
to
be
a
hundred
and
twenty
members
and
about
eight
hundred
or
nine
hundred
western
walls
and
does
a
wonderful
job
still
to
this
day
then
what
yes
anything
thanks
for
getting
attention
and
repeating
operations
last
night
after
what
they
were
paid
to
do
it
and
I
was
just
my
my
drinking
continues
but
I
kind
of
went
off
the
scale
of
the
things
that
really
good
with
me
and
so
this
is
our
final
at
by
all
in
the
evening
hours
when
I
was
writing
not
really
so
much
that
I
finally
in
the
and
then
for
actually
didn't
even
campaign
so
screwed
up
my
wife
left
me
but
it's
gone
it's
gone
management
off
and
on
the
alcohol
like
alcoholism
one
more
I
couldn't
function
and
what
really
and
I
think
a
lot
of
money
in
my
hand
yeah
hundred
nine
say
they
didn't
put
people
to
not
hold
on
these
issues
primary
election
of
nineteen
seventy
four
simply
because
I
didn't
hear
anything
else
who's
going
to
in
order
to
go
out
and
put
on
a
hundred
campaigns
and
I'm
not
a
loss
what
I
do
this
every
morning
we've
also
been
inundated
here
and
my
attitude
that
Congress
closed
during
walking
over
the
mileage
the
local
wonderful
meeting
held
on
line
at
this
Harold
feelings
on
rejection
and
anger
and
I
really
or
call
on
right
almost
exactly
from
that
date
until
the
fifteenth
day
of
December
nineteen
seventy
six
which
is
my
sobriety
date
twenty
five
years
this
year
I
mean
this
is
a
little
bit
and
they
used
to
have
a
hospital
to
be
treated
as
a
disease
about
all
of
the
numbers
that
you
have
to
sneak
it
out
of
a
bad
liver
or
something
on
the
call
to
Canada
he
went
back
to
the
front
door
to
give
your
name
and
that's
what
happened
to
be
my
son
check
hold
on
sign
me
up
when
I
was
there
on
my
last
race
while
I
guess
the
fourteenth
of
September
I
finished
off
on
the
rest
of
the
bottle
Jack
Daniels
in
the
parking
lot
of
that
hospital
and
later
and
submitted
myself
with
whatever
happened
when
the
father
I
haven't
had
a
bath
for
about
a
month
arms
north
you
know
you
got
to
want
to
volunteer
because
you're
resting
your
elbow
I
don't
remember
but
I
didn't
know
and
I
was
a
real
mess
I'm
scarfing
the
wheelchairs
metropolitan
area
those
days
are
gone
one
hospital
room
sitting
in
a
wheelchair
and
when
you
have
a
broken
arm
you
know
handing
control
wheel
chair
you
can
only
use
one
arm
always
around
certain
so
that's
what
I
was
doing
it
again
I
just
wanted
to
circle
they
got
banned
from
the
off
line
games
you
shower
and
all
this
stuff
and
got
the
the
medical
stuff
done
that
they
had
to
do
and
one
of
the
things
that
they
suggest
that
it
is
very
minimal
what
they
would
do
during
the
day
if
you
followed
a
lot
of
lectures
about
what
the
World
Health
Organization
has
to
say
about
the
disease
of
alcoholism
and
alcohol
affects
the
liver
and
all
this
stuff
is
always
very
very
interesting
and
wonderful
and
I
remember
distinctly
from
one
of
the
things
that
they
strongly
suggest
we
use
a
lot
of
cold
weather
eight
meetings
every
Monday
night
I
have
never
in
my
life
okay
I
think
I've
read
about
it
in
a
magazine
one
time
yes
we're
talking
about
it
but
can
you
believe
that
you're
a
member
of
the
legislature
and
the
former
city
councilman
dying
in
broadcasting
and
never
heard
anything
that
I
really
have
in
nineteen
seventy
six
I
heard
about
one
I
don't
like
to
hear
about
the
Rosicrucians
enough
well
Karen's
is
that
you
know
the
auto
club
had
some
vague
idea
that
there
was
a
group
called
ABA
but
I
didn't
know
a
lot
of
water
I've
never
been
to
a
meeting
ninety
one
Abbas
and
the
reason
I'm
while
I'm
at
it
because
I
have
known
him
the
thing
about
it
I
probably
would
have
formed
a
band
I
was
lucky
enough
and
I've
never
I
didn't
know
what
was
going
on
hello
one
of
the
ladies
since
Sunday
night
in
the
cafeteria
at
the
merchants
and
one
month
old
daughter
Michael
went
down
there
it
was
a
meeting
a
little
smaller
than
that
from
you
tonight
mas
was
looking
all
set
around
having
meetings
and
I
went
to
the
media
center
listens
the
funeral
costs
there's
all
the
patients
become
non
voters
even
though
it's
not
even
thinking
about
it
interesting
that
was
said
I
don't
remember
I
kind
of
got
sunburned
weakness
that
I
didn't
really
identify
with
anything
those
who
have
been
waiting
for
something
to
be
said
or
done
or
some
of
the
world
and
maybe
some
can't
see
anything
in
favor
of
secret
WordPerfect
nothing
really
effective
and
I
think
it
was
on
the
second
step
and
that
was
probably
thirty
five
or
more
people
in
the
country
you're
in
August
last
year
and
there's
some
really
bad
coffee
everybody
smoked
in
those
grades
in
the
whole
world
one
of
small
number
half
meeting
and
the
governor
said
the
lord's
prayer
which
is
a
little
bit
difficult
for
me
a
little
bit
uncomfortable
that
holding
hands
running
around
that
went
back
up
with
you
know
fire
it
was
just
no
I
don't
know
what
that
is
about
it
frankly
next
week
the
Wall
held
next
week
of
lectures
in
the
next
hundred
ninety
one
dollars
thanks
bye
mom
before
we
come
in
the
form
nothing
really
that
I
could
figure
out
how
to
get
your
life
back
whenever
we
suddenly
dawned
on
me
for
some
reason
one
of
the
ten
I
have
lost
the
compulsion
I
didn't
think
about
I
think
he
had
and
he
was
gonna
yeah
simply
half
it
was
a
matter
for
me
John
Martin
hitting
eighty
one
I
was
miraculously
even
leave
office
outside
of
the
front
desk
a
little
wow
it's
a
wrong
one
Max
all
of
those
days
when
I
get
back
laughing
in
the
parking
lot
on
the
fourteenth
of
September
in
about
three
months
like
I
said
in
that
meeting
and
usually
look
a
little
like
an
after
school
with
Max
she
I
thought
she
was
living
in
a
car
with
a
hundred
stadium
or
something
I
don't
know
what
he
was
doing
he
was
called
me
and
they
would
call
on
her
to
see
that
say
something
like
one
of
the
world's
problems
Moran
they
took
from
me
the
company
also
right
and
I
think
of
myself
as
a
Vietnam
myself
one
of
my
favorite
is
the
middle
classes
in
the
beginning
considering
the
unity
needles
on
and
then
I
wanted
to
also
do
the
same
thing
because
we
don't
know
for
me
to
come
home
hello
yeah
really
and
negative
walking
self
centered
over
I
don't
know
I
mean
one
day
she
was
telling
my
story
I
just
paid
the
eight
in
Ghana
Morocco
listening
movies
for
many
minor
tires
right
I
had
a
great
reviews
three
months
when
I
don't
need
to
have
a
drink
I
didn't
want
to
have
a
great
I
haven't
actually
even
automatic
it's
just
kind
of
went
away
given
that
America's
maybe
because
you
don't
want
that
it
is
a
very
very
common
story
if
we
hear
about
we
get
here
many
of
the
different
way
into
my
mind
when
I
got
here
I
just
told
you
according
to
the
beginning
I
didn't
get
you
to
go
to
meetings
I'll
have
to
go
to
freedom
we
now
and
I
continued
to
grow
and
grow
and
I
want
to
tell
you
that
hearing
about
the
folder
thirty
four
months
of
mind
body
and
going
back
to
the
hospital
after
refusing
a
monster
on
the
Sacramento
and
that's
where
we
now
have
all
of
that
twenty
three
twenty
four
or
twenty
five
years
ago
and
he
was
a
very
very
very
important
parts
of
minorities
is
right
in
the
very
early
days
I
only
remember
we're
not
democratic
can
I
ask
you
to
just
read
another
round
of
even
though
they
have
a
number
you
can
call
your
number
to
be
at
home
either
and
the
drugs
that
is
that
right
are
you
hearing
from
well
you'll
even
okay
thanks
for
reading
I
don't
have
the
right
numbers
already
but
I
do
want
you
to
know
that
she's
a
very
important
part
of
my
story
and
we
were
together
very
very
well
on
on
and
she
taught
me
a
lot
about
the
program
in
those
early
days
in
Florida
I
agree
and
the
phone
knowing
unknown
I
really
didn't
know
what
would
have
happened
but
I
guess
it
is
the
only
thing
that
I
did
winds
but
I
didn't
and
I
went
to
a
lot
of
these
yeah
that's
fine
they
can
beginning
of
mining
which
is
when
the
figures
for
almost
twenty
five
years
the
general
one
of
the
things
that
the
unions
in
recent
years
yeah
how
long
I
want
that
next
time
about
some
things
and
that's
what
I
really
want
to
care
if
you
don't
mind
I
was
one
of
the
people
that
and
we
believe
I
don't
know
I
don't
it's
not
going
on
I
don't
know
I
really
believe
that
I
was
going
to
die
we've
had
very
few
problems
my
problem
was
that
I
great
how
all
and
then
my
mom
bringing
alcohol
expected
****
up
my
life
another
major
and
the
state
is
doing
bad
things
going
on
with
my
career
and
so
it
is
hard
to
find
fascinating
in
mind
that
if
I
didn't
drink
alcohol
I
would
be
that
would
be
removed
from
maybe
everything
but
we
weren't
everything
would
be
fine
I
will
be
back
and
I
thought
well
adjusted
we
are
never
going
to
be
great
under
that
format
fifty
years
and
a
half
because
what
happened
is
my
going
to
tell
you
the
truth
eight
years
ago
all
right
my
star
midfielder
story
I
got
so
I
got
here
what
happened
anyway
I
didn't
drink
anymore
I
understand
actually
it's
not
great
I
need
you
to
go
to
a
meeting
sponsored
by
the
people
I
am
not
a
sponsor
and
with
all
the
things
that
I
heard
posted
to
the
stocks
a
fundamental
things
change
and
that
is
that
hi
if
you
in
in
the
era
of
life
in
a
constantly
giving
me
the
most
problems
my
problem
was
and
I
found
that
as
well
my
problem
I
don't
really
know
he
walks
back
having
a
relationship
with
another
human
being
well
I
did
a
lot
of
everybody's
not
with
me
I
will
never
ever
I
am
married
and
I've
been
married
six
times
I
have
never
in
the
border
so
many
times
and
I
have
one
more
I
don't
on
a
day
in
October
I'm
reading
documents
off
yeah
finally
this
is
old
this
is
all
right
and
ready
in
the
morning
three
times
stronger
and
not
all
next
one
of
the
problems
so
I
got
married
again
and
this
is
about
a
hundred
years
getting
worse
I
couldn't
believe
it
I
just
couldn't
believe
it
that's
what
matters
with
the
forces
I
kind
of
figured
that
soul
number
in
the
fourth
we
had
a
hard
time
swallowing
but
you
know
it
was
Spence
and
all
this
stuff
thanks
for
going
to
prison
and
that
is
what
we
call
the
young
lady
from
Lodi
and
I
got
married
again
finally
this
day
yes
I
mean
I
don't
mind
yes
I
just
couldn't
believe
it
I
really
want
the
input
it
almost
killed
me
two
years
clean
and
sober
today
a
government
meeting
for
recycling
in
the
collection
plate
not
one
one
three
three
five
I
read
it
I
read
I
mean
you
know
what
I
thought
I
was
I
really
thought
I
was
yeah
read
some
of
the
literature
I
want
to
commend
the
one
night
that
I
read
anybody
ever
had
any
problems
wow
well
once
again
you
know
there
wasn't
working
at
all
and
sixty
years
ago
it
doesn't
belong
in
our
computer
will
be
problem
Alcoholics
Anonymous
the
staff
and
the
sounds
that
have
a
lot
of
one
paragraph
each
kind
of
messages
you
will
spot
it
was
written
while
thirty
eight
thirty
eight
or
thirty
nine
when
you
don't
have
to
reporters
right
hander
stacks
but
you
know
I
mean
nobody
really
wants
to
get
something
here
on
my
mother
I
think
it's
the
most
fabulous
piece
of
literature
in
the
twentieth
century
but
when
you
want
to
remember
writing
that
while
there
you
had
a
problem
twelve
fifty
six
years
of
sobriety
and
the
Manhattan
revenge
for
a
and
in
the
Senate
staff
that
that
seven
steps
in
the
problem
rudeness
vulgar
in
exercise
in
there
sometimes
we
have
to
go
through
a
world
of
Warcraft
says
eagle
hateful
products
is
that
he's
got
a
long
way
if
we
finally
get
to
the
heart
while
you
are
waiting
to
reach
the
middle
because
we
wanted
rather
than
having
to
be
poisoned
and
no
one's
going
to
read
that
and
I
thought
to
be
bothering
them
now
are
you
still
reading
that
and
I
thought
they
are
being
a
little
dramatic
and
I
I
thought
you
know
the
man
getting
kind
of
being
a
little
fun
let
me
tell
you
on
that
that's
nearly
fifty
years
of
driving
you're
on
the
boards
my
second
solo
record
and
yes
differently
with
the
character
models
exactly
is
another
program
called
wallowing
in
despair
I
couldn't
understand
what
the
gloss
and
back
where
I
want
you
don't
have
a
problem
with
your
story
I
don't
think
that
happens
to
many
people
but
I'm
not
offended
when
I
happened
to
me
I
was
finally
walk
around
me
I
don't
know
what
we
did
I
went
down
I
think
they
are
better
off
I
couldn't
run
I'm
mad
visible
shade
behind
making
most
of
all
water
that
I've
reset
I've
ever
met
in
my
mind
when
I
have
a
girl
that
works
for
me
my
sex
drive
I
called
up
and
made
arrangements
to
go
in
the
hospital
in
southern
California
yeah
one
of
the
last
above
all
call
them
never
happened
to
me
wonderfully
and
I
had
to
have
my
secretary
driving
down
the
driveway
Carson
California
I
literally
couldn't
do
it
I
had
a
meeting
I
don't
doctors
hearing
within
this
hospital
setting
up
for
a
later
Jones
brothers
and
sisters
they're
doing
things
non
American
icon
in
here
to
you
I
would
never
have
done
you
those
who
are
interested
thanks
when
he
I
tell
you
one
thing
I
getting
enough
hi
there
broke
down
meeting
people
with
nuclear
weapons
underneath
the
internet
package
all
the
people
of
their
own
maybe
there
is
a
little
bit
of
a
real
number
of
our
I
don't
have
any
I
don
hospital
down
there
yes
it
is
in
the
you'll
have
to
get
in
touch
with
your
inner
child
no
I
knew
that
I
had
he
if
I
didn't
get
several
minor
child
we
went
out
of
my
normal
vision
was
to
do
whatever
and
say
you
know
what
I
started
because
one
day
John
I
want
to
go
somewhere
on
this
campus
and
so
we
got
all
of
our
little
you're
you're
probably
on
your
behalf
when
I
told
you
to
let
me
know
about
scientific
and
I
agreed
that
I
need
you
know
how
to
get
to
see
the
presence
of
that
internally
he
said
to
me
what
I
wanted
to
write
I
believe
that
you
know
I
got
a
little
bit
I
have
my
next
week
when
I
think
about
writing
a
letter
anyway
he
says
I
wanted
to
take
a
stand
on
the
right
hand
the
whatever
you're
gonna
one
wife
a
letter
a
simple
lovely
black
and
then
what
was
needed
and
what
I
mean
in
fact
I
figure
this
why
would
nobody
would
look
at
I
wrote
a
letter
to
house
I
want
you
to
know
that
I
love
you
once
you
know
the
amount
of
plastic
your
say
I
don't
remember
all
the
lyrics
which
is
something
I
love
you
I
I'm
I
want
to
provide
a
safe
home
for
you
whatever
whatever
the
line
and
I
can't
let
and
yeah
you're
right
that
it
was
legal
swallowing
hard
to
read
but
I
actually
got
a
few
words
hello
my
name
is
almost
like
a
lead
your
name
everywhere
reply
with
a
weekly
reported
on
my
hands
are
but
it
was
a
little
scary
then
these
these
little
reading
many
finance
began
to
take
on
a
comment
about
the
spiritual
side
of
getting
service
about
it
now
I
will
go
a
long
animations
on
hiring
an
unused
room
and
read
the
minor
child
anything
I
think
is
another
thing
that
they
had
to
do
was
I
had
to
write
a
letter
to
my
dad
and
mom
and
dad
it's
all
right
fifty
one
and
then
I
had
to
write
a
letter
to
all
my
relatives
argued
that
it
needs
those
letters
to
the
assembled
all
patients
in
the
hospital
I
had
I
thought
it
was
terrible
thing
is
my
dad
and
dad
nineteen
fifty
one
writing
a
letter
so
I
had
to
do
it
so
I
wrote
a
letter
you
know
I've
been
a
combination
you
can
read
that
letter
when
I
got
that
letter
on
this
and
we
took
a
class
in
about
halfway
through
the
leading
back
of
this
letter
again
that
happens
okay
Greenspan
is
sounding
like
I
haven't
done
I
remember
when
it
was
a
I'm
not
advocating
it
is
this
by
the
way
right
down
on
the
account
of
what
happened
in
the
well
I
was
not
verified
home
or
make
a
living
out
of
the
swimming
pool
in
the
backyard
and
I
used
to
say
to
myself
about
my
grandkids
I
hit
one
of
the
little
****
come
over
here
because
you
don't
have
to
get
it
done
on
the
screen
exactly
yeah
Hey
on
the
right
I
just
didn't
like
yeah
the
little
****
around
how
do
you
know
what
you
want
to
call
this
is
before
I
went
away
number
back
and
I'm
sitting
in
my
backyard
you
know
myself
everything
about
his
backyard
the
warriors
mold
head
is
trending
please
avoid
we
have
twenty
five
cents
apiece
all
of
the
water
with
nothing
out
of
place
it
was
struck
several
I
don't
and
we
need
to
hello
I
need
anything
one
of
those
grand
what
congresswoman
for
general
compliments
when
the
grandfather
house
because
they
can
hello
there
so
what
I
did
was
I
started
calling
them
up
one
by
one
he
said
and
the
funny
thing
is
I
found
out
I
love
children
I'd
rather
not
say
anything
hi
I'm
wondering
if
you
feel
better
he
hated
trump
WC
fields
in
my
garage
and
number
that
I
love
that
your
money
will
make
it
on
the
golf
course
and
all
kinds
well
that
didn't
seem
to
be
more
all
wonderful
warm
compassionate
loving
feelings
for
children
and
I'm
not
a
big
deal
because
I
have
made
I
come
to
terms
with
this
your
yeah
I
don't
know
I
really
don't
want
to
hear
all
I
know
is
that
I
found
along
with
those
wonderful
collections
people
call
mine
old
grandchildren
I
got
a
letter
they
are
actors
a
large
number
of
mine
mine
mine
mine
from
my
wife
and
her
it's
all
over
the
place
you
don't
want
to
clean
their
need
for
smart
I
would
hate
to
Israel
we
get
a
farm
fresh
Donald
one
spaces
where
we
knocked
over
there
wants
friends
from
all
manner
that
I
think
down
there
by
L.
A.
with
all
of
the
right
side
of
the
policy
strong
winds
or
something
I
he's
standing
on
the
right
we
got
a
hotel
room
and
we
just
had
a
long
range
in
age
from
Vermont
Florida
fifteen
years
of
age
and
I
found
along
with
the
one
woman
that
were
my
only
grandchildren
because
yeah
I
had
gotten
rid
of
the
anger
and
he
often
depend
on
my
stomach
about
the
birds
I
want
them
to
the
point
where
I
couldn't
reach
out
to
minorities
and
while
an
invoice
minus
hold
the
prior
in
eagle
and
Yang
and
the
software
internet
open
the
door
complete
with
the
future
fallen
on
that
one
thing
that
made
me
so
very
very
much
in
my
life
today
I
was
able
to
finally
believe
it
or
not
I
mean
you're
you're
wondering
I
didn't
you
know
I
don't
know
who's
waiting
for
a
very
long
time
but
I
have
never
had
any
and
more
for
more
power
when
needed
about
everything
today
she
was
the
general
secretary
local
groups
and
we
live
in
a
while
and
we
get
a
small
amount
of
time
there
is
nothing
very
four
years
this
August
he
was
lovely
lady
named
Linda
we
haven't
had
any
devices
no
matter
going
on
the
war
is
over
you
know
the
prices
are
down
it
is
waiting
I
believe
that
in
my
life
because
we
played
the
same
thing
for
me
however
I
don't
have
yet
I
know
that
there
are
places
in
a
anyone
they
can
have
you
talk
about
things
like
your
child
working
only
stop
my
story
and
it
happened
to
me
and
I
know
that
I
would
never
have
been
able
to
think
about
it
all
on
the
floor
in
my
in
my
mental
attitude
one
from
the
back
of
my
hand
is
basically
screaming
in
the
locker
room
in
there
all
day
I
don't
remember
reading
some
utility
that
are
under
hill
W.
soccer
himself
from
Lorraine
Herger
raised
his
price
right
one
time
and
then
we'll
see
what
goes
to
better
manage
that
for
a
week
wait
Paros
we
had
a
little
different
because
we
get
out
of
and
I
believe
it
was
a
hundred
thousand
games
in
front
of
one
hundred
eighty
he
said
the
money
needed
regular
local
Mexican
in
the
back
room
and
narrowly
missed
the
local
raining
bad
because
of
the
depression
anything
out
of
pocket
father
father
balances
your
problem
is
if
you
notice
that
what
to
happen
towns
this
is
what
you
needed
was
for
sentiment
aren't
the
only
things
that
must
have
been
really
really
eighty
personnel
on
duty
after
only
one
problem
is
the
building
if
you
are
the
father
Amin
yeah
and
because
of
that
I
was
able
to
help
you
find
a
lot
of
times
helping
the
right
passes
the
negative
review
your
cold
enough
pain
be
able
to
read
that
part
about
the
end
of
a
long
long
road
he's
a
legal
the
painful
even
at
seven
twenty
one
that's
one
thing
to
be
backed
by
money
was
out
of
the
open
for
all
the
rest
of
the
wonderful
yes
it
can
be
mine
as
I
continued
flooding
my
role
that
happened
yesterday
wow
hi
everyone
when
they
tell
you
when
I'm
feeling
down
and
because
all
of
my
life
at
about
the
time
I
got
out
of
the
hospital
setting
there
remains
something
of
money
I've
been
known
among
the
locals
people
want
to
get
a
number
to
be
and
not
only
because
someone
once
over
I
don't
see
a
lot
of
corn
a
living
and
I
was
able
to
get
a
job
as
a
lobbyist
not
one
of
those
markets
and
I
talked
about
earlier
the
bodies
of
the
blues
I
don't
cert
advisories
but
it
isn't
really
part
of
the
job
selecting
marks
so
I've
been
working
for
the
last
twenty
five
years
in
Sacramento
has
a
lot
of
and
I
represent
the
represents
anybody
don't
county
riverside
county
which
is
wonderful
because
there's
just
far
enough
away
and
I
don't
see
that
often
and
that's
going
on
with
that
okay
when
I
do
represent
those
who
comes
down
and
down
in
the
state
capital
I
think
of
all
the
affairs
and
has
any
interest
in
them
in
any
case
the
funny
thing
I
don't
know
I
don't
know
whether
yes
it
is
collected
I
don't
know
what
it
means
but
it
just
because
of
my
stomach
Twitter
almost
with
him
when
I
think
about
the
man
with
the
big
boss
and
the
top
number
one
guy
great
American
group
whose
name
was
looking
to
do
the
walked
in
the
room
and
I'm
writing
a
wallet
I
mean
you
really
going
to
seventeen
years
in
a
and
I
hope
we
will
operate
this
fabulous
member
of
the
fellowship
of
Alcoholics
Anonymous
and
I
had
nothing
to
do
it
just
happened
that
the
guy
couldn't
believe
it
what
else
we've
got
here
from
the
the
man
who
is
the
number
one
chief
of
all
armed
forces
down
there
two
years
clean
and
sober
today
and
he's
not
going
to
be
very
close
to
six
thirty
PM
attitude
adjustment
can
you
believe
that
I
didn't
even
know
anybody
lives
out
of
six
thirty
in
the
morning
I
used
to
go
on
the
on
my
wife
six
thirty
I
cannot
go
to
burning
we
need
every
probably
goes
to
the
early
eighties
yet
down
riverside
down
to
make
another
run
the
county
government
they
are
wonderful
guys
are
just
regular
guys
like
you
and
I
have
been
very
successful
in
life
but
they're
really
bothering
a
lot
of
programming
member
today
is
one
of
the
mechanics
to
work
on
there
with
them
and
have
to
join
the
thrill
of
meeting
guys
who
know
how
to
act
in
order
for
me
to
find
out
one
little
word
or
something
or
an
attitude
or
a
public
spat
I
don't
remember
how
it
happened
bank
and
find
out
there
are
also
members
of
eighty
eight
it
is
wonderful
to
be
surrounded
I
work
out
of
the
capitol
every
day
the
man
who
was
the
head
of
the
Senate
one
of
the
elements
maybe
the
neighbor's
name
senator
John
Burton
Johnny
in
all
of
friends
of
mine
for
many
many
years
ago
and
was
a
very
interesting
still
had
her
on
the
phone
rang
the
member
in
a
accident
many
many
years
this
is
a
sponsored
Wilbur
mills
former
chairman
of
the
house
ways
and
means
committee
and
the
guy
didn't
even
know
I
was
going
down
the
street
in
Sacramento
one
life
my
purpose
thanks
for
reading
the
article
car
and
I
thought
I
thought
it
was
weird
and
it
was
something
that
I
can
hear
those
voices
yelling
what
well
what
are
hanging
on
the
back
of
his
car
yelling
at
me
and
it
was
right
in
saying
hi
how
are
you
a
woman
and
this
guy
runs
the
front
of
the
Senate
there
are
several
numbers
on
the
legislators
who
are
members
of
our
membership
of
eight
actual
these
are
the
folks
who
went
to
a
meeting
by
archon
willing
members
active
when
I
was
there
well
it
seems
to
me
like
everybody's
trying
everybody's
everybody's
right
loses
everybody
small
not
everybody
of
course
that
hasn't
seen
the
world
with
the
perception
of
my
eyes
not
all
it
seems
to
me
like
there
is
a
kind
of
off
and
accepted
all
the
whole
idea
of
recovery
and
the
fact
that
it
is
a
fact
of
life
and
if
you
happen
to
understand
what
you're
going
to
work
every
more
problems
than
mine
our
house
colleagues
died
from
my
dad
and
all
his
brothers
rock
holdings
I
just
everyone
in
the
whole
thing
if
it's
a
single
family
and
every
part
of
our
but
there's
something
that
I
found
out
and
I'm
delighted
about
that
is
that
recovery
also
trying
to
family
it
is
absolutely
Armonk
hearing
one
comes
into
the
fellowship
status
in
the
fellowship
don't
necessarily
fall
camp
you
don't
have
to
leave
try
calling
on
them
and
stuff
in
the
beginning
one
seed
is
planted
Williams
so
final
from
the
perspective
of
the
twenty
five
years
of
looking
back
at
the
number
of
people
in
my
family
my
son
of
the
most
popular
Oregon
was
clean
and
sober
yes
my
son's
got
going
on
eight
years
in
eighty
eight
my
daughter's
cleans
over
about
six
years
it's
just
unbelievable
my
requires
that
sort
of
model
number
at
about
six
months
and
there's
and
there's
no
pressure
we
don't
leave
the
office
around
right
it's
just
it
seems
like
the
most
affected
twelve
step
work
we
do
on
families
is
just
to
stay
sober
ourselves
in
the
Congress
and
sincere
about
our
own
recovery
and
what
we
see
and
enjoy
and
practice
our
recovery
it
has
this
is
contagious
effect
on
your
lunch
tonight
recovery
is
contagious
and
spreads
families
just
as
much
as
in
prior
years
right
through
and
you
know
that
kind
of
thing
you
know
you
know
the
power
of
Republican
power
eight
the
power
of
the
spirituality
of
our
program
is
an
enormously
it
is
we
need
an
enormous
thing
hero
I
never
met
her
or
someone
who
I
think
is
a
hero
because
she
is
banned
transaction
numbers
wrong
but
it's
not
a
problem
anonymity
at
the
public
level
she
once
in
a
while
to
have
a
debate
on
a
table
or
the
staff
behind
in
a
photograph
or
image
CV
interview
which
she
has
never
broken
the
anonymity
flaws
yes
I
understand
it
is
a
very
active
member
of
our
fellowship
in
a
very
thrilling
thing
for
me
was
like
out
of
state
the
other
day
from
a
friend
of
mine
and
I'm
sure
you
know
about
this
and
intermediate
level
we
can
break
the
internet
is
talking
about
hurting
anybody
and
it
was
Tony
H.
okay
this
great
compound
in
Santa
Monica
this
line
is
just
a
wonderful
guy
indicating
is
that
great
good
afternoon
the
member
of
our
program
please
install
are
working
great
programs
in
our
culture
and
it
was
also
decided
if
I
can
see
the
guy
next
door
number
nine
I
believe
shoppers
right
we
can
organize
hi
this
is
similar
to
the
other
the
airport
and
I
think
somebody
on
hot
topics
sure
you
know
when
you
go
to
the
airport
they
seem
to
be
determined
to
get
the
hell
out
of
there
right
I
don't
want
to
miss
out
on
anything
is
known
for
Mountain
is
going
off
overhead
building
here
caramel
corn
off
the
engine
well
this
is
when
you
guys
come
up
it
was
raining
and
I'm
going
to
select
top
and
bottom
comes
up
in
the
I
said
well
let's
just
look
at
somebody
because
okay
problem
is
just
one
more
reason
those
around
behind
like
and
he
doesn't
promise
that
on
my
way
to
win
it
all
independent
background
in
science
my
name
is
Jenny
that's
my
race
and
give
me
a
smile
that
you've
got
a
great
time
your
car
is
going
to
remember
that
he
will
not
let
my
fans
hi
this
it
just
it
just
warms
he
was
not
a
member
here
today
and
just
a
sweet
numbers
in
again
I've
never
seen
you
before
that
for
that
minute
I
was
opposed
to
that
guy
that
ever
been
even
being
in
my
life
the
power
from
the
always
notice
even
driving
on
the
roads
more
interpreter
and
see
somebody
go
by
and
honked
the
horn
in
the
back
and
it's
going
to
stop
it
is
not
our
fault
in
my
personal
heroes
claims
the
odd
ones
out
of
the
LA
who
claim
status
and
I
totally
agree
with
that
and
work
and
be
able
to
monitor
the
line
the
big
boss
has
happened
in
other
words
about
holdings
announced
it
had
the
most
profoundly
positive
effect
on
the
lives
of
more
human
beings
on
this
world
any
other
written
in
the
twentieth
century
that
of
course
includes
a
viable
alternatives
return
all
of
them
there
is
always
helpful
to
all
the
wonderful
things
that
man
is
not
for
the
entire
one
hundred
years
in
his
opinion
think
of
a
a
has
positively
affected
in
a
positive
way
more
people
than
any
other
single
act
is
a
powerful
thing
to
say
an
accomplishment
I've
always
been
in
a
learning
environment
I
go
back
to
the
beginning
just
record
starting
off
with
I've
been
in
politics
online
trying
to
get
people
in
the
meeting
in
school
finance
you
know
quiet
Hey
everybody
repair
in
the
cooking
anything
just
to
get
a
few
people
to
turn
out
one
of
the
very
worst
problems
I
ever
went
to
was
impressed
I
can
respond
to
nineteen
seventy
seven
I
don't
remember
but
it
was
one
of
my
first
year
so
we
can
contact
in
the
hotel
with
what
we
can
do
to
help
which
is
not
good
for
you
I
don't
remember
their
names
for
the
other
meetings
he
and
then
he
said
well
it
sounded
the
federal
convention
center
well
I
have
personal
convictions
and
many
times
going
into
a
political
and
they
will
all
have
certified
conference
the
police
identified
from
offering
the
political
conventions
and
younger
people
moving
around
and
you
go
inside
in
the
mean
world
they're
navy
group
rate
article
with
the
political
conventions
and
it
was
interesting
but
I
was
kind
of
hard
so
I
don't
remember
that
this
time
I
go
to
one
eight
invention
over
there
and
I
noticed
that
my
nose
mostly
there's
nothing
personal
why
not
no
one
is
saying
anything
our
parking
lot
is
just
very
confusing
and
market
it
was
only
one
more
office
about
five
stores
in
convention
center
and
you
can
open
one
only
inside
there's
a
couple
ladies
of
the
car
thank
you
if
you're
wondering
what
I'm
reading
and
I'm
still
running
one
hundred
there's
not
much
for
them
hello
all
in
order
there's
two
thousand
all
images
I
was
speaking
with
members
since
he
was
a
senior
in
America
what
happened
Canada
or
somewhere
on
the
phone
here
some
of
our
one
minute
on
the
lack
of
action
on
mobiles
because
honestly
this
is
born
out
of
this
task
is
always
beautiful
a
much
higher
you
know
the
American
not
American
units
and
eighteen
you
know
that
it
was
just
unbelievable
I
really
want
to
call
it
New
Delhi
if
you're
somebody
who's
going
to
believe
many
people
were
sold
out
it's
the
first
of
many
many
many
many
people
care
one
moment
how
many
of
you
reading
in
on
the
scene
of
the
worldwide
convention
center
and
all
his
numbers
eight
oh
five
six
years
ago
I'm
I
was
able
to
go
down
there
we
went
on
a
baseball
stadium
or
the
San
Diego
Padres
play
baseball
cool
what's
the
name
of
that
street
what's
the
name
that
I
thank
you
for
I'm
a
general
state
our
sixty
five
thousand
people
in
Essex
sixty
five
thousand
people
you
know
many
people
it
is
a
hell
of
a
lot
of
people
don't
like
to
see
a
lot
you
know
a
number
of
people
so
all
those
things
are
cool
do
you
feel
miserable
there
are
people
in
a
beautiful
class
are
from
different
nations
and
hundreds
of
nations
from
all
over
the
world
and
then
there's
sixty
five
thousand
people
Sensenbrenner
I'm
interested
in
she
will
be
here
on
a
whole
lot
more
orders
trying
to
get
loose
on
the
meetings
and
stuff
all
my
life
right
good
evening
and
here
is
what
and
I
know
this
we
can
neither
of
the
cloud
and
the
fact
that
the
policemen
who
were
working
in
the
parking
lot
outside
nobody
was
yes
no
longer
nobody's
trying
to
drive
over
one
on
one
it
was
just
unbelievable
well
the
language
of
the
heart
I'm
sixty
five
thousand
people
in
one
they
had
to
put
together
a
whole
new
box
isn't
just
for
the
convention
and
people
in
the
same
vehicle
background
nobody
said
they
were
common
nobody
said
anything
while
they
were
there
Eddie
how
wonderful
whenever
marketers
are
losing
control
of
why
don't
we
get
all
the
people
who
we
ate
with
block
buttons
the
last
woman
to
meetings
and
small
they
had
to
forget
about
no
smoking
and
no
doubt
because
most
mediators
yes
but
anyway
I'm
gonna
close
with
that
just
to
say
to
you
that
this
experiment
on
running
and
one
with
my
fellow
citizens
okay
displacement
the
only
thing
is
the
overwhelming
number
in
our
own
lives
and
bottling
household
incomes
and
people
and
if
you
don't
want
a
lot
of
all
you
don't
say
I
know
when
people
are
talking
to
somebody
I
saw
that
coming
down
off
the
camera
hi
yeah
and
not
experience
my
family
and
stuff
related
I
need
some
magic
yeah
well
I
just
learned
about
myself
so
I
just
won't
do
it
anymore
but
I
thought
I'd
come
here
someone
from
Amman
handling
some
people
say
to
me
you
know
well
yeah
he's
a
narcotics
at
I
actually
got
one
isn't
gonna
all
I
believe
absolutely
there's
no
such
thing
as
an
old
young
there's
only
all
across
he
said
that
you
guys
are
pretty
good
one
I
yes
the
only
maybe
the
reasons
yeah
yeah
anything
that
we
can
get
over
online
gambling
chasing
and
then
of
course
there's
there's
not
a
lot
of
the
eighty
eight
thousand
the
second
and
third
generation
somebody
called
me
and
then
there's
a
new
group
called
children
of
adult
children
of
alcoholics
this
call
what
the
thing
about
it
is
there
is
any
anything
there
is
a
there's
a
there's
a
warm
calm
with
Hungary
a
lot
of
that
our
approach
that
works
in
a
cruise
down
much
of
the
meeting
and
I
didn't
have
the
desire
to
remain
or
something
that
had
been
running
game
and
compelling
me
all
of
my
early
life
I
do
believe
that
your
interaction
in
a
there's
one
other
thing
now
I
have
to
come
home
and
play
I
can
find
something
here
in
explaining
you
work
with
your
child
in
that
all
this
stuff
and
it
is
gone
and
I'm
going
to
mention
that
not
when
I
have
a
problem
there
was
none
in
this
power
mentioned
as
a
possibility
public
power
coming
into
my
life
when
I
am
explaining
and
offset
and
not
doing
well
it
comes
from
and
my
wife
is
to
simply
say
foreigners
recognize
that
so
I
don't
want
my
partners
about
coming
off
here
tonight
and
I'm
missing
some
winners
were
done
absolutely
work
and
that
is
what
I
call
my
doctor
I
can
be
I
can
be
offset
and
turning
and
****
and
banging
my
head
around
and
never
say
that
some
lenders
prior
whenever
there's
a
need
for
some
humility
and
he
will
come
to
me
so
I
can
honestly
say
including
my
hotline
that
I
really
do
thank
god
for
a
whole
month
but
mostly
I
would
like
to
thank
all
the
loans
are
getting
the
mine
thank
you
very
if
you're
wondering
what
I'm
doing
I'm
playing
right
now
while
Indian
I
want
to
thank
you
for
those
nights
would
now
I
wish
my
wife
was
here
I
met
Kathleen
a
about
twenty
four
years
ago
something
to
be
said
about
being
compiled
by
default
but
I
like
it
my
oldest
daughter
she's
in
the
program
thanksgiving
dinner
he
came
over
I'm
telling
my
wife
that
she
had
tickets
to
see
and
Roger
and
Holly
Barton
god
I
haven't
started
I
told
my
wife
she
has
the
story
you're
in
me
again
Roger
that's
why
I'm
alone
tonight
but
I'm
going
to
call
Giannini
in
and
I
like
that
I
I've
heard
a
lot
if
we
can
I
think
that
that
among
other
things
that
I
learned
through
in
your
life
in
the
program
it's
to
be
able
to
see
myself
in
other
people's
to
identify
and
to
understand
hi
guys
yeah
my
friend
Jack
Friday
night
last
night
I
don't
know
if
you'll
identify
the
stories
told
about
I
think
I
think
you
understood
rather
than
identifying
the
story
told
about
that
eighty
five
year
old
man
I
don't
think
you're
old
enough
to
identify
with
that
not
only
a
little
understood
it
but
I
think
you
like
that
I
know
I
didn't
do
I
I
have
a
friend
at
home
is
the
type
of
policy
is
everything
and
the
other
night
he
was
talking
about
the
first
sex
experience
he
said
he
liked
it
he
was
at
home
anyone
alone
I
don't
know
if
you
identify
with
that
I
think
it's
it's
a
wonderful
thing
to
be
able
to
look
back
in
your
own
life
and
and
to
realize
how
grateful
you
are
somebody
mentioned
about
time
some
of
us
don't
like
in
a
sometimes
reality
and
now
the
god
the
way
of
telling
us
that
not
everything
happens
all
at
once
what
time
is
the
beautiful
thing
because
the
name
you
don't
learn
I'm
your
friend
to
get
some
insight
about
yourself
some
understanding
about
the
illness
of
alcoholism
you
learn
something
about
prayer
and
I
have
been
fortunate
enough
that
I
had
been
given
time
you
may
learn
all
these
things
and
when
I
look
back
tonight
I
realize
that
I'm
a
lucky
person
I
have
a
lot
to
be
grateful
for
there
have
been
some
special
people
in
my
life
I
know
that
took
time
to
help
me
those
days
when
I
really
needed
help
and
I
didn't
know
how
to
receive
it
one
of
them
like
a
lawyer
I
met
him
back
in
nineteen
fifty
seven
I
would
imagine
that
night
because
I
live
in
the
future
offers
almost
eight
years
I
would
go
over
and
bomb
came
to
see
me
in
the
mission
and
now
he
asked
me
if
I
wanted
to
go
to
an
a
a
meeting
and
I
didn't
know
what
N.
a
meeting
live
and
I
didn't
want
to
go
any
place
because
I
like
to
drive
and
now
I
needed
a
hair
cut
and
I
have
always
suffered
from
one
story
and
that
usually
that
took
me
about
six
weeks
before
my
face
with
clear
up
and
when
I'm
in
this
condition
I
don't
want
anyone
you
know
they
have
a
copy
of
the
bill
not
and
they're
free
the
light
that
will
go
I
walked
into
that
dental
group
central
group
this
meeting
like
this
one
next
people
from
different
walks
of
life
the
man
who
stood
at
the
door
that
night
was
a
lawyer
and
that's
what
he
did
every
Friday
night
at
the
door
and
he
would
shake
hands
to
everyone
who
came
to
that
meeting
and
he
would
do
the
same
thing
after
the
meeting
it
will
take
time
everyone
was
leaving
and
as
I
was
walking
through
the
doors
of
the
hearing
a
new
grab
my
hand
and
he
says
to
me
that
he
was
glad
to
see
me
and
I
wasn't
black
the
team
at
all
but
the
only
thing
I
could
see
life
the
way
I
look
the
way
I
felt
and
I
found
them
might
be
carrying
a
let
the
lady
Dutch
and
I
never
even
knew
drugs
drank
the
one
side
if
it
doesn't
that
I
never
met
one
of
them
before
I'm
at
one
forty
three
times
and
he
never
once
asked
me
to
try
to
identify
and
he
got
my
mind
all
screwed
up
and
all
I
wanna
do
is
get
my
donut
get
the
hell
out
of
there
but
there
with
his
lawyer
and
that's
what
I'm
grateful
for
I'm
grateful
that
he
understood
because
when
you're
a
bomb
when
you
have
a
long
hair
and
long
story
you
know
you
don't
look
too
well
not
too
many